#I forgot him ONE TIME and suddenly it’s always brought up…… smh my head

[dolly-fishy]

My contributions to the isfd fandom have never been anything good ever

[seungminotes]

Blissful Ignorance | Han Jisung

desc. gender neutral (plz inform me if anything alludes it’s not) / fluff / your bestie jisung has ignored you to the point of no return, but why?

a/n: hannie lives in my head like 24/7 this isn’t funny anymore 

wc. 1.5k 

When your brother said he was inviting a few friends over tonight, you didn’t exactly expect a barrage of people you hardly recognized to be dancing the night away in your living room. Your parents had gone away for the weekend and Minho was finally home from college for a while, with the last time you seeing him being a couple months ago, you had to admit you missed him. You however didn’t miss his old antics, perhaps college doesn’t change you that much you thought. Though you did have to admit, compared to the ones thrown in your house in Minho’s high school years, this was somehow much more tame.

Planning to stay locked up in your room for the night was the way to go, after a long week, you really wanted nothing more than to catch up on your favorite show at the moment. Nonetheless, hunger had got the best of you and you found yourself unconsciously walking into the kitchen for a snack in the midst of underaged drinkers and blasting music. Curse your non-existent self control.

Settling on some chips and a can of soda you hurriedly made your way back towards your room, maybe catch up on that show you’d been too lazy to watch.

That was, however, before you noticed Han Jisung near the staircase. You should’ve expected him to be there now that you thought about it, when had he ever been one to turn down one of your brother’s parties?

Your focus suddenly shifted from getting back up to your room, to trying your best to avoid Jisung. Turning around to make a beeline back to the kitchen, you harshly bumped into your brother, luckily.

“Hey, I was just gonna go look for you. Did you see Sung came over?” He practically yelled over the music.

In that moment you realized you really couldn’t blame Minho, he’d been gone for so long huh? He fortunately didn’t get to see the slow and painful separation you’d gone through with your best friend within the last few months. You two basically being complete strangers at this point, you really had no interest in seeing him, yet you weren’t quite comfortable explaining that to your protective brother, especially in this hectic setting.

“Really? Haven’t seen him, I’ll have to look for him later, but hey I don’t feel so well, I’m just gonna go up to my room,” you waved your chips and soda up to him.

“You sure you’re fine?” He questioned again, suspicious from your lack of excitement to see Jisung.

“Yeah, no worries, enjoy your party nostalgia,” you reassured him, flashing a smile.

“If you need anything, call me!” he called after your rushing figure. 

Turning back around to the staircase you’re relieved to see your once best friend and his little group had dispersed and you now had a clear way right back to your room.

You really got through that, you could finally breathe. Though looking back now, you really didn’t understand how you and Sung had become so distant. At one point you would have run right up to him, ecstatic upon seeing him at your brother’s party and just now you really wanted to run and hide. But you guessed it was for the best, everything happens for a reason.

Besides, that didn’t matter anymore, you had a show to catch up on tonight, no more moping over Han Jisung, someone who certainly wasn’t moping over you.

Opening the door to your dark room was unsettling though, as you could’ve sworn you had left the lights on. A bit suspicious, but you’d always been quite forgetful anyway. Shifting your attention towards the light switch, you’d seen your desk chair move just the tiniest bit out of the corner of your eye and you were almost ready to fight until the chair swiveled all the way around to reveal none other than the boy you had in mind just a minute earlier.

“Jisung, what the hell!” Your hand was raised up to your heart, still clutching your bag of chips.

But he merely laughed. “ What? Did I scare you? I thought it would look cool.”

How did he do that? How did he speak so carefree and smile such a wholesome smile? As if the last time you’d spoken wasn’t nearly 4 months ago. It brought you back to the times you’d be able to do the same causing a frown to overcome your face along with a sudden cloud of guilt. If you had reached out more, maybe it wouldn’t have gone to the point where you couldn’t look him in the eyes anymore.

He noted your suddenly sullen face, meeting your eyes with concern. “Hey, I didn’t mean to scare you so bad.”

“No, no worries, I wasn’t that scared.” You lied.

“Speaking of you being scared, remember that one day we went to that sketchy haunted house at the county fair and you almost cried your eyes out into my shirt,” the anecdote almost made you laugh.

“Oh my God, you’re never going to let that go, we were like nine!” You scoffed as you struggled to maintain your stoic face. Sung was always great with words, you nearly forgot. Just one sentence and your tense nature was gone, the silence following not even that awkward. It felt just like it had once before.

He was glad to be there in your room just like old days, teasing a smile onto your face. Though he was sure it would take more than just that little memory to make you feel completely comfortable in this situation now. 

“So why are you in my room,” you decided to break the silence, setting down your chips and soda on the desk in front of him and plotting down on the near bed.

“Kinda saw you running away when you saw me,” he looked down.

“That doesn’t really answer the question.”

The frown now pressed on your face made Jisung wonder how many times you’d done that within the last few months.

“I panicked,” he mumbled now getting up from the swirling desk chair and plopping down next to you.

You’d barely heard him, but the word panicked made you uneasy. What did that even mean? It confused you but for a second you’d almost felt bad. But then you remembered you shouldn’t be the one feeling bad, he’s the one who cut you out. The one who suddenly didn’t wave or text back, the one who suddenly didn’t wait for you to walk to or from school. And though you tried, you always thought you didn’t try hard enough, that you were just letting it happen, but nothing would work. You couldn’t feel bad for him.

“What do you mean you panicked?” You looked up at him to meet his eyes, but he was looking down.

“Han Jisung, please answer me.” That caught his attention, you’d rarely ever called him by his full name like that. He’d turned his head slightly to look at you and your serious face and he’d be lying if he said he wasn’t scared.

“I just panicked, okay,” he explained again, this time looking at you, and you could tell he truly felt sorry.

“Don’t do that to me, sungie,” you practically whined, yet your anger had somewhat faded away looking at his sad doe eyes and you slipped with the use of his little nickname which caused his mood to lighten up a bit as he almost smiled.

“Why did you suddenly ignore me?” You questioned again.

“I felt like I needed to,” this time he did smile, but it wasn’t his signature happy-go-lucky smile, it was sad and regretful, almost apologetic of a smile. 

“Needed to? Jisung, get to the point, this is going nowhere,” you were tired at this point, it was almost as if he was stalling.

“I like you, y/n,” he blurted out and instantly regretted it as he saw your face contort from impatience to shock.

“Well what the hell! If you liked me, shouldn't you have, I don’t know, maybe, not ignored me?” 

“I didn’t know what to do!”

“Oh my God, you’re an actual idiot. I’m in love with an idiot!” Your hand hit your forehead in exasperation.

“Waaait a minute,” he’d barely processed your words, unable to quite believe them.

“You heard me, you’re an idiot,” you giggled.

He narrowed his eyes at you, feigning annoyance when in reality his heart was beating too hard for him to handle and the little smile tugging on your lips was enough to bring his usual bright smile back to his face.

“I swear to never ignore you again,” he held up his hand and placed it to his heart, sealing his pledge.

“Good, you know that hurt,” you pouted.

He scooted closer to you in the spinning desk chair, closing the small gap between you in wrapping his arms around you.

“I won’t hurt you again,” he whispered into your hair, tickling your ear.

You wrapped your arms around his torso in return in hopes for the moment to last just a bit longer.

Unfortunately, the music blaring downstairs was suddenly heard much clearer as Minho barged into your room (he never was the type to knock, at least not on your door so much for back door choreo smh).

“Woah, how long was I gone for! When did this even happen?”

[madzilla84]

VidCon London 2020

I wrote up some rambly thoughts on Vidcon, my trip, and Phil day!

I arrived in London the night before the others, last Thursday (a week ago?? WOT), so went straight to my friend’s place in London – we went to a pub near his for pizza, and while I was there I saw Dan’s cute tweet. After a few wines, it made me super emotional as you can imagine. I love him. <3

We had some more drinks once we got back, which made the next morning … well.

