#I don't even know the names bc well. it's in russian. and they're part of a zombie game's cassette system so I was preoccupied
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veunho · 2 months ago
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Man, russian rock SLAPS
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luvfy0dor · 1 year ago
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Henlo
You know who it is, we all know, henlo
I feel like I’ve been here a lot recently
Just starting off with saying I loved the Dazai piece. It was really cute. Dad Dazai trying his best, made my heart melty
But I think you know why I’m here today
On this day
Honestly the day doesn’t entirely matter but I’m here on THIS one
With the dad Fyodor thought I promised
Cuz here I was thinking to myself. I feel like Fyodor definitely wants his child or children having some connection to Russian culture, since that’s a part of them too, regardless of their other parent’s nationality or background, he definitely wants his included. (Tho his partner could totally do the same)
So I was wondering, would you like a piece of him either teaching his children Russian or making Russian food for them? Or really sharing any Russian cultural thing with them at all. Honestly whatever one is easier for you to write or go into detail with, they’re all equally cute.
Cuz if his child or children develop a connection to that, I feel like that would make him a lot happier than maybe he would fully show.
I hope this ask sparks the creative brain juices in a fun way
Also considering sending a Halloween themed request at some point idk… oh but who knows!We’re here rn and having fun with this, that’s all we need at the moment
Also real glad you enjoy my messages lol. I will absolutely keep sending. Take as long as you need
-the person here attempting to give everyone baby fever because it’s funny
This blog’s Dad Fyodor anon
"da!" - Dad!Fyodor x GN!Reader ੈ✩‧₊˚
Warnings; Google translate Russian, not much reader involvement, very minimal proofreading happened
Description; Dad!Fyodor teaching his child about Russian culture! It incorporates ideas from the first dad!Fyodor part.
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A/n; YESYESYES I one hundred percent agree, I think about this on the regular OMG I hope I depicted this well bc my knowledge on Russia isn't all that extensive lol, if you have any corrections, do tell me!! : ) Also I'm gonna be so fr I had NO idea what to name this so we're rolling with da I guess.............
Headcannons !! ༊*·˚
★ He teaches his child/children classical Russian music when they're old enough to play more difficult pieces. Until then, he'll settle for twinkle twinkle little star.
★ Introduces his children to ballet.
★ His children have a variety of Russian-originating toys, such as Matryoshka/Russian nesting dolls, rocking horses etc.
★ Brings his children to Russia at least once, specifically to Moscow (irl Dostoevsky was raised in Moscow, so we're gonna assume BSD Dostoevsky was too) to experience the culture first hand.
★ Teaches his children the foundations of the Russian language. He would like them to fluently speak it one day, though.
★ Cooks Russian food for them like I mentioned and included in the first part.
★ They learn about Russian history from their father, anywhere from Peter the Great to fur trade and all that jazz
Scenario !! ˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥
(as always, p/t is parental title, d/n is daughters name)
Your head leaned against your fist while you watched your husband and daughter focus on their current activity. D/n carefully picked the colors and pigments she would use to color in the white spaces on her paper, and Fyodor just tried to keep things inside the lines. You could see the little girls tongue slightly sticking out from between her lips in concentration, making you smile.
Your daughter went to pick her next color, chosing a pink crayon to fill in the nose of the cat. "Papa, what'd you say your hat was called again? The one you always wear." She clarifies, even though there was really only one hat that Fyodor would wear at all. His eyes don't leave his thin paper as he replies, "A ushanka, and it's from Russia, malyshka." He answered, pushing some of his hair out of his face and behind his ear. "Russia." She says, the sound not unfamiliar, but not common to her either. "Where's that?" She tilts her head upwards, putting her crayon down to signify her attention on her papa. He puts his down too and rests his arms on top of one another.
"Quite far, but it is in both Asia and Europe. That's how big it is, it stretches over two continents." He says, a smile on his face. Her eyes widen a little. "That is really big. Have you been there before?" Her head tilts and she shifts a bit in her seat. "I grew up there, in the city of Moscow." He says, happy with her clear interest in his motherland.
"We should go there for a vacation one day!" She says, a grin on her face. He laughs a little bit and nods. "I agree, we definetly should." He agrees, fantasizing about it in his head. "Is that why you talk like that?" She questions her fathers accent, skittering around the table and climbing onto his lap. He smiles gently and nods. "Yes, it's called an accent, malyshka. I learned English, but Russian is my mother tongue. There are a lot of different pronunciations for certain sounds in Russian." He tells her, his hands fidgeting with the young girls hair. He parts it into three sections and starts to braid it.
"Is everything different there?" Fyodor hums, thinking as he weaves her hair into a gorgeous French braid. "Well, it definitely very different, but I don't think I would say everything." He says. "There are more historical differences than anything, if I do say so myself." She hums in understanding. "Papa, can you teach me some Russian?" She asks, turning her head to look at him with puppy dog eyes, even though she really didn't need them. He smiled and nodded.
"What should I teach you?" He softly questions, looking into the young girls eyes. She thinks for a moment, tapping her pointer finger on her chin. "I don't know! Whatever you want." She says, just excited to hear another language. He chuckles softly. "я не знаю, что тебе сказать" (I don't know what to tell you) he responds, a small grin on his face. Her eyes widen, almost as if she never believed he could speak a different language. You giggle a bit at her reaction.
"What does that mean?!" She excitedly asks, her mind seemingly blown over this. "It simply means I don't know what to tell you." He speaks. "But I can tell you the simple stuff. Like 'да' means yes and 'нет' means no. Hello is 'привет' and goodbye is 'до свидания'."
