#I love how much their dynamic is Richard tries to keep something private by talking around or outright lying

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Alex Reagan is a damned good detective, and she Hates being underestimated; Which is why season 2 is so so damned good!!

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Sarah Paulson’s Characters with a Shy Girlfriend who is Unexpectedly Bold

A/n:  First of all that title is long, but I didn’t know how to phrase it shorter. I haven’t done a headcanon in a while, and this idea came to me (mainly because I am super shy irl). I thought it would be a little fun, plus I love writing fluffy things. So I hope you like it. :)

Wilhemina Venable

When you both started dating, Wilhemina thought you would start being more talkative, but you still were very quiet and shy. She began to think that you were nervous or uncomfortable around her.

However, Wilhemina came to the realization that you were just a quiet person in general and began to find your bashfulness endearing. In fact, one of her favorite things to do was to whisper sweet nothings to you in different places, public and private, to see your cheeks turn crimson.

Even though you were shy, you always tried to make an effort to show her how much you truly loved her. Often you did this through doing small chores around the house and cooking meals. Also anytime she was around you were stuck to her like glue.

Early on when you started to date, you shared different hobbies or interests. But when she said she found music to be unnecessary, you decided to keep your enjoyment of music to yourself. For you it wasn’t essential for her to know and you didn’t mind listening to music alone.

But this passion was revealed to Wilhemina on a day she was able to come home from work early. As she stepped in to her home, she heard something completely unexpected.

You thought you had a couple more hours before your girlfriend came home, so you had set up a speaker and turned on your favorite music to sing to as you clean. It helped the time pass and made cleaning a lot less of a chore.

For Wilhemina, hearing music in her home was jarring enough, but hearing a bold voice come out of someone so timid was a whole other thing. For a moment she stood in the entry way, trying to comprehend what she was hearing.

As she stepped around the corner, Wilhemina made sure to stay quiet and she watched you sing with a grin on your face as you put away the clean dishes from the dishwasher. Meanwhile you were blissfully ignorant of the woman in purple watching you.

Wilhemina found your shy, submissive side endearing, but seeing you so confident was also very attractive in a different way. She finally saw the passionate side she knew you were holding back. And as she watched and heard you sing she became much more open to music.

After the song ends, Wilhemina clapped and you dropped some of the silverware in your hands from whipping around so fast. Once you saw her smirking as her brown eyes looked you over, your breath caught in your throat. 

You felt like a deer in headlights as you realized she heard you singing. You didn’t know if she would be upset or annoyed. But her smile helped to calm your shock and embarrassment. 

You turned off the music and knelt down to pick up the fallen silverware. And you stayed down longer than necessary to hide your beet red face and calm your racing heart. 

But Wilhemina walked up to you and made you look up at her as she complimented your voice. That was the last reaction you expected and you stuttered a thank you. Then she asked why you never sang in front of her. 

You found yourself blushing and stammering as you explained that she said she didn’t like music so you didn’t want to bother her with your music. As you went, Wilhemina noticed how surprised you were and told you to take some deep breaths and she wasn’t upset.

Then Wilhemina said/demanded that if you liked something to tell her and not hide it. She noticed your gaze faltered and made you promise to tell her.

You bashfully agreed and she teasingly asked if you had any more secrets that you had kept from her. You blushed and replied no as you smiled up at her. Your heart began to beat normally and you began to normally breathe again.

Wilhemina noticed that you began to relax and coaxed you to stand. Then she gave you a kiss before she turned your music back on. However, once she heard the low quality of sound, she asked if you would like a better quality speaker. 

You blushed and said it’s fine. But she gave you a stern reminder to be honest. And Wilhemina realized this would be a bigger adjustment for you than she expected. So you hesitantly admitted that it would be nice.

Wilhemina told you she’ll buy one for you and you beamed up at her, thanking her. After she pecked your lips, she said she needed to get some work done so she headed to her office.

As she worked, she started to hear you sing again. Your voice was soft and timid at first, but after a couple songs you built up to your previous volume, making Wilhemina smile.

Ally Mayfair-Richards

You had been dating Ally for a couple months when she brought up the idea of you coming over to her house for dinner and to meet Oz. Up to this point you had heard about him and seen pictures, but had never met him

You hesitantly agreed, but Ally could tell you were nervous by the twitch of your lips. So she asked you what’s wrong and you explained that you were nervous that Oz wouldn’t like you. You remembered when your mom remarried it was difficult to adjust.

