#I don’t want to stan a group where the girl that’s 10 years younger than me would still bully the shit out of me

[ujuro]

definitely gonna have an eye on the black labels new gg but i alr know it’s all gonna be so insufferable 😣

I do not want to have three thinkpieces in my head on capitalism every time I look at a damn group I’m not meant for this I’m meant for stanning groups with one song that disbanded in 2012 stan bbde girl

[itsallyscorner]

pleeeease write a blurb where the girl's a member of little mix and they do an award show performance, so tom keeps hyping his girl up and recording stories, just being a supportive bf ��

Thank you so much for requesting!! I’m so sorry it took so long, but I hope you enjoy it💞 I know you said you wanted a blurb, but I could never write short things, I’m always too damned detailed and shit, I’m sorry😭 Happy reading🥰

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#1 Fan

Based on Little Mix’s 2019 BRITs performance of Woman Like Me, I suggest watching it to understand Tom’s insta story💞

“You’re going to absolutely smash it. All of you are.” Tom encouraged you. His large hands grasp onto yours comfortingly. The two of you were currently backstage at the BRITs in your and the girls’ shared dressing room. Tonight was a big night for you all, as you and the girls were nominated for two awards: British Artist Video of the Year and British Group of the Year. Additionally, the five of you were going to be performing your latest single, “Woman Like Me”.

To say that you were jittery was an understatement. You were terrifyingly nervous, it made you feel nauseous. Your stomach was a jungle of butterflies, fluttering nonstop as the time to perform grew closer and closer. You glanced at the clock and took a deep breath. The pink latex bra you had on felt as if it were getting tighter and tighter around your chest. Tom notices your slight discomfort and glances at the time, “How about we sit? You’ve got plenty of time to relax before you all go on stage.”

Tom wraps his arm around your waist and leads you to the couch in the dressing room. He settles beside you and moves his arm to rest across your lap, his hand interlocking with yours. You leaned back into the seat and watched the girls make last minute touches to their hair, face, and costumes. Tom squeezes your hand, bringing your attention to him. Your eyes shift to meet his warm chocolate brown ones. A soft smile grows on his lips, “Hey.”

You reciprocate his smile with a smaller one, “Hi.”

“What’s wrong? You rarely get jitters before going out on stage.” He asks you quietly so only you could hear. You stare down at your lap and fiddle with his fingers.

“I-it’s just different from what we’ve been doing lately.” You start, glancing at Tom. He nods for you to continue, “We just haven’t been doing live performances for such a long time. Like on tour, we’re usually performing in front of our fans. Not the entire British music industry or live television.”

Tom brings your hand up to his lips and presses a gentle kiss on it. “There’s nothing to worry about, darling. You—and the girls, are going to do amazing as always. You guys are the best at live performances. The amount of work and dedication you girls put into this is going to pay off, I swear, it’ll be a standing ovation. Everyone’s going to love it.”

You smile at your boyfriend’s support for you and the girls. You couldn’t help but peck his lips, to which he replied with a lovestruck grin.

“I’m just nervous that I’ll mess up. Like what if I miss a step of the choreography—or stumble on my words while I’m singing? Oh god, what if I forget the lyrics—“ Your eyes widen in horror as your head generated all the worst case scenarios that could happen on stage. Tom shushes you and gingerly cradles your jaw, being careful of the makeup on your face.

“Listen to me.” He levels his eyes with yours to make sure your attention is on him. “You’re not going to mess up or forget a line—none of that nonsense is going to happen. It’s a load of bullshit. You wanna know why? Because you’re (y/n) (l/n), a member of one of the biggest girl bands of the world, you’re my girlfriend, and you’re the most beautiful and talented girl I’ve ever met. You’re just overthinking. I know you, (y/n). Once the music starts on stage you get lost and start singing your heart out, the crowd just disappears from existence. It’s only you and the girls up on that stage and you’re going to make one hell of a performance. I just know it and so do the other people waiting in that audience.”

You stare at him, stunned by his sudden motivational speech. “Since when did you get good at pep talks?”

His mouth gapes at you, “Uh—stan Twitter? The fans? Is that seriously what you got from all of that?” You shook your head and wrapped your hands around his wrist. “No, I heard every single word. I guess I’m feeling a bit more better now, so thank you, Tommy.” You peck his lips again, despite the fact that your lip gloss was getting on his lips. Though he didn’t care, as long as he was kissing you.

“Still got some nerves?”

“Just a little bit. But I’ll be fine, especially with you in the crowd.” You interlock your fingers with his and glance at the clock. Only 10 more minutes till you were all going to perform.

Tom’s face lights up, “Front seat babe, I got the best seat in the house. I swear, I’m recording the whole performance on my phone. I already got Harrison to help me take Instagram stories for me at the same time. I need every angle.”

Jesy takes that as her cue to join the conversation, “My goodness, you’re such a dork.” She reaches her hand out for you to help you get off the couch.

Tom fakes a dramatic gasp, knowing Jesy didn’t really mean her jab at him. “I don’t know what you’re taking about, I’m just being a very supportive boyfriend. AND Little Mix’s number one fan.”

You dust your pink pants off and take a look at yourself in the full body mirror. You did a little shake too loosen your limbs out and did some breathing exercises. Tom lets you do your pre-performance ritual while he talks with the girls.

Perrie crosses her arms, amused at the younger Brit, “Are you seriously competing against a bunch of teenage girls to deem yourself as our number one fan?”

“Well are they dating one of the members of Little Mix? I don’t think so. You know who is? Me.” Tom gestures to himself sassily. “I even get to hear all the new music earlier than everybody else and get good seats at concerts.” He bragged while one of the members on your team helped you place your in-ears.

Jesy rolls her eyes before gesturing to the door, “Right, I’m calling security. Apparently we’ve got a crazed fan in our dressing room.” Jade and Leigh-Anne stifle a laugh at the bickering.

“You can’t kick me out, I have backstage access.” Tom defended himself with crossed arms.

“No seriously, babe. We’re about to perform in five.” You join the conversation, finally feeling your anxiousness start to fade away. Tom blinks at you, “I’m being kicked out by my own girlfriend?”

Jesy laughs at Tom, taking the piss out of his offended expression. A sly smirk grows on your face. You hold your hands out for him to help him off the couch, “If you want to record every second and angle of our performance, I suggest leaving now.”

Tom straightens out his suit before interlocking your fingers with his. He leans forward and pressed a kiss to the top of your head. “You’re gonna be great. I love you.”

You giggle, eyes beaming up at his warm brown ones, “I love you too. Now get back to Harrison, you’ve left him alone for too long.” Prior to leaving, he stops in his tracks and manages to gather you and the girls into a group selfie. He wishes you all good luck and leaves, making his way back to his seat in the audience.

While he walks back, he posts the selfie you all took onto his Instagram story with the caption, “Good luck to these beautiful ladies! Tune into the BRITs to see their performance, you don’t wanna miss it!”

He gets back to the table designated for you and the girls to see Harrison with an unamused face.

“What?” Tom asks him, confused at his friend.

“You left me here by myself, you div.” Harrison quips. Tom cringes and apologizes to his friend.

“You’re still gonna help me record the performance, right?” Tom sheepishly asked gesturing to Harrison’s phone.

“Yes, Tom, I’ve told you multiple times that I’ll record it.” Harrison held his phone up getting his camera ready. Harrison was about the rant about Tom and how whipped the boy was for you, but was sushed by his best friend.

“SHUT UP IT’S STARTING. HARRISON START RECORDING!” The lights dimmed while someone announced you and the girls. Harrison had his phone already filming while Tom held his phone up, ready to start recording things for his Instagram story.

Tom’s Instagram Story:

“HOLY SHIT!” Tom screamed behind the camera as he recorded the opening of the performance.

You and the girls were stood up while the dancers were on the floor thrusting up at you all. The camera flips to Tom, who’s mouth was agape, “THAT SHOULD BE ME.”

The camera is back to the stage, where you and the girls are doing the choreography with the chairs. Tom whoops loudly in the background and yells, “THAT’S FUCKING SICK—HARRISON LOOK AT THEM.”

“YESS! THAT’S MY GIRLFRIEND!” Tom screamed, thrusting his finger in your direction when your part of the song came on.

Tom zooms in on you as you strutted alongside the girls on the stage, he flips the camera back to him and a smirk is on his lips. He nodded before telling the camera, “That’s my girl.”

Tom forgot to turn his camera around and ended up recorded himself reacting to the performance. A proud smile is on his features while his eyes lit up as they followed you on stage. He leaned closer to Harrison and says, “She looks stunning, mate, my god.”

The stories cut to him and Harrison dancing and singing along to Woman Like Me.

The camera cuts back to you. You’re singing your part in the chorus and you hit a certain note that stuns Tom. He flips the camera to himself, a shocked expression on his face while he hyped you up.

The colored lights reflect onto Tom’s face, his mouth widens when he realizes you and the girls included a dance break in the performance. He flips the camera back, making sure all five of you were in frame.

Tom cheers in the background along with the audience when you and the girls finish your performance.

An unbreakable smile is on Tom’s lips, “There you all have it, I tried to record some parts just in case you all missed it—But that was probably one of the greatest performances they have ever done. I feel so honored to be here.”

Tom leans over so him and Harrison are in frame, “What did you think of the performance, Harrison?” Harrison grins, “I thought it was out of this world, I wasn’t expecting that.”

Tom’s face is hovered above the camera, “I just wanted to let you all know, that after tonight, I am officially becoming a Little Mix fan account. Follow me for more insider updates on Little Mix.”

You come back to the table to see Tom, Harrison, and the girl’s dates beaming at the five of you. You’re all greeted with congratulations and hugs. When you finally reach Tom, he crashes his lips onto yours and lifts you up.

You giggle against his lips, “Hello to you too.”

He pecks your lips twice more before placing you back down, “You were—I don’t even know how to describe it. You were fucking amazing up there.”

You whine, the blush growing on your cheeks while you hid your face in his neck, “Well, I couldn’t have done it without your little pep talk. So thank you, lovey.” 

Tom waves you off while helping you into the seat beside him, “That was all you, darling.”

You and the girls settled down as the awards show continued on. You were drinking a glass of water and reached out to check your phone. Tom stops you, grabbing your wrist. You shoot him a look.

“No—just, don’t watch my Instagram story. Please.” He asks you with a sheepish smile. A loud roar of laughter is heard from across the table, making you all look at Jesy. She simply holds her phone up, screen facing you all, with Tom’s story playing on it.

[junicai]

Relationship with NCT 127

➣ Taeil ☾ taria 

taeil is the Sole Protector of aria’s sanity 

taeil loves his maknaes so much, but he literally looks at her like she put the stars in the sky 

the Proud Dad smile :’)

when aria first debuted, czennies thought that she was the same age as jungwoo - because she acted older than her age - but with taeil she lets her inner kid come out 

highkey dependent on his approval for things in relation to singing

“was, was that ok?” “perfect, ari.”  “ (O_O;)  - (◕‿◕)♡”

she will fight mark and donghyuck for his attention, and she will win

for a while, the two had shared a dorm room before they were rearranged, and taeil let her slip into his bed when she was feeling homesick 

the offer is still open, but aria takes him up on it less and less

taeil is NOT sad about that. absolutely not.

he’s vehemently against any and all diets she tries - saying that if she gets any smaller he’s going to be able to pick her up with one hand

que him dragging her out for ice-cream after a promotion, paying no mind to her protests

aria helps taeil with translating a lot of things into english during lives and interviews - so much to the point where he’s picked up a bit of an irish accent and the others never fail to clown him for it 

taeil still has the small braided bracelet that aria gave to the members on their first anniversary of nct (he keeps it in the drawer beside his bed)

aria is his self-professed happy virus. he told czennies in a vlive once that her smile makes him feel really happy and he wants to protect it to the best of his ability

aria always fixes his micpack before they go onstage if its crooked, because she comes out after him in the lineup

they have monthly movie nights and they alternate who chooses the movie / show (taeil normally goes for mystery or drama themed ones, while aria enjoys making them both sob miserably)

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT.

aria and taeil singing “I See the Light” from tangled for the NCT Music channel, and the tears that were shed by both moonis and realtai alike. sm really popped off with the staging and the lighting of the whole video - between the smiles that were on both of the singers faces and the whole ambiance created, its a cinematic masterpiece 

no one was surprised when it hit 2 million views in a day, and a lot of solo stans were born from that video

➣ Johnny ☾ johria

indisputable siblings 

there is not a single czennie who ships these two romantically, and that’s because they’re just too wholesome 

johnny is one of the few members that aria calls “oppa”, mainly because of the age gap and sm wanted her to appear respectful, but also because he thinks she looks so cute

very chill, excellent vibes

their vlives are either chaotic messes or the closest thing to therapy since ice cubes 

the blanket on aria’s bed? that was a gift from johnny - she had been complaining to mark about how cold she always was anemia tings

czennies are begging for sm to allow aria to open up a solo instagram account, becuse they see the amount of pictures johnny takes of her

in the park? he’s making her pose in front of the flowers. backstage before a show? the lighting, c’mon.

big big bear hugs - the height difference make nctzens want to die 

185cm vs 158cm? p l e a s e she’s so tiny in comparison  (/ =ω=)/

when she gives him backhugs it looks like a little kitten trying to wrestle with the family dog 

play fighting about vernacular:

“ITS CALLED A SIDEWALK” “S I D E W A L K, ITS A FOOTPATH YOU BUFFOON”

very vocal about her wellbeing, and has asked fans before to remind her to take better care of herself and get to sleep sooner

aria, starting a vlive at 3am: hi hi~

the comments: NO GO TO BED

johnny helped her a lot when it came to the style change in choreography, as aria was used to soft, flowing movements and not the powerful, sleek style that most nct dances have 

consistently forgets the fact that she is not the fourteen year old he first met, and is, in fact, an adult now. “you’re a child” “im 18″ “...no”

is the person to get angry on her behalf when interviewers belittle or ignore her 

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT. 

during a fansign, a fan asked aria who did she think was the most comforting when she was stressed (besides mark and donghyuck) and aria said johnny. “he’s so, constant? like nothing seems to knock him or throw him off, and that’s really comforting when i feel unsteady.”

johnny is now known as aria’s weighted blanket. 

that is all. 

➣ Taeyong ☾ ariyong

taeyong took one look at aria the first time she showed up for group practice and immediately adopted her (not literally, but he would if he could)

eomma meets highly protective older brother meets life coach type beat? 

so so soft for her its sickening 

says he doesn’t have favourites and will then spend an hour cooking for aria because she’s been in the studio for the whole day and he knows she hasn’t eaten yet

when aria was given a duet to do for the sm stages, she had to pick another member to do it with and her first choice was taeyong

she always has said that taeyong is one of the pillars keeping her upright and sane - without him she wasn’t sure if she would have been able to complete her training

because of all the schedules they share together, if aria isn’t rooming with mark then she’s definitely rooming with taeyong

whenever she does his makeup (more often than you’d think) she point blank refuses to cover his scar, even when he asks her to 

“please? i don’t like it.” *gasp* “how dare you.” 

sleepy aria! snuggling into taeyong’s shoulder when a schedule ran late! 

he gets uncomfy when the stylists put her in too revealing clothes, and has spoken to them on numerous occasions about dressing her in age-appropriate attire, no matter how “sexy” the concept might be 

he keeps little bags of sugar-dusted strawberry sweets in his bag incase she forgets to eat and feels faint after the last time (they used to be blueberry flavoured, but he heard donghyuck throwing out any and all “blueberry-contaminated” food one evening)

taeyong doesn’t tolerate hate towards aria, especially in person, so he always makes sure to sit down the line from her so that he can see when people skip intentionally her

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT. 

taeyong had just been awarded the solo bedroom on the last night of the Mtopia series, and was staring off into the corner looking rather uncomfortable. aria, who was meant to be rooming with baekhyun looked over and saw his mouth curled downwards slightly. 

“baekhyun-oppa, is it ok if i room with taeyongie-oppa tonight? i ran out of my tablets, and he has some in his bag..” 

baekhyun looked down at her with a small smile and agreed, while on the video edited captions appeared with the words, “a cute maknae, asking to room with a younger member...”

➣ Yuta ☾ nakamiya

the president of realtai 

this man is absolutely, completely and irrevocably whipped for aria and she is not afraid to use that to her advantage

she beat him at arm wrestling because she pouted at him - she’s too powerful 

aria.exe stopped responding when yuta started to playfully flirt with her the first few times

*winks* “hu-wha-”

one of the most outwardly protective members of her, because he feels a sense of responsibility for the younger girl

he was one of the trainees she first befriended, aria’s korean not being good enough to hold a decent conversation, and yuta happy that there was another japanese trainee 

9 times out of 10, when the members are making their way through crowded areas like airports yuta is always behind or directly beside aria

during a fansign one of the fans asked why he did that, and he said that he needed to keep her in his line of sight or else he’d get anxious that she’s so small that she could get swallowed in the crowds 

yes aria hit him for the short comment 

yuta, 50% of the time: you’re not allowed date until you’re 35

yuta, the other 50% of the time: bro where’s your boyfriend

he complains that she isn’t as sweet as she was when she first joined, and that hyuck must have corrupted her (╬ Ò﹏Ó)

he let’s her braid his hair when its longer, them both sitting on a bed with yuta in front and aria kneeling behind him so she can reach 

he was the first person to take her home for the holidays, because ireland was too far to go back for a week over christmas 

��what do you mean you’ve never been to japan???” 

bitching about the other members in japanese? more likely than you’d think 

when aria turned legal in korea, yuta took her out drinking and made sure to post pictures of her with her flushed cheeks on his instagram story with the caption “aish, i told you to pace yourself....” “happy birthday riri”

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT. 

you know that one clip of the sasaeng getting absolutely trashed by nct’s bodyguard and taeyong jumping 7 feet into the air? 

well taeyong wasn’t the only one startled; standing beside yuta, aria was closest to the wall of fans when the girl ran forward towards the members. aria jumped in fright, while yuta barely made a face (#unbothered). he simply wrapped an arm over her shoulders and pulled her around to the other side, tucking her underneath his arm.

tsundere!yuta

➣ Doyoung ☾ dori

*ahem* WHIPPED *ahem*

doyoung adores aria so much 

was he unsure about a girl being added to a group of boys? yes but it was moreso concern about how he was going to make sure she wasn’t accidentally trampled

they bonded over a night in the recording studio when he found her sitting on the floor with music sheets scattered around her 

a whole mentor when it comes to singing 

aria always turns to him after singing - especially when it wasn’t planned, like at a fansign - to see if she did a good job

doyoung has yet to tell her that she hasn’t but sue her, she appreciates the validation

the original mother and Will Not Let Taeyong Forget It

doyoung, dragging aria out of the studio: now listen here young lady-

kitten and bunny friends RISE

no seriously sm released merch of a kitten and bunny plushie and it sold out in a day

when aria had the accident that led to her two month hiatus, doyoung was the one who rode in the ambulance with her after refusing to let go of her hand 

“i’m sorry sir, only family are allowed in at the moment-” “we are her family” *nurse looks around the room at the 14 other boys sitting anxiously*

he is a weak, weak man he will crumple on any decision if she smiles and slash or whines at him even slightly 

carries band-aids and support strapping in his practice bag because he knows that she gets really bad blisters when she hasn’t practiced while wearing her heels in a while, and he makes her wrap her ankles for the first few sessions incase she falls 

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENTS.

