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kyofsonder · 2 months ago

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Life, aiming a loaded crossbow at me: I'm sorry. You were involved in the decisions that led to this, but you can't know whether they're worth it until everything is done. This is the first step. Endure it as best you can.

Me, shot with the crossbow bolt: [looks down and sees a label tied to the bolt that reads "metaphor for stressful situation"] Ow. Thanks for the warning, I guess? At least it's the only thing I'm getting shot with for a good while.

Life, reloading several bolts into the crossbow at once: Have you ever heard of speed shooting?

Me: I want it to be known that I resent this.

Life: Noted. [shoots me multiple times in quick succession]

Me, on the floor and stuck full of crossbow bolts all over my body: Recovering from this is gonna suck.

#sonder speaks #personal post #I'm trying to joke about my stress #but I did in fact get so stressed that it triggered a seizure #and then my immune system was so compromised from the stress and seizure that I'm now sick #and those are just the incidental health side effects of the stress itself #the situations have been numerous and covered a wide range of severity #the first crossbow bolt was my family deciding to move states and realizing the timeline will be very very short #the next was one of my budgies dying #then my dad having a week+ long dramatic panic attack meltdown about the move #he's past the worst of the meltdown itself but the deep deep fear is still an issue and a stressor #then it was my mom and sister panicking over making things work #then it was my seizure and being in the ER right up until it was time to catch a flight #then stress over helping to find the rught house while knowing none of them will satisfy the fear of my dad #but most of them will fit the criteria for which we originally chose to move #and then the dog we inherited from my grandma -- who's never bonded with anyone but me and never that deeply with me #who was in the shelter for a day and then retrieved and who I defended when other family members wanted her returned --#she growled at my 6 month old niece and nobody is bonded enough with her to train her to be gentle with a baby or toddler #she's a risk to my niece so she had to go back to the shelter and I'm a lot sadder and more stressed about it than I expected #I even cried and I don't cry over anything not even the deaths of grandparents or pets #and it's looking like I might have diabetes too but I can't get my labs done to find out for sure until I'm not sick #and the crossbow just keeps being fired at me #I know others are more stresed over more and bigger things #but I am so sick of these crossbow bolts #I want to be done with these #I want my stress levels down

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