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18+ JISUNG βCUDDLE SESSIONSβ
[male reader. mentions of readers genitalia]
Minors dni. Im serious. If explicit content makes you uncomfortable plz do not read.
Jisung as a top dom/ during "cuddle sessions"
He loves to pull you from your waist and nuzzle his face in between your neck and shoulder. While he just toys with you. Touching you all over.
"Jiβsung..." you cried out.
"Your body, so numb from the feeling of his hands trailing to your already hard and sensitive nipples."
He loves the sight of the lewd faces you make, while he flicks and twists your nubs. It makes his ego loom crazy.
"You know, if only you listened to me...you wouldn't have to be in the position you are right now, but, because you're such a brat, you deserve this...no begging out of it now." You heard the smirk that was painted on his lips, upon his words.
This just made everything much more intense.
"You wanted more...You desperately grinded yourself against Jisung, but just as you made your sudden movements, he roughly gripped your hips."
Whenever Jisung does something like this, he's always so eager to just fuck you over. Break you.
That's always his ultimate goal until you can't form coherent sentences and just cling to him, crying into his ears and whining.
"Y/nβoh you already came... I didn't even touch youβheh, and I didn't permit you to cum yet. You are a Slut."
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This sudden cuddle session, if you even call it that, soon turned into him, pressing your hand into the pillow while he pounds into your red swollen hole.
"fuck, y/n, you're so tightβ fuck you're clenching, s-so hard.."
The feeling building up in the pit of your stomach was all too familiar, your legs couldn't keep up with the fast pace and the weight of your body. You were falling limp under Jisung. You were exhausted after cumming for the third time.
"jisung...wβwait! I'm gonna cum againβslower! Ugh!" "Keep up baby, I'm not done with you yet."
Jisung is a top sub/ during "cuddle sessions"
You were relaxed when you had the other on top of you. It was always the comfort of him being so close to you, that made you feel secure.
It was an intimate and emotional moment between the two, always. No words had to be said, just the feeling of being together brought the feeling of security and contentment.
But those moments never stopped Jisung with the feelings he felt..couldn't keep, those feelings in...
It was always a certain type of pleasure every time you guys had such an intimate moment together. And the feeling of wanting to continue that pleasure was unbearable. Every chance he got, he took it.
"Y/n, please I need you right now.."
Jisung always looked at you with such a desperate expression, eyebrows furrowed and flushed cheeks. Sweat beads dripped from his eyebrows, chest heaved up and down, almost as if he was out of breath.
A visible tent in the crotch area of his pants.
"Please? Can I..?" Jisung hovered over you with a desperate look. You couldn't back down. This led to Jisung grinding on you, whilst he moaned your name.
Moving your hands up his body, under his shirt, hold his lower back to help guide him.
"Baby, come on take these off." You groaned out. you'd admit, you were always desperately wanting him, one way or another.
His dick was covered in his slickness, and the pre cum coated his fiery red tip. "Hereβhelp me take mine off."
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"Ahhh y-y/n! Fuck, rigβthere!" Jisung straddles your lap while you thrust upwards. You had your hands placed on his waist, helping him hold his position while he fucked himself on you.
You felt him trembling, you knew how close he was. Speeding up the thrusting, all you could think about was the pleasure you get out of overstimulating Jisung. And how satisfying it was, especially after jerking him off while fucking him.
"AH! yβy/n, nu-no! Too much.." he could barely form clear sentences, his eyes shut, bottom lip caught in between his teeth, subsiding his moans.
Just in a mere moment, his load shoots out, landing on your chest.
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"Sungie, did I go too hard?" Jisung disagreed with a small "nuh uh".
You love the sight of his sleepy face after sex, it was the cutest thing ever. And all you could do at that moment was be as gentle as possible with him.
#park jisung#jisung nct#nct x male reader#park jisung x male reader#nct dream x male reader#kpop imagines#kpop bg#kpop smut#kpop x male reader#kpop x reader#hugjakeenct#hugjakee: imagines#hugjakeerq#hugjakee: mr#nct jisung#nctdream#I love jisung π£π£
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im so obsessed with the thought of leaky hannie ππ
bby boy leaks so much youβd think heβs cumming if u didnt know him any better
his actual cumshots are insane, shooting all the way up to his chin (sometimes it can even land in his mouth if itβs really intense) and continuously spurting for several minutes until he drains himself completely π΅βπ«π once you think heβs done cumming after five minutes, heβs there to prove you wrong when he spurts out another load! suuuper fucked out when he cums, eyes glazed over and tongue lolling out with drool everywhere, heβs your cute, dumb puppyπ¦΄π and i can imagine him still cumming so much even after multiple orgasms! heβs definitely a massive squirter too ππ by the end of it, sheets are definitely gonna have to get changed because of how messy he is!!βsquirting, cumming, drooling, crying <3
he definitely ruins several of his boxers and panties from how much he leaks, and sometimes even his underwear canβt contain it all and it starts dripping down his legs π heβs soooo embarrassed by it, cute squishy cheeks blazing up a storm π£β€οΈβπ₯ he gets especially leaky when heβs tied up!! the feeling of helplessness turns him on an embarrassing amount ππ and if you want him even leakier (if thatβs even possible) then blindfold him and gag him up when heβs bound (gets even leaker if you add some degradation/praise/teasing on top with all of that)! that way, heβs even more helpless and the only thing he can do is feel π he canβt see it, but heβs leaking like a faucetβhe can feel it drip down his entire length, down his embarrassingly sensitive balls, down his cute puckered hole, and then finally soaking up the bedsheets underneath him! heβs leaking so much, you donβt even need any lube! i guess that saves you two some extra money π₯°β€οΈ maybe treat him with some new toys with that spare money ππ
OHHH BROTHER YEAH. ngl this type of thought is what inspired that jisung fic i wtote FKJQOSDKLFGNG i love HIM
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Omg can you maybe do like visiting jisung in the practice room for a quickie while the others are out #dontgetcaught!!β β’
Your ok with it could you plz plz plzzz do another one with subby jisung? β’
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maybe some dom! han jisung >_<?
olalalala yess please ! i was just waiting for an ask about him because he's my bias ! thank you anonie for giving me an excuse to rant about my favourite boyΒ π€ and as much as i love to write him as a sub, him as a dom has me weak in the kneesΒ π£
DOM!HAN JISUNG who is always so passionate, never thinking twice before doing something because you are the most divine thing he has ever tasted.
han loves to make out messily with you while you grind down on his hard cock, still fully clothed. he lets you play with his hair and tug on it, but if you take too much liberties, he holds your hand behind your back with one of his, the other guiding your hips, and not letting you stop until both of you cum, relishing in the way you're moaning and begging him to fuck you for real.
"you'll have to work some more to get my cock baby."
when he asks you to sit on his face, you think that it would be your chance to take control a little, but you were not prepared for the way he grips your thighs. han forces you to go at the pace HE wants you to go, helping you ride his tongue and making you cum at least two times. at least because he can never get enough of your sweet cunt, and he could be on his knees for you every hour of every day if you asked him.
"come on, sit on me, baby... gonna make you feel so good, i promise."
han would love quickies so much, he's always down to sneak into a random room before his show and fuck you because you're his good luck charm. and even if he knows that his members are at the dorms, he would not be ashamed to have his way with you and make you scream his name. it strokes his ego so much that even if you're embarassed about it, you can't stop moaning because he's fucking you too good.
"no, no, no ! you're not cumming if you don't show me your cute little sounds, okay ?"
before you, he never thought about being a dom, like really taking control over every inch of someone's body. but the fact that he could really pin you against a wall and fuck you dumb without you being able to do anything else than pleading for more was appealing. that's how he developed his strength kink. han adores having you worship his body but restricting your moves, leaving you squirming on his bed and begging for him felt even better.
"don't try, baby, i won't let you go until you're begging me."
and han also always wants to fuck you in doggy, granting him a better access to slap your ass, watching your cheeks redden more and more each time he lands his hand on your skin. and he does not care how many times you cum, only chasing his own release and not stopping until he's satisfied. the aftercare would be so sweet though, kissing your body all over and letting you know how good you did for him.
"fuck, yes... you're so tight baby, i love your pussy so much..."
#dom!han hits different really#eli answering your questions#stray kids hard hours#stray kids hard thoughts#skz hard hours#han jisung hard hours#han jisung hard thoughts
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shining star !
"shining star come into view.."
synopsis: life, in all of it's forms, is beautiful. life created is beautiful, life unknown is beautiful, the calloused hands which carve out the structures of life are beautiful. just don't form an attachment, it'll be harder in the long run.
pairing: nct dream 00z x male!reader
genre: science fiction, near future au, robots and androids, love rectangle??, vaguely space au, fluff, angst, romance but also no one gets the guy at the end, 00z centric pov, sorry no reader pov π£, relationship studies, ambiguous/open ending, loose frankenstein references, featuring guest star android park jisung
warnings: swearing, space talk, robot talk, fighting, an ending that seems sad, mean sexy boss doyoung, the ethics of getting dangerously emotionally attached to your own invention, sooo much star talk, beware android jisung
word count: 16.2k
notes: me after not posting for ten days straight then just coming out with this π anyway!! experimental ass work wouldve done numbers on ao3 (kidding..), feel like for a work with four love interests the romance seems pretty lacking ππ i missed jeno.. and haechan and jaemin and renjun and im experiencing a wave of sadness bc nct dream were in my city and i didnt even get to see them π£ also ANDROID JISUNG!! i like writing new things, and this was a challenge because unlike most of my other long works i started writing this before i had the full picture in mind, also i wrote all of this in the span of nine days so um, im not posting anytime soon again π my apologies for fluctuating with my consistency.. also the ending is open!! so you can imagine any outcome you want, good or bad, enough of my rambling now, just enjoy my mess!!
I. Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β β beware: for i am fearless, and therefore powerful β.
the effervescent expanse of space is an enigma, a mystery humans often poke and prod at to draw needless conclusions from. being stranded in a galaxy on a floating rock yet having little to no idea of what the unknown holds is enough to capture fear, being completely oblivious to the true nature of the universe youβre stuck in the middle of is enough to arise panic.
astronauts are brave, yes, but space is much too vast for humans, much too vast for them to survive a day outside of their oxygen filled utopia. rovers usually are feasible, but theyβre now outdated, hunks of metal that more than often break down, and if the familiar knitting of doyoungβs eyebrows is any indication, it all frustrates him to an extreme extent.
still, it doesnβt explain why they suddenly have a titular new member joining their team.
jeno has become accustomed to all the nooks and crannies of the laboratory. the hallway splits into two turns reminiscent of a fork in the road, and itβs always the right turn that leads him to his destination, the left turn would put him straight in the arms of donghyuck, who isnβt exactly having the best time reacting to such news, so heβs making sure to keep a safe distance.
maybe catching a glimpse of your face will aid in the erasure of donghyuckβs distinct glare burned into jenoβs mind.
βy/n?β
itβs the usual: a mess. the mechanics of it all is your favorite part. science is beautiful, yes, but your one true love seems to always be robotics. the art of creation using that of metal is.. strange, some would say itβs off putting, nerdy, many more synonyms that would usually make jeno roll his eyes. the barrage of scattered aluminum and steels is as mundane to his eyes as it is mundane to the touch of your fingertips.
but you arenβt exactly visible from the first step into the room.
thereβs a muffled sound of reply, a hum? groan? something that jeno canβt decipher with the heaping piles of bioplastics making their home on the ground.
heβs cut off from the second calling of your name when you rise from a pile of metals tucked in the corner, under the window and just barely evading the light attempting to seep through the curtains. you offer him your usual smile, snickering as you remove the clear glasses perched atop your nose and place them on your head. βjeno! do you need something?β
jeno can barely help the upturn of his lips, his hands unconsciously coming to clasp together. βiβm assuming doyoung told you.. right?β
you blink, displayed obliviousness betraying the clear insight behind your eyes. you run your sweaty palms over your pants, the id pinned to your chest seemingly crumpled from your former activities on the floor. βabout the new addition to the team?β
his nod is paired with silence.
βand about this new.. project?β
you hum at the sight of his second nod, tucking a strand behind your ear as you then begin whistling into the air. jeno busies himself by zeroing in on the many blueprints you leave rolled open on the nearby tables, robots, robot parts, androids, the usual..
jenoβs eyes flit over to you again, a small kick to all the elastomers littering the floor, he hopes you have no objection to that one. βguess i can see where heβs coming fromοΏ½οΏ½ your hands place themselves onto your hips, the sound of you kissing your teeth meeting jenoβs ears. βgives me more time for this new prototype thoughβ the sense of your euphoria in your smile canβt seem to be replicated elsewhere, jeno sees your passion for all of this as meritorious, a true sign to how youβll never change.
βand the new.. member?β
your eyebrows raise, using an eye roll as your response. βwell you donβt seem too keenβ.
you possess the striking ability to read lee jeno like an open book. you begin rolling up the many blueprints as a silent way of organization, your reverberating hum being the tune of βshining starβ by earth wind and fire. jeno scratches behind his ear, a frown tugging at his lips. βguess i just donβt understand what we need someone new forβ.
βthey just assume i need someone else attached to robotics to make it all go smootherβ.
oh, jeno didnβt expect for you to know that one.
βthis has always been a staple of our team, it was just you and me for a year, then hyuck joined, then two years later injunie joined us, itβs around that time where someone else is being added simply for the sake of moving us alongβ.
βitβs been almost three years, do we really need an asset when you already do such great a job yourself?β
you suck your teeth, snapping your fingers in his direction as jeno obeys your silent order by handing over yet another blueprint, itβs the only one with a finished sketch, but jeno canβt make out the drawn out parts for long, as you roll it up and place it with your other ones. βask doyoung, he clearly has an answer for that oneβ.
the room isnβt exactly dimly lit, but the lack of light permeating through the satin curtains donβt do your side profile justice. jenoβs eyes drift their naturally, you again sigh as your head leans downward, irises dilating at the sight of your very own work. βdid he tell you whose joining?β your tongue prods at the side of your cheek, fist knocking on the wood of the table before you.
