#I love it when the power of fandom breaks the internet lmao

[diabeticgirl4]

Fhsjfskf this is the funniest thing

[shadowbrightshine]

My mom, who is in her 40s came into my room asking me about a tag she saw on a romance book sale. "Tail play" She doesn't really read romance but she was looking for paranormal fiction and she does like werewolves and they all seemed to be there. Also she was looking for one of her favorite authors and hoped one or two of her books would be onsale.

This led into a really interesting conversation. See my mom is a strong Christian, and I am too. I'm a monsterlover, and a furry. (ace and sex repulsed but I do read kink focused smut because the lead up is usually much better than normal stuff.) and she was obsessed with Vampires as a teenager.

So people aren't annoyed by the length.

She says she looked up most of them, and she figured out the rest. But one, the tail one she didn't get any results from Google searches and figured I, the self proclaimed monster lover and the one who she knows has more adult friends than she has might know what Tail play is. (I use a lot more social media and have a bunch of close friends on an 18+ server, so nice to just have other adults around. I like hanging with my other teen friends but it's nice to have a break.)

She thought it might be like butt plugs, which could be, but she mentioned it was the paranormal section and I explained it's a very popular thing to make the tail an eroginous zone. It can be used well, or used as a lazy way to get a character in the mood without trying. (I actually learned about it from gacha videos when I was 14, but I didn't know that wasn't a real animal thing for a bit so I avoided touching dogs tails so they wouldn't get mad at me lmao)

She doesn't read smut, and doesn't even really like romance. At least not when it's the focus, so when she was looking around she ran unprepared into the bottom bin romance 'trash' and actual romance trash. She was shocked by all the noncon, and she said she felt a bit sick even just reading some of the descriptions of the stories. We talked about the Fantasy but also that it's weird. It's odd that so many romance books marketed to young adults feature noncon and straight up rape.

Sometimes it feels like an excuse for lazy writers to ignore any chemistry because they can just force the sex scenes. Which is. Not good.

She also stumbled upon omegaverse and I explained it to her. I don't read it myself, I respect the place it has in internet history and fandom culture but I've never liked the alpha beta omega stuff, even before the Alpha Male Bros tm came a crawling, begging for scraps of coolness. She didn't like it. She also prefers more women in her stories and omegaverse by default is mostly men.

But one of the big things to me, was when she was talking about the possessiveness in a ton of werewolf fiction. She didn't like how everything seemed to only cater to the desire to be required to stay and to be owned. To be dominated. She says she's always preferred what little romance she reads to be more equal. Which, to me isn't surprising due to how my mom is, but may to the idea of a strong protestant Christian many have in their head.

I explained it's a very popular trope. Personally? I'm 50/50 on it. I'm up for a little "be mine" and "you're all mine" but it's just so overpowering. It's hard to find the werewolf as the sub, or without the power play.

Mom and I ended up talking about our various reader woes, her in the Christian fiction and general fiction world, and I in the fanfiction and fandom world. And the monsterfiction community.

We both spoiled ourselves by reading really good books, or for me fanfiction, and good books because my father is a Sci fi buff and has a massive collection of some beautiful stories. And also I'm autistic and if I don't think a story is good near the start I can't finish it. I can't hate read anything.

My mom and I bonded over something I didn't expect, the lead up. Mom enjoys tasteful scenes, or as she says "closed door" or fade to black sex scenes. We both love the romantic tension when written well. That's why I tend to seek out kink stuff. The lead up is more necessary. But I've never really enjoyed the sex part of smut.

And worse sometimes people stop trying during the sex scenes. Like the writing quality drops because "why try the people reading already got excited, they know what to do."

I personally love reading sexual tension, I love the kissing and the rubbing and the wanting. I love reading about the hot and bothered. But I don't like reading about genitals and I never have. Kink, especially those with unusual eroginous zones tend to focus more on that. Also monster fiction, if it is with really weird monsters, will use unique situations and open up to some amazing writing. I even skim past the actual sex scenes half the time. But if you write good lead up, I'll probably give it a look.

Mom has started to develop the "pickiness" some of us fandom lovers have as she gets older, and we bonded over the wish for more of specific things without being able to find it. Me with empty tags, her with genre issues.

Because the best stuff is hard to categorize, which is cool. But it sucks! Because it's really hard to categorize and find more of. We make it work.

But I think it was a really interesting conversation.

[talentforlying]

@normaltothemax: ♬♬ — SONGS I LOVE

a pain that i'm used to - depeche mode! i am a HUGE depeche mode fan, they're one of my top ten bands, and this one is so much fun to sing! the dynamic shifts between the sirens and the verses + the low steady vocals both give off a very ominous, hypnotic vibe that i think fits constantine's aura of both overwhelming danger and magnetism. the lyrics also sit in a very late-hellblazer place for me, when he's exhausted and angry and just drifting aimlessly on the synchronicity highway from one catastrophe to the next without being able to really feel anything other than apathy towards the fact that he's going to have to solve somebody else's problem. he very much loses himself after his sister dies; he finds a pain that he's used to in direct, seething hate with his name stamped on the label, not oblique calls to destiny that may or may not end in tears, and late hellblazer has him almost craving someone to despise him, just so he knows where he stands.

i'm not sure what i'm looking for anymore / i just know that I'm harder to console / i don't see who i'm trying to be instead of me / but the key is a question of control

also, the song speaks to the fact that a lot of the shit he pulls and the emotions he shows are truly who he is, not always just a con; he wears masks on masks, but there's a lot fewer there than people think. at his core, constantine is driven by deep compassion and burning empathy, he just has to conceal it a lot in order to protect the people he cares about:

i can't conceal what i feel, what i know is real / no mistaking the faking, i care

welcome to the family - avenged sevenfold! this song has been my baby since i wrote gabriel in the supernatural fandom back in middle school lmao, it's my personal patron saint of lost souls and rebellious sons. unlike with gabriel, though, i like to think of this song as the wall that constantine is always shoving against, the manifestation of his opposition: "it seems there's no one to call," "you can't win this fight," these are the fleeting moments of despair before he buckles down, battens down all the vulnerable places, hammers back the doubts, and gets to fucking work. this song is his subconscious wailing at him while he steadfastly ignores it and pushes through, never mind the burnout that will be waiting for him on the other side, never mind how much it costs him. this is what's left of his dad whispering in his ear, his inner monologue, the person he's afraid he'll one day become, and it's an unavoidable part of his subconscious that he has to drag himself past every day of his life.

i see you're a king who's been dethroned / cast out in a world you've never know / stand down, place your weapon by your side / it's our war in the end, we'll surely lose but that's alright / so have you figured it out now, so have you figured it out?

+ 2 songs: for lucy, werewolf heart - dead man's bones has such a kid antichrist vibe to me, and even the title alone makes me think of how his powers manifest at night and kind of lock him away, like a miniature werewolf transformation, and how arthur and john are scrambling to find solutions for him so he doesn't have to become something he doesn't want to be.

'cause if the full moon comes, our love is done / so forever, towards dawn, we run

and for jake, fight - the dirty youth feels like the cage match energy constantine would bet money on. it has the vibe of someone who's kind of bound up in fate to be a brawler, to take the hits that other people won't, until the closest thing you know to a release is that angry energy, which feels very jake to me.

don't wanna go there, i've had a late night / i'm feeling nauseous, chemicals enter my brain / i'm a control freak, an internet geek / i get these cravings, to get out and escape you know that it's fate, and now you can't see / you lose your conscience, and break the silence / the script is written, it's complicated / oh, something's about to erupt

[noa-nightingale]

Queer Watcher 2020

I am looking back on this weird, not-so-wonderful year - and on the ways @wearewatcher made my 2020 so much more wonderful. Originally, I wanted to list all the highlights I could think of, but one of the things I am most grateful for is Watcher’s inclusion and support of LGBTQ+ folks. I am just one queer person but I know there are many more in this fandom.

So, this ended up being a list of things I, as a queer person, appreciate and enjoy, and I am so so happy that I can write this. Buckle up, I have Things to say, and it is going to be emotional.

Ryan’s Pride shoes. I sometimes wonder how many sales Converse owes him. I love my own pair btw.

“Look, all I’m sayin’ is, y’know, hey, uh, love everybody.” - Shane Madej, Gangly Puppet Freak. A PSA from the Weird/Wonderful Shakespeare Theatre vid, regarding bisexuality - he is so awkward with it lmao. Whole video has really great vibes too.

Steve/Stephanos.

Various tweets, including wishing us a happy Non-Binary People’s Day and a happy Trans Awareness week.

Ryan and Shane including their pronouns in their twitter bio. (Little things like this don’t go unnoticed, and they are very appreciated.)

Gay Oars! Ugh, my heart. Their first appearance totally caught me off guard, and I haven’t recovered since. (I also causes me no small amount of joy that the most romantic and tragic song of all time is called “Gore on the Shore”.) I could yell about my love for these guys all day. It is a beautiful thing that these characters exist.

Gay Oars, again - I knew they would show up and I still was not prepared. The song made me cry. I haven’t recovered from that one either. I love the progression from the first, tragic song to the second, joyful and loving song. I have so many emotions about these oars, I probably could make an entire list just for them. (Little fun fact: Even though the song made me cry, my first reaction to that episode was to go on tumblr and yell about it excitedly. Like, I was emotional but in an enthusiastic kind of way. The more difficult emotions hit me about four days later, for some reason. And then I sat in my room and cried my eyes out. Like, as much as I like being queer, sometimes it is just damn hard and the pain seems too much and you have been hurt over and over and don’t know if you can ever recover from it. And it is just really good to know that someone cares about your wellbeing as a queer person. Even if you have never spoken to that someone and he does not even know of your existence. And to be honest, I don’t always know how to deal with that. The kindness? The genuine allyship? I have no idea how to handle that, and it simultaneously heals and breaks my heart.)

Every time the words “his boyfriend” were uttered; I am especially thinking of Are You Scared here.

All the fan art Watcher inspired and continues to encourage and to support. There are many great artists in the fandom! And Watcher’s content inspires me to draw and create more myself! How wonderful!

Toxic masculinity who? It is nowhere to be found.

This... special kind of gentle and kind weirdness? It honestly had such a positive impact on me and the way I interact with other people and let them interact with me.

All of the wonderful people Watcher brought in. I am sure they will work with more amazing folks and I am really looking forward to that. Personally, I am hoping to see Eugene Lee Yang at some point. (Would be really happy to see Thomas Sanders too.)

Here’s What You Do. Just the whole podcast. It was such a delight.

I was hesitant to include this because I believe many of us have negative memories attached to it, and it was not a fun time for anyone (including the lovely people at Watcher themselves). But, yes, I am mentioning it: That one HWYD episode and the follow-up. I can only speak for myself, but the follow-up has an incredibly special place in my heart. To me, it is one of the most important videos Watcher has created. I watched it several times, I journaled about it extensively and it made me a better ally. Hell, I even showed it to my mother and one of my siblings (like, the entire video). I know it was a difficult thing to talk about but at this point: A HUGE thank you to Steven, Ryan, Katie and Shane for handling this in an absolutely fantastic way. I feel welcome and seen and appreciated, and in the end all I want is this: For people to genuinely give a shit about me as a queer person.

On a more lighthearted note, I enjoy it way too much that Ryan is able to say “LGBTQ” without stumbling over the letters. It seems like such a tiny thing but it brings me an unholy amount of joy.

