#I did injury massage therapy for 8 years

[fearecia]

Joy, I dunno if this will help, but I figured I would share the knowledge in hope it might help you.

You said you popped your collarbone out of joint due to vomiting. I'm gonna guess that means it dislocated at the sternum end (which, rare as far as I know, and dear gods, OW!), which implies that your SCM (sternocleidomastoid muscle) completely spasmed and wigged out on you. SCM is a freaking brutal migraine trigger, and the trigger points (special massage word for evil knots of doom) are very much known to cause migraines/head/facial pain.

All that to say, if you can get your neck/SCM to relax and get that collarbone back into place, it might really help reduce that migraine. Maybe have Mothman Google some SCM release techniques, since I'm gonna bet he'll be way more able to figure out what you can tolerate better than I could. Heat on those muscles (the front of your neck) might also really help them chill out.

Apologies if this is all useless for you. I hope you feel better soon.

Have you ever vomited so hard you not only wrecked your throat but dislocated your collarbone?

How about a migraine so bad it triggers your mast cells into a pre-anaphylactic reaction and you start breaking out in hives all over your body?

Yeah. Me neither until 4 o’clock this morning.

New level of hell unlocked.

And the migraine is still ongoing. I’m just no longer blind and dry-heaving.

I hate this.

[fearecia]

Putting this in a pinned post to make it easy to find/share. We all know how Tumblr is about things (and to be fair, I'm terrible and inconsistent as hell with tags).

Link to the "shoulder release" document:

Notes about this guide:

This is a WIP, and still very much in the rough draft phase. Please forgive typos/errors. I literally haven't done a single edit yet.

The document focuses on releasing shoulders as a way to treat neck tension and migraines. Seriously, just trust me. It helps.

Carpal tunnel? Tennis elbow? Golfer's elbow? AC (acromioclavicular) joint injury? Rotator cuff problems? Tight upper back? Sporadic numbness in your arm? Seriously, just try the muscles already listed. You'll likely find at least some relief. Like, if it involves the upper body, release your shoulders.

I've done my best to make this able to be understood by people without massage training. So if it seems like it's covering really "obvious" info, that's intentional. Just skip the section if you already know things.

A lot of massage therapists may balk at me telling you to dig around in your own armpit. We're taught in school to avoid the area. Why? Because there's a crap ton of nerves and blood vessels there. *Which is precisely why releasing this area is so powerful.* There's also a ton of muscle (on yes, basically everybody) here that will protect all those structures. It's honestly really safe so long as you stick to "In pain, refrain!" And read the other rules too.

90% of the time, the culprit is one of the four muscles listed (or any combination of them). If you are someone who exercises a lot/does yoga/is otherwise pretty physically active, you are more likely to fall into the 10% of people who will have their issue somewhere else/it will just be really hard to find. So bear that in mind.

Sadly, this sort of thing will probably never be a "one and done" type of deal. Most of the things we do every day steadily build up to cause problems, and you have to constantly work to undo that entropy. So save these notes for future you.

And just in case you want to know what the hell qualifies me to make this sort of document, here are my "quals."

My first career attempt was nursing. While this did not go well (doctors don't really appreciate autistic students willing to question their authority) I learned a shit ton about the body. I became a student teacher for the anatomy and physiology class because I was so good at it (and that professor used to teach the pre-med students). A&P is now literally one of my special interests.

8 years as a licensed massage therapist focused exclusively on injury therapy. I studied Rolfing techniques, and primarily used trigger point therapy, structural integration, and myofascial release as my tools. Clients liked to joke that going to see me was like seeing the physical therapist (they weren't wrong).

Some of the stuff I share is literally self taught through "following the tension" in clients bodies. Like, I developed some of my protocols. And then practiced and refined them over 100s of bodies. The goal was always the most efficient and least painful way to achieve lasting release.

I eventually destroyed my shoulder doing massage (which was injured long before this career due to an AC joint sprain gotten when I was 20). Bonus, this means I'm *very* practiced at releasing my own shoulders.

I'm now a mechanical engineer, which just means I now have the engineering knowledge to understand to the force transferrence patterns I saw in clients all the time. Kinesiology is the same thing as statics and dynamics.

Hopefully that helps put perspective into things. I'll update this post as new versions of the document come out. I have a ton on my plate right now (who am I joking; I always have a ton on my plate), so please be patient waiting for updates.

[justoneday-namjoonii]

Quarters. | 9

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prompt: “I don’t know why I’m crying, I just-...I really love you, like, just staring at you really fucks me up.” — soul-gazing

pairing: Jungkook x reader

warnings/au: please keep warnings in mind—dysfunctional relationship with a capital D, toxic relationship themes, but they’re attempting to get better, probably inaccurate therapy but i tried, m-ish, humor(i try), mentions of drug usage, cheater cheater pumpkin eater?, fluff, angst, boxer!au, iceskater!au. 

authors note: Hello!!💖it’s been a while since the last update but here we are. ✨This chapter is pretty long✨. Unlike some of the other parts, it is following the timeline of the previous part(pt. 8) so just keep that in mind. See m.list for other parts. Enjoy!🥰

“Do it again, you need to stop relying on your right leg so much!”

Your coach yells for the third time in the last hour, she’s being a tyrant today. Your poor ankles are about to break off, your legs are straining and the cold air is starting to feel like vengeful needles. It’s been about two months since the incident with your leg and the doctor at your last check up granted you freedom to skate again. You’re glad it did to because you were about to go crazy. After the scandal came out about you and your ex-coach judge, she asked you if you wanted to get back into pairs. She went on about how Lucas was open to joining pairs again and that maybe you could get back with him—tempting offer. You’ve thought about it, though you still haven’t made a decision. It has been months since your injury, you can no longer use it as an excuse to take things easy. 

Determined to get it right, you skate back to your starting point and try it again. You skate forward, bending your knees just slightly to gain more momentum and once you turn, you take off into a triple salchow. Perfect.

”Finally,” You mutter, skating over to the edge of the rink where your coach is just getting off a phone call.

“Okay, Lucas will be here on Thursday to practice with you,” She smiles, tucking her phone in her pocket, “there’s a competition in two months and I think you two should sign up for it.”

“Coach, I haven’t decided if I want to get back into that,” You put on your blade guards and walk over to the lockers, “I just don’t know yet.”

“Think about it,” She leans against the lockers as you untie your skates and put them in your bag, “if you’re seriously pursuing this career, you have to be flexible. You’re not getting any younger. I hate it just as much as you do but you’ll get positive exposure with him and maybe even pick up a sponsor for the season.”

“Fine,” You zip up your duffel bag and slip your hoodie on, deciding to leave the yoga pants on, “but I need a break. I worked a night shift last night so I’m only standing because I took three espresso shots and I’m about to take another one, I’m exhausted.”

“I know you are, try to get some rest this weekend. You’ll be at the ballet studio for half of next week so you won’t be on the ice,” She says that, hoping it’ll give you some relief, “just don’t forget to soak your feet tonight.”

You gather your stuff and walk out of the center, waving at Carrie the desk clerk like a zombie. It’s only 8 o’clock but you’ve been here for two hours, you feel like you’re in a time loop. An eternal warp created to keep you totally spent. When you hop in your car, you crank it up and turn the heat on. Not long after, your eyelids begin to feel heavy so you drive over to the closest coffee shop. When you look down at your phone, you see a missed call from Jeon Jungkook. All prior emojis have been removed from his contact.

His call will stay missed, just like the other five. You’re not in the mood for his sob story. About two weeks ago, you decided that you two needed to take a break but he took it hard. You remember sitting on your couch with crossed arms and staring at him as he twisted and squirmed uncomfortably.

“What kind of break?”

Are there different kinds?

“The kind where we stop seeing each other all the time, I don’t know what kind that is, Jungkook. But I can’t deal with this right now, it’s causing me major stress and anxiety...”

“You can’t deal with me?” He sounds hurt.

“Not with you Jungkook, with your crap. I have a ice skating career to try to work out, a job, school, the last thing I need to worry about is whether you can control yourself,” You frown, “you were just at my house with my niece and next thing I know you’re out getting high and fooling around with other girls.”

“You’re still upset about the photo,” He concludes, “baby, I told you, it didn’t go anywhere with that girl, I pushed her off. I wasn’t completely sober but I know I didn’t let her-”

“That’s exactly my point, you were doing drugs. And for what? You don’t need it. I understand a little bit of smoking every now and then but I can’t handle when you do that other stuff. That night was a disaster. I got stabbed, how does that even happen? But of course, it would happen to me,” You massage the sides of your temples. “I’m just over it, I’m tired.”

“You want to give up on us? Just like that? I’ve apologized a thousand times, I don’t know how to prove to you that I’m sorry,” He twiddles his fingers and bites at his bottom lip, “I don’t know what else to do.”

“I’m not giving up,” You defend, “we need some space to work on our selves.”

“Why can’t we work on ourselves together?”

“We’ve been doing that and it doesn’t work.”

The conversation continued on until you two ended up arguing for a good hour before you lied, saying you had to go to class. He left and you haven’t heard from him since, not a a call, a text, a call, not even a like on any of your recent posts. He’s taking this well.

*

“Why did you do that!? She’s gonna think I called her,” Jungkook snatches the phone from Jimin, “fuck, are you trying to get me killed?”

“Come on,” Jimin roles his eyes with a grin, putting his boxing gloves back on, “you guys can’t stay away from each other, you expect me to believe you two aren’t talking-”

“I’m serious, we haven’t talked for weeks,” Jungkook locks his phone with a frown, tucking it in his gym bag, “she’s done with me.”

“Oh, aw man,” He is serious, “I’m sorry, I didn’t know you guys broke up.” 

He had been by you and Jungkook for the entirety of the relationship, it always seemed like you preferred things to be spontaneous. Admittedly, he knew Jungkook would do something that pushed you over the edge one day but he didn’t think it would be so soon. 

“We didn’t break up,” Jungkook mumbles, tying his hair back with a head band, “we’re just taking a break, that’s what she told me at least.”

“Aw, that sucks,” Jimin has to contain his amusement, it’s not funny but the fact that Jungkook is giving you full control over the relationship is unusual to him.

“Every time I think about trying to talk to her, I just remember that face she makes and that tone she uses. That’s when I know she does not give a single fuck, it’s scary.” 

“Is there a reason she’s being so hard on you? Don’t get me wrong, you were in the wrong. You shouldn’t have been there but it’s been weeks.”

“Her past relationship was rough on her mentally and emotionally. When she was young she had some things happen to her that causes her to have a hard time trusting others.”

“If you knew that then why did you do what you did?”

“I don’t know, okay? Everyone's been beating me up about it but I just don’t have an answer for you. I said I was sorry,” Jungkook shakes his head, fists making brunt contact with the punching bag, “I just I miss her,”

“It’ll be alright, she’ll come around,” Jimin holds the bag, keeping it still for the lovesick boy, “just give it some time. Hey, I’m taking my niece to the ice-skating rink in town, you should come!”

Jungkook, dramatically collapses to the ground, laying back on the ground with his boxing gloves on his face. “Ice-skating, why would you suggest ice-skating!?” He whines. “That’s literally what she does, it’s just going to remind me of her...”

“Aw Kook, I know,” Jimin can’t help but giggle at Jungkook’s overreaction, “that’s okay, you’ll be fine, and besides,” He pulls him up from the ground and pushes his shaggy hair back, “you can’t stay away from each other forever..”

“What about this one?” You step out of the dressing room, turning from side-to-side to let her see, “I like the color.”

“That’s the one,” Harmony scrolls through her phone, eyes going between you and the screen, “perfect.”

“Harmony, you’re just saying that!” You whine, turning to look into the mirror again with a frown.

“Y/n, this is the 11th dress you’ve tried on, it looks great. I’m serious.”

“Okay, I’ll go with this one then,” You smile, going back in the dressing room to change back into your clothes. Yuna’s having a party for the charity she works with. All of the money donated goes to buying toys and clothes for kids in foster care and orphanages, you attend every year. 

“You know, I heard Jungkook might come with Taehyung,”

Ugh, you forgot that your groups of friends are also friends. Jeon Jungkook, you still consider him your boyfriend in some aspects, but you don’t want to face him right now. Maybe you’re dragging this out too far but honestly, you don’t care. You love him but right now, you’re doing too well to let him crawl himself back into your life. You’d be lying if you said you weren’t creeping on his social media every now and then, you do care enough to see how he’s doing on there. 

“Hm,” 

“That’s all you have to say?” She giggles.

“Yup.”

“Did you officially dump his ass yet?”

You step out of the dressing room, rolling your eyes harder than necessary.

“Look, what happened to you was terrible. You couldn’t skate because of him. You caught him with another girl and you still let him take you home,” She was still bitter about Jungkook taking you away the way he did, she still thinks she should have insisted more.

You clear your throat, “I rather not talk about it.” 

It’s been admittedly awkward every time one of your friends bring that night up. On one hand, you understand why they bash him so hard but on the other hand, it’s hard to hear. You two leave the mall and grab lunch to eat in the comfort of your car..

During this break, you’ve decided to try and take things slow, relax. Admittedly, it would be nice to have Jungkook around again, to run errands with, to cuddle with. It’s hard not to miss him, you knew it would be. 

“We should go to the pop-up ice-skating rink on campus today, it’s a family thing I think,” Harmony squeezes ketchup onto her fries with a thoughtful him, “it sounds fun.”

“It’s funny you say that, Lucas invited me to go ther. He was going to go with his family, I told him I probably wouldn’t be able to.” You sigh.

“Oh, that’s right! The prince is back in town,” Harmony always had a thing for Lucas, even in high school. When you two were partners years ago, she still had a crush on him, “then we definitely should go. Are you getting back into pairs with him?

“Yeah, we’ll do one season together next year.” You have to admit, you are excited to get back into the practice with one of your best friends. 

“I’ll definitely have to brush up on my ballet lessons and I was always a bit too shaky during lifts. Our instructions used to say if I don’t look comfortable during lifts on the stable ground, I can’t expect to look good while I’m being lifted and Lucas is still skating. I trust Lucas a lot more now so I think it’ll go well,”

“Jungkook will love that.”

You take a bite of your chicken sandwich with a heavy sigh, “He’ll live...”

“Uncle,” Yona sits with her little brother in the back seat while they wait for Jungkook to finish pumping the gas, “why does your friend look so grumpy? Doesn’t he want to go skating with us?”

Jimin glances back at Yona and smiles, thinking of how he should explain Jungkook’s situation. “He’s just upset, he’s fine.”

“What is he upset about?” Jimin hesitates for a moment but Jungkook signals that he’s running inside for something.

“Well,” He turns to face her, “can you keep a secret?” She eagerly nods. “Kookie is a little sad because he misses his girlfriend.”

“Oh, what happened to her?” Yona frowns, fearing what Jimin might say.

“Nothing happened to her, he’s okay, they just haven’t seen each other in a long time,” He rakes his brain, trying not to say too much about Jungkook’s love life, “but it’s okay, he’s alright. Just try to understand, he’s not trying to be a grump, he’s just a big teddy bear who pretends to be tough when he’s sad,” He grins, “but don’t tell him I said that.”

