#I love talking abt my version of scourge sm.. yall dont get it..

[jennrypan]

Obsessed with Scourge so use to thinking he's unlovable and incapable of loving that when he falls for someone it's a staggering and it scares him cuz he doesn't know HOW to be anything but violent and flirty, he's not romantic, he's not gentle- his tone is harsh all the time and he never smiles unless it's sarcastic, he doesn't laugh unless it's at other people and he's mocking them, his eyes..always focused, pupils tiny- he doesn't trust anyone.

Until it comes to his mother and his uncle (Barbara/Bernadette and Charlie.) No matter how much he thinks they hate him, he still softens around them, still wishes to make sure they're safe and okay- he fears disappointing them so much he was okay with destroying the universes, destroying himself so they won't have the image of him in their minds. No matter what..he loved his mother so much that when he stumbled across another version of her, he dropped his guard..let her touch him, even almost second guessed his plan cuz she looked so sad. Loved her so much that even while he was Super, even when Chaos had his mind ready to free him..he still stepped back cuz she was there, he still let her lower his guard for Sonic to beat him. (And he doesn't regret not striking her.) And when it comes to Charlie, Charlie who got arrested trying to protect him and Scourge still blames himself for, Charlie, the guy who bought him a monitor lizard egg from fuck knows where but now that reptile is the most important thing in the world to him just cuz his uncle got him (And now he has Iggy and Iggys basically his son)

Until it comes to Manic, who knew he wasn't Sonic the minute he spoke but still decided to hang around him. Manic who's chill and is considered his first actual friend, even in a short moment of knowing him, Scourge didn't mind being around him..so much so that he even warned Manic about his plan..giving him an option to join him (Ofc Manic refused) and even after that..Scourge didn't attack him, even when he was defeated..he didn't blame Manic for it. Until it comes to Amy (or fem!Shadow..but I don't think yall are ready for those brainworms ...it's really specific to me and a friend honestly 💀) someone who fought with him during his villain arc, it started slow..he didn't like her cuz she was one of Sonics 'groupies' didn't like her cuz she was too nice, he thought flirting with her would be funny..get a little joke out of it, then she punched him. She was never afraid of him, never put off by his aggression, cuz she was a fighter, she didn't mind his comments cuz she'd fire her own right back..talking to her became a highlight..insults turned to banter, banter turned into asking about each other's day, finding things that remind him of her..it was slow and sudden, his posture was relaxed around her, his voice smoother..teasing without the usual ice in it- playful.

Scourge thinks he's incapable of love, thinks it doesn't work for him..but it does. He has thick walls, they're hard to knock down..or he likes to think they are, but honestly he's not that hard to read- he wants to be loved, wants to know he's not evil..he's not like his adoptive father or his birth mother, so when someone speaks to him as if they aren't afraid of his response, as if they're okay with being around him..listening to him, he softens. When they don't force anything out of him..when they just SEE him..his guard drops, he calms down.

(The reason Fiona couldn't be his safe space was because she loved him at his worst, they suffer from abandonment issues and their relationship was only based on destruction. She loved the idea of being powerful with him, the thought that they were both so fucked up he couldn't leave, and on some level that's true. They were messed up together but that didn't help them cuz..he scared her, his anger..his hate it got intense and like everyone else, she treated him like a rabid animal that needed to be appeased which..fair 💀) she loved him on the surface level in a dependant way cuz he was so similar to her, she attached herself to him but on some level she knew he didn't love her back.