βan engineer formerly assigned to siberiesβ.
a furrowing of eyebrows. βthat far? why would there need to be such a drastic move?β
βdoyoung does what doyoung doesβ.
your tooth sinks into your bottom lip, just barely drawing blood, but then, a smile, your usual, soft smile. βanyway, you know how i feel about additions, as long as they care, i donβt mindβ.
βyouβre too good with peopleβ.
your responding laughter is laced with elation.
with your arms folded over your chest, jeno takes yet another few minutes to observe the room you often spend hours upon hours stuck in. the cognizant urge to zero in on that old picture of you two is always high, you uttered to jeno that you keep it in your room as an βencouraging reminderβ, him being one of your first real friends and all.
there are other photos too, but jeno pays little to no regard for the stupid photographs of donghyuck which litter the shelves. the photos of you and jeno expand a wide array of your collection, but the one from before you two ended up becoming slaves to this curse of a laboratory is one he cherishes dearly.
it was always just you two before all of this.
βwhy do you think space?β
jeno ceases his staring, instead intrigued by your sudden inquiry. βyouβll have to specify what you meanβ.
you opt to sucking your teeth, a display of your bubbling irritation. βspace is so.. well, empty, itβs a void that can barely be explored planet by planet, weβll never be able to touch the sun, never able to go ourselves for another few decades seeing the pace science is going, we can barely even get a piece of metal near our first planet, so, why exactly space?β
science is about inquiry, science is built on the basis of human curiosity and nature no one can understand, but they long to pick apart. you then tilt your head, face scrunching at your own words. βi guess.. you knowβ doyoung, i have something he wants, something he deems valuable, i canβt exactly understand why space is so relevant, i donβt get the purpose of pouring my life into an android for something i wonβt ever experienceβ.
and maybe you find it amusing, your silent snickers make sure to spell that out. the question is one thatβs drawn out, less of a question and more of a thought vomit, something jeno didnβt exactly expect from a conversation such as this.
jeno stares upward, and for an unknown reason, he longs to feel your fingers intertwined with his. βweβll never really know enough, but that can be said for anything, science is about questioning the unknown, research for the benefit of those coming after usβ.
βhuman inquiryβ.
βhmβ.
you seem interested, picking off a piece of cotton sticking to the side of his sweatshirt. βsmart assβ you joke, a small snort leaving your lips at the blow.
and really, jeno just smiles, youβre too sweet to genuinely deliver an insult.
II. Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β β he was soon borne away by the waves and lost in darkness and distance β.
the team is introduced to the new βassetβ (jeno loathes such a word) the following monday. a popular robotics engineer by the name of na jaemin, no one is aware of anything other than the fact that he is respected, his name rolls off the tongue well, and the pink hair is much too bright in comparison to the stillness of his expression.
the βteamβ simply began as a mere duo, which then became a blossoming trio, when then became a.. group. thereβs only one member who doesnβt hold the anxiety permeating off of everyone else, and that is you.
fearless, thatβs what you are. to the extent that six feet tall mechanical contraptions canβt even earn the hinder of a muscle. maybe being locked in a room as a way of work does that to a man, jeno will have to look into if that is a strategy for toughening up or something.
jeno immediately observes the obvious, jaeminβs hands are dry and calloused. when he reaches for handshakes, donghyuck is the only one who doesnβt make a move, something of a cower in his expression. itβs a bit of a surprise, bright, loud mouthed, brash donghyuck, cowering? jeno finds such a prospect astonishing.
jaeminβs grin is somewhat scary for a first time interaction, his teeth bare in a motion thatβs simply.. performed. βitβs nice to meet you, all of you, iβve heard good things about this.. teamβ.
you donβt reply with a smile, but thereβs satisfaction behind your eyes. βyou were not who i was expectingβ.
βsame hereβ renjun speaks jenoβs thoughts out into the world, his smile strained.
jaeminβs smile is again unsavory, but jeno keeps his composure so as to not let such a comment slip. for a reason unknown, you show a smile. βwell then, letβs work hard together to make sure we succeedβ.
donghyuck now physically cowers behind jeno, a grimace perfectly placed on his features as he readies up a sneer. βi donβt like this guyβ he says, as if jaemin isnβt standing less than a foot away from him.
βi can hear youβ jaeminβs smile twitches, not yet fully faltering.
βgoodβ donghyuck replies, his arm coming to link with your own. he raises a suspicious eyebrow his way, keeping himself close by, as if youβd square up if jaemin decided to make any sort of threat towards him.
you reach behind yourself to squeeze donghyuckβs hand, clear serenity in your expression. βbe niceβ you whisper. βweβll be seeing more of each other from now on either wayβ.
donghyuck grimaces, eyeing jaemin with distrust he isnβt keen on taking back. βhopefully not..β he mutters, eyes casting to the right.
jaemin simply shares another formidable smile.
both you and jaemin are assigned to the northernmost lab, sniΕ. a cold, isolated world thatβs nothing reminiscent of the warmth your regular office holds, jenoβs face twitches at the name alone, how one could even survive in such an atmosphere is beyond him.
you always do the robot stuff, and since jaemin is in the same field, it means the time spent between you two shall grow, just until you create a working prototype.
na jaemin seems to be just as intrigued by you as everyone is when they first meet you, jeno guesses having to work with someone in a below freezing room brings two close.
βi apologize for donghyuckβs.. attitude, he takes a while to warm up toβ.
βseems he doesnβt want to warm up at allβ.
your eyes remain trained on the screen, jaemin takes note of how your irises seem to void out, nothing but pure, untouched engrossment present in the darkness. you then put on the pair of glasses typically kept at your side, cracking your knuckles. βdonβt worry, heβs not that badβ.
βbut heβs still somewhat bad?β
jaemin is somewhat drawn to it, you in particular. this is about a partnership after all, meaning you two have to sink into the feeling of knowing each other. the flurry of robot parts earn a grunt, hands now placing themselves onto his hips. βnot that bad, he can just have.. an attitude problemβ.
the other offers a chuckle in response to your words, an empty blueprint being rolled open onto the metal table. jaemin cops a glance, lips doing an upturn at the focus in your expression. βletβs get this done, yeah?β
a hum is all youβre offered, but itβs not that jaemin doesnβt care, itβs just that he doesnβt want to laser focus on that pretty smile of yours.
III. Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β β what can stop the determined heart and resolved will of man? β.
when you get deep into work, you slip into a certain state of mind. maybe one day youβll be responsible for androids overthrowing the human race and taking over the world, donghyuck thinks you probably foresee such an outcome with how much you put into pieces of metals.
lee donghyuck first met you in the same manner as jeno, in the crossroads of the laboratoryβs mishmash of a hallway.
robot presence at an all time high, donghyuck remembers visibly jumping backward once coming into contact with you, now unable to tear his eyes away from the sight. he blinked, then his eyes narrowed against his will, a clear display of his judgment. βwoahβ.
exactly, his first words to you were βwoahβ, an exhibit of his surprise, definitely not his last one when it would come to you. he supposes that the whole unpredictability ruse is how you live your life, maybe jeno isnβt all that crazy.
you blinked in a silent reply, then, you laughed into your usual pretty smile as a third hand rose from behind your back. βhello to you tooβ.
βanother hand?β
the intrigue was genuine, a simple judgment still there, but the inquiries were outweighing it all, as he tilted his head as his reply to your own. your nod was, in the strangest way possible, comforting. βi need extra assistanceβ.
donghyuck immediately knew the next question; βyou created it yourself?β
βyep, have control of it and everythingβ.
he couldnβt even let a snarky lie slip in the moment. βthatβs very impressive, do you usually..?β
you sensed his upcoming query, because you again giggled. βyeah, robotics is my passionβ.
donghyuck hummed, somehow, the smile you brought was without irritation. βy/nβ.
βdonghyuck, itβs nice to meet youβ.
and really, it was.
doyoung is no longer the monster donghyuck thought he was way back when he was an intern, as he gets older, the other seems to have glares that soften. his scientific curiosity exceeded the earlier fear, though, because heβs been able to stay here for years even with the older looking as if he wants to wrap a hand around his neck and squeeze.
the first time donghyuck meets both you and jeno, he immediately observes the otherβs puppy like features. he found your relationship odd, considering you didnβt have to do anything magnificent yet lee jeno would stare with an enraptured gaze as if the individual moles on your face themselves solved world hunger and cured disease.
ah, so you two have that kind of relationship.
(βdonβt you think jeno looks like a samoyed?β he recalls uttering to you a week later, there was a gleam in your eye, and it was completely dedicated to the blueprints you had probably gazed upon millions of times before that moment.
your laughter came in a harmonious rhythm, and the sound was so pleasant that donghyuck stared plainly captivated for a mere moment. βat an angle, he kind of does look like a puppyβ your hand came to cover your mouth, despite donghyuck being the only person in your company.
donghyuck found a frown tugging at his lips, what are you hiding? donβt you know your laughter is pretty? he opted out of saying that out loud, anxious over something unknown. βsometimes he even acts like oneβ.
you clicked your tongue, playing with the collar of your shirt. βheβs simply clingyβ you replied, straightening your posture as you silently ask for a pen with the motioning of your fingers. when donghyuck hands it over, he relishes in the small moment that your fingers meet, the delicacy of your hands is a feeling he canβt ever shake off.
or maybe lee jeno is simply in love, isnβt that strange y/n?)
donghyuck eventually got acclimated to the aberration of the usual laboratory day. doyoung asks a lot of you, courtesy of your vast knowledge concerning everything robots. you seem to enjoy the proposition of working yourself to the ground, itβs as if youβre trying to meet a goal, see how long you can work before you completely pass out or get choked to death by one of your robot contraptions.
βyouβll die if you keep going like thisβ.
your response was a scrunch of your facial muscles, an action that made donghyuck assume youβd reply with some snappy rebuttal, thatβs what he always does after all. βdeath canβt catch up to me just yet, i wonβt allow for it toβ.
βnot sure itβll be glad with that proposal..β donghyuck muttered, but you simply let your eyes avert upward, distinguishing the planet models cascaded on the ceiling. itβs a staple of the laboratoryβs main room, a duplicate of our very own solar system, fit with the sun, and the eight titular planets we have become accustomed to (though donghyuck knows you donβt exactly agree with the prospect of pluto being demoted, βpoor guy, he probably feels left out..β; thatβs what you muttered about it, he finds it funny).
βwhen the time is right, iβll have control over how i want to goβ.
βweβll you canβt exactly determine the wavelength of destinyβ donghyuck responded, and you snickered, hand again coming up to hide your mouth.
βdonβt worry, something so stupid wonβt be what takes me out, i promise youβ.
you promised him, you promised him.
for a fourth interaction, donghyuck simply found you so.. beautiful. beautiful in a manner reminiscent of the many galaxies which hold worlds in them, tied with the stars, planets, comets, asteroids, all the celestial bodies donghyuck has dedicated so much of his life to studying.
the promise was signed by your pretty smile, signed by the shooting stars present in the night sky.
itβll be kept, after all, you arenβt one to break them, donghyuck knows that well enough.
IV. Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β β the world was to me a secret which i desired to devine β.
na jaemin isnβt exactly used to such a work ethic reminiscent of his own.
he works better alone, he usually always works alone. he originally got a part in this project because he thought he was the only engineer on this prototype duty, the only one specializing in actually creating this android, but then you came into the picture, and..
itβs safe to say that heβs steadily impressed.
the prototype has nothing of a face, itβs simply a standing piece of metals that donβt exactly allow for it to scrunch itβs face in the manner of a human being just yet. thereβs ink painted on jaeminβs shirt, just shy of his usually prim and clear id, but that isnβt his main focus currently.
itβ he opens his eyes for the first time, the eyelids fluttering open in the fashion replicating that of someone waking up in the morning. it stands rock still, the arms havenβt been programmed well enough yet.
your gaze burns through the pre-android, arms folded over your chest as you still in a method implicative of the robotic body before you. itβs pupils dilate, the irises completely black, not the familiar dark brown color of your eyes, simply pitch black. the sclera is a pure, blank white that is nothing of a humanβs, jaemin would know.
he glances at his side, your eyes dark and the circles under them even darker. he opens his mouth to speak out a query, but then the android starts;
his pupils dilate, widening to the extent only a humanβs pupil can, so lively so early in the process. again, the movements are unnatural, arms remaining pinned at his sides.
his mouth doesnβt curve upward, his eyes convey all there is to convey. good morning, it speaks, voice devoid of anything.. sensation, the only hint of one being behind the pupils which remained wide. i love you.
then, thereβs nothing more else to say, and the pre-done android winds up, shoulders slumping as it shuts back down, eyelids fluttering shut, pupils narrowing, all of the color draining from where they previously remained.
jaemin blinks, observing you pinch the bridge of your nose, your teeth kissing one another. βi keep forgetting we programmed that oneβ.
βthink he just does it as a natural instinct nowβ your arms drop at your sides, glasses being swept off your face and placed onto the nearby table. it is 11:38 pm, not morning, but he doesnβt seem to care.
βhe? so itβs a boy?β
you inquire as if youβre attending a gender reveal, something of an amusing look behind your own pupils. βfirst name idea i got was for a boy.. do you want a change?β
your hum isnβt intelligible enough for jaemin to decipher your inner most thoughts. βno, itβs cuteβ.
βwhat?β
βyour dedication to this projectβ.
in a manner that is completely unlike him, a tint of red spreads across jaeminβs cheeks, heat coiling over his face. you didnβt call him cute, why did that even fluster him? he opts to glancing away, he wouldnβt be able to take his eyes off you if he again decided to stare.