The Professor. I don’t want to call him LGBTQ+ because that has not been confirmed as canon but he IS comfortable wearing clothes that are typically seen as “women’s clothing”, and as a trans/non-binary person I am kind of obligated to mention it.

I think I had an out of body experience when Ryan said “Oh thank you baby” to Steven in Too Many Spirits. Then I had to pause the episode to finish laughing. And then they brought it back in the next episode. Bless them.

Every time they/them pronouns were said.

The entire Hatshepsut PH episode. What can I say, I like it when gender norms/expectations/roles are broken. And even if we can’t call Hatshepsut trans by today’s standards, declaring yourself another gender has such power.

Without giving too many details: I had my struggles and problems in the past with Christianity and ~certain~ Christian people, and it is really good (and I mean REALLY good) to see someone whose faith and integrity are so interwoven and who is inspired by his faith to do good things and to do right by people. I obviously only know the things about his belief that Steven decides to put on the internet but what I’ve seen is almost healing to me, in a way. I am very grateful and happy that he is willing to educate others and to keep working on himself. Warms my heart.

The certainty with which these beautiful people call themselves allies.

Just... the general kindness and compassion, and the willingness to listen and to grow. I promise you, we notice and we love you for it.

I could have expanded on all of these points but I tried to keep this short.

And look. I don’t want to put anyone on a pedestal; that would not be fair. I am just immensely grateful for kind people who genuinely care and who genuinely try to do right by others and to bring joy to others.

And I know we like to have fun here but Watcher’s content is just a lot more than entertaining, meme-able fun (although it is that too, of course).

I had a blast with it this year and I am very much looking forward to the next year. I feel like I can’t adequately put into words the myriad of little (and not so little) ways these people have made my life better this year. Thank you from the bottom of my aroace, non-binary heart.

[serodev]

Hi, I'm brand new to the fandom and your blog but I figured why not? ^^. I'd like a matchup too if you don't mind, congrats on 300!!

Nickname: I go by Sock mostly online, sometimes I use the alias Cali tho

Sexuality: Cishet girl

Likes/hobbies: I love to paint and bake mostly, sometimes I do a little origami if I feel like it and do a bit of meditation for the self care. I haven't read often lately but I do love a good fantasy book. My favorite place to go is the beach, and these probably didn't exist in the time Demon Slayer takes places but I also love amusement parks and arcades, basically fun little places like that. Also a big fan of violence- jk, I mean I go for really actiony and kinda violent stories/media (lmao kinda like Demon Slayer) and I'm a sucker for badasses in general. I also love animals, I mainly have a softspot for big "scary" ones like big cats or sharks, but I have an adorable small sized puppy who I love dearly

Dislikes: Bullies, bullies, and bullies. Of any kind who do it for almost any reason, if someone picks on the little guy I automatically want to break a bone and I wish I was bigger and stronger so I could act as an effective protector of sorts. I also can't stand places that are simultaneously small and crowded. I can stay in a small room, I can be around a lot of people but I lose it entirely in a small space with a lot of people. Also can't stand litter or tagging in nature

Extra: I'm extremely loyal, as a friend and a lover, and I get easily upset when someone I care about is upset and will immediately want to remedy their feelings and/or the situation if I can help it and that will include being willing to beat the snot out of whoever made them upset. I'm an introvert mostly so I don't like to be around a lot of people for a long time or for more than two days in a row but I love having friends and can spend time with them much longer. I also love to ramble about random things that catch my interest or that I like to study, including nature and animals and all that but also again, stories I read (or you know, one of the many fandoms I'm in '^^)

Note(s): I've never actually heard someone go by Sock on the internet, but it doesn't matter too much because that nickname is way too cute for me to handle;;; Also, awwhh... I'm more than sure that your puppy's cute too!

I match you up with...

Tanjiro Kamado!

» Everything about you and your personality just screams to me how well you and Tanjiro would get along! You two would be everyone's favorite power couple, that's for sure!

» Oh gosh, the things you two would do together... It doesn't matter to Tanjiro if he's awful at something (like being on rollercoasters or maybe even watching some of the violent media you're into) because he really wants to spend time with you, and he's making sure that you don't feel alone while being with him! (The boy's like a personal puppy if you squint enough.)

» Tanjiro's the guy who will actually break a bone (by accident!!!) if he sees someone bullying an innocent person, and you might have to pull him back before he makes the bully bleed by headbutting them or something!

» His dedication for justice is cute, though, so it's hard to be angry towards him, so please try to kiss his cheek or something when the whole bullying scenario is sorted out.

» I think that spending time with Tanjiro can be an extremely pleasant thing for you even with your introverted personality, thanks to his calm and sometimes stupid character. (Thankfully, though, he's usually pretty cute while he's acting stupid, so it doesn't really burn too much energy when you try to explain things to him)

[best-enemies]

For the fandom ask meme thing can I request the whole damn alphabet or is that not very cash money of me? I’m nosy lmao I wanna know all of them!

AHDKAJSDKJAHSKDA JACK YOU’RE THE BEST

A - Your current OTP(s)/OT3(s)/OTX(s)

I’ve had my current OTP for like almost 8 years and it’s, obviously, Thoschei (Doctor/Master). My other current obsession is the Gallifrey OT4 hehehe

B - A pairing you initially didn’t consider but someone changed your mind

It’s funny because I didn’t ship Hannigram at first... I’d thought the idea of a cannibal having a relationship was terrifying because what if they had sex and Hannibal got hungry in the middle of the act? Lmaoooo 

But yeah they’re my endgame now. I watched the show when it first aired and I was about 14/15 years old so now you see why I thought that. Although I’m still afraid I’m gonna be reading a fic and Hannibal will suddendly bite Will’s dick off or smth AKJHSAKJSAHSASKAJ

C - A ship you have never liked and probably never will (be nice)

Uhhh Doctor/Clara. Mainly because I don’t like to ship the Doctor with companions (there may be one or two exceptions but I don’t ship them enough to actually say I ship them lol) and I don’t know I just never vibed with it

D - A pairing you wish you liked but just can’t (again: be nice)

Doctor/River. I mean, I did like it for a while years ago but now it’s just... eh. I think she has a waaay better chemistry with the 12th Doctor, but still don’t ship it. I might give it a try once I listen to the River audios but so far meh. I’m not much of a multishipper anyway.

E - Have you added anything cracky/hilarious to your fandom, if so, what

God. I’ve written a couple of Academy Era (focused on the Deca) crack fanfics and I still have to translate them to English. They’re pure garbage but I love them. I have a lot of fun writing crack fics because they’re easier and I can ignore whatever piece of canon I want just for the laughs

F - What’s the longest you’ve ever been in a fandom

Guess it’s Doctor Who, been here (in and out of the fandom) for over 8/9 years

G - Do you remember your first OTP, if so who was in it

Uhhhh I think it was Han Solo and Leia, since I was a kid really. I wanted to marry both of them lol

H - What is your favorite source text for fandom stuff (e.g., tv shows, movies, books, anime, Western animation, etc.)

I had to google what a source text is and still don’t know

I - Has tumblr caused you to stop liking any fandoms, if so, which and why

I don’t think so, but Twitter definitively has. I remember a couple years ago I was curious to see what voltron was about and watched a few episodes, it was ok, fun and cute but the fandom was so annoying I stopped watching it for good and don’t care about it enough to pick it up again

J - Name a fandom you didn’t care/think about until you saw it all over tumblr

I had definitively forgotten about supernatural until I saw it all over my dashboard in the year of our lord 2020 lmao like in my wholock days I tried to watch the show because everyone on my dash (is it still called dashboard?) was talking about it and I watched about 8 episodes before dropping it. But seeing it again on the dash was actually a happy surprise because the memes are too funny hahaha

K -Say something nice about someone in any of your fandoms

I’m extremely shy irl and on the internet as well but I wanna say that  @janeturenne is one of the best authors ever and her fanfics are a blessing in my life; also @thebraxiatelcollection who brings awesome content to my dash and is also one of the best authors. And of course, you, Jack, also one of the best authors god I’m so BLESSED

L - Say something genuinely nice about a character who isn’t one of your faves (chars you’re neutral on are fair game, as are chars you dislike)

Uhhh I guess I’m neutral about the current companions. They’re not my favorites but I don’t really dislike them - they had a lot of potential and chibs came up with some good storylines but did not develop them well in my opinion. I think Graham is a fun grandpa whom I’m going to miss when he leaves; Ryan is cool and could’ve done a lot more if the writers had kept a few things, it’d be awesome if he vlogged all of their adventures. He’s like the one I was curious to see more but sadly didn’t feel a connection; and Yaz, I hope she’ll keep growing and that her friendship with the Doctor will finally be developed to a level we can connect to her.

It sounds weird because with the fam it’s always ‘what I wish could have been’ because I never felt really connected to them :(

M - Say something genuinely nice about a ship that you don’t ship (or its shippers, or anything related to you)

Ok... I don’t really ship Rey/Finn but I think it’s one of the sweetest ships ever, and if they ended up together I’d be happy. They love each other and are there for each other always so, yeah :D

N - Name three things you wish you saw more or in your main fandom (or a fandom of choice)

I don’t know if I got the question right but it’s three things I wish I saw more in my main fandom? Well, if it’s that, then, 3 things about the Doctor Who fandom: 1) people having more civilized or light-hearted discussions about things. Like, I genuinely disliked an 8th doctor audio I listened once that my friends loved, and they made fun of me and we joked about it. Also once we were in a live twitch video playing among us and discussing doctor who, and then we got into a ship “discourse” as a joke and nobody really cared and just laughed because everyone knew it’s fictional shit so why get mad over it? 2) Doctor Who has a titanic amount of content, it’s all canon but at the same time it’s not, so who cares? If you want to listen to Big Finish audios and if you can afford it, then lisiten; if you can’t, it’s okay, no one has the right to tell you you’re less of a fan. Just tell them to fuck off; 3) The best way to keep fandom alive is by creating content. Here in my local fandom we have several podcasts dedicated to all areas of the whoniverse (the show, the expanded universe, the audios, etc), those old fandom websites who do serious work to bring news to the fans, people who make subtitles for the classic series (we don’t have it available here so they do their best to make it accessible to other fans), accounts dedicated to promoting dr who fans who create content, and we even have people making their own audiodramas with dw characters and writing book-lenght fanfiction to help explain the show to people who’ve never watched it, and a great variety of things. I’ve seen a few of these things in the international fandom, mostly by older fans, so I wish younger fans about my age who have the means to make this kind of stuff would make it too. Maybe there’d be less twitter drama out there lol

O - Choose a song at random, which ship or character does it remind you of

“the killing moon” by echo & the bunnymen reminds me of thoschei. yep it was totally random

P - Invent a random AU for any fandom (we always need more ideas)

The fact that we don’t have a pride and prejudice AU for brax/romana yet is driving me insane

Q - A ship you’ve abandoned and why

I’ve mentioned it before but doctor/river, don’t really remember why idk I just don’t vibe with it anymore. But also because thoschei has so many different pairings in 1 ship that I don’t really feel the need to ship them with anyone else lol

R - A pairing you ship that you don’t think anyone else ships

GOD I NEED TO TALK ABOUT IT BECAUSE IT’S SO SPECIFIC ok fellow academy era stans gather around if you have read Divided Loyalties there’s a scene where it SHOWS that Magnus had a crush on Ushas. And NO ONE HAS EVER TALKED ABOUT THEM and the power couple they would’ve made. I write them into all my fanfics in hopes of making other people ship them but I’ve had no success so far

S - Show us an example of your personal headcanon (prompts optional but encouraged)

The Master is a big fan of musicals and in the 77 years he spent on earth he watched every single one ever. I’m gonna be bold and say that when he was young, still Koschei, he was an artist, and thought about dropping everything to become an actor on Gallifrey. Time Lords do appreciate art, and have their own plays, but it’s just the same old and boring ones the young people don’t care about. The Master then created a shocking performance that was way ahead of its time and the older Time Lords were so appalled they banned him from writing and presenting plays and that’s his villain origin story

T - Do you have any hard and fast headcanons that you will die defending, about anything at all (gender identity, sexual or romantic orientation, extended family, sexual preferences like top/bottom/switch, relationship with poetry, seriously anything)

1) The Doctor and the Master married on Gallifrey and the entire show is just them having the most litigious divorce in the universe (still isn’t final because the Master has killed all the judges); 2) Ushas/The Rani is ace; 3) The Deca was a 10 people polyamorous relationship; 4) Romana and Livia were girlfriends at the Academy and they hate each other now because the break up was baad; 5) Romana writes fanfiction; 6) Romana/Leela had a thing in Davidia I KNOW it; 7) Leela pegs Narvin; 8) Brax has a life-size painting of Romana at his collection or a statue or smth; 9) Brax’s dream in Reborn is actually REAL and he’s married to Romana, Leela and Narvin all at the same time

U - 5 favorite characters from 5 different fandoms

I don’t even think I’m in 5 fandoms but

Doctor Who: The Master, The Doctor, Romana, Leela, Sarah Jane, Bill (this was the hardest thing ever)

The X-Files: Mulder, Scully, Monica, and can I add The Lone Gunmen too?

