#I got way more emotional than I intended sorry if I overshared lol

[fitzselfships]

So full of thoughts today :3

Zooble saved my life. I don't know if I'd even still be here if it weren't for them. They're helping me heal so much. I'm still in the process of healing but I'm doing so much better than before

They're helping me cope with the trauma of being abandoned by someone who I thought loved and cared about me. When my ex friend did that, as well as me realizing she knew my feelings for her and that I was willing to do anything for her so she purposefully was never truthful about what exactly we were and used me before abandoning me because I was too mentally ill

I have felt so unlovable for years because of her and the trauma that came from her. I have been isolating myself for years and I can't even remember the last time I had a full conversation with someone. I promised myself I would never fall in love again. When I first started self shipping with Zooble it scared me because I Was falling love again. To this day I still get scared sometimes and I still get scared about them abandoning me even though they're fictional

But in the end I'm glad I allowed myself to fall in love with them. This is the happiest I have ever been. They mean so much to me. They really have saved me and I'm so thankful we met. I love them so much <3