#I hope Sydney stubs their toe
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ankle-breaker-101 · 1 year ago
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@marvelousmugs @yourbodymyt3mple
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bowiebond · 2 years ago
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What's better Sydney or Melbourne (if you pick Canberra I hope you stub your toe)
Perth because that’s where Dacre Montgomery and I grew up :)
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crowempress · 7 years ago
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I hope my incredibly toxic ex-best friend from when I was 6-14 has a terrible day and never becomes a famous or well respected artist
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calumcest · 4 years ago
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i took a walk with my fame down memory lane (i never did find my way back) - chapter two
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here we are...look at me posting on a regular schedule who ever said i was chaotic! 
@tirednotflirting i will not stop thanking you on every single chapter get ready to get incredibly bored of hearing me thank you and say how nice it is to have you on the doc because i’m saying it twice for every chapter once here and once on ao3 which actually has just reminded me to put the ao3 link on this chapter see it’s actually super useful. ao3 link inserted i love you i adore you and i cannot thank you enough for the amount of bullshit you put up with from me both generally and regarding this fic especially 
me posting this fic is just please enjoy my downwards spiral (and listen to britpop)
Predictably, Noel doesn’t piss himself. He also doesn’t aim a punch at Calum when he finds out about the bet, though, which is his way of saying hope you’re alright. Instead, he just cuffs Liam upside the head, calls all of them pricks, and announces he’s going to bed. Liam rolls his eyes and calls him a boring cunt, which earns him another clip around the ear, but not two minutes after Noel and Bonehead have filed out of the room, Liam’s yawning and saying that he might turn in too. Calum, not wanting to be left in the living room on his own during a comedown, follows him out, listening to Liam mutter something about Tony and firing him because he’s almost as much of a boring cunt as Noel all the way up to their room.
Liam crashes almost as soon as they get in, passing out fully-clothed on his bed, and, as Calum’s trying to carefully pick his way through the debris littering the floor from his bed to the ensuite to brush his teeth, he trips over something that makes him stub his toe against the wardrobe and swear under his breath. He winces, gripping his toe as he looks for the offending object on the floor to give it an angry kick, and finds-
The magazine. 
The magazine. The one he’d nicked from the dental surgery, the one Liam had nearly got in a fight over, all because of one tiny, glossy picture of Michael Clifford. He hasn’t looked at it since that day, too sober and too busy being yelled at every single minute of the day by Noel for playing too rough, or playing too clean, or playing at all. He hasn’t wanted to, either, hasn’t wanted to be confronted with the evidence that Michael’s carried on living without him, that he’s not that same seventeen year old boy that Calum had left behind in Sydney Airport half a decade ago. 
That’s not to say he’s forgotten about it, though. Far from it - even in his pretty-much-permanently inebriated state, the little picture of Michael, stubble and all, has been playing around in the background of most of his thoughts. It’s easier to ignore when he’s with the others, when Noel’s snapping at him or screaming at Liam, when Bonehead’s rolling his eyes and passing him another joint, when Tony’s muttering about how Noel expects far too much of him, when Mark’s chivvying all of them to get up and get in the fucking studio, don’t they know they’re paying two thousand quid a day for this shit? It’s easier to focus on snapping at Noel, on stepping back from the brothers and leaving them to it, on taking a long toke from the joint, on ignoring Tony while whole-heartedly agreeing with him, on rolling his eyes as he shuffles into the live room and picks up his bass. He doesn’t have to think too hard, then, doesn’t have to let his thoughts stray from the here and now back to being seventeen and sun-kissed and in love. 
Now, though, on his own, teetering on the brink of a comedown but still pleasantly drunk, Liam passed out and snoring gently on the bed a few feet away, Calum’s got nothing tying him down. There’s nothing for him to ground himself in, no stern, suspiciously-Noel-sounding voice in his mind telling him to stay fucking focused, or he’ll get a clip round the ear. 
So, before he’s even really thought about it, Calum leans down and picks the magazine up, flipping straight to the page with the little picture of Michael on. 
Even though he’s prepared this time, even though he knows he’s going to see Michael, older and broader and taller, his stomach still starts its best impersonation of a fucking Olympics tryout when his eyes find Michael at the bottom of the page. Christ. It’s like looking at someone Calum had seen every day for years at a train station, or maybe in a dream; he’s instantly recognisable but doesn’t quite match up to the mental image Calum’s got of him, lips a little plumper and eyes a little darker than Calum had expected. He looks like a mixture of someone so fucking familiar to Calum - the way he’s got his hands tucked in his pockets and his head tilted back a little - and someone Calum’s never met before, with the way his eyes are dark and almost hungry, the way his lashes are lowered slightly, the way he’s holding himself with such an air of confidence. 
Calum sits down on the edge of his bed, disgusting taste in his mouth forgotten as he flips back to the first page of the article and starts to read. Mike, the singer calls him. Mike Clifford. It’s fucking ridiculous. Michael had always hated being called Mike, would always use his last vestiges of energy to lift his head from the toilet and protest weakly whenever Calum called him Mikey. The only time Calum had ever actually got away with calling him Mikey was when he was stroking his hair and Michael was crying into his chest, drunk and stoned and fucking miserable about Calum moving to the UK. 
Mike’s our secret weapon, the singer (Damon, as Calum’s reminded) says, with an ‘air of confidence’, apparently. Calum briefly wonders what he means by that as his eyes flit to the next paragraph, mind lagging a few seconds behind. What kind of a war does he think they’re fighting? 
Of course we’re a British band, Damon comments later on. We sing about British life, British experiences. Mike’s not penning songs about kangaroos and shrimps on barbies, is he? And anyway, he can outdrink the lot of us, which is what really matters. Are these really the best questions NME can come up with? Calum can’t help the way his lips twitch at that. That, at least, sounds like Michael. 
It was serendipity, I think, Damon ‘muses’ a few paragraphs later, according to the journalist. We were looking for a second guitarist, and Mike had just moved over. He was living with Graham - he knew him through a friend from Sydney - and when Graham mentioned that he thought his band might need a second guitarist, Mike mentioned he could play. 
It never came up in conversation before? the journalist asks, and Damon apparently ‘smiles wryly’. 
That’s Mike for you, he allegedly says, with a shrug, and Calum feels a strange, hollow tug at his heart. Yeah. That is Michael. Anyway, he came along to a practice session and gelled perfectly with the rest of us. In fact, he brought some new ideas, a breath of fresh air that I think we needed. You know, the rest of us are four lads from the south who all grew up in similar circumstances and listened to similar music. I think we needed the different perspective. 
That’s all Damon says about Michael. It leaves a sort of sour taste in Calum’s mouth - although, in fairness, that might just be the aftertaste of vomit - because this ‘Mike’ doesn’t sound like Michael, doesn’t feel like Calum’s- well. Whatever Michael ever was to him. 
They’d never actually spoken about it. There had never been a conversation, an are you my boyfriend now, then, or what? They’d just both known - I’m yours, and you’re mine, and that’s all that matters. It had made it easier, Calum thinks, for him to justify it to himself when he got caught up in his new life, when Liam’s bright blue eyes started swimming in front of Michael’s sea-green ones, when harsh cackles were dubbed over soft laughter, when loud and brash northern accents started taking up more of his thoughts than gentle Australian twangs. We weren’t actually together, he’d told himself, every time he saw a letter in the post and his stomach twisted with guilt. You don’t owe him anything. 