Star Wars: Leia, Obi-Wan, Finn, Poe Dameron and honorable mention to Din Djarin and Grogu

Hannibal: Hannibal, Will, Bev, Alana, Chiyoh

V - 3 OTPs from 3 different fandoms

That’s hard

Doctor Who: thoschei ofc, gallifrey ot4.......... uuhh as you can see i don’t ship many pairings in the show

The X-Files: Mulder and Scully. And whatever Scully and Monica had going on because they definitively flirted

Star Wars: Poe/Finn, Han/Leia, whatever Han/Lando had going on too

W - 5 favorite ships and 5 kinks you like best for said ships

WHATVASHAJSKAJSA ok this is a little embarassing but I don’t have a lot of kinks for many ships... I guess I have some for thoschei like, choking, whipping, blindfolds/gagging, bondage, begging, biting, sem-public, phone sex, dirty talk, body worship, praise kink, etc. Alright alright I know it’s a lot but in my defense they've shown half of these on the show

X - top 5-10 characters who are yoUR PRECIOUS BABIES AND YOU WILL DIE DEFENDING THEM

The Master, Romana, Leela, Brax, Narvin, Bill Potts, Martha Jones, Sarah Jane, Donna Noble, Lucie Miller. No particular order for most of them but the Master is my precious baby and I will die for this mf

Y - What are your secondhand fandoms (fandoms you aren’t in personally but are tangentially familiar with because your friends/people on your dash are in them)

Not many, usually the people I follow are in the same fandoms as I am but I’ve seen some mutuals reblog some Hadestown stuff which is a play that I’ve never seen but definitively would because the protagonists look hot 

Z - Just ramble about something fan-related, go go go (prompts optional but encouraged)

I DON’T KNOW WHAT DOES IT MEAN

it took me three hours to do this but it was fun!! thank you bb <3

[echoeternally]

6, 10, and 12 for ENY, thank you in advance.

6: What makes this fic special or different from all your other fics?10: Why did you choose this pairing for this particular story?12: What do you like least about this fic?

I was answering this, and Tumblr reloaded, deleted my original answers, and now I’m like half-dead from writing so much and losing it. (I especially lost prime answers for the first question.) Lemme try recapturing stuff.

Going right for the juicy stuff, eh? Ok, let’s see what we’ve got!

6) Its length, lmao. That’s just a joke, but it really is the longest I’ve written.

I think a lot of what makes it unique is it’s kind of an all-encompassing type of story, where it hits a lot of canon material, but presents less explored concepts, and it just delivers it how I like and wanted it to.

So far, I haven’t really written a hero/villain romance that hits the same notes that this one does, and I’ll explore that a little more below with the next question. But, like, the balance struggle for heroics and villainy, the morality between not just the protagonists but the entire cast, that helps drive it so well. And it just captures everyone’s involvement so nicely.

It also relies on a lot of the history that I’ve studied and gained from playing and learning about the Super Mario franchise at large, and it feels as though it hits a lot of series. Fanfics generally pick at canon material that they can utilize and bend around to their will, but what I like doing with ENY is actually rearranging so many ideas into a new scope for them.

Even small things that don’t feel noteworthy can fall into line for this. Sports and spin-offs that I would ordinarily hand-wave as major involvement for the series became a neat background that I explored and exploited not only for Bowser and Mario’s relationship, but Daisy’s general involvement for things. Random encounters from games like Super Mario RPG that involved a super rare and mostly forgettable species (Shamans) ended up getting a huge role increase because of how nicely their utility weaved into the fanfic’s story, what with their special magic powers, the few characters that they seemed to have sired for later spin-offs, and this general mysterious exotic flavor that they can add in.

Those are just a couple of points that I touched on, but like, this kind of story allows that depth and exploration for the franchise at a greater scope. It goes from even the earliest days of the franchise (yes, even touching back to Donkey Kong) all the way to more recent installments (Galaxy games, and very recently Odyssey), while still picking up around the history of the series along the way.

And I don’t think any of my other fanfics capture that same kind of scope, or show that presentation nearly as well. Most stuff that I’ve written kind of goes around ideas, “What-If” scenarios that play out, and don’t have a huge amount to go over. Some are just answers to ideas that people shared on Tumblr, little scribbles that play with similar concepts.

The biggest counterpart fanfic series, my Pokémon stories, also don’t take the same routes to explore the franchise. Whereas my Mario fanfic relies on its history and canon to get involved with everything, my Pokémon fanfics take elements from the series and morph it into something else. That’s not a mistake or a shortcoming at all; it’s just the two different ways that I wanted to write the stories for each franchise.

Finally, I forgot to even mention this last time, but the reader responses are also a huge part of writing for me, and I love the energy, the excitement that people get from this story. And that just really keeps me into it, and I want to keep interacting with people with the story itself. That makes it so fulfilling.

The rest will be below the cut!

10) Years and years ago (I hate that I can use that now, lmao), I used to read a multitude of fanfics, but never had an account. Bowser/Mario stuff was part of it, nothing that I recall very well anymore, but it was part of the collection of things that I had read.

I just remember that none of it reached 10 chapters, nothing delved deep into it, and I was like, “Come on, give me more! This a combination to explore!” But this pairing was so rare compared to the more mainstream (and hetero) counterparts, so it wasn’t an idea a lot of people played with, or were considered weird for doing so, I’d wager.

And yet, hero/villain pairings were something that people really enjoyed around the Internet and in fandoms. I think what tipped me into favor with it was that there were official explorations of dynamics between Batman and the Joker, and professional writers took to exploring Joker’s character as someone that was romantically invested in Batman, obviously to the point of obsession, but like, genuinely into him.

So, couple that, with me being like, “But we can do more!” and a bubbling interest in fanfics, to the breaking point where I end up going, “Fine, I’ll do it!” And then I made my account, and tossed up a story where Bowser confesses an interest in Mario, explores a load of things that work in favor of their pairing, tackles everything going against them, and had him go, “Screw all of that, I still want you anyway.”

Then one of my readers went, “Hey, what’s Mario’s reaction to that?” And then I wrote up the counterpart for that. More people were like, “Hey, that’s cool, can we get more?” So, I wrote up the story launching off from there.

Their dynamic is fun to explore, because they seem like a good fit for each other. Even Bowser’s desires of conquest can be twisted in favor of a potential relationship for the two. And it’s great, because you can really, really hit all of the fallout notes not just between the two of them, but their people and world around them. The reactions just keep going, and the longer it takes to finally hit them, the bigger the blowouts can be, or they can be a lot different when you stop to think about them. Because Mario and Bowser are definitely connected deeply to the entire Mushroom Kingdom, so it’s not just a small thing, and it’s not something that people can expect to just happen. That makes it so exciting to follow the two of them.

Also, I discovered that I have a soft spot for Knight/Royal romances. I didn’t realize it at first, and now it’s just kind of a thing I fall into a lot.

12) You know, I don’t know, because I kind of like a lot of it, really. If I had to really pick something, it would end up based off of reception, not really based on what I wrote.

And honestly, I think even then, I still liked what I’ve written so far for the story. If I go back and carefully re-read every little bit, I’ll probably find stuff that’s weak, stuff that’s dated, and other sour notes.

But that means I have to scavenge for it, and off the top of my head, I can’t think of anything that I really don’t like about ENY. It’s kind of been my genuine pleasure to write the story, and I’ve enjoyed all of it.

Maybe that’s a bit of a cop-out? It’s really how I feel though. Even stuff that bubbles to mind now, where I’m like, “Oh wait, that chapter wasn’t great,” or “Oh, people didn’t quite take to that,” that still includes stuff that I enjoyed myself, so I can’t honestly admit to regretting it.

[lashydsdomain]

1-154. you wont

bitch

bet i will

1: Full name

lashy. das all you get

2: Age

19

3: 3 Fears

stairs, glass breaking, not being able to get ahold of someone

4: 3 things I love

my ocs uwu, my friends, my fucking tablet goddamn

5: 4 turns on

not comfy sharing on tumblr

6: 4 turns off

ill say ill come back to this one then leave this in the post

7: My best friend

rn i would say it’s probably blitztrolls

8: Sexual orientation

pan uwu

9: My best first date

ahh.... i havent had an in person first date still ;u;

10: How tall am I

5′5″

11: What do I miss

not being stressed eue;;;

12: What time were I born

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

13: Favourite color

pale blu

14: Do I have a crush

ye u//w//u

15: Favourite quote

you know these things are asked and my mind goes blank

16: Favourite place

the woods just after it’s rained

17: Favourite food

im a basic bitch and just gonna say mac n cheese

18: Do I use sarcasm

no absolutely not. nope.

19: What am I listening to right now

ambles playlist- it’s on ocean eyes by billie elish rn

20: First thing I notice in new person

prooooobably like. their face? typing style if it’s online

21: Shoe size

uhhhhhh i think like a womens 10?

22: Eye color

blue/green

23: Hair color

dark brown

24: Favourite style of clothing

loose and baggy because if i cant be comfortable what’s the point

25: Ever done a prank call?

HELL YEAH

27: Meaning behind my URL

lashyd was one of my first fantrolls and i liked the way it sounded

28: Favourite movie

mmmmm either labyrinth, princess mononoke or annihilation

29: Favourite song

no clue my friend im bad at picking

30: Favourite band

same as above sweats

31: How I feel right now

excited but tired

32: Someone I love

passivetrolls u//w//u/

33: My current relationship status

in a relationship!

34: My relationship with my parents

love my dad, kinda dislike my mom

35: Favourite holiday

christ mass

36: Tattoos and piercing i have

none, im so scared of needles ;u;

37: Tattoos and piercing i want

mmmmmaybe something stupid and simple on like my ankle?? i dunno what tho sweats

38: The reason I joined Tumblr

another fandom and i got bored with homeschooling lmao

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?

i dislike them but they have tried to contact me a few times before i blocked them

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?

not usually

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?

i dont text so ill go w discord and no i have not the last person i messaged was you shenk gdi

42: When did I last hold hands?

the 2nd ;u;

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?

