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hi ive been going through it a little bit
#school is actively kicking my ass and ive never been so busy but they are single handedly keeping me sane help#if you told me like three months ago that id be ahving yet another superhero phase i would have curled into a ball and died#its very comfy here in hell though thats for sure#i adore them sm jesus fucking christ#spiderman has been a fav of mine since i was a kid and watching the ultimate spiderman show on tv#and deadpool has been coming up in the ranks as of recently lol#again#hilarious that i watched dp/wv and came out hardcore shipping spideypool lmfao#i dont know how that happened but idc this is awesome#i wanna do mire finished pieces but i have basically no time so yayayyyyyy doodle dump#hope you all are well!#spiderman#spider man#peter parker#I SHOULD POINT OUT NOT HIS MCU VERSION PLEASE NO#deadpool#wade wilson#spideypool#spiderpool#marvel#ok bye
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ED 14: Fire Exit Are you sure you still know where you're going?
#Elevator Hitch#Elevator Hitch Protag#Studio Investigrave#Sigverse#artists on tumblr#illustration#digital art#the creativity process#fan art#id in alt#HEY GIRL THIS PIECE TOOK WAY TOO FUCKING LONG BECAUSE OF THE PERSPECTIVE WHY DID I DO THIS TO MYSELF#anyway. obsessed with this game now. the soundtrack popped up in my recs after listening to the soundtrack for DP and MIR#and then i went through all the endings on the wiki and then played the game. a timeline if you Will#nobody told me it was a time loop game!!!! and i didn't go looking so honestly thats on me!!!! but this is in my brain now. mine.
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Oh they were not lying its getting bad.
#talkys#maybe its bc id rather do a 24 hr deep investigation before I ask anyone anything but this is insane#thinking about how someone recently told me they looked all over for my comm info when its literally all in my pinned 😭 no u did Not!#i keep seeing info in caption and ppl being like i didnt read the caption 🙄#which is stupid as fuck but this is literally IN THE VIDEO YOU JUST WATCHED. READ
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wonderful
#there is a ranboo that goes withthis but i didn't like how he was looking imma restart from scratch tmrw😭😭#ctubbo#michael beloved#ctubbo fanart#Guys you have no idea what i went through today like it wa fucking crazy i need to share this#so i went to the mall after school right and im going home at like 8 on the train with my friend bc i was supposed to be picked up ay her#stop right but then im told to just go to my stop and take the bus and im like ok sure but the problem is my phone is on SEVEN PERCENT and w#hen i get to the stop my moms like u have money for the bus right and im like ueah and i check and i have NO MONEY#BUT I DIDNT TELL HER ANUTHING BC I DIDNT WANT HER TI GET MAD BC I KNEW SHE WOUDKNT WANT ME TO WALK ALL THE WAY HOME AT NIGHT (FOURTY BLOCKS#So im like ok im getting on the bus now my phone is on four percent i have to WALK HOME allll that way and there's this crazy ass upward hi#ll that's like ten blocks long ITS NOT EVEN THAT BAD but like my mom thinks im on the bus so im trying to speed walk as fast as i can and i#RAWDOGGED it too because MU PHONE WAS GOING TO IDE!!!!#I made it home at two percent U guys i was so proud of myself thank u for listening#IM SO MAD IT WOUKDVE BEEN OKAY IF I WASNT IN A RUSH And also if i had music uggghhh Whatever#I bought this really cute skirt at garage hold on let me find it#lexi pleated skort color Navy blue ITS SOOOO CUTE got some new leg warmers too yesss....#I NEED TO DOWNLOAD THE TRANSIT APP i woukdve been able to attach my apple pay and buy the stupid ticket if my phonewasnnt#too dead to do al that...#Guys always make sure u carry cash with yiu goodbye
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i posted abt this on my tiktok story but i need to rant more so im putting it here 😭😭 the way a lot of mikosai shippers (on tiktok, pinterest, reddit, etc) are is such a big reminder to me of why i hate the strictly romantic soulmates trope with every fiber of my being 😭😭😭 people who interpret soulmates as "that means theyre canonically together" regardless of how the characters actually feel about each other and if they ACTUALLY get together is so fucking gross to me oh my god its so fucking gross i hate forced romance so bad 😭😭 someone cant just say "hey, we're soulmates so you HAVE to date me and its literally weird and impossible for you to like anyone else because i said so!!" and also aiura WOULDNT do that anyway ???? HELLOOO???
