#I do hope the writing is okay; Im very sleepy but I didn't may to delay any long!

[diaryofawallfly]

[ As usual, there's a bit of a hurried quality to Hart's letter. A change, however: the unsteady scrawl has turned into an almost-calligraphy in green ink by fountain pen. Someone's been practicing. ]

Mr. Renfield,

I regret very much that I have taken so long to write back. I've had academic ordeals to contend with (more on this later), as well as some personal matters and the purchase of a new pen after losing mine.

Enough about me; first, Mr. Renfield, though I didn't ask about your garden, if I'd had the foresight to, I assure you I would've done. You write well about things that capture you- and I guess that's not exactly it, but you get what I mean. Plus, it sounds like you have an amazing green thumb and I'm sure the castle looks even more regal for it. It's a shame to hear about the further disrepair- though that brings me to the next of my questions. Do you have 'official' duties as caretaker? What are the most demanding and- conversely- the most rewarding aspects of the role? And, if I may, who do you work for now?

Since I've asked more questions of you, I may as well answer yours in turn. I'm a university student (undergrad) studying biology, not law- but I also really like books, so I can write decently. Finals have kept me busy for the past long while. And I wouldn't know where to begin with "interesting events" from around here, given the general state of... everything. You don't get wifi out there, do you?

It sounds nice there. I mean, I don't doubt it's not all gardens and sunsets, and learning another language on the fly sounds really, really difficult- I've never travelled anywhere that English wasn't the native tongue- but you found a new home in a place so distant from anything you knew, settled into a completely different career that has apparently served you well, get to grow your own roses and peonies, and made a friend who makes jam and wine. That sounds really nice. (And maybe she could teach you, or write it down or something. For a recipe box. Or keepsake.) I guess it's not that far, but your way of life feels like it's a whole world away from here, so it's fascinating to read about.

I don't eat meat much, but I think I'll have to try polenta somehow. Any advice? I look forward to your next letter.

Sincerely,

R. Hart

Dear Hart, 

I must apologise for my delay. I had a few unexpected duties of my own to attend to. All of which is now taken care of and I can focus my time on your correspondence. 

I hope that university is treating you well. Biology is a very dedicated endeavour that you should be proud of. What year are you? What are you looking to apply your work to? Is there a specific topic that you wish to study more closely? I admire your choice of science. It was never something I could wrap my mind around.

I truly appreciate the charming way you described what I’ve shared with you. You’ve made it out to be rather romantic. I suppose I should try to see it that way myself. It’s become so mundane for me I suppose I forget what I have, I see the cracks in the walls more than the flowers in bloom. Thank you. Your perspective is refreshing and has brought me a light I feel as though I lost some time ago. 

I have also taken your advice. I have asked the elderly woman for her recipes– done strictly on the promise that I will continue to purchase her goods, which I will of course. She told me the wine would have to wait and she invited me to instead assist her with her next batch. Until then, I’ve enclosed copies for both her jam and her polenta that I’ve translated for you. With the polenta, you’re welcome to add most anything you like to it. While meat is common, I’m certain hardy vegetables would be delicious. 

I must thank you again for encouraging me to take that step forward. I’ve become somewhat of a hermit myself. I don’t leave the castle often and I regularly only go into the small town. And no, we don’t have the wifi here in the castle. I think a few places in town have it, the municipal buildings mostly, but many have mobile phones. I do not. I don’t have the need for it with my work. 

As you asked, I do continue to work for the owner of the estate. I mostly do upkeep and repairs– or at least ensuring it doesn’t fall into further disrepair. It’s become a historical monument at this point and is rather important in that aspect. I also tend to the owner’s needs as well. What’s asked of me changes by the day. The most rewarding part would be my garden, though I’ve told you enough about it by now. The most challenging task, which may sound silly, is grocery shopping. The owner has a rather specific and limited diet, and procurement for those needs is often strenuous. But still rewarding nonetheless. It isn’t the line of work I ever intended to find myself in but I like it well enough. I haven’t left yet and it’s been a long while now. 

Thank you again for your continued letters. I do so appreciate the company you’ve given me. I hope to hear from you again soon. 

Sincerely, 

 𝓡. 𝓜. 𝓡𝓮𝓷𝓯𝓲𝓮𝓵𝓭

P.S. I must also compliment your penmanship. It is delightful!

[irisintheafterglow]

rn im so obsessed with dabi and gojo, so may i request a fic where reader, in the middle of the night, clings onto dabi/gojo while they sleep. like, they subconsciously cuddle them

I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS ONE (finally writing for dabi) TURN IT UP !! also apparently i have the same birthday as him???? so like basically we're soulmates-

you don't know what else to say when you hear him slide open your window.

"ew."

"a pleasure to see you too, doll," he mutters in amusement, slipping off his shoes and leaving them on the ledge. "and here i was hoping you'd miss me."

"not in your wildest dreams." like clockwork, he makes to climb under the covers with you but you stop him with a sleepy but firm shake of your head. he gives you a look like you'd just told him to jump off a building.

"you serious?"

"shower first, then you can come in here."