7ish minutes

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?

hellllllllllll no

45: Where am I right now?

room

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?

prooooobably my bf or my dad. hate alcohol tho

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?

loud but only w speakers

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?

only da

49: Am I excited for anything?

absolutely motherfucker im making new friends left and right

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?

i got two uwu

51: How often do I wear a fake smile?

:))))))) irl most of the time tbh

52: When was the last time I hugged someone?

last night

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?

i would probably cry ugnfldkjfgslfdjg the last person i kissed was my bf wheezes

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?

i mean probably.

55: What is something I disliked about today?

ehhhh nothing bad has really happened today

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

probably my friend from serbia uwu

57: What do I think about most?

ocs probably sweats

58: What’s my strangest talent?

burping on command? i dunno

59: Do I have any strange phobias?

glass shattering ouo;;;

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

beh ind

61: What was the last lie I told?

calling myself a basic bitch lmao

62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

phone probably? video calls make me nervous

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

hell yeah to both

64: Do I believe in magic?

hell yeah i yell tossing salt on all my rocks

65: Do I believe in luck?

yeee

66: What’s the weather like right now?

uhhh clear i think

67: What was the last book I’ve read?

Shibuya Goldfish

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?

nop

69: Do I have any nicknames?

lash, lashy, gremlin and then stupid relationship nicknames gldsfgjfgs

70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?

prooobably almost falling down some stairs at a con and chipping my shin and probably partly pulling my shoulder out of the socket

71: Do I spend money or save it?

i try to save but end up spending it ouo;;;;

72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge?

nearly

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me?

there are some half customized MH dolls so i guess yeah

74: Favourite animal?

cat uwu

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?

drawing ambles trollcall pick

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?

satan stan obviously

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?

Here - Ancient Magus' Bride OP

78: How can you win my heart?

art of my ocs ngl

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?

fuck if i knew

80: What is my favorite word?

probably fuck if you would ask my phone lmao

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr

passivetrollsblitztrollstavvys-trollsfilibusterfrogwe-are-the-legion

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?

hey fuckers lets rumble

83: Do I have any relatives in jail?

not that i know of

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?

teleportation ngl

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

probably 87

86: What is my current desktop picture?

87: Had sex?

sweats how about we move on

88: Bought condoms?

ye

89: Gotten pregnant?

hell no

90: Failed a class?

i think yeah

91: Kissed a boy?

yeeeeeeee

92: Kissed a girl?

nop

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?

does it count if we were indoors

94: Had job?

not yet wheezes

95: Left the house without my wallet?

ye

96: Bullied someone on the internet?

i dont think so i mgiht have when i was younger

97: Had sex in public?

n o

98: Played on a sports team?

ye!

99: Smoked weed?

ye.

100: Did drugs?

only weedles

101: Smoked cigarettes?

nop

102: Drank alcohol?

yes and i hated it

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?

nop

104: Been overweight?

ye

105: Been underweight?

nop

106: Been to a wedding?

nop

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?

 every day p much

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?

nop

109: Been outside my home country?

ye!

110: Gotten my heart broken?

;;;; yeah

111: Been to a professional sports game?

ye

112: Broken a bone?

possibly?

113: Cut myself?

if this is on accident then ya

114: Been to prom?

prom is a waste of time ngl just go to arbys

115: Been in airplane?

yeye

116: Fly by helicopter?

n o

117: What concerts have I been to?

blueman group and the 4th of july ones that play around here

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?

yeeee

119: Learned another language?

bits and pieces

120: Wore make up?

yeah

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?

nop

122: Had oral sex?

lets just skip the sex questions

123: Dyed my hair?

yeee

124: Voted in a presidential election?

ee

125: Rode in an ambulance?

nop

126: Had a surgery?

nop

127: Met someone famous?

yeye

128: Stalked someone on a social network?

god no

129: Peed outside?

this question is weird

130: Been fishing?

hell the fuck yeah

131: Helped with charity?

prrrrobaby?

132: Been rejected by a crush?

yeah ;u;

133: Broken a mirror?

i dont think so

134: What do I want for birthday?

money

135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names?

NO

136: Was I named after anyone?

i was named after two people uwu

137: Do I like my handwriting?

i can barely read it lmao i hate it

138: What was my favourite toy as a child?

my stuffed tigger uwu

139: Favourite Tv Show?

fuck i dunno probably cyberchase or fetch i dont watch tv anymore lmao

140: Where do I want to live when older?

somewhere quiet but convenient

141: Play any musical instrument?

flute and violin

142: One of my scars, how did I get it?

i have a scar on my knuckle from making garlic bread ;u; wasnt even good

143: Favourite pizza toping?

banana peppers

144: Am I afraid of the dark?

nah

145: Am I afraid of heights?

mmmm at times

146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?

yeah >w>;;;

147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?

all the mc fuckin time

148: What I’m really bad at

telling people when im not up for something

149: What my greatest achievments are

being alive you fuckers cant beat me i won over hundreds of other fuckers and im here

150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me

Lets Not, Kids

151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery

buy so much cosplay shit and helping friends get what they need

152: What do I like about myself

im getting better uwu

153: My closest Tumblr friend

passivetrolls or blitztrolls wheezes

154: Something I fantasize about

being able to help my friends out of the places they are right now QuQ

155: Any question you’d like?

more questions for amble and my other girls!

[mermaidsirennikita]

since tomdaya’s rise and now all three main spiderman couples being irl couples at some point (not 100% on kirsten and tobey tbh), do u think all three were legit? i feel like there’s no way all three spiderman x love interest co stars were not 100% pr (even tho they all definitely were to some extent)

Lol.......

The Spider-Man PR shit is funny to me, because they're VERY VOCALLY trying to act like all of this is natural and the powers that be don't want them to date, when they OBVIOUSLY want them to date and do red carpet shit together. It's the "my MJ" thing.

Kirsten and Tobey--I can see them hooking up casually. I don't think it was serious. I've heard that Tobey can be quite a dog (and is generally kinda sketch, hate to say it) and Kirsten was going through a lot of shit around that era (Jake Gyllenhaal drama, substance abuse issues, mental health struggles) so I can see it happening casually and being blown up for PR.

Andrew and Emma--I think they were legit. I also think it was played up for PR. They had, imo, the best natural onscreen chemistry of any Spider-Man couple and it makes sense to me that they would be two good-looking people, on a similar wavelength career-wise at the time (obvi Spider-Man, but also she was in her It Girl phase and he was always pretty critically respected and seen as One To Watch). I actually think they seemed quite in love at one point, and it was probably the most Serious Spider-Man Relationship, but it was also VERY much something that factored into the PR for those movies (alas).

Tom and Zendaya--Lmao I think this is a case of two people dating, one people having a significantly better long term projection than the other, and one person benefiting a lot more from the PR than the other. Are they together? Probably? I guess? But I don't get the fascination with the relationship and the fandom around it. Like "couple goals" lol??? They're two people in their mid-twenties dating? They will most likely break up? And the fandom largely seems to be Tom stans projecting onto Zendaya, which is why I say he benefits from it more than she does. He gets to be the Internet's Boyfriend because he flew to Rome to see her (having recently flown to Italy to not see Zendaya, I can say that this is a trip I am fairly sure a rich person could make quite easily). I'm not sure what she's getting out of it, but she also doesn't seem to be playing it up QUITE as much as he is (his comments to the press, his posts on the Gram).

I was just discussing this with someone, but here's the thing--when you get play by plays of relationships in the press... This doesn't mean that the relationship isn't real, and to an extent all actors suffer from an invasion of privacy. But I'd call it the "Bennifer Test". If you get to hear about how people are "just hanging out as friends", for weeks before suddenly you hear that "they are quietly dating", "they have moved in together" "he's serious about her"... That's when you know there is some highly orchestrated intentional PR happening. Every celebrity couple involves SOME degree of PR, but the ones where you don't know about them until suddenly they're on the carpet together OR BETTER YET, suddenly they're married? Those are the ones that are less PR dependent, imo.

[the-big-ol-guardian]

Responding to Weak-Ass Krillin Fans [pt. 1 of ?]

Straight from the pits of the fiery Hell that is “people who take their fandom too seriously” we have this golden gemstone of somebody so morally-outraged by my post that they couldn’t even bring themselves to credit me for the content they ripped off my blog (and then blocked me in a brazen act of cowardice)

The worst offence though, is that her defense of Krillin is so laughably bad it’s at best entirely moot and at worst more evidence of how worthless Krillin is. Let’s break this down...

Part 1: Krillin’s Fuck-bot

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How can one human being be so soul-suckingly devoid of humour?  “Oh, Android 18 still technically has human-bits! She’s not just a machine that he fucks, she’s a cyborg... that he fucks.” Wow, really “got me” there.  Also, I love the needlessly thrown in part about how she was “enslaved against her will,” like I’m now supposed to feel guilty or something about mocking such a tragic literary figure (lmao). Oh what Shakespearean-tragedy we have on our hands; a woman given the powers of a God who frees herself from her oppressive master within 5 minutes of being introduced to the audience, who goes on to do pretty much nothing before getting absorbed into a far more interesting character, anyway.  Cry me a river. 

Part 2: Krillin’s Only Good for Dying

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I guess I’m just supposed to take your word for it that Gohan definitely absolutely would have died on Namek without Krillin, even though I see no reason why that’s necessarily true, but even if it was, what difference does it make whether or not Gohan survived Namek if they were just going to wish back everyone who died there, anyway? This argument has multiple layers of moot built into it. 

I don’t know why you brought up Tien, since he did nothing in the Namek arc, but it should be pretty self-evident that Vegeta needed to be there. I could see some clever writing that could’ve left Gohan out, but Krillin could’ve been taken out with very minor changes to the story. Having Piccolo arrive on Namek was probably the stupidest plot point of the entire series, though. At least Krillin was just redundant, so I’ll give you that one.  Basically according to you, what justifies Krillin is that he can do basic math (durr, 7-1 = less than 7! what a genius!) and he “saved” characters that only needed to be saved because of plot contrivances that only existed to give Krillin something to do in the first place. Great, his death “motivated Goku,” but so could’ve Gohan’s or even Piccolo’s. Actually, I think Bulma would’ve been a pretty good choice, too. I mean, she was the first character we see him interact with back in DB. W/e, the point is Krillin didn’t do anything that couldn’t have been done without him.  Oh and btw, there’s nothing brave or intelligent about handing over a dragon ball to Vegeta when his only other option was to die and lose the ball to him, anyway. His actions aren’t “smart” by virtue of other characters doing things that make up for his fuck-ups. If Gohan hadn’t found the other dragon ball, would Krillin’s decision still have been “quick-witted”? Because he would’ve done the same thing, either way. This isn’t a point of credit for him. 

Part 3: Krillin Named His Daughter After His Ex 

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This isn’t a “misconception” just because one character is in the manga and the other isn’t. It doesn’t matter that one came from Toriyama and the other came from Toei staff, they’re both in the show, and that fact doesn’t stop being true just because I have the option to force my brain to ignore it on a technicality. Maybe you’re content with performing mental-gymnastics to compartmentalize this weird quantum superposition that these characters have to be in to both exist and not exist in the same universe simultaneously, but that doesn’t mean everyone else has to be.  You can edit the show whatever way you like in your own head to keep things nice and pretty for yourself, but I’ll take the show as it is, thank you very much.

