#I have deity-level restraint sometimes just so I can have money

[rincewindsapprentice]

Shoes really are a lifelong special interest for me but it sucks that the dominant subcultures around shoes are either very specific brands of very expensive sneakers and very specific brands of very expensive high heels

Honestly, goth has been so much more refreshing because even though there are also very specific brands of very expensive boots, at least there is more variety overall.

[honeycut-a-blog]

VERY LONG CHARACTER SURVEY.

RULES. repost ------ don’t reblog. tag ten people. tag your mom. tag your wife. tag my cat, roger TAGGED BY. @persevercnce TAGGING. @mageright @hornsfirst @somnivr @sacrificedmore @emperorjade / @blackwine @blackshadowed @bladedrawn @mortedistelle @crownviper @freedomdweller

BASICS.

FULL NAME: marian elizabeth hawke. the first two spoken in unison are not unlike a horrible, unparalled, cream-of-the-crop curseword to her. you can thank leandra for it NICKNAME/S: hawke, champion, chuckles AGE: 25 (beginning of act 1) / 35 (inquisition) / 37 (trespasser). BIRTHDAY:  august 20th. ETHNIC GROUP: french-chinese. NATIONALITY: fereldan. LANGUAGE/S: common tongue, mandarin, french. SEXUAL ORIENTATION: bisexual. ROMANTIC ORIENTATION: biromantic. RELATIONSHIP STATUS: verse dependent. single by default, though she has a sexual history with certain companions back in kirkwall. CLASS: that girl with enough riches to bless the rains down in africa but her lifestyle and personal choices say otherwise.  HOMETOWN / AREA: lothering, ferelden ------- birthplace unknown. CURRENT HOME: kirkwall. PROFESSION: a legend laid to rest. an ex-member of the red iron. before kirkwall, she and her father were travelling bards, sent on missions to spy and collect information. and sometimes kill.

PHYSICAL.

HAIR: black, silken, always messy yet somehow still in place. EYES: white-blue. striking. monolids with medium-length lashes. usually clouded with dark, smoky makeup. NOSE: low nose bridge, sticking prominently from her face; rounded tip, flat nostrils. mixture of the “greek” and “mongolian” types.  FACE: sharp, square jawline, sloping gently to the chin. high cheekbones, plush cheeks. riddled with freckles. one beauty mark sitting on the curve of her upper lip. a scar also runs through her left eyebrow; bar fight, 9:32.  LIPS: thick, dark, and rounded. upper and lower lips are the same thickness. little to no cupid’s bow. always chapped, sometimes with bloody patches from where she chews the skin. a light pink in color beneath her lipstick.  COMPLEXION: very light in tone, scattered with small freckles and moles all over the body. burns easy. nose + cheeks + ears turn red in the slightest chill. itchy in winter.  BLEMISHES: what’s the occasional stress pimple at age 35? SCARS: a whole body littered with ‘em, mostly odds and ends, scratches and divots. the most prominent is the long, dipping scar along her abdomen where the arishok skewered her on his blade. some are also self-inflicted.  TATTOOS: unspecified red heraldry on her left bicep.  HEIGHT: 5′11 WEIGHT: 169 lbs. BUILD: tall and very much pear-shaped. slight shoulders that drop to a medium chest, padded ribs, plush belly, wide hips, breakneck thighs, strong calves. it becomes more noticeable in her older age (inquisition verse +). she was slimmer throughout DA2, more toned in the biceps and abdomen, though her stomach was never perfectly flat and her hips were never small.  ALLERGIES: none. she’d love to say she’s allergic to cats just so anders will leave her the fuck alone. sadly not the case. USUAL HAIRSTYLE: short, uneven and choppy throughout DA2; easy to work with on those busy days of airing out everyone’s laundry. fairly outgrown by inquisition, all the layers having grown to relatively the same length. drops to her mid-back. she’s chopped her bangs to be more straight-across, but sometimes she lets them grow out to the familiar wisps that hang in her eyes. USUAL EXPRESSION: something sardonic and roguish. a slack, cocky smirk that never quite makes a smile. catty eyes and arched brows always make for more of an intimidating look, even when she’s not being particularly harmful.  USUAL CLOTHING: rogue champion armor during excursions and other heavy quests. otherwise, usually seen in the typical assassin’s mantle on any given day in kirkwall where there’s no immediate threat to her life beyond a few bandits. skyhold was different; a cold-as-shit wakeup call to remind her of what she both missed and hated about ferelden. she arrived in a long, form-fitting, fur-hooded coat with dark pants and boots underneath, cinched at the waist with her father’s old belt and other carry-on packs.

PSYCHOLOGY.