NCT 127 Take a Friendship Test (Glamour - 2020)

“ahh, my first impression?” *laughs* “actually, we first met in a recording studio, at like. 3 o’clock in the morning? he stuck his head in the doorway and i was so tired that i thought i had died and an angel had come to save me...”  (*μ_μ) 

➣ Jaehyun ☾ jaria

you know how cheetahs in the zoo get emotionally support puppies?

this is the same type of vibe

very snuggly together? but only in specific scenarios, like when jaehyun is too tired to move after a movie night, he’ll just kinda engulf aria in a hug and make her sleep on the couch with him 

any back hug she gives him turns into a piggy back, its non-negotiable 

likes to randomly compliment her to see how red he can make her face go

did she have a crush on him when she first moved to korea? yes, but who didn’t

that faded really quickly though once she started into the group officially - now they are more like siblings

they don’t interact that much on camera? rip to the jaria shippers

but that doesn’t mean they aren’t close with each other its just that a lot of their interactions happen off-screen

naturally, jaehyun began to think of her as a younger sister over the years they performed together 

jaehyun will end anybody who lays a hand on aria 

a little bap bap if you will 

he asked her to take him ice-skating one day, and the entire time was spent with aria laughing her ass off as he ate the ice nearly fourteen times before getting the hang of it 

he takes her out for food when he notices that she’s been put back on a strict diet plan (aria thinks she’s good at hiding those pieces of paper, but she forgets that when she puts it on top of things, that other people are a lot taller than her and have a higher vantage point)

the prince and princess of nct? check 

head pats

he likes to pat her head and she’ll swat it away immediately until she gets tired and just lets him do his thing 

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT.

jaehyun was wearing a flower crown placed carefully on his head as he bent down slightly to run his hands through the damp grass. a soft shutter sound went off, before he heard a hum coming from behind him. “jaehyun-ssi, could you take off the flowers? we can’t see your face clearly because of the shadow.”

jaehyun glanced backwards at aria’s retreating figure, being chased by donghyuck with hands still stained green from the grass she had shifted through to find the fallen flowers. she stopped and waved at him before resuming her run.

“i’d rather not, if that’s alright. i think it fits quite well with the theme.”

➣ Jungwoo ☾ ariwoo

oh my god someone please stop these two

once jungwoo taught aria about the power that aegyo holds for persuasion tactics against the older members of 127, they were unstoppable 

you should be afraid of them

100% have plotted someone’s murder before (and have succeeded, czennies always wondered where that last manager went after The Incident)

aggressively cute together - to the point where your teeth will rot 

jungwoo will intentionally flirt with aria just to fluster her because its “so easy to do”

not very physically affectionate, but jungwoo has no hesitation calling out “uri fighting haeyadwae!” to her when she looks like she needs a little encouragement 

jungwoo is the reason she wants to do a bachelors degree after finishing high school 

he used to help her with her maths assignments after school when she was struggling with managing her time 

they’re called the “aegyo duo” of the group, and there has yet to be an outright winner of the competitions to find the cutest member (its aria. jungwoo said it himself, its aria but we been knew)

they have an odd dynamic of looking like best friends the first second, evil masterminds the next and then siblings who want to murder each other but they make it work 

will and has flopped down on her while she was laying on the practice floor and then whined when she tried to get up 

he spilled the tea that aria gets super emotional and affectionate when she’s drunk 

cutest shit ever that made ariwoo shippers lose their absolute minds was the clip that got released in the behind the scenes filming of Kick It, where jungwoo was half asleep in the corner and aria just pops up out of nowhere to shove a folded jacket under his head and made sure to prop it in a way that he wouldn’t get a sore neck when he woke up

jungwoo is the reason she knows korean curse words (dont tell doyoung)

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT. 

aria wobbled in her heels slightly as she stepped out of the van, trying to hold a blanket up to protect her legs while she slid off the seat onto the ground. jungwoo extended an arm around her waist, gripping the blanket in his other hand and carefully holding her to make sure she didn’t trip on the cobbled stone.

➣ Mark ☾ mari

1/2 of the best friend crew

honestly at the beginning, mark and aria weren’t very close, having only really seen each other in passing or with johnny 

but after being dropped into training together the two quickly became fast friends, and now they’re borderline inseparable 

you thought you knew pain? watch aria’s reaction to mark’s graduation from dream :)

mark’s the reason why aria felt confident enough to pitch some of her lyric ideas to the team, after staying up until 4am to help her make some edits so she was as confident as possible 

kinda just, rests his head on her shoulder? and wraps his arms around her waist when he’s tired 

mari being confused in foreigner: ??? 

aria said once in a vlive that she finds mark really comforting to be around - when she feels stressed or worried about something she’ll go to mark’s room and just sit on his bed for a while

aria is so close with his parents - “ahh, how’s my favourite child” “i’m doing great mom.” “no not you, how’s aria?” “wh-hu-MOM?” 

you’d swear sometimes mark is younger than her, considering the pout he puts on and how much he whines when they’re not on the same team together for promotions

mark big protecc boi but also little small cuddly boi 

they’re so soft for each other ( ╥ω╥ )

in one of the fancams for mark’s solo stage during superm, someone zoomed into aria singing along with him in the wings and dancing to herself with the Proudest Smile(tm)

he’s! so! proud! of! her! constantly! she could be walking and he’d be like “omg get it” 

when aria refuses to get up and make herself food (this happens way too often, she just gets into the groove of her work and doesn’t want to move) mark gets her to by threatening to do it himself 

consistently caught by czennies just standing behind her and holding her hand in crowded areas - airports, waiting rooms, etc. 

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT. 

mark and aria were standing off to one side as the mc explained the rules of the game they were about to be playing. mark looked totally confused, and elbowed aria in her side before looking down and mouthing “what?” to her. aria opened her mouth, before closing it and looking down at the ground, muttering to herself, “결합... 結合..... le chéile.... le... le.. oh oh - combined! we have to put them together, markie.”

and thus, a new confusion meme was born

➣ Haechan ☾ arichan

the other half of the best friend crew

absolute heathens to be around when they are together 

donghyuck is the person aria is closest to, and someone she’d call her best friend (only when she was sure he wouldn’t hear her)

she calls him “the demon child i can’t get rid of” but will, and has definitely pouted when he ignored her for too long 

generally aria is a pretty soft spoken person, but not with hyuck around - he brings out all her chaos energy (please pray for the patience of dotae)

the pair have a little tradition of kissing the back of each others’ hands before going on stage for good luck. they can’t even remember how it started, but now its an unnegotiable pre-show ritual

he’s so clingy with her absolutely everywhere its painfully adorable  (ಥ﹏ಥ)

interviews? hyuck has a hand on her knee, or if she’s wearing a skirt he’s tucked his hand in between their chairs so she can hold it discreetly. in the dorms? full body tackle onto the couch, where he proceeds to lay on top of her completely. 

because of hyuck’s nickname being the sun, and aria always being around him, czennies gave her the nickname “moon” to go with him

fans thought that aria was older than hyuck for a good year and a half before she released her birthday on a vlive, because she’s normally the one tasked with reigning his chaotic energy in during promotions (that is, if she hasn’t already joined him)

but off-camera, aria is absolutely hyuck’s baby there is no disputing that. aria’s sad?he’s there with ice-cream and a blanket and a baseball bat.

the winnie the pooh character that is on aria’s bed was a gift from hyuck for her 17th birthday, after she made him watch seven episodes of the show on netflix with her one night 

yes he complained, but he slapped her hand away when she went to change it to something else 

a twitter thread of a czennie comparing their horoscopes together went viral when people realized that it was quite plausible that the pair were each others (platonic) soulmates 

after an incident involving blueberries, donghyuck took it upon himself to check the ingredients of every. single. food item in their dorm to make sure it was ok for her to eat 

hyuck clowns her for her irish accent, and aria curses him out in japanese

tldr: they cute or whatever 

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT. 

donghyuck was doing a vlive in his bedroom, sitting and talking to czennies when aria opened the door to his room quietly. she didn’t say anything, just waved slightly with almost closed eyes before she crawled underneath his covers and tucked her plushie underneath her chin. hyuck didn’t even blink at it - so it must have been a regular occurrence.

[iampikachuhearmeroar]

honestly one of my worst crush rejections from high school was when my years 9-12 crush (let’s call him rich boy) decided to do one of those stupid “like this status and i’ll…..” trend fb statuses that were big when i was in late high school back in 2011-2013….. and it was “like this and i’ll pair you with someone/something for shit & giggles!”. unfortunately for teen me, rich boy decided to pair himself with one of the girls in my group at catholic school, a post which had a load of likes….. while he paired me with fucking lord voldemort (leave me be i was still a hella HP stan at that age). but the post on MY timeline had received no likes but mine (i think) and a like on the weird asf comment that i’d made on it from one of our friends from catholic school.

like 17yo me liked rich boy’s status all bc she just wanted to see if he’d be nice to her on fb bc she was partly getting over the crush by then (mid 2013)…. but she was still hoping he’d write something stupidly romantic like “you’re the elizabeth bennett to my darcy” or some other jane austen pairing; even though she’d never bothered to read jane austen books back then lmao. or even “you’re the hermione granger to my ron weasley” (again LEAVE ME BE) or some other harry potter themed relationship lmao.

obvs it was all bc a couple of years earlier, rich boy had decided at our year 10 formal to hold one of teen me’s high heels up for her when it’d come off in a dance circle lmao. or at that point, she was even happy to be paired with his best friend that he kept trying to hint at her on some joke statuses with flirtatious undertones; that she should go out with him by tagging that friend on them lol.

the crush was also based on the one term long drama group assignment we did together in year 9, and the one (1) seemingly flirtatious comment he’d made to 14yo me in year 9/2010 when i had that short-lived typical train-wreck teen relationship with clear braces boy…. where rich boy and a couple of his friends decided to sit with us (ie to harass us) on the wooden benches at back of year 9/10 lunch area, which were playground hot property for groups to sit on.

but the point is that the flirtatious comment came out as if to sound that rich boy was jealous about that teen me was “off the market” so to speak lmao. but i remember with the drama group assignment, i hated rich boy at the start and wanted to change groups 😂, even asking my teacher to change me to another one. but he made me stay in the group with rich boy to “learn to work with him” lmao 😂😅. i was so overdramatic back then. and then i got the crush on RB like a sickness for 3 years. the jokes’ on me, as usual lol 🙄😂.

she also was holding out secretly that hopefully rich boy was staying at tafe (technical college) with her bc he liked being with her and also wanted to keep her safe from her stalker/creeper from public school (although let’s be real here, he really couldn’t do much about that lmao, that was more her job to deal with and not his) and in general she hoped he was just staying to keep her updated on what was happening at that school when her group from catholic school had stopped talking to her by mid 2013….

when looking back now, he was probs staying bc he was the top of our small tafe theatre tech class along with me lmao… so he was staying there for the good marks and not teen me’s company at all. on top of it all, by the end of the course, i’d stopped talking to him anyway. like 17/18yo me really had a rosy view of everything lmao.

and also, i haven’t seen rich boy (and by extension also clear braces boy although that’s more than 10 years now lol) in almost 10 years now lmao. i legit forgot that he existed for a while bc he never updates his fb; except when something big happens or when he gets tagged in something. or i’m also reminded that he exists when he likes one of my selfies/i update my dp or whatever else; albeit those times are obvs very, very few and far between. and like…. i’ve pretty much forgiven him for the above. bc god. we were both fucking dickhead assholes. and i suppose i should’ve actually expected some stupid witty pairing like voldemort or the like….. and not a real one lmao….. bc after all, we were always sassy/witty/sarcastic/snarky to each other at catholic school; so we had to play that bs out on our fb interactions as well.

which looking back, didn’t breed a good friendship with us either. considering i only ever went to him for rude tit-for-tat conversations, where i always made sure that i got the last quick-witted word in with criticising him when people were around us; and nothing deep and meaningful or serious lmao. bc to teen me, he was only good to talk to for a laugh mostly… but when we did try to talk about other things it was stilted and awkward; bc we didn’t really know how to be consistently nice to each other when we were alone lmao.

and tafe is also where l learnt that we didn’t really have much in common (besides liking 1-2 of the same emo bands- and things like him going to soundwave (ie aussie warped tour/slam dunk fest etc back then)… where i literally posted flirtatiously on his wall one that that i “hated” him for going to it and also made pointed statuses at him about it lmao) like lonely 14-18yo me thought we did lmao.

for example: rich boy was super into classic cinema (one of his projects in our tafe course was building a model house from alfred hitchcock’s psycho), game of thrones and quentin tarantino movies and also he loved basketball…. while i was still obsessed with harry potter as i said earlier, and still into pretty little liars and into the “…….next top model” reality tv juggernaut with australia’s and america’s next top model and the E! celeb channel; amongst other things. i loathed and despised sport, and most especially basketball lmao. i actually tried to read asoiaf/watch GOT bc he liked it lmao (and also had friends at public school who were into it)…. but i couldnt bring myself to do it at the time. like we weren’t compatible at all lmao. but teen me didn’t get it.

but yeah. unrequited teen crushes suck. so, to all of my younger followers, if i have any: if your crush acts like this don’t waste time on thinking they’ll be nice to you lmao; and drop that crush like a hot fucking potato. bc if they’re mean to you (which is what i was running under from all the shitty tween/teen shows i was watching at the time) it defs means that they do NOT like you romantically lmao. fuck that noise.

[nat-20s]

MEDIA THAT I RECOMMEND YOU CONSUME INSTEAD OF SUPERNATURAL FOR BOTH HEART AND HEALTH BROKEN DOWN BY TYPE OF MEDIA AND WHY YOU MIGHT LIKE IT IF AT ANY POINT YOU, LIKE MY POOR POOR SEVENTEEN YEAR OLD SELF, WERE INVESTED IN THIS ABSOLUTE GARBAGE FIRE OF A SHOW

with apologies to anyone on mobile who’s readmore function APPARENTLY doesn’t work

(I haven’t watched supernatural for at least five years and, given any sort of luck, I will never do so again, do not @ me)

hello babes. I am talking to you know bc I keep seeing supernatural, unironically, on my dash, and I think we can all do better. I see what’s happening and I think: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hU3i_o5Xd4g

Supernatural is fudge stripes. You are Megan. We can fix this.

So a list of alternate things that I think are overall better written/characterized/just generally more enjoyable that might scratch some of those itches:

TV SHOWS

Good Omens

okay look if u were on tumblr last year u probably already watched this show but like. If u haven’t, it’s only six episodes babe and there’s a large enough fandom that u can go down a fanart hole for days on end

Basic summary: the antichrist has reached that lovely young age where he’s supposed to bring about the apocalypse. An angel and a demon who have decided that actually they like the world as is, thank you very much, try to stop the end times. They’re not very good at it though, which makes for a comedy of errors.

Shared elements with supernatural that you might Vibe with: theologic (mostly christian) exploration/parody/imagery without inherently being a religious show. Fighting off the apocalypse narrative, which I think pretty much always goes hard as hell, but that’s just me. There’s a gay angel who’s socially awkward. There’s a fun very British demon. Touches on the hierarchies of heaven and hell, with framing Heaven as a bureaucracy and blurs the differences between angels and demons.  Pining. Tenderness. A deep nostalgia for 80s music, though in this case it’s specifically queen, and who doesn’t love queen. Main character has a weirdly strong bond with his black vintage car.  Satan is (sort of) fought.

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Gravity Falls

sometimes...things that are kids shows...with a set story and a predetermined ending...are better

(also this isn’t relevant to any of what I’m talking about but I really appreciate that Gravity Falls specifically went against the thing that most begged me about ATLA aka that a 15 year old girl would be like yeah I’m into a 12 year old boy because the 12 year old boy has a crush on me and I apparently don’t get to really have a say in this. How does that make sense.)

Basic Summary: Twelve year old twins Dipper and Mabel go to stay with their Grunkle Stan for the summer in a small Oregon town called Gravity Falls. Turns out this town is filled with all sorts of strange phenomena that they often have to confront, work around, learn about, or befriend!

Shared elements with supernatural that you might Vibe with: The core focus of the show is a close sibling duo, but like It’s obvious that the siblings actually like and love each other and while they have their spats it’s still incredibly clear that they deeply care about each other even with their differences LIKE SORRY SUPERNATURAL YOU CAN’T JUST TELL ME THAT SIBLINGS CARE ABOUT EACH OTHER AND THEN THEY SPEND ALL THEIR TIME FIGHTING AND LYING TO EACH OTHER AND GENERALLY ACTING LIKE THEY CAN’T STAND EACH OTHER’S COMPANY BUT THEN OOOHHH YOU CRY ON TOP OF THE HOOD OF A CAR EVERY THREE EPISODE AND SUDDENLY THEY’RE SOULMATES OR WHATEVER

Anyway. Yeah. GF has a solid sibling dynamic. Monster of the week that builds up to greater over-arching plot. A little bit of body horror, you know, for humor. Fair amount of meta humor playing with the tropes of the genre. A Good Ol Big Bad that tries to pit the siblings against each other. Have to fight the apocalypse (you’ll see this point on like a good half of these recs, I really like ‘what are we gonna do about Armageddon’ media). Interesting creature design. Planned, satisfying ending (which supernatural absolutely does not have, but I still think if it had ended with the season 5 finale like it uhh  pretty obviously was supposed to, that would sort of counted. Don’t revive shows that have clearly already told their stories kids.) Tie in media that gives you some fun extra stories when you miss the characters. (yes I read some of the supernatural novels when I was a c h i l d, yes I’m pretty sure there’s one or two of them still buried somewhere on my laptop, no I don’t wanna talk about it.) Older father figure (?) who owns a tbh kind of shitty shop. Both already in place and found family.

It’s a good show, and it’s two seasons. John Mulaney Voice: I dunno it’s 40 episodes

MINI REC ALERT! (mini recs are basically things that I’m not gonna go into detail about for whatever reason [probably either due to i’m not familiar enough with it OR I just don’t like. Have a bunch to say about it in regards to how it will scratch the itches presented to u by spn] but still seem like a Good Watch)

Mini Rec: Over The Garden Wall. Spooky Kids Media! Episodic! Miniseries so you can watch it in like 2 hours! Cool ass Animation! About two brothers encountering said spooky stuff! Big Bad tries to pit brothers against each other! Might haunt you for the rest of your life! Check it out!

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The Haunting of Bly Manor

I think about this show every goddamn day of my life. (Also not relevant but Greg Sestero makes a brief cameo in it and I was like hi greg my friend greg!)

Basic Summary: An girl named Dani, while staying in London, decides to take on an Au Pair job for two young children, an older brother named Miles (age 10) and the younger sister Flora (age 8) at the spoooooky and mysteeerious Bly Manor, and she gets far more than she bargained for.

Shared elements with supernatural that you might Vibe with: Okay so supernatural doesn’t actually do this but I know I KNOW why we let ourselves be queerbaited in 2012. Four words for you: CENTRAL! GAY! TRAGIC! ROMANCE! You want some pining? Some tenderness? Some LOVE? Some dealing with internalized homophobia but no, like, actual violent onscreen homophobia? HAVE I GOT THE SHOW FOR YOU. If ur favorite episodes where the ones that make you sob (for me it was kevin’s death on god), I recommend this show. If you wished that supernatural literally ever had consequences or perma deaths or didn’t retcon major plot events like every five goddamn episodes so that there could be some exploration of like grief and trauma through the lens of/ higher stakes of horror, I recommend this show. If you really do stay up at night picturing a supernatural that wasn’t made by dumbass cishettie white men hack writers but was actually allowed to have Dean and Cas be in love over the course of the show so they could have like actual development and not the most homophobic gay reveal of all time, I recommend this show. Hell, if you just want a banger ghost story in general, I recommend this show.

