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I couldn't stop thinking about how Aziraphale tells Crowley, “I forgive you,” in the S2 finale. So I went back and replayed the scene a more few times and here's what I think:
Aziraphale would've never gone with Crowley because of his sense of duty and desire for the greater good. He cares too much, in a genuine way, about the Earth and humanity. The state of Heaven and it's morals don't align with Aziraphale's, and instead of pulling away like Crowley, he sticks. He wants to change it.
Aziraphale says, “you're the bad guys,” but he still wants Crowley to go with him to Heaven. To be in charge with him. I've seen some say that Aziraphale wanted to change Crowley, make him 'better/good' [Heaven's idea of good], but I disagree. I think he believes Crowley to be a kind individual who shouldn't have become a demon in the first place.
Aziraphale saw Crowley as an angel, he witnessed his happiness, he wants to bring him that once again. That's partly why he doesn't understand Crowley's utter disgust and refusal to 'side' with Heaven. Crowley has always been able to see Heaven's cruelty for what it really is. Aziraphale sees becoming Supreme Archangel as an opportunity for [his ideal of] Crowley's and humanity's happiness/wellbeing.
When Crowley kisses him, it's at the worst possible time, the worst possible moment. They can't skip off together happily into the sunset; Aziraphale can't walk away knowing he could've improved Heaven's methods.
He forgives Crowley for using the kiss as a last resort, a last chance, a promise: this is what we could have. Aziraphale is put into this horrifying position where he has to give up who he's always wanted for what he's always wanted— what's best for everyone overall. The kiss is cruel, in that way. That's why he says, “I forgive you,” | think.
Their ability to bond while having such different priorities and perspectives is something I love so much. Their flaws complement each other in the most painful way possible.
Anyway! I wish I never watched this show because I am in immeasurable pain.
#i’m sure you all have heard thousands of takes and opinions on the finale#but i NEEDED to word vomit 😭#just recently finished it so excuse me if i overlooked anything#i’d love to hear your thoughts !#good omens#good omens season 2#good omens spoilers#aziraphale#crowley#aziracrow#aziraphale x crowley#actually devasted by s2#i knew Azi wouldn’t but i still hoped a bit 😭
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Not me eagerly awaiting Epic the Musical’s Underworld Saga release because I feel like it’s going to make for some KILLER HH crossover in the form of horrific Lucifer angst. Like, I’ve already got some ideas flowing. Whether anything comes of them who knows? Whether I remember them? WHO KNOWS. But as of right now? MMM so excited.
Like, just picture this w/ me for a second (I’m gonna put my brain-rot fantasies after the cut for all of y’all who could not give less of a shit):
Imagine the song “The Underworld.”
“This land confuses your mind / When does a man become a monster? / 558 men who died under your command”
It starts with Lucifer closing his eyes, then opening them in like a pitch black environment.
“Captain, Captain, Captain, Captain!”
The first three have of him running into like— more angelic spears which corral him into a corner. The last one he like looks up at just sees ALL the angels glaring at him.
“Why would you let the Cyclops live when ruthlessness is mercy!”
Here I imagine it starts w/ flashbacks of him giving Eve the apple. Then, there’s is like a giant black snake forms from/behind/around the angel and in some way like kinda just.. “consumes” Lucifer, like it jumps up in the air, comes back down on him. He flinched, and when he opens his eyes again he’s alone, on the ground in Hell, covered in blood, and has his demonic traits showing. Idk, just something super symbolically horrific that would def be something u see in a nightmare.
“All I hear are screams… / Every time I dare to close my eyes / I no longer dream / Only nightmares of those who’ve died. / (Nothing’s what it seems) Nothing’s what it seems / but in the underworld the past seems close behind”
Here Lucifer is just looking around at all the carnage and graphic depictions Hell has to offer. I also imagine at some point he sees his own demonic form and like— physically jumps back in fear/repulsion. Just like real graphic, horrific, nightmare fuel. The frames go by somewhat quickly, just a jumbled mess of gore and violence and terror.
“I keep thinking of the infant from that night / I keep thinking of the infant from that night.”