But Ally assured you that he would like you and made you get bashful as she talked about how sweet you are, how kind, and funny, and cute you are. Then she went on to say that there is no reason Oz wouldn’t like you.

So the next week, you were at her house and knocked on the door. Ally answered and greeted you. You shyly returned a greeting as you felt your heart hammering against your chest, and she reassured you that you would do great.

Then Ally led you to the living room and introduced you to Oz. He was playing Mario Kart and not giving much regard to his mother. So she told him to turn off the game.

But you assured Ally he was ok and that you didn’t mind. Then she said she was going to finish cooking dinner and gave you one last smile before heading into the kitchen. So you took a seat on the couch and asked if he had another controller.

Oz said yes and you started to play with him. You were terrified that he wouldn’t want you to join in or that he would say something about never liking you. But he didn’t.

At first you both were quiet, but Oz mentioned that you are better at this than Ally. You smiled to yourself and jokingly brushed it off as you’re a veteran of this game. But then he picked rainbow road.

You made a dramatic commentary as you fell behind and did much worse than before. At first you only made a couple jokes, but after seeing his lips form a smile you had decided to go all out. Meanwhile Oz laughed from first place and chose rainbow road again.

That time he laughed even harder as you both played and you did not so great again. But you didn’t mind. Unbeknownst to either of you, Ally had peeked in and watched as you both played, happy that you were opening up to him.

Then Ally announced it was time for dinner, so you both headed to the dining room to eat. As the three of you ate, Oz noticed how happy his mother was around you. And you made sure he was included in the conversation.

Once dinner was finished, you offered to help Ally clean. But Oz asked his mom if you could keep playing with him. You looked to her for permission and she encouraged you to go, giving you a warm smile.

So you let Oz lead you to the living room and he picked out another game. Then you sat beside him on the floor, cross-legged and felt like you were a kid again. After he explained how to play, you began to play and made more comments to make Oz laugh. 

After a while, Ally came into the living room and sat on your lap, leaning back into you. You playfully teased about interference, but also made sure Oz didn’t look upset. He looked happy and teased you back.

So you cuddled her with your arms and gave her a kiss on her shoulder. Then Ally joined in as you joked and laughed with Oz. It was in that moment that you realized you weren’t afraid anymore.

Eventually Ally told Oz it was time for bed. He was sad that he had to go up, but his mother insisted and you mentioned that you could do this another time if he wanted. So they headed up stairs and you kept down, picking up the games and controllers.

When Ally came back down, you asked if she thought Oz liked you. She chuckled at your question and gave you a reassuring kiss and said Oz really liked you. Then she also mentioned that she really liked you too.

You got flustered and happy that Oz liked you. Then you got some wine for Ally and made her sit since she did all the work for dinner. When you came back, Ally was picking out something to read.

So you set the glass down and laid out on the couch. Then Ally came to lay back on you and you held her close, keeping quiet as she took some time to read. 

The next time you met Ally, she pulled out a letter Oz made. In it he said he had a good time playing games with you and asked if you would come over again. You were shocked but ecstatic and thanked Ally for trusting her to come over.

Audrey Tindall

When Audrey first started dating you, she was nervous that you were so quiet. She was used to being cut off by other people talking or being told she talked too much, but you hung on her every word.

Honestly the dynamic worked well. Audrey loved to talk and you loved listening. Some people thought that was weird, but anytime Audrey asked, you were honest and explained that you loved to listen to her and if you didn’t you would tell her.

Before long, Audrey asked if you would move in with her. You would be lying if you had said you weren’t nervous, but you took the risk and it was the best decision you could have made.

Once you started living with Audrey, you began to share more about yourself and Audrey loved it. And she began to ask about your opinions and advice about different things she was dealing with. She loved hearing your perspective.

Eventually, Audrey had to leave for a job, but you were able to find things to fill up your time, specifically cats.

In the neighborhood that you lived in, there were some stray cats that wandered around to different houses. You fell in love with them, but knew you needed to get them fixed so there wouldn’t be too many cats.

So after you spent far too much time trapping and getting the cats fixed before letting them loose again, you bought a secret stash of cat food to feed them. But you kept this from Audrey since she wasn’t home.

However, when she came home she commented on constantly seeing cats around. You feigned ignorance, nervous about what her reaction would be, but still snuck out to feed the cats.

One evening, Audrey couldn’t find you anywhere. She knew you were quiet, but you weren’t in any of your usual places. So she stepped out to the garage to check if your car was gone.