"c'mon, sweetheart. i'm exhausted," he drawls and you nearly break, trying your hardest to glare at those stupidly bright eyes and infuriatingly soft smile. "let a man rest a little, yeah?"

"nope." you flip over to your other side as he scoffs at your back. when he believes you're asleep again, quiet footsteps creep toward the space beside you and the mattress sinks with the weight of his leg carefully positioning itself by yours. "shower or i'll freeze your balls off," you growl half-heartedly, very much still awake. he's not deterred in the slightest.

"you wouldn't dare." an arm drapes possessively over your lower torso and you fight the instinct to melt into him.

"wanna find out, hothead?" he clicks his tongue and lightly squeezes your hip. he was trying all his tricks tonight, but you'd learned how to pretend to be immune. "touya."

"mmm?"

"shower, please."

"the things i do for you," he murmurs in defeat, pressing a quick kiss to the top of your head before sulking off to the bathroom. you drift in and out of sleep during the time he's gone, vaguely registering the sound of the pipes creaking and the smell of his body wash. before you know it, the noise of the hair dryer ceases and your bedroom door creaks open again. this time, when he slips into the blankets with you, you don't protest as he pulls you flush against his body, your back against his chest. his chin finds the junction of your shoulder and his hair tickles the back of your neck. his warm breath exhales deeply against your skin. "you smell like me."

"ran out of shampoo," you lie and you can feel his mouth curl into an arrogant smirk. "and there's no way in hell i'm using twice's."

"it's okay to just admit that you miss me, baby," he teases and you roll your eyes. "say that you were sad and be done with it."

"go to hell," you grunt and you feel his chuckle over your body. after you finally drift off again, you turn to bury your face in his neck. his arms secure themselves around your body and you barely need the blanket anymore from how warm he naturally runs. he hums in contentment, bathing in the way that you didn't see him as the monster the rest of society did. he'd rather die than be a danger to you, to have you fear him in a way where he couldn't hold you closer when you needed him. he loved your biting tongue and your razor-sharp wit, but he also loved how you trusted him to protect you while you rested. he was safe for you.

and, even if he never admitted it aloud, you were safety for him, too.

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[cato616]

NEGOTIATING OVER US (part eight)

roman roy x fem! reader

notee: I can't believe I only started to write here last week and im already writing part eight (I know tho that they're not pretty long, but :')))

summary: roman takes you back to your place, and since you're pretty drunk, you let out some truth that may unite you more, or even less. We'll have to see

content/warning: hungover?, still a lot of fluff and angst but no +18 in this episode,, be patient :'(

Roman opens the door of your flat for you, while you rest your body hanging your arm over his shoulder. You had sleepy eyes from all the alcohol, everything was still pretty blurry, meaning, you were most likely to bump into everything in your way, but that's where roman was to help you. "Okay careful, sit just right here." He quietly directs your path all the way to the couch, very gently. You were sitting on the couch, definitely not feeling good, it was not a good look. Eyes closed and head down, pretty normal you would think when drinking, but doesn't make it better. Roman was standing in front of you, looking down at you, analysis the whole situation. Your body starts slowly falling down to the right, by then rapidly getting yourself laying on the couch, with both feet still standing on the floor, not very comfortable.

Roman quickly acts and grabs your head and shoulder to lift you up on a slow motion. He knows it was better for you to get some sleep, but he'd thought it would be more comfortable if you were on your bed. So that's when he decides to make you stand up and walk you to your bedroom, he would have your arm hang over his shoulder once again, by then guiding you over your bed, sitting you down. You had never see him like this before, more like you would never thought he would be like this with anyone. Gently puts your head over the pillow and lifts up both your legs on top of the bed. He did also stood right next by your bed, analysis you one more time, so he could leave you alone at last. He squats next to you, "Okay uhh... I won't bother any longer, hope you sleep well by the way." He whispers into near you; you hear him, although it looked like you were sleeping since you had your eyes closed, but you did hear him.

He then get up to make his way to the door; right at the second he put a foot in front of the other, you stopped him from walking any further, by grabbing his arm very strongly. "You can stay." You replied softly, still on hold of his arms as strong as you could, knowing that the alcohol you've drank, had made you weaker, obviously, but you grabbed that arm like life depended on it, however, for you, it kind of did.

Roman froze for a second after your suggestion. "are you sure?... I don't think you actually want me here, it's best if I go." He would let go of you, and when almost getting out of the room, with much effort you tried to lift yourself up from the bed, tho you stayed sat, to make him stop him from leaving again and again. You felt like you couldn't be in your room alone like that ever again. "don't you dare roman." You spoke as hard as you could. "I want you here, I always wanted you here." You stated. "Even that day, when I was in the shower..." You both went silent. "Okay maybe that was a bit of much information." immediately regretted speaking about that. "but if you want the truth, that's that." Roman stayed put, he didn't leave just yet, but was having doubts, he definitely wanted to stay tho, that's for sure, but you needed to give him something more, to convince him. "why on earth do you think I went to the party?." You asked on a loud note, tired he haven't decided to stay just yet, and it's making you uneasy. "um because you felt pity." He smirked feeling bold about his answer. "oh no I have to go to the dipshit's party but I don't know how cope with that idiot, I have an idea, let's drink!" He tried to mimic you with a silly voice. The feeling of rage was what came out of you after his mock. You were so pissed off that you didn't even notice you didn't fall to the ground out of dizziness when you got up from the bed to talk to him up close. "oh my god, do you really think that?."