The like gorey images get faster, but also mixed in are actual images of him falling, angellic spears, him giving Eve the apple, Lilith, basically everything that you could imagine is part of his trauma. Like, they just flash by the screen faster and faster on repeat until u can’t even rlly tell what they are anymore. Then, after the second repeat of the verse, the music stops abruptly and he sits up straight in bed, looks around, realizes it was a dream, then it’s just a wide shot of him alone in his room, looking haunted and tired but not panicked anymore.
Idk if I would want him to be staying at the Hotel, or in his castle in his big like King sized bed w/ half the bed not slept in, but either way yummy angst.
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Haha, oops, went on a little ramble there. Oh well. Hopefully someone will care and agree that this would be bombed. Or not. Who rlly gives a shit? Not me, I just needed to write this down XD.
I also have another idea for the song No Longer You but I’m not gonna go on a whole spiel, and instead just say it starts at “But that’s not a world I know” w/ Luci looking in the mirror at his demon form. Then form “I see a song of past romance” onward is Lucifer reflecting back on Lilith, the apple, his Fall, etc. Then finally on “But it’s no longer you” flash back to present day Lucifer who kinda just sighs and (maybe) sheaths his demonic attributes sadly/ashamed oh b4 walking away.
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MMM don’t u love when you just have all the ideas but you forgot your stylus at home so you can’t even TRY to attempt to start a project ur never gonna finish?
#hazbin hotel lucifer#lucifer hazbin hotel#i love luci#hazbin hotel#apple daddy#lucifer#duck lord#short king#lucifer angst#tumblr sexyman#epic the musical#crossover animatic concept#animatic inspiration#concept idea#just word vomit honestly#I needed to get these visions out into the world#you MUST know what’s going through my head#it was too good to not say anything#I would actually die to see something like this made.#I’m chomping at the bit for April 26
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hi ian i come bearing angst fuel for the yuusha as twsted elsa (maybe an idea for her possible overblot idk she kinda reads to me as someone whod preemptively isolate in the case she feels...blotty)
(also seeing that art of her playing violin totally didnt fuck me up im still nursing my bruised heart 🥴🥴💕💕)
https://youtu.be/NDldNaEZTt8?si=Wm71pgTltuJLjFvk
^^this is from the frozen musical where they gave a song to elsa to explore her emotional turmoil and it just fleshed out her character so much more than the orig movie (ok i havent seen frozen 2 oops) but just this section here:
Is everyone in danger as long as I'm alive?
Was I a monster from the start?
How did I end up with this frozen heart?
Bringing destruction to the stage
Caught in a war that I was never meant to wage
anyways lmao i jus think the song is neat i think yuushas neat (i wanna see more of her ahehehe i love seeing infodumps abt ur yuus)
-diodellet
(throwback to this “what if yuu had magic” ask where i had a ✨realization✨ and this more recent yuusha lore drop that i gave zero elaboration on 🙃)
very rough ob yuu design??? idk i came up with it on the spot ;;; and it’s kinda based on disney’s concept art of elsa when she was supposed to be the villain.
evil ice queen vibes :3
also i know the ob monster is supposed to be based on the villain— which is elsa in this case— but lowkey. an ice monster is way cooler.
also also i just realized after i drew this i couldve done a grim/yuu tandem overblot ough 🤧🤧 (next time I'll do that instead if i ever go back to this concept)
(read more below because it got SO long)
AAH anyways hi hi dio!!! when i saw your ask i went —
— with this entire post
AAGH HOW MANY MORE UNINTENTIONAL CONNECTIONS ARE GOING TO BE BETWEEN FROZEN AND YUUSHA
i guess watching the movie everyday when it came out when you’re like 9 does something to your brain chemistry (and still haunts you at least a decade later) 💀
but anyways the angst ;;; overblot yuu ;;;;; my brain is rotting and the worms have taken over
also i didn’t even know that there was a frozen broadway musical so im gonna have to check it out later 🏃💨💨💨
(also dont worry frozen 2 is a nice watch for the most part but the way they concluded the characters did not feel 100% satisfying to me 😭 BUT i love some of the songs tho ;;; kristoff’s goofy 80s ballad song is one of them specifically, i need everyone to listen to it)
hfgnnfhfgv anyways thank you so much i’m chugging that angst fuel as i expand more on a possible ob yuusha with another infodump 💪💪💪
⚠️⚠️⚠️ ALSO IM SORRY BUT mentions of taking one’s own life so please proceed with caution ⚠️⚠️⚠️
i had to reread what my initial thoughts about it bc it was months ago??? and after rereading im just like, huh what was i on— (just that feeling when you just cringe at your old posts ;; but idk i think the insanity/cringe sometimes can loop back into being a genius and the cycle just continues)
anyways i’ve been on and off writing yuusha’s bio and overblot yuu was just at the back of my mind chilling but i didn’t really do anything with it.