βis that it for tonight?β
βi want to add on a few tweaksβ you reply, you donβt mention anything pertaining to sleep.
βnot even a couple of hours?βΒ
you simply manage a fleeting glance, a tired smile present on your features. his hair is mussed, tousled from the little care he paid to it throughout the day, you reach over and twirl a strand between your fingers, a ministration that brings a specific feeling of solace which comes as a small surprise.
βthereβs no need to worry about me, you go get sleepβ.
thereβs the urge to rebel, to argue until his throat itches and it all hurts, but he keeps it all inside, mouth falling closed with a silent plop. βtomorrow same time?β
you hum in agreement.
jaeminβs face twitches, the freezing atmosphere of sniΕ now becoming more of a bother than before. your index finger again graces a hair strand, and his eyes flutter closed in a moment of relaxation.
he then chuckles at a sudden thought, glancing upward. βwhat do you think about the name mouth suction gangster?β
your laughter is irresistible, amusement high in the air despite the late night. βi think weβll lose our federal funding if you name him such a thingβ.
jaemin presents an exaggerated pout, and you ruffle his pink locks. βdo you have any name ideas?β
you lean closer, jaemin instinctively leaning backward as you continue to seem bewitched by his pink hair. βitβs a secretβ.
jaemin takes the opportunity to admire your features, each of your individual moles could be one of their own galaxies, holding a barrage of stars which simply amplify your beauty. βiβll find outβ.
βsure, good night jaeminβ.
jaemin isnβt sure why, but he hopes to see that smile around more. itβs simply.. well, the words wonβt come to mind just yet.
βgood night y/nβ.
when he finds out what the word is, itβll surely become one of his favorites.
V. Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β β there is something at work in my soul, which i do not understand β.
renjunβs name has a flurry of meanings despite it being a mere six letters, itβs a simple combination of two parts, yet those two parts hold the staple of how he managed things through his eyes for the latter part of his life.
the part βδ»β usually means βbenevolenceβ, itβs the meaning most people associate with the first three letters. the other two meanings are βidealβ and βexpressing respectβ, the adjective being βsensitiveβ. his parents reiterated to him many times that they had several arguments about the choosing, because naming your child whose future you canβt foresee the word kind is genuinely hilarious, but renjun would ensure that heβd grow up to be the kindest son they could ever have.
the second half βδΏβ is the typical name which means βhandsome; prettyβ or βof outstanding talentβ, the adjectives being βsmart, eminentβ, a laughable prospect really, renjun has always been said to get his looks from his mother, he inherited her soft features whilst he got the strong personality (and by proxy, voice) from his father.
he assumes his smarts must be a mix, renjun never thought science, really, he originally wanted to go to school for music, but as his mother said; βmusic doesnβt pay the billsβ.
he was never meant to end up here, not on his own accord anyway, and he was never supposed to be a part of this team in the first place.
but here he is.
donβt name it, he recalls doyoung saying, a booming voice being his go to. itβs only going to survive out in space for a couple of months, naming it will simply make it all harder in the long run.
but of course, youβve never been one to listen.
to love something is to give it a name, youβve always had attachments to your projects. heck, most of your caffeine addiction can be attributed to that talking coffee machine you created way back.
it makes enough sense to renjun why both you and jaemin gave the android a name, itβs usual to name a creation of yours, especially if thereβs a specific meaning in mind.
renjunβs not a fan of robots, especially not of androids. despite all your fondness, he just canβt get it, and he knows he wonβt ever get it, they simply freak him out. androids are too lifelike, androids are so freaky, he just canβt find an ounce of humanity in them that so called creators could find so easily.
the prototype isnβt yet finished, but it already has a couple defining facial features. it has small eyes, tiny heart shaped lips, a splitting smile, and it seems to have a knack for saying βi love youβ.. like all the time.
and doyoung specifically said to not name it. naming it means attachment, attachment thatβll interfere with the way doyoung longs for this mission to go.
we canβt have another failure, you know whatβll happen to y/n if this goes wrong.
renjun isnβt quite as taken to this as the others seem to be..
βyou gonna give it a name?β
renjun observes as you only let one eye open, arms acting as your makeshift pillow as you allow for your legs to stretch across the couch. you ponder for a moment, renjun senses that youβre contemplating on if you should lie or not, something about information between robotics engineers staying between them.
(and he loathes it, why are you keeping secrets with jaemin?)
βhim, and yes, jaemin is very keen on doing soβ.
βokay, so what do you have in mind?β
βare you gonna tell donghyuck?β
the question seems a tiny bit accusatory, renjun would feel offended if not for there being some truth behind those words. you know too much for your own good, heβs secretly afraid youβre some crazy mind reading alien, or a time traveler, or youβre just constantly eavesdropping.
he glances away, staring endlessly at the twinkling stars in the night sky. he hasnβt been stargazing in a while, it was a little tradition you two developed after your first dinner together, back when renjun was the newbie who had the least scientific experience. he guesses nerdy constellation knowledge made for a good past time.
(βyou have a favorite?β renjun recalls you asking him. it was a spontaneous exchange, going up to the rooftop when you werenβt allowed to gave renjun the full picture of how exactly you were. your smile remains as pretty as it was when renjun first met you in the cold interior of doyoungβs claustrophobic office.
βaquilaβ he still has the taste of the word on his tongue. βit contains some of my favorite stars, altair, theta aquilae, lambda aquilae.. most of themβ.
your intrigue seemed to be contagious, and though the light was minuscule, he could still make out your prettiest features under the dimly shining stars. the light of the shooting stars reflected in the shine of your pupils, a shine that simply seemed so.. perfect. βdo you have a favorite?β renjun asked back, hands placed in his lap as he fruitfully avoided your eyes.
you feigned thought, renjun already knows you usually always have the answer on standby. βsagittarius, it consists of the two triple stars, you know i always see pi sagittarius on nights like this..β
of course, pi sagittarius is visible to the naked eye, renjun barely had to squint to capture a glimpse that night. and you? you simply looked enchanted, bewitched, something else that again seemed contagious, as renjun couldnβt help but use the moment to gaze at you with such captivation. youβre captivating, without having even to do anything special, simply talking about the stars is enough.
you scooted closer, knees knocking and shoulders brushing against renjunβs. βif you were a star.. you would be gamma arietis.. itβs apart of aries, one of the brightestβ.
itβs a fleeting whisper, an intimate moment that could barely even be deemed βintimateβ. renjun assumes so, though, who just says that? who compares someone to one of the prettiest stars in the sky? the cool night air did a good job of masking his tinted cheeks, but renjun can never exactly forget it.
in his own sickening mind, huang renjun wouldβve taken that as a love confession. gladly as well.)
renjunβs gaze remains fixed on the window, your eyes now again fluttering closed. βam i no longer trustworthy?β
you hum, eyes remaining closed, exhaustion slowly beginning to seep through. βyouβve earned my trust, but it can always be brokenβ.
renjun is aware. the only person you probably fully trust at this point is jeno, but of course, youβve known him for the longest. βi have my pinky, iβll swearβ.
you look as if youβre about to slip, but then you suddenly flinch, rising from your spot in an abrupt jerking movement that startles renjun out of his star admiring. βiβm not done yet..β
βy/n, itβs late, are you really going back to sniΕ?β
βitβs last minute!β
terrible fucking excuse, renjunβs nose crinkles.
itβs less of him being angry, more of him simply wanting your company, attention, just.. something, why should it all be divided between jaemin and this android thing? his stomach curls in an ugly feat of jealousy.
his arms stay dropped at his sides, and he clears his throat. βdonβt stay at the laboratory all night again!β
stupid thing to say, he already knows you will, youβve never been one to listen.
VI. Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β β if i cannot inspire love, i will cause fear! β.
the βteamβ (jeno doesnβt really think of them as such) is introduced to prototype 205 on a seemingly regular thursday. fortunately for jeno, they donβt have to be in the below freezing environment of sniΕ, heβd probably faint from such a prospect. no, you guys meet in the space of the main laboratory, the overhead lights shining over you as if youβre an angel.
βhis name is jisungβ jaemin says, full of pride. your silence is key, there might be no words, but jeno can practically feel your excitement. sometimes, he feels as if your minds must be connected by some invisible wire. your fatigue is clear, jaemin probably hasnβt gotten sleep in weeks, jeno is afraid he might pass out, and you? your exhaustion is now completely usual, the bags under your eyes holding them upward as to not have them flutter shut.
βjisungβ your voice is soft as you glance over at iβ him, your stare nothing short of proud. βsay hi to renjun, jeno, and donghyuckβ.
jisung, half hidden behind jaeminβs shoulder, looks up at jaemin, as if for encouragement. itβs cute. jeno has to remind himself that the mannerisms are simply coded into his system. jaemin nods at him, and jisung finally shows out a part of his face, not yet stepping out.
βhi renjunβ his eyelids flutter a little too humanely. βhello jeno, donghyuckβ his voice is soft, yet itβs deep, clearly deeper than jenoβs, scratch that, probably deeper than everyoneβs.
β..i look forward to working with youβ donghyuck replies cautiously.
jaeminβs eyes shine as jisung parrots such enthusiasm, your shoulders slumping forward in action of relief. jenoβs eyes form into crescents as he smiles, just watching you be proud of your own work pleases him. despite your unkempt, mad scientist appearance, no one would ever be able to guess you had been awake for about thirty two hours simply trying to get jisung to turn on. the fondness in your expression is more befitting of a proud parent than an inventor.
youβre going to break your own heart at this point, jeno knows it, and judging by renjunβs narrowed eyes, he knows it too.
donghyuck chokes on nothing in the air, a clutch to his chest amplifying the dramatics of it all. βoh my god, heβs so cuteβ he can barely contain his laughter, pure excitement behind his eyes. βyou made him cuteβ.
βof course i didβ jaemin replies, sounding a tad bit offended. βheβs the cutest, all courtesy of y/nβs expertiseβ.
jeno canβt help the unconscious softening of his gaze as jisung copies your smile. his feigned irritation is barely even sustained, itβs difficult to keep a straight face when he is so adorable.
renjun simply grumbles something he takes as a silent rebuttal, itβll probably take a while for him to get used to jisung. jeno blinks at jisung, who again smiles as he practically senses jenoβs eyes. βitβs nice to meet you, jisungβ.
the name rolls off the tongue rather well.
βwhy jisung?β
jeno knows you, and by βknowsβ, he means spent full hours with you hiding in storage closets from the mean older kids when theyβd trash your inventions, back before all of this, back when jeno was the only one you had to lean on. he hasnβt gotten the full scope when it comes to the full extent of your mind, but you two have history.
and what jeno knows, is that you donβt choose names unless thereβs a specific meaning in mind. you like names, you think theyβre βsimply the prettiest kind of random, meanings can go a long way..β
you blink your eyes up at the ceiling, and somehow, even with the insane lethargy, they donβt close against your own will, you simply keep them open. you motion your hand, beckoning for jeno to give you his.
his hand places into yours in a natural sense of action, and of course, even with the roughness of the metals you spend hours around, your hands remain soft, soothing. jeno wonders if touching a cloud could compare to the pure delicacy of your palm, your fingertips. you give a glance upward, the curves of your eyes mirroring your very own smile.
βjisung means.. devotionβ you whisper, slowly tracing the spelling of his name into jenoβs palm. βit can also ironically mean alive, jaemin thought of that one..β
βdevotion to who?β
when your eyes flit upward, jeno wonders if that was the wrong question to ask. thereβs nothing foreseeable behind your eyes, or maybe there is and itβs successfully overshadowed by your clear lack of sleep. he almost jumps backward, but then you smile again, your eyes forming into crescents as you begin a silent fit of laughter. βeveryone really, loyalty, itβs one of his biggest traitsβ.
you know if this continues your simply going to hurt yourself in the end.
jeno refrains from letting such a thought escape him. βhe really is cuteβ.
jeno leans closer, whispering the words as if theyβre some sort of secret, as if doyoung could be around the corner with his watchful eye on you two, as if this is an old sleepover you two are having where you giggle about what the future may bring, fingers intertwined and all. βi know, itβs a very important assetβ.
not important to the mission.
again, jeno doesnβt speak such thoughts, youβre so happy, youβre so proud.
he knows better than to ruin such a beautiful thing.
VII. Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β β i ought to be thy adam, but i am rather the fallen angelβ¦ β.
doyoung wanted to get rid of you before project apollo and the success of prototype 205.
donghyuck didnβt have to hear it from renjun, he heard it in the way doyoung let each individual word fall from his lips. itβs often deemed a little βcrazyβ that he hyper fixates on things that donβt seem to matter, but when it comes to you, donghyuck thinks it always matters.
it was a cruel move, to slyly hint it to the three and leave you out of the loop, donghyuck is all for a little cruelty sometimes, but itβs just tip toeing the line of evil. how could he even think of doing something without telling you first?
na jaemin was brought in as a replacement, the choice to keep you was only agreed upon after your teammatesβ insistence. project athena went up in flames, which is what caused the distrust, but they pleaded your case either way.
(βdonβt you think this is a little too drastic?β worry colored renjunβs usually stoic expression, if donghyuck focused enough, he could hear an upcoming tremble in his voice. βthink of what y/nβs done for you already!β
it was two days before the arrival of the new engineer that it happened. in a manner of rarity, you were out that saturday, something only possible because of dejunβs surprisingly intimidating request. you mused that simply one day of rest would be fine, a good move on dejunβs part.
doyoungβs raised eyebrow was a threat that made even renjun tense. βshall i remind you of the mess which was project athena?β
βyou canβt let him go over one failure, heβs like.. the only person who actually knows anything about robots!β yes, it got to the point where donghyuck was flailing his arms back and forth in the air. βand besides, we donβt know the other guy like that..β
βthis project isnβt designed for your comfortabilityβ god screw doyoung and his paper stacking. his hair is too neat, his eyes are too empty, his facial expressions much too stoic. maybe donghyuckβs childish fear back from his intern days is gone, but there still seems to be another kind of fear left over. βy/nβs become a liability, weβve taken too many risksβ.
jeno and donghyuck got offended on your behalf. jenoβs facial muscles twitched, a clear frown tugging at his lips as he sucked his teeth at the words from doyoung. donghyuckβs hands clenched the material of his pants, a gasp of disbelief leaving his lips. they exchanged a glance of vexation, an irritated snort leaves donghyuck. he had to be kidding.
