#I do already have the blog n some of my friends from priv already have it yay exclusive 4 krisfans rn

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Btw i'm moving blogs soon and plan to have a few functional sideblogs as well but mmm not going into it rn because then i'll feel pressured lol. But i do want to keep a smaller follower count on my personal blog this time, so no offense if we are not that close n i don't end up following you on there... but i'm still gonna hang around here a while longer

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I don’t follow you but I saw your post on being open to people telling you things so here I am lol. been crying for the last hour or so bc I feel lonely. I don’t have a gf, my past friendships are just not the same so I feel like I can’t go to them, my mom and dad are emotionally unavailable, and I miss my coworkers. they were like my best friends/family. I haven’t seen or talked to them in forever and I don’t even know what to do with myself. ffs this feels worse than depression crying does

hi anon!!

i'm glad you got this off your chest n i know that you said i didnt have to respond BUT this felt like a great time for me to OVER SHARE ON THE INTERNET which is like kind of my thing B). long story short tumblr has never really been my jam so a lot of my oversharing was done on twitter and priv ig acc but i realized that those platforms are super overwhelming and honestly heavily centered by “fame”, how liked you are, popularity bULLSHIT and so i came on here to get away and really focus on and immerse myself in the things i enjoy and it just so happens that at the same time i finally share my blog with two of my very best friends and i thats a very nice segway (?) to the real reason i wanted to reply! i'm currently 20 and i grew up a super social kid and i always had a lot of friends id get teased when i threw birthday parties cos of the amount of ppl id want to invite, my aunts and uncles would always poke fun at how popular i was but truth be told is by 14 y/o i started losing friends because i starting figuring out who i was and standing up for the things i believe in, ive been progressively losing friends for the last 6 years because of differing opinions and morals, between Dec 2018 and Aug 2019 i lost three of my all time best friends because they did things that hurt me and i just had to suck it up and remove them from my life because i was sick and tired of holding onto friendships solely because of history and being scared of loneliness (one of these best friends was LITERALLY my hs bestie who became my college roommate and i had to live with her for like 3-4 months where we lived in a tiny room but barely talked) and truth be told it was HARD losing friends is hard especially for a person like me and being alone has always been a huuUuuUuuUUUge fear of mine. I always had so many friends because i felt like i had to 1) be liked in general and 2) compensate for the lack of romance in my life 

BUT ANYWAYS my point is that the people i consider to be my very best friends are literally people from middle school (people who i'm actually on ft with as im typing this despite the fact that i wasnt all that close to them in high school at all and didnt truly reconnect until college/quarantine) and i don't say this to rub it in or make you feel more lonely but to just emphasize that it happens, people come and go and relationships fail and some are even reborn, but at the end of the day there are people that love you (I LOVE YOU!!) there are times where it feels like you're completely and utterly alone and its going to hurt but i managed to find a way to use it as a reminder to hold on and put in the extra effort to cherish the people i do have in my life. 

i know you don't follow me and i don't know if my blog is really your jam LOL its a real shit show BUT if you ever need to talk more, know that i'm here!! you’re free to follow and mute just so we can msg or you can keep dropping anons or you can leave our interaction here where it is. i know i didnt really give advice but i hope you find reassurance and comfort in knowing YOU ARE NOT ALONE!! YOU ARE LOVED!!! THIS DUMBASS BITCH CALLED ME THINKS YOU’RE ONE OF THE WONDERS OF THE WORLD AND I CARE SO DEEPLY ABOUT YOU!!! 

take care of yourself and more than anything love yourself through it all! you have just as much to offer the people around you as they give to you. you are valuable and amazing and i hope you treat yourself as such!!! (also eat and drink water if you havent already!)