In fairness, it hadn’t just been him. Michael’s letters had stopped coming once a week, started coming once a fortnight, and then once a month. But it was Calum’s responses that got ever shorter, from pages and pages to a few half-hearted sentences, because Liam would often barge in halfway through and demand he comes down to the Boardwalk with him right fucking now, and it got harder and harder to justify to himself why he was giving up spending time with one of his best mates to write letters to a boy whose middle name he’d already started to forget. And it was Calum who had seen one last letter from Michael, tossed it on his desk to read later, and then forgotten about it until it was too late and his mum had already thrown it out. He’d barely cared, at the time, because Liam had crashed into his room, Calum’s mum tutting loudly at him from downstairs, and announced that he’d joined a band and they were the best band in the fucking world, and Calum should fucking join, and when Noel got back from tour he’d definitely join too, and they’d be the fucking second coming of the Beatles. 
The guy staring at him from the picture, older and more confident, doesn’t seem like the same guy who’d sent Calum all those letters, telling him I miss you. I’m saving up to fly over to the UK. We’ll be together again, in a year or two. Don’t forget about me. It feels like there are two of him - Calum’s version, Michael, the boy who’d blink at Calum through dark, inky lashes and press soft kisses along his jawline, and this Blur version, Mike, the guy who stares back at Calum almost defiantly, like he’s daring him to keep looking. 
Calum’s not sure whether it’s the drink or the drugs or whether it really is Michael, five years older and having grown into himself and built up a life without Calum, that’s making his stomach twist and turn and his heart sink like this. Or maybe it’s the guilt, all the love and regrets that Calum’s pushed down over the years and paved over with bricks of Liam and Noel and music, that’s stopping him from being able to tear his gaze away from the little Michael on the page, looking like he knows Calum’s eyes are glued to him. 
Calum shifts, and in the near-silence of the room he hears something crinkle in his back pocket, and he frowns, lifting his hips up and fishing a messily-folded piece of paper out. He unfolds it, wondering whether he’s left a receipt or something in there, and finds two scrawled lines of text. 
Noel’s lyrics. 
It was serendipity, I think, the singer had said in the article, and Calum finds himself thinking the same thing as he stares down at the mostly-empty sheet of paper. Maybe this is supposed to mean something, he thinks. Probably just that his jeans are in desperate need of a wash.
There’s a guitar propped up next to Liam’s bed, one he’s been messing around on in what he says is boredom but Calum knows is an attempt to write something that Noel will throw a kind word or two at, and Calum’s grabbing it and setting it on his lap before he’s even really thought about it. He’s not a songwriter, never has been - he’s always wondered how the fuck Noel can retreat into a back room and come out half an hour later with a song like Supersonic - but right now, lyrics on one thigh, picture of Michael on the other, the words and the notes feel like they’re bursting to get out of his mind and down on paper. 
Not for the first time, Calum’s glad Liam’s a deep sleeper, so he doesn’t have to lock himself in the too-big, too-empty living room to write. There’s something comforting about Liam’s presence, something that reminds Calum that he’s not alone, his deep breathing the thin line that ties Calum’s old life to his new life. Calum breathes along with him for a moment, a little drunkenly, like he’s trying to let as much of Liam as possible seep into his veins, maybe hoping he can absorb Liam’s don’t-give-a-fuck attitude and brash courage enough to get the words out without buckling under their weight.
There’s a pen on his bedside table, and he reaches over for it, uncaps it, holds it in his teeth, and starts to strum, humming along to the melody he’s had in his head since reading Noel’s lyrics. It only takes him a few minutes to find the right chord sequence, shifting into a key he knows Liam’ll be able to sing, because Calum knows he won’t be able to sing this himself. It needs a layer of removal, something that Calum can place between himself and the song and look at without having to look any further. 
There we were now here we are All this confusion nothing’s the same to me There we were now here we are All this confusion nothing’s the same to me 
I can’t tell you the way I feel Because the way I feel is oh so new to me I can’t sell you the way I feel Because the way I feel is oh so new to me What I heard is not what I hear I can see the signs but they’re not very clear What I heard is not what I hear I can see the signs but they’re not very clear
So I can’t tell you the way I feel Because the way I feel is oh so new to me I can’t sell you the way I feel Because the way I feel is oh so new to me
This is confusion, am I confusing you? This is confusion, am I confusing you? This is confusion, we don’t want to feel you This is confusion, we don’t want to feel you
The words almost seem to write themselves, ink on the page before Calum’s inebriated mind has even had time to think. Noel’s words slot in flawlessly as a chorus, the perfect contrast to Calum’s muddled, drunken musings, and it only takes about twenty minutes before the whole song’s done, every chord written, every word penned. And, to Calum’s surprise, it sounds really fucking good. 
He sits back, fingers stilling on the strings, and stares down at the sheet of paper. The words look hasty, rushed, a little crooked, and Noel’s going to have questions about the shakiness of the letters, but that’s a problem for a later Calum. 
He reads over it again while he’s still drunk enough to allow himself to, knowing he’ll hate it in the morning, and then puts the pen down to the paper again to write a title. 
Confusion. No, that doesn’t sound right. It’s too vague, too impersonal. New to me. No, that’s a cop-out. Then and Now. No, that won’t be obvious enough. 
And that’s it, Calum thinks, swallowing thickly. He wants it to be obvious. He wants Michael, and only Michael, to know that it’s about him, for him. 
(“How will you know it’s me?” Calum remembers asking urgently one night, standing in the hallway on the phone to Michael, who had just called to mutter that he’s grounded, not allowed out, Calum needs to sneak in and make sure he makes it obvious that it’s him and not Luke or Ashton or else Michael won’t open his window. Apparently Luke, the sly little bastard, has taken to telling Michael it's Calum so Michael opens up for him.
“Say it’s- um-” Michael’s breaking up, and Calum clutches the phone closer to his ear like it’s going to make him any more audible.
“Say what?” 
“Column-” 
“Say it’s Column?” Calum’s incensed. “Michael, d’you fucking know how to pronounce my name?” 
“Fucking- Columbia,” he makes out, and then the line goes dead.) 
Calum only hesitates for a split second, enough for the tiny scrap of him that’s still sober tell him this is a terrible idea, and then the alcohol in his blood barges in, shouldering the remnant of his rational side out of the way and telling him do it, what the fuck have you got to lose? It’s a fucking great idea. 
Yeah, Calum thinks wildly, as his pen touches the paper again. Fuck it. Michael probably won’t hear it, anyway. 
Columbia.
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 Calum plans to keep the song to himself, to sit on it and tell himself he’s agonising over whether or not to show Noel when he knows full well he’s got absolutely no intention of doing so, but, as though he can read Calum’s fucking mind, Noel corners him at lunchtime the next day. 
“So,” he says, blocking Calum’s path out of the kitchen as Liam trails after Tony in the direction of the live room, complaining loudly that if he has to eat one more fucking ham and cheese sandwich he’s going to burn the fucking kitchen down. “That song. What’d you do to it?” 