Friday – Day 1

YUP, HANGOVER. But luckily not a ‘can’t function’ hangover, so once I’d packed up I made my way over to the Airbnb (it was fuckin WIMDY) to leave the luggage (too early to check in). The previous occupants were a group of Lads who’d left the place in a state, so it was still being cleaned. HONESTLY BOYS SMH)

Then I headed to the complex’s on-site café (ooh errr) and spent some time trying to figure out what to write in the card I wanted to give to Phil. My roomies @yikesola, @ahappydnp and @calvinahobbes arrived a little later and we checked into the flat, and basically hung out and chatted until it was time to head to registration. Which was a good decision as the line was super small on Friday night. Gotta say, the feeling of seeing Phil so big and so central on all the banners and posters for the con made me feel so proud of him. As other people have mentioned, there was some – curiosity, I guess? Worry? – about whether it would be weird seeing him there doing his first event like this on his own in a *very* long time, but somehow it wasn’t, at any point.  

We spotted Martyn checking in further down the hall, which was probably the first moment it all started to Feel Real. We (slightly awkwardly at first in my case lol) met a bunch of online folks in the registration area, and tagged along for a cable car ride over the river (did I mention it was WIMDY) to the O2 arena for dinner. When we all sat down to eat I realised I was sitting opposite two friends from IDB! \o/ We headed back after the meal to hang out and PREPARE for what was about to come.

Saturday - Day 2 - PHIL DAY

We started off by going for breakfast – naturally pancakes – and then headed across to the con. The first event of the day was the comedy panel that Phil was on, so we went across to the panel room early and ended up sitting through the panel before that one, ‘Out and Online’, which was probably – Phil notwithstanding – the better of the two I saw.

During that first panel – and really all morning up to that point – I’d started to feel increasingly nervous. I’d never met Dan or Phil before, and the fact it was happening imminently was suddenly hitting me. Not to mention it was very hot in the panel room that day, and – yeah. By the time the LGBT+ panel finished, I was just like the *screaming internally* meme.

The only other time I’d seen D&P in person with my own eyes was at Interactive Introverts – non-VIP, and I was quite far from the stage, so I couldn’t see them well, y’know? So when the panellists walked in for the comedy panel, I turned around and saw Phil properly in person for the first time. And… wow. I’m sure I hardly need to tell anyone on this forum how attractive he is, but I was just blown away by how beautiful he is in person. He just seems to, like, glow. 

And I was absolutely in love with his jacket, which I thought was new at first (it took me a while to place it was the one from the II promo photos). He just looked wonderful, and I went full Heart Eyes Motherfucker as he took his seat with the others. And once I’d actually seen him, somehow I felt less anxious and stressed. 

The panel was okay – I wasn’t familiar with the other attendees and I’m not sure theirs is the sort of content I’d necessarily watch – lots of prank vids and the like, but they def had some fans in the room. But it was obvious the majority of the attendees were there for Phil, and I noticed him looking around the room at all the people there for him throughout, making eye contact with lots of people. I’m sure he made brief eye contact a couple of times, which made me go !!!!! It was obvious the panelists were at quite different stages of their careers, which was a little dissonant sometimes, but also quite sweet – Phil was very encouraging to the younger, more inexperienced members of the panel, which was very lovely. Lucky them to have such a kind senpai.

After that we only had a quick break (mainly to down water after being boiled to death in the panel room) before it was time to get in line for Phil’s meet and greet. The wait for him to arrive was weirdly fast but also interminably long, and I spent most of it panicking about what I was going to say to Actual Phil Lester in a matter of minutes. 

But soon enough he arrived, shook hands with the photographer, did a lil hop to wave to everyone in the crowd who was waving at him, and then off we went.

I wasn’t sure what to expect – I’ve had pics before with celebs at conventions, and every con is different in how they handle photos. Some really rush you through, but this one was pretty good, I thought – you had plenty of time to say whatever you wanted to say, or give gifts – I thought we were supposed to leave them in a box somewhere, but no, we were to give them directly to Phil, who had a little table to put them on. Obviously I wanted to give him a hug, too, but would I be too awkward to ask for one once I actually got up there, I wondered?

But as it turned out I needn’t have worried; I could watch people meeting him from where we were in the line, and from the very first person, he opened his arms for a big hug from everyone who went up to meet him. Watching people running into his arms was making me really emotional – he just has such a great connection with his people. You could tell he was happy to be there and liked meeting us all. He took so many cute photos with people. We noticed he had a Sharpie and was signing things, which we hadn’t been told about beforehand, so I hadn’t brought anything special - ended up getting him to sign my con badge as a souvenir.

There were 3 of us, and @yikesola took one for the team and volunteered to go first. I watched how much fun they were having, how easily they chatted and hugged and posed for their cute photo and thought to myself, please don’t be a total buffoon when you go up there…

Soon enough it was my turn. Walking up for these things is always nervewracking and awkward – except this time, once it was time, Phil turned around, looked at me, smiled and opened his arms and I knew it would be okay.

I walked over and hugged him, and he probably had to bend down quite a lot, lol. I reached up over his shoulder to hug him, which meant being on tiptoes, of course; as many people have said in the past, he didn’t let go until you did. He was so gentle. <3 I maybe hugged him for a little longer than I might usually with someone I didn’t know because of it; he just has such comforting and welcoming vibes. And no, before anyone asks, I didn’t notice what he smelled like – we were talking about it after and I don’t think any of us did. I don’t in general unless someone’s wearing reasonably strong perfume/cologne, I don’t think, unless I’m hugging them for a really long time. ANYWAY.

The now-famous jacket (which looked so good!!) was soft AF. I handed over my lil gift – he spotted the chocolate and was pretty happy about that.

I then had a little time to talk to him but, like, how do you condense into a few seconds what someone means to you, how much they’ve helped you or how much you appreciate them? So I ended up going with one of the main reasons I came to love Phil so much as a creator – someone around my age still making such fun content. I don’t mean it like, ‘wow, at your age!!’ lol, which I’m not sure he would have appreciated, more like – when you get to a certain age, people often expect you to leave certain interests and behaviours aside (we see it all the time with these ‘ew people over 30 in fandom?? Gross’ posts), and Phil is still being himself and doing what he wants and not letting that affect him, and I just think that’s really great and it’s meant a lot to me. So we talked about that a bit. He said you should be able to be creative at any age. <3 Talking to him wasn’t like I expected – I don’t know what I expected, really, but I thought he might have more of a – nervous energy, maybe? Or just a bit more – y’know, ‘AmazingPhil’? But no, he was chill and confident and had this ease about him that was so comforting in person. I know he’s an introvert and probably holed up on the couch for a week after meeting all those people (hard same), but he really is so good at talking to people and making them feel at ease; everyone looked so happy walking away from him.

About halfway through the convo I had to work really hard to keep my brain on track and not just descend into babbling nonsense because he was looking me in the eye and listening attentively and bruh!!! That is … a hell of a thing! Not only is he so beautiful, but he really listens, and cares about what you’re saying, and is actually interested and not just going ‘uh huh, uh huh …’ like other celebs can do. His expression and demeanour was so friendly and open and welcoming, and honestly I just felt like I could talk to him for hours.

We then posed for the official photo they took, and hugged for it – when I’ve had other photo ops in the past where I’m standing close to the person I’ve been prone to nervous giggling, but this time I felt really relaxed and happy.

And that was it! I reluctantly said goodbye and headed off and was so flustered I a) forgot my little card to collect my photo, the guy had to chase after me, though it looked like everyone was doing that because they were on cloud 9, and b) picked up someone else’s sequin Dan bag from the bag pile. (Which I immediately noticed because I had a keychain and pin on mine, but I mean they *are* identical.) We went to get food and download our photos and watch all the videos we took. Even though I now had pics, I still almost couldn’t believe it was actually real.

And, wow. We were just floating for the rest of the day. It was such a wonderful, positive experience and I’m so glad it worked out that I was able to meet Phil. I didn’t think I could love him more but after that day I definitely did. Obviously, because it’s me, I spent a lot of time thinking about what I said to him and how I said it and was it the right thing and did I say it right and lejslkdjkjfkdhks, but at the end of the day he was lovely, I said more or less what I wanted to say (of course there’s more I’d have wanted to say, but there’s never enough time), and it went wonderfully well. So I really shouldn’t worry too much.