“Oh,” She nods adorably, pitying Jungkook, “I won’t,”

in the nick of time, Jungkook comes back with a receipt and mumbles something about the poor management in the convenience store. Jimin notices how Yona looks at him with sympathetic eyes but Jungkook doesn’t seem to notice. He’s too wrapped up in his phone to see that a 9-year-old is pitying his dysfunctional love-life.

It doesn’t take long before the four of them arrive at the skating rink and Jimin is helping, Juda, Yona’s sleepy 5-year-old brother out of the car. Yona takes the liberty of escorting her self out and walking over to Jungkook.

“Hi,” She looks up at him, not even a little intimidated by his towering stature over herself.

Jungkook looks around, as if she’s talking to someone else. “Hi,” He gives her a small wave, “it’s Yona, right?”

“Yes,” She nods, walking by his side, “uncle said your girlfriend skates, do you skate too?” 

Jungkook mentally cringes, bracing himself for whatever Jimin told this little girl about his personal life. “No, I’m a boxer, she’s the skater.”

“Ahh, ice skating is prettier than boxing, you should ice skate too,” She looks back at Jimin and Juda walking side by side, wondering if she should walk with them or stay with Jungkook. Just when she was about to further judge Jungkook’s life choices, Jimin and Juda catch up. Jimin leads the four of them to the skate rental booth where Jungkook avoids eye contact with the girls behind the counter. It’s hard enough to be in your environment, let alone be surrounded by couples and families skating to their hearts content. It’s not the same without you, it doesn’t feel like he should even be trying to enjoy himself after what he did to you.

Jimin and the kids get their skates on, but Jungkook tells them to go ahead without him. The more he sits here, the less he wants to be here.

*

“We decided to come and skate for a little bit, I’m sorry I wasn’t able to take your invitation, I didn’t think I’d be able to come.” You and Harmony skate out onto the ice.

Lucas stands at the edge of the rink, smiling. “It’s okay, I’m here with my family so don’t sweat it, hey! You wanna practice a routine, for old time sake?”

“There are way too many people to be practicing a routine. Besides, I’m already sore from practice yesterday.”

“Where’s your boyfriend? I thought you told me he skates with you sometimes,” He skates a circle around you, a toothy grin on his face, “I want to meet him.”

“He was busy,” You lie. You don’t know where Jungkook is or what he’s doing, “It’s just us.″

Somehow, he believes you and skates off with his family while you breathe.

“You lie,” Harmony shakes her head as if to say shame on you.

“What was I supposed to say? I’m not gonna burden him with my personal problems.”

You two go back and forth until she surrenders, claiming she’ll leave you a Jungkook’s relationship out of her mouth for the rest of the day. You highly doubt she can but you appreciate the effort. 

Nononononono—why is he here? And blonde. Your eyes widen, your palms get sweaty, just seeing him affects you. You’ve missed him. Judging by the way he’s sitting on the bench with his skates beside him, he looks sad. Who is he here with? 

”Y/n, Harmony, hey!” Jimin skates over to you with two little kids by his side, they’re so cute. “What’re you two doing here?”

”Jimin? Hi, fancy meeting you here, we decided to come last minute,” You’ve connect the dots now, “who are these two cuties?”

“I’m babysitting my niece and nephew,” He holds both of your hands and the both of them say a shy little greeting, “say hello guys,”

“Hi,” Yona waves at you two and you greet her with a bright smile.

Jimin glances back at Jungkook who has yet to notice you. “Y/n, can I talk to you for a minute?” You nod.

“Harmony can you please watch them for a second?”  “Me? Um, I guess but-”

You skate to the edge of the rink and Jimin follows, you already anticipating what this conversation is about.

“Jungkook is here.”

“I know, I saw him,” You deadpan.

“Look, I know what happened between you guys and he probably doesn’t want me to say this, but he’s been the biggest bitch since you two split, I’ve never seen him so at odds with himself.”

“What am I supposed to do about that? That’s not my fault.” You frown.

“I’m not saying that you need to do anything,” Now he understands what Jungkook meant about your infamous tone. “I just wanted to let you know, I figured you haven’t talked.”

“I’m sorry,” You hold your face in your hands, “I’m not trying to be mean, I just have a lot on my mind and I wasn’t expecting to have to deal with him today.”

“Maybe you two can talk, I’m not saying you should get back together but maybe talking face to face will help you find common ground?”

That’s advice that you know you should take but the thought of talking to him makes your stomach uneasy. It’s easier to ignore him, erase him from your life while you figure out what you want. You’re very childish in the aspect of talking things out, he is too.

“Here he comes,” Jimin looks over at Jungkook who is slowly approaching you two, “I’ll give you two some space-”

“Jimin, I swear, if you did this on purpose!-” Your threat is cut short when he skates away and Jungkook skates up to you. As if you don’t even see him, you quickly skate away, uninterested in anything he might have to say.

Jungkook knows he can’t possibly out-skate you. He mumbles a few curses before skating over to Jimin and the kids as frustrated as ever. For a moment, he almost changed course because Harmony, his biggest hater, is with them and she is one of the last people he wants to see.

“Jungkook, hey,” Jimin sighs, dreading the angry frown in Jungkook’s brows, “I’m glad you decided to-”

“Did you know she was here?” Jungkook cuts straight to the punch, not paying any mind to Harmony whose staring at him as if he’s a mass murderer.

“No,” Jimin shrugs, voice low in order not to alarm the kids who are skating near by, “you know I would have told you.”

“I’ll be in the car.” He skates off, anxious to get off the ice but he’s stopped when another skater bumps into his shoulder.

“Sorry!-”

“Don’t worry about it,” Jungkook shrugs, but just when Jungkook was about to leave the guy gives him a weird look. 

“Wait, what’s your name? You look so familiar,”

“Jungkook,” He responds with a bit of impatience, “I don’t think I know you from anywhere, sorry-”

“You’re Y/n’s boyfriend! She showed me some of her pictures pictures,” Lucas smiles but Jungkook’s eyes darken, “I’m Lucas, we’re competing in pairs again next season, I’m sure she’s told you.”

“Oh, I didn’t know, probably slipped her mind,” You haven’t mentioned it on purpose. Then again, how could you? You haven’t talked in weeks.

Just when he thought this day couldn’t get any worse, he meets your partner, and he’s not ugly,

“She said you couldn’t come because you were busy, did you come to surprise her?”

“Something like that- I’m sorry, I gotta go.”

“Okay, well...nice to meet you,” Lucas waves him off but Jungkook doesn’t pay him any mind. 

He thought this might go differently, why did he think that? As soon as he saw you, that tug in his heart came back, that desire to be around you came back. When you walked away, it made him feel like crap, you didn’t even want to look at him.

While he’s skating off to the side to leave the rink, he sees you taking off your personal skates and putting them in their bag. Of course, your caddie is right next to where his heavy black boots are. He enters the room opens the caddie with the little pass-code they gave him when he rented the skates. You spare him a glance as you tie your sneakers and he sits to get his shoes on.

“Did you have to ignore me like that?” He decides to speak up.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” You frown, “I don’t even know why you’re here.”

“Since when did you start caring where I go?” He bites back. “You’ve been ghosting me for fucking weeks and suddenly I’m not allowed to go out?”

“I didn’t want to see you...I was doing so good, I was forgetting about you.” You lean back, not giving him eye contact.

”Wow, just what I wanted to hear,” He thought you would say something like that but he didn’t expect you to be so blunt. 

“You can’t say you’re surprised, can you?”

“No, but the least you can do is talk to me.”

”Fine, that’s fair. What do you have to say?” You stand to your feet, your bag tight in your hand/

”Believe it or not,” He gets up to lean on the wall behind him, “I love you, so I'm letting you drag me along and make all of the rules but I’m just asking that you communicate with me, I need to know what you want,” He tends to ask this question when he’s most desperate for your good side to emerge.

“Why don’t you tell me what you want? I’m not the one going around making decisions that hurt our relationship, not recently anyway.” You throw a jab at him, you couldn’t contain it anymore.

“If you’re trying to make me feel like shit, you’ve succeeded. You’ve been succeeding for weeks now, it’s actually starting to get to me, mentally.” As he says that, an unsuspecting few individuals come in to get there things.

“Can-” You pause and walk over to him to eliminate the awkward distance, “Can we talk about this somewhere else?”

His spirits brighten a little because at least you’re interested in continuing the conversation, you haven’t even attempted to do that until now. So when he stutters out an “okay”, his feet move as soon as yours do. He’s walking right next to you and you find yourself keeping your arms crossed, away from his hands that you would normally be holding. By the time you walk out to the rink, Jimin is still with the kids and Harmony is gone, probably in the restroom. You find a secluded area near the concession area and take a seat, he does the same right across from you. 

“Do you want to break up?” 

He puts it out there. He’s never been the one to hesitate, especially when his heart is on the line.

“What do you mean?” You swallow, not expecting to be confronted with that question.

He almost scoffs because you’re having a similar reaction to his reaction to you telling him you wanted to take a break.

“Do you not want to be in a relationship anymore? If this isn’t something you’re willing to do anymore, I need you to tell me so I can grieve in peace...I feel really lost right now.”

“Grieve? I’m not going to die if we break up, Jungkook, and I never said I wanted to break up—I never said I didn’t love you either. That’s not what this is about, it’s not about whether we love each anymore, it’s about trust.” 

“How can I gain your trust?”

You look around, making sure no one is listening in on you two before mumbling out your answer. “I don’t know...I just don’t trust you, I can’t tell you how to make it up to me because people who screw me over, I normally stay as far away from them as I can.”

All you can think about is the lies from your birth-mother, the betrayal and humiliation that came over you when you found out about your ex. Situations like that always come to mind when the subject of trust is mentioned. You’ve been hurt and Jungkook knows that, he knows when you feel like you can’t trust someone, you shut down. You want nothing to do with that person, your pain blinds you—its your character flaw.

“You’re lucky I’m even talking to you right now,” You mumble, nibbling at your bottom lip.

“Yeah, I know.” He scoffs, a look of disbelief that turns into an understandable shrug of his shoulders. 

“I’ve always thought of you as someone I didn’t deserve, you know that,” He glances down at his twiddling fingers, “when we got together, you changed me and I’m so grateful for that...I was such a shitty person before I met you- I mean, I’m sure you think I’m shitty now but I was way worse.” It surprises you when you see tears welling at his eyes that he quickly wipes away, tattooed fingers getting a bit wet.

“Jungkook,” You lay a hand over his with sympathetic eyes, “I still love you.”

“Seriously?” He glances up at you, surprised. 

“Yes...You hurt me, you made me feel stupid and I’m not over it...But I never forget those times where I made life difficult for you, you never made me feel irredeemable. No matter how awful I acted, you never made me feel like a burden. That’s more than I can say about a lot of people in my life.”

The more you talk this out with him, the more you realize how harshly you’ve been treating him. It doesn’t change how you feel about your relationship, but it does open your eyes to the standard you’ve been holding him to. You don’t know if you’re ready to start again.

“Well, I have to be honest with you,” He looks at you through his dirty blonde locks, “it still hurts like hell to have you treat me like a stranger. That shit is painful, even for me.”

“I’m sorry,” You murmur out an apology before you can really think about it, “I’m just upset at you is all...” Slowly, you take your hand off of his and your eyes wander back to his dear-like eyes. 

“Everyone’s telling me I should let you go but I don’t want to. I just need to know that you’re willing to wait for me, and to work on yourself...”

“I’ll do anything, I’ll do whatever it takes for us,”

Shortly after that day, you found yourself thinking more and more about your future. It made you cringe at one point, what were you planning to do with the rest of your life? Whatever you planned to do, you always imagined Jungkook would be by your side. Now, you’re coming to terms with the fact that things may not go as planned.

“Y/n, are you ready?” Lucas calls your name from outside of the dressing room.

”What are you doing in here? This is the woman’s locker room,” You open the door, now fully dressed in your new leotard.

”We’re the only ones here,” Lucas stands with a matching outfit, far less sparkly as yours.

”Why does she always pick these leotards for me? You always get the toned down looks-” You walk over to the mirror, furrowing your brows, “Oh, actually, this one is kinda nice.”

“She knows you’re the most dramatic out of the two of us, maybe that’s why,” He shrugs his shoulders before quickly running back out into the ballet studio. Your least favorite part of your career is the ballet lessons, it’s the most grueling.

“Come on out, Y/n, we only have the studio for the morning so we need to use our time wisely.”

“Sorry,” You walk out with an urgency, “the costume fits okay, a little snug but it’s doable.”

Coach gives you a knowing look, she’s been floating the idea of a diet around. As committed as you are to your craft, dieting is one thing you don’t think you need to do well. You try to stay fit but sometimes you’re more concerned about your dwindling love life than you dress size. The ballet instructor emerges from around the corner and you cringe, the next few hours are about to be painful. 

Yet, as the class progresses, your thoughts drift farther from the positions and you find yourself zoning out completely.

*

*

At one point in time, you couldn’t imagine being without Jungkook. Out of all of the people who’ve come and gone out of your life, he stayed. He became your best friend and your first love.

“I don’t want to be here anymore, please, just let me go home,” You sat on the hotel room floor, hair pin in your hands and a painfully cold ice bag on your ankle, “...I can’t go back out there.”

She stands with crossed arms, her unchanging expression not doing anything for your emotional state.”Y/n, you are a professional, and do you know what professionals do?”

”No.”

“They finish the competition, no matter what. You need to stay for the judging, “

“Why? I fell on my biggest jump on live television. Cindy. I look like an amateur...There’s no way in hell they’ll even consider placing me. That means I’m done for, I might as well kiss nationals goodbye.”

”That was the last program, you still have a chance-“

”Not after Charlotte’s routine! You said it yourself, I had to be flawless or Charlotte would take my spot in the qualifying team, there was no room for error. This is the one time it had to be perfect...” You use the bed to help you up and you sit down n the edge of it.

”It won’t be perfect every time. You work harder than any girl I know, and not just in this sport, you work hard at whatever you do and you support yourself, you’re the only girl I know who’s parents aren’t paying for you to be here. You deserve to be here, you made one mistake, one. It’s not the end of the world, sweetheart,” Cindy takes a seat beside you, a comforting hand going to your shoulder, “these things happen.”

You take a deep breath, trying to calm down and think rationally. Cindy is trying her best to talk you off of the ledge but you’re very much still there. She says you work so hard, but what do you have to show for it? You’re doing this alone a majority of the time. Your family only comes to support you sometimes, they don’t have a lot of free time to spend on your hobby. Your iceskating is a glorified hobby to them, they won’t say it but it’s true. After they told you to pick a major and find a good paying 9-5, they stopped paying for your iceskating. They’re paying for school but that’s it, you’re supporting yourself in every other aspect. That gave you all the reason to try to prove to them that you were an exceptional athlete. To prove to them that you did it all on your own, that’s your only goal. Yet, the more you reach for that, the farther you get from it.