“What song?” Calum says, momentarily stumped. They’ve just been recording Slide Away, and Calum’s pretty sure he hasn’t fucked anything up so far. In fact, he’s absolutely fucking certain he hasn’t, because if Noel’s stopping them mid-recording to shout at Tony to tighten his floor tom then he’d definitely have thrown a fit over Calum playing a wrong note, or a fraction of a second too fast, or whatever. 
“You know,” Noel says. “The one. From the other night.” He’s acting a little sketchy about it, a little guarded, and that’s what makes it click - oh. That song. The one Noel had been writing on his own in the kitchen at fucking five in the morning, and Calum had finished off at about three last night, drunk out of his mind.
“Oh,” Calum says, and he feels his expression shift into something just as evasive as Noel’s. “Uh. Yeah. I wrote something.” 
“Well, let’s fucking hear it, then,” Noel says. Calum hesitates. 
“Not in front of everyone else,” he says, because he knows the guitars are all in the live room, and by the time it’s cleared out Noel might have forgotten about the song altogether. Noel raises an eyebrow, but nods. 
“My room,” he says. 
“Now?” Calum says, looking down at his sandwich. “Can’t I fucking eat?” 
“Now,” Noel confirms. “We’re on a tight fucking schedule, Cal.” 
“Didn’t stop you spending half of Tuesday fucking off your head,” Calum shoots back. Noel just flips him off, like that’s a fucking answer, and walks out of the kitchen, presumably to fetch a guitar. Calum sighs, stomach sinking, because he hasn’t looked at the lyrics since he wrote them but he has a slightly hazy memory of knowing he’d hate them sober. He’s far too fucking hungover to stomach the fight that’s going to ensue if he refuses to play it to Noel, though, so he just sighs again, deep and resigned, shoves half the sandwich in his mouth and heads up to his room to pick up the sheet of paper with the lyrics and chords on.
Noel’s already in his room when Calum pushes the door open a little too roughly, perched on the edge of his bed, and he holds out his second-favourite acoustic guitar by the neck for Calum to take. Calum does, yanks it out of his hands to tell him I don’t fucking like that you’re making me do this without having to say it - not that Noel will care either way - and sits down on Bonehead’s bed, pulling the guitar into his lap and smoothing the sheet of paper in front of him so he won’t have to look at Noel.
“Right,” he says, and he can hear the nervousness in his own voice. “Don’t fucking laugh.” 
“Won’t if it’s not worth laughing at,” Noel promises, which is as good as Calum’s going to get from him. He swallows, positions his fingers, and starts to play. 
It sounds horrible, he thinks, as he’s playing. He has to try not to wince, because his voice cracks on the words as they drip with the kind of raw honesty that only a song written about his sort-of ex at three in the fucking morning, drunk and halfway between a high and a comedown, can summon. It’s too much for him, hearing his own voice sing the words that he doesn’t want to admit that he means, overwhelms him with the way it makes his heart clench in his chest to hear himself say nothing’s the same to me, and he has to stop before he can reach the end, stilling the strings and shrugging at Noel a little tensely. 
“You get the gist,” he says. Noel blinks at him. He’s not laughing. 
“That’s going on the album,” he says. Calum stares at him. 
“You’re taking the piss,” he says flatly. 
“D’you think I’d fucking take the piss about kicking one of my songs off the album to make room for yours? ” Noel says, and, yeah, that’s a good point. 
“Well, I’m not singing it,” Calum says, before Noel gets any ideas. He’s not putting that out there, him singing a fucking half-love song for Michael. He'd have to be on every drug in the world to even get all the way through it. 
“Why not?” Noel says. 
“Can’t.” 
“You fucking can. Just did.” 
“I’m not fucking singing it, Noel.” Noel purses his lips, looking like he’s weighing up starting a fight with both Calum, who’s very clearly chosen this hill to die on, and Liam, who can’t stand feeling like a spare part, versus relenting and getting something he might not like as much musically but won’t potentially end in a trip to the hospital.
“It won’t sound as good,” he says, sounding annoyed, but that’s a concession from him. 
“I’m arsed,” Calum says. Noel looks at him for a moment, hard, eyes flitting across every crevice of Calum’s face like he’s trying to find the weak link, and then he leans back with a sigh. 
“You sound dead fucking British,” is all he says, a little too calmly for the conversation they've just had, and Calum feels like there’s something more to it that he should be able to pick out but can’t quite discern from the careful guardedness that fronts it. 
“Been here five years, haven’t I?” he shoots back, feeling like he’s on the back foot, somehow. 
“Wouldn’t even know you were Australian if you weren’t such a lightweight,” Noel says, and Calum rolls his eyes. 
“Fuck off,” he says. “I could outdrink all five-two of you any day, Irish blood and all.” Noel flips him off, but his eyes still look far too calculating for Calum’s liking. 
“You know Blur have an Australian guitarist?” he says, and Calum can see from the shrewd look in Noel’s eyes that that’s it, that’s what he’s been leading up to, and Calum’s stomach bottoms out.  
“Oh?” he says, trying to straddle the line between interested enough and uninterested enough. There’s no way Noel can know, he tells himself, as his heart rate picks up. Calum’s never mentioned any of his mates back home to Noel before, let alone mentioned Michael. And even if he did, there’s no reason to make that assumption. Noel doesn’t even know Calum dates guys, and only knows he fucks them because of one night three years ago that neither of them speak about. 
“Mm,” Noel hums. “He’s from Sydney.” He doesn’t say anything else, states it like it’s just an interesting tidbit of information, but the implication is clear. Maybe you know him. A challenge, or maybe a test. 
“So’s a quarter of Australia,” Calum says, pleased with how cool and collected he sounds. Noel cocks his head.
“Weird, though, isn’t it?” he says. “What’re the odds?”
“Since when are you all fucking superstitious?” Calum asks. Noel shrugs. 
“Just think it’s a strange coincidence,” he says lightly. “Two British bands with Australian members, fighting to be number one.” 
“Who’s fighting to be number one?” Calum says. “We haven’t even released a single.”
“Yeah, but anything we release’ll be better than their shite,” Noel says derisively, eyes narrowing, and Calum exhales quietly, because it means the moment’s passed. “Girls who like boys who do boys, or whatever. Fucking shite.” Calum rolls his eyes. 
“Yeah, like ‘I’m feeling supersonic, give me gin and tonic’ is any better,” he says, and Noel scowls and kicks at Calum’s shin. 
“Just you fucking wait,” Noel says, and it sounds like a fucking threat, like Calum’s going to be held personally responsible if Supersonic doesn’t go to number one. Which, knowing Noel, is a distinct possibility. 
“I’ll fucking wait,” Calum tells him, setting the guitar aside. 
“Eeyar, what d’you think you’re doing with that?” Noel says, nodding at the guitar. “If you don’t want to sing it, you’ll have to play it to our kid.” The thought makes Calum’s stomach clench. He never wants to sing the fucking song ever again. In fact, he wishes he'd never sung it to Noel in the first place, wishes he'd just dealt with the taunts and jeers that would have come from Noel if he'd thought Calum hadn't been able to get a song down. It'd still be more bearable than having to listen to his own drunken, honest thoughts spilling from his sober lips. 
“You really want to put it on the fucking album?” he says, and he can’t help the note of doubt that creeps into his tone. It's a good song, yeah - really fucking good, actually - but is it as good as Noel's?
“It’s good,” Noel says, which, from Noel, might as well be a declaration that it belonged on the White Album. 