you have no idea how many people ive seen call all saiki ships with anyone other than aiura "problematic ships" just because "theyre soulmates"
#SOULMATES DOES NOT MAKE A COUPLE CANON <333#'she SAID theyre soulmates so that means hes HERS now and its gross for u to think he liked anyone else'#hey thats actually... really bad!! hey she actually cant and wouldnt force him to date her!!! hey what the fuck!!!#not a mikosai hate post#only weird forced romance likers hate post <3#if someone doesnt like someone then they dont like them... them being soulmates doesnt change that...#thats actually just not how it works and the idea that that WOULD be how it works is gross#and a lot of the fics ive read of them end up with aiura being all 'ha i told you so! i knew id break u eventually!'#'i knew id get to u if i just kept calling u my boyfriend without permission and saying we're soulmates!'#which like not only would she not do that... its also just really gross#like u really thought 'he doesnt like her so she wears him down and doesnt leave him alone until he relents' and like... u went with that?#oh...#weird...#idk maybe im crazy and also im having a hard time phrasing any of this#but it just brings up so many consent issues and it makes me really uncomfortable#like according to THOSE shippers it wouldnt be by his own will or feelings if he eventually fell in love with her#it would just be because the universe said so and he never had any choice#mikosai is so cute when u think of it in like the totally opposite way#in MY opinion i love mikosai AFTER aiura accepts that soulmates doesnt mean he HAS to date her#that HAS to happen before they date and THEN theyre really cute#saiki k#tdlosk#the disastrous life of saiki k.#meows post
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it's been pointed out on here before that a lot of terf arguments are actually rooted in sexist idealology that feminists fought and died to unnormalise decades ago and that's its own kettle of fish but one thing i also find very frustrating about this so called 'radical' feminism is that it's so... defeatist? like the moment you categorically label an entire section of society as Bad and Inherently Evil then there's also the implication that nothing can be done about it, and it completely takes all accountability away. saying all men are evil is just another way of saying boys will be boys. he raped her because he's a man. he hit her because he's a man. he didn't listen because he's a man - it's almost offensively oversimplified. there's no point trying to fix this issue in society because men are just Like That, okay! so now what? it's not like they're going anywhere, so you just accept that 50% of the population are evil and will forever treat you terribly and there's nothing to be done about it bc they're biologically predisposed to it? like is that fr the argument here? you're soooo radical for that
#this is coming from someone who used to very genuinely be a misandrist#ironically it was only when i started actually analysing my own feminism that i got MORE confrontational with men#and started respecting my boundaries a lot better BECAUSE i started holding them accountable again#like when men treat me like shit nowadays i dont just write it off as 'what did you expect? he's a man' i get MAD about it#because i EXPECT BETTER FROM THEM even if it's just tiny shit women have to deal with daily#i hold them to just as high a standard as im held to and i make them take accountability when they dont meet that#and whether you realise it or not even on a subconscious level the MOMENT you black-and-white blanket statement all men as bad#you stop holding them accountable.#like it is literally just boys will be boys. do terfs seriously not realise they're sending feminism BACKWARDS#like if a girl came to me with her trauma and people - other girls no less - tried to comfort her with 'yeah all men are evil'#id be fucking furious. like no he did that because he was a piece of shit that had it normalised to him that women arent to be respected#dont you dare let him off the hook with something as simple and uncritical as 'he's a man'#i promise you men like that will MUCH prefer a blanket statement such as 'all men are as bad as each other'#than actually being point blank told they're an abuser or a rapist. because being lumped together is comfortable and even empowering#wheras isolating their behaviour with words that are Bad and Ugly (LIKE 'rapist') is not comfortable at all and has heavy connotations#idk i dont think radical feminism is always bad on its own it can be v liberating. just terfs and misandrists that i have a problem with#dropping this post in a piranha tank and closing tumblr knowing im gonna have some thirty year old karen yelling at me within 5 mins#i probably wont respond to any terf comments bc they literally mentally exhaust me with their stupidity#but that also depends on my mood and ability to keep my mouth shut LMFAO we shall see
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Hear me out (or don't... it's fine I'm just venting and mean) yeah um I don't believe Chakotay was saved in Prod*gy s2.