The young girl takes a mental note of these words. "привет, papa! I think I said that right." She says. You proudly watch the scene go down. Fyodor gives you a similarly prideful smile. "Yes, you did wonderful, malyshka." He praises her, patting her shoulder. "I'll have to teach you more one day." She nods vigorously, very obviously wanting him to. "Yes! And then we can have secret conversations, no one else will know what we're saying!" She snickers, making him smile.
A/n; I hope this is alright!! I loved this request a whole lot. Oh, also, feel free to send in that Halloween request even though it's November now lol
"Oh, ofcourse. That will probably be rather far in the future, though." He says, removing her from his lap and gently patting her back. "That's okay. If I learn more I'll know more words." She states the obvious. "And I'm gonna learn from the best russian ever." She beams, making Fyodor grin. "That's right, sweetheart."
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helloalycia · 2 years ago
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first friend [one] // yelena belova
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summary: you didn't expect to befriend an Avenger's sister, and yet you can't seem to imagine a life where she isn't in it.
warning/s: mentions of cheating.
author's note: it's been so long since i've updated this story and that's because i've been working on my own original fiction story, whilst also writing bits for this in between. here's a yelena imagine to make up for it! it's two parts so here is part one :)
some things to note: the snap didn't happen, thanos isn't a thing and natasha didn't die bc i said so lol
part two / masterlist / wattpad
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YOUR POV
Befriending Yelena Belova, a Black Widow assassin and the Black Widow's little sister wasn't something I expected to happen. Aside from the fact that I didn't even know she existed until recently, I didn't think we'd hit it off. And yet, when I was filing some mission reports out in the Avengers Compound, I found myself having to call back a Miss Yelena Belova because she hadn't filled out her report correctly.
She earned my attention by knocking her knuckle on the desk next to mine, making me look up.
"You're Y/N Y/L/N?" she asked with a questioning look.
I nodded, returning her look with a confused one. "I am... and you are?"
"Yelena Belova," she answered, and I noticed her thick Russian accent, as if her name hadn't given it away already. "I was told to see you? Something about a report?"
"Oh, yes! Yes, thank you for coming," I said with a smile, before spinning around in my seat to face her fully. "It shouldn't take long. It's about your latest mission reports you've been sending in. They're missing a few important details, so I though I could show you how to fix it and then you won't have to keep coming back here."
"They're wrong?" she asked, lifting a brow.
"Just a few mistakes," I assured her before going to pull my laptop from my drawer to set up for her. She mumbled something to herself in Russian and though I wasn't sure what, I knew she sounded disappointed, so I added, "It gets easier once you're used to it, don't worry. You're new right?"
She hummed halfheartedly, more intrigued with the reports I was pulling up on the laptop. I motioned to the seat beside me and she moved from her hovering position to sit there, eyes still glued to the laptop.
"Let's see... here we are," I said, getting everything up on the screen before pushing the laptop between us so she could see it better. "Just some wrong codes which makes it harder to file correctly. You've been a little vague with some of the descriptions, and most importantly, you didn't get it signed off."
She frowned slightly and I tried to make her feel better since I knew what it was like to be new and not completely understand the system.
"I'll show you how to fix it," I told her with a reassuring smile, before taking another look at one of her reports. "Hey, this is quite the first mission, Agent Belova. High profile, working directly with the Black Widow – that's huge! Congrats!"
She winced, shaking her head quickly so that her fringe shook with her. "No, no, no. It's not Agent. Just Yelena."
"Oh. Sorry, Yelena."
"And you don't need to congratulate me. She's my sister," she continued with nonchalance, making me snort with a stifled laugh.
"Yeah, and the Hulk is my brother," I played along, before looking back to the screen to start from the top.
"She is," Yelena said with such conviction that I almost believed her. "Natasha Romanoff. My sister. She's a Black Widow. I'm a Widow, too."
I scoffed, waiting for her to tell me she was joking, but the longer she stared at me with expressionless eyes, the stupider I felt. She wasn't lying.
"You're serious," I realised, suddenly straightening up.
"Was I not serious looking? I thought I was pretty serious looking..."
"I didn't even know Agent Romanoff had a sister," I said with a mixture of amazement and surprise.
Yelena blinked, looked down at herself, then said, "Well, here I am."
I tried to disguise my surprise, but it was very obvious. After all, it wasn't everyday you met one of the Avengers' siblings.
"Right, yeah," I babbled, not sure how else to respond. "Er, sorry. Anyway... the report. It still needs to be amended."
She sighed impatiently and motioned for me to continue, so I went through one of them with her, thoroughly explaining the process in which to fill it in. After she was certain she understood, I left her to fill in the second report on her own whilst I got back to my PC to continue some work. Every now and then I'd glance at her to see if she was okay, and she'd have this very entertaining pout on her lips as she made some corrections. For somebody who was a trained assassin, she wasn't very intimidating. It was cute.
"What?" she asked, and I blinked when I realised she'd caught me staring.
Hoping she couldn't sense the heat rising in my cheeks, I shook my head. "Sorry, nothing."
She quirked a brow, hazel eyes lingering on mine momentarily before going back to her screen.
After about ten minutes, she let out a sigh of relief and pushed the laptop towards me, earning my attention.
"It is done," she said tiredly. "I think, anyway."
I smiled at her before checking it over, relieved when I'd seen she'd done it right. She'd saved me a job in the long run.
"It's looking good, Yelena, thank you," I told her. "You're alright to go now."