βjust.. this last mission, come on, itβll go wellβ.
yes, it was renjunβs words that got a twitch out of doyoung. the olderβs eyes examined each of them, renjun, then jeno, then donghyuck. then, he sighed, rolling his eyes. βyou three are like children, this is his last chance, if y/n fails, you arenβt coming back here with your bag of excuses..β
donghyuck tutted, crossing his arms in an act of clear defiance. jeno looked the least irritated out of the three, but donghyuck knows itβs only because he was thinking more of you than of doyoung. renjun scowled, stomping his feet and storming out of the room.
βsee? like a childβ.
donghyuck probably wouldβve jumped at him if not for jenoβs hand gracing his shoulder, rubbing his thumb over the blades in a comforting manner. jenoβs anger had quelled by that point, and he allowed himself to relax as best as he could. βthank you doyoungβ.
donghyuck didnβt thank him for anything, there wasnβt shit to thank him for.)
the conference doesnβt need many speakers, so someone is clearly going to be left behind. donghyuck knows heβs going, heβs already prepared speeches, presentation note cards, and post it note reminders. to his very own dismay, jaemin has to tag along, and though it was an obvious foreshadowing, he still hates it.
your attendance is obvious, youβre probably much more prepared than donghyuck is, thereβs never an event you donβt pre-prepare for, you always say that itβs βjust in caseβ. that leaves it to renjun and jeno, one of them has to stay behind with jisung.
βthink jeno should come with..β jaemin utters, your shuffling of papers fills the room, no sound comes from you, no indication of your agreement or disagreement. βdonβt you have the coding expertise? we could use thatβ.
renjun begins picking at his nails, clearly anxious about being left alone with jisung. donghyuck raises an eyebrow at jaemin, lips turning downward. βare you the one calling the shots now?β
βitβs a suggestion, donghyuck, donβt get so uptightβ.
donghyuck again scowls, face twisting into a grimace thatβs less of disgust and more of indignation. βnot uptight..β
βsure you arenβtβ jaemin comments loudly, smacking a folder against the table as he wipes the dust from his hands. he glares, and donghyuck decides to glare back, one snap away from completely flipping him off.
you suck your teeth. βstop fighting, iβll put your seats together if you donβtβ your tone of voice indicates that youβre probably going to do it anyway. you pat donghyuckβs shoulder and make your way over to renjun. βare you fine staying with jisung or..?β
youβre much too generous, you are quite literally giving him an option. donghyuck observes renjun tense up momentarily, but if you notice it, you keep silent, patiently awaiting his response. he contemplates for a moment, and donghyuck gives a silent laugh at his clear anxiety. βi..β he looks over at jeno, then he shakes his head. βitβs alright, i can stay with jisungβ.
βyou sure?β
jeno clears his throat, the decision is done with, he doesnβt want more time for contemplation. βyeah, yeah! itβs alright!β
itβs not. donghyuck can see the way jaeminβs eyebrows furrow peripherally, and he simply clicks his tongue.
your suspicious gaze bores through his skull, but then you sigh, arms dropping at your sides. βokay, thatβs good..β
donghyuck glances away, easily avoiding jaeminβs eyes. everyone is so obvious, he questions how renjun even functions around you if he answers your simple questions like that.
maybe heβs giving himself too much credit..
later that night, donghyuck joins you on the couch, your eyes stuck on the window which showcases the darkness of the night. it might be a problem, the fact that no matter how hard you try, you can no longer get a fit of sleep.
his crumpled shirt is a result of his extensive tossing and turning, how jeno ever sleeps is a mystery to him, but knowing what he does know, jeno will only ever get shut eye for a good three hours before he begins his continuous ceiling staring session. βnervous?β
you barely register his words, donghyuck is afraid you donβt hear him, afraid you might be frozen or something. itβs so weird, donghyuck always seems to find a new reason to worry his mind off concerning you, but you then blink, sucking your teeth at the window as if it did something to you personally. βkinda..β you opt to say.
donghyuck scoots closer, the two of you naturally falling together with you both deciding to lean. your eyes close for a second before opening again, as if you fear sleeping. how strange. donghyuckβs head presses against yours, your fingers coming to intertwine in a gentle manner. βdo you like jisung?β
the query is whispered, and donghyuck licks his lips, really having to think it over. βheβs adorableβ.
βyes or no?β
your insistence draws a tired chuckle. βyeah, i love the little shitβ.
you snort, biting into your cheek. βdonβt call him thatβ.
a hum is the response you receive.
VIII. Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β β thus strangely are our souls constructed, and by slight ligaments are we bound to prosperity and ruin β.
renjun doesnβt find being left alone all that bad, if he can just perpetually avoid jisung for the fraction of the day he has to work, then it all should be fine.
he holds onto the hug you gave him before you left, a gesture of affection he probably wouldnβt have accepted from anyone else, but let you do because.. well, he supposes itβs obvious.
βdonβt get so freaked out, jisung is practically harmlessβ you told him, hands placed on his shoulders as you stared with your wide pupils full of fondness.
renjun could only respond with the scrunch of his face. what did you mean by βpractically?β
he didnβt get to question it, jaemin dragged you off before he could even open his mouth, but not before shooting renjun one of his creepy looking grins. if he didnβt know any better, renjun wouldβve asked to go as well, if not for the sake of being around you, but also so he could keep an eye on na jaemin.
renjun decides to occupy most of his day in meetings, doing extra work yangyang was much too lazy to do on his own. he hangs around the southernmost laboratory until kun has to usher him out, his excuses quickly defuse, and he has no choice but to trudge his way back to the main floor.
jisung is fixated on the distinguishing features of the model above him when renjun first runs into him that day, a copy of frankenstein left opened to a specific page on his lap. he tilts his head as he observes the unmoving solar system replica, his finger comes to caress the pages of the book, renjun can just barely make out scribbled writing on the individual pages. after a few more seconds of staring, he turns to the side. βhiβ he blinks those terrifyingly realistic eyes. βbusy day?β
renjun clears his throat, a wave of shame washing over him at such a question. jisung probably didnβt mean it, but he could probably sense that renjunβs avoidance was slightly purposeful. βuhβ yeah, sort of, you could say that..β
he again goes to picking at his fingers, feeling the others eyes zero in on the movement. he lets a breath fall, attempting to change the topic, he starts; βwhat are you looking at?β
his feet seemingly have a mind of their own, as renjun finds himself beside jisung in no time, hands now placed in his lap. his eyes flit downward, ah, he knew it, jisung is reading one of your copies, he notices your straight handwriting right away.
βthe solar system modelβ he whispers, eyes again traveling upward. βall these planets.. which one am i supposed to go to?β
renjun is a bit taken aback by that question, itβs a little unexpected, but he guesses it is what he was programmed for. he blinks, seemingly heating up under his stare. βum.. jupiter, thatβs where your mission is dedicatedβ.
jisung hums, and renjun simply remains freaked out. itβs all too human like, was that on your part or jaeminβs? heβs now insanely curious.
βwhat are you reading?β
jisung perks up, as if startled by his spontaneous query. βfrankenstein, y/n likes reading, he says this is one of his favoritesβ.
renjun snickers, how nice. βyeah, y/n is obsessed with science fiction in all of itβs formsβ.
jisung nods. βi like it, the story is.. a bit ironic but itβs beautifully writtenβ.
renjunβs lips immediately turn downward, while he expected for jisung to be aware of that one, itβs sort of sad to hear the tone of his voice when he says the word βironicβ.
jisungβs gaze bores through him, itβs reminiscent of how your eyes seem to burn into literally everyoneβs soul, seeing their innermost thoughts with eyes seemingly devoid of anything. βare you alright?β he asks, sensing the mismatched thoughts muddled up in renjunβs mind.
βoh.. um, fineβ.
jisung blinks, his eyelids fluttering in a freakishly realistic manner. his expressions have no right to seem so real. βsomething seems wrongβ.
βare you programmed to notice things like that?β
jisung contemplates for a moment, as if genuinely thinking about how he should reply to it. βiβm not sure actuallyβ.
renjun isnβt sure of that answer. βdoes it have something to do with the conference?β
renjun almost jumps back once again. jisung tilts his head, eyelids curving upward, lips pressed into a thin line. βis your mind stuck on y/n?β
oh, thatβs fucking creepy, surely that canβt be programmed right?
unfortunately, no one is around to answer that question for renjun.
he shakes his head though completely wrong. βno..β
renjun is sure that anyone, android or not, could decipher the falsity behind his tone. βwhatβs wrong? did you two fight?β
β..noβ.
βbut you seem upsetβ.
curse this jisung, renjun can barely breathe without him dropping yet another accusation. shit. how obvious is he then? donghyuck must know, then that means jaemin is possibly aware, and that means jeno..
fuck.
βi guessβ i donβt know, y/n is just so confusing, heβs complicated, canβt help feeling how i feelβ.
oh what is wrong with renjun? heβs pouring his feelings out to this android that was created by the person he has a crush not crush on, surely anyone with a working mind would see that this is pretty much crazy. βyou love himβ.
renjunβs gasp is immediate, and he has no idea why he seems as offended as he is. βiβ what? of course i love him but not like that..β
βhe loves you tooβ jisungβs gaze is reminiscent of yours, stars seemingly dazzling behind his irises in the same manner as yours. how does that happen? did you mold him after you or something? itβs not that you two look alike, itβs more about the specific mannerisms renjun has gotten used to seeing from you. βhe loves everybody, jeno, donghyuck, jaeminie, even me, i canβt really believe thatβ.
βy/n loves everything he createsβ.
βno itβsββ he uncharacteristically pauses, weird. βitβs not like that, he loves me like iβm not a project, like i.. as if iβm not just here so you guys can discover more about space, like iβm more than thatβ.
oh, renjun didnβt think about it like that. he hums, tapping his fingers onto his knee. jisung seems defeated, which again perturbs renjun in the slightest, as heβs assumed all feelings are simply programmed, not that they can change naturally in their own way on their own accord.
youβre driving yourself into a wall, youβre going to hurt yourself in the end, and jisung even knows it himself.
βjaeminie does too, they take care of meβ.
renjun doesnβt know what he expected, but it wasnβt this. jisung again glances upward at the model of the solar system, eyes remaining fixated on the mold of jupiter. thatβs where he is going. βi donβt really know how you feel, but y/n is.. he isnβt feeling that differentβ.
speak for yourself, y/n loves everyone, even doyoung, and the fucker tried to fire him.
renjun decides to keep that one to himself, his cheeks now tinted red, an unknown heat coming out of nowhere.
okay, maybe jisung isnβt that bad.
IX. Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β β life, although it may be only an accumulation of anguish, is dear to me, and i will defend it β.
over the coming weeks, jisung becomes more of a mundane figure in everyoneβs lives.
the attachment both you and jaemin have is clear, as creators of jisung, you pretty much treat him like heβs your kid or something (which jeno supposes he is but thatβs only due to the obvious). the proprietary technology is shared between you both, all the other three did was fill you two with the correct knowledge and program the actual useful things. how to collect samples, how to analyze a mass spectrometry reading, how to identify potential life and share data on environmental conditions, not to mention everything that even goes into operating a spacecraft.
βwhat do you mean?β jaemin tilts his head, feigned resentment behind his eyes with jisung keeping his head laid onto his shoulder. heβs asleep, or.. off, jeno is unsure of how exactly it all works, but jisungβs eyes are closed, so jeno assumes heβs asleep. βyouβre implying his skills werenβt useful before, i programmed him to dance, thatβs usefulβ.
jisungβs chest rises and sinks, then it happens again. his lashes flutter, mouth parting as if releasing a sigh. jeno has to hand it to the both you and jaemin, because for all your eccentricism, you two are insanely talented. every part of jisung is painstakingly lifelike, delicately crafted. even jeno forgets when he looks at him, sometimes, that he isnβt alive at all.
βwhy?β jeno asks, because of course he does. the basis of his career draws from the most intrigued of queries, asking questions is all he knows how to do. βhow is that useful?β
jisung shifts for a moment, then he rises, back straightening as he blinks awake, eyelids fluttering as he settles into the air of the room. βit makes people happyβ jaemin opts to whisper, nothing but pure endearment behind his eyes as he stares. βisnβt that useful?β
not useful to the mission, not useful to scientific achievement, were hitting a brick wall here.
jisungβs eye flit around the room, unfocused. when he processes jaeminβs face, his lips curve into a smile. when his eyes land on jeno, his smile only widens, which startles the other enough that his replying smile is awkward.
βgood morningβ jaemin coos, brushing a strand of hair behind jisungβs ear.
βitβs eight twenty seven oβclockβ jisung replies, matter of factly. he blinks again at jaemin, observing as the older juts out his lip. he then pauses, mind seemingly re-wiring.