Part 4: Krillin Can’t Fight Good

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You people will shamelessly adopt narrative-fatalism whenever it suits you. Who decides whether or not the kienzan is “too tiring” to use? Did the show decide that of its own volition? What it an inescapable conclusion given the established lore of the series? No, that’s just some bullshit head-canon you came up with to justify a plot hole. Also, if getting his potential released wasn’t enough to allow him to make a big flashy-flash followed by a laser-razor in a world of planet-busters, you’ve pretty much made my point for me that he’s useless and had no purpose being on Namek.

You also cherry-pick one situation out a sea of times Krillin should’ve done this (but didn’t) like this is enough to defend Krillin as a character, and even this example falls on its face. You just said it yourself, he fired off “about twenty” (uh... sure) in rapid succession, and not one of them actually landed a fatal (or even meaningful) blow on Frieza. Sure, someone else could’ve hit Frieza with something other than the guaranteed kill-shot that is the destructo-disk and hoped for the best, or...

or maybe...

now just hear me out on this...

MAYBE KRILLIN COULD’VE USED THE SOLAR FLARE AND THEN FIRED OFF “ABOUT 20″ KIENZANS

Whoa, crazy.  

Part 5: Krillin the Genetic Failure

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Before tearing into this bit of silly nonsense, you do realize that these aren’t real people, right? I mean, you don’t honestly think you’re going to guilt me over how “mean” I’m being to an imaginary person, do you? Does it actually offend your sensibilities to call an imaginary no-nosed comic-relief midget a genetic failure? Because half of his reason for being is to be the goofy freak the audience gets a cheap chuckle out of in-between scenes of the characters that actually matter smashing fists into one another (the other half of his purpose is to give exposition and then die for dramatic effect). Anyway, your big defense of Krillin here is that his official height is listed as an unchanged 5-feet, so therefore he’s not a midget nor is he shrinking. Do I even have to explain why this is bullshit? What does it matter what the internet tells you his height is when you can clearly see with your own two eyes that he’s more than 9″ shorter than Goku and getting shorter as time goes on? If they listed his official height as 5′5″ would you believe that, too? What if they said he was 5′10″? Even still? The Japanese are notorious for not understanding how to appropriately list their characters heights and weights. Did you know adult Goku canonically weighed 135lbs at one point?  

Yeah... okay

He’s since been bumped up to 187, but even that’s still well below what he should be listed as given his frame and musculature. And Vegeta used to be 123lbs at 5′4″, but has since changed to 5′6″ 152lbs (which is also light considering his musculature, but w/e). The point is, the “official numbers” are subject to change based on what’s seen in the show. They clearly aren’t basing the sizes of the characters on their imagined numbers first, it’s the other way around.  

If Goku is 70 inches tall, then Krillin is clearly at best 3′5″

At what point do you wake up and realize the buck stops with what’s actually in front of you?  The only thing you did right in this whole response was not challenge the point of Krillin tossing a rock as sleeping Goku, because that shit was indefensible. Krillin sucks, and his fans suck harder. 

The end.   

[justanearth-boundmisfit]

(1) y'know it's so funny seeing the positivity police make all these posts about how they're stating their opinion abt the show that destiel is endgame & they never actually mean it bc they don't know anything but yet continue writing 58482923625 million metas on the color shirt dean is wearing & that one beer label that has the bi flag on it and how jack is uwu gonna bring his daddies together uwu like lmfaooo that's why we're calling ur shit out bc younger fans eat this shit up and start

Hi anon! Under the cut it goes the reply, you know, it got long as usual….and wanky. 

(A note after an asshole tried to police me: don’t like my rants or me venting or fandom wank and above all criticism towards the show: go away, this is not for you and it’s tagged properly.)

I agree with all that you said. But let me tell you this: before this year I never had a problem with what metas wrote about spn, Cas or destiel. After all internet is full with metas and fan theories about every show out there and every movie ever made. There are crazy as fuck theories that I’ve read and moved on, because everyone has a right to have a reading about the show they are watching. I was never against that. In fact there were some metas in the fandom that I truly admired because they were on point and they shared all of their thoughts with us. Kudos to them.

But then these new metas started to arrive with only one objective in mind: to prove that destiel is going to be canon no matter what. And again, ok, they had their readings, they hoped for something, I didn’t agree, but it was not my place to say anything. Suddenly all these people started to say that Cas being dead was a good thing. They were happy about it in fact and I was wtf? Really confused there, because no matter how much you love a ship, if you really like the characters you can’t be happy one of them is dead! And we have already so much shit from the show and the haters towards Cas, than to see “fans” clapping for his death… yeah I just couldn’t shut up. Not going to take well people cheering about my favorite character dying you know? 

After that, when a bunch of us said: hey that’s not ok, wtf are you saying that is good that Cas is gone? The mocking started. And I don’t follow any of them, but I’ve seen the posts ok? Because people shared them with me. I’m not fucking lying, I don’t need to. So, we bitter Cas fans not only had to put up with the haters but now we were also being mocked by some of his “fans” as well. I let it pass too, because I don’t like going to blogs to police people you know? I don’t do that. I vent and rant in my blog, but to go to their blogs to start shit as they were doing…nah, didn’t worth my time, really. But of course then, their policing began. I mean, I’m here, on my little corner, with my people, sad and bitter about not having Cas, and I see the positivity police going everywhere telling us: “you don’t know how to watch the show! Why don’t you like Jack? Why are you being so negative?! You do know that this is a drama right? I went through your tags and I’m baffled you are so wrong in everything!” And I’m not exaggerating here, these are things they said to us. In our blogs, through messages, or tagging us directly, reblogging us. So right there was the moment when I reached my fucking limit. Sorry not sorry. 

I have to put up with more than half the fandom cheering that Cas is dead or gone or absent, but also I can’t be sad or bitter or angry about that? What.the.ever.fuck??? I’m not having that shit ffs! I don’t care if they have 2423242 titles on their walls, nothing gives them the right to tell other people how to feel, or how to see things. We can exchange opinions, we can disagree or agree, but to police me about how I feel for my favorite character or if I watch the show this or that way, or to tell me to stop watching because I only like Cas,  who the fuck gave them the right? 

And now they are upset because we say that they are not really Cas’s fans. After they were really happy for his death, because endgame! Cry me a river! Don’t believe in their shit for one minute. I’ve never saw any fans happy about their fave dying, another exclusive and horrible thing spn fandom has now. I can’t fucking believe it. And all because of a ship. So they can’t tell me they like Cas if they prefer him dead, because of a sick notion that that is what is going to make destiel canon after 9 fucking seasons. If they prefer a placebo!cas because aaaawww dadstiel!! If they say that Cas being gone and captured is a good thing. They are so full of shit and themselves that I can’t believe how many people are buying their fucking lies and twisted readings. 

Which brings me to the poor people that believe in them and parrot everywhere their lies. I’m sorry for them really. I know the majority are new to the fandom and to the ship, and want to believe and be positive. And well I can’t feel anything but sorry for them. They are buying not only tptb lies, but also the bs these metas are spewing everywhere. And look I want a big happy ending for Cas too ok? Of course I want that! So I get it. But how that is going to happen if we only have Cas for a few minutes and then no Cas at all for months? If every time we saw him this season he was either dead, talking to the empty, on a fucking out of place cowboys cosplay episode and then saved by asshole Lucifer and on top of all that, being captured by a demon? How? And I didn’t need 2423423422 words to resume how Cas story line has been this season, to show you how crappy it is. It’s just there! I can’t be blind ffs! After all these years what purpose it serves being blind as fuck? 

Fandom being so happy with Cas being absent or clapping about placebo!cas, and not shouting to the rooftops how unfair that is, it’s what is going to give us even less Cas. A lot of us said it last season. And now here were are. We didn’t even saw him for the mid season finale. And I’m not fucking happy about being right. I surely hope with every season that I’m wrong as all fuck about my thoughts about Cas’s story and where they are taking it. Seriously. Last season a bunch of us saw Cas’s death coming, we wrote about it and how sad it was, and we got shit for that. Again. And I cried rivers watching Cas being stabbed on the back ok? Even if I knew it was going to happen I was really upset. I’m tired of seeing him hurt, bleeding, tortured, without powers, or with powers but treated like a weak angel (remember the I couldn’t kill a vampire? wft?), a fool that despite having all this pop culture in his head thanks to Metatron, doesn’t know who Beyoncé is, that goes to suicide missions that make no sense at all… I’m tired. And sad. And angry. And I have a right to express that on my fucking blog.

*sigh* And then they give me the discourse of “spnfamily!!” Lmao! Give me a break! hashtag only love! my fucking ass! This fandom has some good people ofc, but it’s also full of hypocrites. Don’t give me the peace! speech if you started shit in the first place, threw the rock, and hid the hand. Why people in this fandom can’t accept criticism towards a show that is mediocre at the best of times I will never understand. Now we even have “Cas’s fans” policing everywhere when we should stick together loving him. And wanting him back. You know, instead of wanting him dead, because of a fucking ship.

This got reaaaaally long, XD. Sorry! I guess I’m venting after a week or reading so much bs. 

Take care anon!

[elsewhereuniversity]

[Right, so. P sure I’m officially obsessed lmao. Anyways here’s the third and probably final part of the tale of The One With Many Names, also known as My Blatant Self Insert. Hope it doesn’t break canon too much, please enjoy, and sorry for spamming! (also i still have No Idea What I Am Doing ahahahaha.)]

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Eventually, as everyone knew ce would be, The One With Many Names was Taken.

Spectator, the junior who watched people and noticed patterns, sharp-eyed behind the shadows of their hoodie, collected their bet. They placed a pittance of their winnings on Many-Names coming back.

It was mostly out of pity.

~~~

Your memories are doing The Thing again, and you cannot for the life of you remember the sequence of events that led to place you in the Elsewhere. But you know you are without iron, and your backpack is missing, and you should be terrified. Except They took you Elsewhere early in the morning, when you were stumbling your way to your eight am class, and you are far too tired to really care.

(You still have your dog tag necklace. Putting it on is too deeply ingrained into your morning ritual for you to forget it. This is a small comfort.)

You stare up and around at the Elsewhere despite knowing that you shouldn’t. Your eyes settle on something with too-sharp teeth like needles, shades of blue like ice and ocean, vaguely humanoid in shape but with proportions defying normal physics. You close your eyes and take a shuddering breath. Your eyes hurt. It’s too fuckin’ early for this. You consider the questions you could ask, from the informative (‘why have you taken me’) to the Actually Helpful.

You go for the latter.

“If I tell you a story,” you say slowly, carefully, “will that work as payment for my freedom?”

The fae hisses, and you flinch, wishing that you had your notebook with you, or at least another hour of sleep on your side. “You presume?”

“I, I, I have heard your–the, the stories humans tell of you,” you say, stumbling over your words, “the stories the students tell of you. They say you will free us if we bargain.”

“And you come,” the fae says contemptuously, “and bargain a mere bedtime tale? Stories have power, child, but I have heard so many before. You would have to pay something more than a paltry rendition of a well-worn path to return to your realm.”

“If you don’t want my stories,” you say in return, “then why?”

You blink, and the shades-of-blue creature is upon you, cupping your chin with icicle fingers. “You shift,” it says, “You are not fixed. You have a touch of us in you. Thus, you are ours.”

You squeak, and cower, and cover your eyes. You take deep breaths until the frostbite of the creature’s fingers fades. Then–your fear carrying you beyond terror and out the other side, knowing you are dead or worse than anyways, you speak.

“If you have not taken me for my stories,” you say, and pause, and swallow hard, “th-then y-you, you don’t–” You stop. Collect yourself. Attempt to speak with confidence. “You do not know of my skill. I would not tell you a mere bedtime story. It may follow a similar path as others, true, but…”

The fae tilts what passes for its head at an unnatural angle. You breathe in deep and make your bargain. “A story. A tale. If it pleases you–if it pleases an audience, mayhaps–I am to be released. Sent back to my realm. If not…” You swallow hard, knowing your next words would seal your fate. You are not willing to speak them. You hope the fae will speak for you.

It does not, of course. You close your eyes and damn yourself. “If not, I accept the fae–the touch of You I have inside me.” ‘Do with me what you will’ is not said, but you both know They will if you lose.

“Deal,” the fae says delightedly, “Begin telling.”

“If it pleases an audience,” you repeat. Perhaps a variety of opinions would be what damns you, but relying on the tastes of a single fae…if the story you have in mind displeases it, then you are lost. Better to have a security net of varying opinions.

The fae narrows eyes dark as ocean abyss and hisses. You flinch. “An audience,” you repeat anyways, “I said, if it pleases an audience.”

“You said mayhaps.”

“My stories are my talent,” you say, “if this is the last one I tell, I want it to be remembered.”

Amazingly, this works. You get your audience.

You stand in front of the fraction of a Court, wishing you could write or type the words rather than say them. You are afraid.

But you know your talents. You know your stories, you know your characters, and it is not the first time you have told this tale. If all else fails, you have the phrase ‘but there is always more to the story,’ a gimmick you can pull out to expand and continue if the fae do not like it quite as much.

If you are honest with yourself, you will probably pull out that “gimmick” anyways. You love your stories and characters too much to not expand on them. You close your eyes.

You gather your thoughts. You take a deep breath.

“This,” you begin, “is the story of Phoenix Song.”