"Great." She slapped her hands on her thighs before standing up, letting out a dramatic breath.
"Nice meeting you," I said with a nod as she tucked the chair in, ready to leave. "Though hopefully not again if you get this right from now on."
At my poor attempt at a joke, she surprisingly cracked a smile. "Nice meeting you, too, Y/N. Thanks for the help."
"Anytime. S'what I'm here for."
And that was what I thought would be the first and last time I'd meet Yelena. You know, a nice little story to share at parties of how I met an Avengers' sister. But it was barely half a month later when she returned. Funnily enough, it was for the same reason – she was using the wrong code, making my job harder.
When I called her to my floor, I saw her first this time. I'd seen her around a few times since the last, though it was only in passing around the building. She definitely wouldn't have remembered me, but I'd heard enough about her to know who she was. Her eyes roamed the room before she caught my gaze and I waved her over with a friendly smile.
"Hey, Yelena," I said when she stopped before me. "You probably don't remember me, but I'm–"
"Y/N Y/L/N, right?" she asked, to my surprise.
"Yeah...," I said, before adding, "Sorry for calling you down again. It's just– you really need to get this right before I file it away and it's a bad habit to develop."
She pouted a little, nodding. "Right. Sorry."
"It's all good," I assured her, leading her over to the laptop already set up at my desk. "We can go through it again if it'll help."
She nodded and I sat with her for a bit, explaining what the different codes meant and how to differentiate for the sake of the filing system. She seemed to understand after a bit, so I left her to it as I returned to my computer beside her to do some work. It was quiet for a few minutes, as she correctly filed her latest reports, before she spoke up.
"You have a lot of... things," she noticed aloud, and when I glanced her way, she was touching one of the toys on my desk – a solar-powered dancing giraffe.
I smiled with amusement. "Yeah... I get tired of staring at a screen all the time, so it's nice to have stuff to play with."
She reached over for another one of the toys lining my desk – a Scooby Doo plushie – and held it up, quirking a brow. "This?"
Putting on my best Shaggy voice, I said with a grin, "That's Scoob."
She seemed mildly taken aback by my voice and blinked, making me realise she had no idea what I was doing.
"Scooby Doo?" I prompted, my face heating up with embarrassment, before taking the plushie from her and setting it back down to distract myself and not think about the funny look she was giving me. "My sister got it me as a present for my desk. I don't even like Scooby Doo that much, but it's cute..."
"I have no idea what a Scooby Doo is," she said, shaking her head.
I raised my brows, surprised. "No." Judging from her expression, she was serious, leading me to continue attempting to prompt some sort of memory of the famous cartoon. "Scooby Doo? Mystery Inc.? Shaggy? Velma? Daphne? Fred?"
"It's almost like I've been under mind control for the past decade and not had chance to watch any TV in my free time," she deadpanned, and my insides shrivelled up there and then.
Since Yelena had started working with her sister, storied had travelled through the grapevine about how she'd been under mind control and was freed, only for her to spend a lot of her time doing the same for the women in the Black Widow programme around the world, freeing them, too. It was honourable work, but easy to forget when it wasn't something that affected you directly.
"Oh, erm," I started, mouth going dry the longer she stared through my soul (or at least it felt that way), "sorry. I didn't mean to– oh God– I–"
"Kidding," she interrupted, her intimidating expression easing into a smile. She tilted her head, amused. "Kind of. I mean, that's definitely what happened, but no biggie."
I began to laugh awkwardly, swallowing the lump in my throat. "Right, yeah..."
"You're not mad, right?" she asked, in reference to her playing me.
So, I took my revenge, naturally. "Well, it was kind of shitty to make this whole thing awkward," I answered with a fake frown.
Her smile faded instantly when she realised I was offended, so I shot her a smile of my own, tilting my head.
"Kidding."
Upon realising I, too, was pulling her leg, she exhaled softly and rolled her eyes, but a playful smile was tugging at her lips.
"Anyway," I returned to the subject at hand, looking back to the plushie, "it's cool. Scooby Doo. Worth the watch, if you find the chance."
She hummed in response, but I wasn't sure if she was actually considering it or just making conversation.
Soon enough, we returned to our work before she finished up and filed everything correctly this time.
"Awesome, looks like you're all done here," I told her, the both of us standing up. "Was nice seeing you again, Yelena. Hopefully for the last time. I'm sure you're getting sick of being called down here."
She cracked a smile, hazel eyes looking green as they met mine. "It was nice meeting you properly, Y/N Y/L/N."
I wondered why she kept addressing me by my full name but said nothing of it as I nodded to her. "You, too. See you later."
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Though Yelena and I had met twice because of work circumstances, we never became friends until afterwards. It wasn't long after that second encounter when I saw her again.
I was eating lunch with some colleagues in the café on one of the lower levels of the Compound when I recognised the blonde assassin approaching our table, to my surprise.
Immediately I lowered my sandwich and sent her a smile. "Yelena, hey!"
She was wearing workout clothes, though wasn't sweaty which made me think she was on her lunch break, too. "Hey, I saw you and thought I'd stop by to say hello."
This was surprising to hear, since the Avengers rarely ate anywhere but their designated floors, but I appreciated it nonetheless and answered, "Nice. Have you eaten? You can join us if you want."
I motioned to the table of my colleagues, who were all so deep into conversation that they weren't even paying Yelena and I any attention. To be fair, it was so busy in the café that I could only just about hear our conversation myself.
"Oh, no, I've just finished eating with my sister," she explained, pointing a thumb over her shoulder.