βgood morningβ he tries again. βi love youβ.
jaeminβs resounding laughter is full of so much elation that jeno can even see his teeth, and he squeezes jisung tighter, completely enamored.
jeno guesses heβs pretty adorable.
jisung again blinks his terrifyingly realistic eyes, his pupils holding curiosity. βwhere is y/n?β
he doesnβt yet give mention to renjun and donghyuckβs absence, but jeno guesses itβs due to jisung being quite used to seeing you around once he wakes up. he tilts his head in jenoβs direction, as if also expecting an answer from him. jaemin clears his throat, ruffling his hair. βy/n had to leave at six for early work, heβll be back soonβ.
jeno scans the look of simply affection at the mention of you, not just from jisung, but also from jaemin. jisungβs face falls in a display of worry, jeno finds that rich. βy/n typically works every single day, do you know why jeno?β
being put on the spot, jeno again startles, his face going pale. he contemplates for a moment, feeling jisungβs eyes seep through him in a burning gaze, itβs a little scary. βiβ um..β
βwere back!β donghyuck fortunately comes to save his ass, kicking down the door in a bang so loud it cuts jeno off immediately. βand we brought foodβ renjun continues, he places the bag he holds onto the nearby table, right in front of jisung. he fixates on it, scanning the plastic before him. βand hello you!β donghyuck seems to feel a similar extent of adoration in correlation with both you and jaemin, as he leans downward to press a kiss to his cheek, drawing a small sound from him.
βgood morning..β he mutters, shying away from the act of affection. jeno finds donghyuckβs attachment to jisung a little more surprising, renjun definitely took a while to warm up, but donghyuck didnβt really need that much time, the other previously expressed concerns to jeno about using androids when the project began, but it seems that all the worry has since dissipated. he was smitten, he still is.
renjun was much more weary at first, but heβs slowly getting used to his presence, jeno guesses something that had to do with the day they were gone for the conference.
βy/n still not back?β donghyuck inquires, unease hidden by his usually bright smile. he leans onto his own fist, watching jisung seem enraptured by the sight of human food. jisung decides to respond by shaking his head, seemingly sensing the tension between donghyuck and jaemin.
donghyuck clears his throat, keeping silent as he hands jaemin over what he ordered, again avoiding eye contact. oh, they still havenβt attempted to sort a few of the differences, or maybe they talked during the conference, jeno canβt exactly remember.
βhe does nothing but workβ renjunβs words are muffled by the bits of toast he chews, something of irritation in his pupils. βseriously, never shuts down..β
βi heard thatβ it isnβt an understatement to say that everyone practically lights up when you walk through the door. jeno likes to think that he displays his adoration the best, with his βsamoyed likenessβ and all (thatβs what you and donghyuck say). thereβs a warmth that emanates from your presence, a tired smile clinging to your lips. βnot a workaholic, iβm just good at my jobβ.
βthey can go hand in handβ.
jisung showcases his biggest smile of the morning, almost jumping from his seat in an effort to hug you. of course, donghyuck gets there first, squeezing the oxygen out of you. βyou got here just in time, breakfast is here, eat, then go napβ.
you snort. βdonβt give me demandsβ.
βare you not tired?β renjun opts to pipe in, itβs a rather idiotic question, everybody knows youβre tired, the bags are about to sink into your skin, but you simply wave a dismissive hand, eyes shining jisungβs way.
βenough of that, howβs my baby?β
jisung just manages a yelp before you wrap your arms around him and they tighten. oh you love him, it hurts jenoβs heart in a sickening way, youβre simply enraptured. jeno canβt help but notice jaemin, who looks equally as so, but not towards jisung, more towards you.
jaeminβs scoff of annoyance is feigned. βour, and heβs good, he was looking for youβ.
βwhy do you work all the time?β
jisung blinks in his regular jisung manner, which jeno finds off putting, heβs beginning to note the androids individual mannerisms. βbecause i like to workβ.
βnobody likes to work, do you have problems?β
donghyuck snorts, hiding his giggles behind his hands when he notices your peripheral glare. jeno whistles as he feigns ignorance, attempting to keep his laughs down in his head. renjun simply blinks, sending an amusing stare jisungβs way.
you raise your eyebrows, jeno guesses it was something you didnβt expect. βno jisung, itβs just when you get used to pulling all nighters as an intern, it bleeds into you pulling all nighters in generalβ.
βthat sounds like a problemβ jisung replies in a tone that implies genius. jeno supposes he does know all, but you instead stick out your tongue.
βshhhβ you press a finger to his lips, completely shutting him up.
donghyuck is still giggling, maybe the act of an android asking their creator if they have problems is a degree of humor he doesnβt expect. renjun simply finds the display cute, thereβs no need for words, jeno knows how he feels.
he decides to turn away, pushing down any other thoughts, he knows your time together is limited, this attachment is only making such a thing worse.
his stomach twists into something ugly, and he swallows down nothing.
X. Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β β nothing is so painful to the human mind as a great and sudden change β.
it isnβt that difficult to come across you in the dead of night.
that seems to be when your most active, na jaemin only scales the halls at midnight because of the anxiety he feels rising. of course, he wonβt divulge to anybody that those worries are present, really renjun doesnβt seem to enjoy talking, jeno is much too sweet for him to handle, and donghyuck.. heβs a character.
you werenβt wrong about the all nighter claim, as his eyes fixate on your figure, flipping through coding documents in a manner thatβs simply so entrancing. his hands remain shoved in his pockets, his stare endless as you carry on with your coding admiration. he then smiles, why are you like this?
βrough night?β he finally speaks into the air, startling you suddenly. you settle into a silent chuckle, an empty cup of coffee dormant on the table before you. his gaze softens, and he steps closer to you, shoulders brushing in a brief moment.
βnot exactly, just last minute observations, launch is soon..β
when you mutter those words, the air seems to still. it shouldnβt come as a surprise, jisung wasnβt created to be cute and tell you two he loves you, jisung was created to explore a planet uninhabitable to humans, project apollo is supposed to be just that.
jaemin takes in a deep breath. βyep, launch soonβ.
the repeated words does nothing but add to the stillness of the air, which only elevates your feelings about the whole thing. you stack the papers on top of one another, sucking your teeth. βyou donβt usually work with others, right? i hope i lived up to your expectationsβ.
itβs much more than that, why do you gaze as if i display constellations over my cheek? why do your eyes dazzle in that way? why are you you?
βyou exceeded them, youβre exceptionalβ.
jaemin mistakens the blush on your cheeks as something other than platonic, but could you blame him? you could simply be flattered.. and na jaemin should be allowed a delusion once in a while. βi have to assume some of those words are exaggeratedβ.
βtake the complimentβ.
he doesnβt inherently beg, but the plea is heard as an undertone. you snicker, scratching behind your ear. βi could say the same, i was trying my best to impress you..β
βyou didnβt exactly need me, youβre a powerhouse you know?β
you again giggle, flattery high in the air. βcouldnβt have done it without you, jisung is dear to meβ.
jaemin hums, shoulders again brushing with yours. βheβs basically our son anywayβ.
βyouβre really trying to sell thatβ.
βitβs true, isnβt it?β
your smile is soft, yes, it is true, but the words arenβt spoken. you again glance downward at the stack of papers formerly grasping at your attention, urging for jaemin to talk your ear off. βi guess..β
jaemin grabs at the opportunity to admire your side profile, he isnβt all about the star knowledge, but according to the many whispers from you, tonight is when the constellation auriga is present in the night sky. you said that itβs one of your favorites, auriga imitates the shape of a hexagon once all the stars connect in the sky. itβs always around your birthday that it is visible in the sky, your eyes gleam with an intrigue that could also be mistaken for enchantment.
itβs funny.
βi can teach you all there is about constellationsβ.
jaeminβs smile mirrors the bewitchment hidden in his pupils. βthat would be niceβ.
he actually doesnβt care, but the act of you talking while jaemin simply listens is his ideal type of date.
you hum, again glancing up as you pause. you blink, your stare endless as jaemin registers the sudden closeness of you two. the stars are aligning in the sky tonight, jaemin canβt help but observe the patterns of your moles and how they replicate the positions of the stars you so dearly love. everything about you is so beautiful, beautiful in a manner reminiscent of the astral cluster he usually pays no mind to.
jaeminβs gaze travels, your lips are very pretty, interesting. heβs listened around, heβs aware that he probably isnβt the only person here with such interests in you specifically, but this is probably the closest anyone has ever gotten in that regard.
you feign ignorance, eyes shifting as you notice where jaemin stares. either youβre nervous, or you simply have no idea what to say.
and really, jaemin wants to, he wants to so bad, it wouldnβt even be that much of a movement, if he just leaned closer just the slightest..
he stops himself before he can get any closer.
βyou should get some sleep now, seriouslyβ jaemin opts to say, cutting off his own thoughts with a complete topic switch. βcome on.. please?β
thereβs a slight whine to his tone, and your lips do an upward turn at the question, a small snicker falling from them. βmaybe a few more minutes?β
βdo you want for me to use force?β
you again grin at that one, smoothly sliding the stack of papers into a folder. you blow a breath between your lips, clasping your hands together. βfine then, iβll sleepβ.
βyou will, iβm going to be watching you the whole entire timeβ.
βcreepβ.
jaemin sticks out his tongue as a response.
XI. Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β β how mutable are our feelings, and how strange is that clinging love we have of life in the excess of misery! β.
on the day of launch, jaemin wears all black, a sentiment to how he must be feeling. donghyuck doesnβt attempt to reach out, the sharp looks he earns are enough to keep him silent. you seem to take it a little better, not exactly wearing all black, but also unable to keep up the fixed smiles you use to erase worry.
everyone looks like they havenβt slept in a week, which, to be fair, they probably havenβt. donghyuck pays little attention to jaemin in his all, but he knows the other is missing a good week of shut eye. jeno was up all night with stomach dropping anxiety, he continuously tossed and turned in his bed, eyes remaining open until the sun rose above the horizon. renjun keeps silent, but he isnβt having a better time either, his eyes continuously fluttering shut on the commute to work.
this is supposed to be the best day of your career, what youβve been working towards since the start of the stupid internship you all accepted. still, you all just seem the slightest bit miserable, even on the supposed happiest day of your lives.
breakfast is silent, you leave early enough that donghyuck doesnβt catch you until you all gather at the laboratory, listening to the machinery emanating noise from each corner of the room.
jaemin sits down beside him, and while donghyuck wishes to peacefully ignore his presence, itβs rendered difficult with him now right there. the younger seemingly longs to make an effort, but donghyuck still canβt talk to him without thinking of what he last said to him.
(βi almost kissed him, you knowβ he recalls jaemin speaking into the air five days ago, why jaemin decided to say it to him? donghyuck will never know. donghyuck paused his sorting of documents, blinking as he turned the way of his pink haired acquaintance. his face scrunched inquiringly, as if he had no idea who jaemin was talking to whilst he was the only one in close distance to him.
βwho? jeno?β donghyuckβs eyes shifted his way, gaze lingering on your hands, which stayed massaging jenoβs shoulders across the room.
βwhat? noβ jaemin replied, seemingly offended by such a suggestion, even with his insistence that jeno is βa pretty good looking guy..β.
donghyuck again blinked, licking his lips as his gaze settled onto jaemin once more. βso.. who?β
jaemin didnβt speak it out, simply motioned his head in the direction donghyuck stared a brief moment prior. donghyuck processed his words slowly, then his eyes widened in a manner he had absolutely no idea they could.
βy/n?β donghyuck couldnβt hide the contempt of his tone, yeah jaemin did say βalmostβ, but does that really matter? jaemin was the new guy, yet he was the only one who managed to get close enough, his jealousy wasnβt exactly unreasonable.
because donghyuck could understand how it is with jeno, heβd gotten much used to it at that point. no, how could na jaemin just.. find the courage so easily? it was an ego bruiser he didnβt expect.
βso why didnβt you then?β donghyuck hid his scorn behind more disdain he tried to use as a weapon, a wall, it didnβt matter. βand why are you telling me about this?β
βi donβt know.. guess i just felt he wouldnβt want itβ.
jaemin sounded hurt, how rich. if donghyuck had to guess who youβd be with out of everyone else in the team, it would probably be jaemin, the newbie whoβs just as much a robot nerd as you are. it was a match made in heaven.
βiβm not the one he wantsβ.
donghyuck assumed he was lying at that point, jaemin was playing with him, taunting him with knowledge only he had from the variety of time he spent with you. βsure, and did he tell you that?β
jaeminβs shrug was empty. βhe didnβt have to, just.. if you get the opportunity, then you should probably take itβ.
what the fuck.
did na jaemin really just tell donghyuck that if he had the opportunity to kiss you, he should take it? the other stared into practically nothing, jaemin finished with what he had to say, there were no more words left for him to utter.
β..alrightβ.)
donghyuck canβt exactly resist the urge, which is unfortunate for him because he had a good avoiding jaemin track record thatβs pretty golden to him. is he really that curious?
βyou okay?β donghyuck inquires, an eyebrow raise being his go to add on. jaemin looks one snap away from punching him, his balled up fist frightens donghyuck, who scoots one seat away to ensure his own safety. for all of jaeminβs expressions, donghyuck has never seen him look so unhappy. grumpy, sometimes. irritated, mostly with him, but the grief marring his expression is much too intense.
jaeminβs gaze remains fixated on you, performing regular actions that appear to be much more because of how you do it. βnot sure what i was expectingβ he whispers so quietly it aches. βjupiter is far away, itβll take him only seven months, guess i can commend you guys for that oneβ.
right, any regular journey to jupiter would take six years at best, the architecture of project apollo as a whole is really the saving grace of this mission. donghyuck would probably die having to wait six years for jisung and the spacecraft to even land on jupiter, he canβt imagine how youβd feel.
βgod fuck thisβ.
donghyuck glances your way, eyeing the shine in your irises as you gaze upon a model of jupiter, jisungβs cheek pressed onto your shoulder. jupiter has never been your favorite planet, you often deem it βthe overrated planetβ, because, in your own words; βitβs color scheme isnβt my favorite, all that helium nauseates meβ.
you can always find something to focus on, even the things that seem so unimportant. βanything can be unique if youβre open minded enough hyuckieβ.
he barely contains his giggles at the recollection of your words, heβs afraid of asking about your feelings, because while youβve never been one to give snippy responses, thereβs still a voice in the back of his mind reminding him of your unpredictability, he shouldnβt be so quick to think that.
βheβll be fineβ.