“Not as good as yours,” Calum says. Noel fixes him with a stare, a really, don’t you fucking dare make me say it’s better than one of mine kind of stare, and Calum sighs. It is a good song - it’s definitely better than Cloudburst, might even be better than Sad Song - but he’s not sure he can go through playing it to Liam, Bonehead and Tony. Playing it to Noel was fucking bad enough. 
“Play it to our kid,” Noel says again, like he can read the exact thoughts behind Calum’s stricken expression. “I’ll sort out parts for Tony and Bonehead.” 
Calum loves him.
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 (Liam frowns at him when he trails off halfway through the bridge. 
“That’s fucking mega, that is,” he says, but his tone doesn’t match his words. 
“Cheers,” Calum says, and swallows thickly. Liam doesn’t say anything else, even though Calum can tell from the way his fingers are twitching that he wants to, just hesitates and then sighs and pulls Calum into a tight hug.) 
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 They finish recording the album in mid-March. It’s their second attempt, and it still sounds wrong, so their record label, in one last-ditch attempt to save it, send it off to Owen Morris for mixing. 
Noel’s progressed beyond irate and lashing out at any and all of them for fucking up his precious album to complete despondence, retreating into himself, sitting staring silently out of the car window as they get driven back up to Manchester, not even rising to the bait when Bonehead threatens to steal his Sergeant Pepper vinyl. In the strange, symbiotic way that the brothers have - or maybe just because they’d shared a room for sixteen years and Liam had been at the receiving end of enough of Noel’s tantrums to know how to cope with them - Liam seems to know exactly what Noel needs. He sits close to him, throws an arm around him, pulls him in so Noel’s head is resting on Liam’s shoulder, but doesn’t say anything, carries on normal conversation with the rest of them with a slight edge to his tone, like he’s challenging any of them to fucking comment on the state Noel’s in. They all know better than that, of course. Anyone who’s spent more than thirty seconds in either of the Gallaghers’ presence would know better than that. 
When they get back to Manchester, predictably dull and drizzling slightly, they all head off in their separate directions; Liam and Noel to Noel’s flat, Bonehead to the flat he shares with his girlfriend, Tony back to his parents’ house. Calum, too, heads back to the boring little two-up two-down he’s spent the past five years in.
“You look a state,” is how his mum greets him when he drags his bags out of the car and up the garden path. She holds her arms out for a hug and Calum hesitates for a moment - he knows he reeks of last night’s alcohol with maybe a pinch of stale weed added to the mix - but she gives him a stern look and he relents, wrapping his arms around her and inhaling the familiar scent of home-cooking and books. 
“You smell terrible,” she says disapprovingly, when he pulls away. Calum shrugs. 
“I’ll shower when I get in,” he says. 
“You’ll fix the wall first,” she says, and Calum sighs. Not the fucking wall. 
“Not the fucking wall,” he mutters, and his mum tuts at him, but steps aside to let him into the house. 
“Your dad’s outside already,” she says, as Calum drops his bags next to the stairs. 
“He’s not tried to do anything to the wall, has he?” Calum says, because if his dad’s had anything to do with it, Calum’s going to have his work cut out for him. 
“He said he was just going to take a look,” his mum says, and Calum swears under his breath and heads for the back door. His dad has never quite grasped that ‘just taking a look’ doesn’t require prodding and poking and, on one memorable occasion, a blowtorch. 
As Calum had expected, his dad is frowning at a section of collapsed wall, a mortar board piled high with badly-mixed mortar in one hand and a brick trowel in the other. 
“Fucking hell, dad,” Calum says, jogging up and snatching the mortar board out of his hands, making his dad whip around in surprise.
“Hello to you too,” he says mildly. “How was Cornwall?” 
“Great,” Calum says, and takes a step back so his dad won’t smell the booze on him. “What the fuck are you doing to the wall?” 
“I saved the bricks that fell out,” his dad, gesturing at a haphazard pile a few metres away. “I was going to use those to fix it.” 
“Not with this, you weren’t,” Calum says, brandishing the mortar. “I’ll mix some more tomorrow. And you can’t be laying bricks in the rain.” His dad looks up at the sky. 
“It’s just drizzle,” he says.
“It’s enough,” Calum says. His dad looks at him for a moment, wavering between son, if I say the wall needs fixing the wall needs fixing and you do actually know what you’re doing, before sighing and holding his hands up in defeat. 
“Fine,” he says. “But your mum will have my balls if it’s not done first thing tomorrow.” 
“She’ll have your balls if you do it in the rain and it falls apart again in three weeks, too,” Calum tells him.
“At least I’ll get three extra weeks with my balls, then,” his dad says as they make their way back inside, and Calum snorts.  
“That was quick,” he hears his mum shout from the kitchen, a little reprovingly, as Calum sets the mortar board down on the table. He’ll deal with it later. 
“It’s raining,” Calum shouts back. 
“It’s what?” his mum calls, turning down the upbeat, almost disco song playing on the radio.
“It’s raining,” Calum repeats. “Can’t lay bricks in the rain.” 
“It’s only drizzling.” 
“D’you want to go and fucking do it, then?” Calum says, exasperated, and his mum pops her head out of the kitchen with a frown. 
“Calum,” she reprimands, and he sighs. He needs to fucking shower, and then sleep for about seven years until his liver’s had a chance to process at least half of the shit he’s ingested over the past few weeks. 
“Sorry,” he says, and he means it. “I’m going to go and shower.” His mum nods, and her head disappears again, and he hears the radio turn up again. The song’s finishing up, something about how it always should be someone you really love, and Calum finds himself nodding along as he heads for the stairs and picks up his bags. It’s catchy, he thinks, and not like anything he’s heard in a while. Maybe he should recommend it to Noel; he could do with nicking ideas off someone other than Paul McCartney once in a while. 
“And that was Blur, with Girls and Boys,” the radio host announces as the song starts to fade out, and Calum’s fingers slip in the handle of the bag in his right hand, causing it to fall on his foot. He curses under his breath, trying to think about the pain rather than the way his heart’s skipped a beat. 
“Calum?” his mum calls from the kitchen. “Are you alright?” 
“Yeah, mum, sorry,” he shouts back, wincing and flexing his foot, steadying himself on the banister with his now-free hand as he tries to listen to the radio over the pounding in his ears. Another song’s started now, though, and Calum shakes himself out of it, picking up the bag and heading up the stairs to have an excuse for his racing heart and heavy breathing. 
It feels fucking weird, he thinks, dumping his bags on the floor of his room and throwing himself down on the bed, to have heard Michael without hearing him. He would have paid more attention to the song if he’d known he was listening to Michael’s fingers pick out those notes. He can still hear the riff in his mind, bouncing around as it tries to find its way out but enclosed in a bubble of Michael like a good portion of Calum’s thoughts have been for the past few weeks. It doesn’t feel quite right, though, Michael’s guitar playing on Calum’s radio in Manchester. It feels like Mike, not Michael, and the thought makes him feel a little queasy. 
He rolls over, staring at the blank wall in front of him as he waits for his heart to slow down. Always should be someone you really love, the guy - what was it, Damon? - had sung. It feels like a fucking joke, now, leaves a bitter taste in Calum’s mouth that that line is the first he’s heard of Michael in five fucking years. It’s like the universe is just having its way with him and laughing about it. 