I followed the direction and saw none other than Natasha Romanoff sat at a table by the window, looking over at us with intrigue. Too intimidated by her presence, I immediately looked away, hoping nobody picked up on it. What can I say? It was an Avenger! Yes, I worked in the same building as them, but they were still superheroes. And Natasha was the scariest one in my opinion.
"Cool," I squeaked out, cursing inwardly at my failed attempt to remain cool before Yelena.
Maybe it was because we'd gotten to know each other a little so I wasn't as intimidated by her as I should have been, but I didn't find myself nervous around Yelena which was a relief. I had no doubts that she could murder me in several ways, just like her sister, if she wanted to, but it still didn't make a difference.
"So, I checked out that Scooby Doo show you mentioned," Yelena continued, further surprising me. "And apparently there's a film as well?"
I grinned at the mention of it. "Hell yeah! The film is the best. But it has to be the 2002 and 2004 ones."
"Yeah, well the show is great, and I get the whole Shaggy voice you were doing now," she said with a smile, and I felt myself cringing as I relived that moment all over again.
"That's good," I said awkwardly, scrunching my face up with embarrassment, and she definitely noticed but thankfully didn't tease me about it. "Anyway, you doing good? You must be since you've not been sent down to see me to fix your reports."
She snickered. "Yeah. Thanks for the help with that by the way."
I shrugged. "It's the job."
She hummed, appearing awkward momentarily, before taking a step back. "I should leave you to it anyway. Just wanted to say hello. Hope I didn't interrupt."
"No worries, you didn't!" I said reassuringly, realising she may have wanted to talk some more. To be honest, I kind of wanted to, too. She was easy to talk to. "Hey, er, before you go, did you want to go out for a coffee or something sometime? I know you're new to the city, so maybe you wanna hang out?"
In this moment, it wasn't like I was talking to an Avenger's sister or an infamous Black Widow. It was just me wanting to get to know Yelena Belova a little better. She was new, we got on, so why not? Only when she took a second longer to answer did I realise that I may have overstepped. But thankfully, any worries I had were squashed when she smiled gently.
"Yeah, I would like that," she said with a nod.
I returned her smile. "Cool. Hold on. I'll grab your number from you, let me just get my phone..."
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THIRD PERSON POV
After exchanging phone numbers with Y/N, the two girls bid their goodbyes before Yelena returned to her sister. Natasha was standing up already, ready to leave, but not without giving her sister a knowing smirk.
"What?" Yelena asked when she noticed it, grabbing her rubbish from the table and moving to throw it away.
Natasha's smirk didn't fade as she followed after the blonde, but not before glancing back at the girl Yelena was just talking to. "I know why you wanted to eat downstairs now."
Yelena, who was usually so in control of situations like these, avoided looking at the redhead. "Shut up, Natasha."
Natasha, of course, didn't let up. "So, who was that? New crush?"
Yelena was certain her cheeks are pink with embarrassment, but she refused to let Natasha get to her. "I don't know what you're talking about. You told me to make new friends, remember?"
Chuckling to herself, Natasha said, "Yeah, no. That's clearly more than a friend. Or at least you want it to be. Now. Are you gonna tell me who she is or do I have to go back there and find out myself?"
Yelena rolled her eyes, sure that if she just didn't answer, her sister would leave it alone. Of course, that was too good to be true as Natasha suddenly came to a halt and began to back up, ready to turn around.
"Natasha, wait!" Yelena spluttered, grabbing her by the arms to stop her, making Natasha raise her brows with surprise and amusement.
"Wow, somebody's nervous! What – you scared I'm gonna embarrass you?" Natasha teased.
Yelena was hot with nervousness, unsure why she was so effected by the possibility of Y/N and her sister meeting. Then again, the fact that Natasha was definitely intending to humiliate her was probably enough of a reason.
"She isn't a crush," Yelena explained, though she would be lying if she said she wasn't thinking about Y/N a lot more than she should have been since their last encounter. "Her name is Y/N Y/L/N. She works in the admin department a few floors down. We've spoken a few times and I thought she seemed pretty cool, so we made plans to hang out. That's all."
Natasha squinted, trying to read her sister's expression. It was clear that wasn't the whole truth, but she'd done enough teasing for the day and decided to give Yelena a break. For now.
"Hmm, alright," she gave in reluctantly. "If you say so."
"Your told me to make friends," Yelena reminded her, letting go of her arms and relaxing. "That's all I'm doing.”
Natasha snickered. "Right. Well, good on you."
Yelena exhaled, glad Natasha wasn't fighting it anymore. After all, she wasn't lying. She was just making friends. Ever since joining her sister at the Compound, making use of the resources the Avengers had on her mission to freeing the mind-controlled Widows, Natasha had been adamant she attempt to fit in somehow, make a life for herself. And Y/N happened to be the first person she had a genuine interest in. Was that a crime?
It wasn't a crush – at least she didn't think it was. After all, she hadn't had the opportunity to 'like' like somebody before, let alone befriend somebody. She wasn't exactly sure she knew the difference, not when she hadn't had control of her own mind for so long.
It was best to take things as they came, she knew that, so that's what she would do. And that began with going out with Y/N.
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YOUR POV
After hanging out with Yelena – nothing extravagant, just grabbing a coffee and getting to know each other better – we became friends. It was easy to grow used to her dry, sarcastic sense of humour and blunt personality, and it was much easier to be less intimidated by her when I realised how sweet she was.