βjisung is like.. his pride and joy, he wonβt take it wellβ.
and clearly, neither will you.
donghyuck forbids such words from escaping his lips, launch is in an hour, he should focus.
XII. Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β β when falsehood can look so like the truth, who can assure themselves of certain happiness? β.
jisungβs first communication falls on a sunday.
renjun remembers the day of the week because it comes the day after donghyuckβs birthday. he specifically remembered that one because you all spent donghyuckβs birthday at the lab, paired with little to no bickering with jaemin, and a privilege which included being able to kiss you all he wanted. itβs somewhere around four in the morning that renjun jolts awake from where he laid down on his desk to find you staring at the screen in wide-eyed awe.
<<< β¦happy birthday donghyuck!
<<< good morning, i love you. did i miss it?
it would usually take months, even up to years for messages to travel this far. that was a long while ago, though. now, it only takes a good twenty three hours for messages to be received, which is definitely shorter than the time it takes to travel there. seven months, you now spend much more time at the laboratory than prior, waiting by the screen in the control room for any kind of message.
there isnβt a character limit to the messages, conversations can go on forever, like he never left. sort of like he never left, renjun thinks itβs a bit off in terms of timing, but itβs enough to please both you and jaemin.
renjun scurries closer, face illuminated by the dark blue screen.
jisung takes pictures of a lot of important things, just like he was programmed to do. sometimes, he doesnβt even photograph things that are that important, yet it can still be perceived as such.
jaemin appears out of nowhere, arms folded over his chest as he squints his eyes at the screen right in front of him. renjun has enough energy to produce a lethargic chuckle.
<<< i think this ball of gas kind of looks like a bunny, doesnβt it?
<<< [IMAGE ATTACHED]
βoh, i see itβ jaemin breaths, blinking a few times in a pattern of recognition.
donghyuck jolts awake from where heβd been quietly snoring on jenoβs shoulder. βi do tooβ.
your nose scrunches, just barely registering renjunβs hand coming to hold yours. βyeah, same hereβ.
<<< the stars are really beautiful right now!
<<< see? itβs aquarius, y/nie said thatβs one of his favorites!
<<< remember?
<<< did jaemin lose his ring yet?
right, the ring. it was a request on jisungβs part, everyone got matching rings after he saw snow for the first time. jaemin did lose the ring actually, it slipped down into the cushions of the main room and he lost his mind trying to find it. he seemed so genuinely torn up by it that everyone swore to secrecy, much too afraid of how jisung would react to such news.
βof course notβ youβre quick to lie, nudging jaemin with your shoulder. βnext time you see the stars like that, make sure to take a picture with you in it okay? i miss seeing your faceβ.
thereβs a hint of anguish in your tone, your eyes a shade of red thatβs terrifying to an impossible extent. renjun continues to caress your hands with are still laced together, thumb smoothing over your knuckles as a gesture of fondness. itβll be okay, iβm here, everyone is here, we get how you feel.
the words arenβt spoken, simply dissolved.
for the next few minutes, you all take turns replying to jisungβs messages, and renjun can tell, all of you needed this. though itβd be hard to reach such words through all your pigheaded attitudes, itβs nice knowing that a message finally came around, there was an anxiety in the air that all of you could feel, yet you simply left unsaid.
itβs hard to be here without him sometimes, because though it wonβt be said, everyone feels as if theyβre missing a piece of themselves with him gone. renjun never thought he would be able to get to this point, he never thought an attachment was even possible, he guesses he was wrong about that part.
donghyuck again passes out against jeno when itβs all over, jaemin placing a hand on your shoulder which lingers before he again settles on a nearby chair.
you remain stuck on the bright blue light which permeates from the screen, seemingly enraptured. renjun stays beside you, hands still together.
βheβll be okayβ he whispers, not exactly sure of those words but speaking them anyway. he wants to ensure at least a measure of peace for you, anything to result in the anxiety dissipating from your features. βtrust yourself, alright?β
you donβt respond, simply blink once again.
itβs your own way of uttering the words; i donβt know if i can.
XIII. Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β β man, i cried, βhow ignorant art thou in thy pride of wisdom!β β.
it isnβt helped by the fact that nine months into project apolloβs first mission, jisung suddenly goes offline.
βwhat do you mean heβs gone offline?β jaemin reiterates, as if the prospect of that actually being possible is completely off the table.
i told you so, jeno thinks in his mind, his heart sinks into his stomach. of course this was going to happen, i knew this was going to happen.
donghyuck looks helpless, something that is frightening to jeno, not surprising, unnerving. βcomms to the ship are still active for nowβ he explains, voice just barely holding up against an upcoming tremble. βcalm down, weβre still trying to reach him, maybe heβs just late to respond, maybeββ
βheβs never lateβ jaemin cuts in, hair tousled in every direction. jeno is, again, terrified. the room is silent, if you take away the arguing, renjun is tryibg his best to keep himself together, and your own silence is nerve-racking, your eyes trained on the screen before you. βheβs never late donghyuck, so donβt tell me to fucking calm down alright? have you checked the log for any unusual activity?β
jeno is grateful for his ringing ears, the argument bleeding out into uncomfortable background noise. you bite down into your bottom lip, quickly drawing blood with the force you put into your action. jeno almost breaks the silence by inquiring to you about the whole thing, but of course, they canβt shut up.
βthis was probably caused by your shitty work, so much for your robotic skillsβ donghyuck makes sure to mock jaeminβs voice, jabbing a finger in the square of her chest, crowding in his face.
βmy fault?β jaemin scoffs, pushing him back with a heavy shove of the shoulder. βmy work is fucking flawless, donghyuck, donβt take out your frustrations on me because you miscalculated and caused this mess!β
βoh but thatβs exactly what youβre doing now isnβt it? donβt try to act so high and mighty when youβre genuinely being a fucking hypocrite!β
it seems that this fight is about to well out into the physical territory, but you then speak up; βif you two canβt be quiet then you should just get outβ.
you pinch the bridge of your nose, grinding your teeth in motions which displays your irritation. no, it isnβt your tone, itβs your actions. your voice is simply soft, a whisper that could barely be heard even in the pin drop silence.
they both long to sneak in one last word, jeno can see it in the twitching of their facial muscles, but as to not upset you, they shut up. donghyuck huffs, storming his way out, unfortunately not taking the awkwardness of it all with him. itβs not long before jaemin exits as well, but not before he glances at you with simply.. grief.
renjun only continues his silence as a form of fear, jeno knows you wouldnβt, but heβs also aware that part of him is afraid to speak in fear of pissing you off.
you kick at the station in front of you, not hard, but it still earns a flinch. you suck your teeth, just barely registering jenoβs presence beside you. βi just need time to think..β you mutter, resting your head against the control panel.
thereβs a beat of silence which prolongs. itβs too much of time, itβs as if your fate hangs in the air, something of an unknown future that none of you can control no matter how much you attempt to. there canβt be another failure, renjun and jeno know that enough, the glances they exchange only elevate that point.
βdo you really think heβs just late to respond?β you ask, blinking away some sort of devastation behind your eyes. itβs less of saddening and more of terrifying, everyone remembers the mess which was project athena, how much of a terrible state the failure of the mission put you in, this is really your last shot at this, whether youβre aware or not.
βi hope not, iββ
βthatβs not what i asked jen, pleaseβ you arenβt one to plead. jeno hates it, youβre usual carefree attitude accompanied by pride replaced by pure agony. jeno canβt give you a sure answer, because he doesnβt know, and the fact itself is enough to amplify his own anxiety.
his mouth twists. β..noβ it seems you expected that answer, but the disappointment is still clear. βbut i donβt know what couldβve possibly gone wrongβ.
jeno catches the twitch of your left eye, and he allows for your head to fall onto his shoulder. βwhat if they were right?β you say, rising from your place, pupils blown out in a frightened manner. βwhat if itβs my fault and we never get to see him again? what ifββ
βy/nβ jeno doesnβt let you finish, he grabs your hands and soothes his thumbs over the soft skin. βdonβt say that, weβre going to see him againβ he hopes his expression conveys the.. truth in his words. βwe will, swearβ.
renjun opts to rub the back of your shoulder in an attempt to calm your nerves. you take in a deep breath, blinking downward towards the floor. βright, iβm not gonna stop trying..β you mutter, smoothing your hands over your face.
the truth is, the moment jisung left, everyone knew that this was possible, that failure could be on the horizon whenever, no matter your circumstances. itβs the slightest bit comforting to know that, offline or not, jisung is still out there. that means thereβs also a possibility of bringing him back too.
jeno knows youβll take any chance there is, it doesnβt matter how much you have to put into it.
<<< my battery is getting low.
<<< itβs cold, iβm going to sleep. just for a little bit..
XIV. Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β β β¦the companions of our childhood always possess a certain power over our minds which hardly any later friend can obtain β.
thatβs unfortunately easier said than done. youβve been trying to contact jisung for three months, but the government isnβt going to fund a rescue mission to save something they donβt even deem alive, no matter the persuasion or the arguments put up against them.
project apollo was a success, prototype 205 served itβs purpose. there is no reason to organize a mission to rescue the android or the spacecraft it piloted, itβs all said and done.
one official asks jaemin, βcanβt you just make a new one?β
he leaves the question without comment.
jaemin heard from fleeting whispers that doyoung decides to keep your position. interesting. he opts to locking himself in his own apartment for two weeks, practically sinking into his feat of isolation until you and renjun have to forcibly drag him out back to work then to your apartment.
he doesnβt verbalize his thanks, he instead decides to cook breakfast for all of you as his own silent appreciation.
sinking into work is mundane for you, and when jaemin slowly slips into similar habits, he canβt help but think of you.
good morning, i love you. i love you, i love you, i love you, i lovβ
βseems like you need itβ a cup of coffee is placed onto the table before him, and the dragging chair releases a cry as you take a seat. βplease drink itβ you plead, now much too used to the sight of jaeminβs frown.
he gives a glance, then, he smiles, not too big of a smile, simply a small one. itβs nice to be alone with you for once, just for a little while.. over coffee..
βtoo much caffeine, i might go crazyβ.
βthink itβs a little too late to be worrying about that oneβ you decide to respond, tapping onto the table in a specific pattern. you take jaeminβs hand into yours, examining his bare fingers. βi can get you a new oneβ.
βitβd be like replacing itβ jisung would know.
thereβs a certain look of distaste behind your eyes jaemin so wishes he could decipher, because for all his smarts, it feels that youβre specifically difficult to solve. he canβt decode you no matter how hard he tries.
a frown tugs at your lips, as if youβve been in a difficult spot, you speak; βiβll pay, just.. think about itβ.
i wonβt give up on him.
we wonβt give up on him.
(βneptune is really your favorite?β jaemin inquired with a clear indication that it was an eye-opener for him. even jisung seemed surprised by such a revelation, his human like eyes blinking once, twice, thrice as you began chuckling at the shared expressions.
βwhat? did you not expect it or something?β you giggled, head tipping downward as you fixed the placement of your glasses. βitβs the planet iβm most interested in, even before my internshipβ.
jaemin recalls the manner in which jisung glanced over at him, the intrigue behind his eyes reminiscent of your very own. there was a warmth in his chest that heβs sure could never be replicated, not only due to jisung, but also due to you. he blinked as he ruffled the otherβs hair, again staring your way. βitβs always been more about the robotics for meβ.
there was a conflict in your expression. βare you telling me you donβt have a favorite planet?β
the playfulness of your expression betrayed the gravitas you attempted to display, because you really couldnβt contain your amusement, jisung blinked up at jaemin, sharing the confusion with you. βeven jisung has one, have you really not thought about it?β
jaemin shook his head, now the one under speculation. βspace is not a huge interest of mineβ.
βthatβs boring!β jisung whined, and your hum of agreement earned an eyebrow raise. jaeminβs gasp of offense was most definitely overdramatized, and jisung giggled at the expression. βit doesnβt have to be deep or anything, just pick one, my favorite is saturn..β
jaemin had to resist a coo at jisungβs irresistible charm, he again twirled a strand of jisungβs hair between his finger. βi guess.. venus?β
both you and jisung let out a synonymous groan, drawing a sigh of irritation from jaemin. βof course you picked the boring oneβ jisung mumbled, jaeminβs resounding gasp full of the vexation he felt.
βwhat is that supposed to mean!?β
βjisungie is calling you boring nanaβ.
jaemin allowed for his bottom lip to jut out, his arms folding over his chest in a feigned display of stubbornness as he heard jisung begin snickering.
and you? you were simply enamored. jaemin was too, but for a contrasting reason.)
jaemin looks up at you, your gaze trained on your now empty cup of coffee. the smell remains lingered in the air, jaemin hasnβt touched his yet, much too busy reminiscing on specific memories. you zone out much too easily, he snaps his fingers in front of your face, and you startle out of it. βwhyβd you dye your hair pink?β
thereβs a childish curiosity lacing your tone, nail scratching at the metal surface of the table. jaemin keeps his hum light, his eyes traveling towards the model of the solar system, lasering on jupiter. fucking jupiter. βi like pinkβ.
you seem to enjoy that answer. βitβs prettyβ.
jaemin unconsciously tenses, nails picking at his cuticles. β..thank youβ.
he knows the sudden anxiety doesnβt go past you, nothing ever goes past you, itβs just the slightest bit frightening. the upward curve of your eyes imitates your very own smile, and you slide your chair backward, rising from your spot. βdonβt worry, alright?β
jaemin isnβt sure itβs that easy, but for you, heβll be sure to try.
he clears his throat, pulling you into a quick embrace that catches you off guard, if your small yelp is any indication. he canβt help the tightening of his arms, pressing himself against you in a moment of clarity. you chuckle into the air, reciprocating the affectionate gesture with your arms around his waist. βsorry, too surprising?β he mumbles into your shoulder.
he simply needed this.