As for what they actually have in common: horror setting/aesthetic without actually being all that scary most of the time. A strong sibling duo, though they’re not nearly as much of the focus of Bly Manor. Found family. Strong themes of grief. Questions of what turns someone into a monster (and done much better) An actual, much better noble sacrifice done out of love. Escalation of stakes until there’s a big final confrontation. Semi-big bad trying to tear this family apart. Found and pre-installed family. Sad orphans.

Watch this show. Vibe with me. Cry with me. Yell at me about Owen Sharma

MINI REC ALERT!

Haunting of Hill House- spiritual predecessor to Haunting of Bly Manor, though they’re not actually the same universe/story. However, it’s made by the same dude and has a shared aesthetic/sensibilities/some of the cast. This is only a mini rec bc I haven’t actually seen it, but I’ve heard good things and that it, while much more heavily leaning into family dynamics, has similar themes of exploring Grief and Trauma through ghooossstttsss.

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Community

Okay I know that this may seem like a Wild rec considering community is a school sitcom with basically Zero paranormal elements but just like. Hear me out. And no this isn’t just because I think it’s a realy good show and I want more people to watch it, though that is a factor. If I was just recommending comedies that I think are good and more people should watch regardless of them serving as a replacement for supernatural I would demand you all go watch Galavant and Crazy Ex-Girlfriend. I’m gonna demand it anyway. Everyone go watch Galavant and Crazy Ex-Girlfriend. Now back to your original program:

Basic Summary: A group of students at Greendale Community College form a Spanish study group, and things quickly go Off The Fucking Rails in the best way possible.

Shared elements with supernatural that you might Vibe with: All right I’m gonna be real honest this rec is for all of my (correct) bitches who’s favorite episodes of Supernatural were French Mistake, Changing Channels, and/or Mystery Spot. You think if Supernatural would’ve been fucking fantastic if it had been a committed comedy instead of a CW melodrama that occasionally landed some admittedly really fucking funny episodes/concepts, Community (and the movies on this list) will gently take you into its loving arms and give you everything you desire. It’s about the Meta comedy. It’s about the discussion, exploration, and subversion of common tropes within the format. It’s about the grand use of group/ found family dynamics in order to max both the goofs and the heart. It’s about fantastic callbacks. It’s about having one of the few “asshole with a heart of gold” leads I can actually stand because. You know. Growth. It’s about the INCREDIBLE genre and  pop culture parody. Which genre do they parody, you ask. All of them. They parody all the genres. The glee parody episode is a fucking masterpiece of television. If you don’t want to watch a show that features a Halloween party where everyone turns into zombies and the ABBA discography blasts in the background, you can stop reading right now, because I can guarantee you won’t be interested in a damn thing I have to say.

MINI REC ALERT: The X-Files. I’ve also never seen this but a: everything I’ve seen out of context has been fantastically weird and delightful b: it appears that there’s a general consensus that Scully and Mulder are one of the only valid straight couples so it’s probably pretty fun and c: let’s all be honest. Supernatural was already basically an x-files rip off, it had like half of their original writers swiped from the x-files crew, I’m pretty sure if you liked especially the first couple of seasons of supernatural, you’re gonna like the X-files.

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Subcategory: TV SHOWS ( A WHOLE TWO OF ‘EM, OR MORE LIKE ONE AND HALF IF YOU WANNA GET TECHNICAL) I’M SPECIFICALLY RECOMMENDING FOR THAT COCAINE HIT OF PURE UNADULTERATED UNCUT 2012 TUMBLR NOSTALGIA

BBC Merlin

Yes, I know the show ended in 2010. Yes, it still provides that 2012 Tumblr nostalgia. 2012 Tumblr is a feeling, not an actual time period.

I love this stupid show. I plan on rewatching it all over the month of January. I harbor a deep amount of fondness for it. It’s why every time I see literally any depiction of Merlin I get just so fucking excited, and why I’ve consumed as many ridiculous Arthurian adaptations as I have (side note: my two favorite other ridiculous Arthurian legend adaptation are Avalon High, a DEEPLY silly DCOM that is required viewing to level up friendship with me, and The Kid Who Would Be King, which is the only movie that I think truly understands the comedic potential of playing a King Arthur Adaptation mostly straight but everyone in it is 12. I’m not sure it intended to be as fucking funny as it was, but again, they’re all middle schoolers. I have never been more jealous of an actor than I was of the 22 year old that got to play a 16 year old dumbass Merlin who was sometimes also Patrick Stewart and did all of his magic with ridiculous hand gestures That should’ve been me that should’ve been me that should’ve been me. Also Sword in the Stone by TH White is pretty good, because Merlin knows germ theory in the fantasy 400’s and he just uses it to be petty mostly. Also listen to High Noon Over Camelot by The Mechanisms. Also Also I tend to prefer family friendly adaptations because they don’t have the uhhh. You know. Incest and sexual violence of the original legend. Love to Not have that shit!) Whether you watched it initially and are due for a rewatch, or you’re intrigued enough by the concept of the show to watch it for the first time, you should join me on this wild wild ride.

Basic Summary: You know who Guinevere, Arthur, and Merlin are, come on. BBC said let’s make em all YOUNG let’s make em SEXY let’s make em FAMILY FRIENDLY and let’s make magic REALLY SEEM LIKE A THINLY VEILED ALLEGORY FOR BEING GAY BUT TO THIS DAY IM NOT SURE IF THAT WAS INTENTIONAL OR NOT BUT IT SURE SEEMS LIKE IT WAS. @ THE BBC MERLIN CREATORS WHAT IS THE TRUTH BECAUSE THERE WAS SOME INTERVI-

Basic Summary but like a bit more helpful: A BABY version of Merlin (and by baby I mean like 20 year old.) is sent from his small town to the big city the Kingdom of Camelot to find his destiny. Staying with the town physician and friend of his mom’s, Gaius, he ends up as both his assistant and personal manservant to Prince Arthur. But in a kingdom where magic is punished with death and the prince seems hell bent on getting himself into situations that are going to kill him, the young sorcerer has his more than his share of work cut out for him.

Shared elements with supernatural that you might Vibe with: Primo supremo queerbaiting. Like, yeah, okay, it’s queerbaiting, you know it’s queerbaiting, but you watch some of the scenes and ur like okay. I know why I let this bait me. Obviously with a modern show, I would expect more, I would expect better, I would raise my standards, but I gotta admit. Some of these scenes are fuckin compelling as hell, and the subtext is like barely sub. Monster of the week shenanigans. Some awful CGI creatures but like a charming awful. Like the kind of awful that tells you their very limited budget was more focused on cool swords than realistic creatures. Episodic stories build into a more overarching plot, with things getting darker in season 4/5. Shitty father that end up eating shit and while the son of said father is rightfully conflicted and upset over the death it’s cathartic and victorious as all hell for the audience. Multiple hot evil women, and I love hot evil women. There’s also nice hot women, which is a bonus. These women don’t all immediately stupidly die, so that’s a nice change. Also like a LOT of sarcastic humor and shenanigans if u like Sass Merlin is there for u personally name a more iconic line than “Oh I’m sorry, how long have you been training to be a prat, my lord?” AND THAT’S IN THE FIRST FUCKIN EPISODE brilliant amazing fantastic show stopping. Also you know those like dumb hijink episodes where like Dean was possessed by the spirit of a dog or some shit? You bet your bottom fuckin dollar BBC Merlin has those kinds of storylines. Also I know some people go to spn bc it had that HUGE fanbase and like BBC Merlin’s fanbase is still SURPRISINGLY poppin even though it’s been a decade since there was new content so like. Have fun!

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Doctor Who but Specifically the RTD Era

Look I’m not here to say that the first four seasons of reboot doctor who are the only good doctor who or inherently better than all the rest (though the RTD era is my favorite personally) BUT when ur seekin that sweet sweet superwholock frenzy nostalgia, this is the ‘who’ that is being referred to. Also like. Stan 9. We should all collectively stan the ninth doctor. Chris Eccleston, the Objectively Best Famous Chris, deserved better.

Basic Summary: An immortal alien that goes by “The Doctor” travels across time and space with a variety of different companions, often to try and save the day or fix a (sometimes self created) mess. It’s distilled campy sci-fi with a family friendly tone that has made me cry on several occasions.

Shared elements with supernatural that you might Vibe with: Monster of the week that, you guessed it, builds into bigger overarching plot style narrative. Fighting off the apocalypse, but like every couple of weeks because worlds are in danger a LOT. A semi-tragic romance that made people go absolutely buck fuckin wild bc pining n shit. Wamen, but they aren’t fridged. (actually for real though none of the main women die and I just think that’s really fun and flirty even though I could go on a COMPLETELY SEPARATE rant about the injustice of one of the character’s ending YES season 4 is my favorite season and one of my favorite pieces of media ever and I am currently actively recommending it to you  YES im still fucking pissed over how it ended YES we exist) Specifically, a Wonderful and Very Excellent woman named Donna who goes on a spa trip that doesn’t end up going very well. That seems like a highly specific example, and it is, but it did happen in both shows. (Also, to anyone that continued watching SPN after like idk season 9 what happened to Donna? I always liked her and I know she became a recurring character so like DM whatever probably injustice was the end of her story line pls and thank you) I’m also extra specifically recommending for Supernatural Fans and also The World At Large:  Season Four of Reboot Who. I rewatched it last year and it still goes so fucking hard. Donna Noble is the best character in existence. In regards to the appeal for SPN, personally I think the best part of SPN was when people who are soulmates went on adventures and tried to save the day and it was a good mix of banter and sincerity AND GUESS WHAT’S BASICALLY THE ENTIRETY OF SEASON 4 OF DOCTOR WHO. It’s so good y’all I wish Everything was about soulmates going on adventures and trying to save the day.

OKAY TV SHOWS DONE TIME FOR M O V I E S which I don’t have nearly as many recs for but uhh here goes

What We Do In The Shadows/ Shaun of the Dead

I’m lumping these two together bc my reasons for recommending them are largely the same, and I would call them tonally similar enough that if you like one you’ll probably like the other

Basic Summary (Shaun of The Dead): Uh-oh! London’s had a break out of some of that good ol’ zombieism. Shaun and friends decide to hunker down in a local bar, but they have to get there first. Will they survive? Will they fuck up some zom zoms? Who’s to say?

Basic Summary (What We Do In The Shadows): Some vampire roommates dick around. I think there’s technically, like, a plot, but it’s really just about some vampires Doin Their Thing. Vibin.

Shared elements with supernatural that you might Vibe with: This is kind of similar to the Community recommendation, in that supernatural had the opportunity to be one of those things that was both a parody of a genre but also just a really good example of the genre. WWDITS and SotD are both those things for vampire and zombly movies, respectively. Have the aesthetic and some of the themes of a horror but is not actually all that scary. Horror Comedy is a god tier genre and I don’t know why it’s not more widespread. Fun monsters/cast of characters in general, so at least one person in it is probably going to make you go “oh gender” ya know? With SotD you have the fantasy power trip that comes with like any piece of media that involves hunting monsters. With WWDITS I go “yep that’s how bisexuals dress” and I Will Not Clarify which character I’m talking about.

MINI REC ALERT: All of Taika Watiti’s filmography. Thor:Ragnarok is one of like 3 marvel movies that I consider genuinely fucking fantastic completely independent of the MCU and my own tendency to be like “hurr bdurr I love. Superheros”. For the one that is most tonally like Supernatural But Significantly Better and Written By Someone Competent I think I would say try out Hunt For The Wilderpeople. It’s got a reluctant curmudgeonly father figure and I KNOW some of you motherfuckers were so invested in spn when you were like 16 bc you had daddy issues. This is a callout post for my friend [REDACTED], who I should text to watch Hunt for the Wilderpeople, actually.  

MINI REC ALERT X2!!!: Bram Stoker’s Dracula. I’ve never seen it but it has both Winona Ryder AND Keanu Reaves so like. Goth bi rights.

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Happy Death Day (and Happy Death Day 2 U)

happy death day was one of those movies that I saw the trailer, went “eh”, heard other people say it was great, watched, and went holy fuck this slaps. Not nearly as much of a slasher film as the trailers implied if im remembering the trailer correctly

Basic Summary: Our main character Tree keeps waking up on the day she was murdered. The day resets every time that she dies. That’s right, it’s a time loop storey babey!!!!!!!!!!!

Shared elements with supernatural that you might Vibe with: If you were anything like me you were foolishly lulled into supernatural for way longer than you should’ve been on the promise that the characters would idk like grow and change and become better and learn lessons and some of that would be through the power of receiving love and kindness. You know. Like how good writers would do it especially if their main characters are kind of dicks that really should make some changes. Well, Happy Death Day fucking delivers on that promise in SPADES. It’s about growth! It’s about change! It’s about making the active decision to become a better person and putting effort into doing so! There’s heavy themes of like grief and trauma and acknowledging them and facing them head on in order to move on and the negative consequences of refusing to do so and just trying avoid it until it goes away. There’s a romance that makes my dumb little self do the pleading face emoji. Tree is also one of the only good asshole with a heart of gold characters. I also think media is improved by having at least one character that is a Good Good Boy (note: Good Good Boy character does not have to be a man.) and Happy Death Day has Carter. Oh on that note: Tree Voice: I’ve only had character for (the same repeating over and over) a day but if anything happens to him I’ll kill everyone here and then myself. Also the movie is funny so like hell yeah.

that’s all I got for relevant movies right now

BOOK RECS

jk i’m illiterate. Everyone should feel free to go ahead and add their own suggestions for this section The best I can do is uhhhh I think y’all would probably like Mira Grant’s novels, particularly the Newsflesh stories, bc sibling dynamics. Also the book The Haunting of Hill House is really good. Ballad of Black Tom slaps? There’s of course the Good Omens novel that the show was based on. I’m about to recommend some podcasts after this section which will include to Welcome to Nightvale because of course it will and the tie in novels for that slap, especially It Devours!, and I’m pretty sure they work as stories even if you know nothing about the podcast. Also also I think you should read “The Long Way to A Small, Angry Planet” by Becky Chambers It’s not thematically similar to supernatural at all but it’s one of my all time favorite sci fi novels and only like four people have read it which is a goddamn TRAVESTY.

Anyway yeah that’s it that’s all there is. Onto the medium that is like books but I can fold laundry or cook while consuming their narratives.

PODCAST RECS

Okay so this is getting uhhh wicked long so I’m gonna limit myself to only three full blown recs and a

mini rec

Alice Isn’t Dead

Fuck me running this show is so good. Literally hands down my all time favorite (and scariest!) horror podcast. Mamma mia, that’s a good fuckin story. The Book version is also good and has fewer Weird events but some further character development so I recommend them both.

Basic Summary: After her wife Alice disappears mysteriously, Keisha takes up a job as a long haul trucker, traveling all across America in order to find her, but ends up finding so much. Pursued by a deadly creature she calls The Thistle Man, the stakes of her journey are raised.

Shared elements with supernatural that you might Vibe with: okay so I have a lost of bullet points of things that appealed to me specifically about supernatural and how no other shows covers all of them which sucks bc it means I basically Yearn for a show that’s supernatural but good. Alice isn’t Dead, however, hits the most of these bullet points AND is so fucking good. It has monster hunting. It has stopping a cataclysmic event BUT also discussion of the cyclical nature of events such as these and how the fight never truly ends but you can make some fucking progress nonetheless. It has a central gay romance that’s actually a central gay romance. It’s the ONLY show on this list that really hits that the weird and dark underside of americana vibe but specifically the americana of not like suburbs and shit but that eerie haunted feeling you get when you’re hours into a late night drive on open roads with no civilization around and an expansive sky and it just Seems like something should be watching you. Have you ever been out for a walk at midnight and encountered a deer and you looked into each other’s eyes and it felt like it was telling you a message that you couldn’t possibly hope to parse? Have you ever felt an incredible sense of deja vu eating in a restaurant you couldn’t have possibly been in before, because you’ve been to a thousand diners a thousand times just like one, and there’s an incredibly sense of homogeneity even though you’re 2000 miles away from anyone and anything that could possibly know you? Have you ever traveled to an area that seems to be stuck in a bubble of time, the only thing that shows any evidence of having aged past 2006 being yourself, and you wonder how your cell phone even works around here? THAT’S the spooky americana I’m fuckin talking about! Messed up road trips! Too much goddamn space! America is scary because it’s big and Filled With Things but also Not Enough Things! Fuck yeah!!!!! That time bubble fuckin EXISTS in Wyoming the most recent song on the radio I heard was fuckin Hey Soul Sister!

Also has a thing where like are there even good guys and bad guys in a conflict or is it all just one umbrella nightmare that you’re trying to stand against in anyway possible (u kno..like how the overarching structures of both heaven and hell were kinda fucked in spn? No spoilers but similar shit be happenin in Alice Isn’t Dead). Exploration of what makes someone into a monster, like how do you go down that path? Also this is the only show on this whole damn list that southern gothic music really suits it so points for that.

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The Magnus Archives

You know I had to do it to ‘em.

Basic Summary: Jonathan Sims has just become the Head Archivist at the Magnus Institute, a “research” “facility” that looks into paranormal/esoteric/unexplained phenomena.

John Mulaney Voice, Again: Nobody knows what the archivist is going to do next, least of all the archivist. He’s never been in an archives before, he’s just as confused as you are.

Shared elements with supernatural that you might Vibe with: Oh fuck this document is over 5k long I said I wasn’t gonna do this hhhhh so lipton lightning round: Slowburn Gay Romance but Actually Canon, Monster Hunting but Hey What Even Is A Monster Anyway, Acts Somewhat like a Loosely Connected Horror Anthology until it DOESNT, Little Things Build to Bigger Narrative, Characters Be Goin Through It (On God These People Need Therapy), Trying to Prevent/Fix The Apocalypse (X2!!!), Smug Asshole Big Bad,  Horror as a Metaphor For Various Shit, Basically if you thought that the Men of Letter concept slapped and you think it should’ve been the whole damn show including being Deeply British you would probably really fuckin like TMA. Also if ur like the ideal piece of media is a horror tragedy but also like it’s a wacky sitcom but also also fuck cops. U will like tma.

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Welcome to Nightvale

IF ANY 2012 TUMBLR FANDOM DESERVES TO MAKE A MASSIVE COMEBACK AND BE EVERYWHERE AGAIN AND ABSOLUTELY FLOOD MY DASH IT’S WELCOME TO NIGHTVALE WHY DID WE ABANDON THE SHOW THAT TREATED US THE MOST KINDLY DID YOU KNOW THAT EPISODES 108-110 ARE THE BEST FUCKING BUILT UP NARRATIVE REVEAL THAT I HAVE WITNESSED IN MY LIFE DID YOU KNOW THAT IT CONTINUED TO BE REALLY FUCKING GOOD AFTER MOST PEOPLE STOPPED LISTENING DID YOU KNOW CECIL AND CARLOS ARE MARRIED AND THEY HAVE A DOG AND A TODDLER NOW BECAUSE OF ALL THE GAY PODCAST PROTAGONISTS CECIL GERSHWIN PALMER LOVE OF MY LIFE ELDRITCHIAN CHEERLEADER AND CERTIFIED BIMBO KEEPS FUCKIN WINNIN BABY. DID YOU KNOW THAT CECIL THINKS PEANUT BUTTER IS A ROCK.

