#I doubt I'll be able to get through to her in any capacity though

[burningdreambanana]

how do you think the slave sultanas would be as dynasty sultanas? and vice-versa: how do you think the dynasty sultanas would perform as mothers of princes in the game of thrones™? i'm mainly concerned with Hürrem, Mahidevran, Nurbanu, Mihrimah, Hatice and Sah; but if any other is interesting enough include her, of course. sadly, i can't remember characters from mc: k who are other than Kösem and Dilruba.

Ouf that's a tough one, because honestly so much of their actions and characters are dependant on their status.

Ok I'll try :

Mihrimah : she's very naive, a mediocre schemer and definitely not as smart as she thinks she is. She knows Mustafa becoming sultan is a danger, then forgets she knows, supports Bayezid for the throne but somehow doesn't think what it would mean for Mustafa until very late, so she's quite delusional (though tbf I just think Mihrimah isn't a well-written character). Now a lot of it is based on her being spoiled, but considering what we got, I don't see her doing very well. I think she would believe in herself a bit too much and get crushed.

Hatice : considering her mental health issues and the fact that she isn't the brighest, I don't think she would do well either. That said, Hatice is a bit of a wild card, so she may experience some surprise victories, but I highly doubt she would be able to sustain them anyway.

Sah : she's actually intelligent, strategic and ambitious. I think she would want to be Valide Sultan above all, and I think she would do well, especially if she has the likes of Mihrimah and Hatice as rivals.

Nurbanu : She would be a proud and ambitious sultana, supporting her husband's career with all her might. That said, I don't think Nurbanu is naturally ruthless, so without a son/husband to protect against a certain death in case of failure, she would be more chill, though she would still scheme. She might step up her game if her husband becomes Grand Vizier and gets a target on his back.

Hurrem : Unless she got incredibly lucky, I think she would be quite unhappy in a forced marriage with some old pasha, and spend a lot of time doing charity work and consecrating herself to her children to compensate. I'm not sure whether Hurrem is naturally enclined to ambition tbh, I always got the impression that her desire to "rule the world" was very much rooted in revenge, so I actually don't think she would necessarily get involved in politics. I can see her getting involved in harem drama out of boredom tho.

Mahidevran : I think she would be very proud of her status and I can see her playing favorites with the princes. She would be supportive of her husband's career and want a good position for him too. I think she would accept the arranged marriage as "part of her responsbilities" but have some deep rooted frustrations about it. Much like in the show, I think she would be happier away from Topkapi and its toxicity, where she might get sucked in drama. She would generally be more chill I think

Bonus dynasty sultanas from MCK :

Dilruba : My girl would crush everyone, she's ruthless, determined and willing to do absolutely anything for the people she cares about. Also if Team Mustafa in MCK had listen to her radical ideals they would have won sorry not sorry

Atike : I've said before she's not good at the game of thrones, but I do think it's largely due to her being so sheltered. Thrown into a survival game as a young age with no one to look after her, I think she might prove herself a surprisingly fine player, as she shows a certain capacity to see through people and is quite determined when it comes to people she loves

Fahriye : my poor girl would be just as miserable

Humasah : I think she would give a fair fight, but ultimately she's not ruthless enough to make it.

Gevrehan : she has her level-headed moment, but ultimately proved herself very anguished. I don't she would make it

[mullermilkshake]

I'm back once again to ask about the fic that changed my life :D SOOO what iffff MC from the rose garden did know suguru was behind everything, what if suguru kind of acted like her guard dog but in command? She told him who to go for and who to kill, do you think he would've still loved her?

Hello!

It warms my twisted little heart right through to know you enjoyed the rose garden so much.

I never write more than one long fic in a certain world I conjure up but this really touched my soul in a way of a well scratched itch, I just have to keep writing it! It makes my brain so fuzzy when I think about it and I'm so happy to answer any asks you have because I never want to give this world up never ever 🥹

I think in any alternative universe, MC doesn't have the capacity to tame Suguru this way, she's far too kind to not do anything about it if she found out. THAT BEING SAID WE CAN WRITE IT HOWEVER WE WANT, AM I RIGHT??

