#I haven't TALKED about them in so long I don't think I've mentioned Teddy yet??? dfkgjfdkjgkd

[kakusu-shipping]

🏳️‍🌈 for shirokuma :D or if you want to, any other character in the bear polycule!

YEEEEEEAH QUEER BEARS!!!!

Sense this is the only ask I've gotten so far for this I'll just do the whole polycule because I love them all and haven't talked about them in forever

Shirokuma - He/She, Bigender, Biromantic Lesbian

Monokuma - He/It/They, Trans Man, Demiromantic Gay

Mr. Grizz - He/Him, Trans Man, Bisexual

Funtime Freddy (Funfetti) - He/They/Neos, Trans Masc, Pansexual

Toy Freddy (Teddy) - He/Him, Panromantic Asexual

Jackpot - He/It/Neos, Genderqueer, Omniromantic Asexual Queer

Tad Mulholland - Any Pronouns, They/Them (plural), Polygender, Queeromantic Asexual

Riri - They/Them, Non-Binary, Genderfluid, Bisexual

[pupmkincake2000]

So, I never thought that I'd play Baldur's Gate 3, since turn-based RPGs are not my thing. But I was literally persuaded to play this game and I just have to share my impressions.

I did watch shorts and videos on YouTube, so I was aware of the world and characters before playing. That's why I decided to start Gale's origin

and I think if I decide to replay the game, I will choose him again, since he is the best. Yes, I think he is. I love good characters, kind, sympathetic, a little ambitious, gentle and loyal. And Gale fits my taste standards perfectly. He kind of reminds me of a sweet Hank Anderson from Detroit: Become Human. Noble, kind, gentle and faithful.

And, the funniest thing is that I decided to romance Astarion. Playing as Gale.

But not because I like Astarion.

On the contrary (and now hear me out), the more I played, the more he annoyed me, and I didn’t understand why people were so crazy about him. I mean, if you want him to like you, you need to do morally questionable things. Not to mention he is absolutely not my type, I never liked characters like him. That is, Astarion is the embodiment of everything that disappoints me in characters.

And you can talk as much as you like about his life being difficult. Because this does not justify many of his actions.

However, the ship itself works surprisingly well. I mean, I really like Gale and I don't like Astarion, but their ship surprisingly works. And now in a ship Astarion seems much... likable?

Basically, they are a perfect complement to each other, which is exactly the type of relationship I love. They help each other, they do not “fix” each other, but complement each other. They heal each other. Their relationship is not abusive if both work on this relationship, and the love between them is that type of love that happens probably once in a century. And to be honest, I don't want to make Astarion an ascended vampire (I haven't finished the game yet), I'm sure Gale will find a way for him to walk in the sun without the ritual.

Well, now to the other characters. Karlach and Wyll

are just two incredible sunshines. I tried to build friendly relations with them, I didn’t choose flirt while answering their lines, but for some reason they still ended up offering me sex, and it was really awkward and painful to turn them down.

So I just started shipping them together because it's another type of relationship I enjoy. It’s a pity that their couple is not popular (is there such a pairing at all?). This is the perfect “enemies to lovers” ship and it’s a shame that they can’t, like in some games, flirt with each other if they don’t have any affair with the main character .

I have almost nothing to say about Shadowheart, I’m not particularly interested in her (my party consists mainly of Astarion, Karlach and Lae'zel), but I think she has enough fans.

Halsin… oh, he is a magnificent man, and I would have romanced him if not the reasons. But I want you to know that he is also an incredible sunshine too, kind soft teddy bear who I wanted to hug and never let go.

And finally, HIM. Mysterious Guest. I knew this was an emperor, but I really liked the look I've created for him! I made him look like Hank Anderson, of course he didn’t look exactly like him, but nevertheless… I think he turned out very beautiful.

Let me scream about this beaty for a while!

In general, apart from problems with the gameplay (it took me a long time to get used to it), the game is really nice. The only thing that, it seems to me, would be worth changing is the permissiveness of choices when you go through the origin of any of the main characters, as was done with the Dark Urge. I mean, Wyll, Karlach and Gail are sunshines, so I absolutely can't believe that they are capable of doing bad things. If you can't avoid bad deeds when playing as the Urge, why can't you make it so that good characters are unable to do bad deeds? Would you really believe that Gale, Wyll or Karlach would be capable of slaughtering the whole village of children? For example, I believe that Astarion most likely would not have saved Shadowheart in the first act; he behaves selfishly throughout the entire first act. But I don’t believe that Karlach, Wyll and Gale would be capable of leaving her caged.

So, yeah, that's it.

