#I can't say no

[anzstrek]

told y'all it was going to be something stupid

[catboythatbarks]

BRO, got any more of those drugs!??

[gay-mathematician-portmanteau]

people in my math classes have realized that i'm extremely studious (read: extremely boring) and am usually ahead of the lectures in terms of content. they've started coming to me for help with homework, which would normally be fine with me, but it does mean that i have often done any given assignment 3 or 4 times before getting a chance to sit down and write out my own answers. i am going to burn out like a dying sun if i don't learn to set! boundaries! and quickly.

[onbearfeet]

Someday I will remember that I am allergic to a very common ingredient in California rolls that is rarely listed on the menu.

But it was not this day, and so I'll be replenishing fluids if anyone needs me.

[tealeavesandthorns]

A little update

//I'm going to be incredibly honest right now. I need to take a short break from tumblr, I'm struggling at the moment, I'm burnt out and I need to recover properly.

I thought maybe I could just focus on Maria for a bit but I don't even know if that's going to work because I literally only have muse for threads with one person.

For the foreseeable I'm going to be on a break, and if I do reply it'll only be to select threads - probably for a specific ship.

Please dont take offense to this, please dont take it personally, this is not about anyone else, it's about me, about taking care of myself, about recovering and getting better.

If this makes you want to stop rping/unfollow/is a big problem for you. I wish you all the best but don't feel any ill will towards you.

Im having a really hard time at the moment and tumblr, at the moment is exacerbating things rather than helping them (as it used too).

[dayscrazed]

Chapter 3 of my Malex Oklahoma AU!

Chapter based off of the song, "I Can't Say No" Michael and Isobel have a much-needed chat during Max's recovery. Michael finally confides in her about a lot of his feelings about Alex.

Fun chapter to write!!!! Particularly inspired by: "I've never been able to say no to you." ~ Michael Guerin to Alex Manes 2x01

[bananabots964]

I'm probably one of the most understanding person you'll ever see. I'm good at empathy (a little too good if you ask me)

I'm physically incapable of being mean or saying no to people. You need me to teach you something when I know nothing about that? Sure I'll just watch 4 hours worth of videos and learn it. You need me to help you out with your project? Of course I'll just keep my 6 pending assignments aside and help you. You want to go on walk? Obviously I'll come with you even tho Im extremely tired.

I hate myself for this. I hate that I am self aware but still do nothing to change it.

[allo-frouto]

We will work your flexibility together, your vocals too

I think I am good in that department...

[aiku]

i’m gonna be completely finished w uni by the end of the week like i’m graduating... 😳 what do i do now, just work until i die? sdhfjkaefewhudsjk

[lazylittledragon]

can't believe we're all adults being forced into the club penguin level of censorship in 2024

[miss-galaxy-turtle]

Jew here with a friendly reminder that:

Criticizing Isreal ≠ antisemetic

Supporting Palestine ≠ antisemitic

Believing in the Free Palestine cause ≠ antisemitic

BUT ALSO

A random ass Jew just living their life oceans away has nothing to do with the Isreal-Palestine conflict

Palestinian Jews exist

Jews that support Palestine exist (I am one of them)

Calling out ACTUAL antisemitism ≠ supporting Isreal

[jamjoob]

Have they considered just talking it out

[wardensantoineandevka]

is that piece of media actually bad, or is it just not following the blueprint you projected onto it? is that work actually not good, or are you just demanding something from it that is absolutely antithetical to its themes, genre, tone, and narrative goal? is that story actually poorly written, or do you just dislike that it is not the specific things you wanted from it that it never set out to be, never was, and never is going to become? is it actually bad, or is it actually well-executed and you just dislike the story it chose to be because it isn't catering to your specific desires and expectations?

[official-lucifers-child]

still thinking about the brainrot that fast fashion has caused in people, like i made this pair of pants that are black and white with a cool flowery design, and an acquaintance saw them and said "wow i'd pay like 20 dollars for you to make me a pair" and i could barely think with how utterly horrified i was at that; i told them that 20 dollars wouldn't even cover the materials, let alone the hours of work that went into cutting, sewing, ironing, hemming, altering, etc. they just had this look on their face when i told them that, when i said i wouldn't make them a pair for even 100 dollars because that was still way too low of an amount, a look that said "you're crazy for thinking that those cost 100 dollars" and maybe i am crazy but holy shit, 20 dollars for a pair of handmade, durable, lined pants fitted specifically to your measurements? 20 dollars for upwards of 60 hours of work? 20 dollars for several yards of high-quality fabric, thread, and buttons? 20 dollars???