We paid a quick visit to the AP shop booth in the Expo Hall – they didn’t have a ton of stuff but they had all the t-shirts (I think it was just all the t-shirts, corgi jumper, corgi keychains, glitch hoodie), so I bought the yellow Try New Things shirt from Sarah. (And got a free pixel Phil sticker; they really want to get rid of those huh)

The only other Phil-event for the day was his appearance at the Night of Awesome that evening, so we went along for that. Apparently the theme of the evening was ‘collaboration’, so most of the performers didn’t appear by themselves aside from a couple of music acts. But it quickly descended into madness – most of the performances were some sort of challenge which involved the loser getting a pie to the face or gunged – i.e. perfect Saturday night entertainment if you’re ten. So maybe it was more aimed at kids, I thought, until one of the music acts started swearing up a STORM and a load of horrified parents started dragging their kids out while I almost died trying not to laugh. There was a lot of TikTok stuff, but the animators challenge was pretty good and a couple of the music acts were great.

You probably read about the guy who crashed the performance to make an offensive anti-trans joke and then got chased out by security … when I figured out who it was later I wasn’t surprised, he’s done stupider shit in the past, but Vidcon didn’t react very well to it right away. Throughout the event I generally thought security and staff were very good, but they really dropped the ball on this. The music act gamely carried on though, as did a number of other acts after them, and *just* as everyone had pretty much lost the will to live, Phil randomly appeared on stage with Kian and JC (…no, me neither) along with a science Youtuber. Yay! I thought his bit was really cute; kind of random but that made sense when he explained the original plan had gone awry shortly before the show started. He was *so* into it and I thought it was so sweet how, again, he kept looking for his people in the crowd. He was so confident on stage and even when the stuff he was being asked to do was so random and weird he just owned it, went for it and made it funny. Thomas Sanders came on after science!Phil to do a very wholesome set which kind of saved the evening, lol.

And that was the end of Phil day! Naturally we had to order Domino’s in the evening after our emotional and intense day (and to recover from whatever tf most of that concert was). I feel like I’ve become some sort of addict, and now the rest of my existence will be sad and grey until I can hug Phil again (which might well be never). I have peaked. I also remembered what I like so much about (good) conventions; being with your people and feeling so free to express yourself and what you love - between the phannies and the fanders there were so many pride flags, and so many people walking around wearing merch. (Also it was the first con I’d ever been to where there were no cosplayers! Which is unsurprising given it’s youtube fandom, but still – new experience.)

Sunday - Day 3

Sunday we slept in after staying up until like 3am chatting (whoops), so I missed jacksepticeye’s panel but I did get to the Buzzfeed Unsolved/Watcher one, which was really funny. I wish I’d gotten to meet the boys but what can you do. I also went to the Expo Hall and met PJ (who was very nice, and friendly!! But had exactly that nervous energy I was talking about earlier, which I’m more accustomed to when I meet celebs at cons; Phil really is something special), and bought a few enamel pins, because ENAMEL PINS.

And then … the worst bit of any con, people started to leave. :( My 3 roomies left first, which was the worst bit of the weekend. I ended up tagging along with some twitter friends to get coffee, and we ended up sitting around for like 3 hours outside the cloakroom because no one wanted to leave.

We found out about Dan’s half marathon during this time, and I know people have this view of phannies like we’re all obsessive, invasive weirdos who just want to find out things for – I dunno, clout? But honestly everyone there was so proud of him and just like the whole weekend, it was great to be with people who understood. Like, I can hardly tell a co-worker that a youtuber I follow ran a marathon, they’d be like - okay, and…? So it was nice to sit there and sort of – celebrate it, in our own lil way.

We all parted ways on the train - I went back to my friend’s and watched Phil’s liveshow there, which was really a perfect way to end the weekend. I’m glad it sounded like he had such a nice time at Vidcon. Someone tweeted about him seeing all the people who had come to see just him and how excited they were to see him, and that warmed my heart. And hopefully his too.

The next day I returned to the Excel to have pizza lunch with the last two friends who were still in town, which really helped with the post-con blues, and then it really was it. Since then I’ve been hanging out at my friend’s flat and taking a couple of trips out to various shops or whatever, but I’ve mostly been tired and lazy and catching up on sleep a bit.

As I mentioned, I’m now a filthy addict. I will be … keeping an eye on future vidcons/events, for sure. >_> And I might be back in London in April, maybe. >_> many thoughts head full

[innaminitus]

Desires #10

Pairing: Loki x reader

Summary:  Vanaheim needs allies and since you are the eldest daughter of its king, you are a victim of arranged marriage with one of Odin’s sons - Loki.

Chapter warnings: smut, language, fluff, a bit of angst, bad parenting 

Chapter word count: 1735

A/N: does anyone know why tumblr is hating me again and this time is not allowing me to add more tags? am i not worthy to appear on search results or what?? the same happens every time i try to post anything bucky related smh

You finally slept well, wrapped in Loki’s arms, his warm breath surrounded your neck. He was tired, too, even though he tried not to show it. You raised your head and kissed the tip of his nose, receiving a wrinkle of it when he yawned.

“Hello, dear,” he whispered, softly kissing your lips.

You didn’t answer, just deepened the kiss and dived your fingers into his messy hair. He smiled on your lips and lazily rolled up your nightgown, groaning at the feeling of your soft skin under his fingertips. You pressed your chest onto his, begging for a touch you missed so much. His hand travelled up and squeezed one of your buttocks, releasing a moan that was hidden deep inside your throat.

The door swung open and you had to force yourself not to shut them back with your magic. Loki sighed and moved away slightly.

“What is it-“

“Y/N, I need your help!” Thor’s cry filled the room and you felt electricity sparkle in the air.

Marigold started crying and if your sight could kill, Thor would’ve already been full rigor mortis. Loki got up and walked to the cradle.

“What do you want?” You asked and watched your husband gently take the baby in his arms. You loved that sight.

“Jane… Jane of Earth is ill. You need to help her.” Your brother came closer, visibly worried.

“And why do you think I could?” You frowned.

“You are a healer.”

“I can only heal myself.”

He helplessly looked at you for a second.

“Did you take her to our healers before you decided to harass my wife?” Loki came closer, eyeing his brother.

“They don’t know what it is. The thing inside of her keeps attacking everyone it finds a threat. It’s red and-“

“Ether,” you sighed and got up. “It’s incredibly dangerous, you should get rid of her.”

“I can’t just get rid of her!”

“I don’t want that thing anywhere near my child!” You shouted and clenched your fists, objects around you shook a little. A vase from the table fell on the floor.

A horn sounded in the palace, Loki hugged Marigold a little tighter.

“What’s going on?”

Thor run from your bedroom to the corridor.

“Fights! I need to go to Jane!”

You followed his steps. A bunch of violent criminals was attacking everyone in their grasp, and the sight of smashed skulls on the floor made you nauseous. You quickly shut the door closed before they could see you.

Loki was already dressed in his armour and helmet thanks to his magic, ready to fight. You didn’t want him to. You were so horribly afraid of losing him, you couldn’t let him go.

You shook your head.

“Don’t.”

“Love-“

“I don’t allow it!” You cried and came to him. “You have too much to lose.” You looked at the baby in his arms, at her big, blue eyes matching her skin.

He gently kissed your lips, passing Marigold to you.

“That’s why I need to fight. For you.” He pulled you to himself, his cheek pressed onto your head. “I’ll be fine. I’m a great fighter.”

You smiled sadly. Of course he was, you never doubted it, but it was irrelevant.

“Stay with me. Thor will take care of it all,” you asked, the baby started crying again. “I’m a terrible parent, you are so much better. I can’t lose you, I won’t handle it myself.”

He laughed.

“Why are you having such nasty thoughts, wife? I’ll be safe and sound before you even notice I was gone. I promise.” He kissed you again. “Just wait for me.”

You let him go. He was right. The fights were not so bad, not for the God of Mischief. You were overreacting, hormones were doing their thing and you were panicking without a proper reason.

*

You waited for two days. Patiently. More stressed with each minute.

When the door swung open you were on the edge of a heart attack. He came home, safe and-

It was Thor. He wasn’t smiling, wasn’t happy or lively as always. Your heart was racing again.

“Y/N-“

“Where is he?” You managed to stutter, afraid to find out the answer.

“He was brave.”

You walked a few crooked steps closer to Thor. Marigold was crying but you didn’t hear properly.

“Where is he?” You forgot how to breathe.

“He… He’s gone.” He couldn’t look at you, but your eyes were locked on him. On his weak figure. “He’s dead, sister.”

You shook your head.

