#I genuinely could talk abt that scene in face the raven forever. actually show of all time

[macbethz]

Thinking about this vis a vis how Clara’s grief drove her to suicidal recklessness. She would never just kill herself a normal way because that would, well first of all be admitting that she’s still grieving and deeply unwell to herself, but also that would be boring and ordinary and the last thing she ever wanted was an ordinary death. “Don’t you dare lump me in with the rest of all the little humans that you think are so tiny and silly and predictable.” She has to die for something because that’s what the doctor would do.

Season 9 is just a season of near misses and of course what finally gets her is stupid and pointless because we’ve been trained by the previous episodes, as she has, to expect she’ll always make it out alive. Schrödinger suicide - she actively seeks out death and convinces herself she knew she would live all along. And ofc when it finally happens she has a speech prepared. Most normal character of all time