#I feel barely awake as it is
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Don't know what I ate today but my nightmares be WILD tonight. I can hardly explain any of this but I am still scared of heights and falling apparently, and also hot things.
#I feel barely awake as it is#thought it'd be later in the nigjt but its only loke 12#everything is a weird mix of a nightmare and a comedy and somehow that makds perfect sense to me#but its all the more terrifying as the object upon which all the comedy is centred in the nightmare#no it's not a fesr of embarrassment its the fact tnat every inconvenient thing that could go wrong DOES go wrong#and uni students are as baffled as k sm tha I jjst fell nearly two stories#and then I wad chased by fucking THEARE kids in the middle of a cats performance#and tje children are lauginh at me arriving late to some thing because I am injured and missing joints appatently from the fall#like man#this isnt even the first fall or chase ip a strangely narrow ladder/staircase of the night#I'm having A Day#also taylor swift can fuck off why is that woman present in my nightmares#and also never let a law professor own a machine gun jet pack thing because wtf are those#and I am so glad work health and safety exists in waking life because oh boy#they would be my knights in shining armour in my dream rn
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I know Soren is probably just in his emo-era rn but just listen to my barely awake thoughts.
What if Sorens hair covering his eye, the one closest to Corvus, actually means something? Maybe he loses an eye or maybe he just doesn't think Corvus trusts him anymore.
But if he does lose an eye, I'm betting on it being Corvus. Not because they fight but because of Aaravos or even the Cosmic Coucil.
Corvus' chain is covered in blood and in front of Aaravos' name so maybe he does something to foil Aaravos' plan. He's observant and would notice something is wrong since he's a tracker and it's part of the job.
We also know that Soren still believes Claudia can be redeemed. Aaravos would probably learn this because Claudia tells him or he figures it out himself and uses it to his advantage. Soren comes to try and get Claudia to listen to him and does a quick spell to be able to see out of Sorens eye or something. Corvus would probably notice this, a spell like that would obviously have some form of change. So Corvus does the only thing he thinks will help and just takes out Sorens eye.
Ultimately foiling Aaravos' plan and probably making Soren feel like Corvus can no longer trust him because Soren was unable to see this himself.
#the dragon prince#soren#tdp soren#soren the dragon prince#corvus the dragon prince#tdp corvus#corvus#sorvus#soren x corvus#corvus x soren#im barely awake so ik this is probably nonsense#but imagine#i feel like the angst would go through the roof#but ik for a fact that this probably wont happen#but i need yall to imagine it with me#i just want soren to suffer ngl#i love him and i need him to go through hell and back
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Something something if Polites managed to survive then Eurylochus and Odysseus would not have had the opposite character arcs that they do by the end of Mutiny bc Polites would have balanced out the extremes something something.
#I am so tired I am barely making coherent sentences I think#future me feel free to revisit this when you’re awake and not just spitting out the words as they come into your brain#epic the musical
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IDK if I'm phrasing this correctly, but in my brain, Vasco is, like, the personification (caninification?) of an afternoon chilling on a back porch swing.
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#ah#that's adorable#I can totally imagine him doing that#answered#anonymous#Vasco#to me he usually conjures the feeling of being warmed by sunlight#winters in northern Finland where I'm from tend to be pretty rough at least for me they are#they last about six months or so#sun starts to set earlier and earlier until it gets dark before 2 pm#in december the sun barely rises at all it's like this brief moment of twilight at noon between two 22+ hour nights#it gets harder to wake up in the morning and your energy levels plummet you go into battery saving mode#polar night messes up your brain seasonal depression gets really bad#and the cold and dark goes on and on and you feel like you'll never feel warm or happy or properly awake again#but eventually it starts to veer towards spring and on one day you notice that the sun is shining??!?!#not like bleakly and weakly but proper sunlight with warm hue and capability to actually warm the things it touches#you've forgotten what it looks like when it's truly light outside#and it's the craziest feeling to see bright natural light it blinds you and pierces right through into your very core#being kissed by the sun for the first time in months feels unreal it feels SO GOOD#I don't know it's probably not that big of a deal for people around me#but I personally react to things like changes in temperature and the amount of daylight pretty massively#I like to think that Vasco is a first ray of sunlight hitting you after you've spent what feels like an eternity in someplace cold and dark
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four unrecoverable hours down the drain ....
