#I gues this also may lean Crystal X Raz with the fact that Crystal had her partner and didn't pick Clem?

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First Heartbreak

It wasn't like Lili to be this quiet. Not like her to be this unenthused about things. If she wasn't interested in something, she'd be gone. Off into the woods.

Clem took notice. He'd always want to be the one to help cheer people up with his excitement.

When time came for the scavenger hunt, and Crystal had already picked her partner, Clem had reached his hand out to Lili.

While Clem actually tried to complete the scavenger hunt, Lili stayed quiet. She was following him similar to a lost puppy, or some cat that he had given food to.

"So... what's up?"

"Huh?"

"You just seem sad."

"I'm not! I'm fine!"

Clem looked from where he was grabbing some gold coin off of a rock. "You don't sound that way."

"Look I don't want to talk about it any more than I have to. I've already got Phoebe on my butt about 'just talk about it...' and Kitty and Franke saying that-" Lili shook her head. "Let's just get this stupid scavenger hunt over with.

From the docks, the two headed up the wooden path towards the lodge. Lili stormed forwards, heading over to the target practice hay, and burned it. As she snuck behind the other hay, Clem looked at the roof of the lodge. He and Crystal had tried to end their lives up there on that roof. Just last summer.

Now, he had lived a whole other year. He was 11. Same with Lili. Crystal was 10 now.

There was a little thing still on Clem's mind. "Surprised you're not with Raz right now."

Lili now had the Voodoo doll in her hand, and started to squeeze it so hard her knuckles were turning white. "Raz has his own stuff because he's so special." She explained through gritted teeth.

"Like saving the world? Did he leave camp early?"

"You wouldn't understand. You and Crystal... you... you've never had a romantic relationship before, have you?"

"No."

Lili sighed. "I... I really wanted to... to be with him, but..." Lili couldn't seem to find the words. "I don't want to talk about this." She wiped her eye upwards, careful not to smudge her makeup.

"Well, when you do want to, I can listen. It may not be the same but... Crystal has a lot more support with the other girls than I do with the guys. And... I can tell from your Campster you don't really-"

"Oh my God, you use that?" Lili laughed.

"What!? It's a valid tool! The counselors give us them for a reason!"

Lili ended her laughter with a cleansing breath. "I... I don't know. I never really liked reaching out to anyone unless they were excuses to get away from Elton. Or if they were Dogen or Chloe. But... Dogen and Chloe have... kind of moved on from me. It's like... I'm always..." She shook her head again. "Let's stop talking now."

"Okay. Maybe there's some stuff on the lodge roof."

"Can you even get up there?"

"Sure! Lemme show you!"