You car was still there, but then she heard you giggling and talking to someone. Audrey assumed it was one of the neighbors so she stepped out to to greet them.

But it wasn’t human neighbors you were talking to, it was cats. Audrey saw you seated on the back door stairs, petting and scratching two of the cats while two ate from a bowl she recognized as one of her own.

Audrey kept watching as you spoke to the cats while they meowed and rubbed against you, making you giggle.

Unfortunately, Audrey tripped over a flower pot, breaking it and letting out a curse. Immediately the cats scattered and you froze up as you realized Audrey caught you.

Audrey came over to you and apologized, commenting that you looked as frightened as the cats. Then she teased you about knowing why the cats hang around.

You apologized for keeping it a secret and explained that you didn’t want her to be upset and make you stop feeding the cats. You knew it was stupid, but you had grown attached to them.

Audrey reassured you that she was fine with you feeding the cats and they began to come back to eat. They moved slowly, looking to you both in case something should happen again. But ultimately the desire for cat food won out and they all began to eat again.

You both talked quietly so the cats wouldn’t be startled and you told Audrey each of the cats’ names and their personalities. Meanwhile, Audrey leaned into you and played with your hair, finding your soft voice relaxing.

Then one of the cats ventured over to you both. They looked to Audrey, but hopped up on your lap before bumping you hand to pet them. Then they rubbed against Audrey making her chuckle and give the cat a pet.

You giggled and cooed over the cat as they purred while Audrey listened. As she heard you gush over the cat, her heart warmed and she fell even more in love with you.

Eventually the cats headed out so you picked up the food and water bowls before going inside with Audrey. Then she called you her kitty and you nuzzled against her, making her chuckle as you played along.

Sally McKenna

Sally had heard your name mentioned, but never saw you around like most of the other ghosts. Supposedly you would talk to the countess, but even that was told to her by other ghosts.

But one day, you ventured out to look at the newly renovated hotel. Being out in the open was nerve wracking for you, but you tried to remain calm and act as if you knew what you were doing. As you wandered through the halls, Sally saw you in a vintage dress and called out.

Immediately you hid, not used to talking with the other permanent residents. But Sally apologized for scaring you and said she just wanted to say hi. So you hesitantly re-emerged and greeted her.

After saying hello, Sally offered to give you a tour and you reluctantly agreed. As you walked, she told you about everything new while you kept to yourself. But Sally noticed anytime she made eye contact with you, your cheeks would turn pink and you would duck your head to hide a smile.

Once you finished walking around, Sally asked to see you again. You hesitated, unsure if you really wanted to be around others, but you also didn’t want to be alone anymore. So you agreed and met her at the bar a couple days later.

Soon Sally was introducing you to all of the new ghosts since you hadn’t come out since the 70s. However, if Sally ever noticed you looking overwhelmed, she would make everyone back off and take you to some place secluded.

Without fully realizing it at first, Sally fell for you, but in a different way than past lovers. She thrived upon seeing you blush and hide your smiles. And even though you were complete opposites in every way, you stayed by Sally’s side and loved to be around her.

One day, Sally told you she wrote a song for you. You were shocked and asked if she would perform it. Sally did and you found yourself tearing up as you listened to the lyrics. But more than that you realized you loved Sally.

So you asked if you could kiss Sally and she happily obliged. Then she asked how a girl like you ended up here. So you told her about your death in 1953 and how you had passed the time.

Once you were a couple, Sally told all of the ghosts while you tagged along. Sally would speak about it, but everyone saw your glowing face as you watched Sally. 

You saw Sally carry this thing around, but you never knew what it really was. So you asked her and she explained that it was a smartphone. For you, this technology was mind-blowing as she explained everything it could do. Then she showed you her social media accounts and her different posts about you.

One day, you saw Sally’s phone on her bed and decided to tinker around on it while she was out. It was difficult to navigate at first, but you got the hang of it.

After spending sometime at the bar, Sally headed back to her room. However she freaked out when she heard you crying.

So she busted in, pumped full of adrenaline to kill someone, but realized you were laughing as you watched something on her phone, nuzzled under the covers.

Sally came over to see you were watching a compilation of funny videos. You laughed so hard that tears slipped out of your eyes and Sally found herself laughing at how funny you thought this was.

You gave her the phone and apologized for being so loud. But Sally loved seeing you laugh like that. So she snuggled in beside you and put on more funny videos. As you continued to laugh, Sally smiled and found herself laughing as well.

