#I love projecting myself onto fictional characters 🥰

[wraithee]

Imagine if Aziraphale runs heaven like the bookshop and he’s just hanging out doing absolutely nothing but shuffling papers around to look busy while keeping inconsistent office hours and tracking Crowley back on earth all day long and stress snacking, and that’s what ends up ruining heavens plans for the second coming.

[millenialfanfictionaddiction]

Hey mom how have you been 💞❤️

I haven't been feeling well lately. Not physically just emotionally. You might not know this but I am on the chubbier side of life and sometimes it's really difficult to not have hateful thoughts about myself. All of my friends have been really supportive but sometimes just feel down and I have been having those days.

I just don't feel good about myself lately. Nowadays I don't get that many people committing about my weight or my body and before it was lot but now most are pretty understanding. The thing is my weight gain is purely something that is hormonal. it has nothing to do with any physical intake of any kind. it's just all the hormonal disorder.

I have strangers coming up to me giving me they don't know why it has happened and it usually doesn't bother me. But from the past few days I am just been really low.

I tried to think How fictional characters who are also my coping mechanism would react react normally it works but this time it's really bad.

Sorry for the rant but I really want to get it off my chest.

Love you ❤️💜,

Japan manager anon

You sweet angel 🥺 first off, I totally empathize with this. I've always been bigger. Legit I've been 6'1" and chubby since I was 13. I hit Puerto at like 10 and then stopped growing at 13. It was so frustrating and difficult because I felt like I was so alone and I'm honestly still working on accepting myself. It's not something that just happens overnight and taking your time to do so is really important!

Just know this, people who often say something rude or project their feelings onto others have miserable lives themselves. There is absolutely no need to point out someone else physical appearance to them. Like do they really think we don't see it daily? It blows my mind how rude people can be about someone else's life and I hate that you had/have to deal with that.

Unfortunately, as much as it sucks sometimes fictional characters can't help 😔 as much as I know Bokuto WORSHIPS use chubby people, he's not here to give us the hug and support we need.

But what Bokuto can't fill, let me just say that my Tumblr is always a safe space to vent, ask for help, advice or even if you need any reassurance! You are a beautiful person and you deserve respect and admiration just like anyone else does! Just know that you aren't alone in feeling insecure, it's something alot of us deal with. Sometimes those intrusive thoughts really get to us and honestly, our personal thoughts about ourselves often are the most harmful because it's hard to convince yourself of things.

I literally went thought a stage where I would stand in front of the mirror and tell myself "Tiffany you are deserving of love. You are beautiful and amazing! You can do anything you set your mind too and your worth is not defined by someone's opinion of you." Sometimes those little reminders help, just repeating them throughout the day, or heck even crying them out in the shower. Let me tell you, many of times have I cried in the shower while telling myself I'm deserving of good things.

So however you feel like expressing your feelings, go for it! Cry, scream, laugh, talk to someone, write literally there is no wrong way to feel your own emotions.

I apologize this got so long 😅 I'm hoping I made a point in all that rambling ❤️

Also I'm adding this to potential help cheer you up 🥰

Also can I add 👀 if Team Japan saw you being down on yourself, Aran would literally pick you up (because he's strong 🥵) haul you into the locker room and you'd be like 🧍‍♀️ 😳

And Aran would be like 👉🏻 look how beautiful you are YN! Right now! Say it!

You 👉🏻 🧍‍♀️

Aran 👉🏻 don't make me get Iwaizumi...

You 👉🏻 🧍‍♀️ 👀 I mean you COULD get Iwaizumi...

Aran 👉🏻😐😑 YN

You 👉🏻🙄 I'm beautiful...

Aran 👉🏻 not good enough...

By now Hinata and Bokuto have totally joined you because like 🙌🏻 locker room 🙌🏻 party

Hinata and Bokuto 👉🏻 YN you are so pretty 🥺

Aran 👉🏻 YN...

You 👉🏻 I'm gorgeous, I'm beautiful and I'm perfect just the way I am!

Bokuto and Hinata (featuring Akaashi as Aran 🥰) 👇🏻

Let me be, I'm dealing with very little gif wise 😫

[thrill-seeker-vn]

Hi Aala! I'm really curious as to how you discovered if and cme up with this amazing story? Did something inspire the characters and the setting like fiction or life experience? I absolutely adore this story. It's so good. 😩💖

I'm also curious as to what stories/genres you would love to see more in if. I always ask this question on my favourite if blogs. 🥰💖

Hello Anon!!! I'm so glad i'm one of your favorite if blogs, that makes me so happy!!

How I discovered if... hm... I was actually browsing itch looking for different games. In my own coding experience, I've just made silly little games, nothing with a huge plotline or anything like that. I was kind of looking for inspiration.

One thing lead to another, and eventually as I was going through the filters I found interactive fiction. I've always liked writing and reading, so I was absolutely blown away by it. I think the first IF I read was Ascendance by @ascendance-if, and oh my god, I think that it really is one of the best things I've ever read!!

After reading it, I knew I had to check out more, and I think Scout by @anya-dev was also a huge inspiration for me. A Tale of Crowns by @ataleofcrowns was probably the IF that inspired me to start writing an IF myself. As a muslim and southern asian, seeing someone who is also from a southern asian background writing was just a huge boost for me :-) Representation definitely matters!!

For your next question, of what inspired the story: it might sound silly, but I actually dreamed it. I quote unquote 'played' through it myself. When I woke up from it, it had me in such a fit of inspiration that I wrote it onto paper, and it kind of sat there for a while. I submitted that draft for a school project, and my teacher really liked it, which is why I never had the heart to delete it-- and I'm really glad I didn't! Once I got into IF, I restructured it to fit the format.

I do lucid dream, so I thought that would be kind of an interesting way to structure it. Not like a rpg where you just play through it, but where you get to choose what you want to do!

The ROs are a combination of fiction and real life experience. N and Hannie are both based on me, borrowing various traits of my personality. I also took inspiration from my friends, in terms of personality. I wanted to draw from the people I knew best, because I want my characters to be realistic. I find in a lot of media, some characters are just given a personality trait and no flaws. Most people have multiple personality traits and MANY flaws, and I wanted my characters to be as close to real life as possible.

The setting is in Canada, which is where I live, haha. I didn't want it to be somewhere super far away, because this is probably the place I know best! And as a story based around solving a crime, I know Canadian laws best, IUSFHISFDIU

What stories and genres I would like to see... call me a silly little goofy moron but I LOVE fantasy school games. I just adore it. To be honest, I just love fantasy in general. And I would love to see more fantasy games with cultural themes, or going off of existing myths. I also love sci-fi, and I haven't seen that much of it in IF.

Hope this answered pretty well!! I hope you're having an excellent day!!