"All I wanted was to talk, if you could imagine that, but of course you can't, I'm just a half hearted that doesn't have any feelings, and obviously you drank the whole bar to make the night easy for you, and avoid the dumbass, me." You couldn't even try to believe what he deduced. You didn't know if you should feel sad how he would picture himself like that, or be more frustrated with his stubborn ass. "you're making my head hurt, you really are." Unnerved as you were, massaging your front head with both of your hands, trying to think straight. You sat back on the bed, going easy on yourself. "Roman, I may understand why you can't trust me, but I am saying the truth, I was stupid when I got mean like that the other night, but even after you left my apartment that day, I got so, so miserable, you have no idea." You had enough of speaking for yourself, putting your hands over your whole face, out of exhaustion. "so, if I say that I want you here, it's because I do, I need you to." You affirmed, still covering up your face.

After that, roman was more than convinced, he slowly came down to you. You take your hands off your face to then look up at him, he was standing very dominant; however, he sat right next to you, and started gazing at your eyes. "yeah I think so too, I should stay." He spoke without taking his eyes off of you; you laugh a bit. "I don't think you said you wanted to stay." You corrected him of what you think it was just a response in the heat of the moment. "I did think about it, but didn't say it." took advantage of now correcting your saying.

Your faces weren't far from each other, you wanted him whole. Although, there was something weird about him, at first he was looking into your eyes, but slowly started to drift off, he was smirking but in a despairing way. "what... what's going on?" Didn't expect he would react like again, in a middle of an act. "This is, um, not very... should- should we maybe see each other another time? it's late and you're definitely still drunk." As he says that, he stood up from the bed, wanting to leave the place once more. You didn't move, completely mystified by his behavior. "what? hold on, what happened? why the sudden change of moods? and I'm fine thank you... I think it's actually wearing off." You stared at him, waiting for an answer. "uuh okay, um well." He was accommodating himself back on the bed, seems like he wants to reveal something, as you stayed on your place, still staring at him, while confusion grew wilder; you smirked at him, thinking he might confess something stupid, one of his shows; 'your mother and I had lovely sex' or something disgusting like that, the usual roman stuff, but, he had more of an sombre expression on his face, maybe no jokey this time.

"what, roman what is it?" You felt nervous what he might say. "so, perhaps this matter won't be a huge deal, and im making myself anxious in vain, but, maybe it will, I don't know, there's just some details I wanted to share, that possibly you would want to know?" oh he's serious; you think for yourself, while you stand back a little bit and full on look at his eyes, trying to see whether he's about to joke or not, you deducted that he wasn't, and so that smile faded. "oh... so, do tell?" Very curious to hear what he was about to announce. "this is about your coffee shop?" You instantly replied back, very worried what he might tell. "wha-what happened to my shop?" The whole vibe was changed in the room, from melodrama to business, you supposed. "I want to talk about something of the deal you- we know about, and some info that you might wanna know... that I didn't tell you before, but because I couldn't, however I do want to, now" He scratched his head and pinched his right ear, very much anxious, making his way to find the words. "the café it wasn't the only deal we had to take, well of course we didn't end it with yours, but the others... they are from the same block as your café" He slows down trying to collect himself, thinking what to say. "I mean, maybe you were hoping what would happen if you were happen to sell it" He kept on making pauses "And the whole thing is, we are taking a few buildings down, to make just the one, a new building for a new product deal you could say..." He doesn't looks at you yet, but not because he was worried for a response, he was hiding something else. "I mean, I suppose I thought they would've taken down my shop, that's why I don't want and won't sell it rome-" He interrupts. "that's the thing, that yeah I suppose that it may not play out like that?" He shrugged. "what do you mean it won't play out like that, wha-what's that." You started to get defensive. "The other owners had already agreed as I told you, and that kind of construction, as it's already planned... it might have no other option but to destroy your shop too, since it's the only way to do it... I don't know you'd have to ask some engineer or architect guy here to explain it, but that's all I know."

The tears that were building up, were boiling with rage. but no action was coming out of you, if you could hit, punch or even slap the hell out of roman, you would, but you couldn't. Mind blank, body moveless.

The only thing that could go through your mind, was memories, of the shop, nothing more, you could only think about her.

[flashback] (only dialogue)

There's a younger version of you, from a few years back, right outside of your coffee shop, not even open, yet to be inaugurated. And right next to you, Kate. Your dear best friend.

kate: "look how far we've come y/n, our dreams have come true."

you: "opening day is tomorrow but oh, how much I would like to grab those scissors now and barge right in"

kate: (she chuckles) "I know, me too." "but we did it, let's appreciate that today, since, tomorrow we start working"

(you both laugh)

kate: but seriously, this is big y/n, our new piece of the world and it will be ours and ours only, we'll make people happy here, I just know this one, will be special, and no one can stop it from make it happen."

kate: "we made it."

