#I hope this is what gets published. I hope it blows up booktok. I hope breadtubers make videos on this work because no one knows

[agenttexsflippedshit]

I have this thing that happens with longer personal writing projects where I go, “what would the query letter to an agent look like” - partially bc I’m a creature of habit and want to publish everything, partially because fits about focusing on the through line and can help me figure out the core of the project.

And right now it’s very much like, why should anyone care about my lil guys? What are their journeys and what is compelling enough to encourage people to go beyond the first paragraph, let alone the first page?

Which in turn leads to the question of like, why am I compelled by these stupid guys?

And honestly, it’s because I sat them down and gave them my issues and pushed them to the point of absurdity and said “go live with that for a while and get back to me” and now they’re fucked up in some pretty fun ways and I like writing about the hopes and fears that it inspires

But I’m still like, questioning why anyone else would care about this, beyond the queer rep

[hotchley]

🐨 “And now she doesn’t” oh my gosh that’s hilarious. I love it. Not gonna lie, I had to consult Google cause I wasn’t sure what Eid Al-Adha is a celebration of, and I think your explanation is better than Google’s. Eid Mubarak!

You may be thinking “Kate, it is 5:30am in your part of the US right now. Why are you awake??” That is a valid question. The answer is I DONT WANT TO BE. But in the name of work, I’ve been up for an hour. I have to work a community run thing and it’s super early in the morning. The hit show Parks and Recreation does not accurately depict what it’s like to work for your city’s Parks and Recreation department, I gotta say. There’s a lot more small children, early morning, and less falling in love in the real-life version. So I’m currently making coffee and reading fanfiction in my basement because I don’t wanna wake anyone up.

I’m trying to think of any other news. It’s too early; my brain doesn’t work. I read an absolutely horrible trilogy of books because TikTok told me to. Were they good literature? Nah. Were they outdated and questionable in multiple ways? Yep! That being said, did I blow through all three in less than a week, re-read them and freaking annotate them, and am now unable to stop thinking about them? Indeed. This is not a recommendation, by the way. They’re awful. 10/10 would NOT recommend to anyone. They will ruin you. Also I don’t want you to read those monstrosities and see all the horrors and the THIRTY-TWO trigger warnings and be like “why does Kate endorse these??” I don’t. They’re horrible. They also must be laced with something because once you start, you cannot stop. BookTok has corrupted me. The trilogy was called All For The Game, if you’ve ever heard it mentioned.

Anywho, I gotta leave for work! At 5:45am. Godspeed to me.

Yes, it's both awful and the funniest thing! Yeah, Eid-ul-Adha always gets referred to as second Eid/Bakrid in my house and it's always more toned down for us. Like we still get dressed up and decorate and fast the day before and we've started doing a qurbani here as well as back in India but because there's a lot less build up it's a lot less like: YES! PLANS!

Thank you! It was a strange one because this time round I actually had Covid- so did my mum and sister- so we were all stuck upstairs and if we wanted anything when my dad wasn't here, we had to do full PPE. I enjoyed relaxing. My sister constantly complaining about how rubbish it was kinda dampened the mood, but I technically published my novel that day so!

Oof that does not sound like a lot of fun I currently hate waking up early even more than usual! I've never actually watched Parks and Rec properly, I kinda tuned in and out whilst my sister watched it. I do remember don't be suspicious though! Still, coffee and fanfic sounds like a nice time!

TikTok recommendations seem to very often suck? Like I only ever see people critiquing them or providing different ones! I hated Normal People- why were there no speech marks? And I understand that both Marianne and Connell were white, as was the author, so their experiences with the world are different to mine but I could just never get past Marianne telling Connell to essentially give up all financial stability for an English Lit degree. It felt rude, tone deaf and just stupid and I hated it. So yeah :)

I googled them... it doesn't seem like my type of thing which is probably good otherwise I too would've been reading them! Although I do think I've heard about them but only bad things? I'm not quite sure what the problem with them is, but I'm not sure I even want to know? I will admit to reading all of The Selection series up to the one with their daughter because you know, that was where I drew the line. I also read the Delirium series when I was in year eight or nine? Also truly awful, I would recommend neither bleh.

Good luck and I hope it was fun! Do you do like mornings/afternoons or is it a proper 9-5 thing? How many days? I'm so interested in hearing about your job because it just seems fascinating!