So, if there was ever a time that MC did find out first hand that Suguru was a serial murderer and chose to stay with him, she would also either evade Satoru's questions or potentially mislead him altogether. AND I think out of all the people that have ever hurt her, she would chose Suguru's father, and I'll tell you why.

In the rose garden, we see just a little glimmer of what Suguru's father was like and we do see a little bit more of that in the next part of the series. He was awful to her, and we don't see much remorse from her perspective when they sit down and allow Suguru's mother to grieve for her husband's death.

MC was only supporting a 'grieving son' at the time, but she says that she was sort of relieved when he died.

SO if MC was to use Suguru in a way that directs his misdeeds, I really do fell like she'd want him gone, but in the same breath, I don't think she would be able to ask that of Suguru. Though we know what happened with Suguru and his dad anyway 🙃

I'm not totally sure who else she could 'command' him to kill unless we look at the line of events that happened in the fic. A few suspects could definitely be Toji and Ijichi, so I don't think anything would change very much to how it happened, especially looking at what happened at the publishing house. It was going to happen regardless (mwahahaha)

Then, there's Satoru. He's tricky because I feel like we wouldn't get a Suguru and Satoru showdown even though it would be as awesome as anything. And then there's the implications of how involved Satoru was, I don't think they'd get away with it.

As far as loving MC goes, in every alternative universe, Suguru would love her just as much as he does in the rose garden. I can't say too much because the next fic is ongoing, but I don't doubt for a second that if MC said horrible things right to his face and stomped all over his heart, he'd come right back like a puppy with his tongue hanging out.

Because she is his life, and his life is her.

(I do think they'd be one awesome murder couple though 😎)

Let me know what you think, I'd love to hear it! Thanks so much for the ask ❤️

[game-anglia-brief-ga-2024]

Games and Mental Health: Celeste

Celeste is a 2D precision-platformer game with a charming pixel art style and underlying story tying into mental health. Specifically, the game tells a story about trying to overcome a seemingly impossible obstacle, and fighting the inner doubts that come with it.

The player character, Madeline, is a young woman who wishes to climb Celeste Mountain, a giant and dangerous mountain with deadly challenges at every turn. Madeline is a natural climber, able to cling to and scale most surfaces. She also has a "dash" ability which allows her to propel herself a short distance in any direction. This dash ability is hinted at to originate from the mountain, which is said to be magical and harbouring many mysterious effects.

The underlying story of the game starts to come into play upon finding a strange mirror. After looking into this mirror, a dark reflection of madeline breaks out and dissapears. Shortly afterwards, Madeline finds this entity and has a conversation with them. They come off as incredibly pessimistic and try to talk Madeline out of scaling the mountain, before getting angry at her for continuing anyway, and then starting a chase sequence (with some FIRE music, might I add):

As the story unfolds, the underlying meaning becomes less and less subtle about what it's trying to say. It becomes clear that "Badeline" (as the fanbase calls this entity) is the result of Celeste mountain creating a physical personification of Madeline's inner doubts and fears.

On one of the later levels, there's a big buildup to the confrontation between Madeline and Badeline, in which Madeline attempts to dismiss Badeline, saying she doesn't need her anymore. However this INFURIATES Badeline, who then lashes out and sends Madeline flying back down the mountain, losing all her progress. This causes Madeline to almost give up, before she tries one more time to understand and get through to Badeline. This leads up to my favourite sequence in the game. It's essentially the previously shown chase sequence, however this time YOU (Madeline) chase Badeline through the level, whilst once again, some absolutely incredible music graces your ears:

This story about confronting ones inner doubts and fears, and treating that part of oneself with respect rather than trying to hide it away, and bringing oneself back from a hefty loss. Is a hugely inspirational message that resonates with many.

Celeste has a bit of a stereotype around being associated with the transgender community, due to the relatability of the game's story with many trans folk. In fact, one of the lead creators of Celeste came out as trans, the composer for the game's OST is trans, and it was later confirmed that the character Madeline is officially a transgender woman. So the correlation isn't misplaced in the slightest.

It's incredibly interesting to see how a message like the one Celeste conveys impacts different people of various walks of life. I think that, regardless of who you are or where you've come from, the message of Celeste is overall one that many can relate to in some capacity, and it teaches self-acceptance whilst providing an incredibly fun experience at the same time.