[hagfishviperfish]

i spend so much time inside :( i feel like it's slowly killing me because i'm so sad, i want to be active and participate in a life but there's not much out there. how do you even go about doing these things? and i'm so shy and passive! for as long as i've been alive there's always been so many people i'm interested in and yet i've never dared to involve myself with a single one...i watch from afar and think about what could happen...waiting for them to come to me i guess?

i don't know if there's ever been a time i've ever regretted approaching someone, even if in the end i disliked them. there's maybe a few but it's on my behalf, because some of them i struggled to keep in touch with...

there were two nice men on tinder i met. one i talked to for a while one night about music and where we were from and what our lives were like. his name was kenny. i'm mentioning it because i think it's an endearing name. he seemed so sweet, sensitive? i think he was a skateboarder but not at all like the dehydrated wolf-like types. more teddy bear-like. he was telling me about his record collection that he was proud of, and i caught him at a moment where he was listening to one in the dark, savoring the music. i think there was like a second where he was like be right back i'm going to go heat up some leftovers. i asked about them and he was talking about his family’s cooking. it felt cozy. then i gave him my number and he was trying to reach out to me and we talked about his work and his commute and it was just that, and i just like... for some reason i stopped responding.

i really struggle talking to people who just like don't ask the mutual questions about my life. i don't know. maybe it's because i can't share things on my own very well. maybe it's because it's texting. i really hate. that my only way to reach other people is through texting. it's so easy to become numb, to be more...nitpicky

the second one was really interesting to me. it appeared he was an artist, he designed his own tattoo, he worked at a sheetz, he texted me first, telling me i seemed relatable and cool but i was too far. and then we plotted a murder together and were silly. and eventually he was texting me while he was at a party and drunk so i stopped responding because it was kinda weird, i don't know, it felt when you're like, not really intruding but stepping into someone else's conversation when there's no room for you. after that i just moved on but a few months later of using tinder i was going to delete it and i realized, this guy was the only person on there who really held a conversation with me and actually shared a semblance of my sense of humor. so i was like heyy i'm deleting the app... how are you, any luck, if you want my number, yadda yadda ya... this time we actually start getting to know each other, and we go to imessages, and we have these conversations about the games we like and movies and books and our art and all sorts of stuff. but again. i just stopped responding.

this time it wasn't because he wasn't asking, in fact he was. but. i don't know why. maybe it's because he wasn't right in front of me or something. i remember being nitpicky. something about how he described a dream about his "abuser" and "besting them" and i was like man what? but i still feel bad about it because there are so many different ways people experience life and i worry that i am too close-minded by considering my way The Way. that's not what made me stop responding though. i think it was just life, going on, we really were far from each other. he bought rain world because i mentioned it and would send me little clips of him playing it. everytime i went a bit without texting him he would check in like how are you. the last time i drifted off he sent me a picture of him at a concert, again checked in, but i still haven't responded. just because. i don't know why. i think some things just aren't meant to be but i don't know

i've been feeling so much how socializing is numbed through a screen. the amount to which you connect to people is still there, not wholly negated, but it's less. substantially less. your pleasure centers aren't really activated because you're just pressing buttons on a screen, not pulling the lever with your whole body in a grueling process...

except! i've never! been able! to pull! the lever! i don't know why! i can't even remember what could have caused this. maybe people were too mean to me in school; i remember one time a girl who i thought was my friend, i was talking to her, mid conversation, 6th grade, she blurts out "your breath smells weird" or something and then turns away when i'm mid-sentence. maybe it's things like that? but it doesn't matter, because i'm not young anymore. and i want my life to change and i want to change it. however i am not bold but i think my life would be so enriched if i were to act on the things i wanted to do most. even if it's just like. daring to initiate a conversation with someone i find interesting.

ugh

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And thats not even to mention, naturally i don’t think being inside for too long is good for me. obviously. i feel like there’s a change that occurs and i lose senses of self among other things. i become my only reference for the outside world, and i start to believe i’m esoteric— impossible to relate to, unable to fit in.. the things that are weird about me become exemplified to me but they’re also things that make me feel so safe. at the same time actualized in myself. except isolated even more and most of all. i hope there is a way i can bridge the gap some day and feel able to express the parts of me that are strange while still feeling like a member of society

and i get really pessimistic and tired. i think tired is just a common state with me but the more reserved i act the more reserved i become. how do i undo this. on top of that it becomes easier for me to make up all these reasons to not talk or relate to someone. i think i’ll always kind of do that, but when someone’s in front of you, you develop a tolerance that is much more inherent. it’s how humans have navigated their lives for thousands of years. i desperately wish i could experience it and be apart of it instead of lingering in this state of “Suspension”