I wasn't sure how or why we got on, but we just did, and that was where our friendship blossomed. We'd catch each other at work, her mostly stopping by my offices as going to the Avengers' personal floors still made me nervous, and I'd show her around the city more between work which was the best way for her to settle in whilst I got to show her some of my favourite spots.
Turns out the scary assassin was actually a big old softie on the inside, and it was too easy to consider her my best friend. After half a year of growing so close that she knew pretty much everything about me and vice versa, I couldn't have imagined not having her in my life. Her opinion meant a lot to me – she meant a lot to me – so much that when I found out my boyfriend of a year was cheating on me, I couldn't bring it in myself to tell her.
It was humiliating, finding the texts on his phone from another girl, along with some inappropriate videos. Dehumanising when he tried to defend his actions after discovering I knew the truth. We were in a content, happy relationship and I was convinced I loved him, only for the worst to happen.
The last thing I wanted to do was air out my dirty laundry to people I knew, including Yelena, so I kept it to myself. Of course it hurt and I wanted nothing more than to curl up in a ball and cry, but the embarrassment of her finding out I'd been cheated on was even worse, so I just didn't tell her.
Of course, Yelena wasn't a fool. She was a trained assassin for crying out loud, so when were watching TV together in my apartment, she brought the topic up carefully.
"Y'know, I haven't heard you talk about Thomas in a while," she said between episodes of The Office.
The mention of my ex-boyfriend took me off guard, admittedly, and I hoped she couldn't see my hesitation when I replied, "Yeah, he's not really in my life anymore. We broke up."
In my peripheral vision, I could see Yelena's surprise. "Pardon? Did I hear that right? You broke up?"
I cleared my throat, nodding nonchalantly, though inside the wound was still fresh. "Yeah, it was a mutual thing. We realised it wasn't working anymore. So, we broke up."
"But you were– it was a long–" She was stuck on her words, before finally settling on, "When?"
I shuffled uncomfortably on the couch, fingers playing with the corner of the cushion in my hand. "About a week ago."
She paused, and I finally looked over to see her watching me with a softened expression, though still confused.
"Do you mind if we don't talk about it?" I asked her gently, offering a forced smile.
She nodded. "Right. Sorry. I just– sorry."
I shrugged, looking back at the TV. "It's okay. It's no biggie."
It was, but she didn't need to know that. My hope was that she'd never bring it up again and I'd move on from it all without her ever discovering the embarrassment of the truth. That just wasn't the case though...
We went out for lunch together, maybe a week after that conversation took place, and it was going perfectly fine. We caught up, had pointless and absolutely insane conversations about things that made no sense, and were genuinely enjoying each other's company. It was going perfectly fine, until it wasn't.
"...so he tried to shoot me, but obviously he didn't get a single shot...," Yelena was recalling one of her recent missions, and I wanted to listen, but my attention was stolen when I saw who was sat a few tables behind her.
Thomas, out of all the people who I could have spotted, was pulling out a chair for his date – a really pretty girl who I recalled seeing in the photos and videos on his phone. They were smiling flirtatiously at one another, clearly on a date, and though it was so glaringly obvious that he was going out with her, it didn't really hit me until they shared a kiss.
He was on a date with the girl he cheated on me with.
It wasn't the easiest thing to witness, the wound still very much raw. I hated his guts and I hated the way he made me feel, but that hatred was still wrapped in hurt and embarrassment. And when I saw him with her, I already felt tears pricking my eyes.
"Sorry, I just need to go to the toilet," I cut Yelena off quickly, stumbling out of my booth as I stood up.
She called my name but I ignored her as I sped to the toilets, avoiding looking anywhere but ahead. Thankfully it was empty, but I was left to view my own reflection and, for the first time in a long time, I hated what I saw. I looked like a mess. My vision was blurry, tears filling my eyes, a lump in my throat.
He really didn't want me, didn't he? Something had to be wrong for him not to.
"Y/N, are you in here?"
I sucked up a breath and wiped my eyes before I could shed a single tear for him. Turning around, I saw Yelena entering the bathroom, eyes looking around until they met mine worriedly.
"There you are," she said with relief, rushing in and resting her hands on my shoulders. "What happened? Is it to do with Thomas? I saw him sat out there when you ran off."
It would have been so easy to lie and brush it off, but Yelena was staring right into my soul and I couldn't hold it in for much longer.
"We didn't break up mutually," I whispered, ashamed of the crack in my voice.
Yelena wasn't following. "What?"
I frowned, looking down and feeling my eyes well up all over again. "Thomas and I. We didn't– he–"
Why was it so hard to say?
"Y/N, you can tell me anything," Yelena reassured in a voice so soft I'd never heard it before.
I couldn't meet her eyes. "He was cheating on me."
She didn't respond, nor react, not verbally anyway. I wasn't sure what expression she pulled because I was too embarrassed to look up from the floor.
"Y/N, I..."
All she did was pull me close and it was like a dam burst within me, the tears I'd bottled up for so long finally being set free. I sobbed quietly, shamefully, into her shoulder, and wasn't sure what else to say.
Yelena was sweet – she always was – as she held me upright, letting me make a wet, snotty mess of her jacket. And she held me close until I finally stopped, reluctantly pulling myself from the safety of the crook of her neck.
"Do you want to say something to him?" is all she asked, so carefully, as if I might break even more.
I shook my head, wiping the tears from my face and avoiding her eyes. "I just want to leave."