FEAR/S: spiders, open waters, drowning, her own magic, her failure to protect the ones she loves.  ASPIRATION/S: to help those who need it most. to protect the little people who don’t get a say. to find balance within herself.  POSITIVE TRAITS: funny, charming, resourceful, intelligent, helpful, trustworthy, loyal/doting if in a good, committed relationship. NEGATIVE TRAITS: aggressive, undependable, irresponsible, self-hating, self-mutilating, cynical, manipulative, gossipy, has been known to make misogynistic and casually racist comments (no actual slurs, but follows stereotypes). she’s grown a bit more conscientious by end of act 3 / inquisition times, but she’s not perfectly correct just yet. MBTI: infp. ZODIAC: leo. TEMPERAMENT: choleric; aggressive, passionate, and leader-like. SOUL TYPE/S: leader ( 14 ) hunter ( 12 ) creator ( 12 ) ANIMAL: dragon. VICE/S: smoking,  excessive drinking, hypersexuality.  FAITH: it’s difficult. she denies andrastian faith for the harm that’s come of it, but believes more in ... certain forces of nature, somewhat. for instance: the wind is a woman who doesn’t like her, hence why it turns her cheeks red in the cold. it’s a bit of a joke to her either way. GHOSTS? yes. AFTERLIFE? she believes that the dead do ... something, somewhere. she believes they can be contacted through direct prayer ---- not through andraste ---- and that their spirits watch over the ones they left behind.  REINCARNATION? yes, but you don’t get a choice on what to be next. ALIENS? nah. POLITICAL ALIGNMENT: fuck the big hats, religion is used as an excuse to oppress, kill the corrupt, find justice in vengeance.  ECONOMIC PREFERENCE: all the money in the world could not make her happy. SOCIOPOLITICAL POSITION: n/a. EDUCATION LEVEL:  home-schooled, as far as actual “schooling” goes; she’s multilingual and knows how to read and write, let’s put it that way. she was also trained by her father, a jack of all trades, in knife-wielding and lute-playing. 

FAMILY.

FATHER: deceased; died of a natural illness before the fifth blight. she was closer to him than anyone else and competed for his attention constantly. he taught her everything about his culture, or at least what he chose to believe in, and she held up to it more than her other two siblings.  MOTHER: deceased; killed by the blood mage quentin. their relationship was very strained. even though hawke resented her mother, she was still very struck by the grotesque manner of her death, and took it as a personal failure to protect. was more a matter of pride than heartbreak.  SIBLING/S: carver and bethany hawke; both deceased. hawke was particularly closer to carver, who was denied his father’s attention between quests with marian and training bethany, but the border between them ---- carver believing much less in their father and the culture he brought ---- consistently threw them into arguments. bethany was better about it. she got along with both her parents equally, and thus was more agreeable with her big sister. EXTENDED FAMILY: uncle gamlen, her cousin charade, and her cousin amell.  NAME MEANING/S: variant of marion, a french diminutive form of marie, which is derived from the hebrew miryām, a name of debated meaning. many believe it to mean "sea of bitterness" or "sea of sorrow." however, some sources cite the alternative definitions of "rebellion," "wished-for child," and "mistress or lady of the sea." HISTORICAL CONNECTION: n/a.

FAVORITES.

BOOK: Hard In Hightown.  MOVIE: she’ll say Wayne’s World, but in reality, it’s P.S. I Love You. 5 SONGS:  rich / the yeah yeah yeah’s, dreams so real / metric, juicebox / the strokes, elastic heart / sia, the wreckoning / boomkat DEITY:  her father. MONTH: august. SEASON: autumn. PLACE: lothering.  WEATHER: warm and red-skied. SOUND: someone talking to her while she falls asleep. SCENT/S: hickory burning in the firepit - wind in the grime of her hair - wine on her breath - smoke on her clothes.  TASTE/S: the spice of cooked meat - the sweetness of chocolate cake - peaches and cream in spring - creek water in lothering - blood on her lower lip - metal in her lungs.  FEEL/S: dirt clotting under her nails - tightness in her chest - eyes straining into the distance - sweat in her father’s boots - magic like fire under her skin - the worn grip of a reliable dagger - the silk of her sheets - a well-ridden climax. ANIMAL/S: dogs, bunnies & reptiles.  NUMBER: 1. COLOR: shades of red.

EXTRA.

TALENTS: domination, persuasion, stealth, flirtation, adaptation / singing and lute-playing / knife-wielding and trap-setting. she can master almost anything she tries; jill of all trades, just like her father. BAD AT: magic, deadlines, loyalty within contract, social correctness, self-restraint, prayer upkeep, physical upkeep, empathy for the unjust, respecting personal spaces, self-healing. TURN-ONS: strength, consensual aggression, rebellious behavior, wrists in knots, somewhere public, someone sweet, someone mean, someone who loves her, someone who hates her. TURN-OFFS: sappiness, bigotry, religion, unwanted hands, pick-up lines from gross men, condescension, ownership.  HOBBIES: eating and drinking. mostly eating. TROPES: alpha bitch, biker babe, black widow, cool big sis, daddy’s girl, dragon woman, lady in red, the lady’s favor, samus is a girl AESTHETIC TAGS: DRAMATIC TIMING & GOOD HAIR.

FC INFO.

MAIN FC/S: mylene jampanoi. ALT FC/S: chloe bennet, mostly used in something more teenagery. OLDER FC/S: none YOUNGER FC/S: none VOICE CLAIM/S: jo wyatt. GENDERBENT FC/S: fuck off with ye