βno, itβs alright, sometimes everyone needs a hugβ.
jaemin squeezes again, taking a deep breath. he keeps silent for a while, remaining stuck to you as he collects his next few words. βi love youβ he whispers, lips doing a downturn.
your eyebrow raises, and jaemin is sure you heard those words, because you chuckle again.
XV. Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β β my spirit will sleep in peace; or if it thinks, it will not surely think thus. farewell β.
jisungβs birthday is on february fifth. when jeno inquired as to why, you stated that βhe fits much of the aquarius qualitiesβ.
jeno took the initiative to study it. aquarius is the eleventh astrological sign, originating from the eponymous constellation. itβs ruling planet is uranus. aquarius are famously innovative, creative, analytical, spirited, loyal, loyalty, you muttered it to him the first time everyone met jisung, when he asked you about his name, your nails tracing the spelling into the palm of his hand. he finds it nice how things like that come back around.
tonight, aquarius is in the night sky. aquarius is one of your favorite constellations (but now that jeno thinks about it, all of them seem to be your favorite). jisung has never been able to see it, he left for jupiter before the constellation would be present in the sky, but both you and jaemin made sure to inform him of its existence, with him being an aquarius.
jeno disappointedly watches as the hope quickly dissipates from both your and jaeminβs expressions the longer days go without a message from jisung. you havenβt given up just yet, youβll never give up on jisung, you told jeno that yourself.
project apollo remains running, the spacecraft is all intact, but there hasnβt been an update on jisung at all. the visible unhappiness gracing your features is upsetting, jeno canβt recall the last time you were so down, your usual cheerfulness no longer around to comfort him.
donghyuck tries his best, managing to squeeze a few well deserved giggles out of you. there seems to be something off with jaemin, he avoids eye contact with you in the most not jaemin like way possible, strange. in contrast to him, renjun is much more.. well.. willing to approach.
really, jeno guesses it must be obvious by now, and jeno doesnβt just mean renjun. he means him, donghyuck, jaemin, all of them alike, they donβt have to repeat it for all of them to know how it feels.
donghyuck has slowly hinted to jeno over the years since heβs joined, but he never acts upon it. jeno never knew why, he always thought the headstrong, perverse donghyuck would take up such a challenge, yet he never attempted. he assumed that you and donghyuck would be a pretty good match.
but he only ever thought that because he assumed it would quell his own jealousy.
renjun could never hide it well enough, his easy blushing stuttering words gave it away pretty quickly. it wasnβt even a week after his initial arrival that he probably realized.
jaemin.. jaemin was always the hardest to decode for jeno. maybe the bonding over robots, and by proxy, the creation of jisung, was what caused the enchantment. jeno canβt even find it in himself to be possessive or jealous of any sort, he just.. gets it. jaemin is captivated by every single one of your actions, jeno has never been able to share such a feeling with a person.
renjunβs cheek presses against the window, gaze trained on the barely visible stars in the sky. you hum the familiar tune of βshining starβ by earth wind and fire, engrossed in the song youβve become so accustomed to. jeno knows why, he recalls you uttering; βitβs a classic, got me through university and this stupid internship..β
jeno finds your descriptions of things, even the things that usually donβt matter, to be so beautiful.
βwords are just so great, you know? i can call anything pretty, beautiful, amazing, prepossessing, itβs just so.. fittingβ.
jeno adores you, adores your heart and your soul and your fondness towards the weirdest of adjectives.
jeno taps in rhythm with your humming, the lyrics arenβt sung, but he can still picture them in his mind.
youβre a shining star
no matter who you are
shining bright to see
what you could truly be
youβre a shining star..
βshould we go stargazing?β
instantly donghyuck perks up, his hair all over the place. jeno chuckles at the sight, reaching over to put at least some of the strands back in place. βwhat time is it?β he mumbles, staring down at his bare wrist, no watch in sight.
βtwenty minutes to midnightβ jaemin replies, glancing over at the window, squinting in an attempt to get a better view of the constellations. βdoesnβt seem like a bad ideaβ.
βaquarius is in the night skyβ.
right, renjunβs constellation knowledge is easily comparative to yours. you slip on a sweater as you tap donghyuck on the shoulder, then intertwining your fingers with jenoβs. βoh donβt tell me weβre going to sneak up?β
thereβs a fitting expression of amusement gracing your features, but you donβt respond, simply humming.
jaemin doesnβt put up much of a fight, renjun seems enthralled by such an idea, jeno is aware that he often sneaks up onto the roof to watch the stars from time to time, donghyuck makes brash comments every few minutes, but itβs clear he doesnβt care, sneaking around is probably his favorite past time (jeno knows much more than he wishes to).
βshit, much colder than i thought it would beβ jaemin mutters, again avoiding eye contact with you as you give a small chuckle. βjisung would complainβ.
βwhy do you sound annoyed? youβre the one who programmed that!β
βi didnβt! he just naturally does that! heβs like a child..β
you push at jaeminβs shoulder, yelping as you watch him stumble. donghyuck snorts, pointing at the sight with pure amusement. βplease donβt die, you know doyoung would be pissedβ jeno whispers, jaemin stays glaring (but can it even be called a glare with the love behind his eyes?)
renjun keeps his hands settled in his lap as he stares upward. βreally? only because doyoung would be pissed?β
βyou know he doesnβt want any bad associated with the labβs nameβ.
βif only he knewβ donghyuck clicks his tongue, tilting his head as he rubs his eyes.
jenoβs squint, and his lips take an upturn. he can just barely make out the shape of a water bearer in the sky, someone pouring water out of a jug. huh, aquarius really is pretty.
the shine from the stars reflects in your widened pupils. you blink, then you snicker at something unsaid. βthink jisung would like this one..β
jenoβs eyebrows furrow, yet he keeps his face still, still enough that you wonβt pick up on the falter of his expression. you hum once again, swinging your legs back and forth.
βi miss himβ.
itβs an admittedly strange claim. everybody knows already, the honesty shouldnβt be a surprising factor. thereβs less of a tremble in your tone and more of a simple scratch, a rasp in your voice which can be attributed to your days spent staring at a control screen with no reply.
jeno leans against you, letting the warmth encapsulate him as he watches you smile peripherally. jaemin merely sighs, clearly sharing such emotions.
jenoβs smile grows when you nudge him, pointing upward at a shooting star.
βpretty huh?β
jeno doesnβt respond, not exactly focused on the stars, just you.
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ENHA TIK TOKβs Pt.2 (Ft. Mark Lee)
OT7- Vamps , starboys , hee jay , 02βz , heejake , hee won , heejake pt.2
Hee- one , two , three , four
Jay- one , two , three , four
Jake- one , two , three , four
Hoon- my absolute fav , two , three
Sun- one , two , three , four , five
Won- one , two , three , idk , four
Ni-ki- one
Mark- *blushing* , two , three , four , fine asfπ« , my fav , five?
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Dream- Iβm weak , jisung , haechan , I love them
Piwon- yes intak , π this song , omg π , theyβre so cool , just himπ«
8turn- jaeyunπ€ , jaeyun pt.2 , myungho , myunghoπ«£ , my bf Fr , omg bae , the hatπ€ , i love this one sm
Ateez - mingi , yeosan , San , mingi pt.two , big dick energy Fr , yunho
Hey guys! Iβm back with another TIK tok list but I added other groups too and I just couldnβt leave them outπ£ As always feedback is always welcome and appreciated! Love ya!!ππ«ΆπΌ also credit to @silkholland for the divider!
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THEY ARE π£π£ jn he posted a selca with only his eyes OH GOD hes so ;$@;@$)/&&):&?$,@$,$(97(97 Kill me im horribly down bad
- π₯ anon
this is so relatable tbh i canβt express it into words i love my forever husband haechan.
but everytime i see jisung or jenoβ¦..
i think it might be cause iβm biologically drawn to guys with big noses (i made that shit up) so i canβt help but see how beautiful and majestic they are i love you haechan pls understand
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hi hi!! let me start this by saying, i have been following ptp for a looooong time. been here since y/n stole jisung's cookies π€ i have been very on and off tumblr tho, so didn't really get to interact. i've also started reading stg!! that y/n is so goofy tho ughh i love her π«Ά anyway thank u for being the best nct smau creator, everybody say THANK U LQFILES π (ur genuinely such an awesome person, ur anon and moot interactions always make me giggle)
p.s if y/n isn't giving mark the homie smooch pass anymore, send him my way yeah? ;)
I SERIOUSLY LOVE YOU OH MY GODβ¦. youβre an og too omg this is so sweet and iβm cheesing so hard and iβm gonna kiss you.. fhank you for loving my work rhat means a lot and THANK YOI FOR CONSIDERING ME THE BEST NCT SMAU WRITER HELLO??? BIG COMPLIMENT i donβt even think i can claim that ππ£π©· you seem way more awesome and lovelier iβm glad you came into my inbox to say this because this is already an amazing interaction and yeah ily thank you<3333
y/n give mark the smooch probably but itβs okay because she got haechan β€οΈ
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On the scale of 1-10, how would you rate your closest moots?
omg lmfao umm... i hope u meant like rating them as ppl vs rating how close they are to me (does that even make sense??) AND YES I GAVE EVERYONE A HIGH RANKING CAUSE I ACTUALLY CANT BEAR TO GIVE ANYONE A LOW RANKING THEYRE ALL SO PRECIOUS TO ME <//3
@eternalgyu okay listen in my head she's a 10/10 CAUSE SHE RLY IS THE BEST FRIEND IVE EVER HAD. but no one is perfect and no one is getting a perfect 10/10 so if im like truly rating her based on everything i'd say maybe a 9.998/10? she can't spell and fr she has this problem of attacking me πΉ but she's the best person i know and always will be completely irreplaceable to me <33
@wheeboo 2/10 8/10!! rania is rly fun to talk to and be around and i think our senses of humour match rly well (since we're always fighting and then saying ily the next second π€Ί) our countless kdrama nights and music sessions are some of the most relaxing and nice times of my life so even tho i say i hate her prob once a week (SHE DESERVES IT CAUSE OF THE FUCKING ANGST) we all know i don't mean it <3 divorced for life βοΈ
@blue-jisungs hmmmmmm 8.5/10? maybe its cause i've known axe for a very long time and she's kinda a big multi like i am, its like nostalgic and comforting to talk to her?? she's rly goofy so she makes me laugh a lot but it just makes me feel at home.
@haecien 9/10 and yes he gets extra points for being the only guy friend ive ever had a good experience with to this day π that's actually such a feat like congrats cien ily <33 but srsly hes so amazing and its so fun to attack talk to him abt seungwoo and harua and all the ppl we love to simp over together
@weird-bookworm another 8/10 πΉ she always calls me a lil gremlin and says i need to sleep πΉπΉπΉπΉ but i love her i know she's just worried abt me (stop being such a mother sky sheesh π) very very chaotic always and def the biggest army i still know which makes me feel a little nostalgic also cause i probably would go weeks without hearing abt bts if it wasn't for her π₯Ή
@caramel-maveeato my actual wife like i HAVE to give her at least a 9.5/10 like!! she's just that amazing <33 her writing skills???? her DRAWING skills??? and she's so fun to talk to!! (rizzing me up every moment but its okay i flirt back π£)
@candewlsy OKAY MIZU LIKE KSJDKS. esp recently??? i feel like she got herself some extra points CAUSE HER HUMOUR HAS CHEERED ME UP SM RECENTLY. so i'm giving her a 9.25/10. if ur friends w her and see her humour then you'll know like SHES SO FUNNY
@evalevaeva actually #1 fuma simper w me. i think she gets at least an 8/10 for FEEDING ME DELUSIONS. but like the angst that you've written eva π STILL CANT FORGIVE IT. but def always fun to talk to her even tho she might be a beomseok simp π€¨ she's in denial but π€¨ i see it okay πΉ
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okay so recent isa drafts include confusing renjun thing, somewhat ghosty gay haechan fic, sexuality crisis chenle, and scaredy-cat streamer jisung ^_^!!
those are so wonderful and amazing.. current jj indeas iclude plagiarising my old acc to write chenle at a wedding, something something radio show something something mark, searching by china black and nothing else i just love that song, and ermm thats it π£
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every month of 2023 π₯³ / i was tagged by @euijin. thank you for always tagging me in these carly.. i do enjoy look back on sets π tagging: @foxinys @hyunsung @yangjeongin (hi mary) @huiracha as always u dont have to but id like to see... sorry if you're getting tagged again btw π€
january / popular. i rmr this clip being unavoidable for like a month...... πΆββοΈ anyway surprise to no one. vs favorite. ok but this has to be one of my favorite sets 4 ever. the day seungmin showed up with bleached bangs was beautiful.... i do rly love how much fun they had with it....π
februrary / popular. omg moment of silence for mahagrid these clips were really fun. also this guy continuing to haunt my most popular sets. vs favorite. omg im doing 2 for 1 (1,2) cause i can't pick and really had fun giffing con and i think they came out rly cool ππ
march / popular. i do not know why. omg actually i do. it's the hair isnt it. vs favorite. wooho πΏπΏπΏπΏπΏπΏ omg. they rly were cute together. this really was my favorite but i'm including miroh cause i really liked how it came out πΊ
april / popular. you will never guess who this is! okay but i wholeheartedly agree i love when he is like a mop π€. vs favorite. 2min(:
may / popular. i can't believe this was late may.. look where we are now. who would have thought. but hyuji is very cute. vs favorite. omg this one is an easy jisung fav. he looked great. no idea why i went w these dimensions for the gifs but jisung im a fan π
june / popular. yeAHHHHH fucking finally and also Deserved. i loved sclass cause finally it was a mv i had fun giffing again and also seungmin looked great. and i love this set. fun mv. vs favorite. omg this one cause i rmr having fun with it πΏ also liked how it turned out. just silly guys boxing and dancing. but shout out to koms seungmin because i had to include him naturally..... π₯²
july / popular vs favorite. nothing happened on this blog in july apparently. but still i agree. come back seungracha.....
august / popular. solid....he looked good. i rmr this being a bother to color tho. vs favorite. popular π€ japan cb π€ favorite. i rmr this also being a bitch to color but now i really like how it came out πΈ
september / popular. been a second. but 100% real.... might actually be one of my favs of the year overall too (sets and things that happened). vs favorite. wait i might have peaked in sept cause this is one of the best sets i ever made in my life im p sure ππππΆββοΈπΆββοΈ(to never be able to recreate ever again)
october / popular. heh(: 2min. vs favorite. omg bitch ass set to make.... was so close to being deleted for good but she deserved to escape the trash i think. at least i can say an attempt was made πΆβπ«οΈ
november / popular. right. im with the people on this one π vs favorite. ππβΉοΈπ£ man. circumstances and insanity of deciding to do this aside. im happy with how it came out and i cant believe i stuck with making these sets his entire mc career π§ββοΈ
december / popular. at least for now. i agree though. vs favorite. actually this one might as well be my favorite of the month too.
oh. i forgot. bonus round cause i decided but this is one of his best styling ever.