The next day, Sally secretly ordered a smartphone for you and you couldn’t stop telling her how amazed you were by technology.

Then you went and told Liz and Tristan about the videos you watched while Sally melted at your excitement. Even though the videos were old, they happily listened and were glad to finally see you talking to others.

A couple weeks later, Sally said she had a surprise for you. So you let her cover your eyes and lead you to a box. Then you saw it was a new phone. You were so shocked and happy, you couldn’t hardly say anything besides thank you.

Sally helped you set up your phone and the first thing you did is text her (albeit clumsily) that you love her.

Bette and Dot Tattler

You were brought to the freak show by Elsa and didn’t speak to anyone there. It was bad enough to have to be in a show highlighting your flaws.

Honestly you had learned to keep to yourself because everyone you had met has made fun of you. And you didn’t want to experience that pain anymore.

But Bette and Dot came to you and were the first people to treat you like an actual person and not a spectacle. You knew they had their own struggles and if anyone could understand what you had dealt with it was them.

As they met with you more, you started to come out of your shell and found yourself wanting more than friendship. You were attracted to them.

Even though you thought you were smooth, both Bette and Dot could tell you had a crush on them. The way you would blush and smile at them said it all. But they were glad you had the courage to say your feelings out loud.

As soon as you admitted you attraction to them, Bette asked if she could kiss you. Dot scolded her about being so forward, but you said it’s alright and shared your first kiss with Bette.

Then, feeling emboldened, you asked if you could kiss Dot. She agreed and you kissed her. Then you asked if this meant that you could be with them and they said yes.

Once your relationship was established, you moved into their tent. You were definitely the quietest of the three, but you loved cuddling them or having some form of physical contact with them.

Whenever you went anywhere with them, you held one of their hands and stayed by their side. And you would beg for the both of them to give you hickeys so others could see. And they loved it.

Even though you spoke openly with Bette and Dot, you still were shy around the others. You had trust issues and didn’t want someone to use your words against you, so you tried to make yourself invisible. However, that changed one afternoon.

Pepper came to lunch one day talking about a dog. Elsa asked what she meant and Pepper led the group to a road where an injured dog was missing a leg.

Elsa said to kill it and put it out of its misery, but you stepped in front of the dog and said that the dog deserves to live. When asked who would take care of it, you answered that you would.

So Jimmy carried the dog back to the camp ground and you tended to them.

It broke your heart to see the dog so scared and in pain, but you dutifully cared for the dog, making sure they healed properly.

In the beginning, the dog cowered and trembled when anyone came up to them. But as you tended to them, they slowly began to trust you. You knew things had changed the day you walked in and they started to wag their tail.

The whole time, Bette and Dot were amazed at your dedication and patience with the dog. They had never seen you so passionate about something besides your love for them. And this didn’t take away from your relationship with them. In fact it actually helped you to open up to others.

Eventually the dog healed up and followed you like a shadow. You loved spending time playing fetch or running around with them.

You loved to gush to Bette and Dot about the dog. This in turn helped you to use your words to express the love you felt for them. Before you struggled to explain with words, but you were getting better.

They loved the way you would light up when you talked about either subject and would try to keep you going as long as they could. 

You still were shy around others, but both Bette and Dot knew that you had found a safe place to express yourself with them. And that was enough.

Cordelia Goode

You came to the school after seeing it on TV and realizing that the things you did weren’t random coincidences.

But what you didn’t realize was how attracted you would be to the headmistress.

Of course you never said anything to anyone. But your actions spoke louder than your words. Anytime her eyes happened to land on you, your cheeks burned and you would look down to hide your face. 

And anytime Cordelia came in to observe classes, your magic would disappear and you couldn’t cast a spell to save your life. So you would sneak out to the bathroom anytime she came in. 

But you began to notice her daily habits and did little helpful things. Each morning when you made your tea, you would pour her some. She often picked the mug up without any words spoken as she was busy speaking to other students or needed to start working right away, but you didn’t mind. Or if you noticed her office trash was full you would take it out. If she left dishes in the sink to wash the next day you would take care of them. 

In all of this, you never said anything about doing these things and Cordelia could work on important matters as the supreme and headmistress. For you it was a game of how many things you could do to help her out each day.

At the end of the semester, Myrtle convinced Cordelia to let the girls go out for one night of fun. But you stayed home, not one to enjoy going out. Plus it meant the house would be quiet for a couple hours. 

But you did buy some cheap wine to drink alone and went out to the back porch. You liked that spot because there was nice breeze and you had a good view of the stars.