but now that i have the opportunity,,,, im gonna go on the magicless route this time bc i feel like I've said all what i thought if it was an overblot due to her own magic.
so uh from what i gather overblots are a mix of overuse of magic + intense negative emotion.
since it’s magicless yuu, i guess the one of the general headcanons around the fandom is that they’ve been too exposed to overblots and then intense negative emotions suddenly just triggered their overblot.
uh anyways onto the elsa parts
Is everyone in danger as long as I'm alive? Was I a monster from the start? How did I end up with this frozen heart? Bringing destruction to the stage Caught in a war that I was never meant to wage
THE LYRICS ARE SO GOOD ;;; i really love how some broadway interpretations expand on the source material
and yeah you're right 🤧🤧🤧— yuusha would try to hide and escape, especially as she overblots bc she would try to avoid hurting people (and like elsa, it'd only hurt others more trying to escape bc of probably how she leaves destruction in her wake trying to make others stay away from her 😔)
(this is a small tangent but i remember thinking about an overblot kalim and i imagine him to be similar, like he would not hurt anyone intentionally in his overblot.)
anyways so the way it would go is that i imagine her friends got fatally injured either because a) she feels that she’s too “useless” without magic to help and wasn’t able to do anything OR b) her attempts at helping to try and prove that she can help without magic made everything worse.
and then she just goes into a guilty spiral then boom — overblot.
ALSO in the song, the way elsa briefly contemplated taking her own life but then realizing there’s no guarantee that would solve anything hnghgh (<- another unintentional parallel to my yuusha lore because that’s actually how she ended up in twst except she did NOT have the latter realization)
there’s this “yuu is dead” theory i’m just using and that the black carriage actually just caught yuusha’s soul after she took her own life from all the burden.
also some bonus angst context for that violin post :3
yuusha back in her homeworld is raised and known to be a gifted musician. people can feel the life and soul in her music but when people interact with her, they are usually met with an ice-cold (heh) personality.
the dead family member was the one who taught her music and the only one who was kind to her.
there’s always an expectation from her family to perform well and to keep up appearances as to not be a humiliation since anything she does can reflect on her entire family. (also hi, slight yuusha/jamil parallels maybe???)
the way she presents herself also stemmed from an incident as a child when she went apeshit on another kid bc she was defending a friend.
so from then on she was taught taught to conceal don’t feel those emotions — which just unfortunately extended to any positive ones, not just negative ones like rage.
so when she is brought to twst, there’s no memory of her being forced to hold back her emotions so she’s just unapologetically affectionate and open with everyone bc that’s how she really is.
but every now and then, memories of her breaking down haunt her in her dreams or as subtle reminders in the waking world.
then yuusha just goes on her day like she just wasn't reminded of her past.
(unnecessarily tragic lore my beloved, but anyway—)
another extremely brief tangent and bonus -> the two songs i had on loop while drawing pre-twst yuusha
lindsey stirling my beloved i love her music
the songs are such a vibe
her instrumentals in “lose you now” especially makes me feel some sort of way 😖
#AHH THIS IS /SO/ LONG#THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN IM GIVEN THE CHANCE TO RAMBLE#but thank you for the ask dio!! 🤧🤧#it makes me so happy to hear you like yuusha 😭💕💕#this also took a bit because i needed to like#actually turn all these thoughts into actual coherent words#and for them to actually. make sense together.#idk im proofreading this myself during the gamer hours of midnight hfdjslkf#i sure /hope/ they do make sense for the most part because this is pure massive brain vomit#[—✦ chatting#-✧ my art#-✧ oc rambles#(💜) yuusha#pretwst💜#-✦—]#at this point too i’m sticking to the twst elsa concept#it just felt weird admitting it bc i have a history with this movie and its fandom in general#kids would ask you “whos your favorite disney princess it cant be elsa” bc everyone would pick her so i'd have to pick another </3#she was too famous and therefore too obvious and basic#not to mention “let it go” was EVERYWHERE and it did become annoying at one point 😭#the fandom around frozen back then was v questionable too ngl and i was also in that hole for a bit so it's just /ack/#but rewatching the movie i realize how elsa kinda speaks to me hgjkdsjfaljsd#i could lowkey highkey rant more about her but anyways#imma be an elsa defender and apologist for as long as i am able
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Idk why people act as if Tails being an inventor genius is some kind of new post sa2 development, he invented a Chaps Emerald detector back in Sonic 3 & built a rocket in Sonic the Fighters.