~~~

It is nearly a year before Many-Names stumbles back into the normal world. Ce comes back somewhat confused and half-glowing, as though some internal light has given cer an aura of confidence. For all that, the glow is entirely human and largely metaphorical. Cer changling leaves as ce moves back into cer dorm, all smiles and laughter. The kind of smiles and laughter that covers deep, deep relief.

People ask how. Ce replies with a grin. “They love a good story, didn’t you know?”

Spectator attempts to get a fuller explanation, because for all their perceptiveness this has still totally blindsided them. Many-Names explains about the world ce’d spent five years in the making.

“I picked the one that I thought would appeal the most to Them,” ce explains. “Well, that and I actually had it figured out to the end.” Ce says maybe ce’ll show you cer old notes. “If they still exist, anyways,” ce adds thoughtfully, “I think I might have given the story to the F–Fair Folk. It’s a worthy trade.”

Many-Names leaves out drawings with cer ice cream and milk now. Sketches, colored with pencils, sharpie-lined, printed digital art in full color and shading. All labeled with names. They are always gone in the morning. Spectator thinks, to their great disbelief, that Many-Names has managed to create a fandom.

This is bad for cer. This is very very bad.

“They aren’t going to let you leave, you know,” they tell cer, “Not if you keep giving them content.”

Many-Names pauses in the middle of a sketch. “Well,” ce says eventually, “there’s always the internet.”

“You’re not getting it,” Spectator decides, and tells cer, “You can’t leave, Many-Names. Can’t go home. Can’t see your mom. Can’t go out and get another job. You’ll have to stay. Become a teacher, or whatever. You have to stop talking to Them.”

Many-Names considers this. “I can’t just cut off,” ce tells them, “That would be rude. I mean, they’ll forget soon enough. Or I’ll get tired of drawing stuff. But as long as we’re both interested, well, they get art, and I get these things.”

“These things,” Spectator repeats. Many-Names flicks a hand at cer windowsill. There is a bright red feather that almost glows, an image of a hammer, a glass crafted phoenix that seems to burn internally, a music box, and a crude, human-like figure.