After drinking way too much, you leaned against one of the support beams on the porch, letting out small hiccups. While you’re tired, you didn’t want to get up so you stay out longer, knowing you had some time. 

However, Cordelia startled you when she asked what you were doing. You looked back to see her watching you and you felt your cheeks warm.

You tried to answer while hiding the empty bottle, but you kept tripping over your words. Then Cordelia asked if you’re drunk, but can clearly see you are. She was just curious how you would answer.

You stuttered out you weren’t, but she came to sit beside you and assured you it was ok if you were. So you admitted you were a little drunk. You tried to compose yourself, but the alcohol was not having that.

So you both sat there for a moment before Cordelia mentioned that she didn’t see you in class often and asked about you. You told her about yourself and as you talked, you tried to flirt, but failed miserably. However, your efforts made her chuckle.

Cordelia teased you and asked if you were really into her. Without thinking you answered yes and told her about your magic problems when she is around and how you tried to help her out in anyway you could.

She was shocked at your confession and so were you. Immediately you apologized and began to tear up. But she said soothing words and told you not to cry. Then she helped you to your bedroom and tucked you in.

The next day, Cordelia noticed you were missing and only then realized how much you did for her on a daily basis since she had to do different tasks she had forgot about. Then she asked the girls if they had seen you, but none of them had. So she headed up to your room.

Cordelia knocked on the door, but you didn’t answer, mortified as you remembered all you said last night. So she used her magic to open the door and saw you hiding under your covers, red-faced and teary eyed.

She sat on the edge of your bed and mentioned that she missed her little helper today. You still felt humiliated and apologized about last night.

But she comforted you and said she has known about your crush on her for a while now. Then she said she was willing to give it a shot if you were, but to not mention it to the other girls for now.

You eagerly nodded and agreed. Then Cordelia gave you a light kiss and chuckled at how bashful you got. After she told you to take your time getting ready and that she would make up something for your hangover.

Lana Winters

This was the first year you were going to spend Christmas with Lana and you were very excited. You had been dating for six months and you both loved each other so much.

However Lana wasn’t one to go all out for Christmas. In fact, to her it was almost like any other day. On the other hand, you loved Christmas and usually went crazy with decorations and presents.

But you kept your enthusiasm to a minimum, and tried not to freak her out whenever the subject of Christmas came up. Meanwhile Lana was trying to figure out why you were so subdued.

Lana knew you were quiet from the beginning, but as she had gotten to know you better, she could pick up on your thoughts from your different facial expressions. Her experience in journalism helped her to notice if your lips twitched or eyes moved a certain way.

But Lana couldn’t figure this one out. That was until she overheard you talking on the phone with your mother. She tried to not be nosy, but as the conversation went on, she understood what was bugging you.

You told your mother you weren’t coming home for Christmas this year because you were spending it with Lana. So she asked what your plans were, but there wasn’t much to say. 

You had to explain that Lana wasn’t really into Christmas so you wouldn’t do much besides spend the day together. Lana noticed the sadness in your voice about that.

Your mother asked about how you’ll miss celebrating Christmas. You admitted you were a little bummed that there wouldn’t be decorations and things, but you were just glad Lana was so happy with you and that was what mattered.

As soon as you said that, Lana felt bad that you didn’t feel like you could celebrate what was your favorite holiday. And even though tomorrow was Christmas Eve, she wanted to make this time special for you.

You came back into the living room and if Lana hadn’t know any better she would have had no idea that you wanted to do something more. But she did and asked you about it.

You were embarrassed and said that it was no big deal, but Lana made you sit and talk about why you like Christmas and what you would normally do. So you shared memories with her, you began to feel better already.

As you talked, Lana loved seeing you so excited for something and told you that you both would go out to buy decorations for the apartment. She watched your eyes light up and smiled as you thanked her while you pulled her into a hug.

The next day you were so excited and couldn’t stop talking about how excited you were for Christmas. And as Lana listened, she felt herself getting excited too. 

You went to a department store and shyly told Lana not to look as you picked out a present for her. Meanwhile Lana got you a present as well.

Then you both went around and picked out decorations. Lana made sure you picked up lots of mistletoe so there would be plenty to spread throughout the apartment.

After purchasing the items, Lana took you to a nursery and you both chose a tree. Before you left, you got some hot chocolate to sip on. Then you thanked Lana again for doing all of this. Lana was just excited to see you so happy after you were so reserved.

