#I don't want to go too far into pity-farming like 'oh I'm sorry for sucking I'm malnourished'

[equalperson]

so I impulsively entered an online secret santa earlier this month, because I wanted to maximize the amount of gifts I'd get (I already get a ton IRL) and knew that flattering both My gifter and giftee would almost definitely result in praise for Myself (or at least a quietly maintained reputation of kindness), but SURPRISE SURPRISE I've spent years on crip time and that didn't suddenly change. so I had until christmas to submit it and I JUST finished it on christmas eve.

but who cares. like I said, I don't care about being "productive" or "upstanding" or the like, so submitting work last minute isn't inherently a problem for Me (glances at the pile of months-old, willfully ignored schoolwork in My room).

the problem, however, is that I spent all of this time--thus building up the public expectation that it'd be great--and the final product basically looks like this:

[barnesandrogersfanfics]

Second Chances

Pairing: Steve Rogers x OC Amelia (Avengers AU)

Summary: Amelia Warren is heart broken when her boyfriend Steve Rogers decides to go back to the past to be with Peggy Carter. While intoxicated Amelia decides to go back in time to warn herself not to fall for Steve Rogers, at least she can stop an alternative version of herself from getting hurt!

But what happens when Amelia doesn't end up where she intended.... the world she's in completely different. This new world is in ruin and full of monsters with glowing eyes that only ever existed on TV and In books.

A/N - Sorry i suck at summaries!! Also ‘read more not working!’ If you would like to be tagged drop me an ask or message ❤️

Amelia stood looking at the empty platform where seconds before her boyfriend had been standing, smiling happily at her and his best friends Bucky and Sam.

Steve hadn't returned when Bruce hit the button, he had blown passed his time stamp. Bucky was the one who spotted him, an old Steve Rogers sitting on a bench overlooking the lake.

"Sweetheart, his asking to see you?" Sam said walking over to her carrying Steve's shield.

"No. I don't want to talk to him..... he left me for her didn't he? Went back to his precious Peggy?" Amelia said crying freely as she felt her heart break, she loved Steve with everything she had and he had just thrown her away for the woman he really loved.

"You should let him explain...."

"No! i wish id never met Steve Rogers!" She spat as she turned and ran to her car, she was soon speeding away not even glancing back at the man she loved.

"Give her some time, im sure she'll come around" Bucky had told Steve with a tight lipped smile, he didn't know Amelia that well but he already knew she wouldn't come around anytime soon!

It was quiet at the compound now with only Amelia, Bucky, Sam and Wanda left. Clint was back at his farm with his family and Thor had left with the Guardians.....It was easy to avoid people and mope around in self pity, Amelia had been drinking Tonys good Whisky for hours now without any interruptions.

Finally she had decided to head back to the room she had shared with Steve.....she was surprised when the door slid open and Bucky walked in, he leant again the door frame looking around at the boxes surrounding her.

"What you doing?"

"Packing Steve's shit, i don't want to have to look at it everyday. Feel free to take anything you might want"

"I know your mad...."

"Mad?? Mad doesn't even start to cover it Bucky. I wish i could go back and erase the moment i ever met Steve Rogers, or at least warn myself not to fall for his charm!"

"Come on doll you don't mean that" Bucky sighed dropping down on the sofa beside me.

"I do! I loved him so much.... and i thought he loved me too. God how stupid was i?! 8 years of my life wasted loving a man who just up and left me for a woman he liked a 100 years ago!!"

"I don't think it was a 100 years...."

"You get what i mean!" Amelia snapped giving Bucky a glare.

"Yeah i know, I'm sorry"

"Why are you not mad at him?? He left you too!"

"We've been through so much together.... i just want him to be happy"

"Your a good man Bucky Barnes"

"Im far from it....."

"You are. Maybe i should go back in time and tell myself to wait for you"

"Id be a lucky man doll" Bucky smiled over at her "i know we dont know each other that well but... Steve was an idiot leaving you behind" he put his arm around her shoulders and pulled her close pressing a kiss to her head.