Actually I would say it's the opposite, lately he's been nerfed in the inventions department, like what was the last thing we've seen him show off? Tornado-3 & the Miles Electric back in Unleashed? There was a translator in Colors, can we count it separately?There was something in Lost World I think?
Tails being a supergenius is not the issue, the issue is that he needs to be more whimsical & cute. Back in the day his immaturity & childishness was played in contrast to his genius, that was the hook of the character. But now he's just also more... idk if "mature" is the right word, he's still plenty immature in my opinion, just in a different way.
I don't think making him act like a 5 year old again is the answer, plus it would just seem weird at this point.
I think he's just underused & mostly used as an exposition fairy & lacking in cute character moments that showcase his personality a bit more. He needs some time to breathe & some personal focus. The fact that he barely ever interacts with characters other than Sonic doesn't help either.
(Another problem is that he's always been kind of like more... task-oriented ig, keeping Sonic on track & reminding him what they're doing when he gets distracted. Which might contribute to him seeming older, but it's a consistent character trait that's been there since forever)
#project.txt#actually he needs to be *more* like jimmy neutron & invent random useless shit that no adult would even think about just because he can#tails has the same issue as amy THEY NEED WHIMSY#I think Boom did pretty good in that department. like they did all the other characters completely wrong#but it was a good version of tails that's a bit older but still has this youthful charm without sacrificing his abilities#honestly this post is just a word vomit I want to make an actual post that's like...#where can we take tails as a character post frontiers & what traits it would be nice to see emphasized & stuff#tails#sonic#sonic the hedgehog#tails the fox#miles tails prower#negativity
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jealous cas trope just doesn't do it for me because i personally feel like he doesn't think he deserves to feel jealous over dean <3
#Or rather#i feel like he wasn't emotionally aware for the most of the show to recognise jealousy#dean is jealous and probably hates himself for it#but cas' self esteem is just#yeah#we talk about dean being depressed but it's cas we need to be discussing#lil bro realised he was in love with dean on spot right as they were about to be killed#and then word vomited and spewed love all over the place knowing he'd be dead#just thoughts#also maybe TINY bit of jealousy on my side#i also feel like jacting joices are insane enough for us to read some kf dean's moments as jealousy#but i personally haven't seen that with cas#when dean and anna kiss? that felt more like longing that he didn't understand#with lisa too I didn't sense any jealousy it was once again something that he appreciated for dean#but something that felt forbidden for him#spn#supernatural#spn text post#dean winchester#castiel#destiel#deancas#leo.txt
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Playing cult of the lamb and it didn't really dawn on me until this playthrough how actually concerning it is that Chemach says she made her crown herself.
The Mystery Shadow Hand of Lore^tm talks about specifically, how the Old Gods were the ones doling out crowns by the hundreds back in the day before The Five went on their crusade to be the only gods in the land. Haro still has her crown, rendered eyeless (also, unrelated, looks very similar to the crown associated with Mystery Lore Hand but I am probably not the first person to notice). I have to imagine all of the other crowns were probably hidden away or destroyed. Chemach's brothers don't have crowns so it's unlikely she would have been granted one in the past, either. That's not what their jobs are.
So what is Chemach's crown made of? It doesn't look anything like the other crowns we've seen. Is it made of fragments of other dead crowns? Is it pieces of Old Gods, as is her schtick? Is it made of the same stuff as our crown? Is it paper mache? Is it meat? It has three eyes, but for what purpose? Is it related to the mystic seller? Our crown talks to us and tells us to collect sin points á la the devil from the bible. Is that what drove Chemach crazy? Too many conflicting voices in the crown she made, telling her to do too many things? Was her job always to hand out pieces of dead gods or did that become her job when she made the crown? Who is wearing who in this situation, honestly?