By the evening you were home and ready to set up all of the decorations. Lana told you to take the lead and once everything was set up, you turned on the radio so you had some Christmas music.

Then you both made dinner. This time Lana took the lead. While you loved talking about Christmas, you were ready to listen to Lana as she spoke. There was a special comfort you got from listening to her and you were happy to listen to her sweet, comforting voice.

You both ate dinner before getting in matching pajama sets you had bought and went to watch TV. A Christmas movie was on so Lana kept on that channel. Then you timidly asked if you could cuddle with her.

Lana chuckled and teased you about being so shy, but opened her arms for you to sit and cuddle into her. As she held you close and rubbed your back, she asked if this ended up being a good Christmas and you drowsily said yes, thanking her for everything.

Billie Dean Howard

One of the first things that Billie found attractive about you was how easily she could get you to blush. Even when she would look at you, your cheeks would turn bright pink.

While you would blush and hide your smiles, you loved the attention and found Billie to be very attractive. So when she asked you out, you happily accepted.

As your relationship progressed, Billie loved that you kept so bashful, even though she knew how dirty and vulgar you could be, but every once and a while you would show a bolder, playful side.

Just when Billie thought she knew everything about you, you would do something completely unexpected. But Billie loved to be kept on her toes.

For example, one evening after work Billie caught you doing something very unexpected.

You had lost track of time and had the house speakers loud while you danced throughout the house. You always thought it was stupid, but when certain songs came on, you couldn’t sit still. So you kept the dancing to yourself.

While Billie expected you to dance awkwardly or only do slow dances, here you were dancing as if you were in a club. And you looked amazing while doing it. Billie watched you and felt speechless as you kept going.

Just a couple weeks ago, you both attended a wedding and Billie couldn’t convince you to come out to the dance floor for anything except one slow song. And even then you blushed and hid your face in her neck.

But in the privacy of your home, you danced without any inhibitions. And as Billie watched your swaying hips and ass, the room suddenly felt much warmer.

Out of the corner of your eye you noticed someone and saw it was Billie. Immediately you froze up and your face turned crimson. You glanced and the clock and realized that you had been going longer than you had thought.

Billie greeted you with a smirk and said she had no idea you would listen to such suggestive music, let alone dance like that. But her dark eyes twinkled and you knew she loved it from her tone.

You forced yourself to start breathing and nervously twirled your hair as you stuttered that you really weren’t that good. Then you looked to the ground wishing it would swallow you up.

But Billie assured you that you looked amazing and asked if a lap dance was possible. She didn’t know if you would say yes, but she figured she could ask.

Your eyes widened and your face got even redder. The thought of dancing in front of someone, made your stomach clench up. But the idea of dancing for Biliie did turn you on, so you said that you could try.

Billie let you pick the song, but could tell you were a little nervous. So she pulled you in for a kiss and assured you that you would be great. You thanked her for the encouragement and tried to calm your nerves.

So you started and instead of focusing on you dancing, you tried to focus on pleasing Billie. As you got going, you became more confident and started to take off your shirt and jeans. Seeing Billie’s reactions made you even more confident and you soon forgot your nerves.

Meanwhile Billie felt like she had died and gone to heaven as you danced and teased her. You were no professional, but Billie was even more turned on that it was you and she could touch you. In fact you would beg for her touch.

When the song finished, you were only in your bra and panties and suddenly felt self-conscious as you realized what you just did. So you climbed onto Billie’s lap and hid your face in her chest as your cheeks burned.

Billie held you and gave reassuring kisses as she said how amazing you were. You looked to her, shocked and gave a shy smile. Then Billie gave you a deep kiss and asked if you could make this a regular thing. You giggled and said you would do it for her.

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Top 3 current ships: I actually have just one OTP, which is Bela/Farin (aka FUB) from Die Ärzte, and then multiple smaller ones here and there. I’m finding new ships way too easily and sometimes it bugs me because I meant to enjoy a thing and boom, suddenly I have a ship there to fuck up with my brain. B/F is pretty much the only ship that I can say to actually ship, the rest are more like just for fun, I enjoy seeing stuff but I don’t really do anything about it, you know?

But now as I think of it, I think of it, I could say another band ship here: Paulchard aka Paul Landers and Richard Z. Kruspe from Rammstein, about these I have also watched videos and read some fancomics too and last summer’s tour was a wild one and I was following the events quite a lot.