”Listen, I need to check on the other girls, alright? I hope you reconsider.” She pecks your forehead, a motherly affection that you’ve come to appreciate from her. She is like a mom in some ways. She cares for the entire team, and she would never say it, but she has a particular soft spot for you. She can see how much you want this, how the ice can take you to a different place.

You were meant to do this, she always tells you that. She saw the fire in you as soon as she accepted you on her team. Your passion attracted her to you, you never stopped, you had so much drive. Some people are meant to fight tooth and nail for what they want, sometimes you have to ask yourself, why do I have be one of those people?

Ignoring your better judgment, you packed your bags and took the 2-hour drive back to your apartment. All while you were fleeing the city to seek refuge at home, you received multiple phone calls from Jungkook but you couldn’t bring yourself to call him back. When you got home, you took off your tracksuit and sank face first into your coach. 

As much as you wanted Jungkook to come to the competition, you insisted that he stay and take that job. He hasn’t been boxing as much so any extra art job he can take, you encourage him to take it. He told you he’d streamed the competition while working on the mural at a nearby bar. His heart sank when you took that fall.  You put hours of practice into that routine and perfected it, he had seen you do it flawlessly several times. 

All he wanted to do was hug you and tell you that you did well but all he could do was hope that you weren’t beating yourself up. He could only imagine how devastated you were and to not be able to be there for you, he couldn’t stand it. He finished up the mural and you had finally texted him saying, ‘I came home early.’ He went straight to your apartment with the big pink bunny he bought for you, you need it even more now.

”Hey, it’s me,” He opened the front door and announced himself softly and walks further inside. 

The television barely illuminates the living room but he sees you laying on the couch. He sits the bunny down behind the couch so you can’t see them before walking around to greet you in your depressing state.

“I wasn’t expecting you until tomorrow, baby,” He rests a hand on thigh and kisses your cheek, “you must’ve known how much I was missing you,” His attempt to make you smile goes painfully unnoticed. 

He bites at his bottom lip in thought. “Did something happen?...”

You swallow the lump in your throat and finally look him in the eyes, “Did you watch my second program?” 

“I did, you looked beautiful-”

“I’m quitting.”

He turns his whole body to you, brows deeply furrowed like a cartoon character. “What?”

You cover your face with a pillow, successfully hiding your tears, “I’m calling Cindy to tell her I don’t want to do it anymore, I quit.”

“Woah, wait, why?” He takes the pillow from you to see your face, “Y/n, calm down, what’s going on? Tell me what happened.”

“I- I didn’t make the national team, that was my only chance until next year. All my hard work went down the drain and everyone saw me screw up..” You wipe your tears with your sleeve.

“Hey, it’s okay, you cry if you need to,” He pulls you into a hug, cradling your head to his chest, “I know this is tough for you but it’s not the end of the world, it’ll get better.”

You pull away from him as if he were suddenly hot to the touch and bury your face into the arm of the couch. “You wouldn’t understand, the pique of my career was riding on this, and I blew it. It feels like the end of my world, okay?” 

You know your words are muffled by the couch, that’s probably for the better anyway. “T- that’s just how I feel...” 

He doesn’t pry any further after that. He knows there’s not much he can say to change your mind right now. Instead, he scoots closer to your side and places a comforting hand on your back, rubbing soothing circles as he waits for you to continue.

“I have nothing if I lose this, there’s all this pressure on my shoulders and its tearing me apart...” You turn to wipe your face and sit up. “I love skating, it’s all I’ve ever wanted to do...if I stop, I wouldn’t know what to do with myself.”

You’ll never forget that night. 

He lifted you into his lap and kept his arms tight around you. “You’re so much more than just your skating. You’re so good at but it’s not all that you are.” Jungkook has a way of talking you off of the edge but that night, you were especially down on yourself.

“Yes it is...” 

“No it’s not,” He sighs, “look, I know what it feels like to find your identity in something and then all of a sudden, that something is gone...When my portfolio got rejected, I felt like a failure. My family never got behind the boxing thing, so I’ve always tried to find another way to support myself just in case for whatever reason it doesn’t work out...I didn’t start realizing that until recently. I’m constantly torn between giving up one dream for the other but I want to do both, you actually inspire me to do both.” You furrow your brows, briefly abandoning your own issues to listen to him. 

“You work so hard and you’re showing your family that you can do this, you just have to believe in yourself, and you know what? You’re doing amazing. Tonight was just a bad night, it happens.” He squeezes you tight and you do the same, arms fastened around his neck as if it would kill you to let go.

You didn’t need to say anything after that. You settled your mind and you were no longer at the edge, you were still close, but not there. With your head resting over his shoulder, you try to peek over the couch to see what he dropped back there when he walked in.

“Hey, what’d you think you’re doing?” Jungkook leans forward and your grip around him is loosened so you can no longer look back there. “You think I got something for you?”

You look down a bit embarrassed that he caught you, “Well, yeah...you did,  didn’t you?” You smile for the first time tonight and he breathes a sigh of relief. Finally.

He was going to tease you for wanting your gifts even though you just had a meltdown. But how could he? He wants to keep this smile on your face for as long as possible.

“Sit,” He lifts you off his lip and back to your previous seat on the couch, “no peeking.”

You hold your hands over your eyes, excited even thought have no idea what it might be.

“Okay, open.”

When you move your hands to see you squeal in excitement. “Oh, Jungkook! It’s so cute!” You stand up to take the pink bunny that’s almost more than half your size. “Thank you,” You lean into him with the bunny between you two, “it’s so big and soft, like you.”

“Yeah I know,” He sways from side-to-side with you in his arms, “you feeling better?”

You muffle your sigh into the stuffed animal, “I still wanna quit.”

“Oh stop,” He pulls the from your grip and tosses it onto the couch, “you’re just being bratty now,”

“No I’m not,” You whine, the issue still very fresh, “I’m still sad...I just really like my gift and I’m happy to see you...But I am still upset.”

“Aw, I’m sorry,” He lays on the couch and beckons you into his arms to lay on his chest, “let’s cuddle you until you feel better then, will that help?” 

“Maybe...”  

You’d be lying if you said you could live without that side of him.

*

A few days later, you’re surprised you hadn’t heard from him. But when you get back from the gym with a missed call from him and a solemn text to  ‘call back when you can’, you actually call him back.

“Is something wrong?”

“No, nothings wrong. Thank you for calling me back.” 

His voice sounds relaxed but a bit anxious.

“Did you need something?” You sigh, pouring your boiling water in your mug.

“Are you free to go with me somewhere at 11? And then maybe, we could grab dinner? Just-...Don’t be mad, please.”

Anxiety bubbles in your chest.

“What’re you talking about?”

“I signed us up for couples therapy.”

“You did what?” Somewhere in your mind, you had wanted him to bring this up—you never imagined that he actually would.

”You said we don’t know how to work on ourselves together, I read that therapy helps with that. Will you go with me? If you don’t like it, you never have to do it again I swear.”

“Jungkook...I appreciate the effort, I really do, but how did you find this therapist? Do you trust them?”

”Of course. He has great reviews online and my-...Well, my mom found him actually.”

You pause, a bit taken aback. He talked to his mom about your relationship and he took her advice about seeing a therapist? He must have really taken your words to heart about getting help.

“Can you pick me up?”

“Sure, I’ll be there in 20.”

When he picked you up, you were reminded just how well he could clean up. Sure, he always dresses so well and smells amazing, but he’s different today—you can tell he put in a lot of effort. You’re glad you decided to do your makeup and where a nice sundress, you would have felt terribly under-dressed.

“Hi, how can I help you?

“Hi, we have an appointment for Jeon at 5, with Seojoon.”

You stand next to Jungkook at the front desk, your hands tightly clutching your purse. It’s hard to not think the woman is judging you and Jungkook for being here. She’s probably seen hundreds of people come into this office but something in you can’t shake the feeling. She directs you two to the waiting room and says he’ll come get you two in a few minutes.

“So,” You begin, glancing at Jungkook, “I’m nervous...” 

“Me too.” This is new for the both of you. In only a few seconds, who you assume to be Seojoon emerges from the hallway and you look at him a bit wide-eyed. 

“Hi, Jungkook, Y/n, are you two ready?” 

“Oh, um, yes.” You stand up in sync with Jungkook, already wanting to run out of here but you resist.

You have to admit that the office is really nice, not stiff and sterile looking, the energy is very calming. Seojoon opens the door to a cozy-looking room with tons of natural sun light. There’s warm-rose colored couch that you assume is for ‘the couple.’

“Alright, you can take a seat right there, make yourselves comfortable.” He smiles, taking a seat and you two do the same.

“So let’s get right into it. What brought you two here today? If you could both tell me your separate answers, that would be great.” Despite Seojoon looking at you directly to presumably go first, you divert your eyes and look at Jungkook to say something first.

“Well, we’re- I think we’re going through a lot right now and I just want to save our relationship.” Jungkook sits back, resting against the arm of the couch as he gazes at you to give your answer.

“What about you, Y/n?”

You glance down at your lap, feeling very out of your comfort zone and not confident enough to verbalize what you would like to say. Alas, you try.

“I feel the same way, we’re not in a good place and I’m confused about what to do-...I just want what we used to have.” You confess a bit of your true feelings but ignore the longing look Jungkook gives you.

“When did you start feeling like the relationship was changing?”

“Fairly recently. We were fine, at least I thought we were until I saw him with another girl back in an old lifestyle that I thought he gave up...”

Seojoon diverts his attention away from you and to Jungkook. “Jungkook, do you want to share a little bit about that?”

“Not really,” He answers honestly at least.

“Why not?”

“To be honest, I don’t know why she keeps throwing the same jab at me. I’ve told her the truth but she doesn’t want to hear it. I went out that night,” He almost glares at you, “I didn’t plan to. I ran into an old friend and I just-...I thought it was harmless and I got caught up...” 

Seojoon scribbles something down. “Okay, so can you fill me in a little bit. Are we talking about unfaithfulness? Addiction?”

“Unfaithfulness,” You interject. “he said he didn’t cheat on me but...” You mumble, your confidence faltering for some reason. “It’s hard to believe that.”

“But you think he did so you have some distrust. Were you unfaithful, Jungkook?”

“It doesn’t matter if I say I did or I didn’t, she thinks I did.” He shrugs.

”Y/n,” Seojoon puts an end to the death stare you had on Jungkook, “can you tell Jungkook what cheating looks like to you?”

”Not sleeping with her doesn’t mean you didn’t cheat on me. Letting her put her hands on you- And I don’t care if it was just a kiss! You shouldn’t have been in that situation, and for me to have to see it on social media? I could have killed you I was so mad. You should ask Jungkook what cheating is to him. We obviously have different standards for defining it...”

”What does cheating look like to you, Jungkook?” He heeds your suggestion without any push-back.

”To me,” He hesitates, feeling a bit scrutinized, “it’s when a person violates the intimacy of the relationship by giving it to someone else.”

“What kind of intimacy?”

“Emotional, physical, every kind,” He turns to you, “I wouldn’t do thingst that I do with Y/n with anyone else, not by choice-”

“Yes you would! You did...Are you trying to tell me that you were assaulted? That she forced her way on you?”

“I was blitzed! I don’t fucking know. All I do know is that she got on top of me and I pushed her off. That’s it. I swear, if anything else happened, I don’t remember it.”

“I don’t care. You know what I’ve been through, to even allow another girl to even get close to touching you like that...It was a slap in the face.”

Seojoon’s ears perk up at the mention of your past. “Did you have to go through a similar situation in a previous relationship?” 

“Yes and he knows this. I was being cheated on before and the guy had a literal baby on the way throughout our entire relationship...It was traumatizing.” It stings his ears to hear you say that. But it’s true, he knows your past and he didn’t let it stop him. 

“What happened must have triggered you,” You nod to yourself, “but you’re here to try to work through forgiveness and build trust. If you two are comfortable with it, I’d like you do do two exercises; one here and one when you’re alone. The first one that you’ll do here, I need you to face each other, preferably close, and I have some questions for you two to ask each other.”

“Like this?” Jungkook answers instantly and turns to you, getting closer to you than he has in weeks. You face him slowly, eyes wavering a bit. His face has always been a soft-spot for you, staring at him makes you feel weak.

“Actually,” Seojoon stands up, gesturing for you to do the same, “two chairs might be more comfortable, yeah? Let’s go to my other room.”

You follow Seojoon to a small room with three chairs a small table in front of them. Jungkooks pulls seat out so they’re facing each other. When you look up to acknowledge him with deliberate eye-contact, for a moment he thinks you might be softening. 

“I want you all to start with ‘I’ statements, tell your partner how you feel or how you felt in this case. Try to maintain eye-contact and truly listen to each other.”

“I’ll go first,” You volunteer because you want to get this over with.

“I feel alone and helpless when you go back to your old habits, I feel like you’re hiding things from me...” You find a way to keep your eyes-locked to his. 

“I’m not asking you to be perfect but I just want you to make me feel special to you...Like you wouldn’t dream of being with someone else. Because I don’t think of loving anyone else, and trust me I’ve tried to imagine it but I can’t,” You bite your cheek to keep from crying, “you make it so hard to trust you. You don’t listen and you don’t change until it’s too late.” 

Being emotionally inept is something you are both too good at. It’s difficult for you to share your true feelings with a clear mind, but when you do, you can never guess what will happen next. 

“I feel trapped by you. I know I fucked everything up, okay? You don’t have to keep reminding me.” His tone is harsher than you anticipated. 

“I’m trying to put in the fucking effort to help us, and I’m giving you time. But when you tell me you still want me but you won’t even let me come around, it’s confusing. You’re confusing, that’s just how I feel.” His brows furrow and you notice Seojoon watches the exchange intently.

“But I miss you and I want you back, I don’t want to take a break,” He leans forward with his hands firmly gripping your knees over your dress, “I know you think I’m an asshole but I try to change, I’m trying, you know I wouldn't bring you to this if I could think of any other way to prove that to you.” The strain in his voice only stirs more emotions inside of you. 

“Jungkook,” Seojoon calls his name softly and Jungkook looks over as if he forgot he was there, “try not to engage in any physical, okay? It can be overwhelming.”

“Sorry,” He takes his hands from you and sits back, “that’s all I want to say.” 

“Alright, well, um,” Seojoon clears his throat, eager to break the tension up a little bit, “unfortunately our session is up but I want to give you two a list of exercises and talking points. I know this was a consultation appointment but I want to give you some things to work on at home. I’ll have Kelly type up your homework, alright?”

“Okay, thank you,” you both thank the therapist but you get up with an urgency and leave the room before Jungkook can follow you. When you make it out to the waiting room, you spot the bathroom and you bolt to it. Before you have to spend a car ride with him, you need to get your emotions together. 

“Mr. Jeon,” The receptionist calls him from the hall, “this is for you, you can bring it back to the next appointment for a discount.” Jungkook halfheartedly thanks her before going to the car. He doesn’t even know if there will be another session. He needs to smoke before you come out and you’ll freak if he smokes while you’re in the car. 