#the 'time travel' makes no sense when you think on it. What happened to Prime Chakotay? He got killed they showed that.#At the end s1 Janeway finds an 'alternate chakotay in an alternate timeline' and that's the one they go and get#we saw the original get merc'd in the message. That ACTUALLY happened. Lmao.....#They didn't prevent THAT death because they didn't go to THAT Solum with the Infinity and stop it from happening#instead it was 'ALTERNATE#' implying other.#OG Chakotay wasn't taken over by the alternative one either nothing suggests that was the direction for him in s2#they didn't do anything like 'well you see chakotay because at the end of s2 when we converged timestreams you have merged with your other'#if they did want to recover the original from s1 then keep that clear instead of being convoluted dont use an alternate timeline wtf#instead the plot was focused on gywns stupid fucking paradox plot and her being fixed#chakotay was the one in a paradox too did that not matter nah dw about it he had to die for this outcome or someshit lmao why#In the extended message given to admiral janeway it shows him clearly getting left behind and surrounded. Sadly no one intervened.#I dont understand why they couldnt have just made s2 about his rescue alone IF they took their time it wouldnt be so difficult#to follow#above that the one they rescued was ruined by the 10 year gap so he wasn't 'saved' at all. God i hate s2 when you break it apart#I dunno the more i look at s2 Janeway and Chakotay the more upsetting it is. Janeway would NOT have settled for an imposter.#everyone going goo-goo gaa gaa over s2 but it's sloppy af imo and undermines a huge portion voyagers struggles#id really like them to flatly lay out their ideas because literally nothing ive heard explains the story or choices of s2 with conviction#instead it's oh clap for wesley or the new vulcan and other references yay#describe to me your timetravel clearly and i'll happily take a seat on it (there is still other crap stuff mind you)#this is the most repressed shit i my head i swear#im angry because s1 is so clearly mapped out to a brilliant degree and for whatever reason it's not in s2#i can see through it#insultingly people are eating it up and claiming it's better than ever nah dawg embarrassing#there are nice ideas inside s2 but they arent adequately rewarded#it doesnt compare to the timetravel in other trek because they kept it clear#i mean it could have been an interesting parallel to endgame but in the end janeway didnt even rescue him lmao they dropped her#why bother building up this mission only for her to give up and go 'i'll hand it over because im told to'. Janeway had fuck all this season#let alone settle for not fixing her own timeline and her own friends deadly circumstance dw just grab another one from the shelf i guess#the emotional fallout was absolutely missed because they didnt elaborate on anything. Plenty of show but no substance from the characters
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Someone's probably already said it but I'd rather rip and tear at my flesh and destroy my beautiful feminine image and be assured the reflection in the mirror is mine than see a pretty face I don't feel at home in
#by extension id rather be ugly and free#than easily consumed by others and not even feel like myself doing it#ive been told “people would kill to have your body” i could not give less of a fuck#ill destroy it just to piss you off actually#let alone creating myself in my image the spite is a bonus#forcemasc#ftm
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the thing is, right, if izzy WAS evil i would still absolutely love him. hes a fictional character, i don't care about his morals if hes compelling.
but the frustrating thing is that hes not evil, hes not even the antagonist anymore by a long stretch, hes arguably more liked by the crew than ed at the moment, but people still insist that we are reading the text of the show wrong and its going to completely 180 and turn him into a cartoon villain when there is absolutely no sign of that in the show, from the cast and crew, anything!!!