“That’s not true. That’s not true!” A mirror broke. “I’m sure he’s alive and well, he promised me-“

“I saw it, Y/N,” he interrupted your talking silently. “I saw him… He’s gone.”

He was so heartbroken, so pale and sad…

Loki was dead.

The love of your life was dead and you never even told him you loved him.

You took a deep breath to say something, but no words escaped your lips.

Your heart was racing, you didn’t breathe, every process your body was doing stopped. A tear flew down your cheek and the last thing you heard before blacking out was Marigold’s cry.

*

When you fluttered your eyes opened for just a mere second you thought you heard Loki’s voice, but then you remembered everything. Loki was dead. Killed by the night elves.

You wanted to cry and vomit at the same time.

“Quite reckless of you to pass out and leave her alone.”

You slowly sat up.

Impossible.

Your heart stopped when you turned and saw Loki lulling Marigold in his arms. Were you dead, too?

He looked at you and smirked, putting her back to her cradle.

“Just don’t be too loud screaming at me, they all think I’m dead and I want it to stay this way.”

Oh, you weren’t dead. But you knew who soon would be.

You clenched your teeth, got up so quickly you didn’t know you could move that fast and slapped Loki so hard you almost couldn’t feel your hand.

“You fucking psycho! Are you out of your mind?! What the fuck were you thinking?!” You kept hitting his chest, tears or anger and relief were dropping on the floor. “I fucking hate you!”

He grabbed your wrists and pulled you to himself, locking you in a tight hug.

“Shush, now.” He kissed your hair and you slowly relaxed, but still couldn’t stop crying. “I’m sorry, love. I’m sorry.”

“Fuck your apologies…” You muttered, but wrapped your arms around his waist and held him close.

“Such rude language you’re using,” he laughed. “I missed you.”

“You’re going to wish you stayed dead.”

He moved away and took your face in his hands.

“Never. I’d rather have the worst, the rudest life with you and our horribly blue daughter.”

“Gods, you are so awful. I can’t believe I love you-“

You widened your eyes. You never said it before and weren’t sure how he would react. It just slipped down your tongue, so naturally.

“I love you, too.” He kissed you gently.

You smiled and happily gave the kiss back, passionately and hard. You thought you lost him, and yet here he was, in your arms. Just as he promised.

His tongue slipped inside your mouth and you were more than glad to give up the fight for dominance. You lost your fingers in his wavy hair, eager for more. He lifted you up and threw you on the bed. His lips found their way to your cheek, left small kisses along your jawline, he bit your earlobe and you curled your toes at the feeling.

“I need you…” he whispered in a husky voice. “I need you all around my cock, begging me to let you come…” He kissed your neck and licked a mark he left there a few days earlier. You were already wet for him, your fingers tried to clumsily untie his armour. “To feel your taste spilled on my tongue.” He reached for the ribbons tying your corset. “To have you whole.”

Your clothes were gone, his needy lips were stealing kisses from you, his hand parted your legs. He lowered himself and kissed your inner thighs, one of his hands travelled up to your breast and pinched your nipple, making you squirm.

“Shush, love, you need to be quiet.” He bit your skin. “Remember, no one knows I’m here.”

You only managed to nod and suddenly his tongue was licking a stripe through your folds. You had to bit your lip not to moan, he caressed your clit, his finger was inside of you. Oh, how you missed that. He was watching you closely, groaned and lifted himself up.

“I can’t do it…” He kissed you sloppily. “I have to have you.”

You wrapped your arms and legs around him and brought him much, much closer.

“Then come and get me.”

With one swift move he was inside of you, shushing your moans with his lips. His pace was torture at first, slow and delicate, but with each thrust was quicker, harder and deeper. It was all you could wish for – to have him buried deep inside, to claim you his, take what you both deserved.

He lifted your leg higher to reach a better angle and this time he had to cover your lips with his hand to mutter your moan. His face was hidden in the crook of your neck, he was inhaling your scent, a scent of home, safety and love.

Your walls clenched around him tighter when you were just two steps away from sweet ecstasy, he fastened his pace and pumped you fiercely into the mattress. Spasms of pleasure took over your body, hand on your lips squeezed your face harder when he reached his top as well, you could swear you saw stars and lightning when he came, spilling his seed inside of you, that addicting warmth adding more to your orgasm.

He was still inside when his thumb caressed your lower lip and he kissed you gently.

“There is one more thing you need to know…” He gasped.

“What is it?” You kissed his neck, ready for more, and more, and for everything he could give you that night.

“I enchanted Odin and locked him in a retirement home. And I am shapeshifting into him, so basically everyone thinks I am Odin.”

“You what?!”

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[fallingin-like]

november 26

a two-man team by @idnis​ [requested by @foxsoulcourt​ and @sig66​]

see which other fics i’m reviewing this month! / my review request post!

this super cute fic features nicky who is doing his best to raise a kid while simultaneously falling for said kid’s teacher, erik mountain man klose. as one might imagine, this is hilarious and so fun to read

this is such a funny, wonderful, and adorable fic, it was really entertaining to see how nicky reacted to things and all his rambling. erik was such a star, i’m so happy that they were able to meet. i always love your unique writing style, and this time was no different!

parts i enjoyed:

”everyone who knew him two years ago knew there was a dark, dark year where nicky wore the same sweatpants for weeks on end until allison quite literally cut them to pieces while they were still on his body” ohmygoodness, this is so funny! i would have loved to see this, i bet allison was chasing after nicky who was running away yelling ‘but they’re comfortable!!’ and cutting off whatever chunk of sweatpant was closest to her

”they feel almost sacred, these few minutes in the morning where everything is completely silent” yes! i totally understand this

”sometimes nicky pretends he’s living alone, that he’s just like any other 25 year old, but he always feels guilty after” this is kind of heartbreaking. nicky has such a big heart and is a natural caretaker, but i think that he’s so used to this mindset of taking care of other people that he forgets he has to first take care of himself. he’s sacrificed a lot for the people that he loves and i wish he was able to see that he’s doing so much good and it’s okay if he misses the life he could have had. he really didn’t have much time to be a young adult

THE PINEAPPLE SOCKS! that’s so cute!!

the little socks emoji!!!!! such a great detail that you included

ohmygoodness erik and his mountain climbing haha

”hugo merely puts another potato wedge in his mouth” for some reason i really liked this sentence

”it’s like walking through a hobbit village” this is true haha so many tiny things

hhhHH margaret is the worst, like “nicky would like to fake-gently slap her”? well i want to aggressively slap her. people are so rude!! soooo annoying i can’t express it through words

”before nicky can shover her into the cute little coat racks” i love this! haha something about the contrast between nicky trying to skewer someone and the little kids things is really funny to me

ERIK LOOKS CLIMBABLE NICKYYYY

”nicky swears he can hear joyous goats bleating in the background” LOL this is so funny what in the world

ALL THE MOMS SUDDENLY DROPPING OF THEIR KIDS WHILE WEARING A RIDICULOUS AMOUNT OF MAKEUP (probably) JUST TO SEE MOUNTAIN MAN?? yikes. and also, hilarious!

nooooooo hugo thinking nicky forgot him?? how dare you!

i love that even though nicky is really interested in erik and wants to hang out with him, he prioritizes hugo and gets him out of that overwhelming environment. he’s so thoughtful

”in a way, because this isn’t normally where he finds attractive men, and he usually doesn’t share his crush with 20 middle-aged mothers” this is funny, but also? i don’t know how i feel about all these middle-aged women flirting with this teacher. (just kidding. i know how i feel. and that is bad. it’s kind of creepy of these moms to act like that…..)

it’s neil! and andrew! i am so happy to see that in this au, even after they’ve all grown up, they’re still close to nicky and are there to help him

”’have you made a move on him?’ andrew asks without blinking” sometimes i forget that andrew’s version of flirting is very… blunt haha

”nicky laughs awkwardly while mr. erik just stares at him” IS ERIK ALSO JUST BLANKING BECAUSE HE LIKES NICKY

”but he gets interrupted by the human embodiment of an air horn, loud and full of compressed air” oh my goodness this is the perfect description of margaret haha

”mr. erik looks down at his shirt with what looks like regret” LOL

i think it’s cute that andrew and neil are there, not just to help with taking care of hugo, but to give advice to nicky and help him as he’s freaking out

