#I don’t even care about a latto what I look like listening to a girl who used to call herself mulatto

[tariah23]

I just feel like ppl just be listening to anybody at this point.

[calypso-finale]

Hundred Five.

Imani keeps pulling faces at me, but I am trying to do big things for her “what is it?” I said to her laughing “one minute, can I talk to my dad. Mute it” she said to me, muting the conference call “dad I am not ready for that, how you going to have me tour for Oakley? What the hell” I grinned “hear me out yeah, you’re new so Oakley never finished off his US tour, so he is coming around again. Finishing it off with Herb and that, you will have Uncle Herb with you. I will be in Vegas by that point. Imani, you’re good. You can do this, I am pushing you because you are. I get you are shy, but you got some good people there with you. And then me and mom will come out to you, then perform with you, Imani I got you. You’re the best songwriter out there but then you are also a great fucking singer too, you’re shy. I get it but we going to push that, you know Uncle Herb and you know Oakley, yes they are rappers. but they will be there to take care of you” Imani knows this is right “I am trusting you dad” she said and meant those words “and baby, I got you. I already told Herb and he is good with it; can you finish this off yeah?” I asked, she nodded her head “I am not shy, I am just quiet” she added “of course you are” I got up from the chair “I am trusting you” she added “and I got you” walking off to leave the room, I am going to push my daughter. I get she isn’t shy, but she is reserved and doesn’t like to do things she don’t, she can write to her heart contents, but she can sing very well but we need to push that “Emi, what you doing here, sat there” she is sat outside the door, closing “daddy” picking her up “you wanted me, I get it. Everyone wants me” she is such a fat child, like she makes my arm hurt “hit me” he whined out “let me guess, Aziel” that boy comes here and causes chaos “let’s go and see, we will whoop his ass. Where he hit you, show daddy?” she showed her arm “awww no, not the chunky arms now, we will get him” I don’t know if I will find him in the house really, making my way to the living area “what do you want us to do with that?” hearing Robyn say, walking into the room “where is your son?” I asked Rylee “somewhere, ask Raihan” Rylee seems like she is whining “what is this discussion?” I asked “sit down and join us” Robyn said “ugh, yeah right. Dad isn’t the best help at his” I pulled a face “you’re not invited to my birthday meal now, you’re rude ass” she came with an attitude “you said family meal for your birthday and you have my ex there” that is the issue.

Rylee comes with issues, upon issues. This girl was born with issues “you want me to uninvite him? It’s not about you and your issues, it’s about me. It’s my day Rylee” placing Emi down on the floor as I sat down “he’s my fucking ex! I don’t want to see him, it’s hard to see him. After everything you two have both done and been through. You both should know how that feels because I have heard the stories. You both would be arguing and then splitting and then you see each other in the club and then leave together. You both were the most toxic and then act dumb when I am hurt by it” she spat “but last I heard you both was trying? He did that thing in Italy?” I am so confused “that was before he was fucking letting girls wear his chains and been linked to that bitch Latto, you don’t fucking get it. I don’t want him there” looking at Robyn “you both single Rylee, what do you want us to do he is close to us now” she scoffed “family once I am not with him, when I was with him everyone fucking hated him, he hasn’t even cared for me. Got his bastard friends to get Aziel when I know I told him it should be him” I cringed “I knew one of my kids would be in a toxic relationship, you know what Rylee. Have you reached out to him? Or you been waiting on him?” she shrugged “what is the difference?” I laughed “a big one, listen yeah. You can’t be mad at a guy that is single and doing single shit” I said, “but he was ok to have sex with me” I groaned out “oh come on Rylee, please grow up” the door opened “we’re here” Ti said with Taylan, I peeped the eye roll from Rylee “sis!” Ti spat and hugged her, but I saw that eye roll “you know the score though, no man staying in the house” I said getting up “yeah we dropped the things off at a hotel” Taylan shook my hand “husbands, maybe. You should use Rylee home, she is staying here, spiteful ass couldn’t do that” she got up and walked off, she just don’t get relationships or anything at times.

Robyn wrapped her arms around my neck “I love, love that all the kids are home. Look how full the house is but, I need you to speak to the eldest one. Because when I know I have hurt you I always make it up to you, Oakley made that gesture to her as a hand to show her he wants her and she is flipping it like she should relax so speak to her before we have some food” nodding my head slowly “she is spoilt” I mumbled “I will see what she says” Taylan is walking into the house “Chris” he said, Robyn moved her arms from me “leave you boys to it then” she smiled and walked off “Junior is crazy about you, now that you won the Superbowl” I said to him “yeah, I sent him those signed tops and then Ti goes you know my brother is on stream and he sold them for a few thousand” I chuckled “I heard, he said dad I am making money so I can go to the best college, I am like huh. You’re rich” Taylan is laughing “he is such a warm hearted boy, like he isn’t flashy, he really thinks he has to save for college to get the best. I seen dude do the most outrageous things, like he has talent. He is more talented then I was at his age, he is a beast out there Chris. He will be the one to watch, and I said I will come to his game again. Still mind blowing that we won the Super Bowl to me” nodding my head “this is what I am talking about, that game was amazing. Junior day was made and then you winning it topped it off. Junior is a good boy it’s Raihan that scares me. Or even Aziel. I see them together and I am like they both alike. Raihan always telling his school friends of how much he don’t need to do no work too, just different kids” shaking my head “Aziel is scary, that kid came up to me and was frowning and goes what’s up” my smile grew “oh man” that boy is a grown man “I will catch up with you. I need to speak to the eldest, Rylee!” I spat, jogging over to her.