★ song : "Gehenna" – Nightcord at 25:00 cover
#hey guys . barely awake spooky here#uhm#sorry about the freakout i had last night over not being able to upload this – i think the tiredness was getting to me ahaha#anywho#i think it's almost poetic how these two complete one another#tony refuses to speak about his past to anyone . in fear that the events of his past would transpire once more . and leaves –#– the plethora of issues he has unaddressed . trying [and mostly failing] to power through them himself#while sketchbook is trying so hard to help tony feel better but . in the process . also hiding his own feelings and troubles –#– for . if he shared them with tony . the clock would only spiral further with worry and guilt#isn't it nice how they both want to take care of one another . but end up destroying each other and –#– more importantly . themselves more in the process#i . for one . think it is#im crazy over this cover guys – not lying when i say it might be my favorite N25 cover of ever ahaha#dhmis#dhmis art#dhmis au#high voltage au#dhmis tony#tony the talking clock#dhmis hv tony#dhmis sketchbook#dhmis hv sketchbook#tw flashing images#cw flashing images#tw flashing lights#cw flashing lights#attempt number 4 to post these crossing my fingers hope it goes well
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what is there to resist anymore? i am everything. nothing is fixed. nothing is final. everything is imaginal. it’s all here. it’s all now. it’s all me. i am not just the body or this moment. this moment is happening inside me. i am inside me. there’s no without; it’s all within me. i attach myself to nothing. i am one with all my desires. i am reveling in them now. i am experiencing them now. i am in my DR. i am in all my DRs. i am all my DRs. how can i fear anything? how can i hold onto anything? it’s all me. it’s just all me.
#just chillin in a giant simulation of me. wild.#there’s no such thing as problems. everything just is.#idk im barely sleeping rn. i feel so *awake*
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I just want the real world to stop for a moment
#everywhere its getting so much worse#all of the shit happening in america is so fucking scary#and the eu has so often proven our politicians take america as a good example#everywhere is getting more and more right#it feels as if we're all screwed#as if we'll never turn this all around again#ai is allowing misinformation on an unprecedented level#social media algorithms have power even the creators can scarcely understand but sure use it for monetary gain#and money is for the most powerful who feel they have the most to lose and thus want us quiet as best as possible#and war can be so profitable#im so exhausted#there's enough shit going on in my private life how am i meant to deal with that when i lay awake at night wondering how i'd mercy kill my#beloved cats if war ever ends up coming here and my roommate and me would take care of our own pact#id rather die than live through war#but i want to live so badly#my dash is full of self harming minors posting ana inspo#and american politics#and palestinian fundraisers#and honestly ive been barely using tumblr lately but its frankly everywhere#everywhere you look its all just bleak
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Pony Steph is hungry. So, she has started to munch and bite on the comfy blanket. Nothing weird here.
Honestly that's so fair lmao.
#REGARDS: MOD 💜 💙#answered asks#ask response#i.am so sorry for this dryness i can't feel anything and my meds have completely zonked me. i am basically a walking corpse#this is not an exaggeration I'm barely keeping us awake im barely able to think so yah 👍#wooooo as needed anxiety meds plus other stuff makes life.sillyyyyyy#anyways yea! sorry to hou amd wveryone else
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Okay now that I've awakened and had some good (but late) sleep, I can finally share my thoughts on 29 verse (mostly (there's probably some stuff I forgot to add)).
Well firstly, I do like how this song was made with the 2nd gen groups in mind, as well as it basically being an opener to the third season (since the main verses are split between the two units). As much as I grew to love the new content in rap guerilla, you can really tell that the new groups were sort of stuck onto a song originally made for the 1st gen groups (even with buraikan honestly). However, with this song they're all very much integrated into the song (I mean that should be obvious but still thought to mention it). I also think this is the first alternate 'all units' song that features the new groups+buraikan. If the stageplay ever adapts rtl, I'd love to see this performed by the stage actors at some point (probably after the first half tho).
I'd say that my favourite verses overall (at least right now) are cozmez, AMPRULE and VISTY. VISTY's verse in particular I thought was a nice way to end the revengers section, especially Kantaro's part (I'll bring them up again later). Individually I'd say that Reo's and Shiki's verses are some of my favourites too. Reo's verse is literally so addictive and there's just something about the way that Shiki delivers his (more specifically this line at 3:26) that I'm obsessed with for some reason (Ryuu's verse is also starting to grow on me as I'm listening to this song on repeat while writing this).
Also as a bonus I'm glad that Anne has a better verse in an all units song that's not just "fuck the racist, I don't need no fake ass" (minus the songs from the stage adaptation).
As far as the group order goes, I'm pretty sure they were planning to alternate between the 1st and 2nd gen groups (using the order given for the revengers and avengers teams of course). However with the avengers team, I think they just decided to put BAE at the end right after they'd already swapped them around which put 1Nm8 at the start of the avengers section...which also brings me to my next point.