[inkskinned]

i got rickrolled today but it didn't work because i have adblocker installed, so youtube just told me i violated the terms of service. yesterday i was trying to edit a picture as a joke for my girlfriend, and google made me check a box to prove i'm human because i wasn't "searching normally".

it isn't just that capitalism is killing fun and whimsy, it is that any element of entertainment or joy is being fed upon by this mosquito body, one that will suck you dry at any vulnerability.

do you want to meet new friends in your city? download this app, visit our website, sign up for our email list. pay for this class on making a terrarium, on candlemaking, on cooking. it will be 90 dollars a session. you can go to group fitness, but only under our specific gym membership. solve the puzzle, sign up for our puzzle-of-the-month-club. what is a club if not just a paid opportunity - you are all paying for the same thing, which makes you a community.

but you're like me, i know it - you're careful, you try the library meetings and the stuff at the local school and all of that. the problem is that you kind of want really specific opportunities that used to exist. you are so grateful for libraries and the publicly-funded things: they are, however, an exception - and everything they have, they've fought tooth-and-nail to protect. you read a headline about how in many other states, libraries have virtually nothing left.

do you want to meet up with your friends afterwards? gift your friends the discord app. you can choose to go to a cafe (buy a coffee, at least), a bar (money, alcohol) or you can all stay in and catch a movie (streaming) or you can all stay in bed (rent. don't get me started) and scream (noise complaint. ticket at least).

you want to read a new book, but the book has to have 124 buzzwords from tiktok readers that are, like, weirdly horny. you can purchase this audiobook on audible! your podcast isn't on spotify, it's on its own server, pay for a different site. fuck, at least you're supporting artists you like. the art museum just raised their ticket price. once, they had a temporary exhibit that acknowledged that ~85% of their permanent art galleries were from cis white men, and that they had thousands of works by women (even famous women, like frida! georgia o'keefe!) just rotting in their basement. that exhibit lasted for 3 months and then they put everything away again.

walmart proudly supports this strip of land by the street! here are some flowers with wilting leaves. its employees have to pay out-of-pocket for their uniforms. my friend once got fined by the city because she organized a community pick-up of the riverfront, which was technically private property.

no, you cannot afford to take that dance class, neither can i. by the way - i'm a teacher. i'm absolutely not saying "educators shouldn't be paid fairly." i'm saying that when i taught classes, renting a studio went from 20 bucks an hour to 180 in the span of 6 months. no significant changes to the studio were made, except they now list the place as updated and friendly. the heat still doesn't work in the building. i have literally never seen the landlord who ignores my emails. recently they've been renting it out at night as an "unusual nightclub; a once-in-a-lifetime close-knit party." they spent some of those 180 dollars on LEDs and called it renovating. the high heels they invite in have been ruining the marley.

do you want to experience the old internet? do you want to play flash games or get back the temporary joy of club penguin? you can, you just need to pay for it. i have a weird, neurodivergent obsession with occasionally checking in to watch the downfall and NFT-ification of neopets. if i'm honest with you all - i never got into webkins, my family didn't have the money to buy me a pointless elephant. people forget that "being poor" can mean literally "if i buy you that toy, i can't afford rent."

you and i don't have time to make good food, and we don't have the budget for it. we are not gonna be able to host dinner parties, we're not made of money, kid. do you want some kind of 3rd space? a space that isn't home or work or school? you could try being online, but - what places actually exist for you? tiktok counts as social media because you see other people on it, not because they actually talk to you.

there was a local winter tradition of sledding down the hill at my school. kids would use pizza boxes and jackets and whatever worked, howling and laughing. back in september, they made a big announcement that this time, rules were changing, and everyone must pay 10 dollars to participate. when im not scared shitless, i kind of appreciate the environmental irony - it hasn't gone below 40. so much for snow & joyriding.

i saw a bulletin for a local dogwalking group and, nervous about making a good first impression, showed up early. the first guy there grimaced at me. "sorry," he said. "there's a 30-dollar buy-in fee." i thought he was joking. wait. for what? the group doesn't offer anything except friendship and people with whom to walk around the city.

he didn't know the answer. just shrugged at me. "you know," he said. "these days, everything costs money."