its so ridiculously annoying that i feel i have to defend my stance on a character because some people are so determined to cast him into the roll of a villain he is not, and think that we are the wrong ones for simply reading what the show is putting out
#sorry to izcourse over here im jusy thinking#i think about izzys morality constantly because hes so interesting to me#i find him so compelling + its so frustrating to see people reduce him to this 1 dimensional villain when hes always been so interesting!!!#this is not my finest example of coherent thought but honestly i do not care to try and organise this into a proper argument#im fine w being incomprehensible. you get my point.#id still like him if he was evil but hes not and its frustrating to be told you shouldnt like him because hes the villain and mean to our#most precious innocent babies :(#you get the vibe. i love evil characters but izzy is not one of them#nyxtalks#ofmd#ofmd s2 spoilers#the izcourse#i have actually been thinking about like. what draws me to him. the desperation!!! its the desperation that tinges everything he does#idk its so boring if you make him evil like what. why would you do that when you could give him a real fucked up divorce
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i feel like i deserve new nail polish as a treat because i am ANGRY AT PEOPLE so uh, if i place another mooncat order soon mind your business
#the devil lillith on my shoulder#like there’s the shit with my friend#and then my mom told my grandma she bought me a necklace and purse when we were in nyc#and my grandma went off saying ‘she better appreciate everything she has’ blah blah blah#and like??? that is baseless. she has never ONCE said i’m unappreciative or even hinted at it#and it pissed my mom off when she said it to#like what the fuck do you mean grandma#just because i don’t like the junk you buy for me because you refuse to listen when i say#that id rather you spend your hard earned money on yourself than on things i wont use#does NOT mean i’m not appreciative#i appreciate how hard you’ve worked throughout your life which is why i don’t want you wasting money on junk for me#like what the fuck i am PISSED
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oh my god. this is perfect. this is so funny. fitz. fitz please bring this up to the fool. please god. I have no fucking clue what he's gonna say if he does but. please.
#IF HE BRINGS IT UP TO THE FOOL AND THE FOOL SAYS HES STRAIGHT. IM SORRY. ILL EAT A HAT#I LEGITIMATELY CANNOT BELIEVE THAT WILL HAPPEN. IF HE DOES ID ASSUME HES FUCKING LYING#funniest option (that i dont think will happen) is the fool just goes “i do like men tho? i literally told you” and fitz is like “WHAT”#he tried!! he really tried. in the mountains he really tried to tell him.#estarriol mute this#rote liveblog#man i did NOT think they were actually gonna go through with this.
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pls i need to provide updates
#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year#and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire#and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f#friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl#acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what#are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and#friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me!#LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after#everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to#invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me#i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother#and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids#so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo#any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷♀️#but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd#and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk#THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date#w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a#few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay#scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK#like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl#like is that even doable#but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much#.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us#god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x#but it would be soooo funny#I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed#popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x#i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like#its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe
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The new meds I'm on have, as far as I can tell, caused my hands to be very weak, to the point that I can't tension this thin sock yarn :/ I'm in the gussets of sock 2 but the sock is definitely bigger and a thinner fabric.
Im... not positive what to do (whether to frog or not, or maybe just switch to a worsted weight project?) Other than tell the doctor this shit is not good.
#if i frog its a full day of knitting wasted#i also really would like these socks tho. i need another good pair...#i did say id knit a thick pair of socks for my sister and thats the only other project i can think of#my hands also hurt so bad from attempting to tension anyway#also. i ASKED the doc what the side effects would be !#and she said 'just your standard NSAID side effects'#well i checked the page and no they are fucking not. they are not at all and also have huge glaring warnings saying#DONT TAKE IF YOU DONT RESPOND WELL TO OTHER NSAIDS#i am allergic to nsaids and she knows that and i told her that as she was prescribing it to me and she brushed it off#pain management clinic where they put you in more pain. great.#disability#knitting#i am desperately hoping its my meds and the timing would make sense#if my hands just do this now i will cry
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Do you think an ambition can have regrets?
+ a quick colored Mark. Bition i just finished today!