”the words are sweet, sweet vindication, because mr. erik refused to call margaret by her name” YES! take that, margaret

THE PICTURE HUGO DREW OF HIS FAMILY IS SO CUTE. the part to follow is not as cute, but it’s so great to read. we get to see a different side of nicky, where his concerns are and evidence of how much he’s trying. i love that he brought up the socks thing, it’s such a realistic thing to worry about, but also shows how good hugo is being taken care of

choosing what hugo should call nicky is such a tender moment!! so soft

”aside from a few prepackaged snacks that never see the light of day because nicky only reaches for them in the evening when hugo is already asleep” HAH

”’hugo,’ he says solemnly. ‘cancel all your plans tonight. we’re going to bake’” this is the most nicky thing ever!

oh my goodness, the bake sale. those moms probably spent all that time organizing their table instead of playing with their kids smh

”really? it does kinda look like it only took you half an hour” OH NICKY WHAT A BURN

THE COOKIE CART IS ADORABLE AND SO CREATIVE AND I LOVE IT

UHM MARGARET IS SO TERRIBLE AND AWFUL HOW DARE SHE SAY THAT ABOUT NICKY

bless erik, for being understanding and smart and for trusting that nicky is a good guy.

ohmygoodness erik touches nicky’s hair halsdkfsajf

PRIVATE BIOLOGY LESSONS? ERIK!!

”like it’s black friday and he’s a sephora store” YOUR SIMILES ARE AMAZING AND HILARIOUS

awww the updated family portrait is so cute!

”for a moment, nicky forgets he’s not an owl as he quickly spins his head around” LOLOL

”hugo pulls a face” big mood, hugo

woohoo!! allison has arrived to help nicky win his guy!!!!

ALLISON GOING IN TO SCOPE OUT ERIK WHY DO I FEEL LIKE THIS IS NOT GOING TO END WELL

”’which is what nicky, stupidly, says. ‘wow, you look gorgeous.’” NICKY NOOO WHY DID YOU DO THAT

”at that, hugo’s eyes turn big. ‘enchilada night?’” oh this is so precious

erik telling nicky not to cut himself off is wonderful!!! they’re such a good match, i think nicky really needs someone in his life that’s as supportive as erik. as supportive as the twinyards are, they’re more the silent type that shows affection through insults which is… not the type of support nicky needs

A TWO-MAN TEAM THANK YOU FOR MAKING THIS THE TITLE OF THE FIC EVERYTHING MAKES SENSE NOW

”if only that was possible, nicky thinks for a bleak, bitter moment, before he knows, knows, that that’s not true” NO NICKY IT IS POSSIBLE. EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE OKAY

i know this is just like a tiny detail, but ohmygoodness hugo’s pineapple lunchbox sounds really cute. is it shaped like a pineapple (i would want this) or does it just have pineapples on it?

nicky is such a good parent/older person! it’s so nice to hear him asking for ava’s opinion amongst the louder, more outgoing kids

”ava asks in a deep manly voice that isn’t her voice at all” I LOVE THIS SENTENCE LOLOL made me laugh so hard!

wait, who were the parents of hugo? i can’t bear to think that any of the foxes were killed in a car crash

THEY KISS… and yet, there is still miscommunication and everything is back to being terrible

ahh allison and nicky is such a great relationship that i have not seen enough. they have such compatible personalities!

ANOTHER PARENT-TEACHER NIGHT. WE STILL HAVE TIME TO FIX THINGS

”’you don’t need luck when you look like that,’ he says, which is a very much needed confidence boost that nearly makes nicky tear up again” bless andrew, for knowing what nicky needs

everything! is! cleared! up! thank goodness!!!

ohmygoodness of course it’s margaret that discovers them

enchilada time! ahh, love this domestic scene and this part “he said he liked erik first, so he didn’t mind that nicky liked him too” what a kid thing to say!

nicky deserves Good Things and i am glad that he has them in this fic

i really haven’t read any nerik fics before, but i really should if they’re all like this! i loved the seeing everything from nicky’s perspective, he’s so dramatic that it’s always really entertaining to see his side of things. it’s great to see him taking care of hugo, i bet it’s a bit more rewarding but potentially more exhausting than when he was parenting the twinyards, due to the age difference and personality type of hugo, which was more similar to nicky. i think you did an amazing job with the characterization of him, neil, andrew, and allison. i don’t know too much about erik from the books, but i love the way that you wrote him, so caring and sweet and exactly what nicky needs to balance out his self-consciousness and match his humour. this was super fun to read, i’m so glad everything wrapped up so nicely. thank you for writing this!

[twit-writes]

Aizawa/Shy Reader: Silent Love

Summary: Shy reader tries to tell Aizawa “I love you.” 

Twit’s Note: I was in the mood for fluff. This is partially inspired by the time I confessed to the guy I liked and my voice cracked smh. I was so nervous that my stomach started hurting and I got gassy. Yep.

P.S. to the lovely anon who requested a bad day Aizawa fic, I'm still working on it. I’m a slow writer, but thank you for your patience. :)

You bounced on your feet, trying to ease the nerves before your boyfriend arrived. You two planned to meet at the train station to go on a one-year anniversary date, but since Aizawa still had work the next day, it was going to be a day trip. You were too excited and came to the meeting spot early. In your haste, you forgot to bring a jacket so now you were standing in a train station with beach clothes. It was a one-piece swimsuit and you were wearing a skirt, but you still looked out of place with bright clothing in the dreary station. You averted your eyes when you caught another person curiously staring, rubbing your sweaty palms on the colorful skirt. You were shy and it got worse when you started dating Aizawa. Stuttering words. Sweaty hands. Queasy stomach. Prolonged silence. Avoiding eye contact with your own boyfriend. The usual.

People often teased you for still being nervous after dating for so long, but Aizawa would reassure you that he didn’t mind. Aizawa described you as a strange combination, sometimes shy, sometimes bold. You would unconsciously say the boldest things, making it Aizawa’s turn to turn red.

You felt the phone vibrate in your pocket, “Sorry, running late.” You let out a breathy laugh and smiled, texting him an okay sign. Just thinking about Aizawa helped calm you down a bit. He was a strange person too, making you calm and nervous.

Aizawa usually ran late or canceled on you last minute due to his job(s). But despite his chaotic schedule, Aizawa tried to find ways to spend time with you and it made you appreciate him even more. Sometimes when you got really jittery, he would treat you with special care, brushing your hand and talking about the simplest matters to calm you down.

There was one thing that bothered you: you never told him I love you.

You loved Aizawa. Of course you did.

But whenever you tried to express your feelings, you would get too shy and mumble off, averting your eyes to look at anything but Aizawa.

Aizawa said I love you first, thinking that you were asleep when he murmured those words. When you opened your eyes in shock, Aizawa blankly stared back and then tucked you into his arms, grumbling that you tricked him. A man of few words, Aizawa expressed his love in his own quiet way and so did you.

Covering him with a blanket while he stayed up grading papers.

Keeping a thermal mug by the open window whenever he had patrol.

Your favorite way to express your feelings was squeezing his hand three times as a signal for I love you. Aizawa never mentioned it because he probably thought you were squeezing his hands for reassurance. You had hoped these small gestures made Aizawa feel loved and cared for. But now you were ready. You finally felt confident enough to tell Aizawa you loved him.

You got startled when Aizawa called out to you in his deep baritone voice. You turned around and sighed in relief when he wrapped his arms around you, surrounding you in his warmth. Aizawa smiled at your adorable act and quickly kissed the top of your head. Aizawa frowned when he spotted someone eyeing you and glared at the person. You sensed the shift in his mood, curiously raising your head to look at him. Before you could open your mouth, Aizawa suddenly wrapped one of his scarfs around your neck and tugged you towards the train.

You watched as people began to fill the train. You were beginning to feel uncomfortable from the stuffy air and loud chatter, burrowing into the crook of Aizawa’s neck to hide. He kissed the top of your head as a quiet apology for the inconvenience (neither of you had a car) and held your hand for the entire train ride. You ended up falling asleep to the sound of his soft breathing.

The next thing you knew, you snorted in surprise when Aizawa nudged you awake, wiping the small trail of drool from your mouth. You whined and quickly covered your mouth to hide your embarrassment. Aizawa didn’t say anything, but the amusement in his eyes said otherwise.