And then maybe I could throw one fictional ship here too as it’s pretty much current one since I just finished watching the 5th season of Gotham last week, and that is, of course Nygmobblepot aka Penguin/The Riddler aka Oswald Cobblepot/Edward Nygma. I’ve never in my life shipped these before, even tho I’ve been a Batman fan since 1999 (I was 8) as I saw the 60s series on TV and I can remember almost shipping Batman and Robin back then, and I was only 8 years old!, and then had been watching the movies more or less during my childhood, but this was never something I’d even think of before I started watching Gotham and things started happening in the show. But it’s an interesting one. And I have to admit that while the show was still running and I couldn’t watch it because I live in Europe (and was too lazy to look for a website to watch it :D), I was still browsing the tag on Tumblr after each episode and giving myself spoilers of what happens with them. But I think the ending was a lot different than what I thought based on the Tumblr posts, and I’m actually not sure what to think of it. Imho it was not as bad as everyone else seemed to think.

I’m putting this under a read more link as this is getting way too long and I don’t know if people are interested in reading my weird thoughts about ships and other random stuff, so here you go... 

Top 3 all-time ships:  Oh my gosh, I have had so many but only like 2 actually strong ones? And I have to say Bela/Farin here as well, the reasons are found from above and I’m just so obsessed with them and idc what it is, already the friendship is like friendhip goals, you know? But yeah, I’ve been making videos about these two idiots for like last 10 years so... :D

And the next one, okay I’m usually not so talkative about ships. I can talk about them with people in private but I don’t like to go and shout about them publicly, probably the only one I talk about this way is Bela/Farin but it’s because Tumblr is a safe place for this and there’s no hate with this ship or anything (and the other one is Paulchard, every now and then I will reblog something that crosses my dash). But mainly I like to keep ships to myself and like I said in that other tag game post, ships are more like a guilty pleasure. Maybe because of my age as it was very normal at the age of 15 but now as I’m 28? Why am I still “in love with other people’s love”? I actually don’t mind it but I think many people would find it weird, especially when I don’t read fanfictions anymore and I don’t want to imagine anything, I just like seeing cute stuff, but with many ships I don’t even want to see too much, I just like seeing them being close but with many ships even seeing them kiss would be too much.

But anyway, top 3 all-time ships... I think I need to mention here a ship that I was very much obsessed when I was 15-17, that I wrote LOTS OF fanfiction and was there to make lots of fan theories and all, and that one was Frerard aka Gerard Way/Frank Iero from My Chemical Romance. I was SO obsessed it’s insane. If you know anything about MCR and Frerard, you maybe are aware of how was the year 2007 and you can probably imagine how crazy we all went when Project Revolution stuff happened. So yeah, I need to mantion that here even tho I no longer “believe in this ship”, but I guess I’d lie if I said, that I didn’t believe that there was something there back in the day. I’ve actually recently been watching some Frerard theory videos just for fun, because there’s so many things I had forgotten and so many things I still can remember, but also lots of stuff that I kinda missed because they happened in 2010-2012, and even tho I was still very much in the fandom and I was to their second gig in Finland in 2011, I still was not that much into the Danger Days album so I was not so into digging up stuff either. And I had my own identity crisis and Die Ärzte had been my favorite band for 1-2 years at that time so I was spending lots of time watching DÄ videos, so MCR was kinda at the background. And then the whole band went quiet for some time until they quit in 2013 (and now they’re back), so all that Frerard hype kinda died after each of them started to get married to other people and the kids were born, so there just... kinda was no more room for the ship, you know? But Freard was my first actual huge slash ship, I’ve had others before it (for example, my first touch to slash fiction was Harry Potter fanfiction and of course Harry/Draco stuff, but that one also later died out), but it was the first really strong one and then Bela/Farin kinda took its place as Frerard died out but B/F has been going strong and the ship has been sailing itself since the 80s, so... :D