“It’s like fanart,” ce says in a delighted tone, and Spectator gives up. They’re graduating this year, they don’t have time to pull a delusional freshman out of cer dealings with the Gentry. Ce seems happy, anyways.

~~~

And life in Elsewhere University carries on.

[x]

[voices-softasthunder]

for the oc questions: 11, 16, 20, 31, 38, and 49?

thanks so much for asking! :D i’ll answer your other questions with the prompts when I can!

11. Is there any OC of yours you could describe as a “sunshine”?

hmm so my first thought was Sue Li but that’s not exactly accurate. the closest she is to sunshine is like, when she sees her loved ones are upset or something she’ll become a sunshine for them and forcibly have them cheer up in sunlight lol.

Sara Abbott, who i’ve briefly mentioned here before and the younger sister of Hannah, is 1000% sunshine. Even after surviving the war and going through what nobody should ever have to go through at the age of just 15, she’s stayed always really sweet. she also has basically no restraint so has the glaringly-bright side of sunshine too!

last sunshine kiddo is Stephen Elise Cornfoot, they’re extremely friendly and thoughtful and in their friend group, everyone recognizes they are the one who cheers people up and brings a positive point of view for everyone. it actually can be to the point where Stephen Elise feels pressure to keep up a cheery facade even when they’re not doing so well (not out of any intentional message from their friends, but just self-doubt and etc). however, most of the time they enjoy being friendly and sunshine-y :)

16. Which one of your OCs would be the best at biology (school subject)?

so i have answered this question before but that’s when i was trying to stick exclusively to OCs, so in addition to Austin and Mallory the bio nerds, Anthony Goldstein would TOTALLY be. from a young age he was interested in science, and when he was 12 he was diagnosed with diabetes and he started experiencing medicine from the side of a patient. something he found frustrating was that the magical world really did not prioritize research or treatment generic Muggle maladies, so when his parents (both half-bloods) were researching the best treatment for him they were shocked the wizarding options were far less effective/easily available than insulin. except in cases that affect powerful movers in the wizarding world, like colds that almost anyone would get or more specific things like when the Black family funded research into Alzheimers after a few of them developed it, healers just generally didn’t have much for various Muggle illnesses.

as a result, something like diabetes wasn’t very well-researched, and this angered Anthony. He decided when still in his second year of Hogwarts that he was going to become a healer and specializing in research. Because he specifically wanted to do more with non-magical maladies, he figured he would need to understand non-magical medicine as well, even if his end goal was to come up with magical treatments for them, So, he threw himself into biology and science and spent several summers learning all he could, building on what he’d learned in his pre-Hogwarts schooling years, and finding wherever he could in his classes at school to bring in these areas of interest for him. He found it pretty easy to talk at length about medicine and science in Muggle Studies, and basically had a several-months-long project in that. Others were a little more of a stretch, but Professor Flitwick was fully approving of his tangents started on topics of healing charms, and Professor McGonagall would be forgiving if his essays actually had a strong rationale for bringing in off-topic things.

anyways this is getting long but basically anthony is a lil bio nerd and such a good kid!

20. Do any of your OCs sing? If they sing, care to share more details (headcanon voice, what kind of songs they like etc)?

Hannah Abbott loves singing and had some training when she was little! She has a very nice alto voice and perfect pitch, but because she didn’t continue in vocal lessons after age 10, she didn’t have the strongest voice.

Kevin Entwhistle also has a nice voice, a smooth tenor. He’s in the Hogwarts choir and also helps with vocal coaching for the secret Ravenclaw drama club (secret because during Armando Dippet’s time as headmaster, he banned pantomimes and other plays because of a disastrous outcome of one). A bunch of Ravenclaws who loved theater decided to basically start a secret society where they would hold plays (a mix of Muggle and wizarding), and even when they realized the secrecy probably wasn’t as necessary it was kept on principle. When the club performed musicals, Kevin helped a few of the more mediocre singers (he couldn’t ever be cast himself though, because he’s an absolutely terrible actor)

31. Pick one OC of yours and explain what their tumblr blog would be like (what they reblog, layout, anything really)

hmmm hard to say, because so many of them aren’t of the age range that more commonly uses tumblr by the time it’d come around, not to mention how many wizards avoid technology. However, Terry Boot’s step-sister Ruby is a Muggle and wasn’t born until the 90s, and she’s definitely someone I would imagine being on Tumblr. She also adores her family friend/half-godmother Padma, and I can imagine Ruby convincing Padma to make a tumblr LMAO.

Ruby would probably have expended a lot of tacky ideas when she had myspace and all, and by the time she made a Tumblr, have relatively better taste, a classy sidebar and not too many moving things in the background. She’d be into a lot of fandom things (for a short period of time, including Twilight) but probably move on quite a lot between different things.

Padma would be almost too minimalist, reblog a lot of dry educational things, and get a HUGE kick out of witch Tumblr. She knows different magic systems are different and all, but with things being SO different from the world she’s been a part of all her life, it’s just really bizarre in a cool way (also she panicked the first time she encountered it and thought people were breaking the Statute of Secrecy all over the place on the internet).

38. Which one of your OCs would be the best dancer?

Oooh hmm Katie Bell took ballet for a while, which helped her a lot when she started playing Quidditch because she was so flexible, fast, and agile. However, she was forced into the lessons by her parents and for most of the time she danced, she wasn’t really passionate about it which would be a big obstacle in being good. During the Battle of Hogwarts, a too-hastily cast protection spell and attempts to stop the Mandrakes from killing people on their side in friendly fire led to her ears being irreparably damaged and she survived the ordinarily fatal-sound, but became deaf. So, dancing was something she wasn’t really able to continue since hearing the music was such an integral part of it for her - though she ended up missing it a lot. The first time she tried dancing with trying to see if she could feel enough of the classical music wasn’t a total failure, but it was also so unlike what she was used to that she decided to not continue.

Megan Jones probably is the indisputable best dancer, in so many different styles. She’s from Wales, and knew Welsh folk dance better than anything. She also loves more modern dances though, falling in love with jazz from the first time her mother played the Muggle musicians that inspired Celestina Warbeck (who was a relative of theirs, actually). She knows a lot of others, learning new dance styles whenever she can, but Welsh folk and jazz are her two favorites because they’re such a part of her childhood and have a place in her heart.

49. Which one of your OCs would most likely enjoy memes

fdksjdsl. Such a good question. I know Stephen Elise definitely would, and at times would act like a walking shitpost. Blaise Zabini would pretend not to get memes but his parnter Dean loves them so much and would rickroll him on the regular.

Winner of the Meme Monarch title would have to go to Dean, but honorable mention goes to Tracey Davis, who died in the Battle of Hogwarts but decided to become a ghost (she fights the Bloody Baron and anyone who wouldn’t call her the new Slytherin House ghost). She manages to keep up decently with the new memes the cool kids use despite interacting mostly with other dead people, and given how time feels different to her and all.

[speaksonlythetruth-blog]

Why your ship is invalid

Directed @ the ugly parts of the vld fandom. Xoxo

Kick

So! The Voltron:Legendary Defenders fandom… a dangerous place full of nasties, and people with morals. It’s a pretty even split, if I do say so myself. But I wouldn’t know that because I never go to the ugly side; I’ll get traumatized. For life.

Anyways I’ll be keeping anon off, so if you want to send me death threats over something that is very true and kills your precious ship, then my points will be proven. Have fun.

Before I go on my rant, I want to discuss the elephant in the room: Shiro’s sexuality. Shiro has been confirmed a gay man on several occasions. Therefore, 2 ships are already eliminated - brutally. Shallura and Shidge. And they’ve been rightfully eliminated, because those ships are very problematic.

And I’d like to point out that you CAN’T HEADCANON SHIRO AS A BISEXUAL/PANSEXUAL MAN. That’s blatant homophobia. I cannot stress that enough. But I guess people are so dense that they really don’t care… and I’m not committing bi erasure… you have literally ALL the other characters. Shiro is the only one with a confirmed sexuality. You have Lance, Keith, Hunk, Allura, etc. to headcanon as bisexual/pansexual. You can’t choose Shiro.

The ships, as you probably already picked up on, I will be discussing are Shiro x Paladin ships, more commonly known as ‘Shaladin’. Mostly shipped by 30 year old people with no life, fujoshis, and young teenagers who don’t know any better and have been trapped by the toxicity of the shaladin fandom.

I will begin with the most problematic and disgraceful of the ships (all of them are, but these are really problematic+disgraceful): Sheith, Shallura, and Shidge.

Sheith

Ah, yes. The ugliest of them all: incest. This is unfortunately the most popular shallie ship, being 2nd (unfortunately) in Fandometrics. Which should be disqualified for its disgusting nature :). Klance is Canon King btw.

Sheith is between two brothers: Shiro and Keith, obviously.

Why this ship is invalid:

Shiro adopted Keith. They’re brothers.

Keith was a student and Shiro was a teacher when they first met.

Keith has told Shiro, several times, that he’s like a brother to him/is his brother, and has said Shiro’s his best friend. They have a very powerful, familial bond.

Shiro loves someone else. He wouldn’t choose Keith over Adam.

Why would you date your sibling??? You must be pretty messed up if you want to.

“Love” isn’t always romantic. It can be familial or/and platonic. When Keith told Shiro he loves him, he meant it as familial and platonic. Would you say you love your sibling romantically?

Incest and pedophilia is illegal.

Shallura

I don’t really need to explain this, do I?

But I have to, because people are dumb. This is between Allura and Shiro, obviously.

Why this ship is invalid:

Allura has been confirmed a teenager.

Shiro is a gay man. Not bisexual. Not pansexual. Yes, homosexual. Their interactions are strictly platonic.

They’ve never even looked remotely interested in one another. Are you blind? I’ll give you my glasses if you want.

It’s pedophilia. Illegal.

Shipping them together is homophobic.

Allura’s likely around 17-19, so the age gap ranges from 9-7 years.

And the big, bad, pedophilic ship of them all?

Shidge

You’ve gotta be kidding me with this. This one makes me want to vomit. I absolutely don’t need to explain this one, because of how revolting it is. Stop. But I have to, for the sake of this damn essay. People are really ugly.

This is between Shiro and Pidge, obviously.

Why this ship is invalid:

Pidge is 15/16 years old. Shiro is 25/26. That’s a 10 year difference. And if you’re really dense, then there’s the math xoxo. Can’t leave the math to Pidge on this one apparently.

Pedophilia at its finest

Their interactions have never appeared romantic ugly.

Shiro is a GAY MAN.

Have I mentioned the 10 year age gap?

Pedophilia is illegal.

Shipping them together is homophobic.

10 years

Now the other 2 shallie ships: Shance and Shunk. Pt. 2 of the ugly ships now.

Shance

This is a ship between Shiro and Lance, obviously.

Why this ship is invalid:

Same with Keith: Lance is a minor, a student, when he meets Shiro, a teacher, a full grown man.

Lance has never shown any interest in Shiro. Lance shows interest in Keith and Allura.

Shiro has never shown any interest in Lance. Shiro’s interested in Adam.

Their interactions have never been romantic.

Lance looks up to Shiro. Shiro is his role model and his hero. That doesn’t mean Lance is interested in him.

Let’s be honest, Shiro treats Lance like he’s his out of control child.

8 year age gap.

Shunk

This is a ship between Shiro and Hunk, obviously.

Why this ship is invalid:

Hunk shows obvious, romantic interest in Shay.

They’re not interested in one another.

Same case with Keith and Lance: Hunk is a student, Shiro is a teacher.

Hunk is probably straight, and Shiro is gay. Simple as that.

8 year age gap.

There’s probably some people who are probably really upset. There’s probably some people trying to say Adashi/Shadam is toxic and Klance is not canon king. Those people are very wrong, blind, and obviously hasn’t had a wonderful relationship or an abusive one. But, since that isn’t the point of this rant, I won’t go into it.

People are saying that this is fiction. It doesn’t effect anyone. It’s just harmless fun, right? Wrong.

It’s fiction, yes, but the things people put on the internet will effect people. It will harm people, whether you like it or not. You’re encouraging pedophilia, incest, toxicity, and it’s alright to get with someone who is twice your age. And by shipping a gay man with a woman, you’re encouraging homophobia.

If a kid sees any of the content you put out, they may think “Oh hey, this is a thing I should do because people say it’s okay to do”. Because they’re seeing their favorite characters being sexualized, and put in a romantic relationship they shouldn’t be in.

What you make will effect people. It is not harmless fun.

If you are young and you’ve been dragged into this hellhole of a shipping fandom, then you need to break away from that place and rethink your decisions. It’s not healthy for you. It is very toxic and it can effect your life permanently.

From a personal experience, it changes the way you think and it hurts you. It devours you. You need to step away from all the ships, unfollow all the toxic people you follow, and go into a healthy, safe community.

You know those anti-block lists? Go follow those people. They are genuine, they have morals, and they’re pretty awesome people overall. If you have to, start a new blog and start from scratch. Get these people to help you. I’ll help you, obviously. You just need to ask! I’ll follow you with my main blog.

And yes, all shaladins are bad. They’ve sent death threats, they’ve harassed a 13 year old, and they’re spreading such a toxic thing around. If someone says “uwu not all of us are like that lol”, then they’re wrong. If you ship a shaladin ship, you’re just as bad as the rest of them. Especially if you’re pushing minors into it.

I’m being nice in this. If y’all make me angry, then I’ll be much more brutal.

tl;dr - Shaladins suck lmao. And get away from the community if you’re young.

-Sincerely, an angry person.

[candymayvary]

You said you're not going to 'vet' blogs who follow your other account. Aren't you worried about who might read what you write, or be able to interact with your stuff? Especially minors? It seems a bit reckless, and pushing the decision onto others to know what might happen isn't good.

This is definitely an ask that should have been directed towards my main, and not here. I’ll answer it anyway, and that’s all I’m going to say on the matter. My opinion. Under the cut. Sorry if you’re on mobile.

Quite frankly, I don’t give two shits about who reads what. That’s kind of the be all and end all of my opinion on the sudden frantic purity fascination we have developed on tumblr, especially in (at least) the last five years. 

Fanwork, but writing especially, because that’s my area of expertise, is there to create universes with existing characters. Expand stories. Fill in gaps. Put well loved characters in a whole new life. Use the universe to create a story with your own OCs. It’s a really under appreciated form of work (but that’s a debate for another day), but it’s really fucking powerful in what it does. No matter what the rating could be. Something fluffy and sweet and all goodness is just as powerful at sending a message as something nitty, gritty, R18. I firmly believe that - it’s all about execution. 

Now, not to sound crotchety by going ‘the good old days’, but we’ve got such a knee-jerk reaction to ‘what if minors see?!’ that it’s literally that 50s housewife with perfectly kept blonde hair in her Sunday best crying in church ‘think of the children!’. I will obviously agree there’s quite a bit of stuff to keep away from those a good 10yrs younger than me, but like. You can see it on the news. In papers. Private sessions on a web browser to find free porn lmfao. Video games have just very simple warnings, and it’s not until one fan on the internet is like ‘hey guys, watch out for this!’. Like, when Mad Max: Fury Road came out, I saw a post two months later actually detailing that a pregnant woman gets crushed under a car. I hadn’t seen it then, but it took over a month for someone to finally stick their hand up and be like: great movie, but watch out for this sort of stuff. 

I think it kind of diminishes the critical thinking that those under the age of 18 are capable of too, and to only police fan works as opposed to everything else is kind of fucking stupid. Fan works have become so important to the development and continuing growth of industries, because they won’t have an audience otherwise. Creating discourse and discontent in the fandom breaks that cycle of fanwork, meaning people won’t get interested because their favourite artist or writer stopped drawing/writing, so less fans for a company. Especially indie companies - they rely on fan positivity (not purity). 