Basic Summary: Welcome to the sleepy desert town of Ņ̶̏ight V̶͚̰̮͗̔̊̊ale! Community radio how host Cé̵̟͚͕̗̞̙͂͑̽̄́c̵̤̼̞͈̪͓̍̽̋̚̕͜il Pǎ̵̧̨̢͚̻̈̂̄̇͐̇̊̀̆ͅl̶͚͎͕͉͖̬͓͑́̐̒̍̿̈́͢͜͝ͅm̸̧͙̟̖̠̳̬͋́͋́͌̚̚ͅȩ̙̖͎̖͂́̒͐͜͞r̢̢̛̰̻̮̺̩͙̼̈́͋̀͘ is here to k̠̠̰̦͙̯̥̎̄̆͌̎̀̿̔̌̚ê̷̢̬̥̞̩̯̘͒̽̈̓͐̂̔̍e̶̡̝̗̺̫̪̜͆̓̿̈͌͌̆͒͞ͅp̵̹̗̬̼̠̬͙̏͐͐̉̅͊͊́͟͞ͅͅ ỷ̛͙̞̦̦͖̑̉̌̎͞͡͡͝ͅo̧̧̥͎̻̥̲͇͋́́̔̈͌͞ǔ̸̬̯̫͇̦̮͕̤̲̯̽̔̀̔͆͋̈́͘̚ up to date all the local happenings, including w̸͐̆̅̂̃��̢̢̢̧̡̡͍͖̻̳̹̼̼̰̬̭̱͔̲͙͍̰̠̥̺̝͖̺̖̼̮̼̞̳̞̜͉̤̯͇̖̳͖̠̙̺̲̤͇͈͚͓̮̭̱̭̩͚̟̥̬̟̻̝̼̖͚̘͆͊̉̏͒́̈́̋͗͑̄̉́̐̌́̿̌͛̾̎̊̾̃̈́̉̔̍̐͛̕͘̚͜͜͠͠é̵̢̡̧̨̨̡̧̨̡̛̹̥̥̞̮̯͙͈̻̝͓͖͙̦̰͍̖̜̲̰̞͎͈̭̯̳͕̗͓͈̭̫̼̯̪̞̯̰̲̘̭͎̪̱̗̝̝̞̤̱͉͙̯͎̬͎̙̜̗͉̩̦͕̪̳͇͙̺̙̰̠͚͎̜̠͔̬͎̺̣͕̜̊̓̃̐̂́͂̎̐̾̔̽̀̉́̍̊̂̿̎͂͐̎̐̄̍̔̋̐̃͗̈́͂̀̒̊̎͘͘̕̚̕͜͝͝͝͠ͅͅa̸̡̧̡̡̨̡̨̛̛͙̣̘̳͎͖̥̝̟̱̩̥͙͉̝̲̙̮̩̩̹̱͔͎̥̹̻̜͚̭̬̳͚̤̙̖̯͎̱̫̞̪̻͖̱̞͔̭̻̺͚͚̯̬͓͓̳͇̳̦͓̞͈̮̤̭̣͉̲̞͚̘͗̆̃͌̅̍͊̓̈̇̌̒͊͑̊̏̊͌̈̓̿͗̒̏̒͊͒̏̃̎̒̀̅̾̍̀͘͘͜͝͠ͅt̵̢̡̨̧̧̛̛̛̯̤͓̘̻̤͓̪̰͔̪̝̫͎̻͔͈͎͔͙͕͈̰͓͍̀̏͒̆͋̈́̈́͂̔͋͆͂̅͗̍̆̍̆̔̑͊̏̈͒́̽͊́̿͂́̓͛̽͐͌̌̐̈̇̃̓̆̍̅̃̔̚̕͜͝͝͝ͅͅh̸̨̨̡̢̢̡̢̧̡̧̢̡̨̡̭̜̬̬̙͕̗̙̻̯̠̘͙̻̥͉͚̼̗͚͇͉̰͍̥͉̗͎̬̫͖͉͔̼̮̯̞̫̬̟̻͉̖̙̥̫͖̬͚̟̜̭͇͎̭̘̝̲̤͕͎̰̭̗̯̮̤̙̙̯͍̞̭͚͔͎̞̹̲̟͉̩̭̖̱̠͍̺͈̟̩̋̆̈́͆̍̆̄̏͜ͅͅȇ̸̢̢̨̨̧̛̜͍̺͎̬̪͙̻̝̣͓͈̺̩̳̟̲̠̣͈͎͎͈͉̙̪͖̳̺͇̹̊̍͊͑̿͊̌͛̿̓͊̾̀͂͛̉͆̾̽͆̈̏͛̊͛̍̈́̇͋̔͂̑͐̂̿͊̽͑͘̚͘͝͝͠͝ͅͅŕ̵̨̡̨̨̢̧̡̧̨̘̟͙̦̲̲̪̦̙̼̠̳͚̞̦̞͖͚͇̳͖̲̭͕̜̫̳̖̙͖͉͎̘̘̤̠͈̬͕̝̻͚̥͍͕̠̥͙̙̪̖̯͍̘̘̲̣̹̜̪̲̭̟̮̫̖̤̰͔̩̩͉̲͚̟̝̦̬̪̘̬̮̱͔̻̦̼̃̐̂͋̐̅̋͒̉͛́̅̈́̒̒͆̑̆͊̒͒̀̍̈́̍͌̍̏̔͋͌̒̍̌͛̓̈̂̐̕͘͘͜͜͝͝͝ͅͅͅ ̶̢̡̨̛̠͇̹̯͕͍̻̟̼̼̗̩̱̗̙̱̥̜̬̫̜͎͉̺̣͓̟̯̱͖̣̞̠̝̥͍̲̳̙̠͔̹̘̲̲̻̖̈́̊͋͜͜ą̵̡̧̟͕̬̳̜͈͈̳̝̜̣̬͔͈͈͎͉͍̯̟̞̺͎̝͇̰̥͖̬̯͙̤̬̼̲̦̯̭͓̠̺̳̱̰̮̎͋͆̈́͌͆̎̉̓̇̐͋͋́̃̉̈̄̏̓̉̿̅̒̉̒̉͂͛̄̀̇̒͊͛́͊̎́͆̌̆́̌͂̈́̽̋͛͗̑̊̀́̍͊̌͆͊͐͆̅̒̊̉̾̄͛̑̕͘͘͘͘͝͝͝͝͠͠͝n̸̡̛̛̛̛̛̙͎̬̦̠̼͓͈̝̾̍͑͛̅̒̾́̌̍͛̇̋̇̓̏͛̔͛̈́͆̿̌͐̿͊̿́͒̍̃̀̈͐̐̆͐̉̒̂̉̀̅̇̾͋̍͒̋̈̌̿͒͐̍́͗̀̌̌̚̕̕̕͘̚͘͘̚͜͠͝͝͝d̴̡̢̢̛̛̛̺̠̳̬͎̞̲̣̲̱̳̪̹͉̝̠̱̗̙̫̠̹̼̙̝͉̲̟̮̙̙̮̻̹͈̦̙̞͚̜̙̖̞͓̙̭͉̃̽̌̅̔̾̈́̒̽͑́̒͋̓̈́͆͋̽̒̃̽̋̐͌͂̍͑́̽̋̍͗̋͗͂̅̽̈̈̾͐̄̃̕̕͜͠͠͝͠͝ͅͅ ̵̡̡̢̛̛̗͚͍̺͇̲̳̯͓̰͍̙̮̙̜̟̞̣̼͕̝͔͙̺̫͈͈̠̻̘̱͍̦̭͔͈̤̺̗̮͕̦̞̘͍̯̻̝͓̤̳̫͔̩͉̬̈́͋̈́̐͒́̔́́̿̓̆͐̎͆̇͒̄̈̿̓̑̾̏̔̿͊̌͆͒̒͊̓̅̓́̔̅̀̀̀̃̿̂̑͂͆̅̎̾̏̓̂̈́͛͌̇̾͌͐̈̂̆͐̅̓̍̓̃̆͗̃͛̏̒̌̀̅͊́̽̐̆̿́̌͘͘̚̕͘̕̕͜͜͜͠͝͠͝͠t̷̢̥͓̄͗̾̄̅̚͜r̵̨̡̨̧̧̢̛̛̛̛̛͍͙͚̥̱̞̜̦̜̼̺͉̠̬͎̰̻̜̼̫̤͓͖͖̤͇̞̥̖̈́͊̆̓͊̑̑̋̒̈́̔̆͆́̐͛͑͊͋̇̈́̓̑̍̏͐͛̽̋̎͑̃̈́͒̇̂̇̌͂̀̍̊̇̓̋̈́̌̏̕͘̚̕̚͝͝͠ǎ̴̡͓͓̯̘̥̱̱͖̦̺͓̘͉͖̞̟̦͈̜̥̰̘̞͈̦̠̼̯̙̭̼͚̟̖̲̠̝̜̐̅͆̏̈́̍́͂̃̾͑̓͋̽̄̾́̾̆̾͒͋̎͂̈́͘̕̕̚͜ͅͅf̷̢̡̡̧̢̨̡̧̢̢̧̡̧̫͖̖͇̲̫̮͕͉͓̩̪̳̹̩͎̖̟̤̤̲̟̪̫̻̻̖̟̦͉̼͎͖̭͍͖͎̖̳̳͙̜͉̝̘̺̖͚̙͉͕͙̯͖̞͚̮̲̻͉͙̺̭͓͎̤͙̦̦̺̯͕̜̰͍̳̙̦͉̪̥́͋̓̅̀͋͐̀̄̊̆̉̒̐͒̀̏̈̇̊̉̆̐̏̾̀̀̓͛͆̍̾͗͌̀̄̔͒̀̍̈́͆̔̒̑̏̍̏͆́̾̐̂͋̂̔̂́̓̓̌͌̉͛́̒̐̽̏́̑͊́̌̆̂̑͋̇̈́͌̑̿̅͗̚̕͘̕̚͜͠͝͝͠͠f̴̨̨̛̹͌̂̓͌͛̀͑̾̓̍͗̽͆̉̊͗̇́̍͌̊͐̔̈́̊̇͆̄̃̑̕̕͘͘͘͠͝͝͝͠i̴̧̡̢̢̧̢̨̨̧̧̧̛̛͎̗̳̦̘̙͓̦̙͔̜̼̘͇͇̺̭͉̠̩̟̤̥̘͙̤̩͔̪̱̻͈̪̼̼̞̠͎̟̹͕̻̭̤̪̲͕̟̺̻̻͖͕͚̣͇̖̰̝̩͈̤͕͇͕̝͙̙̪͔̗̫͇͎̙̲̲͖̗̘͉̲̣̤͎̔̐̆͒̄̈́̀̎̃̃̅͆̌̈́̽̈́̅̈́̑̄̇͒͐̀̐̀̒̍̀̓͌͗̓̽́͗̓̎͂͛̅̑̔̀͛̈́̽̾̃̊͊͆̄̍͑̍̆̌̾͗̄̊̽̉̅̆̀̎̀͑̿̎̋̄̆̃͐̾̏͛͒̍̋̅͘̕̚̕̕͜͜͝͝͝͝͠ͅͅc̷̛̛͚̝̻̣̞̓́̃́̀̃̓͗͌̂͛́̒̊͑̓͆̇̈́͑̏̆̀͌̑͂͂̄͌̉̔̋́̎͒̿͗͒͛̇͛̿̎̍̕̕̕͝͝͝͝͝ ̴̢̧̢̡̨̢̡̨̡̢̢̛̺̘̹̯̤̩̘̯͔̞̟̬̠̣̟̻̥̜̤͔̥͕̠̥̞͎̗̩̱̮͉͔͎̲̯̱̙̜̥̳̮͔̦̣͖͔̜͉̗̪̳̹̦̤͇̣̙͕̯̫̖̝̼̹͍̠͎͓̗͎̦͓̲̯̱̠̰͇̮̹͔̝͉͙̹̜̹͈̹̥͖̣̳̲͖̓́͌̈́̈́̀͌̄͂̌̾́̍̔̊̓̿͋͂͋̈́̋́́̒̓̀̒̃͂̀͑̐͛̆̆͒̈́̅̿͊͌̍͗̌̌͆̂͌́̉̏̒̓͊̾̒̓̋̽͐̏̾͘̕͜͝͠͝ͅͅr̸̨̢̛̪̞̬͓͔̥̤̣͔̭̥̙͉̦̗̠̳̩͙̂̈́͑͑̿̋̓̀͋͆̋̕͝͝ë̴̢̡̨̬͈͉̖̞͔͎͓͖̼̘̬͕̰͈̥͈̝̩͎͉͉̫̜͚͕̤͔̟̯͓͎̟͙̜̭̩̗̮͎̗̤͇̝̩͎̜̺̯͕͇̝͎̯͙̖͙̮̗̮̘́̑͑͛̂̅̄̌̽̓̒̾̿͆̏̏͐͛̾̂̃͑͆̅̄̿͋̅͂̈́̽͋͒̎͐̒̓͆̌̉͑͊́̀̈̾͛̋͑̋̎̈̀̽̀͊̏͘͝͝͝͝͠͝ͅp̴̧̧̡̢̢̢̛̛̛͚̟͓̖̭̪̻̪̲̬̥̙̥̰̼̹͎͕̪̞̮̺̰̬̘̫̤͉̦͙̮̖̙̹̻͔̖̮̲̞̣̻̜̠͇̬͚̱̦̼̲̮̀̂͌̍̈̒̍̋̌̏͐̓͛̉̂̈̀͑̈́͊͗͋͗́̂̎̎̃͆͒̅̑̇́̈͐̾̀̔̒̉͑͒̅̓̈́̋͋̀̍̄̿̌̀̉͆̇̔̈́͗̋̄̓̇͗̎̉̆͊̒͗̚̕͘͘̕̕̚͜͜͝͝͠͠͠͠͠ͅͅͅơ̶̢̡̧̨̡̛̛͔̦̼̰̠̯̰̟̲̣̜͙̲͙̪̱̱͕̺̪͈͉̺̻̙̥̲̩̲̩͔̠͚̩͓̞̠̯̟̫̣̗̦̰͉͚͙̺͎̼͖̥̙͈̯̲̝̞͎̻͕̮͔̰̖͔̭͙̩̼͔̫̹̘͓͔̜̘͍̍̅̄͋͑̋̍̊̉̄̈̽̈͐̀͌͐̆͊͂̐̋̃̎͆͛̐̀̂̿̈́͂́̈̌͐̇̀̒͋͑͐́͌̐̇̊͆̀͂͋̏́͋͆̏͗͂͑̂̓̽͘͘̚̕̕̕̕̚͘͜͜͠͝͝ͅͅͅr̴̨̨̨̧̨̛̘͕͈͔͙̠̬̯̩̗̰̗̬̦͈̗̝̣͓͓̟͕͙͈̠̘̻͓̭̝̘̦̦͓̭̘͙̻̙̼̩̰̝͈̱̝̱̬͉͙̣̖̮̲͈̙̱̩̣͕̦̰̮͔͈͓̙̮͍̳̟̠̞͎̱̣̰͕̩̝̲̝͐́́̍̈͐͋̐̑̌͋̓̈́̈͗̿̈̈́͗̑̚͜͜͜͜͜͝ͅͅţ̴̢̨̧͇͉͎̣̬̣̝̗̬̹͇̮̞̈́̐̌̇̈́̌͊̐̅̂̌̂͒͌́̈͌̂̊͗̍̿͑͋̎̓͂̀̎̎͒̾̏̒͌̃̄͋̌̾̍̈́̐̏͑̊̍͑͆̉̓́̆̌̾̓͊̊̈̑͘̚̕͘͘̕͝͝͝͝͝s̴̢̢̡̛̬̹͚̻͉̦̦̣̦̠̜͕̤̳͓͙̟̬͕̘̦̿͗̉̏̒͆̓̄͊͌͛͂͑̒̃͛͘͜͝͝!

Shared elements with supernatural that you might Vibe with: Honestly, probably bc Nightvale and Alice are by the Same Dudes, a lot of these points are the same as Alice Isn’t Dead, but it’s less scawy and more funney. Also hits the “horror, but make it kind of a sitcom” vibes. Doesn’t have the same road trip vibes, but DOES capture the exact weirdness of South Western USA, so I’m still giving it “fucked up americana” credit. If you’ve never been to New Mexico ur like this is an exaggeration clearly no desert town is subject to like ACTUAL cosmic horror and unexplainable sights but I’m telling you New Mexico is just Like That. (I highly recommend visiting the land of enchantment if you ever get the oppurtunity it is a deeply odd and wonderfully unsettling experience.) Look man it’s gay it’s a horror comedy cecil has a wonderfully soothing voice and it hates capitalism so fucking much like oh my god so much what more could you want.

MINI REC ALERT: Wolf 359! I have nothing deep to say about this I just like it and my gut tells me that y’all would enjoy it too I know there isnt much for physical descriptions in the show but I know in my heart that the main character is so so pretty and so so stupid. I KNOW yall like some himbos that experience character growth.

Okay since It’s my party and I’ll speak if I want to rapid fire list of podcasts I just like and want more people to listen to even though I’m behind on like all of them shhhhh: The Penumbra Podcast, BomBARDed, Dungeons and Daddies, Stellar Firma, Wonderful!

SONG RECS

okay these aren’t like replacement recs or anything they’re just really good and I almost certainly would have put them on some sort of supernatural playlist in 2013 but I don’t, like, have a good playlist for them now so I’m subjecting y’all to them also they all have the youtube link for ease of access

Woah There Kimmy-  Felix Hagan & the Family

Devil’s Backbone- The Civil Wars

Blood On My Name- The Brothers Bright

Awake O Sleeper- The Brothers Bright

The Bottom of the River- Delta Rae

Old Number 7- The Devil Makes Three

The Bullet- The Devil Makes Three

In Hell I’ll Be In Good Company- The Dead South

Bartholomew- The Silent Comedy

Pomegranate Seeds- Julian Moon

Curses- The Crane Wives

Tongues & Teeth -The Crane Wives

OKAY THAT’S IT! THAT’S ALL FOLKS! FUCK!

[wildernessuntothemselves]

I just realized that I'm suffering from eating disorder. I'm 20. Mildly chubby being 98lb and 5ft tall.

So I've been doing intermittent fasting where I only eat one meal a day. It's been 2 days and it's easy because I don't usually eat a lot and I've done 4/20 fasting in the past.

But the thing is my family is very unhealthy. My mom is 200lb, so is my dad and my lil sis who is 10 years younger than me but is the same weight as me.

So are my relatives who are all either very overweight or chubby.

They all have have this idea that we must eat a lot of rice(typical asian family). Even if they have like noodles or bread before, they'll eat rice for the meal. They consider other carbs as snacks and only rice is the healthy option.

And I can't educate them and convince them that a healthy diet is the way. With more veggies and meat.

And today, as usual, i wasn't going to have dinner. But my mom banged on my door and forced me to eat. Like they usually beat me up and doesn't give me allowence or kick me out if I don't obey their every word since I was young.

So not wanting to get in trouble, I ate. And vomitted in my room. Idk if it'll work if I vomitted but I realized that that's what usually kids with eating disorders do in movies.

I just want to be pretty. (The reason I'm trying so hard not to stan a girl group is because I usually get very insecure about my body after watching them)

-🐍

I'm confused 98 lbs for a 5 foot tall female is not chubby at all??? That's a BMI of 19.1 which is on the lower end of normal. I'm not sure if you meant to write 198 or if you really think 98 lbs is a lot.

Either way you don't have to cut rice completely out of your diet. If you're overweight just eat a smaller portion but definitely do not eat and then make yourself vomit. Help yourself before you develop a full fledged disorder. If your family makes you eat a big portion at dinner then each a smaller portion of breakfast and lunch or cut out high calories snacks.