#cult of the lamb#cotl#also like#she made her own followers#is she trying to rise above her station do you think#or is a fruitless endeavor for her#i feel like if they let us fight any of the birds#in a future update#shes going to be the hardest fight#i have no proper actual thoughts about this i just needed to word vomit about it a little bit#chemach girl i have concerns
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Y’all I’m in the middle of Le Salut and I am losing my goddamn mind so have a quick shitty meme
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#probably near the end actually#but I’ll word vomit tomorrow because I am so emotionally tired from this route LOL#I just needed to yell a little bit first or I would explode#can’t wait for more EMOTIONAL DAMAGE#virche evermore#shuuen no virche#otomate#my post
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gotdam being in bed really does make my brain work better
#is it the proximity to the sandman my muse#ily sandman btw plz visit me and let's have good dreams together#anyway wow i am really productive in bed like seriously i wrote almost 1.3k words for this essay and with the intro and conclusion i pretty#much meet the wordcount perfectly#of course this is more like the draft which i just vomited up and need to reorganize a bit and spruce up with fancy sentence structures and#vocabulary but that will take WAY less time#also this is perfect to show my TA to check if the argument is good and whatnot#mmm i might need to relate the two works im synthesizing a bit more though#'im good in bed' but i literally just work most efficiently in bed#also i think the more my hair is tied up the smarter i get#i feel too pretty and shit and then i cant focus#gotta leash them like they're my braincells#then again i dont tie up my hair in bed either??#hmm...this hypothesis might need some work#i nearly put that i feel too himbo-y with my hair down then realized i am not a himbo in any way at all. i wouldve said bimbo but im not on#either so like what am i. im agender so...what am i???? whats the nonbinary equivalent of a himbo/bimbo#also why did i default to himbo and nearly forgot what a bimbo is
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#I think after I get home from babysitting#tonight needs to be a clean my entire apartment and light candles and journal kinda night#need a clean space and to word vomit on paper for a little bit#this time of year is just cyclically a hard time#and these are the only two ways I know how to feel like I have some control right now#instead of reliving past things#mine#text post
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a plotted starter for @sunfyred
for the longest time, sansa had thought this day would never come. her position in the north had changed the day her father was imprisoned, her freedom no longer a matter that rested in his hands, but rather in the hands of her cousin, cregan. bennard stark's plotting had not ceased at just holding onto the lordship of house stark, but rather had extended far greater than his nephew could have ever imagined – a matter that had been kept quiet and secret still. long had he sought power and glory, long were the lengths he was willing to go to achieve it, even if it had meant sending his only daughter from winterfell's halls. she'd been raised as was befitting a highborn lady, prim – proper, exceptionally well - behaved when her brothers were not teasing her or drawing her ire, made into the perfect offering of a wife to viserys targaryen's firstborn son.
it'd taken an extended effort to free her from winterfell, a jointed effort between sansa's own lady mother and the hightowers, a planned trip to visit her mother's family in karhold, wherein sansa and lady margaret had boarded a ship and sailed from the shivering sea to blackwater bay. it'd not been an easy journey, so many days on board a ship that she swore her stomach had turned as often as the tides, but she had survived it. had survived the uncertain eyes at the port – and had been far more thankful than she had ever been when her feet had touched sturdy, dry land.
but if she were meant to feel less nerves, her stomach had not received the memo; freshly bathed and fed, dressed in a soft grey gown of lace and velvet, sansa had been directed into the throne room, directed forward to stand underneath the watchful gaze of far too many eyes. she hadn't known much of her husband - to - be; rumors from the south did not oft travel well north, and save for what her father had allowed her to know of aegon – that he was a handsome, targaryen king, named after the conqueror himself – she'd come into the room as uncertain and unsure as one could have possibly been.
good manners dictate that she sink into a bow, a graceful curtsy with steel grey hues downturned to the floor; she counts seconds in her head, soft, delicate numbers, until she finally exhales a breath and stands tall once more, allowing her eyes to flicker up from the floor to land on the man who sits the throne before her. her heart skips a subtle beat, a gentle flush of pink settling across the apples of her porcelain cheeks – the letters hadn't been wrong about aegon being handsome. his eyes a shade of purple that sansa longed to get lost in, the expression on his features one she cannot precisely read, but one she finds herself all the more intrigued by.