I think for a project of my own, I'd like to create a narrative that contains a similarly healthy and positive message. That isn't too specific or on the nose, and doesn't compromise gameplay. I'm not exactly the best storywriter though, so perhaps I'll leave that part to the professionals

[marshmallowprotection]

You know Kait, I sometimes think about how the words "I love you." Must be hard for SE Saeran.. It aches in my heart every time.

If Saeyoung would say it, I think Saeran wouldn't be able to part quickly from the past and getting remembered how it felt back then getting left behind.

And for a MC that tells him the words, I can't help thinking he'd deal with the doubt of them saying it in order to get or gain something from him... Although he knows, it's just because everyone who told him they love him either exploited or hurt him. So I could never ever blame him for the worries that come with that. If he even believes it in the first place...

Imagine someone tells you they love you from the heart and your first reaction would either be pain or doubt. I suppose that's one of the biggest reasons why I probably would never tell him about anything regarding romantic love either, considering he's having enough to feel and deal with already T_T

It's not easy for him. He has a hard time being vulnerable. If you put yourself in his shoes now, you can understand why that is tough to do. Everything was weaponized against him from the start. He was never allowed to show weakness in any capacity. He wasn't allowed to be a person. He was a tool.

If he so much as made a cry in the wrong way, his mother would beat him excessively, abandon him in the corner, and tie him up until she remembered to take it off. She needed him to get money from their father, and only using Saeyoung to get her things from the store as needed meant that she always had one twin to use if the other was killed. Saeran and Saeyoung understood on some level that she did that. Saeyoung more than Saeran for a while, though.

His fear of being himself only continued from that point when he was pulled into Mint Eye. That place beat every ounce of weakness out of him. Emotions came to be known as a weakness and showing any of them at any time meant that he was likely to be destroyed. Can you imagine that? If you showed anything that wasn't total obedience in the way that Rika wanted, you were screwed. He stopped showing all emotions except for rage and disdain for a long time.

Even as he's forced out of Mint Eye and into the bunker to come to terms with everything, he's tired... he's weary. He's worn out and he can't deal with emotions anymore. He suppressed them for so long that he isn't sure how to feel them and he's afraid to start. That's just a mess that he wants no part of. He hardly wants to exist as it is, why would he even think of showing emotions? What's the point?

He doesn't plan on doing very much.

He's not going to get rid of himself but he's not going to go out of his way to experience things. He has a limited amount of things that he can do due to circumstances and he makes the best of them.

He gets to have ice cream whenever he wants and can go outside every now and again. As long as he has those two things, he's dealing with his existence. It's different when he has MC in his life. It depends on who you are and what kind of dynamic you have with him…

Are you an assistant? Are you a former believer? Are you the MC in the apartment? Are you someone new he meets by chance? That's going to largely change the dynamic so it's hard to narrow down one specific thing if we don't know which one we're talking about. So, I'll just try to go for vague in terms of this specific thought.

So, say that you realize you like him after you spend so much time with him. What are you going to do about it? Are you going to tell him because you want to be able to spend time with him? Are you going to tell him because you want to be with him? What is your intention with this?

Have you considered that there's a possibility that he may not want to hear those words because he already knows what you feel?

When he's in a relationship, it's very much about touch and nonverbal communication. He manages to convey what he's feeling through the way he looks at you or the way that his hand brushes against yours.

If you are with him, you understand that so much of his emotion and desire are based around a very simple fact. He doesn't like to say certain things and he doesn't like labels. He doesn't want to be trapped in a box and he doesn't like the thought of anybody being forced to be with him and that way. Even if you like him and he knows that you do, there's always this sense of fear burning inside of his chest that says if he puts down a label, he might be… trapping you.

He doesn't want to do that to you.

You have better options. 

It's obvious that he's afraid of putting a label on things. He's afraid of saying the words out loud because every time he felt something in the past, it was used against him or ripped away. Do you know how much he's afraid of the possibility that somebody from his past could come to hurt you because you're close to him? How afraid he is of messing up one day and hurting you? There's so much that he's afraid of that he cannot verbalize. He doesn't have the strength or the capacity to verbalize those things because the trauma runs that deep. 