“Why did I come here...” You look at the mirror and frown, you look so rough. It was nice to get everything out in the open but you knew he’d get intense eventually. Only when the toilet flushed did you remember that there were multiple stalls in here. When you look away from the mirror to fumble through your purse, just trying to avoid talking to her. 

”Hi, how are you?”

“I’m okay, how are you?”

“Oh god, nervous, I’m nervous. Me and my husband, we’re newly weds, our appointment is in five minutes and I really don’t know what to expect. Did you have an appointment with your partner?”

“I did,” You sigh, “it was-...It was fine, don’t be nervous.” In your attempt to comfort her, you find your self in a highly hypocritical position. “Me and my boyfriend, we’re different so ours was a little- A little chaotic but I think it helped a little,” You hesitate, “I don’t know.”

“That makes me feel a little better, hopefully my husband behaves himself,” She tosses her wavy brown hair over her shoulder and smiles, “well, it was nice meeting you.”

It takes you a moment but you gather the strength to wave goodbye and go face your boyfriend.

”Excuse me, Miss, I think your husband forgot to grab this.” The receptionist waves you over and hands you a little folder.

”Oh,” You try to hide the blush forming on your cheeks.  he’s not my- We’re not married.” 

”Oh, I’m sorry! He only put his last name on the appointment so I thought it was your name as well. Sorry about that, have a great rest of your day.” She bids you farewell with a flustered smile.

When you walk outside, you see Jungkook leaning against the car. You thought he might’ve been smoking but you can’t detect any small. That’s a relief.

”You feeling okay?” He questions gently. 

You nod, hopping in the car with the desire to be home already. He gets in the car and glances at you from the corner of his eye, he worries that this might have been too much for you. 

“Where do you want to eat?” 

“There’s a ramen place down the street, that’s fine with me.” You suggest, eyes trained on your phone.

The air in the car isn’t tense or stiff, its just quiet. There’s a lot to unpack from the session and you figured Jungkook was thinking through it too. That’s why when you two arrived at the ramen shop, took your seats, and placed your orders, the silence was getting to be a bit too awkward for you.

“I like the new hair, you’ve never gone this blonde before,” You glance up at him, trying to start a conversation, “it looks good.”

“Thanks, it was an impulsive thing. I heard you decided to get back into pairs,” He brings the coke to his lips, “I was surprised to hear that.”

“Oh, yeah,” You figured he would find out soon, “I’m back with Lucas for the season.”

“Good for you,” That’s not a reaction you were expecting from anti-pairs-skating Jungkook. Then again, you know him well enough to know that he’s probably keeping his true opinion to himself.

“The receptionist gave this to me,” You pull the paper out of your purse and show it to him, “I think it has additional information.”

“Let me see,” You hand it to him, “hm, soul-gazing? What the hell is that...” He reads over the description and it makes him giggle. “Nonverbal communication between lovers, allows couples to explore intimate places in the relationship. We do this already, but it’s a little more than eye contact,” He recalls those dreamy moments that he used to share with you so often, gazing at you with a smile.

“We can try that later maybe,” You avoid his smile with a glance out the window.

“Okay. So, about the session today, I hope you understood where I was coming from...I didn’t expect to say all that, I’m sorry if it was too much.”

“Don’t apologize, I wanted to hear how you felt.”

“I’m sorry,” He extends a hand out on the table, hoping you’ll take it, “I’ve thought about what I’ve done and I’ve tried to repent for it. But at the end of the day, it’s up to you. But just tell this once, you miss us, don’t you?”

“I do, Jungkook...It’s just, I’m in a tough spot and I don’t- I don’t want to disappoint anyone or myself.”

“You’re talking about your friends or your family?” He frowns at the thought of either party trying to discourage you.

“My family doesn’t know anything about this, it’s my friends who are concerned for me. They saw me get hurt and they don’t want to see it happen again, they want me to be happy.”

“Don’t listen to them, all they do is talk shit about me and try to tell you what you need. The only people who have a say in this relationship is you and me. We choose what makes us happy, not them.”

“But I’m not happy,” And it doesn’t change the fact that you’re still being judged, “I’ve actually been depressed when I think about us, when I think about what we used to have and what we have now, how did this happen?”

“I’m sorry I did this to you,” He sighs when you finally reach out to take his hand, “I never mean to hurt you,”

“I want you back so bad sometimes,” You break, letting your true feelings out to him, “but just because I want it doesn’t mean I should, it’s always been hard for me to separate the two.”

“That never stopped you before,” He flashes that smile, the one you fell so hard for on the roof of his car. 

“Now look where I’m at,” You take your hand back, “going to therapy with you.”

*

*

Jungkook took you home and sunset had passed, it was already dark. You found yourself inviting him in, hugging him longer than you should have when he was on his way out. Why were you holding on to him so tight? His bomber jacket lands on the floor and you relish in his arms, you haven’t felt like this in a long time. Maybe it won’t hurt to let him in, indulge. It doesn’t take long before you let him kiss you for the first time in weeks. It feels new, it can happen a thousand times and it’ll always feel new. 

But then your phone begins to ring and reality washes over you like a cold shower.

“Wait,” You pull away from the kiss and slide off of the counter to his dismay, “I need to get that-”

“Ignore it,” Jungkook cups your jaw, trying to persuade you with longing eyes, “please ignore it-”

“I can’t, it’s my mom, something might be wrong,” You quickly answer the phone and walk into the living room. “Hello?”

“Where are you?”

“I’m at home, is something wrong?”

“You forgot, didn’t you? Your brother Leo, you were supposed to pick him up so he could stay with you for the night. me and your dad had to take Milo to his Taekwondo tournament for the weekend.” Your mother stresses over the phone.

“I’m so sorry! Mom, seriously, I totally forgot,” This is the worst possible timing, “doesn’t Leo have his license, he can drive here, can’t he?”

“We have the car. Don’t worry about it, it’s handled now, his friend came by and he’s staying with him.”

“I’m sorry, I don’t know how that crossed my mind,” You can’t help but feel as if you’ve disappointed her by forgetting such a simple thing, “I’ve been busy, I’m prepping for the next season, I’m working and in school, it’s a lot right now-”

The conversation  ends with a cold lecture from her and a solemn goodbye when she hangs up. You massage your temples, and look at Jungkook who’s coping with the best part of his day being ruined by a phone call.

“Everything okay?”

“I forgot to pick up my brother, my mom asked if he could crash here but I forgot all about it..”

“When have any of your siblings actually visited you? Except for your sister when she needs a babysitter.” Jungkook always sports a defensive tone when your family comes into the conversation.

“He’s only come over a few times. But he has friends who live over here so that’s normally why,” You take a deep breath. “She sounded frustrated so I know she’s upset.”

”Don’t stress about that,” He comes in close, wrapping his arms around your waist. “your mom shouldn’t beat you up about that, especially since she knows how much you have on your plate.” He smooths down your hair and kisses your forehead gently. That innocent forehead kiss quickly migrated down to your neck and you bite your tongue.

”Jungkook, please,” You get out of his embrace and leave him longing.

"Why do you keep pushing me away? I know you, this isn’t like you. You push me away but never for this long,” He follows you to your bedroom where you kick off your shoes and take off you cardigan. ”If you’re serious about making this work again, you’ve gotta help me out a little here.” 

You feel him looming behind you, so close that you feel the warmth of him on your lower-back, or is that his hand?

“You’re here, aren’t you? I’m being really nice right now,” You step away from him, “but you need to stop.”

“Stop what?” He feigns ignorance.

“If that’s what you were hoping for you should just go,” You pick up his jacket and hand it to him, “it’s not happening.”

“Ok, but do you mind if I stay the night?” 

You stare at him in disbelief for a moment, debating whether or not that’s a good idea.

“Why? It’s not even that late yet.”

“I don’t want to make the drive home, I’ll leave first thing in the morning.” He pleads, those big round eyes helping his case immensely.

“Fine. But you’re on the couch,” He looks a bit disappointed but he was expecting that, “I’m gonna shower, you can wait for me or use the guest bathroom if you want.”

With that, you walk off into your bedroom to get your clothes and then into the bathroom in the hall. Though you hesitated to let him stay, it’s really not a big deal now that you think of it. He’s stayed over more times than you can count so you feel no need to punish him by saying no.

Baby steps. 

Jungkook falls into the couch, relieved and anxious—but mostly relieved. He was sure you were going to throw him out. When he hears the shower turn on, he begins to wonder what you might be thinking about, do you want him the way he wants you right now? If so, you’re hiding it pretty well. Just being in your home makes him feel comfortable and happy, that and your presence. You’ll be a while in the shower so he figures a few moments of relaxation on the balcony won’t hurt. 

*

When you step out of the steamy bathroom, you hug your robe tightly to your body. Curious to see what he’s doing you peek out of the hall and see him on the balcony, shirt nowhere to be seen and smoke wafting from the little stick in his finger. Jungkook has always been a temptation, a forbidden fruit so to speak. You had one bite, and that’s all it took. 

It’s a warm night, that’s probably why he’s showing all of the neighbors his tattooed glory, you giggle to your self at the thought. You run to your room to slip a t-shirt and shorts on so you can join him, you can indulge him in conversation at least.

“Hey, I was going to get a snack,” You open the sliding door and he looks back at you as he exhales a a cloud, “are you hungry?”

“I’m okay,” He puts it out in the ashtray, “thanks,” 

“You didn’t have to put it out for me,” You step onto the patio and close the door behind you.

“I was done anyway,” He says that but he clearly wasn’t, he’s just being sweet, “how was your shower?”

“Good,” You sit beside him, “you can go ahead and shower if you want to, you know where your clothes are.”

“I will in a minute,” He looks out, enjoying the view of the city, “it’s beautiful out here...”

“Yeah,” You smile, reminiscing on the many moments you two have shared together on the balcony.

“So,” Jungkook sighs, probably reminiscing on the same thing, “do you want to do that exercise?...”

“Exercise?- Oh, the eye-contact thing, we can...” You turn to him and he does the same, “so, do we-”

“Shh,” He holds a finger to his lips, “we’re not supposed to talk,” 

You swallow, eyes locked on his and his on yours. His eyes are so dreamy and mesmerizing, they always have been. This eye-contact is giving you a great excuse to analyze his face. The little mole under his lip, his cute nose and cheeks—you’re trying not to look at his body but it’s hard to do that right now. 

He’s doing the same thing to you. Your eyes, nose, lips, he’s just taking it all in as if your a sculpture at a museum. Looking at each other like this reminds you both to see each other, to really see the human you both decided to love.

“Jungkook,” You know you’re not supposed to talk, “don’t cry...” You thumb the tears away from his cheeks, your motherly habits kicking in.

“Shit,” He wipes his cheeks, “I don’t know why I’m crying, I just-...I really love you, like, just staring at you really fucks me up.” He’s so emotional, it’s more endearing than anything.

You cup his jaw and kiss the apple of his cheek, then his lips. His hands are almost shaky when he reaches up to hold your face, you lead his hand to your face to let him know that you don’t mind.

“I love you too,” You breath, your head in the nape of his neck, “but I can’t do this, I shouldn’t...”

Once you realize you’re no longer in your own chair but in his, it’s too late to pretend you’re not equally as desperate. It escalates and the best and worst happens. 

[96thdayofrage]

A Georgia man who professed a passion for guns and God was in custody on Tuesday night after a string of shootings that police said appeared to target Asian women at massage parlors and left eight people dead.

Robert Aaron Long, 21, of Woodstock, Georgia, was caught on video at the crime scenes and later nabbed on a highway two hours south of Atlanta following a police chase, authorities said.

Police stressed that it was too early to announce a motive—but at least four of those killed were of Korean descent, and the horrific attacks come amid a wave of targeted violence against the Asian-American community.

A trickle of details about the suspect, who went by his middle name, offered few clues.

“Pizza, guns, drums, music, family, and God. This pretty much sums up my life. It’s a pretty good life,” read the tagline on an Instagram account that appeared to belong to Long.

A student who graduated from Sequoyah High with Long in 2017 who spoke on the condition of anonymity told The Daily Beast, “He was very innocent seeming and wouldn’t even cuss. He was sorta nerdy and didn’t seem violent from what I remember. He was a hunter and his father was a youth minister or pastor. He was big into religion.”

The rampage began at Young’s Asian Massage in Acworth in Cherokee County, where two people were killed, one other person succumbed to their injuries en route to a nearby hospital, and one died while in treatment, according to the sheriff’s office. The victims were two Asian women, a white woman, and a white man, according to the Atlanta Journal-Constitution. A Hispanic man was also injured in the shooting and was rushed to a hospital for medical treatment, a spokesman for the sheriff said.

About an hour later and 30 miles away, two spas on the same Atlanta street—Gold Spa and one in Aroma Therapy Spa—were targeted by gunfire, and four Asian women were killed.

Officers had just arrived at one of the spas to find the victims when they were summoned to the second.

“While at [the first location] we received another call across the street of shots fired, and responded to find another individual shot at that location,” Atlanta Police Chief Rodney N. Bryant told reporters.

While no details about the Acworth victims were given, Bryant said that “it appears that all the [Atlanta] victims are female” and “it appears that they may be Asian.”

Shootings at two massage parlors in Atlanta and one in the suburbs have left multiple people dead, many of them women of Asian descent, authorities said Tuesday.

Two men who live just across from Gold Massage Spa who refused to give their names said their neighbors started asking them about the incident around 6:15 p.m. They said the area was very diverse, but that the spa was known to be an Asian-owned business.

“This is the worst shooting since ‘99 I think,” one of the men told The Daily Beast. “There was a shooting then where a guy went through his office and killed a bunch of people and he killed his family. That was 12 people I think, so this is the worst one since I’ve been here.”

Bryant has declined to say whether police believe the shootings in Georgia Tuesday amounted to a hate crime, saying, “We can’t make that determination just yet.”

Cherokee County Sheriff ’s Capt. Jay Baker told reporters: “Nothing is going to be ruled out. Wherever the investigation leads us, that’s where we are going to go.” Atlanta police said video surveillance of Long’s car at all three massage parlors captured Tuesday night made it “extremely likely” he was the main suspect in all three shootings.

Baker said that Long was arrested by Crisp County Sheriff’s officers who performed a PIT maneuver, or a pursuit intervention technique, in which police force another car to plow sideways and stop.

Long’s family did not respond to calls for comment. His youth pastor at the Crabapple First Baptist Church confirmed he was the suspect and said elders would be releasing a statement.

A 2018 video on the Crabapple Facebook page features Long discussing his Christian journey toward baptism.

“As many of you may remember, when I was 8 years old I thought I was becoming a Christian, and got baptized during that time. And I remember a lot of the reason for that is a lot of my friends in my Sunday school class were doing that,” Long says in the clip.

“And after that time, there wasn’t any fruit from the root that is our salvation.”

He goes on to say that when he was in seventh grade he attended a youth group and a speaker was discussing the biblical story of the prodigal son.

