#I left this 20% assignment to the last minute (ofc) so ig I gotta finish that now :/ | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

reverie-starlight · 9 months ago

Text

going from literally not being able to handle school and hating myself for setting myself up for failure these past two years to submitting stuff on time and actually putting in the effort this semester feels so surreal, I genuinely forgot I could do it.

#rev rambles #this is sappy #but it's been rough for me cause school was my everything for so long until my mom died. I prided myself on my academic achievements.#so to go from feeling shitty about everything and genuinely not caring while also loathing myself on every front bc I was frozen #and didn't recognize myself anymore #to actually remembering that I do in fact enjoy learning and school and getting involved #and feeling pride in the work I do and actually feeling like I can take a break without crippling anxiety from ignoring my tasks #is absolutely insane to me. I genuinely thought I'd be this way forever and now I'm very very slowly starting to feel like myself again #and i'm not magically “better” this semester either #I'm definitely still feeling the effects of burnout especially after going from what feels like 0-100 in such a short amount of time #but I remembered that I DO care and that just makes me so emotional bc??? I didn't think that was an option for me anymore???#ANYWAYYYYY #I left this 20% assignment to the last minute (ofc) so ig I gotta finish that now :/

10 notes · View notes