Here's the thing with him, he can know what you feel but it might be safer to not say it. The thing is that he knows how you feel. He can see it in your eyes. He knows what's going on with you because you're not the person who would lie to him time and time again. You're somebody that he trusts and you have gained that trust. He doesn't doubt you, per se. It's more so that he's afraid of the things that come with that truth. You might need to find a safer way of saying it, that is to say, showing it through your actions at first until he's okay with it.

Squeeze his hand, kiss his cheek, and do something subtle but sweet for the time being until he's ready.

You might not be able to call him your boyfriend for a long time or even say that you love him, but that doesn't take away from the relationship. He knows that you do and he hopes that he can show you that he feels the same way through his own means. He's just afraid of the big words and he'll learn how to be okay with them in due time. You just need to be patient with him. You just need to wait until he can say it first. Having a relationship with him is a matter of patience and understanding. It's not that you can't say anything, it's just that you need to find a way that works. 

[lilmissbacon]

Why Jelsa is Ridiculously Stupid

Let me start off by saying that the idea of this ship was cute at first, I have nothing against it. In fact I have a few ships myself that have nothing to back them up. I am not making this to convince people to be anti, stop the ship itself, or spread any form of hate what so ever.

But this Jelsa fandom has gone too far. And when I say "jelsa shippers," of course I don't mean ALL of them, just about 80% of them.

In fact, I'm very appreciative of the few jelsa shippers who don't go around harassing others because "jelsa is life."

Also, allow me to correct you in saying that I'm not a jelsa hater, I'm a jelsa loather. There's a difference. Most jelsa haters, hate jelsa for the sake of hating it.

I genuinely hate it.

And don't go commenting about, "how do you know you don't like it if you've never tried it?" Because you see, that's where you're wrong. I did used to ship it, when I was 11. I was a child, I was new to the internet, I didn't know better. But I do now!

I am writing this so that some who may not know, will now understand why jelsa is bad and because I need to get all of this out of my system. I am slowly dieing inside.

First; I'm gonna go into how all the excuses to ship this are pointless. Next, I'll talk about just how these two would never work out as a couple. Then, will be what the toxicity has done to not just to the ship itself, but to the big four as well. And finally, I'll go into how uncreative the shippers are and just what horrible/stupid things they've done and are still doing.

1) Excuses are Pointless

Excuse #1: They have the same powers.

...Yeah, that's like saying you ship Lavagirl (Sharboy and Lavagirl) and Bolin (LoK) because they can both control lava. That's not a valid reason to ship anyone. There needs to be actual substance and I'll only say that once because that sentence applies to every excuse here.

Excuse #2: They look alike

🤦🤦🤦 First of all: that's also like saying you ship Tiana (Princess and the Frog) and Frozone (The Incredibles) because they're both black. Second of all: no they don't. It may be because I'm an artist so I notice small details, but here's how it is; Jack's hair is white, Elsa's is platinum blonde. Jack has a square chin, Elsa has a round face. Jack is much paler! THEIR EYES AREN'T EVEN THE SAME SHADE OF BLUE!!! Your excuse is null and void. Even so, if characters do look alike, then they're most likely to be related. Especially in animation.

Excuse #3: Jack can teach Elsa to have fun and Elsa can teach Jack to be serious

This clearly proves the point that jelsa shippers don't know these characters. The job of teaching Elsa how to be social and have fun is already taken by Anna. So if anything, Elsa will see Jack as a younger brother. And Jack wouldn't have been chosen to take on such a responsibility of guardianship if he didn't know when to quit. I don't know what it is about playful characters that make people think they're obnoxious. Jack is an immortal teenager with the heart of a child, that's what makes him a good guardian. But he's been alive for over 300 years, he bound to have the mind capacity of an adult and he does know better. He doesn't play when he's in battle, he's dead serious.

Excuse #4: They understand each other because they were both isolated for a long time

I don't know where you come from but people don't really "bond" over their trauma. Infact, if anything, that would make the relationship more unstable. Plus, Elsa isolated herself for 13 years because she was afraid of her powers. Jack was forced into isolation for 300 years! He has never been afraid of his powers and Elsa could still be seen throughout the day by parents and servants. They would never be able understand what the other went through.

