#I do have good common sense and I have an uncanny knack for guessing plot twists (which could count as insight)

[six-improbable-things]

I don't have time to open bg3 right now and I don't make extraneous tavs but here:

this is actually pretty accurate. I'm definitely a wizard (as much as a I wish I were a rogue), and INT is by far my highest score, and I have terrible STR. Plus I have long described myself as chaotic neutral. And being tall and skinny matches with the stereotypical description of an elf...

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[lady-nevermore]

Dear R****  (Codename: Vegas-Boy); Cuz you were so effing obsessed with the hometown you were born and raised in: Las Vegas, Nevada. lol x)

Dear Vegas-Boy,

I remember the first time you caught my attention, we had a few classes together during our Sophomore year of High School (year 2007-2008? I think, that is if I recall correctly)....Anyways, what had caught my eye was this huge, fluffy, soft/pastel colored yellow jacket you always used to wear, I remember cause it reminded a lot of Hige’s jacket from the anime: Wolf’s Rain 

^Funnily enough, I was just getting into Wolf’s Rain for the first time during our Sophomore year too.....and this is gonna sound hella nerdy, embarrassing, and even low-key cringey for me to even say, but what drew me/piqued my interest even more (besides the fact that you also had an uncanny appearance and even similar looking hairstyle to Hige here) was the fact that, you, especially with that big fluffy jacket, sorta reminded me of a huge-ass teddy-bear that I just wanted to hug or better yet (in my young teenage girl mindset), just want to be enveloped by your arms, and with your warmth instead. lol ^^;

That, and well, like myself, you were also incredibly shy, and quiet (hell, our circle of friends, back in the day, used to always say that if there was another person who was more quiet and that kept more to themselves more than me, it was you: Vegas Boy)....And I’m not gonna lie but I found that mysteriousness to you attractive in a way.....well at first at least....Because then I got the chance to really get to know you and it was great, better even! :D

For example, I remember how you told me that you really really loved the colors Blue and Black, and how much Las Vegas, Nevada really meant to you. I remember how you always typed/wrote in CAPS-LOCK (because you said it was cool and cuz it made you stand out from everyone else, which I found unique and adorkably amusing), I remember us mischievously writing/passing little notes back and forth during our Biology class (us trying to get to know each other as friends/acquaintances....but to me it felt a little like flirting in a way) whilst trying hard not to get caught in class, I remember you always saying how much you just loved to drive (looking back, I get the feeling that it really made you feel like you were free in a sense, with the sensation of just being on the road and being in control of going where ever you felt like the road took you).....Tho, me and all of our friends included were sorta bemused /amused that you stubbornly chose to drive an old, blue and black beated-up, used van that was on it’s last and final legs, practically falling apart, and basically a death-trap (didn’t we end up pushing it out of the street at one point cuz the battery had died?)...Either way, I look back on those memories fondly, with a lot of mischievous mirth and with a gleam in my eye. lol xD

But anyways, I remember I was the the first one out the both of us, who plucked up the courage and asked you out (and on My Space of all things.....Keep in mind, during my day, My Space was just becoming a thing and it was all the rage back then)....I remember cause I almost buried my face, and almost died of embarrassment when I messaged you: “Will you be my botfriend”? (that damn typo tho!!! Omfg - how it made me feel soo damned mortified when I had realized.....but I’m thankful I can laugh and look back fondly on it nowadays) lol xD - But anyways, you said sure, and a few weeks later we went on our first real date and Watched, Stephen King’s: The Mist

^It was awkward at first, but I think my light sarcasm/banter, picking fun at the logical choices the characters were making during dangerous moments, and just catching your eyes with a knowing look, made you laugh/chuckle/giggle (when in doubt, I always resort to light/playful banter or sarcastic humor in order to break the ice with people or whenever I’m nervous or anxious myself), that and I think we really enjoyed ourselves with all the plot-twist ending, and even the jump scares (which i really hate, ‘Tis why I don’t do suspenseful jump-scare, horror films). lol xD