[end of flashback]

You stood up, didn't even look over roman; walked towards your window in front of you, you were feeling sorrow. Out the window, you looked up to the sky, wondering where she might be; made you even more vulnerable, your legs felt weak, making you fall on your knees, closed your eyes, and slowly shaking your head. "I couldn't do it, I couldn't." you whisper to yourself, as you grab your stomach firmly, and bent your head down, not opening your eyes. "hey hey, talk to me, y/n I'm really sorry, but hey look at-" You didn't think twice and suddenly decided to hug Roman; you didn't care whatever doing he had with your shop, you knew that you didn't want to be lonely anymore, and roman was the only one you needed unfortunately given the circumstances.

"I don't, understand... I thought you'd hate my guts." seemed utterly surprised. "I don't know if I do anymore." You wipe out the tears running down your cheeks. "is that why... you came to the shop so many times to convince me to sell it?." You were starting to connect some dots, clearing your head a little bit. "I did, yes, and if you were never to sell it, soon enough you were going to get kicked out, with a warrant, but without you knowing about it obviously..." You were both sitting on the ground viewing the city from your window. "so you knew, I did get that, but wow." Roman had already mentioned about it, but you had to still process it, even if you didn't hate him. Roman was still ashamed, looking only to the ground when talking. "at first, it was nothing but business, and shit I know I was the 'roman piece of shit' back on those days, and I guess I didn't, or even, don't care that much about some other people, but... well, I got to know you, and thought, 'she deserves to know' and stuff..." He doesn't know how to react when speaking truthfully about his feelings, but at the moment, you didn't need truth, you needed, peace.

You looked at him, straight in the eyes, he didn't want to look at yours; however, by just placing your hand over his arm was sufficient to seek his attention, even if he was already regretting it. Your eyes met, and you wanted him to see you, you were helpless, needing much his help, thinking it may not be too late. "If you, roman roy, thought I deserved to know that kind of information, then I know you are the one who can help me on this." You turned your body over to him, both knees on the ground, almost pleading to him. "And honestly, I don't know if I can fully trust you, because again, you're roman roy, and you're a piece of shit." You were still on your knees but lifted your upper body, seemingly more taller than him, as he was sitting on the ground. "So I wouldn't be surprised if I lose this, that means I gotta give this a try, you can help me."

Roman doesn't answer, feeling a little bit remorseful for his actions in the past. You made him looked at yourself, lowering your body onto him, gripping on his arms, and then grabbing his face slowly leading to meet your eyes. "it's not business, not money, you know there's just personal value I have on it, nothing more than that, I'm not using you, and you know that." You desperately try to get him to answer to you. You've taken a grip of him by his face and made him listen to you. "I get it, you feel like you're going to screw this up, because you don't trust yourself, that's the problem isn't it? that I can't fix, but I do see you rome, you have to believe me, I don't hate you, but I already told that before haven't I?" You grabbed him by his shirt, tightly. "Then you know it's all in good faith, and oh I know how you find those words together disgusting, but... if you wish to know, I actually need you roman, I need you, always."

You waisted no time, and took action. When having already been on hold of his shirt, you took him over your direction, and kissed him. Something you've been waiting to do for a while, and so did he.

The first surprise kiss was short and tender, but then roman decided to get another significant one, longer, passionate, and playful. You both stood up, and your hands were all over touching each other's body, the neck, the hair, the back; he loved grabbing your face with both hands when kissing you tho. As you were gasping for air, breathing heavier, heart pounding, everything was warmer, and wetter. But roman took the time to make that playful little intimate moment to last for a while.

Until he slightly tries to stop, to talk, while giving soft kisses when still speaking. "I know what you want right now, but not today, but I can stay here just like you wanted, sleep with you, and I will... I will help you." As he kept on kissing you with desire, and you were honestly impressed he was controlling himself like that.

After a long session of a kissing show, starring the very talented roman roy, you decided to finally go to bed, you were feeling very, very much tired, even you. You were laying down inside the bed, facing each other, contemplating your true selves. You have never seen him this relaxed before, he's loosen up, with you.

"thank you, for, seeing me, as you said." His words melted into your heart, your lower lip protruded in a sulky pout, you couldn't help it, you were feeling so overwhelmed he was confessing his gratitude. "thank you, for helping me" You said back.

You kissed on the cheek, and the on the mouth, a long one; both feeling it for a few seconds. Then went to sleep, but facing each other still.

The other night you didn't have no one at all, and so for a lot of other few nights; but now you do, and tomorrow you'll start a new journey with him, helping you keep what you got, and from now, preserve what you've acquired, what you've been needing for a while, so you'll try not to lose him again. Tomorrow will be different.

continue.

[h0neyjaehyun]

☁︎ 𝐀 𝐅𝐥𝐢𝐫𝐭 ☁︎

Summary // Johnny finds out what type of person Tali is when intoxicated

Characters // Talia Flores + Johnny Suh (ft.Bang Chan mention: Changbin, Karma, Hyunjin, Allen.)