She nodded, taking my hand in hers and squeezing it gently. I was too tired to do anything but let her lead me out of there, most of it a blur. I recalled her glaring daggers in Thomas' direction when we passed his table, but I refused to look up and see if he noticed. When we reached her car, there was a tense silence in the air.
Finally, after a minute, she broke it.
"Why didn't you tell me, Y/N?" she asked quietly, and I could feel her eyes boring into the side of my head.
Wiping my face to distract from my warm cheeks, I answered, "It's embarrassing."
"No, it's not," she said, and I could see her shaking her head in the corner of my eye.
I scoffed, angry at myself for breaking down. "Of course it is. He cheated on me because clearly something is wrong with me. That's literally the epitome of embarrassing."
"What– are you insane?"
I glanced at her, clenching my jaw. "Maybe. Who knows?"
She scrunched her face up with annoyance. "Stop that. You're not." Her expression softened. "You're completely and utterly wonderful, and the only insane one is him for throwing that away!"
I rolled my eyes, leaning against the passenger door as I got comfortable. "You have to say that. You're my friend."
"No," she said with conviction. "I mean it. Every word. And those are the reasons I'm your friend. Because you're the way you are."
I shook my head, glaring at the front window. "Forget it, it doesn't matter anyway. Can you just– please can we go home?"
She opened her mouth, as if to retort, and I seriously wasn't in the mood. Thankfully, she dropped it for now and put her seatbelt on instead.
The ride home was awkward, mostly because I still felt humiliated at my breakdown and even worse because I hated being pitied by Yelena. If it were up to me, we'd forget this ever happened, but I knew she wouldn't.
"You should've said something sooner," she said when she pulled up outside my apartment building. Her voice was calm, but her words carried weight. "I would've helped."
Realising how bitchy I was being for no reason, I let go of my anger. She was never my target – I was my own worst enemy right now. All Yelena had done was be there for me.
"You helped before. Getting me out of there." I exhaled, regretful of my attitude earlier, and gave her a grateful look. "Thanks."
She looked to me, green eyes twinkling sadly, matching the frown on her lips. I leaned forward and pulled her in for a hug, albeit an awkward one because we were still in the car, but a needed one. She was a really good hugger, I realised, and I didn't want her to go just yet.
"Do you wanna come up?" I asked lamely once I pulled away. "I just– I–"
"Of course," she cut me off, and I was relieved because I had no idea how to say anything else.
I relaxed, nodding, and glanced at her with a small smile before getting out the car. She followed me out and up to my place, where we instantly fell into a sweet lull of an afternoon. She didn't bring up Thomas for the rest of the day. Not when we ate up all the junk food in my kitchen. Not when we watched one film after another, her letting me pick them all. And not when we passed out on my couch, too tired to get up and make it to my bed.
When I woke up the next morning, I found myself half laying on Yelena's chest as she laid on the couch, leg hanging off the end.
"Shit, sorry," I mumbled when I realised I was drooling on her shirt.
She groaned, tired, and mumbled something I couldn't make out, before opening her eyes and immediately widening them. I wondered what had her spooked, but was still too tired to think on it longer than a second.
"I am so hungry," I thought aloud, pushing myself to sit upright. Letting out a yawn, I checked my watch. "We didn't eat at all last night. Not a proper meal anyway."
Yelena still hadn't spoken, so I stood up and stretched, yawning once more. I hadn't realised how quickly time had gotten away from us yesterday, nor how easily I was able to forget the mishap because I had Yelena.
"I think I have some eggs in the fridge," I said, padding over to the kitchen to take a look. "You want some?"
Yelena didn't answer and I didn't really care, taking it as a yes anyway. Before starting to cook, I went to freshen up in the bathroom and wake myself up a little more. When I came out, Yelena was waiting outside the door.
"There's a spare toothbrush under the sink," I told her with a smile. "I'll get started on breakfast."
She nodded tiredly, going in after me. I started on breakfast meanwhile, the events of yesterday coming to mind as I fried some eggs. It was a strange day, but it felt good to be able to tell Yelena the truth. I didn't feel so alone anymore.
When I heard Yelena coming out the bathroom, I glanced over my shoulder and saw her looking much more awake than before. And that's also when I realised she was still wearing the same clothes from yesterday.
"I have some clothes you can wear if you want," I offered, but she declined with a polite head shake.
"I'll just be going back to the Compound after, it's all good."
I hummed in acknowledgment, getting back to putting our breakfast together. She took a seat at the dining table and I felt the need to speak up again.
"Thanks," I blurted out, making no sense.
She sounded confused, and tired. "Huh?"
I chewed on the inside of my cheek as I distracted myself with plating up our eggs. "For staying last night. And for not making... it a thing. That's all I wanted."
If Yelena wanted to, she could have turned Thomas inside out with ease, but she didn't, and I was eternally grateful.
"I'll always be here for you, Y/N," she said when I was setting her plate in front of her.
I glanced up at her from the plate. "I know. I'm lucky."
She began to smile, eyes meeting mine comfortingly. I returned her smile, hoping she knew how much she meant to me, before taking a seat opposite her and digging in.
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1800duckhotline · 6 months ago
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can you talk more about eden and karminas dynamic? Theyre so interesting!! (Maybe also connie if you want to include her?)
thank u for asking bc i think about them soooooo much. They're kind of my pookies but they also are stupid in an endearing sense.
Karmina and Eden's dynamic is founded in the fact that they are both immortal beings. Karmina, being a lich by nature (shocker! i know! i'll have to design her lich form eventually, my current lore for her is that in mondoverse lich are a Thing but they are also supernatural beyond the explainable. anyways she used to go by koschei the deathless as russian folklore would have called her), has lived far longer than Eden has (he became immortal sometime in the late 19th century), but this is exactly what granted their first meeting.