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WAIT STOPβΌοΈπβπ§π§π§ IK I LITERALLY JUST SENT IN MY ASK BUT I ACTUALLY JUST SAW THE PRIVATTER ONEπ«π«βΌοΈβΌοΈ BC BEFORE I ONLY LOOKED AT TJE TWITTER ONE BC NY DUMBASS THOUGHT IT WAS THE SAME MF THING LMAOOOOOKOKSZJJAOZJSKSNEJDKEπππππ₯π₯π₯π₯π₯π«π« WJAY YJE ACTUAL FUIXINT HELL Z WHERE DO I EVEN BEGINβοΈβοΈβοΈβοΈβοΈβοΈπ«π«π‘π€¬π€¬π€¬ THE FUCKING PUSSY THE FINGERINT THE VIBRAYOR THE LITTLE WINK YHE SHAKING THE WORDS SURROUNDING IT THE TEARS OHHHH MMMYHH FFUUCKING GOD THE TEEESAARER π«π©π©π©π©π¦π¦IM A MAJOR FAN OF DACRYLHILAI I LITERALLY JUST NUTTED π₯π₯π°π°π¦π¦π¦AGAIN Z U OWE ME A NEW PAIR OF PANTIES IM LITERALLY CREAMINF RNβΌοΈβΌοΈβΌοΈπ€¬π€¬π‘π‘π‘π€¬π€¬π‘π©π‘π€¬π‘π π‘π€¬WHAT THE HELL WHY IS THE ART SO HOTβοΈβοΈ WHY IS JISUNG SO HOTβοΈβοΈβοΈWHY ARE YOU SO HOTβοΈβοΈβοΈ WHAY THE ACTUAL FUCKING HELL π‘π‘π‘POOKIE WHAT IS THIS WHO SAOD THAT YOU WERE ALLOWED YO DRAW YJOS GOOD βοΈβοΈβοΈβοΈπ€¬π€¬π‘π‘π€¬π WHAT YHE HELL WHAY TJE HELL WHAT THE HELL Z I LOVE YOU SO FUCKING MUCHβΌοΈβΌοΈβΌοΈπ«π©π©π£ππππ΅π΅π€§π₯΄π₯΄π₯΄π₯΄π»π»π»ππππ
FUCK OH MY GOD and what if i tell you that this ask weighs so much more importance to me and my art rather than my actual very real critiques from university (LMAOOOO)
seriously?! ik ure excited over literal PORN that i drew but i think thats what makes this special β¦ you ?! a random anonymous person β¦ liking my horny art ??! giving me goosebumps at the thought LIKEEEE this is my biggest flex everπβΌοΈβΌοΈβΌοΈ
IM CALLING HANNIE TO BUY U NEW PANTIES and hes buying a pair for himself so that he can ruin it too (maybe i should draw thatβ¦one dayβ¦when im done making art this semester π)
POOKIE (may i call u pookie too?) IDK WHAT POSSESSES ME TO DO THESE THINGS HAHAHA i have to thank people like mei (user meivida if u see this just know that i am endlessly grateful for ur bumass) and people like you for giving me the motivation to create and post my creations EVEN IF THEYRE NASTY AND FULL OF CRYING BOYS (more to come! more toβ¦CUM)
I LOVE U MORE ANON π₯°π₯°π₯°π₯° have the nicest day possible pls thats a threat
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youβve been saying and stating for a while that there are like 5 to 6 chapters left for slwy to end, and I think you should write like 10 more πππ£π£ like I love this story so much, so... I seriously think that thereβs a lot yet to explore about this world, like for example hyunjin's character... weβve seen his soft side for about 14 chapters and now we have this new side of him thatβs yet to unpack a lot more about him, and the new characters that you just introduced to the story? so much to develop πππ
I really want to see the boys from town to come to Seoul and destroy all their prejudices(? that they have towards the city yk, then we have Jisung, Chan and Binnie that weβve been hearing from them for a lot of updates but some of them are yet to appear yk what I mean, I think thereβs still a lot for you to tell about this imaginary world you created thatβs so beautiful and gorgeous π₯Ίβ£οΈ
yk what would be the biggest plot twist? yn ending up with Minho ππππ€βοΈ everyone saying felix or nate or jeongin and I came up with this π£π£
man youβre gonna make me wanna write them forever π and i wish i could honestly. i wish i could write seasons of their love and their entire saga as they navigate his life and her dreams. as you said, theres a lot of room for development and im going to be trying my hardest to portray everything within these last few parts. i also believe that a lot of people do lose interest in the story after its been running so long + when the characters get together :( i spend a lot of my time on this so i want to deliver my best version of it. perhaps i may release epilogues or special βepisodesβ later on when it finishes, to quench that thirst haha.
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Its okay i just spend all my money on black friday.... saving starts after dec 25 trustt! THE FIRST TIME I WENT i literally only brought my lightstick and a bag that couldnt even fit my phone and kept like JUMPING RIGHT??? but literally no one moved and they all looked at me nasty when i was having fun like can yall MOVE omg and theyd only move if a member got close to them or smt.. then i was talking abt it in a groupchat after and someone gave me bs abt "maybe theyr uncofmy with that" then dont buy fuckass barricade are you dumb??? omg sorry it ^pissed me off so much they camped for 3 days just to not move ANYTHING?? and haechan would notice you lit or not so dont worry haedgaf
U NEED to listen to the new album pls haedgaf i literally died listening choo choo thats my song next to nasa... wish is so talented fucking hewlll AND THE SEASON GREETINGS.. fight club was okay i feel like but the nct dream also pissed me off dont even mention that one lad like why is it so PLAIN u literally showed u can do better....? i miss candy era so much fucking hell i bought 2 pcs from there and ,ever got it... FUCK SM!! i better get an interaction after 500.. hope nctzens can vibe this time instead of acting like weird sasaengs like tds3 LITERALLYY RENJUN IS SO PERFECT his speech at tds3 from yesterday i literally bawled i cant handle it im so glad he got atleast a therapid im glad he is doing better... like i hate the fact that everyone preaches about 'lets worry about idols mental health' till one actually takes care of it??? are you slow??
I DID NOT SEE THEM BREAKING INTO THEIR HOTELS WHAT ARE U TALKING ABOUT BROO this starting to piss me off can he start carrying a weapon or something like... these bodyguards week ass fuck cant even handle these tiny ass people and seeing jisung x sion will ilterally kill me u dont know and im going to america cus for transfer student stuff lets hope mark sees me and we are at a record shop and we fall in love yes omg... ALSO i didnt know u were muslim omg???? and second i didnt know u were lqfiles .... and confession of the day i almost cried watching family guy today
PERIOD SIS i hope you got amazing items with that sale (tho black friday doesnβt hit like it used toβ¦ where is the 90% DISCOUNTβ¦ society is #fucked) BUT HSJDHSJ WHY ARE THEY TRYING TO PUT IN ON YOU OMG??? if anything THEY are the weird ones like i hate how concerts have solely become a way of getting interactions, no one wants to VIBE anymore these days.. treating you like youβre a caveman dpmo GO HOME if youβre not gotta get lit @ everyone ππ iβd be pissed too and i just know they smelled funky wdym CAMPED?! donβt let them ruin this concert for you VEAT RHE SASSAENFS!!!
I LISTENED AAACKKK i wrote down my first listen to some of the songs (ignore me mistaking ryoβs bridge part for yushi) β¬οΈ anyways YOU KNOW ITTTT choo choo is definitely my fave song on there it reminds me a lot of chain by 127 LIKE WE IZ MOVINGFF my top 3 would definitely be choo choo nasa and hands up/touchdown rn tho but all songs were enjoyable oh wish youβre too goat..
dreamβs creative director fell off so bad bruh where are all the GAGS we used to get hits like candy lunch box, litch the whole istj concept is the best thing ever if i ever buy an album it will definitely be that one π£ HDKDHSJDJSJ THEY DONE SCAMMED YOU OMG IM SORRY TO HEAR THAT but this is also killing me ππ girl fuck SM ALWAYS.
i didnβt see his speech but i heard he thanked his therapist? he is so adorable they could never make me hate you renjun and i rather have him be healthy with more weight than theyβre used to, than him being depressed and struggling like no thank you. youβre perfect renjunnie π₯Ί apparently wish has been the subject of these crazy fans for a while now like what the actual hell is SM doing bro π they fr dgaf about their artists itβs crazyyy come here wish iβll protect you.. the sion jisung meal would be so fecking good bruh lets eat bismillah π€€π€«
IM ROOTING FOR THIS FANFICTION MOMENT WAIT when you two bump into each other and he drops his stuff and you two both help him pick it up and he is like βthank youβ¦ iβm sorryβ and thatβs the start of your 70k slowburn forbidden romance story with angst and pining LETS GO π₯π₯π₯ no but fr enjoy the concert and stay safe π«
i am IN FACT muslim AND lqfiles mashaβallah :3 hdjdhsjdh ngl i thought you knew i was lqfiles because i had mentioned it once before (though i like to keep this account a secretβ¦ which is why i donβt mention it on that account aside from one time) and that you came from there lol ππ ANWAYS ARE YOU MUSLIM TOO BY ANY CHANCEβ¦. AND HELPPP what episode was it?? i havenβt watched family guy in so long but i saw a youtube short yesterday that was funny AF but i canβt imagine any scenario where family guy would make some cry ππ you might be the first
hope youβre doing well anon β€οΈ
#anon#pls forgive me for these late replies anon#hope youβre still around π₯Ί#my tmi: i donβt have college today so iβm here at home lazy and cozy π₯³#also ignore the fact that that i
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ABOUT THIS BLOG:
ββ .β¦ this blog and the stories on it is all FICTIONAL. FICTIONAL. qπ¦ΉΒ°β§β.α
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1. other acc is @missalosa, more fluff soft stuff bc im a sucker for fluff π fluff > smut idc idc
2. I mostly write these stories for myself, but I take requests and try my best to live up to it!
3. the more suggestive nsfw story blog bc I caved so minors dni!! sorry!!!
4. ult groups: skz, aespa, le sserafim, new jeans, ateez, enhypen, txt, ive, itzy (im a multi stan what can I say)
5. thereβs a lot of groups that I want to stan but I suck with names so it takes time for me to usually know whoβs who π slowly learning p1harmony, boynextdoor, and svt
6. ult bias: HAN JISUNGπ₯Ήπ₯Ή he was my first ever bias other than jennie from blackpink and i just love him sm I see so much of myself in him and heβs so comforting to me I love him smsm I hope he knows how loved he is like βΉοΈβΉοΈβΉοΈ
dni: ppl who request any stories that involve some sort of SA, absolutely not like hello that ICKS me out, racist, homophobia (like why does that bother u sm hello), people who request MINOR idols make me feel weird like?? why do u want that??
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okay im well aware that im not the best story writer I KNOW, OKAY I KNOW. thereβs a reason why im not an actual author yall pls ππΌππΌ english is not my first language.
ngl I know this whole blog is smut related and although a few stories containing nsfw make me giggle and kick my feet ππ it took me a bit to fully want to make a blog dedicated to just that bc..sometimes I cringe at my own writing, if I cringe at me writing cutsie scenarios and stories imagine me writing abt ppl fucking.
buuuutttt, as much I will say I prefer fluff over smut that does not mean I donβt like reading smut too, like some ppl here KNOW how to write good smut and when I can tell they do it makes the story sm more enjoyable and easy for me to go through even though I find myself uttering of words like pussy, like who decided it should be called that. why does that word give me the same shiver I get when I hear the word moist. LIKE OHMYGOD? (im a loser sorry)
but besides that, I WILL write those type of stories on this blog thatβs why I made this blog in the first place. idk if you missed the fact that I put my other acc on the first note here it is again -> @missalosa itβs where I write more soft, cute, sweet, sfw stories!
also guys how THE FUCK do yall have such pretty themes like I have a vision but idk how to execute it well π£π£π£ pls help tyty
feel free to ask any questions and Iβll try my best to answer them!
listening to this on repeat as I write this why is this song so underrated and WHO ARE THESE BOYS??
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yn and jisung are such a cringy couple but not the cute kind. theyre like the ones who kiss in the hallway and make everyone uncomfortable its mainly yn tho ..
oh wow well anon sorry that you feel like that about them, this is kinda killing mesjsjd but i can guarantee you they are NOT the type of cringe to be making out in the hallway and go like βitβs us against the worldβ (because that gives me an ick myself lmao) theyβre more so the annoying couple who just like each other a lottttt, an unserious couple who loves to be extra !!
NTM ON Y/N PLS sheβs just silly and happy to be with jisung π£
#asks.#from anon#( score that goal! )#THE EXCEPTION BEING THEM KISSING NEAR THE VENDINF MACHINE but quite literally no one except mark and jeno saw them so!
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