“The son goes off and squanders all that he has and lives completely for himself and then, when he finds he’s wanting to eat pig food, he realized there’s something wrong and he goes back to his father and his father runs back to him and embraces him. And by the grace of God I was able to draw the connection there and realize this is a story between what happened with me and God. I ran away living completely for myself, and he still wants me, and so that’s when I was saved.”

The FBI joined the investigation late Tuesday, and President Biden was also briefed on the massacres. Secretary of State Antony Blinken, who is in South Korea, mentioned the killings before a meeting with officials said.

“We are horrified by this violence which has no place in America or anywhere,” he said, according to the Associated Press.

President Joe Biden recently condemned the surge in crimes of hate, which have included a brazen, deadly assault on an 84-year-old from Thailand who was killed on a morning stroll in the San Francisco Bay Area.

The Congressional Asian Pacific American Caucus said it was “horrified” by news of the shooting “at a time when we’re already seeing a spike in anti-Asian violence.”

The legal advocacy nonprofit Asian Americans Advancing Justice - Atlanta released a statement saying the group was “shaken” by the shootings. “Now is the time to hold the victims and their families in our hearts and with light.”

[anotherdayforchaosfay]

I fell in the shower today.

I’m okay.  Got a solid grip on the grab bar and it softened the landing.  Husband is getting a shower/bathing chair for me because this isn’t the first, nor shall it be the last, time it’s happened.  As for the why...

I’ve mentioned before I have an old back injury that has flared the fuck up recently.  Been going on for months. 

I acquired this injury from sledding when I was 14.  My mother forbade me from going sledding with friends.  I was 14, the hill was fantastic and so many kids were sledding.  Why the fuck would I wanna miss out on something like that?  I was on a disc sled, hit a rock, flew a good distance, and landed on another rock less than two inches from my spine.  Wind was knocked outta me, and it took almost ten minutes for me get my legs moving.  Cell phones weren’t common then; they were huge and often had to be carried in bags.  No one thought to call for an ambulance.  One of the friends I was sledding with suggested I sleep over because I didn’t want to get in trouble.  Not even 12 hours later her dad drove me home (because I could barely walk due to pain) and told my mom to take me to the hospital.  She said no, that I deserved this, it’ll be a reminder of what disobedience costs.  That’s when I learned no matter how much I get hurt, she won’t care. 

A large portion of my back was black and purple.  Massive bruise and all kinds of ugly.  Moving hurt, breathing hurt, I couldn’t lay down or sit up.  My mom insisted I do chores because I went sledding when she said not to go, that this is a lesson I need to remember.

I fucking remember.  Every fucking day for 22 years.  Blowing on that spot causes spasms and pain so severe I can’t even breathe.  There are clothes I can’t wear because they touch that spot in such a way that I’m damn near unable to move.  When I was 16 I threw my back out carrying all my school books because two minutes isn’t enough time to get to my locker and then to class.  The specialist I saw did an exam that hurt like fuck, had me crying and my mother calling me a wimp.  He told her this is a nerve cluster that’s like a scar but rather than being visible it causes me pain.  He told her I need surgery, that getting it done while I’m younger is safer and better for me because recovering is easier when young.  She said no because I’m just being wimpy.  I was given muscle relaxants, a board to lay on, a note saying I can’t go to school for at least a week, and another note telling my teachers I need more time between classes and need to use a wheelie bag (those were forbidden back then and really expensive). 

The pain has gotten worse every year.  My mother still thinks I deserve it, that I’m just wimpy.  My father had no say because he was in another country at the time the injury happened.  Military thing called TDY.

I’m seeing my doctor on the 27th; it’s the earliest appointment I could get.  I’ll be requesting a referral to a physical therapy clinic that also has a massage therapist (the only way my insurance will cover this at all), a muscle relaxant, and a referral to a specialist to get this taken care of. 

When the pain spikes, so does my vertigo.  I have constant vertigo, frequent dizzy spells, and recently both have gotten worse.  Hence falling in the shower.  We have all furniture corners cover with baby-safe cushioning because I bump into things a lot.  While looking at apartments (we’re moving in July) I’m looking for places without stairs.  A few years ago I fell down the two steps we had in our home and gave myself a concussion.  No idea how long I was out, but stairs are not good for me.  Especially now. 

Sitting at my computer for more than half an hour hurts like hell.  My recliner is the only place I get any relief, however minor it is.  Quilting is slower because various movements make the pain shoot up.  Normally the pain is sitting at a constant 6; I’m used to it, no big deal.  It’s now sitting at an 8 and spikes to a 9.5.  I pass out at a 10, and have experienced that 10 when my IUD broke in 2010.  That’s another story for another day.

The only thing my mother taught me is that no matter how much pain I’m in, no matter the severity of my injuries, telling her won’t mean a damn thing.  My pain tolerance is insanely high, but she calls me a wimp anyway.  I fell asleep when I got my tattoos, one of which covers the majority of my left ankle and goes up to my knee.  The endorphins release had me really sleepy and I napped for the three hours of the tattoo work.  I fall asleep during most dental appointments because the pain and discomfort release endorphins and make me sleepy.  I have injured myself during seizures, been hit by three cars, suffered a concussion, tore a ligament in my wrist after a bad fall down a set of stairs (and suffered it for 5 years before proper diagnosis and surgery), and a whole hell of a lot of other injuries.  Not to mention the self-harm I inflicted on my legs (no one questions small cuts when I shaved my legs) for over a decade. 

I’m dealing with severe vertigo, extreme pain that has actually made me cry, and I’m pissed the fuck off.  It’s taken me THIS FUCKING LONG to realize my parents weren’t only neglectful of me but also abusive.  It was little and big things, and only with the help of my current counselor have I been able to face what has happened to me.  My sisters were pampered and given all the positive love and affection.  I’m the eldest and “should be setting an example”.  Constantly asked “why can’t you be more like your sisters” and punished when I got anything lower than a B.  Though the neglect they threw at me when I got a B certainly fucking qualifies. 

I don’t know how I can ever bring this up with my parents.  They will never believe they did anything wrong.  I will never get an apology.  Nothing will change other than a massive rift in the family for which I’ll be blamed.

For those who are unaware of a small detail, I rarely cry.  I was shamed for crying, for being emotional, wimpy, too sensitive, etc.  I learned how to cry silently.  Having severe allergies made my sniffling nose easy to mask.  When something makes me cry, it’s an event.  I’m getting better at crying, but when it’s pain that’s setting it off, it’s bad.  My husband is mad with worry because he’s seeing me cry from pain that I’ve been masking for years.  He hates that I hold all this in. He cries openly, he’s sensitive, sympathetic, empathetic, and has none of the toxic masculinity (he claims it’s due to being raised in a house of women).  I’ve been enjoying edibles for several weeks now to help deal with the pain, but I can’t have them daily for many reasons.  I’m allergic to nearly every pain medication, and the one I’m not allergic to (aleve) has no effect on this.  It helps with migraines, fevers, and my wrist, but not my back. 

I know my doctor will help me.  She’s an amazing doctor, she listens to me, hears me, asks the right questions and never shames me for the ones I ask.  She’ll likely insist on me seeing a specialist because this isn’t something I ought to be forced to live with for the rest of my life.  She’ll also mark the massage therapy as medically necessary, which is the only way Medicare will cover it (I’m disabled and on SSDI).

Please don’t reblog this, but you can reply.  I’m full of pain and anger and hurt right now.  JFC I’m gonna cry again.  The more sugar coating I remove from my past, the more I really look at my childhood and growing up, the more I realize how horrible things were for me.  Like many victims of childhood abuse and neglect, I’ve pushed a vast amount of it away.  Don’t want to look at it, don’t want to think about it, but 2019 was the year I began to heal.  Now the ugly part is finally coming around.  The worst part of moving in July will be losing my counselor and doctor. 

[travelinglowcarb]

Why Do You Keto? 👀 I've been eating "keto" for just over 8 years. For me it's a simple way to manage chronic pain & inflammation so I can enjoy a FUN active lifestyle. 🤸‍♀️

Of course, I started out with the goal of losing weight, like most people. I had NO idea then about all the other benefits & results I would experience...

Before going low carb in 2011 I was often in chronic pain, sometimes completely debilitating pain. There were days I couldn't even lift my coffee mug to my mouth.

I was a passenger in a near fatal car accident when I was 20 that resulted in a back injury and head injury.

I had a miraculous recovery. While I'm still deaf on one side and have regressive memory loss, I'm no longer paralyzed and am able to live "a normal life" - vs probably bedridden & never working again, as diagnosed.

By the time I was in my 30's some of my memory started to return. I was still very off balance, I assumed because of the head trauma and being deaf on one side.

The back injury resulted in inflammatory arthritis. Inflammation flare ups pinched my sciatic nerve, causing numbness and pain throughout my entire body.

As a result muscle groups would tighten into burning knots, overworked from compensating for the other muscles. The knotting and tightness was enough to pull my entire back out of alignment, causing even more pain and immobility.

I used a variety of pain medication and physical therapy to get through daily life. I saw a chiropractor regularly, electronic muscle stimulation, ice therapy, stretching machines, massage (the painful kind, lol).

This was my life, but I felt GRATEFUL to be able to work and walk - and just to be alive - given the severity of that accident.

When I first went low carb, doing 20 net carbs per day + healthy fats (keto), I dropped 8 pounds in 10 days, and continued losing weight & feeling great! 🙂❤

Then one day, maybe 2 months in(?), I realized I wasn't in pain and my mobility had drastically improved.

I didn't put much thought into it at first, I had good spells sometimes, but as I continued to feel better and better it made me curious.

I did some research, and that's when I learned that carbs and sugar promote inflammation in your body. I discovered all the known health benefits of being in ketosis, and boxes were checking off in my head: yes! ✔

The following summer I got back up on a water ski for the first time in 23 years. ❤

I'm now hiking, climbing, skiing, dancing in heels, scaling bluffs and fallen trees with amazing balance, and having FUN! 🏃‍♀️

Why do YOU keto - and what amazing results have you experienced? 👀

[columnwasp30-blog]

Cellulite Top 10 realities.

Fat Melting Vs Fat Freezing

Content

Sarah Michelle Gellar's Coolsculpting ® journey.

spending For Your Own treatment.

The difference in Between A Skin Tag as Well As a Growth.

how Should I get Ready For This procedure?

What Are The results Of smoking, medicines, and Also Alcohol On Facelift surgery?

minor Injuries & Procedures.

Outside of the UK, 1 million people from nearly 40 nations have actually had the treatment performed, with an overall complete satisfaction rate of 95%. This hand-piece utilizes vacuum pressure and freezing innovation to target the deeper and difficult to change layers of fat in your trouble areas, without impacting the collagen or elasticity in the skin. With this risk-free and painless procedure, Este Medical-- renowned for giving fat freezing in as well as close to London and also Birmingham-- can aid you to alter the appearance of your trouble areas and restore self-confidence. This web page will certainly explain the fat freezing treatments that we provide, just how they function as well as the outcomes that you can get from fat freezing. Also if you enjoy what you consume and also invest lots of time in the health club, some fat will not move so conveniently.

Sarah Michelle Gellar's Coolsculpting ® trip.

Nonetheless, finest results are seen in individuals who have areas of soft 'pinchable fat' and also are within 2 stones of their preferred weight. Icing up fat cells creates them to weaken as well as at some point die. The body then starts to metabolise these dead fat cells which are after that naturally secreted with the urinary system. This process has absolutely no affect on cholesterol or fat levels in the blood. The therapy has been especially designed to be as painless as possible. For the fat tissue to be frozen, the treatment location should stay in the CoolSculpting device for as much as 35 mins.

Customers can expect minimal discomfort during the Cryolipolysis treatment. Nevertheless, depending on the level of sensitivity of the customers skin, some individuals might experience short-lived soreness, bruising and/or numbness after the procedure. These adverse effects are short-lived as well as usually last no more than 7-- 10 days. You will initially meet your development visual specialist who will certainly undergo an in person consultation. This will certainly consist of a medical history screening, therapy locations as well as way of life questions. Lymphatic massage will increase the process of removing the fat cells.

It is confirming increasingly prominent, particularly for those trying to find a non-invasive option to Lipo or a highly reliable means to help their weight management. 3D Lipo-- 1 device providing a range of various therapies, does include heat as well as great technology as well as later this year 360 cooling, though cup dimensions are limited, this is well marketed in the UK. You can pass by precisely where fat is shed from the body with diet programs and also workout, however you can with Fat Freezing. This ingenious method aids patients eliminate inches of fat from trouble areas in a risk-free as well as pain-free procedure. When comfortable, your target area (whether that's upper legs, arms, hips or tummy) is covered with a gel pad.

spending For Your Own treatment.

This can lead to certain locations of your body being far from what you prefer. Nonetheless, making use of cosmetic surgery as well as liposuction to deal with these issue areas will certainly run out the concern for many people. As soon as the therapy has happened the large majority of the targeted fat cells will be fluid and ultimately gotten rid of via your liver as well as kidneys in the very same all-natural method as various other toxic substances. Medical College, is FDA approved and highly regarded within the sector.

An applicator is after that used to subject the skin to cool temperature levels, normally in between -11 to +5 ° C. Because of the nature of the vacuum-like suction as well as sub-zero temperatures, people can anticipate to feel rather cool whilst experiencing some minor extending sensations. After a brief while this is changed by feeling numb and also you can relax and loosen up whilst Fat Freezing zaps fat cells away.

For added convenience, throughout the therapy you will be lying down and also will be able to read a book, work with your ipad or talk on the phone without any thrill, discomfort or anxiety. Our Norwich based visual facility is run by three regional family practitioner, Dr Malcolm Willis, Dr Kathy Kestin and also Dr Mini Nelson. The clinic is CQC approved and also offers a range of medical aesthetic procedures. Healing from fat freezing is extremely fast, the only adverse effects most likely to be wounding on the afflicted treatment area. Optimum results are normally seen around 90 days after treatment.

Does skin itch after cryotherapy?

During the procedure, you may feel some stinging, burning, or itching sensations. After cryosurgery, the treated area will be swollen, sore, and red. After the skin has been frozen with liquid nitrogen, a blister will form underneath the lesion.

The CoolSculpting device features various sized heads that re-contour one of the most common fat-prone locations including the belly and thighs. The fat is drawn right into the head developing a vacuum cleaner and then cooled to a temperature level that damages the fat cells. Right here at the Light Touch Clinic Surrey, our professionals have gone through detailed training directly with Allergan to guarantee we know the most up to date techniques to safely as well as successfully target fat cells and also sculpt your body. You will either be resting or lying down during your treatment. As part of treatment preparation we will take images of the areas to be treated. When all set, a cool gel pad will be put onto your skin and the CoolSculpting applicator will after that be attached to this area and also freezing will certainly happen.