a smile curls onto her lips, warm and sweet, as her hands smooth out the skirt of her gown. “ it is a pleasure to meet you, your grace. although i fear my father's words may have . . . downplayed certain aspects of the capital. ”
#sunfyred#𓉸ྀི ⸝⸝ sansa — hotd ⋮ stupid lamb in a slaughterhouse.#this accidentally got a LIL BIT ... LONG ....#u do NOT need to match length#sansa and i are just word vomiting atp
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Wow threats of violence and death woe is me. Bitch it's been like this for years if you hate me kill me already and if you don't plan to just shut that shit spitting asshole mouth of yours.
I have nothing to lose if he actually carried on with it, he'd do me a favour. It's funny to me he thinks he scares me and its even funnier he gets more angry when I laugh.
Bro I got used to your abusive shit, it's another day of you being an aggressive coward to me after I ignored you for months even if you wanted a reaction. I don't give a shit lmao
#misc#i cannot take him seriously#i remember i used to be scared back in 2019 lmao bruh hit me if you dare. ill make sure you never step foot in this house or out of a#jail cell for years#what's funnier is that i dont even talk to him he just attacks me like this because he hates me for no fucking reason other than jealousy.#because weve had the same shared trauma but he fucked himself up on purpose to be pitied and i held on and now im independent#and he hates that he cant have my attention anymore after all the years ive been the one TRYING SO HARD#homecooked meals and covering for his ass. cleaning his piss and puke and lending him money anf shit. listening to hi.#bro didn't even care to be nice the tiniest bit to me when i was on the floor after fainting or vomiting blood or when i needed rest because#i was going to work with a fever 10 hours a day to pay hospital and home bills.#lmfao abusive fuck#out of everyone ive left im glad he can see every day how good im having it since i stopped talking to him. thats why hes angry and follows#me around and stares and curses me out. im just quiet. neutral. no expressions no words. and it pisses him off. good eat your liver out#over it bitch#im leaving in 3 hours anyway lmao
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#weight loss cw for the following tags#i need to word vomit some stuff out#pain stuff recently got super bad#like i was waking up crying bc it was so bad and i could barely move#and ive been doing pain management stuff with my doctor and hit a bit of a wall#so im trying to lose weight to see if that will improve stuff#BUT my pcos makes losing weight stupid hard even without the pain making exercise suck hard#so we're in the process trying some drugs to help and see if we can get things started and my metabolism back on track#and mentally its been a v weird few days coming to terms with it#partly bc of frustrations about my body just never doing what i want it to#im fine with getting the help i need but i just wish my body wasnt fighting me on every front#and partly bc if i lose the amount of weight im hoping to it will be an obvious change#and i know some people in my life are going to make v unkind comments#and im dreading that already#which i know is my anxiety spiraling and catastrophising#but its still stuck in my head and making this harder#especially bc i dont want to lose weight for aesthetic purposes so i dont want those ppl commenting on my body#but there will be no avoiding it. i must mentally prepare for it
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Random thought but upon further reflection... I think I've finally figured out why I actually couldn't stand Kaveh at first (past tense! I love him now if you haven't noticed yet).
When it comes to his character I see myself in him a lot as well. To the point, where I'd say I kin him.
I think he is a bit too relatable for me so that's why I didn't like him.
I'm often down on myself, never feeling good enough or deserving of love or things, holding myself to an insanely high standard that's sheer impossible to meet, and then getting upset if I can't meet it. All of this goes to the point where I neglect myself and my health.
And on top of all of that, I constantly want to help people even if it means I'm inconvenienced. And if something goes awry I blame myself very often for that as well...
#🍁 dust rambles#bit of a personal word vomit#but I look at Kaveh and just see myself#and having my flaws slapped in my face like that was at least subconsciously offputting for me#does that even make sense#well yeah anyway#kaveh? you and me? same page!#plus I'm an artist so I can relate to these struggles a lot as well#fun fact... I wanted to study architecture once#either that or biology#glad I didn't do it because I SUCK at math#might delete this later I just needed to put it into words#🍁彡 gi
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First, I like your font too, especially the colours. 💗
Second, are you into other fandoms?