Era / Year // June 2019

Word Count //

Note // All in English, also the dreamies havent had the time to drink all together yet. Also this is not that good, I didn't really have an idea to write for Johnny😅

"Talia."

"Yes?"

Tali turned to see Johnny's arms crossed looking at her with a stern look.

"Whats wrong?" She asked wondering why is he giving her that look.

"May I asked why did you have 2 bottles of soju on your desk and may I included empty." He said finally taking out his arms from a cross to reveal a empty bottle of grape flavored soju swinging it back and fourth.

"I was drinking with Karma for a bit and Chan came to pick her up." Tali simply stated brushing it off, but knowing damn well Karma drinks champagne and not soju.

"Really? Last time I drank with Karma she liked champagne....and champagne only." He said walking up to her setting the two bottles down infront of her.

"Now are you lying to me?" He questioned her with a raised eyebrow.

"No, she brung for herself the champagne." She waved off trying to go back to work turning her chair, but Johnny turned it right back.

"So you are tell me you drank 2 bottles of soju and didnt get drunk?" He questioned her looking her up and down, trying to see any signs of a hangover.

"Yeah I didn't get drunk I have a high alcohol tolerance, and either way I know my limit." She said booping his nose and about to go back to work.

But he turned her chair again.

"So what you're saying is..." he looked at her with a serious face.

"You got drunk before?"

Tali stopped for a second, took a deep breath while closing her eyes then opened them back again. Still wondering why she is having this conversation.

"Yeah....why?" She questioned now wondering why is it a big deal.

"...how do you get when you get drunk, because Haechan is little crazy, Mark acts cute...what about you?" He questioned her again looking her up and down. People can be completely different when they are drunk, they can be agressive, emotional, sleepy.

"Oh, no, no no no no. I'm not saying no way." She said flat out denying him.

"Whyyy." He said now shaking her arm.

"Because when I'm drunk, Im like a completely different person, and I am drunk with only certain people." She said shaking her head not wanting to give in.

"Who were you drunk with Huh??" He said no way letting this go. She sighed. The two people she certainly wasn't gonna say was Karma and maybe Miguel but she had blackmail on him so he wont. Karma on the other hand won't care.

"Some friendss okay thats it, thats all you are gonna-" she was cut off by ringing it was Chan.

"Hello?" "Tali...did you steal my soju?"

"....no"

"YOU LIAR YOU DID."

"NO I DIDN'T STEAL I DRANK IT BUT DIDNT STEAL." She clarified

"SAME THING." "NUH UH."

"TALI YOU KNOW HOW YOU GET DRUNK-"

"I KNOW I ONLY DRANK TWO."

"THEN WHERE ARE THE OTHERS."

"BRO I DONT KNOW ASK DAWN NOT ME."

"Fine, but don't drink so much, especially a-"

"Shhhhhh yeah yeah I hav-"

"CHAN" Johnny yelled cutting off Tali stealing her phone and running away. Tali looked puzzled, still looking at her hand where her phone once was.

She processed for moment either to run after the tall man or give up.....

She gave up

"Uh Yes?" "How is Tali when drunk because she won't tell me."

"Uh, very...very flirty." He giggled nervously.

"Wait really?"

"Yeah, she gets really really confident and flirts with her friends, a lot thats why I told her to be careful since she was drinking in the dream dorm probably." He chuckled, remembering the time when they were younger and she was drunk because she felt really sad, and she was flirting a lot with Allen and almost got slept with him

Panic times for him since he was sober and didn't want her to do anything she regrets...

"Oh so, flirty drunk?" Johnny asked trying to imagine a flirty Tali.

"Yeah, really flirty, so she had a limit to a member probably like Jisung and Chenle or the older members like Doyoung hyung to Taeil hyung." Chan clarified slowly remembering the time she flirted with him when he was almost sober.

"So no dreamies?"

"I wouldn't say no, she is somewhat conscious so she would probably compliment them, she only flirts a lot with people she knows....it won't be weird afterwards....yeah she would probably have a limit with the dreamies honestly." Chan said thinking back to the time she drank with Changbin and Hyunjin, and she only complimented and didn't flirt much to his surprise.

"Ah thank you this is the information I needed." Johnny smiled and ended the call he jogged back to Tali who was back to writing lyrics.

"So.."

"Oh no."

"You are a flirty drunk huh?"

"Yup, but luckily I have a limit for each person I drink with" She signed to herself in relief.

"So does that mean....you can drink with me." He said in high hopes. He always wanted to drink with Tali he thinks she would have a lot to say.

"Yeah...you wanna?"

"Do I want to? OF COURSE, TONIGHT IT IS." He said happily. Tali shook her head and went back to work while Johnny left jumping happily.

"Tonight....is gonna be a long night."

[shotosimp1]

naps

sugawara x GN!reader.