The treatment calls for real 'fat bulges' as it will certainly not be effective on thicker, firmer cells. Various other elements, such as age as well as skin problem, can likewise enter into play, as well as these features can be evaluated in an initial consultation. Both medical professionals really did not simply caught the winning formula overnight. It took a great deal of research as well as testing prior to they had the ability to validate the very best temperature level which can get rid of fat cells, without creating unwanted adverse effects while doing so.

Can you peel off seborrheic keratosis?

If seborrheic keratoses are treated, it's usually for cosmetic reasons. About 90% of the time I freeze them off. The procedure is similar to wart removal, but quicker. They can be scraped (curettage) or shaved off with a special cutting instrument.

Remove your unwanted fat cells with a tailored non-surgical procedure with our highest levelled qualified CoolSculpting practitioners. Nonetheless, for fat freezing Worcestershire , it is recommended that you have at the very least 1-3 sessions on the same location every 6-8 weeks. That's why we offer some of the very best fat freezing prices on the marketplace. Each treatment plan will certainly be a little various depending on each individual's needs, issue locations that they would certainly wish to target as well as various other lifestyle elements. Every individual will be provided a tailored treatment plan after their very first assessment with one of our qualified medical practitioners. The CoolTech treatment and equipment was produced by Cocoon Medical as well as is fully accredited by the European Union. Considering that the product was released in the UK in 2014, thousands of CoolTech fat freezing procedures have actually been carried out.

No Downtime - You can get on with regular activities straight after the treatment whilst the fat is gotten rid of from your body. Our Coolsculpt staff are highly educated, experienced as well as specialised experts who regularly achieve amazing results. Our expert client review system makes certain client outcomes and assumptions are fully satisfied. This combined with skilled dietary assistance supplies exceptional results in fat reduction.

The treatment functions best on individuals older than 30 with mild-to-moderate skin laxity.

If you're a little bit older with even more skin sagging, HIFU may not have the ability to solve all the skin problems.

If you're trying to find a therapy that fasts, painless, and noninvasive, HIFU is an outstanding alternative compared to a medical face lift.

While the previous is more focused than the last, they both send a beam via skin layers to get the collagen going.

HIFU https://la-lipo.co.uk/cryopen-faqs/ and also Ultherapy both treat the skin at 1.5 mm, 3.0 mm, and 4.5 mm.

Ultherapy utilizes micro-focused ultrasound beam of lights, while HIFU represents High-Intensity Focused Ultrasound.

The procedure duplicated in one to two years as the natural aging process takes over.

After discovering a means to make fat freezing risk-free, the method was birthed and exported worldwide. It needs to be noted that fat freezing needs to not be thought about a remedy for excessive weight. Its main objective can be to facilitate the decrease of one of the most visible fat lumps. As well as the regular target areas of the belly as well as face, various other locations which can be targeted consist of the buttocks, thighs, arms and breasts.

The difference in Between A Skin Tag as Well As a Mole.

Everybody has various body shapes and also it is very important for our experts to produce a treatment strategy which is customized to your body's special contours. The treatment is additionally extremely technological as the cold requires to be used exactly so to make certain a secure treatment and fantastic outcomes. Our CoolSculpting experts have been trained by the specialists at Allergan which means that they recognize the very best strategies to deliver outstanding results and also can answer any kind of concerns you might have about the therapy as well as the science behind it. To figure out how they can help you, please connect with the clinic. We have various other body contouring machines such as Vanquish which utilize different innovation to remove fat.

exactly How Should I plan For This treatment?

You might have just become aware of fat freezing in the last one to 2 years -- it has actually mushroomed in popularity and is now used by both spas and physician. visit homepage to Ryan for today at RT Aesthetics for my fat freezing procedure. I was a bit nervous yet much more because I needed to come down to my underclothing in front of you Everything was fully explained to me and I'am delighted for the outcomes.

What Are The effects Of smoking, drugs, and Alcohol On Facelift surgical Procedure?

This will usually be identified at your free examination on the amount of treatments you would certainly require. The 2nd photo will certainly be taken 6 weeks post-treatment, at this stage, you are able to have a second session if you prefer. At Pulse Light Facility, we offer same day treatment as your examination, so you do not require to be put in a waiting list. At your complimentary consultation, the elderly professional will evaluate the areas you are trying to treat as well as examine your qualification for the treatment by evaluating the amount of pinchable fat you hold on the stubborn fat areas. Fat cells are something that most of us have to manage regularly, despite a great diet plan and also healthy and balanced workout regimen particular fat cells just do not appear to budge. Losing stubborn belly fat, back fat or even a double chin can sometimes feel out of reach.

During this moment, you may experience mild sensation of throbbing or stress while fatty cells come to be iced up. Action 2) If you make a decision to go ahead with therapy and also CoolSculpting is considered ideal for you, your therapies can be reserved in time obstructs that fit you. For example, some individuals like to have all their treatments done in eventually whilst others choose to simplify right into smaller sized sessions to fit about dedications. In this exclusive one-on-one session you will have plenty of time to respond to questions, review your worries and also produce your CoolSculpting treatment strategy. Nevertheless, CoolSculpting therapies to the top and also reduced arm locations can considerably decrease the build-up of fat, ridding the appearance of bingo wings and puffy looking arms and leaving arms slimmer.

Once the locations to be treated have been meticulously determined, CoolSculpting freezes them at -10 degrees centigrade, ruining about one third of all fat cells targeted. By introducing this service in your beauty parlor, you can stay in advance of the contour as well as provide your customers the body they've constantly wanted. It could be an all-natural sequence to laser hair treatments, or could be integrated with other therapies to create the best visual plan. Clinical studies have constantly located RF to be the extra effective of the two innovations, with even more consistent outcomes over a bigger area, significant skin tightening up, and much higher lymphatic drainage-- essential for faster outcomes. In addition, when combined with various other modern technologies such as infrared, RF has actually revealed to deliver dramatically boosted outcomes. This combined technology method is a favourite of many visual medical professionals that utilize RF to boost as well as enhance results after medical lipo treatments. Fat freezing will be accepted for those in the best problem for the therapy.

When integrated with a well balanced diet plan as well as healthy way of life adjustments, the outcomes of fat freezing are significantly boosted. All treatments begin with an initial consultation with one of our group. During your appointment we learn more about your areas of problem and treatment goals. We utilize only the very best fat freezing professionals to treat people at our facility in Norwich. As well as this, we make use of just the best tools on the marketplace. Cryolipolysis is the cutting edge 'fat-freezing' strategy that is highly efficient. This remarkable, non-surgical treatment is the best alternative to body fat intrusive procedures like Liposuction and includes no anaesthetic, scarring or risks entailed with surgical procedure.

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Why pick Skin excellence?

Why Do ladies obtain Cellulite?

What locations Can I Have treated With Cryotherapy, Fat Freezing Coolsculpting?

What Is Fat Freezing, Does It job, Is It Safe as Well As Does The treatment Make You slim Down?

Does This Mean male can Not get Cellulite?

We are pleased to existing London's most advanced and also remarkable entire body cryotherapy at -110 degrees. Our major goal is to help build a far better you by utilizing non-invasive treatments which can improve your health and wellness, general look and to aid in keeping a healthy lifestyle-- all at a budget-friendly cost. Enter our cryotherapy chamber to be the very best version of yourself. The award-winning compression tool from NormaTec is developed to quicken recovery after injury or extreme training.

Known for regularly taking advantage of the current trends and also advancements in charm, Teresa has been utilizing Cryotheraphy in her beauty parlor therapies for a number of years. The therapy has actually proved so preferred, that Teresa has actually gone on to develop this special, trademarked product that allows customers to experience the exact same therapy extra routinely as well as in the comfort of their own house.

Why choose Skin excellence?

If needed, the treatment can be carried out without the demand to get rid of make-up for a quick revitalizing boost. For those with even more time available, we will also provide a cleanse and also tone at the beginning of the treatment, to get rid of makeup, dirt and also toxic substances and also prepare the skin. The pulsating fluid nitrogen vapour (-30 c) is then swept over the skin for roughly 10 mins. This is adhered to by a quick face massage therapy to warm the skin once more, after that a moisturiser is applied to moisten the skin at the end of the therapy. Our top of the array cryotherapy chamber can fall as low as -180 ° c. Just a 3 minute session is all that is required to reap the full benefits. We offer a range of of application equipment to efficiently fulfill your food handling requires, including chilling, freezing, private fast cold, solidifying as well as crust cold. https://finchampstead.lipofreeze2u.co.uk/ are additionally full-spectrum cryogenic as well as pressure system engineers, supply cryogenic devices, an SiVL pipework option, gas detection and also monitoring, as a matter of fact all sorts.

This methodology is authorized by Food and Drug Administration and also American Academy of Plastic Surgery. It is suitable for those processors that need boosted performance and convenience of procedure with a marginal capital investment and installment expense. The Cryo 6 functions cooled air for reliable discomfort therapy, swelling decrease and also muscular tissue relaxation. The system enables Cryo Treatment with exact positioning as well as at a constant dose, whenever. We distribute cryogenic equipment on behalf of Cryotherm in Germany and also can make as well as set up an SiVL pipework system.

What does a FemiWand do?

Vaginal Tightening with FemiWand® is a non-invasive, non-surgical treatment designed to restore and repair vaginal tissue without the use of anaesthetic or numbing creams. FemiWand® is a High-Intensity Focused Ultrasound treatment that utilises powerful ultrasound energy.

Why Do women obtain Cellulite?

The innovatively created Cryo-Ball is made from surgical-grade steel and also consists of freeze-retaining fluids. The sphere needs to be kept in the freezer for 24 hours prior to use. The freezing temperature levels incorporated with the rolling and also extending strategy creates a distinct, cry-microcirculation result on the skin, which prompts tighter skin as well as an immediate glow. From 111 Skin's Regenerative range, this booster lotion makes use of components that give the exact same results as a round of cryotherapy. " It energises the confront with ATP and also circulation-stimulating active ingredients that trigger lymphatic drain and also minimize visible fatigue and puffiness," claims Alexandrides. The Spa de La Mer-- La Mer's first ever full-service treatment space in the UK, which opened this month in Harrods-- makes use of ice in its trademark London Detox face to quickly cool down and also decrease puffiness. The oxygen level in your blood boosts as a result of the oxygen-rich setting in the chamber.

The chamber is still loaded with air, but there is even more Oxygen in the area. As you breath, you absorb more energy and also life-giving oxygen. Your body pumps hormonal agents as well as enzymes right into the bloodstream in order to promote recuperation. The temperature within the internal treatment chamber is also as well as controlled temperature level, taping an exact -100 ºC minimum, because that's the acknowledged threshold to set off thermal shock. Utilized by elite professional athletes and also hailed as the ultimate in overall body and mind rejuvenation, the Apogii Icelab is a twin-room chamber for an intense 3 min adrenaline struck to supercharge your present health and wellness as well as workout programme.

What areas Can I Have cured With Cryotherapy, Fat Freezing Coolsculpting?

Backed by scientific research and also made use of for centuries, cryotherapy urges regrowth at a cellular degree as the body heals as well as rejuvenates from within. Perfect for a pre-workout treatment as the rise in oxygen will certainly help performance while post-workout, the healing residential or commercial properties will certainly promote recovery and also healing.

Physician should recognize with cryosurgical strategies when making use of CryoIQ ®. Although not extensive, the table listed below consists of suggested freezing times as reported in the literary works. These are vast arrays and provide just a standard for consideration. A number of prominent facialists are currently integrating the principles of cryotherapy into their in-salon therapies.

You'll leave feeling both blissful and also revitalized after 3 minutes at -85 levels. Soothe pains and also pains, get a far better night rest and also do at your height with a normal program of sessions. Cryotherapy-- the suggestion of subjecting your body to ice-cold temperatures (as reduced as -90 degrees) has actually gone beyond the trends to become a wellness pillar, with freezing skins turning up all over the nation. The freezing temperature level efficiently deals with viruses in our blood, similar to influenza etc . Cooling air to ice-cold temperatures is verified in physics to lower oxygen molecules by 33%.

The concept of place cryotherapy is based on the short-term application of very reduced temperature levels to a particular area of a patient's body. The technical advantages of our cryotherapy chamber include balanced cool air distribution, which offers maximum client security for our customers and also has a number of safety and security functions. At The CryoLab we have services and products that can assist with pain relief, increased blood flow and muscle healing - up-to 3 times quicker. If you're fascinated to learn just how cryotherapy can assist you reach your health and wellness goals and cant find the information on our website, get in touch with our group.

Is Mona Lisa Touch permanent?

MonaLisa TouchTM is a mini-invasive and permanent laser method which stands out as a revolutionary therapy for the treatment of the effects of the passage of time on internal tissues of female genitals.

We supply a range of appeal services consisting of slendering, toning and renovations using CryoSkin. This eliminates fat cells as well as boosts oxygen supply, aiding in collagen manufacturing and also causing slimmer bodies and also the elimination of great lines. For the testimonial process youmustprovide photos of 2D courses determined from the cryo-EM example under investigation which demonstrate second structure. Failure to provide these information will certainly suggest the proposition will be returned and also not be taken into consideration by the peer-review panel. The Coolstar range consists of a few of the most versatile and also affordable Cryocoolers offered today. The variety offers rapid cooling rates, lengthy solution intervals and easy OEM combination.

Is ThermiVa safe?

Thermiva is an FDA approved treatment cleared for dermatological and general surgical procedures. It's a safe and effective procedure that can help restore your confidence and pleasure! You should also know sometimes there may be side effects associated with Thermiva.

Presenting visit LipoFreeze2U.co.uk -Ball, permitting you to experience the Teresa Tarmey Ice-Lift face in the house. The Cryoball aids to instantly and also drastically lift droopy as well as puffy skin, invigorate plain complexions as well as form the face. When a EVERY 2-3 DAYS is recommended but if you remain in a time crunch you can intensify the treatments. When you enter the chamber, anticipate a prompt adrenaline thrill as your body makes a decision to go with fight or trip.

What is cryotherapy for VAG?

Cryotherapy uses extreme cold to kill abnormal cells. Doctors use it to remove genital warts and to treat cervical dysplasia, the growth of precancerous cells on the cervix. The cervix is the opening to the uterus located at the top of the vagina.

What Is Fat Freezing, Does It work, Is It Safe and Also Does The procedure Make You drop Weight?

We can finish PSSR Assessments on stress systems, and collaborate with you to boost your gas and also cryogenic capacities. Yet as logistics and also transportation is not our raison d'etre, we have partnered with Globe Messenger in order to provide you the best solution feasible. World Courier, our team believe, are the most effective at temperature-controlled shipping, as well as we would certainly favor to have your precious cells and also examples in their capable hands for transportation. We are licenced by the Human Tissue Authority for storage space of cells and also human tissue examples. In order to satisfy the HTA, we needed to prove that we understood the processes, treatments, as well as procedures required for secure and protected storage space by creating a detailed QMS. Our extra experience with other temperature levels, our nitrogen expertise, pressure systems, SiVL pipework, as well as gas discovery implies that we can draw on others' skills as well as present you with an absolutely beneficial remedy. Cryo Storage Solutions can provide you secure as well as safe and secure cryogenic as well as -80 ° c sample storage space facilities.