Aizawa raised an eyebrow, holding out one of his capture weapons. You gave him a small nod in return and closed your eyes, allowing him to blindfold you for the surprise. He grabbed your hand and led you out of the train station. Despite Aizawa’s careful guidance, you nearly fell face first when you tripped over something. He muttered an apology under his breath, picking you up to carry you the rest of the way. You rested on Aizawa’s shoulder, gently tapping on his chest I love you I love you.

You heard the sound of splashing water as Aizawa waded through it. You yelped when he set you down, surprised by the cold water above your ankles. You felt Aizawa tug on the makeshift blindfold and your eyes widened at the scenery before you.

The sunset painted the sky shades of pink and red while the last rays of the sun gleamed on the ocean surface. The waves came towards you in a magnificent blue hue, forming white foam as it broke around your legs. But beyond the stunning horizon and the sea was something even more breathtaking.

Loose black tendrils fluttered around his face as the ocean breeze ruffled through it. Aizawa stared out to the horizon, face aglow from the setting sun. His lips bore the resemblance of a smile, enjoying the fresh air and steady rumbling of the sea. Aizawa slightly turned to face you as you stepped towards him.

“Do you like the view?” Aizawa drawled. You knew he wasn't talking about the ocean from his teasing tone and the smug grin on his face wasn't helping either. You felt your face heat up for being caught staring, but you didn't turn away this time. You were too distracted, completely mesmerized by your boyfriend. You always thought Aizawa was handsome, but right now he was more than that. He looked so relaxed as he stood in front of the sunset, casting an ethereal glow on him.

Aizawa suddenly cleared his throat and took your hand in his, trying to hide the fact that he was beginning to feel flustered from your unbashful staring. The sudden movement jolted you out of your entranced state, feeling the usual nervous butterflies coming back once you hit reality again.

This is the moment I've been waiting for! I have to tell him now!

“Aizawa!” you said louder than intended. You cut off Aizawa before he could reply, desperately wanting to get the words out before the nerves got the best of you, “I- er well there’s something I wanted to say - I you know-” you stammered out, clenching your eyes shut out of frustration.

Aizawa remained quiet but squeezed your hand in silent encouragement.

“I-I love you! I really do! I love you so much!” your voice cracked, slightly out of breath from the words that rushed out of your mouth.

You shot him a confused look when he started to chuckle. He looked on with a knowing smile and silently brought your hand to his lips. You continued to stare even as he took hold of your other hand. It was only when he steadily squeezed your hand three times that your eyes widened in surprise.

“I know. I’ve always known.”

You didn’t answer him, standing there with your mouth open in shock that your secret was exposed. Aizawa nonchalantly shrugged and pressed a firm kiss on your lips to break you out of your trance. You bit your lower lip as your eyes started to water, tightly holding his hand as he said, “I love you too.”

[dong-hyucks]

im alive!! sorry for going mia i forgot my tumblr password :( but congratulations on 1000 jade! you deserve it! for the prompt thing, daniel (Wanna One) 96 + soulmate au :)) - baby anon

Kang Daniel ; “I brought you an umbrella.” + Soulmate!AU

Prompts here.Masterlists

so, in this universe you have the first words you hear from your soulmate written on your wrist

but the universe hated you and gave you such a vague sentence

“thank you”

you grew to detest the words because it had lead to you being in many awkward situations

one time in middle school you thought you met your soulmate and asked the person out

you got rejected in front of everyone basically and he turned out to be your best friend’s soulmate

y i k e s

anyway

now you’re in college majoring in what you had been passionate in for the past few years

still soulmate-less

to be honest you didn’t have much hope in finding your soulmate

you didn’t really search for the person either

that’s practically how you went through most of your college years

studying, partying, et cetera. but never searching

your friends searched for your soulmate more than you did tbh

basically in your senior year you felt done with school (same lmao)

noticing how tired you were your friends invited you out

you agreed happily

not knowing they were still trying to find your soulmate for you

they brought you to a small cat cafe that had gone unnoticed by most

you thought it was nice because it was so close to your house

it was pretty empty but it was aesthetically pleasing inside

like there were cute cat decorations everywhere

not to mention the cats themselves

okay so

you and your friends kind of just sat at a table in the corner even tho no one else was there

the workers kind of didn’t see you until one of them went out to tend to the cats

“oh hi– i’m woojin, would you like to order anything?”

your friends being visibly disappointed when he started speaking

which caused woojin to mentally freak out bc he thought he said something bad

you had to reassure him that he didn’t because your friends were being sNAKES

basically you guys just ordered coffee and played with the cats while you waited

your friend took a sip of her coffee first and practically died

“thIs Is So GoOd???”

woojin laughed and said the owner’s son makes the coffee

he pointed over at a counter where you could see someone’s broad back

you didn’t really take notice

just played with the cats a lot, your drink kind of went cold

your favourite cats were peter and rooney (according to their collars)

when you and your friends were about to leave you made eye contact with the man behind the counter

you were kind of in awe

how?? can?? a?? person?? be?? so?? cute??

that was you

i mean same he has a cute bunny smile

anyway coincidence coincidence

you saw the same man in your morning class

apparently you had been classmates but never really noticed him because he sat on the other side of the class of you

you thought he was cute

saw him talking with his friends once, you’ve never heard a laugh so pUrE

so you brought your friends to the cafe like,, every weekend in hopes of seeing him

you thought he wasn’t your soulmate but hey a person can dream

your friends were determined to figure out if he was your soulmate

once they caught on to what you were doing they were the ones dragging you there

not just on the weekends but like everyday

the cafe’s workers weren’t complaining, more business for them

all was well except

the mystery man never came out from behind the counter

and he was always disappearing

like he was there one second

and then the next he’s gone?? he confused you

he was always asleep in class too so you couldn’t talk to him then

and when he wasn’t asleep he was already getting pulled out of class by his friends so that wasn’t an option

after like,,, two months of going to the cafe and making no progress

you kind of just gave up

your friends were disappointed but they didn’t say anything

so you guys just stopped going

and slowly you noticed the guy changing in class

like he’d be awake and alert unlike before

and he’d glance in your direction a lot

‘probably looking at someone else’ - you

this went on for another month

with you waving off his glances after catching him

him not really caring that he was caught

you still didn’t know his name smh

anyway

one day it kind of started raining when you were walking home

like not a lot so you didn’t bother covering yourself bc your house was pretty close to your college

on your way home you passed the cafe like always

this time you noticed someone crouching in the alley between the cafe and another building

lo and behold it was the mystery guy

what he was doing you had no clue

so you just kept walking

you noticed how the rain was getting heavier the closer you got to your house

you couldn’t help but feel worried

like ‘what if that guy gets sick staying in the rain’

you were a bit conflicted

‘he’s probably gone back inside, he’s not dumb’

‘then again i have seen him do some questionable things’

‘that doesn’t mean he’s stupid enough to stay out in the rain’

‘but what if’

you kept going back and forth with yourself until you realized how heavy the downpour had gotten

so you decided ‘screw it’ and grabbed an umbrella

you headed back to the cafe

shivering

when you reached the alley he was still there

and he had taken his jacket off and thrown it over a box

you refrained yourself from calling him an idiot out loud

instead you walked over and held the umbrella over his shaking form

he didn’t notice at first

but the lack of cold rain pelting at his increasingly numb skin got his attention after a few seconds

he looked up and almost jumped ten feet seeing you there

“i brought you an umbrella”

he looked shocked for a moment before smiling up at you

“thank you”

the whole soulmate thing wasn’t on your mind at the moment so you didn’t even bother checking what his wrist

“what are you doing out here anyway” you’d ask

without a word, he’d pull his jacket away from the box

revealing a litter of kittens

“my dad has a limit to how many cats we can have in the cafe, and we’ve already reached it so we can’t let these ones in”

he sounded so sad when he talked about it, a small frown on his face

“and my apartment doesn’t allow pets so there isn’t really anywhere for them to go”

his sadness eventually traveled to you

the kittens were looking up at you

you died a bit inside

“i can keep them” you offered

the guy looked up at you with complete adoration like ‘wowow what an angel’

the way he was looking at you made you flustered

like can you not man thanks

he stood up, gently taking the umbrella from your hands and placing it over the box

he quickly ushered you inside, “before you take them, i owe you a coffee”

so you both entered the cafe through the back door

soaked (even you, despite only being exposed to the rain for like two seconds)

woojin and another worker (jihoon) were shocked to see you

they practically threw some towels in your faces and forced you to sit down in the kitchen

they left to make you guys something warm to drink leaving you alone with him

it was kind of awkward, the atmosphere was slightly tense

you glanced over at him, only for him to be staring at you

it was just like you were back in class

“i’m daniel, by the way” he said with a smile

“[Y/N]”

he said something that kind of sounded like ‘i know’ but you weren’t sure

it was quiet for a bit

but then daniel suddenly chuckled in amusement

“what??”