Excuse #5: They both have a sister they love

SO WHAT?! At least half of the population have sisters. Simple as that. It's a horrible excuse.

Excuse #6: They both have an enemy in fear

Bruh, almost every fictional character has to deal with their fears, literal or mental. It's not at all unique to these two.

Excuse #7: Jack can teach Elsa to control her powers

She already has control of them by the end of the movie. And even if you mean prier to that, the reason she couldn't control them was because she feared them. I doubt that even if she could see him and if he showed her his powers, she's be irrational, believing that their powers were different.

Excuse #8: William Joyce says he ships it

Really, you're going to base the possibility of a ship because the writer of the 'books' that "inspired" rotg says he likes it. First: the books and movie are not the same worlds. Two: he most likely stated this in order for jelsa shippers to shut up to him about it. And three: his own canon with the books is a mess as it is. With him adding a bunch on random/unnecessary details on twitter that have no relevance or reference in the books. Even if he does ship it, everything that's going on with Jack's character in the books is weird enough as it is. Plus he's physically 14 in the books. I know age doesn't really matter but Elsa would definitely feel weird about dating someone who looks so young when she's currently 24 by the second movie.

Excuse #9: They could've met before the events of rotg

Not a reason to ship them but whatever 🙄 Even if their stories were based in the same world (which it isn't), Elsa never would've believed in fairy tales. Having to grow up so soon and all. She believes in magic, of course, but you need to believe in the individuals themselves in order to see them. Plus it is very clear in rotg that Jamie is Jack's first believer.

Excuse #10: Now that Frozen 2 is out, they are both spirits who followed the memories of their loved ones. They can live forever together!

Once AGAIN, how does this factor to them being a good couple? Plus the title of spirit is different in the Frozen-verse than the Guardian-verse. Guardian-verse; they are un-aging beings who keep the entire world in balance. Frozen-verse; never confirmed to be immortal (especially since 3 out of 5 spirits are inanimate objects), magical things that keep a single forest secure. The only reason the elements needed a fifth spirit was most likely because the one before Elsa died of old age. Plus the idea of Elsa outliving Anna goes against the theme of sisterly love that both movies strive on. This can be changed in fanfiction but I hate how people lie about her mortality for an excuse to ship.

Excuse #11: They're both single

So what? People ship characters who aren't single with other characters all the time. That's not a reason to ship them. Especially since your statement is false because Tooth is Jack's canon love interest.

It is true that jelsa haters will give reasons to not ship that I necessarily don't agree with.

•Like the age gap — Jack has the mental capacity of an adult, as I've said before. He's smart enough to make his own choices.

•Elsa not being immortal — that doesn't mean they can't still date, even if he outlives her. Plus you can change that in fanfiction.

•They come from different studios and will never be canon — Again, this is fanfiction, we can do whatever we want.

•Elsa is independent and shipping her with someone takes her independence away — for one: most of the world is bound to find love at some point in time. I would imagine that Elsa would want to find love like her sister. Two: Mulan, Pocahontas and Jasmine are very independent and they all still ended up with men. Three: she's not that independent to begin with. Independence isn't relationship status, it's your ability to make it on your own and Elsa is clearly, very dependant on Anna and her safety. Which is actually what pushes her to being a bad sister in Frozen 2. In fact it is because they made her more 'independant' in the sequel that Elsa clearly, no longer loves Anna as much as Anna loves her (you can check out Watso Videos' video on YouTube about how Elsa is a bad sister bc I'm not gonna go into it here).

My god that was ALL just part one. This is gonna take forever 😰

2) How they would never work out

For Elsa, she needs someone who is calm and collected. A rock for her to stand on when she's being irrational. Possibly even someone who is very stoic and straight to the point but with enough sense of humor to lighten the mood. And now that I'm thinking about it, Honeymaren fits that description to a tee. I'm not one to push LGBT+ in anyone's face, but I'm not gonna judge ships on characters assumed sexualities either. Even though Honeymaren didn't have much screen time, her personality still showed through and Elsamaren could very well work.