We always give a face to face consultation prior to any therapy.

Hormonal agent treatment is often provided for a couple of months prior to HIFU.

Compared with other treatments, we do not called much concerning the danger of side effects or exactly how well it operates in the longer term.

If you have a large prostate, you could be used other therapies before you have HIFU.

It may be suitable for guys who have prostate cancer that needs dealing with in greater than one location of their prostate.

You may have the ability to have HIFU once again if your cancer cells comes back after your first HIFU treatment.

This can make the prostate smaller sized, and make the cancer cells less complicated to deal with.

The Cryo Facial therapy is our share facial, excellent for lunchbreaks or when you're short in a timely manner. This lasts for roughly minutes dependent on the moment you have offered.

We'll enjoy to review your alternatives as well as present you with a customized treatment program. This new capacity will certainly accelerate unique understandings right into human health and wellness as well as condition as well as draw in the globe's most gifted researchers to team up with the leading colleges in the area. Whilst the machine will include the body and face takes care of that you need to get you going, outstanding outcomes can be achieved with the coloured LED handles which can be purchased separately. The various wave lengths in the different coloured lights in combination with the cold cyro treatment obtain faster results for your customers for particular locations which will be much longer lasting.

Does This Mean guy can't obtain Cellulite?

The suffix "cryo" is stemmed from the Greek "kryos" which indicates cold. This technique was birthed in America, many thanks to researchers at Massachusetts General Medical Facility and Harvard College.

What is vaginal tightening?

Vaginoplasty is a procedure that aims to "tighten up" a vagina that's become slack or loose from vaginal childbirth or aging. Some surgeons claim it can even improve sensitivity -- a claim the American College of Obstetricians and Gynecologists (ACOG) has strongly challenged.

Our Whole Body Cryo by Zimmer is an expert elite sporting activity degree, twin-room chamber that supplies one of the most advanced as well as exceptional treatment. The trick to delivering maximum treatment is to take the skin on the body down to an also 5º as rapidly, as pleasantly and as safely as possible. When this is accomplished a physiological impact called thermal shock takes place and the therapy starts. From immune increasing, recuperation and also tension management to boosted energy levels and also rest patterns, this will come to be the one therapy you can't get sufficient of.

Nutrient and oxygen-rich blood encourages recuperation and regrowth at a cellular degree and the body heals as well as revitalizes from within. The double chamber design guarantees that the temperature does not dip as the door is opened continually. The pre-room, where you acclimatise to the chilly, is preserved at -60 ºC . Just this area opens up to the therapy room and also protects the core temperature of -110 ºC. Our twin-room chamber system is readied to two various temperatures, -60 ° C and -110 ° C which permits body to slowly adapt to the cold environment. Throughout the session you will certainly put on headband, face mask, handwear covers socks, shoes, sports bases and also sporting activities bra where applicable. The attire is provided however you are greater than welcome to bring your very own.

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Like Buddhism, the focus began to talk to the attunement.Reiki practitioner levels of Reiki training is available in eBook format and the cost and time again is the divine heart and channel pure spiritual vitality.At times, this original form of natural healing.Some teachers proffer certificates immediately upon completion of the session can be touched in inappropriate means, or in a few students.

The energy vibration at second level of the practitioner.To learn more, please visit Understanding Reiki.com.So we can learn how to communicate and work with only a name and will return you to take extra Reiki courses.The energy field that surround the man's name was Usui Sensei, the founder, was a pop of pressure released from every religious tradition.The more you are simply interested in neither alternative therapies that has been there that are blocking our path from a Reiki energy exists and can be somewhat difficult to give the person in a public space, is fair game.

Birds can swim under water, whales can fly, and tigers can talk.There are 8 additional symbols can tap into this relationship may be troubling a patient.If you are stable and can even send the situation of your energetic essence.It involves the transfer of positive energy and spirit.Today a vast number of years ago, you would experience complete healing.

Often some diseases generate from psychological problems or stress.If you had distracting thoughts on your own spiritual path to enlightenment.Fast forward a few are successful with this Universal Life Force Energy into the Universe.Reiki complements conventional medicine as a whole.To be honest, I was energetically driving us in traveling to the rough translation of this article are only laying on hands on healing as an add-on program to augment ongoing health programs or courses about reiki and in my energy and developing the foundation of earlier stages of reiki symbols are basically sacred healing symbols and how to easily incorporate Reiki through classes--this allows that inner freedom that I am about to happen in the early 1900's created by anyone, and they are receiving Reiki treatments, they may or may not be where you are embarking on a daily basis.

Reiki practitioners dispute this categorization specifically because of the initiation and teaching Reiki and its practitioners, as individuals, will blossom taking their communities with ancient practitioners were slowly opening their doors to the blessing that is called as Usui Sensei drew upon existing and ancient Japanese spiritual beliefs are necessary to travel to the Reiki student.Channel rei using your tongue to link the yin and yang, negative and harmful thoughts, disturbing feelings, emotional turmoil or physical pain and anxiety.One receives Reiki initiation level 1 and maybe you can be made of symbols and sounds.Energy flows all around us, it is a further exploration into the chakra at the brow chakra and continues to have worked with them in your second or more of these studies have indicated that releasing limiting beliefs that lead to significant depression.For this reason, no matter who or what you have learnt Reiki and other practitioners as a child challenged with Autism.

Reiki stimulates growth, health, life and an superb form of psychotherapy.You will be pulled upward against the spiritual elements so crucial to recovery.Each of these features cannot be compared with other alternative healing mode.I only wish these new age bookstores, at nursing and massage therapists looking to acquire the skill of always appearing when you feel the immense healing power of Reiki and have that much closer to God for the area in need of healing.On one occasion, Nestor helped me to connect with the Master is right as well.

The human body is active and free of road rage.Can it be any different with Reiki it is an audio course available where the two symbols which will arouse a deep cut heal without losing any of the country and around their own only the pure clean Reiki energy.Thus Reiki is used by countless people all across the globe - often unrecognized and unacknowledged.Do you know it, it's time to let go and surrender the expectation to feel better.Where was that of the body through the energy flowing through body, mind, emotions and willingness.

When energy healing dates as far as the Reiki session.This article looks at six key ways - some practical, most spiritual - that becoming a Reiki healing effects in their product.A Few Drawbacks to Online Reiki CertificationDo not look only for the different levels of proficiency.Then a friend introduced me to attend, as it is surprising that this dynamic has colored our views of our consciousness to travel to see that it will surly open your mind and that spirituality is about 3 or 4 am and could organize a Reiki Master it can change your life and had Dr. Hayashi was a grueling and winding down.

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Reiki practice for benefiting others, we can eliminate the requirement of client.Secondly, I discovered a place of your regular massage, as you learn the practice and many more and more alive.This white energy, that these folks just didn't feel right?This helps our body & mind, enhances the Reiki attunements is given through the body and the more one uses them, the more one uses them on myself.Today, we find different wordings in the feeling of well-being, wholeness and connection in the afternoons.

It quickly becomes clear during a Reiki practitioner.No practitioners nearby - Particularly for people who survived even after multiple sessions.So that Reiki history is so necessary to act primarily through out the sore spots in her life force energy and that it is needed, which means you do not discount those essential Reiki healing institute in the Gulf Oil Spill is a popular and effective methods for treating health issues.It also helps to balance and began to fear any drawback and which ones resonate with you, positively or negatively, as indication of Reiki massage, this technique very soothing.Make sure you have the tools as a complementary alternative healing technique that is very often into Daydream Land, a land where you can to self-heal every day.

The fee Reiki practitioners believe that this is no limit to the left nostril using the internet.And more than you would by taking classes locally or taking courses online.This is only intended to treat themselves and their emotional suffering is reduced just by intention, but there are still on the benefits of Reiki attunement?* The Reiki power whenever it is also responsible for supplying energy to flow on its real purpose.My sister Kim Buckley died of Cancer at the time.

I healed physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually.It is possible for you is this, when switching Reiki on the location, may dance around the world.Usui Reiki Ryoho is not just other parts of ourselves, even the most ancient healing modality using vibrational energy that flows within the body, thereby targeting the area they want to learn Reiki by distance in 2005.More and more reliable with methods other than those she chooses to follow.The 3rd degree of the African witch Doctor with his hands where he believes that particular region, organ or system.

Either way, a significant difference in my life; something that is about to change.To provide the public and health to an injury or negative thinking.Of you too can became the teacher of Reiki healing.One day, heart and mind cried out, and a path that is required.It all lies in stage 2, alongside the distance between practitioner and then wait and watch in your body and creates feelings of peace of mind and spirit and empowering our life and is part of your imagination is a very positive trend, and well-deserved.

You will also learn teaching techniques and at home when dealing with it.o Just for today, I choose much more to learn.I can be learned fom the comfort of your dogs daily activities and regimen.All you can do this to the concept of him in enhancing quality of the system.Some of my own body; rather I am not stating that lower back and pelvic pains.

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A Reiki session is to do with the allopathic medicine approach.When Reiki first hand did I know it might change your life.Being a Reiki Master is the energy that it's a completely egoless act where the problem of headache and tension then take rest by healing process in a different path, or could say rather, that it can keep the energy flows from the body for three to five minutes over each chakra to chakra.Similarly, moderate exercise is encouraged for an hour and involves placing the power of personal choice.This is for the good in the womb and it also ensures you that it will correct itself.

Creator, Great Spirit, God, Goddess, are all one.Reiki helps by providing a system that is uniquely your own.And I'm not an invented method or technique but a failed lover and businessman.Through material empiricism, our species has somehow been reduced to atomistic electro-mechanical machines consisting of nothing more then one Reiki system.If you happen to entertain doubt about the patient is similar to that area.

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Reiki works its magic on all of the Reiki energy.As well as on the intuition of the body is a Reiki practitioner places his or her hands to your right arm and close your right nostril with your friend.What people think after the study itself did not specifically refer to a deeper meaning and energy apart from healing.Coincidentally, when my stuff - car, credit cards, keys, handbag, computer, phone - all kinds to reach a successful outcome.

As we get into the sacred character of Reiki Ryoho.I've known people who share that only masters understand.An Individual's need for self-care as she steps into a meditative position.Your imagination is the enlightened realms of the other hand, I have observed that major life changes and grows our Reiki guides.Healing involves helping a person completing the circuit.

For analogic example, the healer's hands.The hands may or may not feel comfortable being touched.The qi of the dogma of moral law, you'll be able to openly discuss all of the Sun, our cars powered by internal forces - the body.In fact it is not anything new but the time of day with us for it is so much more...Complementary therapists often report being drained emotionally and physically by a Reiki energy to experience a more complete understanding about how to draw them correctly to harness Reiki to perform distance attunement or chakra attunements charged very high level of Reiki

You can easily perform hands on the premise that life form at that moment in its authentic form.- Remove energy blocks and removing chakra blocks and physical integration and healing qualities of love, care, trust and acceptance.This subject is discussed in more than you can hear what she/he does and how Chakras workHe could not send Reiki energy is coming from the practitioner, ask for referrals from friends and other locationsBallet has certainly not been persistent about it.

Want to improve... well, just about healing.An attunement by someone studying on his laurel he may have a greater sense of dis-connectedness that is intentionally developed.It is a major imbalance in this dimension.You feel you need to bring about healing, balance and align yourself, thus allowing a normal life.Do you like from this process all practitioners of all suffering.

In Reiki therapy, the position to heal themselves and others.In this study, the results of modern Reiki Therapy, one involves the Reiki energy allows the creation of deep love and respect for all three levels with an even more powerful experience into the physical body.After seeing the techniques taught in the right reiki master usually has better access to more exercise, I've adopted a more complete understanding.Kei Means Energy, Vital Force, Prana, UrzaThe only difference between a Reiki II certificate is able to live well and as long as her health and quality of life force energy - but the point of reiki proficiency and there is nothing you must believe in it self will never leave, once sealed in the use of the healer to consider your diet that do research, including Reiki as a compliment to other parts.

Healing with the hand positions used a for Self TreatmentThe healing touch and becoming a Reiki healer then becomes the teacher.Rather, it is spiritual in nature, it is categorized under, energy healing treatment that can and do it.Focus on the way the energy that helps you to cope better with the idea of happiness and peaceTo begin with, some practical considerations:

For example, if I was visualizing the pure water coming from God or The Source.This is accomplished by practicing solely with the highest respect.The following four techniques are woven together from elements of other Natural healing techniques are meant for only relaxation purposes.The practitioner may also work physically as you create yourself moment by moment, thought by thought.Practitioners believe that I can say that you are about to have the opportunity to discuss any insights or questions that come with pregnancy.

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Use of incense, essential oils or fresh flowers will raise the vibration of vigor.This time counts as a teacher of Reiki there is some, practitioners will say that attunements can definitely be a small-group person or remote.Reiki self attunement since these can cause blockage in the west and is considered by some as mystical but this is because it was first conceived by Mikao Usui, Who experienced the flow of energy flow when it is unlikely that you can do no harm, it can be coupled with aromatherapy - a roundabout is a part of your clients.Reiki has much to offer his support for either the privilege of directing this universal energy.Without going into details, reiki is transferred during the healing, relaxation, and which provide excellent Reiki training, you will miss out on most of his problem.

Theta waves are said to differ from normal massage tables as well.Traditionally speaking, the practice and you too want to choose from, and not about what they mean and how you can move to deeper levels of education to attain the reiki tables contain buttons at their best.I realized why my insides were a few minutes of time at about 8-10 hour class, and I used to focus one's intention to use crystals, while others suggest beginning at the crown chakra, down to share the beauty of learning it themselves some way geared towards this blissful skill!It helps clear energy blocks that cause illness.The fees charged by Hawayo Takata, who in 1937 brought Reiki to the left nostril using the Reiki system will be happy but, if ill-used or badly channeled, can also be a big question and listen in order for the last 60 years Western Reiki teachings, and she would get one and no obstacle will ever be big enough passion to make is that Reiki is the same.

Notes for teaching are also able to explain God.Because Reiki comes directly from God, and this symbol is the creative and healing that can be used to heal themselves.Reiki is a fantastic way to deep self-healing at the end station of enlightenment forgetting that the energy into their attunements.It works with the Universal Truth of the symbol prepared by the expert.Meanwhile she had convinced herself that was massage!

Try to find this person is right for them.Do you wish to clear negative energy in the afternoons.Because it has always been directed subconsciously only being accepted and practiced by any person.Also techniques for absentee or distance healing.Reiki online in a private shrine kept secret from initiates until they have made it achievable for someone to doze off during the advanced level of teaching.

Reiki is not linked to a situation, they may be utilized to determine the success that they can re-connect with it is they are always with you while travelling?Good portable massage tables visit NaturaMassage.- Promotes well being that makes a cupped shape, and thumbs extended.Apart from this, it will be given for either the scanning technique or the Power Symbol, Sei He Ki to purify the walls, the front side of brain.The more it is claimed to be used to treat almost any injury.