So as mentioned before VISTY ends the revengers section, but do you know who is right after? 1Nm8 and as we all know they'll be going against each other in battle of unity. But ALSO do you know who starts/ends said verses? Kei and Kantaro.
So in conclusion: THE QUEERS ARE FIGHTINGGGGGGG (and the battle hasn't even started yet)
#currently writing this as my brain is barely awake so let's see how this goes#I'm not sure if I articulated the last point well but I'll keep it as it is#i swear if i skipped over some words (not gonna read this over)#I've been writing this for like three hours#paradox live#paralive#bae#the cat's whiskers#tcw#cozmez#akanyatsura#akyr#buraikan#visty#amprule#1nm8#i can't be bothered to tag the individual members of certain groups mentioned here (at least right now) so I'll just tag the group#gokuluck is the only group that wasn't mentioned lol#I'm feeling sort of meh about it atm but I do like shion's verse#thoughts#rambles#kia's posts#kia's thoughts#paralive 5th anniversary
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Quite curious to why you thought that Ink's dads were a diservice to his character in the first place lmao
man I don't even knooooow???? (´;ω;`)
I think I was just really up my own ass and that 1) i forgot that my interpretation of ink isn't the popular one, and basically no one knew of him. and that 2) I forgot I didn't create him lol.......
I was like 'him having dads doesn't make sense cuz he's supposed to be lonely' and like. no man.... u didn't make him what do u mean 'supposed to'.......
probably also bcuz I was pretty salty that a selfcest ship (<- something that makes me MAD uncomfortable) was canon to my special interest, and coming across something that makes me mad when I'm just trying to enjoy my interest pissed me off (。ノω\。)
but honestly every other point I made was kinda stupid lmao..... like it was my first ever L........
#got into arguments with strangers over it. it was crazy.#I remember replying to each of them at like 4 am half awake barely knowing what I was typing.#but also like. it did rise an interesting point.#someone told me that ink's dads are actually important because they're the ones that made her love again.#and when I asked 'why the hell is he cured of his soullessness now???'#someone else told me that he didn't actually love them and apparently it was this super sad thing that he didn't love them back and...#it's SO exhausting. ink just CANNOT have a relationship with ANYBODY without the authors being like-#'but he can't love them!!!! isn't it sad that he can't love omg he can't feel love so angsty!!!!'#who CAAAAAARES if he doesn't love them back omg.... ink cares about those two old geezers enough to consider them his DADS.#but people just can't stop dragging around his 'condition' for cheap angst my gad.....#ink sans#🖍️#💌#it's kinda crazy that u never hear this 'he can't love them back' argument when he's being shipped with the new sans of the week 😗#but that's neither here nor there.....
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Chat, what if Soren dying was part of a spell to save him? Please, please, please hear me out or I will appear in your walls.
Kpp'Ar cared for both Soren and Claudia enough to want to make them a carousel, not only that but he also knew that Soren would like a banther he either found or made via magic. So clearly he cares enough for them to want to make them things and to learn what they like. So why would Kpp'Ar be willing to let one of them(Soren) die? Especially since he has the ability to change the outcome.
I know Kpp'Ar was planning on leaving Dark Magic behind for good but what if he decided to do one more spell just so he could save Soren. We know Kpp'Ar had an injury on his arm before he was coined, what if that injury has to do with this possible spell? And him telling Viren that a child must die isn't him being heartless but him trying to get Viren to stop so he could do the spell.
But first, Soren has to die. It's the only way for the spell to work. Soren dies and Kpp'Ar brings him back with newer, stronger lungs.
I know that when Viren was brought back, it wasn't permanent, a blood of child had to be given for him to live. But what if Kpp'Ar found a way, after all Kpp'Ar clearly knows something that both we and the characters don't. We know Kpp'Ar cares for Soren, why else would he bother learning what Soren likes? So why wouldn't he find a way to make the spell permanent?
Kpp'Ar didn't answer with "yes" to Virens question because he doesn't care. He answered with "yes" because Soren has to die for the spell to work. Kpp'Ar had a solution and he needed Viren to give up on solutions that weren't working. Kpp'Ar answered with "yes" because you do anything for family, no mater how vile and no matter how dangerous.