He came across Karmina after he shedded his identity, when he used to present as a man to not run into troubles for being a lesbian. The idea I have is that this happened not long after he became Eden as we know him, so likely very first decade of the 20th century (1900-1910 ish). They met at a ball, full of aristocrats, nobles, and the like, he as a little baron of his own (playing off the fact he masterfully spun the narrative that his old identity tragically died) while Karmina was at that point in time playing the part of a Russian aristocrat looking to move away from her centuries-long stay within the Russian country (which wasn't called that back then, this is to give you an idea). Their first meeting back then was a bit strange because Eden was still in the very first years of grappling with his newfound inhumanity of sorts and was at the apex of his hedonism, but felt himself drawn to her, especially because of the gaze and the way she carried herself. Karmina found equal interest in Eden, but found his mannerisms too bold for her tastes - thus their interaction didn't go beyond exchanging subtle flirting quips.
Despite this Eden from then on found himself thinking about her. He is thoroughly allergic to any kind of romantic commitment, but you could very well say it was like a cupid's arrow struck him in that moment though he ignored it because he, on the basis that he caught a hunch of her being immortal too, was probably mostly excited of having found someone similar to him.
They met again in the 1970s. This is when Eden was at the apex of his acting career, long after he moved from the UK to Seattle. He lived in there but mostly worked in Hollywood as a result, and lo and behold, Karmina was around as well - however she was at the time pursuing a different kind of career entirely, that being of book publishing. With years he yearned to be able to specifically found a publishing house focused on creating and republishing for the contemporary audience folklore fairytales he so much loved, though she had to start from somewhere, and that somewhere was being a writer. At the time Karmina mostly ghost-wrote autobiographies for celebrities at the time in order to make a name for herself. So by circumstance while Eden was filming a movie, they crossed paths again.
From then on it's all a game of push and pull for them, especially since Karmina and he got more acquainted and she discovered of his dirty little secret one night as he called her for help with taking care of a Little Problem he found himself in. which I don't wanna elaborate too much on if I ever finish that comic I started with them... anyways the thing is that he is kind of subtly obsessed with her, while Karmina also is very interested but likes playing coy and hard to get. Eden isn't fully aware of her nature as a lich, though he knows she is immortal like him, which He Is Really Into.
They formally start Dating in the eyes of the public in the 80s, mostly also to boost both of their publicity and partly also because if eden had to be seen being romantic with someone, he'd rather it be her, even if he does have a lot of hook up even while he's dating her but Karmina doesn't care that he does bc personally she knows she has him wrapped tightly around her pinky finger. He can bang whoever he wants but he'll always be back and crawl towards her if he wants affection lmao... THIS MAKES IT SOUND BAD but I promise this is a bit funny and p much consensual on both ends.
The way Connie enters the picture is quite funny because Connie is basically a taxi driver who Karmina hired as her personal chauffeur, for some time during the 90s while she was working in NYC, where Connie is located. Karmina finds Connie professional but also extremely attractive both in terms of physique and personality, which for some reason makes Eden tremendously jealous to a stupid degree. Karmina doesn't think it's that deep, neither does Connie, but Karmina finds Edens jealousy sooooo funny and kind of cute. So they are a kind of weird throuple because Eden is jealous also bc he's Very Attracted to Connie but will never admit it like. Ever.
sorry I got insane I HOPE THIS EXPLAINS THINGS.
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the-gayest-show · 2 years ago
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You intrigue me. You never heard of or seen many of the cartoons of the 90’s/2000’s and you are part of the 1% who doesn’t….**gulp** care about the Spider-Verse movie? (even though many non-Marvel fans love it, it’s just that versatile)…
May I ask: What were your interests growing up? I had a typical media consumption childhood, so that’s all I know. What did you know growing up?
I suppose I am quite weird that way.
I mean I'm not very old so that probably contributes to my lack of knowledge of 90s/2000s stuff (i know names and stuff now but never actually seen the shows or even heard of them before a year to even a few months ago),
But it's also the fact I grew up without cable television and the media consumption I had was TVOkids, occasional bits of CityTV (I watched a bit of Modern Family sometimes), and CBC (I watched a Murdoch Mysteries thru the ages of 9-11). I LOVED CBC Marketplace and Murdoch Mysteries as a kid, I still do watch both of them to an extent and they're the two things that stuck with me.
I don't entirely know what "typical media consumption childhood" means to you, but I don't entirely think I had it very "typical", considering if I mention the shows I grew up with (Jack, Science Max Experiments At Large, Odd Squad, Wild Kratts, etc) I bet you'd know a few of them but certainly not all of them lol. Some of them I can't even find properly on google unless I actually try and some of the shows I've watched feel like a fever dream and I sometimes doubt I actually watched the shows simply because they're so unknown, even to Dr. Google.
I even watched some of the typical "adult" shows (well, shows that you don't find the average kid watching but aren't gore-y or swearing or anything like that), because TVOkids didn't go on forever and ended at 7pm on the dot and transitioned to normal TVO, which had boring stuff like documentaries and The Agenda (i still don't know what that's about, but I never stuck around to find out). Even CBC had a CBC Kids section but that went on for even less time than TVOkids so I rarely spent much time on that channel. So as a kid who only went to bed at 8pm you found other things to watch on the other channels on your TV (we didn't have normal streaming services so there wasn't even that lol).