(It was serendipity, I think, Damon had said in the article, but Calum tries not to let the idea cross his mind.) 
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 Supersonic is, in fact, as Liam and Noel crow at least five times a day, fucking mega. 
The single comes out in early April, when they’re in Middlesbrough, or maybe Stoke, or maybe Leeds - somewhere northern, cold, wet, and miserable. It’s played on the radio a few times, and it makes something warm spread from Calum’s heart to his toes every time he can pick out his own bass, every time he hears Noel’s lazy solo, Liam’s gravelly drawl, Bonehead’s overdriven chords. Even Tony’s drumming makes him grin, giddy on the high that’s him, them, him and his three best mates (and Tony) coming together to create something that, fuck whatever the charts say, sounds fucking good. It’s raw and it’s rough around the edges and it’s melodic and it’s dirty, and it’s ‘fucking rock ‘n’ roll’ if Liam ever gets half a second to comment on it, but, more than all of that, it’s them and Calum loves it. 
It doesn’t do amazingly, but none of them even care, because they know it’s good. Noel’s already busy arguing with Marcus at the record label about whether Shakermaker or Live Forever should be the next single, shouting at him on the phone whenever they get somewhere with a payphone. The tour’s going well, too; there’s not been a venue they haven’t sold out yet, and the crowd actually know all the songs, now, screaming out the words whenever Liam takes a break for a swig of beer. 
They’re playing Glastonbury in June, which Noel seems to think is the fucking be all and end all of their entire career despite the fact that they’ve released one album. He’s taken it upon himself to ensure that every waking minute that they’re not playing shows or off their heads on whatever substances they’ve been able to put up their noses is spent with him telling them in minute detail exactly how he’s going to skin them alive if they miss one more beat or hit the wrong string one more time. Even Liam isn’t safe, despite his lack of a proper instrument, after missing one of the higher notes in Supersonic one night in Liverpool. Calum’s never believed in God, but he thinks the fact that he was rooming with Tony and the brothers were rooming with each other that night, screaming at each other out of Calum's earshot, might be evidence of divine intervention. 
Further potential evidence for the existence of God comes in the form of an invitation to an awards show to be held in early June, which is the only thing that could possibly have appeased Noel. It doesn’t stop him shouting at Liam for fucking breathing, or whatever it happens to be that hour, but it placates him enough to keep the band together, which is what matters. He starts writing like crazy, and by late May already has six songs that he claims are good enough for their second album, and Calum’s floored when Noel rips the curtain to his bunk open one night and shoves an unfinished song at him with a look on his face that says if you fucking tell anyone about this, I’ll have your balls. I’ll fucking have them. 
(“D’you think me growing up in Australia brings a different perspective to the band?” Calum had asked the previous day, thinking of the interview he’d read with Damon, and Noel had snorted, not even looking up from his guitar. 
“Do I fuck,” he’d said. “I’m the fucking genius here. Why, ‘s someone been telling you you’re important? Do I need to remind you that you barely even play an instrument?” Calum rolls his eyes and flips him off, but it settles his stomach a little to know that Noel's not giving him the songs because of some abstract musical perspective, but because of his talent. And, maybe, because Noel might just be a little fond of him.) 
The awards show isn’t anything huge, not NME or anyone that Liam thinks matters, but Noel tells them that it’s the principle, that the fact that they’re being nominated for awards is what counts, and that they’ll fucking well show up. Liam still looks like he’s going to argue about it, probably just because his instinct to do the opposite of whatever Noel tells him overrides even his survival instinct, but he grudgingly agrees to go when Calum reminds him about all the free alcohol that’s sure to be there. 
The ceremony’s much bigger than Calum had expected, held in a theatre that’s had the stalls cleared out to make room for tables for artists and their teams to sit at. They’re shown to a table on the far right of the room, and Calum sees names like Elastica and Björk on the tables they pass on their way, which makes him think that this might actually be a bigger deal than they’d thought it was. Their table is tucked away in a corner, which Calum thinks probably isn’t a good sign, but can’t bring himself to care that much about when he sees the three bottles of champagne waiting for them. 
They’re tipsy before the show’s even begun, barely even noticing the room filling behind them as they call for more champagne, grinning and yelling at each other across the table as they all think fuck me, we’re really doing this, then? Even Noel somehow manages to dislodge the stick from his arse and laugh along when Liam starts heckling every single act that wins an award. It’s just fucking fun, Calum thinks, watching Noel and Liam put their arms around each other and yell the lyrics to Creep as Radiohead win an award, changing out half of the words for increasingly creative variants of words for certain parts of the male anatomy. It’s just a good fucking time with his best mates. 
Liam’s so caught up in the heckling, yelling rubbish! Fucking rubbish! before the winners have even been announced, and they’re all so caught up in laughing at him that they don’t even realise they’ve won an award until Marcus glares at them pointedly, and they realise that the reason they suddenly can’t see properly is because there’s a spotlight on them.
“Best live act!” Noel shouts, grinning, and Calum shoots up and out of his seat and is hugging Noel and Bonehead, jumping up and down, before he can even think about it. Best live act, fucking hell. 
“Rubbish!” Liam’s yelling, sounding absolutely irate. “Fucking rubbi- oh, that’s us.” He stands up calmly, flashing Marcus a winning smile as he walks past on his way to the stage, and the rest of them follow in his wake. 
“Best fucking live act,” Noel repeats, like he can’t quite believe it. Their first fucking award. "That's all me, that is." 
“You wanker, you’re rubbish,” Liam tells him, as they jog up the stairs onto the stage. “You can’t even play the guitar.” Noel cuffs him upside the head, but he’s still grinning, and Liam grins back at him as they walk over to accept their awards, shake a lot of sweaty hands, and make their acceptance speech.
“Right, then, who’s first then?” Liam says, leaning into the microphone and pulling his sunglasses down to survey the crowd. “It’s gotta be you there with that weird haircut. How many haircuts you got there, four?” He leans back as the crowd laughs, looking deadpan, but Calum can see the way his lips twitch as he soaks up the laughter and smattering of applause. Calum shakes his head, grinning, and looks out at the sea of faces looking back at him, trying to really absorb the moment, anchor himself so he’ll remember it tomorrow despite the champagne. There are a few people he recognises, which feels fucking insane - that’s fucking Robbie Williams, over there, presumably sat with the rest of the blokes from Take That whose names he doesn’t know, and he thinks he can make out the singer of Radiohead in the corner, and there’s the frontwoman of Elastica, and next to her is that Damon guy from Blur, and-
Oh, fuck.
Noel’s moved on to speaking now, a little more seriously than Liam - which isn’t saying much given that he’s currently in the middle of thanking himself for being such a genius and writing such impeccable songs - but the words are washing over Calum as his eyes flit to Damon’s left, taking in the moody-looking dark-haired guy and the ginger guy, and then to his right, a dark-haired guy in glasses and- 
And Michael. 
Calum thinks his legs might fucking give out. Staring back at him, eyes wide and jaw clenched, is Michael. Michael Clifford. His Michael. Fucking hell. 