Placing my arm around her “dad it’s going to be I am the wrong, and Oakley is like your son. You love him more then me” I laughed “just hear me out, let’s go into the library room, it’s quiet there” Aziel walked over to us “why is your hands in front of your pants like that, take them out” Rylee said to him “peepee” I snorted “bro, don’t be showing your dick off” Rylee swatted him “don’t do that ever! You want to use the toilet you go! But you don’t do that” Aziel seems so unfazed about it “that mean mommy” he said “mean? Let me catch you doing that again I will beat you so bad” she sounds like Robyn now “Raihan, take care of him! And if he does something stupid let me know” Raihan is just like him “he keeps pulling his pants down” he said “Aziel, you don’t do that shit. Ok? You going to make me mad now” Aziel mean mugged me “I mean it” I pointed “let me know if he does it again” Rylee said that kid just be doing shit for no reason too “why does he pull his pants down” I asked Rylee “he never did it before, he peed on the floor at home because he wanted to stand up and pee like a grown man. I never hit him, but he is making me do it because it’s stressing me out, he is so naughty. We went shopping just me and him, no Grace. I thought you know be nice, when I wasn’t looking he was putting things in his pocket, security peeped it but was nice, because of course they know I can afford it but the security scolded him and said that he could go in jail for it, but why would he do that. The security spoke to me, and he said to him no, he just bad” rubbing my chin “what is he like with Grace?” I asked “she said he is the same with her but like she tells him no, he then ran off from me. Then he was he spitting, like why can’t I just have a normal child. He was hell to give birth too, now he is hell. All I hear when I take him out is Aziel, Aziel, Aziel. Stop” she seems fed up “there has been no boundaries there, it kind of happens with only child” I said.

Rylee will always be a problem child, and I take that really because I would always be there for her “you know you refer to me and mom and what we did but Rylee, you still haven’t accepted what you did to him either because this make up should be from both sides, shit. When Robyn fucked up she would be outside my crib telling me sorry, have you not reached out. Build on friendship because as far as I am aware it was that one thing and it died; he told me. When you build you got to do it together and I told Oakley he has to fucking grow up too because if he playing with you that will piss me off and he said no, that ain’t it but it fizzled out after the gesture like shit went back to how it was, and I said right and I knew that it would be you. All me and your mom did was have sex, no issue resolved, and it damaged you three. That is damaging Aziel too, ever thought of that when you both arguing, you both can’t be civil in front of him like me and mom couldn’t and that affected you both. I am not taking sides, but he did that gesture, you do it back. You let it fizzle because you thought he should jump, you both should be jumping together. Learn from us, but Aziel is watching you both. Think how you saw us Rylee, think about it. How many times I kicked off in front of you and how it made you feel, I am sorry because I feel that has affected you, you was the main one to see it all, I know you get help, but some things can still feel like a battle” Rylee put her head down “Rylee!” Junior shouted “what?” Rylee said “Aziel peed on the floor; mom is going crazy on him” Rylee groaned out “you have go to be fucking kidding me! Aziel!” she shouted storming off, that child has got some real fucking issues because what the fuck. I was just getting to Rylee there too and he did that, following behind them “what is mom doing?” I asked Junior”she screamed at him and then he ran off, Amerie said he ran outside, and she grabbed him before he jumped in the pool” nodding my head slowly “but dad, Raihan is bad influence too, he said for him to run to the pool. he said it’s ok and I told him off” of course Raihan did that, he is so sneaky.

Aziel is so sad, like that child is sat on Rylee lap in silence, I just know he got a beating to last him throughout my birthday celebrations but now he won’t eat “Aziel, you going to really make me mad, eat! Because I am not feeding you later” he threw his hands up “no!” he spat “fine, go away” she moved him from her lap and onto the floor, it’s always entertaining with kids “was Rylee that bad too?” Taylan asked, “if she was boy, maybe” Aziel is crying now “oi, come here” I said to him, but he walked off “go away!” he shouted and hit Amerie, which Amerie was only going to help “leave him” Rylee said getting up, I am going bed anyways” she stood up “but you just started to eat” Robyn pointed “I am not hungry, it’s fine. Goodnight” Robyn looked at me, but I shrugged not knowing what to say “Rylee, leave him” I said but she walked off “I am glad I am not a parent” Ti said shaking her head “it’s never easy, not every child is perfect and Raihan. Stop daring Aziel, stop doing things that are bad when he is already naughty, Junior told me. I mean it!” I pointed at him “I didn’t do anything” he defended “you did, you literally said it to him, go and run and jump into the pool and he can’t swim!” Junior spat “but Amerie got him” Raihan retorted “I said! Do not do that, I mean it” boys can be a pain “if he drowned then what? Huh? Stop it, he is naughty, and we don’t play that around here, stop stressing your sister out more then she needs, now eat your food and then go to bed” he needs to learn that the shit isn’t funny he is a child.