Authors note: helloooo this is my first ever fic so if I did something wrong or its low key cringe don't hate me lmaoo so this fic is basically that you're daichis sibling and you and sugawara are like close friends who love taking naps togather I don't want to spoil anything so I'm going to stop here. ⚠️Important note⚠️: when suga is talking the text colour is purple. And when you're talking its blue :D genre: fluff. warnings: nothing but if there is dont be afraid to tell me! Here is this playlist i made for this fic i hope you like it! :D

being daichi's sibling came with its pros and cons. I cant lie to you he is a good brother but that doesnt mean he isnt protective of you. And no, no boyfriends. But the best thing about being daichis sibling is that you would get to spend time with the one and only crush of yours sugawara koushi. Everything about him just made you happy. He is so caring and sweet you just couldn't halp yourself from falling for him. And because sugawara and daichi met in middle school they were very close. And with that he came over to hang out like at least once a week. You didn't mind as long as daichi let you be around for a bit you just wanted to be around cutie

And with that you and him would chat every now and then Just getting to know each other more. Both of you would talk about your hobbies and interests and life etc. You just found him so interesting you just kept wanting to be around him more and more. And daichi as the good brother he is will try to leave you two alone for a couple of minutes to have a good conversation together and would excuse himself with "oh im going to the bathroom" or " um im going to get a snack" and it works too!!

Finals were close and the boys, daichi suga and asahi came over to study it was their second year and you were a first year student. Suga would help you study and help you understand the things you couldn't and all that jazz. You felt kinda flustered whenever he says "good job!!" And gives that warm smile of his. It was around 1:12 pm and all of you were too focused on your work and didn't remember lunch....Yeah I know unbelievable. "Mmmm god I'm so hungry" "shoot we didn't eat lunch" daichi said looking at the clock "its 2 something pm there is still time for that just go order _______ or something" -"ahh your probably right" asahi said "okay okay should we all go get _______ i mean we should get our mussels movi-" "im not going anywhere im tired" "okay fine what about you asahi?" -daichi- "sure" "and what about you ____?" -asahi- "nahh I would rather stay sorry.." "eh its okay we'll get going yeah?" -daichi- " yeah let's go" -asahi- and boom you two are alone.

"You look kinda sleepy" he said as he chuckled for about. 10 minutes both of you were kinda silent he was laying on his tummy on the sofa while you sat on the floor near the desk you were studying on. "Kinda actually" "oh? Well mabye you should take a nap" "sure.. but uh you look sleepy too" "hm? Oh yeah i am " you both laughed a bit. "Wanna sleep in my room? It would be more comfortable there?" " well what about you?" "My bed is big i will be just finee" seconds after you said that he starts..to grin? "Ooou you wanna sleep with me that bad?" "You're honestly making me regret my choices." "Hey!" "You can sleep on the sofa bye bye!" You said as your going to your room and him of course following you.

"Cute room kinda messy tho" he laughed " can you leave me and my "messy" room alone" "fine fine" he said chuckling. Both of you layed on the bed and him falling asleep almost instantly from how tired he was. It was peaceful sleeping next to him. I mean yes you were blushing at the thought of him being so close to you but it still felt so peaceful and nice. You turned around to face him. It sounds like too much but he looked like an angle. You stared at his features for quit a while.. he's just so nice to look at. "Can't sleep?" "what the hell!? You scared the living shit out of me!" He laughed. He asked you again "can you not sleep?" " yeah actually" you said still mad at him for scaring you like that. He asked if he can come closer and you said yes. He but a hand on the back of your head and gently guiding it to his chest. And with that your head is on your crushes chest. You tried your best to not show how surprised and flustered you were. "Do you feel comfortable? Can i put my hand on your back? it would feel even better" "s-sure I don't mind" he started to rub soothing circles on your back. Seconds after that you fell asleep..in his mf arms ahh.

"Sorry we took so long the line there was kinda long" No response. Both asahi and daichi left the house for about an hour. They looked around the living room to see that no one was there. "Hm that's wierd" -asahi- daichi agreed as he went to check your room to see if your there. "Oh.my.god." asahi heard him and went to see what's up. "Wait aww that's kinda cute" "what! No its not!" Asahi laughed at how angry he was from just seeing his best friend cuddling his younger sibling. "Hey..hey! HEY!!" "Hmm what what do you want cant you see were sleeping here ugh" " yeah i CAN see and get your filthy-" " why are you so mad? Its not like I did something to them I was just helping them sleep" " I mean he has a point..plus I'm sure its just a nap" -asahi- "ugh fine...CAN YOU ATLEAST MOVE YOUR HAND OH MY GOD" "Why are you yelling...?" You said as you got woken up from your brothers yelling "its nothing..get up its time to eat" daichi said as he went downstairs to eat. Asahi mouthed a 'sorry' to both of you and went to fallow him. "Did you sleep well? I hope I didn't make you feel uncomfortable or anything.." "No no!! It.. it was nice thank you" "great!! Let's go downstairs now im starving..." you both laughed as you went downstairs to eat.

From that day whenever the both of you found the chance to nap together you would do it. Suga tired from practice? nap time! Stressed? Nap time! Sad? Nap time! It's like both of you were nap buddies and you loved it. Daichi couldn't really do anything at this point. Don't get me wrong he was SO happy when you actually found someone to hang out with and actually be comfortable around. But he just didn't like the fact that the both of you were so touchy its like you guys were dating. But you always denied him saying "no no he's just a close friend nothing else!!!!" Until...