Jack on the other hand needs someone who would be able to keep up with his playful nature as well as be a rock for him to stand on when he's emotional. Tooth is a good suitor even though I don't really ship it myself. Hiccup, Merida and Rapunzel could also fit in this description.

They don't have the ability to be each other's rocks. They can't be stable if they both need someone to keep them so. If they were to date, the relationship would crumble before it even began.

Plus Jack has to be a guardian and there are a lot of fanfics that go into this idea of Jack being the king of Arendalle? First off: I'm fairly certain that you can't marry into royalty to become king. At least in the real world. Second: Jack wouldn't be able to handle that responsibility with him already being a guardian. And he can't just leave guardianship either, it was what he always was and was ment to be. And Elsa has the responsibility of keeping a magical forest in check, she can't leave to become a guardian.

3) The Toxicity

Oh my God! The fanfiction! As I usually say, you can do whatever you want in fanfiction. But if you have to butcher all the characters so much in EVERY fanfic in order to make the ship work, then there's clearly something wrong here! In every fanfic I've ever seen, the characters are so out of character it's insane. Not just Jack and Elsa, every character.

Olaf for example, is practically in love with Jack first meeting, in every fanfic. If he were to actually meet Jack, he would be apprehensive of him.

It's horrifying in not only that, but jelsa shippers will add Rapunzel a lot, just in spite of Jackunzel. They turn Rapunzel into a needy ex-girlfriend of Jack's when in reality, she's a very sweet and kind soul. Even if she and Jack had dated, they would've split on good terms and stayed friends after. There have also been cases where they do the same but with Tooth. Sometimes even both and it's honestly sick.

And let's talk about the sexism as well HAHA! I swear to God, they will rewrite Frozen but where Jack will save Elsa instead of Anna. They write Elsa as a hormonal teenage girl who falls in love with Jack within seconds.

This is from an actual jelsa shipper, my dude. WTF!!! They make Jack super dominant as well as a douche who cheats on Elsa half the time. Jack is not that dominant, he's a very emotional guy. And he'd be the most faithful boyfriend on the planet. He was alone for 300 years! If anything, he'd be clingy but not too clingy because he also understands personal space.

And if you like angsty fanfiction where a character cheats on the other, there are literally no fanfics where Elsa cheats on Jack. As if a woman couldn't possibly cheat. This is very sexist towards men and women and is toxic as hell.

If anything, Elsa would cheat on Jack, she's not exactly trustworthy in keeping promises or being loyal.

I swear, half of the jelsa shippers has never even seen rotg and just go by what they read in others fanfiction.

Jelsa shippers have gotten so bad about this ship that they've low-key harassed people for not shipping it, as well as start shipping wars within the big four fandom. That's the reason the fandom truly shrunk after 2013. I've seen posts about people admitting to leaving the fandom because it got so bad.

4) The Shippers

Jelsa shippers have literally threatened lives, not just to other fans but even to the creators of the movies. Literally threatening them into making the ship canon. They've made patitions to make it canon as if that would work. They've even harassed a lot of recent shippers to Elsamaren because "jelsa is canon."

Oh look at that, they're homophobic too...

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... That's great 🙃

Isn't it a bigger sin to love a celestial being though? Therefore the fact that you –as a toxic christian– ship Elsa with a spirit it worse.

THEY'RE DELUSIONAL!!! So many of them have shipped jelsa so long that legit think it's canon!

Not only all that mess but there are literally more jelsa games on the internet then there are Merida games. I'm specifying this for personal reasons (aka Merida is my fave Disney princess)

And let's continue on with what really aggravates me as an artist. Jelsa shippers, stealing artwork, mostly from Jackunzel. This is not just a rumor, it's very much real.

And it doesn't help when all of their actual original fanart is just them taking scenes from Frozen and adding Jack. Then to add more salt on the wound is that almost all the fanfiction is the same, whether it'd be based during Frozen, rotg or in a highschool au.

There's literally nothing original about or going on with this ship, even after Frozen 2 came out, the shippers and fanfiction haven't changed. If anything it made the shippers spike up again.