And as the last one I think I could again mention something fictional but at the same time something that is super weird for me as it’s not slash fiction but hetship, which is something REALLY weird for me. I usually don’t like heteroships as they’re just... boring and so cliché. But I need to mention this one that I got into when I was 15: Fox Mulder and Dana Scully from The X-Files. Yeah I know it was 2006 and the series had ended already in 2002, but I was a new fan! I had known about the series since I was a little kid as my dad was watching it back then, but I started watching it myself when the show had a rerun here in 2004-2005. And then I met my friend in 2006 when we were 15 and we found out that we both were very much into TXF and I remember how we somehow both started to ship Mulder and Scully (having no idea of how the series ended), and it was probably until the 6th season (there was 9 seasons at the time) when they stopped airing it altogether, so we were so furious about the fact because the last episode was such a cliffhanger and we NEEDED TO KNOW, so I had to buy them on dvd! So I remember how we would meet at school every day and after every episode, we went so crazy, discussing what had happened in the episode and if there was any Mulder/Scully activity, we were just so hyped :D And then, as we STILL hadn’t seen all the seasons, we went to see the second movie (”TXF: I want to believe”) in theaters in 2008 or so, and it’s set to happen after the events of the seasons, we were both so blown away by what was in the movie because we had no clue :D Fun fact: I actually finished watching the 9th season only last year. So now I understand the events of the second movie a lot better, and I’ve also seen the 10th and 11th seasons so now I’m finally aware of everything. But that really is a hetship that I accept and that is not like a typical movie romance type of ship. It has interesting dynamics.

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Last song: Tatuoituna by Tehosekoitin

Lipstick or chapstick: Chapstick, I don’t use any make-up, but chapstick I need to use daily.

Last movie: Iron Sky. I’ve seen it before tho, but we’re gonna watch the sequel soon, so we had to watch this to remember what happened :D (And it’s made partially by Finns, so..!)

Reading: Atm I have 3 books I’m reading, all of them in Finnish:

The Adventures of Sherlock Holmes, which has all the short stories in one. But I think there’s some of the newer ones missing and that’s why I bought this bit newer book with more stories, and I’m gonna read those once I’m finished with this one. And I’ve been reading this now for years lol... but I’m slowly getting there, I’m already over halfway through :D

A collection of Edgar Allan Poe’s short stories, I don’t know the name for this book and it doesn’t say any name for the original. This one I also started to read a years back, only to pause if for years and then last year I borrowed it again from my dad and tried to continue from where I was left the last time.

The Heroes of Olympus: The Mark of Athena by Rick Riordan. I’ve been reading his books ever since I was a, well, teenager probably, and I have had a long pause with these books and reading overall, but now I’m back at it and trying to buy and read all of his books I still haven’t read.

I wanted to read the latter only after finishing with SH and Poe’s stories but I needed to read something and they’re bit too difficult reading at the times, and I needed something lighter but also didn’t want to start over with Harry Potter for the 5th time so I decided to go for this series instead. I really like reading SH and Poe’s stories, but like I said, they’re bit difficult at the times. You can’t just read them, you need to think and use your brains meanwhile you’re reading, and sometimes it’s just so incredibly hard to stay focused on it and I need to go back so often because I wasn’t paying attention and then had no clue what was happening and why.

And I sometimes I skip some of Poe’s stories because they’re so purely scientific about a topic that I cannot comprehend nor care about, e.g. this one story that was almost like a science essay about hot-air balloon flight in the form of a story, probably super interesting for someone who likes this kind of stuff and even more interesting for a writer interested in stuff like that, but I’m really not the target audience of that story :D But then there’s also lots of really interesting ones, I especially like the ones that have something to do with insanity. I guess people would call them as the horror stories, but idk, I just love that kind of mystery. For some reason all of my favorite stories are those where there is a dead woman/love interest :DD But probably my ultimate favorite is the one about writing an article to a magazine with horror stories, and how this guy become beheaded and all just to write a story about how it feels like and stays alive meanwhile, and I just LOVE IT when fictional works play with death and when something that is supposed to kill you, doesn’t, and I just love the idea of that story so much :D It’s just that you never know how a story will be like, as you start reading, is it a scientific essay or a mystery or a horror story or about insanity or what is it? And then when in the middle of reading and you realize this is bit boring or uninteresting, but still want to finish, but also want to skip, and that’s why I get stuck with that book, and I change to SH or something else. Often I also grab some of the comics (or non-fiction books) I own whenever I feel like reading but these books feel too heavy for that moment.

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I should tag 9 people but I don’t even know that many people to tag lol. Okay I do know people, but I still don’t know who wants to be tagged and who doesn’t. Maybe I’ll be boring and tag @stufenlosregelbar again? :D And idk, maybe @annika-of-the-lost? Eh, I’m so bad at this whole tagging thing. I’m having a bad conscience if I don’t tag anyone/enough people in case they want to be tagged and I can’t read minds; and then I’m having bad conscience when I DO tag people in case they’re all somewhere facepalming and screaming “WHYYYYYY” into the void, as I still can’t read minds. So you can choose, do this tag game or ignore it and ban me from ever tagging you people again, I don’t mind :p