It was a Saturday night you and suga were in your room watching a barbie film. It was a chill night both of you got snacks and watched the movie in peace. sugawara kept giving you these side eye glances every now and then you noticed them but didn't say anything. It was the last 20 minutes of the movie and he did it again but this time it was a side glance his eyes were fully on you. "What?" He giggled and said nothing. You were confused a bit so you paused the movie and looked at him. "Is there something on my face?" "No..you just look pretty" he smiled. Both of you were eye to eye and very close. His eyes would go from your eyes to your lips as he came even closer. He gently took your hand in his as he said "can i kiss you?" You were in shock your heart was beating as you nodded. It was gentle and sweet you swore you could right a whole essay about how that kiss was the best thing you have ever experienced. "AHM AHM!!!" Both of you pulled away almost instantly as you saw daichi standing in your bedrooms doorstep "listen- its not what it looks like okay??" "Uhuh..koushi have you been dating my sibling behind my back?" "WHAT? no!! I swear-" "come downstairs cuz we have some stuff to discuss here"

You sat there confused but genuinely so happy 'I kissed him..' 'holy shit i actually kissed him!!' your mind was running with thoughts 'wait what if we start dating?' 'Oh my god!!!!' 'Wait what did daichi mean when he said "discuss some things"??' "Hey im back..." he smiled nervously at you "oh hi!" He smiled as he sat down on the bad next to you "um suga" "yes?" "what did my brother 'discuss' with you downstairs?" "You know "don't hurt their feelings!!" And "don't even think about cheating on them!" And he may or may not threatened to kill me if I did" you giggled "all that because of a kiss? Its not like were dating" " ..Well what would you do if I asked you to be my partner right now hm?" "Uhhh!!??!!? I- I dont know mabye say yes or something" he laughed "well then do you want to be my lovey dovey partner?" You giggled a bit as you nodded "tsk, man i kinda wanted to hear you say "yes please please i do!!" Oh well.." "really suga.."

I hope you guys liked it ♡ again this is my first time ever writing fics so I hope its not that bad

[harleyliloquin88]

Memories

Memories ( Dean x Reader)

Warning:/sadness/ heartache/ heartbreak/ tension/ depression/ pain

FYI I wrote this while I was watching the notebook lol

Hey guys sorry its been a while since i wrote, took  a year off and needed to get some ideas and was reading others work and it helped me to do better writing and put more of me in writing so , sorry its so long was just really was in the mood. 

Summary: Dean and you broke up many months ago You both decide it was best after everything that went on, but one night changed for the two of you.

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(Dean pov)

She was my everything. O client ask for a better girl. It was like that one movie she made me watch. Beauty and the beast. That movie was one of her favorites. I didn't understand why she told me it was our love story. Pssshhh me And love stories ha.

I didn't understand what she meant by it but later I knew what she was telling me. The beast was a mean person who was cursed and didn't have many friends or family. Until one day belle showed up and taught him how to live and learn to love again. I could see why she called me the beast. She was my belle. No matter where she was she always call me her beast and I would call her my belle.

Walking to to old bedroom we use to sleep in together. I turn on the light. So empty and quiet her stuff is gone and the room feels cold and lifeless. Sighing to myself I lay down on the bed. Placing my head on the pillow. The sweet smell still lingers on the pillows. That sweet scented lavender honey mixture she loved. Closing my eyes for a few seconds it feels like she still here.

Few hours later I slowly wale up. Sam wasn't home yet so I decided to get dinner ready. As I started getting out of bed I noticed something odd. The book shelf that was near my bed had some kinda of box.

I reached over to the side pulling it towards me. Taking into my hands. I notice it had belong to (y/n). It wasn't just any box it was one of those chinese boxes she tried to get me interested in(fyi my dad has these when I was kind I loved them so much )

Trying for about ten minutes I was about to give up when I slid one more piece and it popped right open. Placing the box down on the bed I remove the two items from the box .

As I remove the items from the box I find a picture and a letter. i Uncrumpled the picture. It was from when me and (y/n) met for the first time. She was so beautiful and she was so perfect, Moving my finger across the picture. My eyes start to well up. Sniffing a little bit, As I put the picture down I find a note. Opening the note.

August 12. 2013

Dear, Dean

I have had to write this note about 100 times, im not even sure how I am gonna give this to you or maybe send it, ummm. Dean there is so much I wanna tell you but I am not sure how the words can come out. Dean I know life hasnt been easy for you and sam. I know you try to play this tough guy but i know deep down your afraid but its okay. Its okay to someone in. I know i know i have my own issues that i have to slove but Hey we are a team.

He laughs a bit. Runnin his finger down the letter. Few droplets start falling on his face. He finishes reading.

'Dean i hope you know that no matter what happends in life or even in choas times you will always be my beast and i will always be your Belle.

I love you dean more then you know.

Love (y/n)

Dean rubs his hand over his face sighs to himself and sets the paper down. Looking one more time at the picture. Something clicks in his head. He grabs his keys and heads out to find you and tell you he needs you.