The only thing that could say is original about jelsa is the frost daughter fanon. Oh boy! What we have to unpack here.

This is something that I recently heard about...

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I am mortified.

Frost daughters is this little thing that jelsa shippers came up with, believing Jack and Elsa (if they could get pregnant) would have nothing but girls. What's scary about it is they're designs. Like they're trying to be original... But it's not really going great.

Most of them are just young!Elsa copies, some are edits of Elsa with Jack's hair color.

For example:

This is fine, this follows genetrical rules. I'm fine with this.

But what has me low-key petrified are some of the other designs.

Like... WTF IS ALL OF THIS!!! Where are this colors coming from?!! I don't understand 😭 You can see in the screen shots that these are literally titled as daughters of jelsa.

The white haired ones are fine. The ginger is understandable. Got it from Elsa's dad's genes. That's okay. A few are wearing pink? They can wear what ever they want. But wtf I'd going on with Nevada? Why is she black? Jack and Elsa the pastiest of white! And you cannot tell me that she got it from Elsa's mom because this was made BEFORE Frozen 2 and her mother is still white as an adult.

Where tf does the blue and pink hair come from? None of these make sense!

I want to kill myself, just looking at these!

That's gonna be the end of this rant

Now I'll say it again, I really have nothing against the ship itself. I too have casual ships that make no sense. But with ALL the fanfiction and fanart being so unoriginal and most jelsa shippers low-key being dangerous, it's hard for me respect people's opinions about it.

I try, trust me, I do! But it's become so murky in my brain that I can't tell the difference anymore and I'm also just not a fan of Elsa's character in general. And I like ships that actually make sense.

And being that I'm an equalist... it's really hard for me to look at this stuff and not get pissed off. I'm sorry if all of this comes off as aggressive because it kinda is.

I'm just very passionate, okay?

I hope you understand where I'm coming from. None of the pictures I used are mine. And I hope you have a good day?

[counterpoise-calling]

My grandmother lies dying on the hospice bed in the living room of my aunts house. My dad sits and workson the couch he sleeps on, he does not know what to do. He is just here in the ways that he can be.

My aunt flits about the house like a wasp. She has felt unsupported for so long she has given up expecting help from her husband who quietly takes out the trash, quietly talks to her dying mother. He himself is being forced to remember his own mother's passing. And cannot comprehend how to sooth his wife's hurt.

My aunt may divorce this man once my grandma passes, or they may learn how to talk to each other while going through something horrifically difficult. I hope they try to find their own happiness a bit more.

My aunt believes in The Lord but my father does not. And both need support and need to be selfish and neither one of them has capacity for the other to be that way.

I sit. I watch. I talk to grandma and help get her to the bathroom. She has a week at most I gather.

I wonder what it's like to walk down the final steps in the journey of your life. To know what only lays ahead are pain meds hallucinations and being treated less and less like an adult and more and more like a belligerent child constantly being told to take a nap.

I don't know what to make of any of them to be honest. I dont think there is a right way to act at a time like this. But I know what I want. I want grandma to feel loved as she makes this transformation. As she changes and turns from her physical form.

I don't know of the afterlife or what path grandmother's soul will travel once the synapsis in her brain shut down. But I am happy to have sat down and designed an animal crossing cafe with her.

I'm happy to have helped her to the bathroom fed her her dinner and her pills. And talked about all the little nothings.

I know I'll be going home different again. I don't know when, just as I dont know how long my father and my aunt can exist without harming each other.

But I can help listen when things are hard and help walk with her while she is able, even if its only to the toilet.

I miss my lovely humans waiting for me at home and I miss my bed and clothes and the distant sound of the train in the evening. They will be there when I get back though, waiting with open arms, sloppy kisses and tears and the train will still be running.

But my grandmother won't be. So I stay because I want to ensure she knows beyond a doubt she's been loved.

And I want to comfort myself after with the knowledge that I got to sit here with her every lucid moment right up to the end of her current form.

And I hope when she does decide to go find the counterpoise to life, that she finds that she will continue to be loved long after she has changed.

I see the cracks forming as those around me start to shatter. I'm not made with any different material I just have been tempered by death in a different way I'll shatter too just not today.