In the bright lights, Calum can see the tension in Michael’s shoulders, the way he’s sort of hunched into himself, sort of sat up straight, like he’s ready for a fight. He can see the shock on Michael’s face, the underlying hurt and pain in the twist of his lips, the way his fist is clenched on the table. He looks nothing like Calum had ever envisioned when imagining them reuniting, no carefree laughter and bright, joyful eyes. Calum’s sure he doesn’t look much better, lips slightly parted in surprise, pure horror written all over his face, but he can’t bring himself to care when Michael’s right there, in front of him, five years older and five years prettier, making Calum’s heart skip and race like it’s singlehandedly trying to win the fucking World Acrobatics Championship of 1994.
Liam’s taken the mic back off Noel to add a quick thank you to the people who voted for them, and then Noel’s clapping him on the back as they walk offstage, but Calum’s rooted to the fucking spot, can’t take his eyes off Michael. Neither of them are blinking, and as the lights sweep from the audience to them Calum almost loses Michael in the darkness, just sees the slight gleaming of his eyes, still fixed on Calum. 
“Fucking come on,” Noel nigh-on shouts in his ear, startling Calum out of it, and his feet unstick themselves as Noel puts his hand on the small of Calum’s back, guiding him off the stage. Calum tears his gaze away, looks down at his feet so he won’t trip down the stairs, and by the time he’s got to the bottom and is looking out into the sea of faces again, he’s lost Michael. He searches in vain all the way back to their table, trying to map out just how far to the right the Blur table is from the Oasis one based on where it had been in relation to the stage, but then Liam’s in front of him, waving an award in his face and grinning inanely, and Calum’s line of sight is blocked by Bonehead jumping on Liam’s back, and Noel’s shouting something at the three of them through a smile, and Calum’s being forced into his seat. 
The rest of the ceremony passes in a haze. Liam carries on heckling every act that gets up on stage, waving his award around over his head like it’ll somehow further his point, and Noel almost cries laughing at the sight of him until Liam’s fingers slip and the trophy goes flying and hits Noel smack in the face. Even that isn’t enough to get more than the ghost of a smile out of Calum, whose stomach is still twisting, eyes still flitting across the crowd, breath still catching every time a new award is announced just in case Michael will have to walk past their table, traipse up the stairs to their right, look down at Calum from the stage. Blur don’t win anything, though, much to the brothers’ delight, and as soon as they realise it’s winding down Liam’s saying something about an afterparty and trying to get up and leave before the ceremony’s officially ended. Tony grabs his arm and pulls him back down, mutters something about taking photos that both Noel and Liam scoff at, but one look from their management is enough to keep the two of them in their seats, albeit with glowers and grumbles. 
The hosts close the awards in the most long-winded way Calum’s ever seen, and then they’re being ushered into some back room to take photos along with all the other acts. Noel and Liam are drunker than Calum’s seen them in months, shouting and laughing and throwing their arms around each other and pressing kisses to anyone who dares walk within five metres of them, and, seeing how irritated the rest of the acts and the photographer are at their antics, they ramp it up, yelling and screaming and singing until everyone’s shooting them filthy looks and Calum’s almost managing a proper smile. His eyes have been roaming the room since they got in, looking past the miserable looking bloke from Radiohead because he thought he’d seen a flash of blonde that had turned out to be Robbie Williams’ terrible haircut, but either Blur have already been and gone or they’re still hanging around outside. 
“Cal,” Liam shouts, and then Calum’s being pulled into a headlock - quite a fucking feat, actually, because it’s Noel doing the headlocking, and he’s a good half-foot shorter than Calum. “What d'you reckon, eh? Best band on the fucking planet!” 
“Don’t think that was quite what they said,” Calum says, and Noel ruffles his hair before letting him go, just enough that Calum can stand up straight, and wrapping an arm around Calum’s waist. Calum leans into it, a little unsteady from the alcohol and Michael, relishing the comfort of a steady anchor to counter the way he feels so fucking unbalanced from seeing Michael in the flesh again after five years. 
“You’ve got to read between the lines , Cal,” Liam says earnestly. “They might not’ve said it, but it’s what they meant.” 
“Eeyar,” Noel says suddenly, grinning wickedly. “Is that who I think it is?” Liam twists, following Noel’s gaze, and Calum does the same, turning to the door and finding-
“‘S fucking Dermot All-bran!” Liam crows, cackling gleefully as Damon’s eyes flit to the three of them. He smiles, pretty and polite, and heads in their direction, and as he comes through the door with the woman from Elastica in tow, four more people file in behind him - ginger guy, moody guy, glasses guy, and, to the detriment of Calum’s heartbeat, Michael. 
“Congratulations,” Damon calls, nodding at the award in Liam’s hand. He’s almost reached them, and the rest of his band are trailing behind him, and Calum’s heart is beating so fucking fast and loud that he can barely hear Liam screaming next to him over the pounding in his ears as he watches Michael get closer and closer, carefully avoiding Calum’s burning gaze. 
“Fucking right,” Liam says proudly. “Fucking best band in the world, we are. Real rock ‘n’ roll stars. Not like you posh fucking wankers.” The guy in glasses behind Damon rolls his eyes, and something that looks like irritation flashes across Damon’s face, but Calum barely cares. 
Michael’s still not looking at him, all of three feet away, and Calum’s skin is fucking crawling, itching with the desire to reach out and touch him, to force him to look at Calum, to slot their fingers and their legs and their lips together again, just to see if they still fit. Fuck, he shouldn’t have drunk all that champagne.  
“Don’t think we’ve met,” the tall guy says, holding out a hand. “I’m Alex. This is Graham-” glasses guy, who nods tightly, “-and Dave-” ginger guy, who holds up a hand in an awkward wave, “-and you know Damon. And our resident Australian, Mike.” 
“Looks like a cunt,” Liam remarks, and Calum vaguely registers Noel and Bonehead laughing next to him, loud and giddy and a little spiteful. 
“Ours is better than yours, anyway,” Noel says, arm tightening around Calum, somewhere between defensive and proud. Damon raises an eyebrow, a definite challenge in his eyes now. 
“Is that so?” he says, and in the two years since Calum last heard him speak he’s forgotten how different his speaking voice is to how he sings, eloquent and deep and rich. It’s a secondary thought, though, because Calum’s still staring at Michael, willing him to take his eyes off Damon and look at Calum for just one fucking second, but Michael’s face remains carefully blank, and the closest he gets to looking at Calum is sending Liam a scornful glance. 
“Aye, ‘course it is, you prick,” Liam says, brash and careless, and Damon turns to Calum. 
“Calum, isn’t it?” he says. Calum tears his gaze away from Michael for a moment, enough to see the way Damon’s holding himself, and that whatever Calum says next is going to form Damon’s entire opinion of him. 
“Yeah,” Calum says, aiming for bold and confident to match Liam, because that’s where his loyalties lie now, and hopes no one else can hear how dry his throat is. 
“Didn’t you have a mate in Sydney called Calum?” Damon says, almost idly, turning to Michael. “Was he the one that moved to the UK?” Calum watches the line of Michael’s throat as he swallows, and tries not to superimpose the bruises his lips had left there the night before he’d left Australia for the first and last time on top of it. 
“Yeah,” he says, and Calum’s heart fucking splinters at the sound of his voice. Even in that one syllable, he can hear his Michael, the same tone and sound and depth, but there’s a new edge to it, something slower and more controlled than the wild seventeen-year-old Calum had left behind. The years without Calum have added a gloss to him, a new confidence in his voice and his expression and how he holds himself, and Calum just wants Michael to fucking look at him.