But anyways, I remember our first Valentine’s Day, (and please understand, that when it comes to gift-giving, I tend to pour a great deal of thought and care into this sort of thing, I will spend hours looking for the “right” gift with said person in mind, in order to make sure that the person I’m giving said gift knows how much affection I have/how much I really care about them (the same can be said when I sit down a write a thoughtful and meaningful letter or card for someone as well..... I really tend to have the knack of pouring my heart out, as best I can when it comes to these things I guess).....But anyways, you had surprised me with a balloon and a cute little teddy-bear (which I still have, the teddy-bear I mean........in fact, I tend to keep and cherish all or most of my momentos, gifts, especially letters or cards that people (friends or loved ones) have given me in the past throughout the years, and it is probably something I’ll still continue to do in the future too), but anyways, so I made you a Valentines Card (out of blue and black colored-cardboard paper that I had cut-out)....looking back it was sorta childish, but I remember your soft tiny little smile when you first laid eyes on it, and looking back on that fond memory, I can def. say that it was def. worth it. :)

Another thing I remember clearly is how nice your hugs were (***on a personal note: if there’s one thing I’m quite fond of and really adore/love a lot, besides hand-holding: it’s the warmth, loving, secure/safe, and nice feeling of a hug, especially just being held); well that, and a gentle sense of kindness/caring as well as intelligence/playful sense of banter and play, and shamelessly enough: facial hair/beards when it comes to men/guys (it’s just something that I find incredibly attractive). Welp, All this talk is reminding me how hopelessly single I still am. lol ^^;

Anyways, where were we....Ah yes, our first kiss (it was chaste, but nice I guess) but I was sorta low-key disapointed that there were no “fireworks” so to speak behind it nor later on down the line in our kisses....but back then, I didn’t really think much of it....thought that, that was just normal to expect....i dunno. (speaking of the no “fireworks” thing; more on me realizing and figuring out that I’m Bi / Not completely straight, for another time). heh heh ^^;

But it was 6 months down the line of us dating that I realized something, there was a huge lack of communication between us, and quite tense and incredibly awkward too; See, unlike me, you weren’t really a huge nerd/anime-nerd (I’m pretty sure you could have cared less tbh), see once people get past my shy, standoffish, reserved persona (mostly due to my social anxiety) I’m quite the chatterbox, a nervous fast-speaking/tumbling over my words kinda chatterbox, but a chatterbox nonetheless, especially when it comes to all my nerdy fandoms, and all things nerdy that fascinated and that mean a great deal to me. Sure there are moments where I prefer to be alone, or with a few seldom people, and recharge, mostly due to being an introvert (and just simply enjoy the peaceful, calming solitude during quieter cherishable moments to myself or with a loved one), But yeah.... You never really talked a whole lot, even when it was just the two of us alone, nor really tried to open-up, and I never really felt a real connection, romantic-wise, with you really, I guess it just wasn’t your cup of tea I suppose (and maybe it was a teenager thing, and you just never really liked talking/ or engaging in talking during those days.....I’m not really sure, but it really sorta felt like i was the only one putting a lot more effort in our relationship) *sigh* and I hate myself for saying/thinking that, cuz now I feel like such a selfish little bitch, and I know it’s not your fault, nor anyone’s really, it was a just a situation that just was, and nothing more). Simply put, we just didn’t really connect/cliqued in a romantic sense...... Which is why I thought it best to break it off back then, and just remain friends, which we did, and I could tell our platonic relationship as friends felt soo much lighter, and overall just better (it was like we could both just breath a lot more easily).

***Side Note*** Which is why I’ve come to realize that dating-wise (or if I ever wanted to get married to someone in the future), I’d only ever consider someone who is also a full-blown nerd like myself (with hopefully the same or some similar interests in common that I have) or will at the very least be someone who will be willing to put up with my nerdy/fangirlish self, cuz it’s just waaaay too big of an integral part of my life, at this point. heh heh ^^

But anyways, I really came to appreciate and grow fond of our budding friendship (see you were practically a loner when i first met you, but after we starting getting to know each other a bit more, you became immersed in our group of friends, and I could tell it made you feel less lonely, and that it really did you a world of good, which I’m glad that something good came from our failed relationship, and that I was in some small way responsible and able to provide you with something you clearly came to cherish in the end: welcoming you into our group of friends). :)

And it was a great deal of fun, our friendship, with us quietly teasing/semi-betting if two of our friends (that were low-key sorta pining for each other) were ever gonna end up getting together or get married in the future, and us just giggling at inside jokes, or just hanging out with the rest of our friends was such a blast...Whenever I think of you, I’ll always remember your adorkable-laugh and how much of sweetheart you were....So thank you Vegas-boy, for doing me the honor of being my first boyfriend, but more importantly for being such a kind, and such a sweetheart of a friend. ^-^

Sincerely,

- Lady Nevermore