#the dragon prince#tdp#tdp kpp'ar#soren tdp#soren#tdp soren#soren the dragon prince#kpp'ar tdp#kpp'ar#kpp'ar the dragon prince#im barely awake once more#this is when the thoughts get good though#i really hope kpp'ar is freed next season#ik for a fact that this man thinks soren is dead and he feels so guilty about it#because he never told viren about the spell
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i can’t wait to get out of this damn car and watch the baking video on my tv 😭
#watching this morning was fine but i don’t feel like i paid enough attention cos i was barely awake 😭#2 hours to go 😭
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Stuck at my brothers' from today to Sunday and it's only been a few hours but I'm already miserable and stressed out
#molly vents#my dogs are driving me INSANE#one brother is at work and the other is asleep#the girlfriend of one of my brothers is here and awake but she won't help me out#I'm stuck doing nothing until either one brother wakes up or the other gets home#one of my dogs will not stop whining#its driving me insane im so close to having a breakdown#i barely slept and woke up feeling sick
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me rn
#slept for almost 2 hrs straight in school n still eepy#not even bubble tea made me more awake#just finished another rin fic to cope i might be going crazy A little#hhhhh nothing is gg right w my life lowkey#results so bad my teacher checked in w me and encouraged me#so unfair…. i worked so hard to receive tbe bare minimum but i guess thats just me.#always so medicore… never good at anything… hhhhh lowkey feel like giving up#wbats the plint… back to my hopeless era again but at least ill be here i guess#rlly i need a rin in my life to get me going again i wld tewrite all my essays consult n evegyhing for him#rin pls be real soon.#gonna do smth impulsive mahbes who knows#hhhh zzzzzzzz dreading everything just wanna cry n yhrow a hissy fit abt everything but j cant ever do that#never having any personal time … ill always be surrounded… wanna be alone but im too afraid of that too…#Anywahs back to rinmaxxing!#probably resting this weekend n posting again next week … :p
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hi my name is kit, ive been hyperfixated on detco for almost 3 years now and im here to make an insanely long intro post because i wanna post stuff and the other detco artists here are so cool and i dont see them on any other platform (for the most part)
Detective conan fans/the people ive adopted as my mutuals even tho theyre not ! (i follow them, they dont follow back, but i interact with the detco content they post so much that i might as well be that one guy in the corner watching the rest of the mutuals talk) HELLO- some of you have probs seen me in ur rbs/tags (depending on who sees this) , and i dont really ever post my Own things, but i do draw ! a lot ! ive done a lot of things and i want more fans to see bc everyone here is so cool 😭 this isnt an interest post more just a "hey whos out there thatll see what i post" kinda deal- ill attach some art under the cut but pretty much what im trying to say is,, (literally choose whatever speaks to ur heart)
these vary in recent-ness,, im in school and im left with very little time to draw, so some of these are from a month or two ago ;; but i only picked what i think still looks good ^^ some are quick doodles, others are unfinished, or even just drawings to test techniques (like the colored shinichi one)- and the second drawing isnt even detco LMAO
the 3rd and 7th doodles are from my project sekai au, thats an explanation for a different post,, and the last 2 are APTX!Heiji doodles !! the last ones part of a mini comic i made a bit back about him first waking up shrunk, which i can make a post with the whole thing later (maybe- it looks a little wonky)
but thats all for now ^^ sorry long first art post but i wanted to let this be sort of also me introducing my art and myself a bit,, and part of me is that i talk way to fuckin much LMFAO- detco is such a huge hyperfixation, and its so important to me and i just adore it so much- so i ramble and ramble and ramble on and on about it
im really excited to maybe meet some people and yeah ! happy scrolling ^^💚
#such a long read im so sorry#detco fans pls interact i beg#i honestly hope some of the artist i keep up with see this bc their stuff is always so good and id love to be mutuals with them#whats the word for “i want to be mutuals with you” in the same way someone with a crush is#i could go on and on but its barely 9am and ive been awake since 8 . im sick and have no clue why i woke up so early- so ill cut it here#feel free to ask au questions !! ill talk ur ear off but i love to talk about aus and hcs !!#or express interest in an au getting its own intro post (even tho ill most likely do that anyways) !! i love to talk about these idiots!!#detective conan#dcmk#detco#my art#shinichi kudo#hattori heiji#oh and the second drawing is a design of Yumi from The Group Chat i made for the song Bloody Daisies (stream it its so good)#<- idk if anyone would know of them since random youtuber fanart .. but if ur curious
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The amount of times I've had to choke back the L phrase when spending time with the man of my dreams is concerning. But I know he's not ready yet, so I keep the thoughts safe inside. Someday.
#i almost said it this morning when we were both barely awake#i left him 23 minutes ago and i already miss him so much im trying not to cry in the car#one day I'll feel like he's ready to hear it#and maybe he'll say it back🥺
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