Driving for a few hours i decided to stop a motel. I called sam letting him know i was okay. He gave me information on (y/n) .i needed to see her .

Putting my key into the lock of my room. Opening up the room had a very errie look to it. Walls painted like a yellow vomit with a few chipped paint. Walking in i set my bag down on the bed.a part of me wanted to just say fuck it and go back home she wouldnt wanna talk to me.. what could i say to her. A millon thoughts running in my head. I decided to just relax and try to call her. Making my way to thw bathroom when my phone lit up.i grab my phone before i could answer it was (y/n) number lighting up. I quickly answered it.

'(Y/n) i said with a hushed whispear

'dean' she says with a quite sleepy voice.

'Umm hi" i can hear the nervous way of her talking.

'Where are you' she ask me.

'Im in georgia just needed sometime and a vacation"

''IS sam with you'

'Nope just me'

I could hear the nervouseness in her voice. My thoughs were running a millon times fast. I could hear the movement of.my heart muscles beatting so fast it was like it was gonna fault out. For a few minutes there was nothing but silence.

'Is everything alright are you okay? Do you need me to come-

"No sam okay everything fine" i say with a bit of a laugh.

"I just needed time to think and gwt my thoughts in order. I say scratching under my chin.

“Hmmm dean Winchester traveling without his brother  wow sounds very serious” you say with a small chuckle .

'I got the letter you wrote me on the first night we met' i say breathing slowly,

I hear a small laugh on the other end.

'Oh that letter yeah i meant to give it to you but i guess i never did. I rewrote that letter like over a thousand times. It was when i wanted to tell you instead of face 

Remember to let her into your heart

Then you can start to make it better 

I close my eyes and listen to her soothing voice

You were made to go out and get her

The minute you let her under your skin

Then you begin to make it better

Hey Jude, don't be afraid

You were made to go out and get her

The minute you let her under your skin

Then you begin to make it better

a tear drop falls from my eye, Trying my best to stay strong and not given in, I remember that song, I would sing it  to her when she was sad or when she needed a friend. My heart started to beat more and more it, I was scared it was gonna fall out of my body.

And anytime you feel the pain

Hey Jude, refrain

Don't carry the world upon your shoulders

For well you know that it's a fool

Who plays it cool

By making his world a little colder

Na-na-na, na, na

Na-na-na, na

“Dean” You say as tears fall down your face, Trying you best not to break down in front of him. you breath in then out,

“Yes baby” I say 

“I miss you” You say trying bot to breakdown and wantng him to come find you and just hold you until you feel whole again.

“what happened between us (y/n)” We use to talk about everything and anything and even when we couldn't  talk we just be there. Dean says breathing softly.

“i think we just stop fighting for each other and just didn't care anymore “ You sit down at the kitchen table,

“i  think everything changed once you went to hell and you became a different person it was like no matter how hard i fought myself to stay with you in the end i just couldn't do it anymore  Breathing and sighing a bit,

I swallow a huge lump in throat.tears falling down my face and brushing them away with my face.

“(y/n) Im so sorry i should have never put you through what i did. i wasn't even thinking of your safety or was thinking about you. Dean says rubbing his neck.

“Dean it wasn't your fault you had so much going on and you had to do what was best for you” 

“MY JOB WAS TO BE THERE FOR YOU KEEP YOU SAFE KEEP YOU OUTTA HARMS WAY .  Dean says crying.

“Dean” You say with a whispear.

“ Never In a million years did i think having this life would make things seem less crazy but the one thing in my life that was normal and happiness was you”

“after we broke up nothing felt right everything just seemed like i was living in a nightmare and i didn't wanna  wake up” Dean says pulling out a tiny small box with gold writing.

“No matter how many bars i went or drinks i had i cloud not stop  thinking about you” A part of me wanted to find you and bring you back here and try again.” but i knew I cloud not  be that guy i once way. 

“Hell changed me in a way i cant explain so many things so many emotion. so much horrible things i cant even put into words princess” Dean says shaking his head and tears falling down  his face.

you can feel the pain in deans voice, you can hear him crying and trying his best to stay so long. You knew he had been struggling and you knew he wasn't the same. A part of you blamed yourself for why you and dean fell apart, Hearing the man you love trying this best not to fall to pieces you cant help but feel your heart ripping into two.

"baby I need to know one thing and please tell me' you can hear the pain and sadness in his voice.

"what dean" you say with a hush of your voice.

"I need to see you. I need to feel you with me. All I wanna do is hold you in my arms just hear the you laugh .

"dean" you know you needed dean touch you needed to see him so bad but you didn't know if you let him back in would you go back to normal or would you try to fix it.

"dean" you sigh closing your eyes and breathing deeply.

"I ___ phone goes dead'(y/n(yn)

Dean throws the phone on the bed

"dean dean" she about to call him back when she looks up to see the one man she fears.

"hello(y/n) we meet again soon everything goes black.

"put her in the car come on boys we have a play date"

What do you guys think I may make a second one not sure. I know this isn't my best but I'll be working more on my writting so bye ;)