First, Ty :3
Secondly, so. Many.
Fnaf and tf2 are the first things that come to mind, especially fnaf:Security breach since the new dlc come out recently (by the time I’ve posted this I have probably already drawn art of Eclipse, I love my boys). I tend to fixate on characters and I’ve always loved the tf2 comic so Medic has been on my mind with Engineer also making his way in there. Oh !! And Deltarune :3 love deltarune, especially Spamton. I love seeing AUs about it too, people are so creative. I really love HLVR:Ai too, just recently I got the Frenrey Pink-to-Blue fan Zine! In that series I heavily fixated on Benrey, my sona is actually heavily inspired after my own design of him!
Other offhanded fandoms I’m in are Call of Duty, Spooky Month, the ARG and Analog horror community, homestuck, Steven universe, and probably a bunch of stuff that I’m missing. I love a lot of things !
Ever since I got into tsp (over a year ago) Ive mostly been paying attention to that and not much else so I haven’t given my other fandoms much attention. However I still do love them dearly
But anyway ! TLDR: Tspud has taken over my life, I can’t focus on much else, it’s a problem but we’re still living laughing and loving
Despite that, I like video games (like fnaf, tf2, and portal) and webseries (like HLVR:AI, Spooky Month, and ARG/ analog horror stuff)
And I love to ramble
#Suzuki-notsonormal#apologies for the word vomit that I just dropped on you haha I don’t get to talk ab myself often so I tend to go a bit overboard#like I need to say all these things in a short amount of time bc people won’t listen for long !! go go go !!#lmao that’s probably why I’m always going off in my tags#bc I can say can what I didn’t have time to in the post#I can expand on thangs#ESPECIALLY if it’s about my boys (Stanley and Narrator)#i loveeee talking about my boys#this ain’t ab them#what is this about?#FANDOMS yes yes#I’ll leave it here before the tags get longer than the actual post again haha#apologies !!#.txt
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#I don't know when the last time I washed my hair was#this one is adding a bit of my personal life into the bertgif world#I'm about to probably overshare so if you don't care to know about my lore then stop reading now lmao#I have had a ROUGH month LMAOOOOOOOO#my cat is sick and needs surgery and ive been putting literally all of my mental energy into helping him and making sure he's ok#so I've been struggling and it's been so wack bc my birthday is this month and since I'm a Leo I like to make the whole month about me(lmao#but this month I haven't been able to do that and it's just been weird and sad and it hasn't felt like my birthday#and I just havent really had anyone to vent to so I guess I'm word vomiting here#it just feels so stupid#also my basement flooded and insurance won't cover the costs to repair it and to prevent it from happening again in the future#and other rlly big stuff has happened this month that's super shitty and out of my control and it's just been a huge bummer#fjadksfjsdkjfkdsahfkdsjfkldsafjdskfjdsklfjs#i am not okay#but no I am okay#it's a bad time#not a bad life#it will pass and things will be good again#and I will keep making my silly little gifs#and doing my silly little tasks#and maybe tomorrow I will wash my hair#but maybe not#and that's ok#sorry for being depressing#bo burnham#bert gifs#bo burnham inside#bo burnham make happy#bo burnham what#egghead#robert pickering burnham
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about to have one of the most taxing days tomorrow. nevertheless. we persist gamers 💪
#pobre payasito#i have been... so low energy lately. a lot of things catching up to me. AND with whats happening tomorrow...#i. cannot catch a fucking break.#literally as i was typing this i got hit with another whammy. god fucking damn.#cansado. pinche pobre payasito for real.#im staying positive!!! life is hard!!!!! taxing! shit sucks sometimes!!!!! but im going to live. continue. persist and go through the lows#i need a good cry i think. i should keep writing my fics!!! project and word vomit until something good comes out. im good at that i think!#ahhh. sorry for the rant. its just. if u send me something or if im gone for a bit then please be patient.#this isnt an 'i need my followers to be updated on my personal life i need them to not hate me' post#more like. a heads up. and a thank you! :) genuinely. u guys are nice and this blog really is a bright spot in my day most of the time
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