#I don’t like the interviwer tho

[notthatangry]

You know i love how intimidating Slipknot were in some interviews like theres this one when insane clown pose were being interviewed and they 9 showed up i loveeeee how the body language of the interviewer and the guys from insane clown pose change completely i KNOWWW they thought they were going to get their ass beaten I LOVE THAT

(On top of that they were talking about some misunderstanding of them hating each other )

[my-starry-starry-night]

I have got many things to say and I just don't know how to start. My heart is heavy like a stone and it hurts today, specially. I just had an intense day like the rest of the week I know I might be just really tired, mentally and phisically but I can't help but think that there's somethig wrong and I must talk about it otherwise I will feel as if there is something burning inside of me and I can't stand it long. To start off this entry, I want to talk about this interview I had early this morning. I subscribed to be a treinee in a program at my college, I want to join it so badly, I think this is going to be a good experience and a chance to become a better professional and it is overall a change that I am dying to make in my life right now (I've been working at the same place for too long and that's not ok). Short story long, I was extremely nervous and when I got inside the room where I'd be interviwed I felt really insecure and bad for myself. I don't want to be so ruthless because I know I have limits too and I have many problems that sometimes might stop me from aschieving my goals, however, I felt like I was a loser and I even called myself a loser once or twice after leaving. My tongue got tied, I strumbled with the words and I think I didn't give them a good impression, anyway, I still keep my hopes. The rest of the morning was a mess. My thoughts were racing inside my head (Am I gonna pass? Am I good enough tho?) I couldn't concentrate in the class. I am truly afraid of a bunch of things. things that haven't happened yet. I know I should be glad instead of being afraid and I also know I should stop complaining that much. there are many thigns that are making me feel glad lately. I will make a list as an attempt to relieve this anguish : - I made two new friends this year. I already love them so much, they are really precious to me and I don't want to screw things up. I don't want to be too possessive over them and I don't want to create those crazy fantasies that I usually have - I am a freak. One of them is like a soulmate to me. I feel like I could talk to her for hours upon hours, I feel like I need to protect her and to assure her that she can count on me whenever she needs. - the other one is a snowflake. too sensitive for this world. Lovely and sweet like a cinnamoon although she thinks she is rough she isn't. I want to embrace them and keep them safe forever. I am envolving my ego on this I know. I like to feel the affection of my friends. I like to feel that I am important to someone. tbc