Amelia was stood on the platform wearing one of the time travel suits, after Bucky had fallen asleep she decided that her idea of going back to before she met Steve was an amazing idea! She had got into Bruce's lab and grabbed a couple vile's of Pimm Particles and then headed out to the lake  where the platform was still set up.

Switching on the monitors and entering the date she wanted to go to, a date she knew she hadn't met Steve Rogers yet.

Amelia knew deep down she shouldn't be doing this but her whisky fuelled brain thought this was the best idea she'd ever had! And no one would know, she'd be back before anyone woke up and found her gone.

Amelia doubled over and emptied her stomach, time travelled sucked! When she looked around everything was different..... she was stood in an empty overgrown field.....This must have been what it looked liked before Tony had his home built here, something felt very off about this place.

She finally decided to head up to the road, she would start making her way back to the compound where she would find her younger self training for SHIELD and warn her about falling for the Captain and be home again in a flash. Only when she reached the road it was deserted, she walked for hours and saw nothing.

"What the hells going on..." she said out loud to herself as she stopped and looked around.... it was like something out of a movie... waking up to find out zombies had taken over and everyone was dead!

Oh my god what if its zombies!

A noise to her right caught her attention and she slowly made her way towards it through some bushes, when she stepped out there was an old gas station that looked like it had been closed for years.

Amelia carefully made her way over and peered into the window looking for any sign of someone living. There was movement inside, looked like a man from the build. She stood up deciding that she would go and ask the man for some help but as she stood she knocked over a metal bin! She looked up through the window just in time to see the man turn towards her.... staring at her with glowing orange eyes!!!

Amelia got to her feet and took off running! Where the fuck was she?? What kind of man had glowing orange eyes?!!!! She felt like she had been running for hours, but it hadnt been that long, turning back to see if the orange eyed man had followed she sighed with relief seeing she was alone again. Amelia knew she couldn't stick around here too long she had to carry on before he caught up again. As she turned to start running again she collided with a hard body and fell on her ass, looking up she saw those glowing Orange eyes again, the man looked at her like she was the most delicious thing he had ever seen and he wanted to devour her right here on the road!

He grabbed her by the arms and pulled her to her feet, he leant forward and buried his face into her neck taking a deep inhale and letting out a moan. Amelia grabbed hold of the man and flipped him easily getting ready to defend herself, she'd faced worse things than this before. He looked surprised that she was fighting back but was soon on her again, he wouldn't give up!

Suddenly he was forcefully pulled away from her, the sound of electricity and and a thump as he body fell to the floor beside her.

"You okay?" A woman asked walking towards her, Amelia's eyes went wide seeing the familiar woman.

"Its you..... how.... Nat?" Amelia said with tears in her eyes seeing the woman who looked like her best friend.... her best friend who had died getting the soul stone to defeat Thanos.

"Mia??...." Nat asked looking just as surprised to see her, she too had tears in her eyes "we thought you were dead!!"

Amelia was rushed by Nat and enveloped in her arms.

"Nat.... what the hell.... where did you go??" Came the all too familiar voice of Steve Rogers!!!

"Steve..... your never going to believe this....." Nat started to say, she pulled away and Amelia got a good glimpse of him. Steve looked more like he did when they were on the run, his hair was longer his beard full. He looked tired, they both did.

"Oh my god..... Mia??! is that really you??" He asked with wide eyes as he took a few steps closer.

"Steve....." She was cut off by his big arms wrapping around her pulling her close to him.

"Where have you been?? we thought you were dead!"

"Steve..... we need to talk" Amelia said pulling herself out of his hold, as good as it felt she was still pissed at Steve for leaving her!! Even if this wasnt her Steve!

"Sweetheart whats wrong? Its fine we're back together now"

"Im not YOUR Amelia"

"What?"

"Im not from here...."

"Did you hit your head? Your not making any sense...." Nat said looking confused.

"Im fine. Its kinda complicated....."

"Well we're listening...."