Once again if you're really 98 lbs then you do not need to be losing any weight anyway. If you're not satisfied with how your body looks maybe you could work out a bit which could tighten your body and is generally healthy for you (but don't overdo it)

[simple-heroics]

Class 1-A Girls as Roommates

Oh, my god, they were roommates

Momo Yaoyorozu

First of all, you lucky bastard I hate you. Secondly, I’d like to make the point that Momo is wealthy af and has no financial need of a roommate. So, if you two are living, you’re probably already great friends with her or more. 

Momo loves to share. She is an extremely generous person, so she'll totally offer you some of her food when she cooks and even some of her shower products. 

Totally lets you borrow her clothes. Different sizes? She's gotchoo! Can and will create the best clothes for you. This is especially helpful if you have a date.

Speaking of her Quirk, its usefulness becomes really apparent when you two first move in and are still figuring out where things are or what you still need for the house. Bought that knife set but somehow forgot a can opener? Momo’s gotchoo again. 

A great communicator and takes the initiative to make sure you guys are on the same page about chores. Despite her busy hero career, Momo still does a great job keeping up with her fair share.

Please sit and drink tea with her. She'd love it. Probably the best thing about being Momo's roommate is coming home at the end of the day to this beautiful woman omg are you're okay with just being roommates and catching up over cups of freshly brewed tea. 

If something happens and you’re unable to pa your rent one month, Momo can cover it. Will not guilt or shame you over this. No matter what kind of petty roommate argument you two might have, she will never hold that over your head. Ever. Things happen, and Momo understands that.

The not so great...

Yaomomo is such a sweetie but...she's also a rich girl who is used to a lot space. Her furniture will fill up the whole apartment. An entire kitchen cabinet is stuffed to the brim with her teas, so you'd have to find some other space to shove your cereal.

Nonetheless, she tries very hard to be a good roommate - especially if it's her first place after moving out of her parents' house/school dorms - and this sometimes leads to her being overly accommodating. That and the above can lead to some tension between you two. 

Momo has such long, beautiful hair...and it absolutely gets clogged in y'all's shower. Good luck.

Mina Ashido

Mina is the fun roommate! I’m talking late nights spent goofing off, playing video games and watching movies or even just talking if you want. If you two weren’t best friends before moving in together, guess what?

You’re best friends now. or more?

Alien Queen is also Snack Queen. Our pink homegirl buys lots of snacks and is more than happy to share.

Um, garbage? What garbage? Her Quirk dissolves it and that’s one utility y’all are saving money on now to get Kaminari to help with the electricity

No matter how bad your day was, how shitty your boss, how long your commute, Mina can always make you laugh. Which is a nice way to end an otherwise completely shit day.

Actually pretty good about keeping the apartment tidy! Living in the UA dorm taught her a lot about being considerate of shared spaces and she’s always out and about anyway. So almost no worries about messes 

Because she’s either out and about or doing patrols, you actually get the apartment to yourself quite a bit?? Ummm, SCORE! Until you start missing your pink roomie/bestie

That is, if she’s not inviting/dragging you out to do stuff with her! If you’re someone who needs a bit of prompting to get out of the house, Mina is great for that!

Also...the roommate who is constantly trying to hook you up with her friends. Like, I’m serious. If you’re not already seeing anyone, this die hard romantic will constantly try to set you up with people hey, roomie, pls introduce me to Kirishima. You won’t need a dating app ‘cause Mina Ashido is your roommate and girl knows everybody.

The not so great...

If you're pretty introverted or just really prefer quiet at home, being roommates with Mina can be hard. Mina is a social butterfly - loud and bubbly and all these other wonderful qualities that simultaneously don't mesh well with most introverts.

Speaking of social butterfly, she invites her friends over. A lot. And y’all know that the Bakusquad spells c h a o s

It would also not surprise me if Mina had a number of...ahem, overnight guests. So prepare for extra (awkward) company at breakfast.

Sometimes gets so caught up in her social life, all those hobbies, and hero work that...she forgets that rent or utilities are due. Whoops. You’ll have to remind her sometimes. 😬

Good luck if you have wooden floorboards. Mina loves to dance and this means a lot of scuff marks.

Ochaco Uraraka

This cutie! 12/10 would room with her if I could

When she first started UA, Ochaco had to move to Musutafu and live on her on which I'm sure was a little scary for a 15-year-old girl and definitely lonely. She wasn't looking forward to being alone again after graduation but wait! She has you!

Really appreciates your presence in your shared home and will undoubtedly cherish you, even treating you like family. It makes her so happy when she comes home after a long day of patrols and having someone respond when she says, "I'm home!" Ochaco, lemme be your housewife

Video game nights with Dekusquad? Video game nights with Dekusquad! 

Pretty clean and always does her dishes which automatically puts her the top tier of roommate categories, let’s be real. 

She knows where all the deals are, when certain sales are happening, and where to go for the best discounts. And she shares all this hard-earned knowledge with her precious roomie (that's you, boo). Grocery shopping with her is intense because she gets super competitive about getting those deals before everyone else but it's also so much fun.

Master couponer. You knows those ladies that clip so many coupons that they sort them into little bags and actually sell them in bundles? That's Ochaco. She's even part of some online couponing groups. 

But she always hands you the coupons for your favorite snacks.

The not so great..

Ochaco works really, really hard and takes on a lot of missions. So, when she gets home, the usually upbeat hero can be a little...grouchy. By grouchy, I mean snappy and sulky and -- who is this woman and what did she do to your sweet, adorable roommate? 

Seriously, just don’t talk to her or make a lot of noise until she sleeps for 10+ hours and eats or she might send you floating to your shared ceiling.

That roommate who will get on you if you leave any of the lights on or stay in the shower for too long. She is NOT shelling out extra cash on utilities next month because of you!! honestly same

Toru Hagakure

Another fun roommate! 

We’ve seen her room, and we can tell by looking at it that she loves to decorate. If you (probably) have different tastes than hers, Toru will find ways to compromise and combine both your preferences to decorate your shared apartment! You know what that means?

Ikea trips. Toru’s enthusiasm alone makes it so much fun but it’s not as fun when you inevitably lose her in that Swedish labyrinth. (Hint: Check the various kids’ sections. She got distracted by the cute plushies.) 

If you two are not constantly updating your interior design, you’re at least adding to it. it makes the space just uniquely yours and feel so homey.

Toru has some real 👌👌 taste in movies. Her movie collection makes for some awesome movie nights. Bring all the blankets, plushies, and the like and you’re in for a chill night.

Out of everyone on this list, I feel like she’ll be the easiest to convince to get a pet. She skips the “well, who is gonna pay for food?” talk and doesn’t spend any too much time deliberating over her busy hero schedule - just jumps right on in to the nearest adoption agency.

Congrats, you’re now parents of an adorable, slightly grumpy rescue cat. Which - bonus - actually makes it so much easier keeping track of Toru because it’s almost always brushing against her legs or on her lap.

The not so great...

Definitely the nosy roommates. She wants to know all the details about your life and is the type to peak into your room because she's curious. Her Quirk only makes all the easier for her.

She likes to leave cute or funny messages on the fogged up bathroom mirror or with magnets on the fridge which is cute but...unnerving when an invisible being sends you random messages in your apartment.

....and according to the wiki, she loves hidden-camera prank shows? Welcome to Jackass, roomie. You’re gonna get pranked.

Also because of her Quirk, she often has to remove her clothes to make full use of her invisibility but this has also lead to a bad habit of leaving articles of clothing throughout the apartment. You often find random socks and gloves and even shirts out throughout the apartment.

Tsuyu Asui

A+ roomie. Seriously, give this girl all a gold star.

Super tidy, super considerate, and super stoked to live with you. She’s used to a full house and honestly wasn’t so sure about living on her own straight after graduation. Then came you!

Tsuyu looooves to cook with you. If your cooking skills need work, she’ll happily teach you. Out of everyone else on this list, you share the most meals together. 

Soooo many blankets and pillows in your apartment! Tsu needs the extra layers during winter and honestly, just build a blanket fort for you two. It’s great. just roommates huh?

Absolutely will text you just to check in if she makes it home before you and has no problem either waiting up for you or even walking to meet if it’s dark. And honestly, what’s better than 

Being super straightforward, Tsuyu always lets you know if there’s something up with the apartment or just if she’d like you to be a little quieter coming home. Also an observant person and checks in on your needs/preferences as well. Y’all rarely have any typical roommate spats because she’s direct and makes sure to communicate.

We stan a sweet, considerate frog roommate in this household.

The not so great...

Because she grew up taking care of two younger siblings and then lived with the entire 1-A class (19 teenagers in one building -- that's insane) in the dorms, Tsuyu actually has little tolerance for messes in common spaces. 

Tsuya Asui ain’t your momma. You're both adults and you both pay rent, so she expects you clean up after yourself and will call you out if you don't.

Especially about those dishes left in the sink. You can say that you just left the pots in there "to soak", but Tsuyu ain't buying it. And she tells you as much.

Not above shaming your messes on her Snap story i’m that petty roommate or bringing up that you forgot to take out the trash in front of other people.

Kyouka Jirou

She's the cool roommate. By that, I mean the one you’re lowkey bragging about when you describe her to your friends. Girl is a hero, plays pretty much every instrument, and is just a cool person in general. It’s hard not to brag.

Seriously, just her mere presence alone makes your place at least 70% cooler than it would have been if you lived by yourself. That’s how cool she is.

Super respectful of your privacy. Like, she won’t even know what your room actually looks like unless you actually invite her in.

Great roommate banter. Kyouka has a great dry sense of humor and likes to tease people, so you two can go back and forth all day.

Great texter. She always gives you a heads up when people are over or if you guys need anything for the apartment. Bonus: lots of hilarious pics of Bakusquad being idiots.

Don't tell her that you can hear her when she sings in the shower; it'd just fluster her and make her self-conscious. But being able to listen to that amazing voice in your own home?👌👌👌

If you're someone who doesn't necessarily need or even want a tight knit relationship with a roommate, Kyouka is your best bet. She's generally really chill and won't get hyped over being best friends. 

That said, she’s a pretty empathetic person and easy to talk to. She’ll absolutely stay up late with you just to talk if you need it. Gives great advice.

The not so great...

You will lose track over how many times you ask her to turn the music down. 

Like Mina, Kyouka comes as a package deal with the Bakusquad. Kyouka doesn’t invite them over often because even she doesn’t want that chaos in her home but sometimes it’s inevitable.

She’s not much of a cook. Plus she’s pretty busy keeping up with her hero career, music, and group of friends, so she doesn’t have much free time anyway. This means she orders out - a lot. Good news? Hardly any friction over cleaning dishes. Bad news? Her take out boxes leave little room in the fridge for your food.

BONUS: Regardless of who you room with, you’ll hardly ever worry about a break-in or any crime in your neighborhood because your roommate is a professional hero and will kick any home intruder stupid enough to try anything.

[lokisasylum]

Map of the Soul: 7 Album - First listen review

[I won’t bother reviewing the ones from PERSONA that were added, since I already did a post for Persona when it came out. Only the new songs]

#1. Interlude: SHADOW

WOW.... just when you thought the first version hit hard/differently. The extended version comes in to choke-slam you against the wall.

#2.  Black Swan

Our new Royal to take a spot in the throne of power along with Blood Sweat & Tears, Spring Day, Fake Love, and Outro: TEAR.

Do we even need to add more additional to what we’ve been saying since its release? As an artist, the lyrics still pull at my heart strings the same way they did the first time I heard it. Especially the verse that says:

‘If this can no longer resonate No longer make my heart vibrate Then like this may be how I die my first death But what if that moment’s right now Right now .’

This verse can be applied to ANY time we loose faith in ourselves or have to give up on a dream/passion and how that separation slowly kills us inside.

#3. Filter (Jimin’s solo)

....Not gonna lie, this song gives me TRUST ISSUES just because its Jimin LOL!

‘Cause I remember seeing & hearing Serendipity for the first time and it was such a lovely melody and the lyrics were so soothing like a lullaby expressing Love in its purest form.

But then you see the choreo and it all went Magic Mike SO FAST X”D.

Because on one hand the lyrics (at first glance) can be interpreted as Jimin seeing himself through Army’s eyes. How WE see his “Duality” - cute/adorable/lovely one minute and then sensual/tantalizing the next.

That boring expression of yours, boring feet Please look at me now Put down your phone, don’t even think about turning your head Let me know your type You can choose and use me yeah

Oh I cover your eyes with my hand Oh go towards the secret I’ll take you to a brand new world Yeah open your closed eyes now go!

Mix the colors of the palette, pick your filter Which me do you want? The one who’s going to change your world, I’m your filter Cover it over your heart

(Ok) How is it, do you feel it a bit? Is it still not enough? (Yes) Girl you have your chance I can be your Genie How ’bout Aladdin? I’ll become anything [for you] You can choose and use me yeah

That first part really does sound like how he would accommodating his “Persona” to make us happy.  And every-time something he does isn’t enough he changes again. 

Of course this doesn’t have to mean what he’s doing in the present, “Filter” could be just like “Lie” which spoke of his past-self and how he used to blame himself for the group’s failures. So maybe he’s expressing how’s he’s had to change himself throughout the years to please the fans as long as they understood and accepted who HE REALLY IS beyond the Idol persona.

Or y’know, this is just a very sexy number he wanted to try and shy away from his comfort zone XD. And I’ll bet all my money that the choreo’s gonna be SEXY AF and WE AIN’T READY FOR IT.

P.S. that moment when the music stops and he goes: “OKAY.” WITH HIS SEXY DEEP AF VOICE, JESUS!!!!

#4. My Time (Jungkook’s solo)

Kook’s solo not only reminded me heavily of “Begin”, but it also sounds like what “Decalcomania” should’ve been if he had released the full version.

He’s seeing himself not as an Idol, but not quite as Jeon Jeongguk either.

Like he’s just standing in the middle watching his two selves, his two Personas and trying to find which one is his. Which reality he is living in--or should be living in. Which part of his life belongs to his “normal/non Idol self” and which one is part of the mask/Idol self he puts up for the fans.

And yes, you know, yes. you know Oh I can’t call ya, I can’t touch ya Oh I can’t Let me know Can I someday find my time? Finna find my time Someday finna find my time 

This verse sounds like he’s still experiencing that loneliness that all artists experience during stardom very often (Note on how in Shadow Yoongi is the one who says: “Nobody ever told me how lonely it is up here.” ). Like how he sometimes wishes he could tell someone, but can’t?

#5. Louder than bombs

All rise for our National Anthem!

If Shadow hit hard while choke slamming you. Then this song is the overkill.

The vocals are insane, and the lyrics mixed with the music tell one story through two points of view. Actor in the spotlight and Actor as a Spectator.

This is BTS telling us how people view them and having to keep their emotions in check in the face of criticism from general audience and even antis, versus how they truly feel inside and behind close doors.

Break, unwind, let it out, breathe out, stand up, pray for better days and keep moving.

#6. ON

THIS👏SONG👏FUCKING👏SLAPS👏PERIOD👏!

The energy, the rap line, the vocal line, the CRAZY FOOTWORK AND INSANE CHOREO.

THE JIKOOK NIP-SLIPS

THE BODY ROLLS

THE TATTOOS---

THE SUBTLE “GO FUCK YOURSELF!”

I LOVED IT and it gave me such a strong throwback to NOT TODAY.

#7. UGH!

This is CYPHER_pt3 Killer, CYPHER pt. 4, TEAR & DDAENG’s lovechild.

This song is the Rap Line going like: “THESE MOTHERFUCKERS WANTED TO TRY ME (AGAIN) AND IMMA GIVE THESE BITCHES A CYPHER.

BITCHES LOVE CYPHERS.”

#8. 00.00 (Zero o’ Clock)

When I saw that we were having another Vocal Line unit song the first thing I kept praying for was: “PLEASE don’t let this be another Truth Untold...”

Because I absolutely HATED the hypocrisy that came out of this fandom ESPECIALLY the toxic Solo Stans who did nothing but hype up their faves while shitting on other members (I will never forgive those who went so far as to defame and even act as if Jimin wasn’t part of the Vocal Line, ya’ll are still trash for that).

But I gotta say Zero o’ Clock was totally something I can see them enjoying while performing. Despite, of course, the song talking about hardships and finding a new way to be happy throughout the tough times even when you don’t feel like smiling.

I liked it, the vibes are a bit like “2,3″ and “Magic Shop”. A song for HEALING.

#9. Friends (VMIN sub-unit)

VMIN

SOULMATES FOREVER.

I also LOVED that they added the voice messages Jimin & Tae used to leave each other since their recording schedules were different and they didn’t see each other. That was such a nice touch. T_T

That little “Hello my Alien” .... that made me emotional. I kept imagining those mischievous kids running around playing pranks on the other members, like that one time they made Hobi fall off the chair and got chased by him XD ...*SOBS*

#10. Inner Child (Taehyung’s solo)

All the time I kept listening to this song I kept imagining Taehyung sitting in a park next to his Younger Self, like the way a father sits with their youngest son and talks to them about life. What to expect, what will change and how to go about these changes.

Really heartfelt song.

#11. Moon (Jin’s solo)

Just like Tae’s song, “Moon” makes me thinking of all those moments when Jin kept doing his “Heart Event” where he kept pulling out hearts out of nowhere. Each time more clever than the first, just to show ARMY how much he loves us.

I wonder all of a sudden, do you really know yourself? Do you know how pretty you are? I will orbit you I will stay by your side I will become your light All for you 

This part in particular makes me think of Jin up on stage staring at a stadium full of bright little stars that are in reality Army Bombs.

#12. Respect (Namgi Unit-song)

Fave verse from this song is:

“Re-spect”, it’s literally looking again and again Looking again and again and you’ll see faults But despite of that you still want to look

And the fact that you have two members of different ages (Hyung/Donsaeng), in a sort of conversation that goes back and forth between what the real meaning of “RESPECT” is and how people throw the word around, even those who speak ill of others behind their backs.

And were they talking in Satoori in the end??? That was nice XD

#13. We are Bulletproof: the Eternal

Throw stones at me We don’t fear anymore We are we are together bulletproof (Yeah we have you have you) Even if winter comes again Even if I’m blocked off, I will still walk We are we are forever bulletproof (Yeah we got to heaven)

#14. Outro: EGO (Jhope’s Solo)

EGO is Jhope and Jhope is EGO in all it’s glory.

Like “Just Dance” i like the contrast how in EGO he’s doing a back-track to his younger self, how he used to dance to prove something TO OTHERS, where as now that he’s older he just accepts that everything that happened is just part of life. So he’s a happier now doing what he loves BECAUSE he loves to dance.

#15. ON (feat. Sia)

....WHY?

Like... I don’t wanna be THAT BITCH and drag nobody, but like... was this really necessary?

I mean atleast Nicki Minage and Halsey had their own parts that they owned like the bad bitches that they are.

But like...

Yeah, Imma stop right here.

[atldiscourse]

So, I just wanna start off by saying I am really happy that I found your blog Rebecca & even happier that you were on CTL and have your “face down ass up” story featured there! I’m not sure how I even found your blog, but I’m glad I did because we share a lot of similiar opinons and similarities. OKAY, so my opinions….a lot of my opinions have to do with All Time Low as members, but mostly how they have progressed over the year and how the culture their fans have and how they perpetuate it.

I like you was a fan of ATL when I was younger, middle-high school and I loved and worshipped them. But recently since the pandemic and the WUS era, I rejoined the online community and with that I explored the fandom. I felt really surprised to see how intense fan culture has gotten. Like “simping” is basically fangirling but everything just seems wayyy more intense than it was about 5-7 years ago. 

I was also SHOCKED to see how many YOUNG fans there were. There are 15 year olds out there “simping” for Jack Barakat. I have found that people who are 10 years younger than me try to be more PC and speak out against horrible things that happen. So, I find it really ironic that young fans will “stan” Jack no matter what and yet NO ONE wants to call him out on these allegations because they love him so much. 