Fuck it, he thinks - or maybe the champagne thinks for him - and he swallows. 
“Hey, Michael,” he says quietly, and all hell breaks loose. 
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elevenhoursinfront-blog · 8 years ago
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February 28th 2017
I was really ill last night. Stupidly ill. I even considered calling a doctor or ambulance I felt that ill. My migraine became the worst one I've ever experienced. I felt sick and I was sweating but the aircon was cold so I was freezing. My heart was pounding constantly which was making me dizzy. I was crying to Steve and I didn't know what to do. My head, my stomach and my heart. I was begging it all to stop. Eventually, my skin became red raw like I had been out in the sun. I pressed my fingers against it and it went pale, like sunburn.
Steve went to bed and I continued to be in agony. I tried going to sleep as hard as I could. I needed a dark room for my head. People were unpacking and talking so the light wasn't going to be turned off anytime soon. How long had I actually gone without water? Two days, maybe three? I've learnt my lesson the hard way. I spent the night sipping water and hoping that it would go soon. I text my mum asking what she thought was wrong with me. She thought it was heat stroke but I explained to her that I hadn't been in the sun and it had been raining a lot here. Jeans and a hoody was my attire for the last week. She said it must be dehydration. She told me to sip water slowly but throughout the night. I'll feel better in the morning. You just want to be at home when you're ill, with your mum.
I heard Steve's alarm for the first time. He said goodbye to me and I went back to sleep. I was feeling better as the time went on. I learnt about serious dehydration the hard way and I will never ever go a day without drinking water again. To think, people die without water and there's me going 3 days without it. No fluids at all. No tea, no coffee, no juice... Nothing.
My alarm went off at 0800. Of course, being me, I snoozed it until 0930. I got out of bed and rushed down to breakfast. I had cereal and rushed back up. I had to leave for my interview at 10:45. There's now 4 girls in this room, and they all started getting ready at the same time. I needed to shower, dry my hair and straighten it. Put my makeup on and get dressed. At the same time as 3 others. Luckily, I moved first and the quickest. I was ready by 1040. I went downstairs to pay our rent as that was due before heading to my interview. The commute being 30 seconds was wonderful.
My interview was over with after 20 minutes. I think it went really well but I'll be emailed within the next two days. If I don't hear by tomorrow, I'll look elsewhere. I can't keep waiting around. My interviewer was impressed with my background and where I was from. She had family in Hertfordshire. I'm hoping that helps. She focused on how I deal with diversity as there are many weird characters that come into The Bourbon. She means the crackheads. I used my job back home as an example which she loved.
I walked back to the hostel and saw Jackson. I sat with him for a while talking about all sorts of stuff. Jackson invited me to the New South Wales State Library. He had to do his RSA and I had literally nothing to do so I thought why not? He knocked for me around 1300. We left and walked for roughly 20 minutes. It was somewhere I had never been so it was exciting.
The views were remarkable - you could see the whole of Sydney. We went through a massive park next to the botanical gardens which Steve and I are yet to visit.
There were people exercising everywhere. I don't mean the odd few running, I mean, half the population working out. You had runners, jumpers, circuit trainers, floor working, groups and individuals. You even had classes going on. Fitness is promoted so much here. It's wonderful to see.
We eventually got to the library and oh my god. I felt like I was walking into the scene from Beauty and The Beast. It was absolutely massive. Mesmerising actually. The room was huge and there were 3 rows high of books around the perimeter. There were tables and chairs in the centre with laptop charger holes at each end of the table. The tables were thick, brown and glossy. The books looked like olden day bibles. All of them. There where fancy looking stair cases to each level of the books. I didn't want to leave. I wanted to read every single book there. I didn't, I was too scared of pick one up.  I spent the time researching where Steve and I were going to go next.
Jackson and I left at 1530. At 1535, it started hammering it down with rain. The whole way back to our hostel. I packed my umbrella like a genius and I was wearing a hoody and jeans. Unfortunately, the temperature was still very hot and I had to peel my soaking wet jeans off my legs. I hate humidity.
The cleaners had been in and moved all our stuff again. Everything was on my bed including the two massive drawers that belong underneath. I picked them up and pushed them under. I forgot to move my foot out of the way and sliced my toe open. It felt like I had stubbed my toe on glass. The pain was excruciating for the first minute. Blood everywhere. I ran to the bathroom to get tissue and sat back on the bed. What an absolute idiot. My toe started going black so again, I was texting my mum asking what to do. I got to use my first aid kit properly which was exciting. Antiseptic wipe and plaster. A big plaster. I had blood underneath my skin coming up making it black. One thing after another with me and injuries. I get that from my dad. He's partial to an injury. And Steve said I wouldn't need my first aid kit...
Steve walked in around 1630 to see me with my foot in the air. I was going to make dinner but it was toastie night. There's no point wasting your own food when free food is on offer. We went down to the kitchen at 1730 to get a space at the table. Jackson was already down too.
We sat with a German guy - Felix, that we speak to on a daily basis, a French guy and an Italian guy. They were very funny and it was a great dinner. We all decided to meet Josh at O'Malley's at 2000 for a few. I hadn't eaten since breakfast which means I didn't spend any money on food today. It was all provided by the hostel. Brilliant.
Jackson knocked for us at 1945. We walked down to O'Malley's and meet Josh. Felix and the other guys decided to go into the other bar next door. We said we couldn't afford it in there and carried on to O'Malley's. They were in the Kings Cross Hotel. It's like $11 for a bottle of Heineken. It's only $5 at O'Malley's on a Tuesday. They often have deals and the normal price is still only $7. We had 3 rounds which lasted until 2300. Steve had to be up at 0500 so it was time to go back. Josh is now staying in the other Mad Monkey in central so he had to get the train back.
Luckily, the light was still on in our room. Most roomies were out apart from 2. We got ready for bed and went to sleep. Unfortunately, the British girl snores so badly. It's now 0430 and she's woken me up. I've even got earplugs in.
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20 THOUGHTS: No-one does Richmond like Richmond
EARLY Saturday evening, the bars of the MCG were packed and engaged, Hawks and Pies supporters had come together as one.
It had nothing to do with the forthcoming game, which ended up being very interesting in itself, but the plight of “no, not again” as the Giants erode the insurmountable deficit and the Tigers lost yet another close one.
Were the Giants lucky? If so, does that then make the Tigers unlucky? Or is it once bitten, twice shy, three times a trend.
 1. A bit of idiot watch up front kick things off. Half time at the MCG on Saturday night, the young Grade 5 and 6 kids having the time of their life in the AusKick. Halfway through, out comes a Hawks trainer, and starts to line out cones in and around where the kids were playing, essentially the half-forward line of the game. At least two dozen cones were put down for when the Hawks came out to warm up for the second half. Luckily no kid tripped or fell on one, but how sensible is that? In the end the Hawks were so late in coming back on to the ground they didn’t have to use half the three million cones placed out. Completely stupid. I hope that bloke ended up having a dodgy curry, or stubbed his toe, later on. Or better still, tripped on a cone on the way to the toilet post-said curry. What a potato.