without a word, daniel gently took your wrist and put it next to his

to your surprise, he had ‘i brought you an umbrella’ written atop his skin

you looked up and he was staring at you with a grin

“nice to meet you, soulmate”

okay so you started dating soon after that

not right after, but once you’ve had a couple of dates

you found out the reason why he kept sleeping in class

to take care of the stray kittens

he admitted that once you stopped going to the cafe he started looking for you a lot more

which explained the stares in class

daniel would be such a cheesy boyfriend istg

we all saw how he was on happy together lmao

he’s always complimenting you

you could literally be wearing a food-stained shirt and sweatpants and he’d find you the most attractive being on earth tbh

he always gets kind of flustered whenever you compliment him tho

like he’ll start giggling and he’ll have this small smile on his face

i’m dying imagining that omg daniel let me be loyal to woojin

i wouldn’t be surprised if you had your first kiss pretty early on

it’d be really casual too

like you were helping out around the cafe on one of its few busy days

and at the end of the day you guys were really tired because you had to run around a bit

one of the cats got out twice whoops

basically after locking the cafe you’d sit down at the corner table and just lean against each other

the other workers would be in the back getting ready to leave

daniel would kind of just turn to you and kiss you right there

“thanks for helping today,” he’d mumble, still really close to your face

for the rest of the night he’d have this giddy grin on his face

after that kissing would come often

small kisses, pecks on the cheek, on the forehead, et cetera.

you guys wouldn’t fight a lot either

it was rare, but it happens in every relationship

he’d walk away first, not wanting to say anything to upset you further

but later on he’d find you and you guys would just cuddle on his or your couch (or your bed, it doesn’t really matter where) and spend the next hour or so apologizing even if it was a small fight

which would lead to you guys cuddling for the next few hours talking idly about anything

you’d move in together some time after college

“it’s easier to pay rent together”

such a domestic couple tbh

lounging around the living room on your days off not doing anything

just eating and cuddling while watching some crappy show on netflix

that’s how most of your mornings went honestly

oh yes

did i mention daniel took over the cafe

after his father retired daniel got to own it

you, of course, helped him

he literally

i shit you not

changed the cafe’s schedule just so he could cuddle more with you in the mornings

“daniel what–”

“it’s not like anyone comes to the cafe at eight in the morning anyway”

also

wear his clothes

just do it

he will attack you with hugs and kisses e v e r y t i m e

because he feels so fluffy inside whenever you wear his hoodies or his shirts or anything really

let’s go back to the cheesy boyfriend bit

“i could come here with you forever”

“daniel we literally work here what are you talking about”

he’d literally close the cafe sometimes just so you could have mini dates inside with the cats

like no daniel stop that’s not good

but anyway

he’s fluffy

he teases you about you coming to the cafe every day just to see him

and you tease him for all the stupid things he does during the day tbh

overall you’d have a very cute relationship with daniel

💜💜💜

[kimchichigay]

first love with jaemin

dO YOU HEAR ME SCREAMING BEING NA JAEMIN’S FIRST LOVE AND HIM BEING YOURS MY HEArT alright before we start this is my first time making something like this so pls be patient with me

• ok this twerp would definitely be the kind to slyly drop a lot of subtle but not so subtle hints that he likes you before y'all started dating

• hints as in I’m talking about lOTS OF SKINSHIP AND BEING SUPER CLOSE AND INTIMATE WITH ONE ANOTHER BUT IM NOT TALKING ABOUT THAT KIND OF INTIMACY dONT GET YOUR PANTIES IN A TWIST YA NASTY

• like for example he’ll tuck your hair to the back of your ears like its nothing and then flashing you his million dollar smile

• or him telling you some cringey pick up line that is worth punching his beautiful face for poor chenle nearly threw up his lunch when he overheard you both

• BUT WHEN HE FINALLY THINKS ITS ABOUT TIME TO CONFESS HIS FEELINGS PROPERLY HE’LL BE THE CLUMSIEST LIL SHIT EVER

• HE BE TRIPPING OVER HIS OWN FEET AS HE MAKES HIS WAY TO YOU OR EVEN FALLING FACE FLAT oN FHE GROUND POOR BABY

• HE STILL TRIES TO BE COOL THO

• donghyuck, jeno and chenle makes sure to film everything down and probably make a meme out of his mishaps

• mark and renjun are probably just there for emotional support

• he’ll probably begin by wiping his sweaty (ew) palms on his trousers and nervously clearing his throat cORNY I KNOW

• you will most probably be like ??!??? at first but then you realise what was going on the second you saw the trash can moved behind jaemin. you knew this was bound to happen so you secretly kept it inside of you knowing too damn well jaemin will appreciate it if you pretend not to know anything for his sake

• this hopeless romantic smh

• “ok so y/n there’s this thing I’ve been trying to tell you all along. this may sound ridiculous but this takes so much courage from the bottom of my heart and the strength of jaehyun and yuta hyung’s fist to knock some senses into me. and if I don’t do this now johnny and ten hyung are going to call me a wimp and I have to buy them pizza later because I proved their point. I–”

• but who the hell said you were good @ keeping your mouth and excitement shut you can’t stand the tension anymore too either so lmaO

• “I like you too jaemin.”

• “pls do not interrupt me y/n”

• before he could say the three little words he’s been dying to say, he took a deep breath but stopped half way, opening his half lid eyes widely after his mind was able to process

• “wait what”

• “SHE SAID SHE LIKES YOU DUMBASS”

• “SHUT THE HELL UP DONGHYUCK”

• “can I come out now???” jisung’s head pops out of the bushes

• long story short jaemin was finally able to claim your heart that day and jisung got ant bites from hiding in the bushes for too long with the bouquet of flowers jaemin planned to give you after his confession

• the dream unit with the exception of jaemin also found their new source of entertainment from the video they got that day

• NOW DATING JAEMIN YES LETS GO ONTO THE DEETS

• NA JAEMIN IS DEFINITELY THE TYPE OF BOYFRIEND WHO WOULD SPOIL YOU WHENEVER

• he’ll get you small lil gifts of whatever reminds you of him

• that hair clip??? ITS CUTE BUY IT FOR Y/N that necklace?? A MUST BUY !! THAT LIMITED EDITION PIKACHU DOLL?? SCREW THAT VIDEO GAME WINWIN HYUNG WANTED HE CAN LIVE WITHOUT LIKE HE DID FOR THE PAST 19 YEARS

• he’d even turn up at your house at 2am with fried chicken if you text him at night saying you’re hungry GOALS YALL

• HES ALSO KIND OF LOWKEY LIKE YOUR 2ND MOM LMAO

• I call him dropping by your classroom during snack breaks/lunch breaks with food with him, knowing so damn well about your horrible habit of skipping on your meals

• he would force you to eat with him or at least take a few bites from the food he specially prepared/bought for you

• cOUGHS HE ONLY BOUGHT/PREPARED YOUR FAVOURITES COUGHS

• and didn’t he say he enjoys cooking in the dorm too?? imAGINE HIS HOME COOKED FOOD MADE WITH HIS LOVE

• I’m crying blood

• AND IF YOU REFUSE IM 999999% SURE HE’LL FEED YOU PERSONALLY

• “say ahh, y/n”

• “jaemin I said I’m not hungry”

• “stop lying through your food deprived mouth and eat!!!”

• “jAEMIN!!”