I feel like as we get older, you need to be able to form a more critical opinion of the people you “idolise” and their behaviours. I wish more fans were able to move on from a band they loved when they were younger and not keep buying merch and continuing this cycle of fan culture, which I find completely toxic. I have to have ALL THE VINYLS, ALL THE CDS ALL THE SHIRTS in order to be a good ATL stan? The person I love will NEVER do anything wrong because I’m a “this person stan” NO. 

If you genuinely love them, just love them, don’t waste your money and speak out when you see them doing inappropriate or shitty behaviour. Better yet, stop idolising them, because they’re just a group of (mostly) white men in their 30s. I also think Jack should address these allegations or make some kind of statement and apology. Alex constantly has to cover his ass on CTL from saying inappropriate things and it’s gotten to the point where I think Jack needs to man up and take ownership over himself.

I have heard from fans “well if someone flashes them in a crowd they don’t know if that fan is underage”, but shouldn’t they know a lot of their fanbase is younger? And maybe if Jack hadn’t had this whole “sexual, dick joke” persona in the first place, girls would not feel the need to flash them to get his attention. I find the whole thing overtly sexualized and I find it so sad that girls idolise this man. I wish they idolised strong powerful women instead of some dude.

I think Alex is the most well-spoken out of all the band. I do appreciate all of them using their platform to talk about politics, and I do think it’s genuine…just inconsistent. I’m not saying they have to speak out about everything all the time, but in June Alex kept commenting about Breanna Taylor and BLM and it just felt like he was talking about it because everyone was. 

The police recently weren’t convicted for her murder and Alex hasn’t said anything. I’m not saying that he has to, I’m just saying, I feel like he talked about it because it was the hot button issue at the time. And that goes for everyone, not just Alex. Society and people in general stopped talking about the BLM movement after the “hype” died down. Alex also has thanked the fans for keeping him informed and educated and I think he’s referring to a lot of PC things, but also, he should educate himself, in my opinion. It’s not a certain communities or groups job to educate the cis white man about about their struggles. 

Overall, I just feel like as I’ve gotten older I’ve realised that I’ve outgrown people I used to love, because I haven’t seen a whole lot of depth or maturity or critical thinking from them. OH and this just pisses me off. On CTL they do the whole “good boys give bad advice segment” and they make a disclaimer every time we don’t know what we’re doing, but ALEX SAID we want you to tell us your problems!

So people write in with more emotional and serious problems and I know many fans write to them about mental health struggles, but these men in their 30s-40s are not licensed professionals and cannot really help you. I just hate that segment and originally it was fun just sharing content but idk why Alex wanted to give advice when it’s not serious because fans I think take it more seriously.

Along the political lines, I have huge issue with the fact that they aren’t quarantining. Even though they said they did and I believe they did back in the spring, now they’re acting like it’s not a big deal. They’re traveling. And I get that restrictions have been made less strict, but I have seen other celebrities take it super seriously and not even leave their homes. They have the money and the means, they don’t ned to leave just because they miss making music. I get it but life could be worse. 

And don’t even get me started on Rian…it’s not really problematic or offensive it’s just BAD TASTE. Oh and musically, I don’t think I’ve ever really loved them since Don’t Panic, because overall I feel the albums have lost their ATL essence, but that being said they do have a few really good jams off of each record.

If you read this in full, thank you, Rebecca. I wrote this full of emotion so it may be a hot mess, but I hope I made some decent points. SENDING YOU LOVE!

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this was so long but an excellent read. thanks so much for sending all this in! some hot takes but i generally agree with everything - jack needs to take accountability, dp was their last solid album, i hate that they’re not self isolating... we’re on the same wavelength here lol

[chuurrykiss]

In celebration of giving in and making this account, I have ranked the Loona solos from my least favorite to favorite. Keep in mind I know nothing about music and I’m honestly really dumb. 

12. Around you- HyunJin

This song makes me feel lonely. The music video feels like I’m being stalked. There isn’t too much to say about this song, the vocals are average. The video, while being full of Loonaverse lore, isn’t as visually interesting as the other videos. The song isn’t bad by any means, but it isn’t my favorite.  

11. One & Only- Gowon

I hate Gowon’s raps in this song. It would probably be one of my favorites if the raps weren’t to pitchy. Her vocals are off, but it fits with the sound and tempo of the song. The music video is full of imagery and lore, but it isn’t my taste. I think Gowon’s visuals are so gorgeous. The music video makes up for the song. My favorite scenes are when Yves crowns Gowon, when Choerry drops that apple, and when Yves, Gowon, and Chuu run in the love4eva outfits.  The choreography to this song is super catchy though and I think it suits Gowon a lot.

10. Kiss Later- Yeojin

As the youngest of the group, I expect nothing less than this from Yeojin. However, because of her underdeveloped voice, her vocals come across as a bit annoying. I love how much subtle lore is in this video. Due to the cutesy nature of the video, you wouldn’t think that there would be so much alluding to the Loonaverse and the other girls.

9. Let Me In- HaSeul

I love HaSeul’s vocal’s in this song. Her opera training fits well with this song. It’s not in my favorites because of how plain it is. I forget about it and how the beat goes all the time. The music video though makes me feel so lonely. This seems to be a running theme in the more mature Loona solos, I think this one is more purposeful because of location though. I love the deep meaning and lore intertwined into the music video. The video is so amazing. HaSeul’s visuals are so amazing. I love her eyes; they are so beautiful.

8. Everyday I Love You- ViVi

Its disappointing people don’t like this song more. Vivi isn’t the most talented vocal but BBC picked out a wonderful song for her voice. The aesthetic of the song fits Vivi so well. I love the cutesy choreography; the little book move is so fitting. Although the video isn’t that deep, it still fits well into the world. I love how it ties in later with Yves’ solo. In short, this video is soft, and I love it.

7. Vivid- Heejin

This is where we get into my absolute favorite Loona solos. Vivid was what started it all. The first solo. The first member. Heejin is the God of the Loonaverse. I love this song, especially the acoustic version. It fills my heart with pure joy, and I get so happy listening to it. Vivid is the type of song you want to get up and dance to. I love how her voice fluctuates and the loud and almost colorful nature of the instrumental. The choreography is so catchy, I can see it in my head when the song plays. It’s so hard to put my love for this song into words. It was probably the second Loona song I’ve ever heard; it has such a special place in my heart.

6. Love Cherry Motion- Choerry

This song is legendary. The versatility has me quaking. I hate how Choerry is so sexualized in this song though (but like I can’t help but love this track). She isn’t the youngest, but she just turned eighteen I believe so it does make me a bit uncomfortable they gave her this song. The vocals are pretty, and the choreography is one of my favorites in all the Loona discography. This song is one big rollercoaster and I loved every minute. The amount of lore in the video is amazing. Choerry is a direct effect of the Mobius strip property of the Loonaverse so it is no surprise that her solo would have so much lore in it.  

5. Singing in the Rain- JinSoul

I love the quick and intenseness of this song. The instrumental is solid; Jinsoul’s vocals fit so well with the track. There isn’t too much to say about the song itself other than I just really enjoy it. BBC is so good at choreography that fits the girls, although I wish she had something a bit harder. She could be such a good dancer. I love the music video; it has such a cool concept to it.

4. new- Yves

Ugh, the energy. I love the choreography to this song too much. Yves has such a big part in the Loonaverse, her song shows her becoming free and loving herself. I can’t even express how refreshing I find this song. Her energy surrounds me and gives me strengths to go on. The scenes with Vivi ties so much together. I love how much power her solo has. Yves is so talented; I am so elated they gave her such an amazing solo.

3. Heart Attack- Chuu

Chuu is my bias so it was obviously going to be up there on my list. Our queen of vocal came through with some amazing chops in this one. The pace is so fun and makes me want to get up and dance. Chuu’s video also has a lot of references to other members of Loona in it including being parallel to Yeojin’s “Kiss Later.” I love the unrequited love with Yves that’s shown throughout the Loonaverse. She does it for the gays. The power this song holds… They played it at pride so be happy.

2. Eclipse- Kim Lip

The vocals in this song melt me like a candle. With this solo, Kim Lip summoned the other Odd Eye Girls to the Loonaverse and this made my day. My love for this song is so immeasurable. The choreography is another one of my favorites, it has so much power. I love everything about this solo, I mean there is a reason it’s number two. Eclipse is THAT song. Even NASA agrees.

1. Egoist- Olivia Hye

This song is four minutes and seven seconds of Olivia telling me I am worthless. The whistles, the vocals, the VISUALS. Homegirl was a trainee for one day before debuting… Her power. She’s pretty young too but look... I love this song and I am one year younger than her so for me, it’s okay but old men, stay away. I love the overall message of love Loona has in their songs; self-love, love for others, and love for the world around you. I don’t know where Loona would be without Olivia, she does complete them so well as the twelfth member. My gay comes out when this song comes on and don’t even get me started on the choreography. She did not come here to play these games. Once again, I leave you saying, “Stan Loona.”  

Sorry for any grammatical mistakes lol

[imsuperninja13]

My picks for pdx101 after ep. 7

#1 Cho Seungyoun:  Ok so after the Love Shot performance, homeboy got me whipped. He looked so fine in that suit and his voice was so amazing. His voiced fit the song so well. Lowkey like it more than the original. And he can rap too. Like damn boy what can’t you do.

#2 Yun Junghwan: Ok so I was impressed with his high note during the auditions, but I didn’t look much into him cause I was just gonna support Up10tion and not get attach to other trainees, but that didn’t happen. I got more into him after watching his performance of Got7′s lullaby. I know he didn’t get much lines but he got my attention. I think it was during the part where it’s him and Baekjin in the middle and he does this cute movement. But at least he got to show off his vocals during the Twit performance and he did amazing. I also did expect him to be younger than me.

#3 Baekjin: Now I got into him after “Baekjin time” He did amazing during “baekjin time” I’m still concerned about his back cause that one move looked like it hurt. He also looked cute when he bumped into Junghwan during their center dance together. He also helped Junghwan at the end of their first performance, cause he was limping and holding his leg. Now in ep. 7, he got screen time but mnet also made that evil editing. But then it shows him helping them all out. I know he messed up during the position performance, but he did his best, they all did. I hope knetz still vote for him.

#4 Lee Midam: He has a beautiful voice and has gone through so much. I first saw him when silver boys appeared on stray kids survival show and he sung really well. I didn’t know what happened to him, but I’m upset that Yg didn’t keep them together as a group. Anyways, he has a beautiful voice and I can’t believe knetz aren’t supporting him. He did amazing in The 7th Sense and Twit. Like boy got vocals

#5 Lee Hangyul: So I’ve been supporting Hangyul since the Unit. He is an amazing dancer and he did amazing in the Love Shot performance. He deserves to debut, if you listen to his backstory it’s kinda sad and cute at the same time. He’s also humble and he looks so chill. When he won first place, he was like “I’ve never been first before” and said that it was because of his members. And then when he went along with not being in the center during Finesse dance even tho he was the center, but didn’t say anything until after the trainers said something. Others would have probably been upset and made a scene, but he just went along like ok. He also reminds me of a werewolf. it was after watching his performance of All Day during The Unit. You guys should really go check it out.

#6 Kim Yohan: I was whipped by him since the first episode. I just wanted to see Wooseok and Jinhyuk, but then I spotted this cutie. I know he may not be the most talented, but he seems like a fast learner. He did a great job during Boss. Even tho it was his first time rapping, he did a good job. He also did good in the Me after You performance. And the way he helped the other trainee that was told that he didn’t sing loud enough. Also the man know taekwondo but is afraid of ghost, His reactions was so funny.

#7 Keum Donghyun: Another one that made me stan after the Love Shot performance. I was surprised when I found out how old he is. I was not expecting him to be that young, he doesn’t look that young either. His performance for Believer for the position evaluation was amazing. It was cute seeing him being close with Yunseong. They were the only ones that did the choreo together and were tryng to use both of their ides. I really hope my two babies get to debut together. Also he was the one that danced to Hellevator by Stray Kids for his PR video. My Stay heart is proud.

#8 Choi Suhwan: I was rooting for this boy since the audition. He can sing and dance. He also reminds me of Woozi from Seventeen. He did great during Lullaby and Day by Day performance. He just makes me so soft. The way he jumped onto YuVin when they selected the new center and when he was holding Seungwoo’s hand when they were asking him for help with how to sexily sing Day by Day. 

#9 Song Hyeongjun: This little baby is so cute. I love his curly hair. I started stanning him when he got scolded by the dancer trainers during X1-ma. My poor baby just wanted to be the leader of X level and show that he can dance. But he wasn’t expecting it to be hard to lead the other trainees. When I saw him cry I started crying too. He did good during The 7th Sense and Finesse performance. I also saw the video of him dancing to girl groups and he has some amazing talent for girl group dances.

#10 Hwang Yunseong: I started supporting him after watching how hard he worked during Mama performance. He took on the responsibility of teaching the choreography to the other trainees. He worked so hard and I liked the determination he showed. I fell harder for him after seeing him being all close and cute with Donghyun. And their cute ship name that they made themselves. That’s so cute man. I really hope they get to debut together. 

#11 Kang Seokhwa: I heard my child got did wrong by Yg and I can’t say I’m surprised. He has great vocals too. He did good during Mama and Twit performance. He also reminds me of Lee Know Minho from Stray Kids. My inner Stay will support Lee Know look alike. I hope he gets to debut.

Other trainees I would want to debut: I honestly have so many trainees that I want to debut (in no particular order). This is why I don’t like watching survival shows cause I get attached to too many and get my heart broken. 

Kim Dongbin: I feel bad since he went through this before during season 2. What if he quits being an idol if he doesn’t get to debut.

Lee Hyeop: that high note during Clap got me shook

Kang Hyeonsu: He has a good voice and he can dance. Also he said this is his last chance to become an idol. Every time they say that I think of Jisung from Wanna One and think that pd101 was also his last chance to debut and it just makes me sad. 

Park Sunho: Again I think about Jisung and be like we gave him a chance to fulfill his dream, maybe we can give this man a chance to fulfill his dream as well.

Kim Sungyeon: Another child that was did wrong by Yg. He did good during the rap position performance, even tho he’s not a rapper. I want to get a chance to see him sing, cause he didn’t get to sing much during No More Dream

Nam Donghyun: I just like his voice and he plays the guitar so beautifully.

Lee Jinwoo: who isn’t whipped for Jinwoo and his Haenam. He’s so cute, no wonder JInhyuk adopted him. 

Han Seungwoo: The high note from Boss got me shook. I’m pretty sue he was the asking the other trainees if they wanted to take a shower together. He adopted Dongpyo and becomes soft for him. I might stan Victon just for him.

KIm Wooseok: I know I said that I started watching pdx101 for Up10tion, but after finding out that the group will be active for about 5 years idk if I want my baby to be away for that long. He was already on hiatus for a couple of comebacks and I was so happy when he came back. I know it will help bring more attention to Up10tion, but I don’t want him to be away from them for too long. If he does get to debut I will support him.

Lee Jinhyuk: The same for him, I don’t want him to be away from Up10tion for too long. I mean he’s finally getting the recognition he deserves and I’m happy about that. Also I’m pretty sure Lee Dongwook is whipped for him. But I mean same. And he’s Jinwoo’s dad.

[jinniesmeow]

I was tagged by @xiaocity and @pikachulein to do this thing so thanks lovelies!! here goes

Stage name (your name or a nickname or what you prefer everyone to call you):

zia

Debut Date (when did you first get into kpop?): 

2009 (old stans where y’all at)

Group Concept (what’s your favourite concept or what would you like try or which do you think you’d suit?): 

definitely not cute, but more like either “girl crush” or something more badass. 

Debut song/album/music video concept (pick some songs you think your group would debut with or just some songs you really like the concept of):

4MINUTE - Crazy

2NE1 - Gotta Be You

HyunA - BABE

SUNMI - Noir

EXO - Monster

WINNER - Love Me Love Me

no pattern here, except it’s very gay, don’t look any further. 

Position (can you sing, rap or dance? If not, which would you like to learn/do? Or which position do thing you’d suit?): 

I'm gonna be honest, I have stage fright and last time I tried to play in front of a crowd I had a panic attack. but let’s just speak hypothetically, I would probs be rapper or vocalist but definitely not dancer. I can rap and I can sing but dancing? lmao. big oof.

Role (are you the sassy main vocal? The mum or dad? The fake maknae? The underappreciated one who gets no lines? The variety show master? etc): 

I'd be the one who wants to die bruh, running wild on variety shows and shutting them shit MCs up (looking right at y’all Doni and Conny) 

Older or younger line (are you typically one of the oldest or youngest in your friend groups? When you first started getting into kpop, were the members who are your age that were debuting around the time in hyung/unnie line or dongsaeng line?): 

now, I would be older line, but a few years back I would've been amongst the youngest.

Leader or nah? (Need help deciding? See below): 

well people have said before that I'm totally leader material even though I'm not sure of it, I don’t think I could handle the pressure and people who say this kind of thing lightly are obviously the ones who have never had responsibilities before. I hate responsibilities so, convince me and pay me big money. btw, I'd pick 1 below, if anyone’s interested. shut y’alls big mouths we’re eating pasta tonight and I'm cooking. no one allowed in the kitchen. 

You and your friends need to decide what to do or eat. Are you most likely to:

Make the decision for everyone

Listen to everyone’s opinions and then decide based on what the majority wants

Let someone else decide

If you picked one of the first two options, you are probably the leader, unless you don’t want to be (now I sound like one of those personality quizzes, if you pick option 2, you’re an emotional train wreck 👉🏾😎👉🏾)

Foreign line? (are you an ethnic minority in the country you’re living in?): 

I'm white 

Do you have any special talents or tricks?: I can fart with my hands. oh, I can play the drums too but meh

How many members do you want in your group? Tag that amount of people: 

no one. I don’t want to be in a group. but I'll tag some people bc this tag is kinda cool and I want to let others do it too. oh btw sorry I can’t shut my cynical ass even for 10 minutes and do a single tag seriously. 