I even watched a bit of Just For Laughs with my family because it was essentially visual comedy with 0 sound and my parents have english as a second language so it's something anyone could understand without needing to understand certain concepts. Just For Laughs is essentially just pranks that these hosts (they're always the same people) play on random street people and then they show them the camera at the end. It's rlly funny, check it out lol.
I literally never had access to channels like Cartoon Network, Disney, and your typical cartoon channels because being Canadian shuts it down almost immediately. Even now when I specifically try to access it legally (for free) I can't. I've only in the recent few years learned about the magic of piracy and getting what you want, when you want but otherwise I wouldn't have even been able to watch the shows I do love atm.
As a side note, I was also raised with Ukrainian/Russian shows like vinnie pooh (the russian one, i didn't know there was an english one until i was 11 lol) and cheburashka. Both of these even upon google search bring up core childhood memories and I do love them so much. Also buratino (the movie i think, don't remember whether it was cartoon or live-action) was something I remember watching (there's a certain song which I can recite with lyrics and tune is something I still carry with me as a very crystal clear memory).
Edit: Wow. The English names of the russian shwos I watched are very disappointing. Wow. Also here's another gem I remembered. One of my favorites growing up.
Even then I guess I'm not really... interested in most of the 90s/00s shows unless the concept is good (also bc I'm already watching so many shows rn I don't I'd handle more than I'm currently watching/planning to watch).
Anyways this answer turned out to be much longer than I thought this would be but that's basically the rundown of my very interesting media consumption. I am "Gen Z" by all accounts but even then I don't think my interests were very usual lol.
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lemon-ty · 4 years ago
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I HAVE SOMETHING TO TELL U ABOUT THE NEW EPISODE AND I WILL! (also my screenshots have russian subs because, u know, I'm Russian and I usually watch with subs? Sorry..)
The begining isn't really interesting to me so let's just move right to the fendra thing
They're... too soft. Sorry. But... disgusting...
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Oh, Huey, u're too naive, my kid.
He just agreed too easily and too fast like that wasn't him who've just been 'oh no, u're an evil F.O.W.L. agent we must fiiiiight uuuuu". That shows he believes Fenton so much, he can stand on his side in a second with no questions and be the most devoted person to him in the whole world...
that's adorable ~
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One more person in the list of ppl knowing he's Gizmoduck.
Good, keep moving, one day it actually will be 'everyone knows'. 'Everyone, except Drake Mallard'.
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Maria (ah, well, yeah, I should say, that's my headcanon for officer Cabrera's name) is so cool so she can discover Louie in a second. Even if she'd never at least talked to him! That's amazing. Really spectacularly.
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Oh no, let's stay here and have a talk. Fenton, my boy, do u really thing she was right? Bc, u know, she was exactly the opposite! She was too much like 'oh no that's a secret project, we must not tell anyone about it bc it's seeeeecreeet' so she became the reason why Beaks actually have known about it. If u had told at least Dr. Gyro everything could be different! Such bad thing could never take a place! She was wrong, she was awfully wrong. O p e n u r e y e s, F e n t o n.
Oh right, and now she wants everyone to know. Too late to rehabilitation, u've already ruined everything. I would never apologize u and I suggest everyone to do the same.
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I adore 'Huey being Gizmo's sidekick' thing and now this world have lost me. I'm so in love with this part of the episode.
But still... WHY DO U KEEP THIS CRINGE LEGS THING, HUE-
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MARIA
SHE IS
oh my god...
(and the RoboCop joke...)
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That all is of course really great but... Don't u thing we're talking too much about Gizmoduck? I'll explain my point: we were talking about how much attention takes Gizmo and how little attention and love takes Fenton for a caple of episodes. We were talking about how it's important for him not to be only Gizmo but be himself and now... U might say 'that's his – Fenton's – project but think about some facts:
The project named GIZMOcloud (the opposite of fentonium that was really Fenton's project)
Everyone in here is saying "Blathering blatherskite' again and again and Gandra said 'it's Gizmo' (or smth like that I don't remember every word)
They all is talking only about Gizmo and this feels wrong for me. Like... What about Fenton? Do we still remember he wants to be useful while he's not a cool armed superhero? No????
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Dr. Gyro is iconic in this episode. Like in every episode where he is. And he fixes everything. Again.
(still u should say to him earlier) (I mean have u seen his happiness when he discovered this place? That's very cruel to keep it in secret from him)
Also the 'turn off' thing? Omg, that's hilarious.
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I really really really really tried not to hate Gandra BUT. She said THAT and I can't keep myself calm anymore-
I think she's soooooo badly written character. Like, see: she's so poor girl bc noone paid attention to her and she thinks she's not good enough. Meh, disgusting. I mean, this origin had already became some kind of a new cliche. She's not a character with a sad story, she's a chiche girlfriend for a hero. And that's without saying what the 'villian who's in love with a hero' is an awful chiche as well. She's cliched to the core and I can't love her and I would never love her.
She could be a better character but they made her like that and that's awful. I hate the thing that she wants to leave F.O.W.L. bc that's SO PREDICTABLE. AND SO LAZY. AND SO C L I C H E.
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Never loved him so much as do now.
Well, summary: The episode is AMAZING. I love Fenton. I love Dr. Gyro. I love of. Cabrera. I love Huey. I love Beaks. They all are perfect and the Gizmocloud is so great project that I can hardly breath. But Gandra ruins everything for me. So that's the reason why I will not be rewatching this episode again and again like I do with other episodes with Fenton. And that's... sad((
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