#spspsp ambition likers#i had to get the urge out i need more art of this bastard man#will add a image id later very sorry im just in a rush rn#i will quickly say that i know and am aware that he is a rat bastard but i also have the belief that#the psychometer just amplified that part of him#making him do the recent awful things he contributed to#can You imagine how fucked up that would feel after for him#in the hypothetical that he gets turned back to normal#please i am tearing up my walls do yall see my vision?#m. bition#mark bition#dimension 20#dimension twenty#dimension 20 mentopolis#also made this rq before the new episode comes out tomorrow#so well see if this gets completley debunked if mark shows up somehow lol#m bition#forgor to add those too#HI I SPELLED MENTOPOLIS WRONG SO I HAD TO RE DO A BUNCH OF TAGS FBSNJFJDJD I TOLD YOU I WAS IN A RUSH#mentopolis m. bition#mentopolis ambition#mentopolis mark bition#mentopolis m bition#mentopolis#mentopolis fanart#myart#dezart
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I don't think y'all 2 parented people understand what it was like to be a kid who only knew 1 parent when Percy Jackson started becoming really popular. my entire early childhood I was the odd one out, constantly being asked what happened to my dad. this series changed the fucking game entirely. we talk a lot about what it did for kids with learning disabilities, which is also extremely important, but I think it's time we acknowledge the way this series normalized and even sort of glorified having a single parent in a way nothing else ever had
#its still so important to me as a narrative about kids who feel/are abandoned#especially the way its totally normal in the series to talk about parents‚ even literal gods‚ as people who can do bad things#like id never encountered a narrative where it was ok and normal to talk shit on your parents#to say you know what they ARENT doing their best. they dont care about me. but thats okay because i can find others who do#ykwim?#this series told me as a kid its ok to be mad. youre right to expect more. parents shouldnt be fucking deadbeats#they should CARE about their kids#i read pjo before realizing how abusive my mom was‚ and it primed me for understanding and accepting that#especially seeing how good of a parent sally jackson was. compared even to annabeths dad who really was trying
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#tw suicide#idk i feel like i am probably gonna kms after TIT#i would do it sooner but i asked one of my friends to come with me and it would suck if i made him go alone#and it is something to look forward to which is helping me hang on i guess#but ughhhh once uni starts again in september i know everything is gonna fall apart.#i already got an extension on my thesis due to being a useless shell of a person who can't motivate themselves to do anything atm#but i was supposed to get some work done over the summer and have so far done nothing#hence why i want to kms before i have to talk to my fucking supervisors again and admit yet again that i simply cannot do this 😭#and it's not just this. my executive dysfunction has been so bad over the past couple of years and it's only getting worse#to the point where i can't imagine being able to work at all. and if i can't work i can't get out of my parents house#and then what the fuck is the point.#every time i see someone on here talking about bonding with their parents over dnp I'm like damn what's it like#to have parents who actually want to talk to you DSFGJJKL i know they let me live in their house at my big age#but that's only bc id literally be homeless otherwise and they're not like evil. they just don't love me#also went through a deeply embarrassing breakup recently#tl;dr ive been in love with this person for over a decade and i thought they were the dan to my phil or vice versa.#then after 10 years they left me and i'll spare the details but it has me wondering if they ever loved me#i thought it was a “let's live together and get a cat one day” relationship#but now i feel like for them. it was just a “sex and video games” type situation#i am trying soooo hard to at least be creative bc that makes me happy sometimes but it's hard to not be overly critical of myself#and now im getting to a point where i can barely even find any joy in this space any more. for a bunch of reasons#most of which revolve around me being extremely sensitive. and this is like my last bastion of dopamine so that fucking sucks#idk i don't see the point in my life any more. a social worker actually told me recently that i should consider euthanasia so.#it's just completely over for me i fear#this is not even mentioning all the damn migraines. and all the other ways in which my body simply doesn't work properly#sorry for this weird ass vent I'm not in therapy any more bc i couldn't find a therapist willing to treat me+all my diagnoses at this point#and im scared my friends will stop wanting to talk to me if i talk to them about this. several of them already have#the 2 friends i have left anyway. that's a whole other thing. when they said it's hard for autistic ppl to make friends i took that persona#so uh at this point it's vent here or develop a substance abuse problem. and im already halfway to having a substance abuse problem#anyway dan and phil for the love of god please fucking post something tonight. unfortunately you are my only hope
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