My personal experience is that I came into fandom at the end of strikethrough, and stumbled wildly through ff.net at the age of 12 (or 11, around then). I didn’t know any better at that time, because my friend who was a year older, and my other friend who was a year younger, we were all into Harry Potter and Naruto. I’m not saying it was a good experience, and I’m not saying it was a bad one either. Honestly it was quite eye opening lmao shit be wild but I guess it’s also made me... more nonchalant? Apathetic? To tumblr purists screaming and ranting. I’ve been posting online too, since then. I’ve scrubbed my old accounts clean the older I’ve gotten, but I still have all my original writing (on paper, in coloured pens, with really bad ‘manga style’ drawings lol).

Also I have had my own fics torn down because someone out there didn’t agree with the ship, and they claimed it contained like sexual abuse and stuff... 2013-2016 was not a good period of my fandom experience, as I lost a lot of friends to both sides of the purity debate, gained plenty more, but fanwork from everyone I knew came to a halt because everyone was so afraid of questions like this. One wrong answer and poof! There goes any credibility. Especially with how easily people fling around legal terms and the like, a lot of creativity has already been killed off from the aggressiveness and awfulness that some people are capable of. They don’t care, obviously, but they’ve hurt so many people so far... 

TLDR; Basically, make up your own minds. There are things I’m going to write, there are things I’m not going to write. There’s going to be descriptions, if you’re worried send an ask about something in particular. Make your web experience the experience you want and need, not what people tell you it should be. And if that includes some NSFW, because quite frankly teen years are terrible and confusing and incredibly hormonal, live your best life my dudes. If a NSFW fic at 3 in the morning makes you happy, because school sucks and you don’t know why you’re up then anyway, go for it. I’m not stopping you.

[honestsungjae-blog]

An Open Letter to BTOB to Celebrate 5 Years

My dearest BTOB,

It’s crazy to think that we made it here, 5 years of BTOB. Today is a very special day; the day that has ruined my life; the day that BTOB was debut. March 21th 2012. In those 5 years all of you, Eunkwang, Minhyuk, Changsub, Hyunsik, Peniel, Ilhoon, and Sungjae managed to take the world by storm. It’s crazy to think just how much these boys have accomplished, and how many lives they have changed, saved, and touched. Notes, I would and will proudly choose the person in the bottom. The person who fell into the pressure of millions watching his every step. The person who’s feelings were overlooked. The person who’s passion for music has allowed him to make REAL music, touching music, relatable music, music that has helped many included myself. The person who fell and can say he got back on his feet. The person who took and takes responsibility for his actions. The person who sat on the dirty floor with fans and talked to them for a while. The person who stops for his fans even when he’s tired. The person who doesn’t forget where he came from. The person who loves God and Christ. The kind hearted, imperfect, human being who’s love is stronger than anyone trying to break them. Yes I choose them. I have no regrets on loving them and up to this day, being by their side is still the best decision I’ve ever made.

 In the past, parents assume that the internet brings many negative effects and do not really give a change in my life. But once i got into this fandom, i got a lot of friends, got a valuable lesson, cheerfulness, and i know them hehehe. So, i’m very grateful at BTOB already giving me a second family. So when i first ever discovered BTOB, the first song i listened to from their was insane and i was obsessed and begged dad to let me buy it on melon and i had it on repeat on my little ipod shuffle and i spent like the whole day googling them and stuff, and then the next day whilst we were eating dinner, i was like to my parents “i need to tell you something” and they were like “what”? and i was like “i think i love btob” IT WAS THE FUNNIEST FUCKING THING like it had been 1 day since i discovered them lmao every time i think about it i can’t stop laughing. Once you guys hit korea I was hooked, I would spend hours upon hours watching all of the video diaries, any interview you did, and instantly followed you on social media to keep up with your individual lives. For the 5th years anniversary, here are my 6 of the many reasons to thank BTOB.

1. Thank you for always being there

You guys have always been there since the beginning, showing us fans nothing but love and support as we have shown for you. When you guys came about I was just starting school and its safe to say that I would not have made it without you. I plastered your faces to my wall in every class room, blasted your music whenever it wasn’t quiet hours, and leaned on you guys whenever an assignment presented an opportunity to be about you. You were there through every study session, every emotional breakdown, every pregame, and every spontaneous dance party. You provided that escape from reality that I desperately needed when life got to be a little too much. Your lyrics define that time in my life and continue to define it as I make my way into the real world. You aided in my procrastination, you helped me when my grandfather and cousin passed away, and you motivated me to complete my assignments. Your songs were always there and your love for us fans made me feel like I was never alone. With you there was always something to look forward to, one of the reasons I kept on going and never gave up. You were always that light at the end of the tunnel every semester knowing I had tickets to your tour, knowing new music would be coming out, and knowing that through it all you never forgot about the people that helped get you there. When I look back at those years, your presence is so strong. I remember all the times I watched you win awards and you gave us fans a massive thank you. I remember having the worst week of my life and the shining moment was that I would be able to go see music champion that weekend. I remember listening to your albums any time I felt overwhelmed and uncertain about the future. I remember holding on so tight to the lyrics that related to my life at the time. You have always been there, whether it be physically, emotionally or musically, you never gave up on us. Even to this day with the insane, you are still there. Every now and then you acknowledge us and let us know everything is going to be okay. All of the rumors, and all of the fights, but we always find a way to make it out alive. We are going strong and we are holding on. You even released an album before you took our break which has meant so much to us. That album gives me so much reassurance that this truly is not the end and that you will continue to always be there. Just know you have never let us down. When obstacles arose you came out of them stronger than ever, you never once made us feel abandoned or alone and I could never thank you enough for that.

2. Thank you for making me feel a part of something bigger than myself

The best part about being a fan of BTOB is that there are so many others. The Fandom. I’m sure you guys have a lot to say about this fandom. We have our cringe moments but overall it’s nothing but so much love for you. I hope you realize just how many friendships have been created out of mutual love for you. Fan accounts becoming friends with other fan accounts, long distance friendships being reunited to see you in concert, the list is endless. This fandom has truly made me so happy. It’s so much fun to celebrate your successes together, live tweet about all of your concerts, freak out when you drop music out of nowhere, share pictures, talk about issues, share our opinions, and overall just to have a community that feels the same way you do. Being a fan sometimes makes you feel a bit crazy, especially when there are so many people who have to be so vocal about fangirls and how they need to grow up and its a waste of time. Having a community to go to, that are going through life just like you, that like the same things you do, that genuinely care about your life outside the fandom, is one of the best things in the world. Being a part of the BTOB fandom has been nothing but rewarding. When we band together to make sure you win the awards you deserve to win, when we break records on Youtube, on melon etc, and even turn a song we love into a single, its all because we have this desire to see you succeed. We can never thank you enough for what you have done for our lives and we try to help out in any way that we can. I have made some amazing friends being a part of this fandom and its an unbreakable bond I share with so many others. You guys have truly made such an impact on our social lives and I hope amidst all the success you see how many lives you have individually changed for the better. It was all you, you have that power and you are the driving force behind it all.

3. Thank you for encouraging me to follow my dreams

It all started with a dream didn’t it? All seven of you wanted to share your talent with the world and become a music superstar. What would have happened if you decided you weren’t good enough and didn’t even try to audition? It’s thoughts like these that motivate me and inspire me. There are days I don’t want to get out of bed, days I don’t want to leave my house, but you inspire me. I think of how you went after your dream, took a chance, took a risk, and how it paid off. I see how you all embrace life and decide not to let it pass me by. I force myself out of bed with the thought of what opportunities could I miss if I just hide away all day. My dream was to graduate college and my dream continues as I go for my CPA. When I feel like giving up, I’m going to think about how much work you guys put it in, how you went for what you wanted, how you were fearless and how it paid off. My dream is also to be involved in the media world, to spread good media and not make up rumors for views and whatnot. For that reason I created this tumblr, its a way of going after my dream but still being realistic career wise. It all started with a dream and amassed to this crazy adventure, and in a way I hope my life will follow the same suit.

4. Thank you for being my inspirations

You inspire me. It may seem like such an simple sentence, but it holds so much weight and meaning. You inspire me as individuals as I watch you make choices with your lives and see how I can learn from them, grow from them, and better from them.

Changsub, you are so fearless and you don’t care what people think. You are fearless in the way you carry yourself, in the way you dress, and in the things you do. You wear what you want to wear without a care, and in the process you became a fashion icon. I love using you as inspiration in my wardrobe and taking risks. You inspire me because you are such a loving and caring person. I always hear how nice you are to fans, to crew members, to strangers, to just about everyone. You are such a kind and gentle soul as you go out of your way for the people you meet, do all you can to use your platform to make a difference in the world, and radiate so much joy. You have given me so much happiness, you make me laugh, and most importantly, you always make me smile. You’re a man with a heart of gold and boots to match.You inspire me to do what makes me happy and live my life for me. You’re off filming a movie because it’s something you want to do. You never comment on the hate, the rumors, and you live as private as a life as you can. For that I respect you and encourage you to just keep being yourself.

Hyunsik, as the one of the oldest of BTOB, you taught me how to adult. When life threw you a curve ball, you more than stepped up the plate. You now have the most beautiful baby boy. you have such a big heart. You are an amazing person. Most of all you inspire me to never take life too seriously. You always find ways to amuse yourself, to amuse others and always remain a kid at heart. Lets pray we stay young stay made of lightning. I know we both don’t want to ever grow up, and you have shown me that you can be responsible but always have fun with it.

Sungjae, you are a ball of sunshine, you make my days the brightest and its all because of your carefree attitude. You have shown me that a day without laughter is a day wasted. Your laugh is infectious and always makes me laugh while throwing away all my worries and troubles. You live your life to have fun, and that is so inspirational to me. You inspire me to live my life to the fullest while also not being ashamed of my lazy days. You are my spirit animal. You care so much for us and it inspires me to really reach out to the people that mean the most to me. You always want to see what we are up to and even wish you could talk to all of us. You appreciate our humor and truly just enjoy this wild ride. I am a natural born worrier and seeing how you approach life has inspired me to take a step back and think about how important the things I worry about are. Sungjae you are a ray of light and laughter and I know you will always have fun with all that you do. You have taught me to follow my passion as you have created your own golf management organization. You do what you want to do and have no shame and for that I thank you.

Eunkwang, you are a natural born leader, you also aren’t afraid of the tough stuff in life. When interviews ask the hard hitting questions, you are always prepared with a diplomatic answer that leaves the fans feeling reassured and stress free. I’ve seen you grow from the sensible young boy to the confident young man that you are today. You have managed to let your guard down and really just embrace life for what it is. You have always been so appreciative and humble and you inspire me to stay grounded. You don’t take anything for granted. You have also taught me that it’s okay to be the responsible one sometimes. You are also so loveable and I don’t think there is a single mean bone in your body. You have managed to navigate your way through the hate and have such a strong moral compass. The world would be a nicer place if everyone acted even just a smidgen like you.

Ilhon, you brings a breath of fresh air to the world of fashion. He’s not your average guy wearing t-shirts and jeans everyday, instead he tries on the most unusual statement pieces, loud prints, shiniest boots, and pulls them all off flawlessly. Just like its no secret that I’m obsessed with ilhon, its no secret that I am also obsessed with his wardrobe. He’s constantly confusing and confounding not only me, but the whole world as he captivates us with his bold fashion sense leaving us hanging on his every spotting. Ilhoon’s fashion sense is always something that grabbed my attention. I have found myself buying items of clothes inspired by his looks and also being inspired by his fearlessness and confidence that comes with each and every new outfit.

Peniel, is one of the kindest, funniest, sweetest, and just down right adorable human to walk this earth. This year I noticed just how much I was swerving into peniel lane! I mean he has so many different looks and a to die for personality, he’s so unexpected and always keeps you on your toes. He just seems like such a great guy, an overall gentleman with a sense of humor to top it all off. I wish I had a peniel in my life

Minhyuk, minhyuk's personality is my favourite thing in the entire world, he's so sweet and kind but he's also so funny and dorky, I LOVE HIM. He is literally living proof that you can overcome anything no matter how bad it may be and he's so inspiring and amazing my baby :( he's amazingly talented which is why he's inspires me on making music

As a whole you have all inspired me, BTOB doesn’t let anyone bring them down. You guys never give up, you always give back, you stay grounded, you live every day like its your last, and you have given me so much happiness over the years. My favorite lyrics are about embracing your youth and your life. You’ve taught me to live before we get older, do what we like we got nothing to lose, shake off the weight of the world from our shoulders, we got nothing to prove. I know this is not the end. I know I will see your face again.

5. Thank you for being the soundtrack of my life

Your music has been with me for so long now, each and every album outdoing the last. I can define my years through your music. Second confession is a song that will always hold a special place in my heart. I used to blast it from the speakers in my car on the way to work all summer, I used to request it at every single bar I went to. I used to cry to every performance of it at every award show. I smile so big when I hear it in public. That song is part of the soundtrack of my life. Whenever I’m bored I throw on my favorite album New men. I listen to someday the Dark on my worst days and Movie on my best. I remember every single time I heard a new song and exactly where I was. Walking around my campus watching a new music video. Staying up all night to listen to the feel’em listening party. Everything has such a clear memory when it comes to you. Every single song brings me a memory and reminds me of where I was at a certain point in my life. Feel’em is now the soundtrack of my post grad life. It’s extremely relatable and those songs will always make me think about my 20s. Most importantly you gave us way back home, a song to remind us how much you love this band and love your fans. That songs brings me to the happiest tears. These songs hold so much meaning to me and I know for as long as I live I will never forget them. They will always be with me as I navigate through life, providing the perfect soundtrack. I don’t know where I’m going but I’m finding my way, and I know your music will help me along.

6. Thanks for 5 years of memories and many more to come

Thank you thank you thank you thank you. The memories we have made together will live on forever. I’ll never forget my first time seeing you in concert. I remember all the promotional interviews over the years. I remember spending an entire day watching btob day. I remember staying up late to watch champion, finding a link to watch you on the show, watching every single show performance. I’ve been there through it all and you’ve been there with me. I remember going on Twitter and instagram to find out about the tour and watching every single video there was. There are so many more memories I can recall have given me so much happiness and while you have been thanking us, the real thanks goes out to you. THANK YOU for an amazing 5 years, and many many more. I wish you all the best of luck and i will support you in whatever you decide. I’ll support it. I love you all more than you could ever know. You guys deserves all of the success getting right now, you deserves respect & just deserves to be surrounded by positivity constantly. THANK YOU BTOB FOR EVERYTHING!! I CAN’T EVEN PUT IT INTO WORDS!! CHEERS TO 5 YEARS!

THIS IS NOT THE END!

 All the Love,

@honestsungjae