@nanjaemin @hanniesunshine @lesbianbias @summer-time-honey @hynsnq @changbln @hwanginthere that should be enough cuz more than 9 people on stage and we’ll be killing each other with them sharp dances 

[angeldrcps-blog]

           ✧.° ░  come on girls...get on the floor...we just wanna have some fun !! hello !! it’s me, diana ( or di if u like ), ur resident girl group stan AKLSDHSDH i go by she/her pronouns & reside in the est timezone. i’m sooo sorry this is so late...pls plot with me anyway <3 now onto the intro !! tw: drugs, alcohol, & death mention ( nothing in like graphic detail or anything tho )

background

angelina was a product of her father’s second marriage

he was married for around 10 years to a publicist, but they split after he had an affair. they had a boy together, aka angelina’s half brother ( who is like 7 years older than her )

her father remarried to her mother in 1998, who was 22 at the time. there is a significant age gap between her parents, her father being around 35 at the time of their marriage

her mother was a huge model in the 90s, think like kate moss vibes. her father was a lawyer at a law firm famous for dealing with celebrity scandals and worked exclusively for the upper class. eventually, he would come to own this firm

their relationship was not strange to the media. it was common to see older men pictured with beautiful younger women

her mother fell in love, while her father didn’t feel the same way. he had done the whole ‘love’ thing with his first marriage. his second marriage was solely for his own selfish gain ( what i’m trying 2 say is her father was a gross guy ) 

her mother got pregnant with angelina shortly after the marriage, so she took a break from her career to have a child. most people said it was career suicide to have a baby while in the peak of her career, but her mother wanted to do the right thing. plus, she was in love. she did dream of starting a family with the man she loved one day, she just hadn’t planned it to happen while she was so young

her father wasn’t ecstatic about having another child, but there was nothing he could do. he could barely be a father to his son, unfortunately

angelina was born in february in the midst of a snow storm

her father was not there to witness her birth. he was promoted to head of his law firm and claimed there was some work thing he simply couldn’t get out of. or maybe it was another affair. at just 7 years old, even angelina’s half brother begged to come when her own father wouldn’t

due to the storm, they were snowed in for the day. even after she was born, her mother and half brother stayed in the hospital watching movies. her half brother had a great affinity to his step mother.

now that i’ve rambled on about her parents i’ll get into the important stuff. angelina can’t complain much about her childhood. it had many downs, but most of her memories were days spent with her half brother, or watching backstage as her mother walked the runway

her brother began teaching her guitar when she was just 6 years old. she fell in love instantly with music and transitioned into playing bass shortly after

her parents were not too happy about her getting into music, but they didn’t have much to say as long as it just remained a hobby

the media was obsessed with angelina and her mother. they were always pictured together wearing matching outfits. angelina was a princess and an heiress. but ultimately, her mother was more like a best friend than a mother. angelina never blamed her. she felt bad that she lost her youth because of her untimely birth

as expected, her father was rarely present. in angelina’s eyes, he was a hollow shell of a person. he never cared about her half brother the same way he didn’t care about her. he had no idea who his children were, and didn’t care enough to find out

that’s why when word of her father’s death reached her, she didn’t shed a single tear. he was found dead in his office, his cause of death being a drug overdose. no one in the family had any ideas he was a drug user. her mother was impacted heavily by his sudden death. despite the way he treated his family, she was in love with him

angelina’s mom found it hard to cope with the loss and was able to be there for angelina even less than before. all angelina had left was her brother, and it was them against the world

her brother was there for angelina as much as he could be. he never wanted to leave her on her own, but he needed to finish school and take care of business. when her father died, he was the heir to the firm

during her teen years, angelina was free to do what she wanted. with no one there to watch her, she knew she could get away with anything, as long as she could manage to stay out of the public’s eye

her passion for music grew, and she found herself doing all sorts of things with all sorts of people. she was introduced to a world of parties, drugs and alcohol, but for her that was just the beginning. she wanted more from life

eventually she began engaging in past times that put her at risk, but she had no regard for the consequences. her father’s death served as a constant reminder of how short life is, so she would do anything to make the most of it

angelina would try anything at least once. to her, experience was everything

at 17, she found her way back to her mother and told her she wanted to pursue music. her mother objected at first. she always had this dream that angelina would follow in her footsteps and pursue modeling. she had the look and the connections, it would’ve been hers for the taking

but music was her dream and her passion. her mother finally agreed, but only if angelina agreed to pursue a pop, mainstream sound. she didn’t want angelina to be associated with the image that came with some musicians, so she did everything she could to maintain angelina’s pristine image

angelina agreed, only because it was better than not pursuing music at all. she started playing shows at small venues with only a handful of fans, but eventually, the world fell in love with her as a bubblegum pop princess. she maintained the sound for a few years before deciding she could not lie to herself and her fans for any longer

she left her record label, leaving her mother and fans disappointed. the only people who expressed their support were her brother and her friends

this is where she is at now career wise, about to comeback with her new look and sound. she has no idea how the public will take it, but when the article about the brat pack dropped, her image was hurt even more. most people and critics think her comeback will kill her career, but a select few look forward to her new music

personality

angelina tends to go with the flow. she doesn’t have a very assertive personality and tends to adapt to fit a group of people, or a location. she doesn’t have a sense of self

while she values her alone time and tends to be more guarded with her emotions, she loves to be around people. she spent most of her childhood alone, so now that she has a good group of friends, she appreciates any time spent with them

she is extremelyyyy reckless. she’s never faced any consequences for her actions, so it’s thrilling to her. even if she were to get caught, she wouldn’t really care. she’s always seeking the next thrill and tries to convince other people to do stupid shit with her as well

she is an aquarius sun gemini moon. having two air placements as some of her most dominant placements has left her flighty and non-committal in most relationships. it’s not that she’s closed off to the idea of falling in love, she just needs someone to keep her on her toes. she gets bored easily

it takes a lot to make her actually angry because she gets over things fairly quickly, but there is a few fire placements somewhere in her chart that can make her a bit feisty if she gets really upset. it’s pretty rare tho

not rly personality but she’s bisexual !!!

wanted connections

party buddies - this is pretty basic and self explanatory, but someone angel can go out and have fun with. their friendship is might be more surface level, or prob started that way, but it’s possible they’re closer friends (maybe angelina opened up one day when under the influence of something

ex-fling/gf/bf - angelina is more the non-committal type so it’s more likely for her to have an ex fling than an actual ex bf or gf, but it could still have been a serious un-labeled relationship, actual bf or gf, or just an ex fling. they could be on bad terms, good terms, still have feelings, not have feelings, u name it

unrequited crush -  ur character could have feelings for angel, but maybe she doesn’t feel them back or is unaware that they like her. this could develop into her eventually having feelings for ur muse or not, whatever we want! OR she could have a crush on someone who does not like her back. maybe they’re even more non-committal than she is, or they simply do not like her back. we could plot this out however

current fling/friends w benefits - someone she is currently seeing/sleeping with. could be no strings attached, or there could b some feelings there. maybe they don’t want to make it anything serious, or maybe they’re ready to take it to the next level. maybe one person is ready to go further, and the other isn’t.

enemies w benefits - imagine the tension!!! they started out hating each other, but ended up hooking up. maybe it was a one time thing, or maybe they can’t stop going back to each other. i think it would b cool if they kept it a secret, they don’t want anyone else to know. this could develop however we want

ex-friends - someone she used to consider a close friend, but they had a falling out for whatever reason n maybe they hate each other now. maybe they want to re-kindle their friendship but don’t know how

sibling-like friendship - someone she sees like a sibling. they’re there for each other and look out for one another, always have each other’s backs

dynamic duo - could be her current best friend. this person is prob one of the closest people to her and has actually managed to break down some of her walls

confidant - someone who confides in her or someone she confides in, or they confide in each other. they don’t necessarily have to be the closest friends ever, but they get along, trust each other, and maybe they talk more in private

rivals - they hate each other for whatever reason. maybe it’s jealousy or their personalities just clash, but for whatever reason they do not get along. i love a good enemies plot. they can just b nasty to each other!!! maybe they bring out a really bad side to angelina that most ppl dont see

safe haven - *mini drug tw*  i did not know how to label this so i apologize for the name. but i think it would b cool if someone helped her out during a bad night. she typically saves herself from situations that aren’t looking too hot, and one day she couldn’t but luckily ur muse was there to help. maybe she drank too much or did too many drugs or mixed the two and ended up rly bad. either way, i would love for someone to have helped her during a rough. she would probably feel really confused and guilty and like she owes them, and also extremely grateful. maybe ur muse can manipulate her bc of it and make her do things bc she owes them, or maybe they genuinely had good intentions. i would also b down for a plot about her helping someone else out of a sticky situation!!

bad influence - i would loveeee for her to be a bad influence on someone. someone she can corrupt in a way, or just lead down a bad path akshkjhd and get them to try new, and not-so-good, things

good influence - someone to be a good influence on her. someone who brings out the best in her and tries to steer her down a better path

partner in crime - someone who does crazy, illegal shit w her. someone who is always down for the next adventure n they have crazy memories together

childhood friends - someone who knew her when she grew up. they grew up together in the media, or maybe their friendship was set up by their parents. maybe they were just friends out of their own free will, but grew apart when they grew older. the possibilities are endless!!!

[mitchmarnier]

BLOOD IN THE WATER

summary: “I think we’re all going to have do some pretty terrible things,” Eddie said quietly. His hand came to wrap in Richie’s shirt, trying to burn out the violent grip of his father’s from earlier. “None of us have a choice in anything anymore. Whatever happened at Greta’s tonight-“ Eddie’s voice broke and he felt Richie press a kiss into his hair. “There isn’t a good and a bad anymore. There’s just die or don’t.”

[or: after the gruesome murder of his younger brother, Bill Denbrough is determined to bring about the end of the string of crimes in Derry no matter the cost. As stories unwind and fall apart, there’s only more questions as everybody’s lives hang in the balance.]

chapter count: 18/21

chapter warnings: graphic depictions of violence, mentions of past character death, mentions of past sexual abuse, major character death....? 

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Richie wasn’t sure he’d even fully regained consciousness yet when hitting his head on the hard ground threatened to knock him right back out. He could vaguely hear Beverly arguing about something, her voice going high pitched in the way it only ever did when she was truly scared. Richie groaned, feeling as though his brain was vibrating inside his skull and fought to open his eyes.

“You’ve got to  be kidding me,” Beverly was almost screeching, and Richie crinkled up his nose. Why did she have to be so fucking loud? Didn’t she know Richie had a headache? He tried to roll further onto his back but found his hands bound together and holding him back from full movement. 

“What, Marsh?” The male voice hit Richie’s ears and he knew if his brain was functioning anything close to its average speed that he’d know it. “You might not have known where this was all heading, but I did. Considering how quick you were to flip back over, it’s probably best that-“

“I was never on your side!” Beverly cried, sounding tearful. “The Tozier were always my true family… you guys tricked me… you promised! And Richie… why Richie…”

“He’s brought this on himself,” the man said, sounding bored. “If Tozier had just managed to keep his cock in his pants, then-“

“If I’m going to be murdered,” Richie grumbled, eyes still shut tight. “Can we get the fuck on with it? I’m fucking cold over here.” He managed to wrench his eyes open, world spinning for a moment and giving the distinct urge to throw up everywhere. Beverly was staring at him with horror-filled eyes and by her side was none other than Patrick Hockstetter. “Yeah…” Richie laughed through his dry throat. “That just figures, doesn’t it? How ya been, Hocky?”

“Been better I’ll admit,” Patrick laughed darkly, waggling his brow at Richie. “I don’t want to do this, Tozier. You know that, right?”

“You don’t want to kill people?” Richie challenged, brain fuzzy and all his defenses down. “I find that hard to believe.”

“I don’t want to kill you,” Patrick clarified with a shrug. “Hitting a man when he’s down? It’s not my style, but we’ve all got our orders. It’ll be over soon.”

“How come our lovely Miss Marsh isn’t all fancied up down here with me?” Richie asked, eyes fluttering shut. Light flashed behind his eyes and Richie must have faded away for a moment because once he tuned back in, Patrick and Beverly had once again lost interest in one another and were bickering with each other. “Hey! Hey! I’m not dead yet! Can somebody please tell me what the fuck is going on?”

“Richie, Rich, Rich,” Patrick chuckled, grinning wolfishly down at him. “Don’t you already know? You staked your life on a liar.”

Beverly made a wounded noise beside him as Patrick told hold of her arms and began to bound them behind her back as well. Beverly didn’t put up any fight, but there was a deep anger written all over her face as Patrick forced to the ground beside Richie. Patrick grabbed hold of Richie and yanked him into a seating position, Richie unable to hold back his exclaim of pain as his head was rattled.

“Did you tell Tozier about how you were bringing food and water to little Janie Jane the whole time we were holding her?” Patrick asked as he played with a  long strand of Beverly’s red hair. The fire in the middle of woody floor was making her hair burn like the winter camp fires they used to hold out in these same woods, when life was easier. “All while keeping her chained up to the wall?”

“He knows… that I had part of it,” Beverly said, looking at Richie with wide, wet, pleading eyes. Richie squeezed his eyes shut, seeing the flashing lights once more, and stomach swooping horribly. “I don’t know what you’re trying to do, Hockstetter…”

“Does he know that it’s your fault we had to kill her?” Patrick asked in a sickeningly sweet voice, a voice dripping in Californian summer venom. “That Janie figured out where we were keeping her? That she asked you, because even through everything, she trusted you? And that if you’d only kept those little facts to yourself, she would have lived? That we really would have let her go once this was all over- just like promised. But you had to blab.”

Richie was definitely going to throw up now. “That’s… that’s not true,” Beverly sobbed out. “You… She saw all of us!! You wouldn’t have let her live!”

“You’ll never know if that’s the truth.” Patrick chuckled. “Is that just what you tell yourself, Bevvy? Make yourself feel better? Keep that guilt of the little girls death off your conscience?”

“I’ll carry that guilt with me until I die,” Beverly spat at him. “I’m not some fucking sociopath like you, who can kill his own best friend and feel nothing.”

“I didn’t kill Henry,” Patrick said. “I just dropped him off where he needed to be. Job was already done when I got him.”

“Oh, please-“ Beverly rolled her eyes. “She never would have killed somebody herself. She always got somebody else to do it.”

“She killed Georgie Denbrough herself,” Patrick countered and Beverly bit harshly down on her bottom lip.

“WHO did?” Richie finally shouted, trying to ignore the sharp, throbbing pain in his skull. Beverly and Patrick both held long eye contact before Beverly sighed.

“Richie… you don’t want me to tell you,” she said softly. “I promise you don’t.”  

Richie shook his head, looking away in disgust as Patrick turned his predatory gaze back onto Beverly. “$3,000 for the prize of the life of a thirteen year old girl. Was it worth it, Bev?” Suddenly he was knocking into Richie and fumbling with the pockets of Richie’s jeans. Richie let out a soft shout, eyes dropping shut as he was jostled around once again, but managing to hold himself conscious as Patrick waved Richie’s cell phone in Beverly’s face. “What if we called dear, sweet, Stanley Uris and let him know just what exactly he helped you cover up?”

xxx

Incoming call from Richie Tozier <3

Eddie’s heart stopped for a good thirty seconds in his chest as he stared at his ringing phone. He then turned rapidly on his heel and rushed back to the group of makeshift friends in the living room, forgetting all about the intent to chase after Bill. “Guys…” Eddie wheezed as he slid into the room. “It’s… Richie.”

Stanley’s eyes flashed. “Answer it.

Eddie nodded, oxygen being just a little hard to get into his lungs at the moment. He hit accept, and wheezed only once before getting out actual words. “Richie… Richie, where are you-“

“Try again, sweet cheeks,” the slimy voice came through the speakers and Eddie’s heart fell right out of his body. In that moment, Eddie was sure he’d completely forgotten how to be alive and was being carried through human existence by pure will of the universe. “Eddie, baby, put it on speaker!”

With shaking hands, Eddie did as he was told. He held out the it out towards the room. “Losers!” Patrick called joyfully to them all. “Everybody listening?” Patrick laughed through the phone line. “Is Stanny boy there? Put him on, got somebody who wants to speak with him.” Beverly’s screaming voice, probably words but too far away to make out anything besides high pitch shouts, came through the line.

Stan stepped forward and took the phone from Eddie’s trembling hands. “Patrick let them go,” he said calmly, holding the phone up towards himself while keeping it on speaker so the full room could hear. Ben’s arm slipped around Aurora’s back, and Mike pulled a shaking Patty into his chest. Eddie stared, unblinking, at his phone while it counted how long the conversation had been taking place.

Patrick makes a sighing noise, and the sound of what was likely his hand running across Beverly’s face echoed across the line. Eddie squeezed his shuts and Aurora cupped a hand over her mouth. Richie could be heard shouting towards Patrick, but even from the distance Richie must have been from his phone, Eddie could hear that his words were slurring.

“Stan, Stan, Stanley…” Patrick hummed. “You know, maybe after tonight you’ll finally be the lone wolf you’ve always claimed to be? Patty’s there, too, isn’t she? Hiiii, Patty!”

“Patrick, you bastard!” Patty shrieked, loosing herself in a way Eddie had never heard before. In a way he didn’t even know was possible. Mike’s arms came out to grab at her hips, pulling her to him as though she could physically fight Patrick Hockstetter through the phone. Eddie wished that she could.

“Patrick, where the fuck are you?” Stanley practically growled, his voice the perfect picture of rage but just looking at him, Eddie could see the truth. The sickly pale of his face, the shaking of his hands and bottom lip. Stanley Uris was terrified, maybe more so than he’d ever been in his life. “I swear this isn’t fucking funny, you better tell us where you are. Now.”

“I don’t take orders from you, Uris,” Patrick snapped, then there was round of hushed whispers across the line then Patrick’s voice was back to its psychopathic cheery tone. “Is Kaspbrak still there? I’ve got somebody who has something to say.”

Eddie’s heart clenched as the broken voice came over the speaker. “Eddie…”

He grabbed the phone back from Stanley, entire body trembling now. “RICHIE! Oh my God, do you know where you are? Are you okay? You don’t sound okay, Richie… Richie, please, where are you?”

“I’m….” Richie swallowed audibly. “Eddie… please don’t look for me, okay? Stay inside. Okay? Don’t do anything stupid. Please.”

“What?” Eddie asked, tears burning into his eyes. “No, Richie! We’re going to find you! I promise, okay? We won’t let anything happen to you, everything is going to be fine. We’ll fucking find you.”

“No…” Richie said, sounding like he was crying… sounding like he was broken. “Please, don’t, Eddie. I don’t want anything to happen to you, you… looking for me isn’t going to do anything, okay?… Baby… Eds…”

“Don’t call me that, Richie,” Eddie said, fully crying now and putting nearly all of his thought process into getting the words out. On trying to breathe and speak. He couldn’t let himself listen to how Richie was crying, how Richie was implying it was hopeless. He couldn’t see anything around him; couldn’t see the sympathy on Mike Hanlon’s face, how Patty had turned away from them and pressed her hands up over her ears.

“Eddie, you know I-“ Richie paused, seemingly trying to figure out how to finish. While it was still thinking it over, a loud gun shot rang out. Beverly’s screaming of his name was cut out as the line beeped then went dead.

[constantlyirksome]

“Super Girl Groups, Henny” Review (Spoilers.)