 2. Tom Mitchell had 50. I don’t know if you can have a bad 50, and the criticism of those who downplayed his impact on the game was strong by many. But let’s call a spade a spade, sure he dished out some impressive handballs, but his 50 meant little. Sure, he lacked mates, some support up against an up and about Collingwood engine room would have helped too. But if you hadn’t looked at the stat sheet you’d think he racked up mid 30s at best. His ‘influence’ was nowhere near the lofty heights of what having 50 feels like.
 3. Onto Richmond though. On one hand, they’ve lost three super close ones, all games they probably could or should have won and then they’d be 8-1, that one loss a thumping to the Crows in Adelaide. It suggests they are a mighty side just choking at the final hurdle? I disagree. This is not that good a team. The Dees have let me down of late but should never have lost that Richmond game Anzac Day eve, and whilst they could have won all their close losses, they were incapable of putting any of their opponents away – the sign of a poor team. They are a 12-10 team at best in 2017, so we shall see how the rest of the season pans out.
 4. And as for the critics, sure it’s somewhat funny that it happened ‘again’, but when Damien Hardwick says he is proud of his boys in the presser after, who gives some media types the validation to criticise that? The press conference is less about honesty and real feelings and more about addressing the public, sending a message. What else did you expect Hardwick to do? Laugh? Cry? Rock back and forth in his chair shaking his head?
 5. Geelong had a nice win on Friday, but once again, it was a Patrick Dangerfield and/or Joel Selwood show that did it. The Dogs have some issues we will touch on, but sheesh, if you shut down one if not both, you will defeat the Cats, nine times out of ten. To not put the work into those two then is just sloppy.
 6. That was a game the Bulldogs had to win. Put some work into Dangerfield and/or Selwood. Find a way to take out at least one of their influences. Then the game is on your terms and that’s half the battle these days. But they didn’t. And they’ve been patchy; had that Richmond game gone against them they’d be under .500%. We revert to our faith in them as the reigning premier, but how much does that faith get tested if the tide doesn’t turn soon?
 7. Off-field it isn’t super either. We can perhaps go into names and specifics in the coming week or two, but two once super-close teammates are not on talking terms at the moment, and one of those involved is keen to ‘entertain’ the offers coming his way for 2018. Combined with a few who haven’t hit 2017 as professionally as they may have twelve months earlier, Luke Beveridge has his work cut out at the moment. I think they’ll be right, but a premiership defence looks tricker than first planned.
 8. Since when was Jake Lloyd an elite midfielder? Well apparently he is becoming one, averaging over 30 touches a game and having an impact in most games. Crafty, quick, not bad by foot either, he is another reason why maybe, just maybe, the Swans in this weird season could make an ambitious run for 7th or 8th.
 9. St Kilda has to work out what their forward line looks like. Tim Membrey provides a tasty mid-sized option and Nick Riewoldt is a Hall of Fame forward who can play up on a wing. But Josh Bruce, the backman turned key forward, has been up and down with his form, and Paddy McCartin, the No.1 pick, doesn’t look like demanding a senior spot every week just yet. They all can’t play together, something needs to give there, especially with Riewoldt’s form and ambitions for maybe one more year.
 10. Dayne Beams continues to play brilliantly in a poor side in a hidden market. Another stellar performance on the weekend with yet again no teammates going with him, and no-one watching the Lions these days, he might be one of the most unassuming All-Australians ever. If he can keep fit the rest of the year he is a lock for the 22 at year’s end.
 11. If I’m the West Coast or Fremantle I’d be offering money at Daniel Rich to lure him out of Brisbane. He is not playing that well, relying on handball receives but doing little else. He won’t be dropped because the Lions are going that badly, but we all know he has oodles of talent. Tempt him with an offer to come home, his trade price won’t be all that substantial, but a motivated, refreshed Rich in an Eagles or Dockers lineup would be such a nice addition.
 12. Three ruckmen look set to battle for the All-Australian team, with the unfortunate injury to the otherwise incumbent Max Gawn. Brisbane’s Stefan Martin has produced an elite year so far, sadly other than his captain the rest of his teammates are potatoes, Adelaide’s Sam Jacobs has played marvellously in doing his bit for the league-leaders, and then Collingwood’s Brodie Grundy,has increased his hit out count to elite whilst maintaining midfielder numbers for disposals and tackles. I personally can’t split Martin or Grundy to this point.
 13. What happens when West Coast get on a plane? It’s just awful. Credit the Bombers for starting to show why 2018 will be fruitful for them, but the Melbourne record is just appalling. A grand piano pushed down stairs travels better than West Coast flying to Victoria, it’s beyond dire.
 14. Josh Schache is gone. Just a matter of where. Richmond looks best suited, they have some money, they have the Justin Leppitsch linked as pointed out, so that looks solid. Collingwood is the dark horse. Sure, the Chris Mayne experiment has not worked, but the Pies lined up the Gold Coast’s Tom Lynch with a big offer but the key forward chose loyalty over the money back home. The Magpies are in the market for Schache or Sam Reid, it might end up being the latter but don’t discount them trumping the Tigers, and North Melbourne too for that matter.
 15. As for North Melbourne, they are throwing cash around like St Kilda, and Dustin Martin is in their sights. The real issue for Richmond with their star on-baller is the amount of quality offers for Martin to consider. Realistically he has already chosen, or half-chosen, because the hunt for him started a year ago. But between the big money, and term, offered by North, Adelaide, GWS, Sydney, amongst a couple likely others, the chances of him staying are slim.
 16. The Kangaroos have an interesting strategy. They are really keen to throw the money around, but for talent under a certain age. Josh Kelly is a prime candidate and their offer to him is well known. Martin is the same, and crucially they have the cap space to accommodate both should they be so lucky. I believe they are also in on a few others as well, Steven Motlop and Zak Jones being two potentially.
 17. But St Kilda will be the big winners I feel, they are throwing cash around, maybe not Dustin Martin but are all in on Nat Fyfe and will assess their options as contact talks with others might not go as fruitful. They’ll land someone, and it’s the right time, for those like me who are bullish on their rise will see a big acquisition as timely. And crucially, they have their own first round pick at their disposal plus a likely top three selection too in Hawthorn’s pick to use in trade talks.
 18. Onto some of the big games this week, we have Geelong taking on Port Adelaide down in Sleepy Hollow tonight. The method is simple for Port – put time into the hosts’ big two and the job is half done. However, last year showed that coming back from the bye teams were a bit off, a bit rusty, so we shall see if the opportunity presented for the prospering Power so far this season isn’t somewhat offset by bye-lag, especially post-China-bye-lag.
 19. We’ve got a huge game on Saturday between the Dogs and the Saints. The Dogs are not anywhere near their lofty best. The Saints, on the rise no question, but lowered their colours to a rampaging Sydney last week. A big rebound is in order and to take the scalp of the minor premier has them back on track in a big way. For the Dogs, they can’t afford to lose this one, it’s a team they just need to beat.
 20. And we have Dreamtime at the ‘G on Saturday night. And so much at stake. For Richmond, they surely have to win one, and be in front of a team in the fourth where they can put it away or at least hold on with authority. But the Bombers are up and about, there’s a lot to like about what’s brewing at Tullamarine, so the opportunity for the Tigers to make amends for the close losses will be secondary, they’ve got a tough assignment as is.
  (originally published May 25)
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