• “LISTEN IM NOT LEAVING UNTIL YOU FINISH THIS LUNCH BOX”

• JAEMIN WOULD ALSO BE KINDA PROTECTIVE BUT NOT CRAZY PROTECTIVE YKNOW

• HE’LL ALWAYS CHECK ON YOU IN BETWEEN TOILET BREAKS BY WALKING PASS YOUR CLASS AND TRYING TO CATCH A GLIMPSE OF YOU THROUGH THE WINDOW

• AND THE SMILE OH NY GSKDNDN THAT SHEEPISH SMILE HE’LL GIVE YOU WHEN YOU TELL HIM TO GO AWAY IN EMBARRASSMENT JSNNDKEBXOEKE

• but lbr it’s either that really cute BF material kind of smile he be giving you through the window or that weird derpy smile he always has when he’s being dumb

• either way you’re embarrassed by this goofball

• and to add on to your embarrassment, he knows that some of your classmates may be watching the two of you so he’d blow kisses/make kissy faces at you

• he just absolutely loves to see you blush because it’s just so cute to him and he loves cute things especially you you’re his favorite cute thing and he wants to keep you by his side forever

• FIRST KISS YES

• YOU CAN NOT FORGET ABOUT FIRST KISS

• AND yALL KISS ON YOUR FIRST DATE TOO OMG SO IMA INCORPORATE BOTH PLS BE PATIENT WITH ME YALL

• because jaemin has been receiving lessons from his hyungs on dating it isn’t surprising that he brought you to the movies on your first date not because it highly suggested by his hyungs…

• you both agreed to meet outside the movie theatre and he was there an hour early and boy was he nervous as heck

• the older members were also there for a little while to prep him up aw how supportive

• sO after giving him half an hour long of prep talk and re-styling his hair (for running through them anxiously mULTIPLE OF TIME) ITS FINALLY TIME

• YOU TURNED UP RIGHT ON TIME AND YOU SAW HIM STANDING THERE OUTSIDE DAZING OFF INTO THE DISTANT

• HE LOOKS SO GOOD JUST STANDING THERE AND YOURE LIKE ‘tF HO W IN THE WORLD DID I END UP WITH HIM BLESS’

• pls excuse me for a moment here oh my god na jaemin is seriously one of the most attractive 16 years olds I’ve ever seen f U CK CALMD DJOWN

• ok lets get back

• IT WAS THEN YOU START TO FEEL THAT WEIRD FEELING IN THE STOMACH LIKE YOURE ABOUT TO THROW UP FROM THE NERVOUSNESS AND ANXIETY BUILDING UP INSIDE YOU

• BUT YOU STILL APPROACHED HIM ANYWAYS FROM BEHIND AND WHEN YOU FINALLY REACH HIM YOU GAVE HIM A LITTLE TAP ON HIS SHOULDERS

• POOR BOY WAS SO STARTLED HE JUMPED A FEW FEET IN THE AIR jk I was just exaggerating

• bUT STILL

• AND WHEN HE TURNED AROUND HIS JAW JUST DROPS THE MOMENT HE LAID HIS EYES ON YOU MAKING YOU BLUSH AND SHIT AND YOU COULDNT LOOK AT HIM IN THE EYES GOD DAMNIT SHDBNDSKDN

• SEEING HOW SHY AND EMBARRASSED YOU ARE BY HIM AND HE JUST LOVES SEEING YOU LIKE THIS ,, YOU BET MY LAST $3 THAT HE’D TEASE THE HECK OUT OF YOU

• “aigoo, my beautiful girlfriend looks even more beautiful than usual tonight. did you dress up especially for me?”

• I want to kms

• you’d just smack his arm and walk away, trying to hide your face. “let’s go buy the tickets before the show starts, you twerp…”

• the smile on his face would just become wider and he’d catch up with you, naturally reaching out for your hand and intertwining them together

• where the fuck did that nervous dipshit go and where the fuck did he find such confidence to become such a cheesy little shit

• jaemin also bought popcorn and drinks for the both of you and being the cheesy lil shit insist y'all share the drink with two straws while giving the excuse “i wouldnt be able to finish mine if we bought two” 

 • “I can buy my share myself” 

 • “nonono it’s too late for that now the movie is about to start and the line for the snacks is now really long lets go babe you don’t wanna miss out the beginning of the movie”

 • he holds your hand and leads you both inside the theatre and to your seats • “what are we watching again” 

 • “the conjuring 2” 

 • TOTALLY NOT TEN AND JOHNNY’S SUGGESTION 

 • “hmm,, ok… wAIT WHAT” 

 • you stared at him wide eyed and jaemin suddenly looked remorseful and he regrets everything especially listening to his hyungs who probably learnt all their “techniques” and “moves” from watching too much corny chick flick and kdrama 

 • “sorry, I should’ve asked you. do you want to leave right now? I can get tickets to see another movie.” 

 • THIS BOY IS LEGIT READY TO GET UP AND GET YOU TICKETS TO WATCH ZOOTOPIA IN THE THEATRE NEXT DOOR 

 • HE WILL DO ANYTHING FOR YOU 

 • but your cheapskate ass just grabs him and pulled him back down in his seat but not letting go of his hand 

 • “its fine jaemin, ive seen the trailer and my friends say it’s pretty good. let’s enjoy this movie shall we? haha.”

• though your face say yes but heart say no, jaemin was reluctant but eventually decided to sit back down when the lights went off

• “but if the movie gets too scary and you dont feel like watching it anymore you can always tell me, ok y/n? we could have dinner early or something, i’ll bring you some place nice.”

• instead of watching in the beginning of the movie, jaemin was watching you the entire time with a stupid smile of his face despite worrying over the fact that you might be scarred for life

• eventually you caught him and you had to forcefully make him stare ahead at the big screen instead. at first he was pretending but soon enough he was immersed in it

• this dipshit istg

• when the climax of the movie came, you knew what was going to happen and you immediately grabbed jaemin’s hand while following your instincts and hid behind his shoulder

• he was caught off guard at first lmao since he was too immersed in the movie that he nearly forgot that hes on a date 

• after realising you had grabbed his hand and possibly squeeze it for as long as the climax part of the movie lasted, he blushed and tries to bite back a smile from forming on his face

• and when he turned to look at you, seeing that you’ve curled up in the seat, ears covered with your other hand and eyes squeezed shut, he was this close into melting into a puddle of goo because you looked so cute and squishy and he just wants to hold you 

• and he did 

• i am trying not to scream as i type this 

• he skillfully wrapped his arm around your shoulders and pulled you into his embrace, stroking your hair as he teases you “aigoo my big baby i told you we should’ve watched something else instead.”

• you both went on to watch the movie like that, you clinging onto him like your life depended on it and him enjoying every second of it and lowkey wishes the movie to be longer

• when the creepy music in the background began to play as the second climax arrive, you were already gripping onto jaemin’s arm. being the perfect boyfriend material he is, he covered your ears. (BASICALLY JUST LIKE THE WAY SUNGJAE DID TO JOYIN WGM WHILE THEY WERE WATCHING A MOVIE I MISS THEM SO MUCH)

• but as soon as it was over (after all that exorcism and shit and everything becomes brighter), you’ll just look up and blush in embarrassment cos jaemin was staring back at you with a smug look on his face tHIS LITTL E SHIT

• you also notice that there are red marks on his arm from where you were grabbing him so you gasped and began apologizing for nearly tearing his arm apart during the movie while gently stroking his arm while rambling on and on about how sorry you are and also complimenting how he’s practically hairless 

• apparently you were rambling on too much that he couldn’t take it??? not in a bad wAY BUT it wasn’t just your rambles that was driving him crazy 

• it was your moving lips

• yes LiPSSSS gIRL YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS

• YOU GUESSED IT

• he kissed you 

• to shut you up 

• and to also finally man up and kiss you like how he should’ve 3 weeks ago when you both started dating

• mmMm gotta get me a guy like jaemin A++

• you were too stunned to kiss him back so you just stared at him wide eyed when he pulled away

• “i-what-huh-wait, jaemin-what-” you poor confused child

• “how did you know peach was my favorite flavor.” he wipes the corner of his lips as he said that with a shit eating grin, causing you to turn crimson.

• “what are you kids still doing here? the movie is over; leave.” 

• whoops 

• so basically that was how jaemin found his confidence and that was just only the beginning of this cute relationship and he just adores the heck out of you and loves you to bits you guys are practially engaged in his head and he hopes that not only you’ll be his first love you’ll also be his last iTSNT THAT THE CUTEST THING EVER

• i am crying blooODdd i hope you guys enjoyed this like how i enjoyed torturing myself ㅠㅠ