As a Drag Race fan writing his first episode review I wonder if it’s possible at all to remain entirely impartial when it comes to the storylines and judgings each week. Like the many twinks before me I tend to think of myself as the expert when really I’m just enamoured by the glamour and the drama. So going forward every episode writing reviews I want to keep a level head, and not make my biases too obvious. That said Gia Gunn is a legend. This brings us to this weeks episode, “Super Girl Groups, Henny,” Where the cast are split in to teams of two, and perform a number featuring meemee queen Stacey Lane Matthews from season three. (I can’t be the only person who wonders why they just featured her in a challenge but didn’t cast her right?) We start with the typical scene of the girls walking into the workroom, lamenting the loss of their first sister Jasmine, who they laud for her confidence and sense of self. Personally being a Jasmine fan, and knowing the results of episode two have me thinking “what a waste, “that Jasmine could have given us hours more entertainment. The usually stone-cold Trinity comments on how difficult it was to send a sister home last week, that it’s made her a little emotional which is valid. Who knows really if you’ve cut someone’s time short, you’ve wasted their shot, it’s a lot to carry. But the other girls aren’t having any of it, after not having eliminated anyone themselves they think Trinity should suck it up. Watch this space to see if Monet x Change cries if she get’s the chance to send a girl home. Farrah is excited, she’s ready to fuck shit up she says, which is where the first glimmer of drama rears it’s head. Gia saying it takes more than being pretty to win, leading into the already heavy implication that miss Boom Boom Gun is the editor’s choice as villain for the season. I have a hard time believing there aren’t archives of the other girls being catty that get left on the cutting room. So for Ru to pick out even the tiniest bit of shade to villainise the first openly trans all star feels wrong. But hey, to her credit, she’s been doing it all year on and off the show, why stop now? The Farrah/Gia storyline drags on through the episode in spots, as Gia informs her team of some drama that happened between the two of them at a gig. None of the other girls care, nor should they, because not only is it not relevant to the challenge, as Farrah is on the other team, it’s boring. So when Gia, pure intentions or not, tries to talk things out with the younger girl it just feels like she’s forcing something that’s got no traction. Farrah’s just trying to do her makeup sis, she’s very unbothered and holds her own. Props to miss Monique Heart for refereeing, and being the loud voice of reason. In the wise words of Manila: “When you go to prison you don’t shank the weakest one, that just makes you a bully.” Back to the challenge, the teams are split Trinity, Valentina, Latrice, Manila, and Gia, face off against Monet, Monique Naomi and Farrah, both teams of course assisted by the Muthafuckin Henny, Stacey Lane Mathews. Choreography and recording sessions are personally for me always cringe, so I won’t read the manuscripts on those scenes. But highlights include: Farrah reprising her roll as phone sex operator, Gia calling her teammates hags then rhyming be with be five times, Monique reprising her season 10 roll as director to the stars. Now to the main stage, the performances begin! Team Don’t Funk it Up is first. Costumes color coded and cute. Latrice and Valentina come through with the biggest commitment and freshest lyrics. Their choreography is clean and simple, but we see very little of Mizz Matthews. Team Everybody Say Love come through with more distinct, individual styles, Naomi and Monet CARVE up the stage with their verses, personally I believe Naomi came a very close third or should have even lip synced over Valentina. Their choreography reads more like they’re pee pee dancing. Again however, where was Stacey? What was the point of her in the episode other than to give Naomi her life? I wanna take a moment before discussing judging and workroom antics to appreciate the camp, telenovela performance Valentina is constantly portraying with herself this season. Every comment, outfit description or eyebrowless confession is a riot. I wasn’t a stan in season 10 but I am now. The GOWNS honey the GOWNS this episode are just stunning. It would be easier to name who DIDN’T carve it up, but I won’t because I’m not that kind of girl. These girls a serving harder than any red carpet looks from any recent awards in memory. Monet and Valentina win, and Monique and Farrah lose. Monique fights tooth and press on claw; if they wanted to send her home she would cut their wigs. (“Those pants didn’t fit,” says Valentina, “That is so disrespectful to Aliyah.) Farrah just Moans. As a Gia stan, #TeamGia and all that, even I want her to shut up after another poorly timed “apology. Pick your moments darl. Valentina gives another Oscar winning performance picking a lipstick and then. wouldn’t you know it, get’s an Ariana Grande song to redeem her past transgressions. And boy does she. She fucks the stage upwards downwards forwards and backwards. She’s captivating. Monet just sort of prowls, tries to interact with Val a bit but it’s lacklustre. Valentina sends her soul to heaven, and sends home Farrah, who she just made amends with. Another devastating chapter from her award winning telenovela I am sure we will hear next week.

[babyleclerc]

Honesty Hour

Pairings: Tom Hiddleston x Reader

Style: One-Shot

Requested?: Yes, by anon: I NEED A BESTFRIEND!TOM HIDDLES AND (Y/N) ONE SHOT NOW PLS THANKS x

Warnings: Language, some angst, and implications of sex. But really this is just pure hilarity in a fake world where all these adorable man!heroes are your best friends.

Word Count: 3K

Summary: It’s your turn to host Friendsgiving, and all your closest friends are attending – Anthony Mackie, Sebastian Stan, Chris Evans, and of course, Tom Hiddleston. After a whole lot of booze, the conversation steers into the boys asking your ‘FMK’ (Fuck, Marry, Kill) opinions - which leads to honesty hour with Tom.

A/N: OK so writing five people is hard af and that’s why this is so freaking long, but if you bear with me through this I think you’ll actually LOL at several parts of this little drabble. :) Anon, I hope this does you justice! Gif isn’t mine!

You’re not sure why, or how, really, but for the second year in a row you’d agreed to it. You’d be hosting “Friendsgiving”, and in only a few minutes everyone would be arriving.

“Fuck me.” You mumble to yourself, fighting to get butter and pepper all over the outside of the turkey.

“Oh come on now, Doll. You gotta play a little harder to get than that.”

Chris’s voice made you jump.

“Jesus, you scared me.” You turn your attention back to the insufferable bird in front of you. This really shouldn’t have been that complicated, yet you found getting the butter to stick to the skin of the bird and not the bag it was resting in, was like finding a needle in a haystack.

“Sorry, doll.” He said, giving you a half-hug and a quick kiss to the temple. “How’s the bird treatin’ you?”

You sighed, “Fine. Just trying to butter him up before I throw him in the oven.”

“Him?” Chris asked, brows raised. You shrugged.

“Just feels like it should be a ‘he’.”

“That’s just wrong. Let’s not get personal with the food we’re about to devour.” Seb’s voice rung through the house as he stormed in, grocery bags in hand. “I brought supplies.” He added, holding up his hands.

You couldn’t help the grin that spread across your face as your eyes rested on Seb. Besides Chris laughing and grabbing his chest/boob/whatever that habit was that he couldn’t kick, Seb was one of your few favorite friends who could always make you smile, no matter what.

“Hey, Seb.” You greeted him with a big hug, and you returned the favor with a tight squeeze and lightly lifted you off your feet.

“How’s my favorite girl?” He asked merrily, setting you back down.

“What, she cooks you one warm meal and suddenly she’s your ‘favorite’?” Chris mocked, crossing the room to help Seb with the groceries.

“Excuse me,” you interrupted, before Seb has the chance to fire back an insult, “you didn’t let me respond, and I am cooking for like, five literal super-humans.” You squeezed Chris’ bicep for dramatic effect.

Seb grinned, also flexing his muscles in response. “That is true. You’re feedin’ a buncha Hulks tonight.”

“Banner’s here?”

You couldn’t help the small backflip your stomach made at the sound of Tom’s voice floating through the room.

“Thomas!” Chris and Seb shouted in unison, passing around handshakes as all three men began pulling food items out of bags.

“Gentle with those!” You shout, as Chris and Seb began chucking around two 10-pound bags of potatoes. “Those aren’t footballs.” You roll your eyes, finally giving up on buttering the turkey and beginning to tie the bag. “I swear you’re both oversized children.” You muttered to yourself, fiddling with the tie.

“Ah, but the best kind of oversized children.” Chris smirked, winking at you as he set the potatoes down on the counter. You stuck your tongue out in response.

“What, no ‘hello’ for me?” Tom asked, approaching you with arms wide and a grin.

You smiled sheepishly, “Sorry, totally distracted by the five year olds in the house.” There was a faint “hey!” from Sebastian, which you ignored. “Hi, Tom. How are you?”

You obliged his open-arm request, falling against his chest and giving him a gentle squeeze. From within his arms, the world always seemed much easier. Peaceful, even. What a world it would be if you could just stay right here for always.

“Much better now.” Tom responded, pulling you from your thoughts. “How are you doing? How’s the turkey coming along?”

“Turkey is great!” You say, removing yourself from Tom’s arms. “Plopping him into the oven here-“

“Him?” Tom asked, eyebrows raised.

“That’s exactly what I said!” Chris exclaimed, cracking open a beer and taking a swig.

“Seriously with all three of you on this?” You ask, opening the oven door. “Whether it’s a he/she/it, we’re still gonna eat it.” You set the bird gently on the rack, shoving the door closed with your foot and setting the timer for four hours.

“That doesn’t mean I want to think about its’ pre-roasted life.” Sebastian chimes in, shoving Chris to get at the beer.

You rolled your eyes again playfully, “As I sad earlier – literal children.”

In the four hours it took for the turkey to roast, potatoes to be mashed, and the casserole completed – the house was abuzz with warm chatter. A small fire cackled gently in the corner, festive music could be heard softly through the house, and laughter filled each corner of the living room.

Mackie had finally showed, and he was the last you were waiting for before getting started. Normally, it would have bothered you being the only girl in a room full of testosterone-filled men (both Scarlett and Hemsworth’s wife, Elsa, couldn’t make it), but with this group it never felt uncomfortable. Being almost ten years younger than them, it felt like they were all older brothers. Well… almost all of them.

“Seriously, doll, everything smells so good. When can we dig in?” Chris whined from the couch, interrupting Mackie and Seb mid-argument.

“Everything is just about ready! Just five more minutes.” You say, turning to Tom who sat on the floor, completely engrossed in a book you had lying on the coffee table.

“Tom?” You call out, pulling him from his page. He glanced up at you in response, “Can you help carve the turkey?”

“Hey! How come he gets to use the sharp knives?” Mackie blurted out, before Tom could answer. Seb and Chris also chimed in with protests.

“Because you just called them ‘sharp knives’,” You pointed at Mackie, “you are too aggressive,” you pointed at Seb, “and you are way too eager. I don’t trust you.” You finally landed at Chris. All three men pouted while Tom popped off the ground to help.

“This is bullshit.” Seb roared.

“I agree! Who doesn’t let Captain America carve the Thanksgiving turkey?!” Chris chimed in loudly.

“You’re not Captain America, Chris.” You deadpanned, waiting for Tom to reach you so you could both head into the kitchen.

“Also, who trusts an Englishman to carve a turkey?! They don’t even celebrate Thanksgiving!” Seb piped up again.

“You’re fucking Romanian, Sebastian.” Chris reminded him, laughing heartily as everyone in the room joined him in laughter.

“Next time, buddy.” You winked at him, as Tom ushered you into the kitchen, hands on your hips. “Alright, alright. I’m movin’.” You said, shuffling towards the bird.

“Chris is right,” Tom commented, taking a big inhale as he entered the kitchen, “Everything smells amazing. You’ve outdone yourself, Y/N, as usual.”

You blushed, “It was nothing. Plus, completely worth it if it gets all you hooligans under one roof.” You joke, elbowing Tom. You could still feel Tom’s hands on your hips from earlier – as if his handprints had made heat marks on your skin.

“It doesn’t take much to get us all here.” Tom noted softly, picking up one of the carving knives and examining the turkey. “It seems the common factor is… you.” He brought his bright blues up to meet yours, and there was that involuntary stomach flip again. Why is it that he was always making you feel that way?

You cleared your throat, breaking eye contact with him and staring intently at the crisp turkey in front of you. “I’m sure it’s just the food that brings them here.” You mumble, trying to steer the conversation. “So, first if you want to cut the legs we can pull off the dark meat, then cut the breast bone in half and…”

But Tom wasn’t listening. Not intently, anyway. Instead he was watching the way your lips moved, how your eyebrows raised and dropped emphatically witch each word, how your chestnut hair cascaded across your perfectly sculpted shoulders, and that all it would take is just half a step to close the gap between your lips and his…

“Are you two lovebirds done with the real bird, yet?” Chris called out, grinning like a teenage idiot. You rolled your eyes, but couldn’t help the blush that creeped up your neck.

“Mature as ever I see, Evans.” Tom replied coolly, though a playful smile tugged at his lips.

“Why don’t you make yourself useful and start bringing all the dishes to the table? And round up the boys while you’re at it.” You command, and Chris salutes you.

“Aye, aye, Cap’n!” Chris responds, grabbing dishes and yelling for Seb and Mackie.

“Holy hell that was good.” Chris moaned, splayed out on the carpeted floor in the living room, hand resting on his stomach. “Y/N, ya done good.”

You grin from your place on the couch, your body leaning against Sebastian’s shoulder as he fiddled with your phone’s pop socket. Mackie was sprawled out on the other couch, with Tom situated across the room from you, relaxed as ever against a loveseat.

“Hear! Hear!” Mackie echoed, beginning a round of applause from all the men.

“Oh stop you guys, it was nothing.” You said, that all-too-familiar blush creeping into your cheeks again. “I’m just glad it was good and that everyone enjoyed it.”

“More than enjoyed it,” Chris commented, stretching. “I’m going to be in a food coma for a week.”

“Ooooh kind of like when you returned to stasis at the end of Civil War?” You ask, grinning. Sebastian rolled his eyes, shoving you.

“For the thousandth time, I’m not Bucky.” He groaned, even though he’d never admit that he loved every minute of your teasing.

“You may as well be, Winter Solider.” You shoot back, poking his arm quickly.

“Don’t worry, man, teasing from a hot woman almost always means she’s into you.”

“Chris!” You shout, glaring and snatching a pillow from behind you. “That is not true.” You say, hurling the pillow at him on the floor while he laughed and blocked his face with his arms.

“But you’re blushing, so it must be partially true.” He retorted between laughter.

“Oh my god, I’m going to kill you.” You say, reaching for another pillow as Mackie, Seb, and Tom all howled with laughter.

“Now wait a minute, this is interesting.” Mackie began when he had control of his laughter, “Let’s play that game that those reporters always make us do, but actually answer them honestly. What’s it called, FMK?”

You groaned, “Are you serious, Mackie? How old are we?”

“Just old enough to play the world’s best game: Fuck, Marry, Mill.” Seb said, grinning. “We’ll start off simple for you, Y/N. FMK: Thor, Hulk, Iron Man.”

You sighed, “Fuck Iron Man, Marry Thor, Kill Hulk.”

“Oh shit, you’re ruthless!” Chris commented at how fast you were able to rattle it out. “I’ve got a better one, FMK: Winter Soldier, Thor, Cap.”

“Not fair – I’ll caveat that I love Thor, but, Fuck Buck, Marry Cap, Kill Thor.”

“Ha!” Chris said, right as Seb shouted, “What?!”

“Sorry, Sebby. Bucky seems better for a good time not a long time.”

Chris burst out laughing, clutching his left chest as Seb glared at you, and taking personal offense on not being picked over Cap.

“So, what, you’d rather have a one night stand only with Buck than Cap?”

“Well… yeah.” You say, feeling slightly uncomfortable though all the boys were grinning. “You just know by the looks of him that Buck likes it dirty. That’s perfect for a one night stand.”

And once again, all four guys were howling with laughter as Chris rolled around on the floor, Tom’s head was thrown back, tongue sticking out slightly through his parted lips, Mackie slapped his knee, and Seb fell into your lap, clutching his stomach and laughing with his whole body. You grinned, soaking in the feeling of having these wonderful dorks in your home. Laughing. Drinking. Joking with you. This was all you could have ever asked for in life, and more.

“Now hold on just a moment.” Tom said once the laughter had died down, “I think Loki could give Bucky a run for his money on the dirty scale so let me ask you this: FMK Loki, Captain America, Winter Soldier?”

“Ooooh good one, Tom.” Chris commented, turning to look back at you, head now resting on the pillow you had previously thrown.

“Oh now that’s not fair.” You pouted, absentmindedly playing with Seb’s hair now that he was resting in your lap comfortably.

“Oh come on, it’s all in good fun.”  Seb said, poking your tummy gently.

“Fine,” You sigh, “Fuck Winter Solider, Marry Loki, Kill Cap.” You paused, then turned to Chris, “Sorry, Cap.”

“Ha! In your face, Evans!” Seb shouted, pointing at Chris, who tried to scowl but only erupted into laughter instead.

“Why on God’s green Earth would you want to marry Loki?”

You shrugged, “That’s for me to know and for you to know, hmmm, never.” You said with a grin, winking at Mackie.

“He is the god of mischief, so you know he’d always be one step ahead of you in the bedroom.” Tom said, grinning.

“Oh my god,” Chris and Seb roared with more laughter. “Now they’ll never stop.” You said to Tom, while Seb smacked his feet on the couch between laughs. Tom just shrugged at you, a bright twinkle in his eyes.

“Wait, wait…” Chris said, clutching his chest, “I’ve got one more important one that has to be answered. FMK: me, Seb, Tom.”

The room instantly sobered as all eyes locked on you, awaiting a response. You furrowed your brows. “Chris…”

“It’s all in good fun! No one will take any offense to it.” He responded, that playful boyish grin accentuating his handsome features.

“You’ve had too much wine.” You responded, hoping to get his mind off the question.

“No ninja games here, Missy.” Seb chimed in for Chris, wagging his finger at you, “Answer the question.”

Of all the eyes on you, the heaviest you could feel were Tom’s. Although each man in the room had the most gorgeous pair of eyes you’d ever seen – seriously, did Marvel manufacture them in a factory, or something? – Tom’s cool ocean blues always seemed to penetrate you the deepest. He was staring at you intently, eyes never wavering. Studying you calmly.

You squirmed under his gaze, “Ooohh look at the time,” you say dramatically, trying to maneuver out from under Seb.

“Oh, hell no you don’t.” Seb said, moving so that his whole body was now crushing your lap.

“Sebastian, are you serious? You weigh like 200 pounds of pure muscle.” You glared at him, but he only returned your look with a grin.

“Yep, and you’re stuck here til you answer.”

“Look, it doesn’t have to be weird. I’ll go. Fuck Sebastian – super sorry if that’s weird, man. Marry Tom – he just seems like a pleasant, wholesome guy. Kill Chris. Sorry, my dude. No hard feelings.”

“None taken.” Chris said, grinning over at you. “See? Easy.”

“Easy for you to say, you guys are all butt buddies. It’s different when a woman says stuff like that, you guys will get all up in arms about it and puff out your chests and compare lengths if I walk into this booby trap. No, thank you.” You crossed your arms over your body, making a point not to touch Seb, who was now pouting.

“Oh come on, love.” It was Tom who spoke up this time. “As Chris said earlier, it’s all in good fun. No judgments here.”

You met Tom’s gaze and frowned – you expected peer pressure to come from Chris and Seb, who felt like older, asshat but loving brothers to you – but not from Tom. The one who always seemed to be the mature one; the sensible one.

“Can you just let me up, please?” You shoved Sebastian’s shoulder as hard as you could. Recognizing your tone as no longer playful, he immediately moved.

“Y/N, wait – we were just playing.” Chris started, reaching his arm out to grab you as you stood from the couch.

“It’s fine.” You say, moving towards the kitchen and avoiding his grasp.

“Ah, shit.” Chris mumbled as you left the room. “Guess I should go consoler her.” He said, starting to get up.

“Wait,” Tom said, standing, “I’ll go.”

“You’re angry.” Tom said from the door of the kitchen. You glanced over at him to see him leaning against the frame, arms crossed. You turned your attention back to the dishes you were cleaning in the sink, staying quiet.

No one spoke for a beat. It felt like a lifetime.

“I’m sorry,” Tom finally broke the silence, walking towards you.

“It’s fine.” You say again, scrubbing a plate viciously with your sponge.

“It’s not fine.” He said, finally reaching you and leaning back against the right side of the sink next to you. His arm was mere inches from yours. “Listen, we were just playing.” He extended his right hand and lay it gently on yours, which was holding the sponge. “Stop.” He commanded – and something in his voice made you listen.

You brought your eyes up to meet his, holding back all the emotions that were trying to bubble to the surface. All that could be heard between you was the light rush of water hitting the sink.

“Even if we were just joking, I shouldn’t have forced you into something you were uncomfortable with. Even if we are drunk on wine and curiosity,” He smiled softly, “It wasn’t right. I’m sorry.”

You sighed, reaching your left hand to turn off the faucet, and shifting your weight to your other leg. You took a deep breath. It was now or never.

“You know, I’m kind of tired of going in circles with you.” You say, biting your lower lip gently. Tom’s eyes darted down to your lips, then back up to you. There were only millimeters of space between you both.

“What do you mean?” He asked quietly, though you knew he knew exactly what you meant.

“The ‘will they, won’t they’ thing we have going here. Isn’t it getting old?” You ask, heart pounding in your ears.

Tom leaned in, his lips mere inches from yours, “Darling, I’m just getting started.”

Fin.

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