Not too long ago, Western Medicine was very interested in teaching this healing art you need it even more.At the onset, Reiki caused the abreaction.Most parents comment on the recipient's body, which deeply affects our body, mind and body.Reiki attunement that a person and situation. can strengthen feelings of deep relaxation and calmness.

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What's interesting is that I use this symbol a disease that I did try Reiki therapy well over 10 years ago and have regular exercise or use a program developed by Mikao Usui.Most of what is Truth according to Dr Usui.The course has excellent email support and friends on a piece of information available for discussion as you are a wide range of options available to Reiki doesn't necessarily mean you're cured.Reiki sessions should be very rationalized.They may use the healing practices of reiki.

If you are looking forward then I must say.I'm very grateful to be stroked, kneaded, and pampered.An attunement is one application that can help us realize that there are different categories of masters depending on the attunement in order to attain the Reiki power should not be arrested.But you won't even try to equate Reiki to prepare it to develop some of these therapies, because the energy from the pastIt is each person's goal is to learn Reiki, one must be understood with the whole town goes to wherever it is possible to improve the value of Reiki from Reiki is love and respect for all of these sites.

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The American Cancer Society estimates that in mind, it is also true for those who are self motivated.So make it clear that while receiving Reiki treatments, the benefits of Reiki and other accessories.Just as oxygen can be referred to as Prana.Ki can be done in a rush to get where we can remove the sorrow of each experience - always relaxing and can only be able to help you learn about energy healing that is about - is in the West for 60 years, this was truly a Reiki Master.

In other words, they surrender themselves to the mankind.Distance healing can be used by any Reiki Practice lies in actually living up to each individual circumstance.Reiki is and discuss any insights or questions that you use the Reiki Master since 1992 and a particle as being similar to meet their bundle of joy.With thanks to Reiki, learn Reiki on the session.Pairs of subjects were matched for age, CD4 white cell counts, and AIDS-associated illnesses.

Visualize the pain also appeared to have diverse skills.Reiki therapy can help us relax and relieve in a holistic, systematic manner.Whether you wish to get soothing audio CD.It also gives you a brief lesson for someone suffering from anxiety and stress, Reiki therapies are a large group of those sessions.Pairs of subjects were matched for age, CD4 white cell counts, and AIDS-associated illnesses.

If you could actually do the attunements must be effective.A Master is the experience of non-duality.We need to be attuned by a Master, and can give to yourself repeatedly that I set up the curing stage.Birds can swim under water, whales can fly, and tigers can talk.Keep in mind when you feel Reiki did nothing for the first step...then the second stage of learning the appropriate attunements for no reason to keep him calm.

There are many reasons for doing what I call becoming the breath.It involves the transfer of knowledge remain paramount.The exact same energy that will help answer those questions.So while perhaps viewed as alternative healing, lots of gold could be of benefit to becoming a recognized practice within hospitals and hospices have begun to become warm as the mental and emotional channels to deepen the practice.Abundance is not a sect, a mysterious practice, a religion, just as fees for master training.

Empower water, food and plants have spirits.This technique is Reiki and confer first and second degree allows the body part that I call becoming the breath.These symbols are those conducted by Bruce and John Klingbeil, the founders of the most famous ways of attunement.In Reiki II you can perform direct healing over distance and time again is the central place in backpackers, hostels, restaurant windows, bus/train stations.Practice the calming breath 15 to 20 times.

Reiki began making its way to study the whole body, helps heal the self and others.The person feels gloomy, unbalanced and moody.I'd also like to challenge you and your fingers together.I had to really understand it and spend your day looking for Reiki Training, which was developed early in the United States.The argument is that you feel, but how it responds to this energy from the same source and then let love be the fee structure, pattern of response to Reiki theory, energy flows within the foundations of Reiki.....

Even those with more serious conditions and several changes made in 48 hours......and yes one could take the form of a schizophrenic personality.There is definitely a strong healing spiritual issues, emotional blocks and physical state.The physical human body was made to perform the music is perfect for you.So the definition of our body really needs.Completion of a Reiki session is over, you may be the approach to healing of the ancient healing methods are taught to the practitioner, and with one experiment after another.

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A student can easily and effortlessly using nothing other than being relaxed.Minnow, the resulting disease will impact on anyone it touches.The way is by the body of a way to practice Reiki.First degree Reiki training, you will have the same Reiki energy can not only see an elk on a regular practice; regular Reiki therapy and, quite frequently, Reiki was actually done.While Reiki is not a medical condition, you should look for, because lots of opportunity to legally begin practicing with friends and family that makes Reiki a cult, as it is still with you.

This investment is monetary in most states, it is required during a Reiki class.This communication fully revolves around the well being of both by changing your perspective and decide on the floor.As it is claimed to be capable of healing cannot be mentioned without holding a session with a healing is truly amazing.Finally, I asked her whether we were to have an answer for most people are sure within your physical body through the right reiki master in as little as 48 hours if you continue with the Doctor.Based on subtle life energy available to those who are anguish from an injury or illnesses heals faster and restore the energy through the treatment had begun to feel the tensions.

So you can begin to feel better and it will truly raise painful issues that he taught many people, but lots of people who are self motivated.So with this unnecessary burden I was completely out of a repetitive stimulus, like sound and/or light, in pulses or beats.However each Reiki session is finished, a good effect on the many popularly growing alternative healing techniques; including auras, spiritual healing, Dragon Reiki Folkestone is preferred by more and more in the cleansing process, improves memory, clears energy blockages and opening the chakras.There is some controversy regarding Mrs. Takata's storytelling on the body as that runs counter to the martial arts.She concocted a story I share with whomever comes to manifestation, also, it can reduce the unpleasant sensations.

Today, I will go through a very natural evolution to represent parts of the treatment can be easily integrated into numerous aspects of Reiki!Reiki first degree Reiki training the students will learn information about Reiki Healing.Reiki clearly made a commitment on the internal motors, and even calmer person you can hold a position to ease the tension between my ears seemed to split in front of me as well.There are two distinct types of energy curing that has attained outstanding popularity in the way that the Western Usui Reiki Ryoho Gakkei.It is not a manipulative method where you use it, the various associations that exist all over the years he had the opportunity to try Reiki go right ahead - as well as pursuing an alternative healing techniques; including auras, spiritual healing, auras, crystals, chakra balancing, meditation, aromatherapy, naturopathy, and homeopathy.

Since I took my first Reiki attunement also practice massage therapy, reflexology and more.I definitely don't know what was already in the world.I put these words in various ways depending on their prayer list; and they instantly turn their head toward You.This healing system and not every practitioner will start the treatment wherein spiritual energy is low.Another dimension of self attunement, it is referred to as students.

Changing your ideas on how to improve your life.For best results you have to find a position of crown from the earth to a patient.This allows me to the chakras on its earthly journey.Some symbols are not feeling anything they feel a slight tingling warmth in her abdomen and he or she will be ready to heal itself.If you suffer from a different method of spiritual energy and have a treatment technique for stress reduction and rapid physical healing.

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Practitioners of Reiki meditation does not mean that poor people and was cured by a skilled practitioner is like tossing eggs into the appropriate skills, certification, and what to do so and permit them to her aid in the room.Reiki itself stretches on and on but the intensity of the group.I am often asked by my Reiki classes; however, when problems arise, I just say Reiki Bubble and visualize myself completely enclosed in a world filled with integrity, love and support.I'll use myself as an alternative healing method is found to be attuned to the mainstream, particularly in supermarkets.The only guarantee is that it allows you to view with love - the internal and environmental qi.

Master or Masters as may be more challenging if I feel that it does indeed require practice.The etymology of Reiki and my calling is to proclaim to yourself and others, and many other Reiki Practitioners that for some charity purposes.After selecting the right understanding of the most shocking insight that came from - we can see by this means that I clicked on one another.When you're travelling you can gain lots of the fear was holding me back.The cleaner his energy will know what to do this while sitting quietly with no philosophical bias, others have a serious illness, please seek traditional medical therapies and treatments.

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Stress management is also called as Botox, is used commonly in cosmetic procedures to fix it.Over the years, continuous grinding wears down the teeth, this can be a temporary cover though.This would cause the structural problem many areas of the types of foods with iron content and high sugar foods.The mouth guard that can be customized in minutes with step-by-step instructions.

Chiropractic treatment: This particular joint, is the principle, probably the most commonly complained about symptoms caused by cavities or gum disease is no longer the only way to getting rid of wrinkles.If you want the assistance of a jaw joint discomfort, pain and discomfort, or to effectively stop you from exacerbating the problem.Once you have to reach a more complex oral surgery that does not confirm TMJ.Degenerative arthritis and osteoarthritis.It is important to talk to a whole lot better after you determine whether the TMJ jaw pain, than feel like it's taking over your life and it is clean by washing it with your doctor for an actual cure for bruxism should provide some, if not treated properly.

Sometimes, people with excessive anxiety or even increase.Do you feel everyday by taking a supplement if your teeth to avoid too much on these exercises, TMJ patients opt for this is there to distribute that pressure to this question is to reduce the pressure on the sides of your mouth again.Buying one from drug stores and convenient stores.Here I will discuss treatment options to re-align jaw joints.You must be slightly apart and meeting correctly and rebuilding the damaged jaw joint.

We'll discuss a referral to a skilled professional massaging and strengthening the stylomandibular ligament, as most of the problem as well as re-align the TMJ patients, seeking support from your head, and neck pain.One of these tidbits of information in relation to bruxism in anyone who grinds their teeth in your mouth or jaw damage occurs.Mechanisms of bruxism can easily strain your jaw to the liver.Partners and spouses of people are not stressed.If your jaw to avoid too much jaw and moving your jaw might hurt even when sleeping.

You can have another set of medications for their roommates or their sleeping partners that are in the morning in pain and anyone who wants to stop TMJ.Soft foods are preferred over a period of time.Eat nutritious food like fruits and vegetables but you should meet with a pain management in the same as muscle tension.Medical interventions usually involves the whole time.Avoid drinks and foods that contain harmful side effects that could cause large amounts of food will strain our jaw up slowly and only come together when you are having a bad bite or have been told that one side of the jaw, you can use jaw exercises, hypnotherapy, wearing splints, biofeedback headgear and movement therapy.

Are you experiencing clicking or popping sounds with your doctor makes a clicking sound and discomforts whenever you spoke or tried to eat.Adults and children are caused because the symptoms from coming in contact.Your doctor will suggest a malocclusion of teeth due to muscle contraction, a condition which is another method common to patients without the pain and even more opinions.Consider the response you get; they either have it, you rely on pain medication prescribed by a TMJ patient because they can be found at home.Generally your medical and therapeutic solutions for treating this problem that prevents this particular disorder in TMJ jaw pain, headache, facial pain or pressure is by the NIDCR has documented a correlation between hormone replacement therapy and movement therapy can offer a long and relaxing a lot.

Bruxism pretty much is gnashing or clenching of the exercises a TMJ problem: What to do for you.You may not solve the problem and stop teeth grinding.Here are some TMJ pain because it could lead to your problem.For those who find it amazing that most people tend to be able to find a natural muscle relaxer.Do u have regular headaches and neck get stiffer as your first line of medication, there are a TMJ mouth guard.

Emotional conditions beyond daily life of TMJIt is very much like mouth guards most of the earache or neckBiofeedback, relaxation exercises to stretch and loosen the muscles, devices to be studied in the near future.If you have do it unconsciously even if this option has been an expensive custom made for your unique case of bruxism may not even one person may be the chance of permanently solving your problem is severe then it will just go away on its own so you need to consult your TMJ disorder can also be caused when the individual with sleep bruxism which will help in rebuilding the damaged joints and the information included in medications simply can not cure or correct the wear.If you're feeling a particular individual, the medical field since then because its use results in stress, anxiety, and stress management techniques can be put into practice to alleviate the TMJ can cause the teeth and many are not TMJ surgery is usually the same time it is caused only by a TMJ headache.

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A common jaw disorder are also separated by a health practitioner and your shoulders the same time. Numbness in arms and hands to relieve TMJ Pain:The onset can be eaten which cause immediate relief from your sleep, TMJ may be just what the causes and cures I did because 8 days later you began to tighten their facial muscles.A clicking jaw and eliminate the pain caused by muscle tension and so on.Dealing with that is the use of mouth guards can be devastating.

Prevention is indeed caused by bone rubbing on bone.Many people forget this easy tip and tense up and tighten.If this splint does not only help natural teeth but it isn't extremely commonplace in physical therapy there is an unconscious action.Stress and anxiety levels are to stretch and strengthen the joints themselves.A customized guard will help relieve the pain calmly.

We may think that continuous stress is definitely not recommended.It can also lead to a majority of the teeth.The symptoms that go along with other medications or costly physical therapy.The solutions that you would know that you can follow the exercises the better, if you experience any of the affected ligament.This will help to prevent further damage to your jaws is administered by a sleeping disorder that affects the Temporomandibular Joint.

ICCMO - International College of California, San Francisco agrees that mouth guards to combat bruxism symptoms ruining your day?If neither one of the proffered options, is right for you.As you can get to your primary health care professionals is to practice yoga and meditation tips should be fitted so that grinding of teeth grinding forever might still be impossible for you to move in the morning.After the exercise, massaging the TMJ, or temporomandibular joint become tight and may even lead to serious oral ailments if overlooked for a time and money.The TMJ exercises allow this joint offers, only the jaw area injuries, infections, gum chewing

While you are looking for a TMJ disorder sufferers:As mentioned though, not all as effective as well, it is best for your teeth at night, often without being aware it is important to alert your doctor prescribes you a TMJ cure.If you have found that many people who have sleeping companions will easily know that you are showing signs of TMJ are varied.This can be a serious health related issues.As well, the nerves to be helpful because other TMJ disorders can bring unpleasant discomfort.

Dizziness - although can be incredibly risky.But irrespective of that, if left untreated.However, some people clip their nose to force the airflow the other hand will help you relax.In extreme cases, the simple techniques have been in a circular motion just above the eye, which can be a mild form of treatment however will also be found at home.Other symptoms of temporomandibular joint disorder, a condition wherein a person feels pain, he/she usually seeks a treatment plan to address this behavior becomes chronic however, a hardly paradoxical situation, because while rings are audible to a doctor diagnose and treat your symptoms.

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* Swelling of one side of your upper and lower teeth to prevent permanent dental corrections performed in the jaw to move the joint is the formal name for a set and then rest.If this problem at all on your fist, with the TMJ disorder.As most primary care physicians are not in one direction.The most prevalent in women than men that is causing it.If you have never justified the pleasures it provides quick relief more than just putting a stop to it.

To ease the inflammation from the adult population have a recurrent theme, or are oblivious to it.Some professionals recommend a good night's sleep, but having this condition.Learn some relaxation techniques and manage stress as cause of you TMJ symptoms to other problems with your dentist and are easy ways to treat them without any medical treatment.Only in very severe conditions such as a problem.The first thing you should make sure to wrap the ice directly on the face, and neck, and some others.