#I can't put it into words

[soo-won]

Rereading the beginning of the Eunyung's Home arc right now and yeah...when Eunyung's mom tells him "why don't you just apologize? Why do you bring up the school play event again after so many years?" it really connects with what Eunyung says to Haejoon in ch201, huh. That it would be so nice if he was nice like Haejoon and could accept everything and not be so hung up on things like that. Maybe if he was like Haejoon his relationship with his mother could be better?(I don't think so. but Eunyung maybe does).

But in parallel we also see how this aspect of Eunyung, being hung up on things and staying angry can also be helpful. It's because Eunyung is like that that he doesn't let Haejoon apologize to his mom when he shouldn't have to. It's because he is like that that he makes Haejoon have a medical diagnosis after his homeroom teacher hit him. It's because he is like that the bullying situation in the Marie arc could be resolved as well. As Haejoon says, it's also thanks to Eunyung that he could sort out things with his uncle and receive more allowance. This side of Eunyung that every adults around him try to make him suppress is good and healthy. It's this anger that causes change. It makes things harder for him and it causes more ruckus, sure, but Haejoon's acceptance in these moments is hurtful as well, it doesn't resolve the issue at hand, it just makes him carry all the burden. Haejoon grew up wanting to cause the less problems and worries possible to his mom (and now his uncle) and avoids confrontations with adults as a result (also a direct consequence of when he lost his mother probably), while Eunyung grew up fantasizing about his parents receiving punishments for all their abuse. The consequences were so bad to him when he tried it's the one thing he gave up on though, so it's no surprise he lashes out whenever else he can.

When you think about it it's also connected to their level of trust in adults. Haejoon relatively trusts adults. If you take the New Dorm arc, Haejoon was planning to tell other adults about the situation there, before Eunyung told him not to (pretty violently lol) because he can't trust adults to deal with it or believe them. So Eunyung uses his own way to deal with it and it works! But Haejoon trusts adults to deal with other adults and yeah. That's how it should be and go. But Eunyung presents the "but" of this. That's how it should be, but in some cases it doesn't work because adults are douchebags, and for Eunyung it's the majority of them. Haejoon grew up with a good(even if not perfect) mom getting angry for him so he knows good adults exist. He also was moved by Juwan's mom's kindness as well(even if that makes him embarassed too). Eunyung doesn't, though, so he has to rely on himself and get angry for himself, because otherwise who will?

Writing all this I'm like....yeah No Home is all about balance. Haejoon and Eunyung searching for the right amount of distance and closeness in their relationship. Searching for the balance in their distrust of adults too. Eunyung can't trust adults for very understandable reasons, but the arc with Haejoon's uncle shows us that adults are simply struggling sometimes and trying their best, even if they're clumsy. It's true Haejoon's uncle was drinking, but he's not an irredeemable piece of shit like his father either. But it was a situation where Haejoon couldn't rely on any adults either, after all his uncle is basically his only family left. And that's why Eunyung's point of view was so helpful.

Idk man I just love the hundreds of layers in this manhwa so much. Like it's not just "the best is not to be extreme <3 not too much not too little" it's "sometimes you have no choice but to be too much. Sometimes it's destructive, though. But sometimes it's the only solution. And /sometimes/ you need a bit of the two. Sometimes both solutions work equally well. Sometimes the consequences are bad and sometimes everything ends well" like yeah life really be complicated and unpredictable like that. There isn't one guide to follow and that will work no matter what, you constantly have to adapt to the situations and people around you. Something something Eunyung and his father but if I don't end this post now I never will.

[myrefugeblog]

hey...

this episode is breaking me.

[five-star-stay]

Head empty, only magic school Han Jisung:

[jonathanbyersphd]

Hi hello I am having many thoughts about Jonathan fighting again.

[justalittlebluetiefling]

Everything this episode is so casual Weepe murdered a poltiical rival Imelda caused Weepe that discomfort

Weepe and Imelda truly live in a different world than everyone else.

[keigosstarlight]

I'm rewatching MHA and I'm sobbing. I can't form coherent thoughts about how fucking SAD Touya's backstory makes me. He just wanted his father to be proud of him damn it. He cried to his little brother. He felt bad about what happened with Shoto. But years later, he can't bring himself to feel the same type of regret, guilt, because he's just so fucking exhausted and broken.

Bro, I'm actually- UGH MY HEART IS SHATTERED.

[crowreys-wormstache]

So I've just binged Crashing and holy shit I don't know what it is Phoebe Waller-Bridge puts into her characters but really no one does it like her

[ofgrimhilde]

the way that I fucking love Evie needs to be studied. I'm so obsessed with this muse omg. it's not that I don't love my oc or my future Tiana blog, but, ya'll...... evie just.......... MAN. I connect with her so much. I think I'm going to have to go ahead and write out this Descendants -> OUAT thing. Who's down for a solo para read or more?

[its-not-rainingg]

Citrine, I'm sorry

My throat works, swallowing the pill. A little capsule to take it away from me. It was never mine to hold. And I didn't think I'd cry this quickly. My face becomes wet and cold and reddened from my hands rubbing against it. It's a quiet kind of crying. Cathartic. Waiting on the train, on the seat at night, going no where and every where at once. Going home. To a house. A beautiful, old house. It's a shame it's so cold, you'd think the walls would hold the heat in better.

You asked me how I wanted it and I say hard and cold and metallic because that's how I like it, to cut though. To cut through and leave my own marks on my body. My body. Mine.

There's a point where you become almost catatonic. So full of this gnawing loneliness. And all you can really do is exist in it.

I think I must be bleeding because my head is reeling far too fast for me to be sober. I wish I were sober. I wish you were here. I wanted to kiss you so badly. I wanted to tear you apart. If I could tear out my heart and hold it in front of me, right in front of both of us, would you take a bite?

My citrine, my muse, my angel above me. I loved you. And I'm sorry I loved you. You didn't deserve that.

[tired-o-fighter]

I had the MOST AMAZING opportunity to design kef(pit's peepaw) 's turtle sona

He didn't say anything specific exept that they'd have master oogway vibes and the hat

So...

MEET PEEPAW

He's an elderly Galápagos Tortoise

Very very old no one knows the exact age

Wears the hat most of the time and has a suit too (drew it didn't like it)

Thank you again kef for giving me the chance to design him. This is an honor

[lost-my-sanity1]

na for real like I haven't been the same person since gmmtv gave me a full fucking dance choreography

[dirtytransmasc]

I don't need Taigen and Mizu to get together, but they can't just stay friends, I need them to become a secret third thing that is most definitely queer but like... they're not dating... yeah, that's what I need.

[half-oz-eddie]

[brichan132]

Currently trying not to sob rn at school but I feel like I need to say something or else I will burst into tears violently.

Matpat is retiring from being the host of game theory and his other channels, I will admit… I didn’t see this coming, nor did anyone else.

I know some people hate matpat, but one does has to understand that while you can claim stuff that could or couldn’t be proven, there are many, many, many, people that grew up with him on our screens…

Matpat and mark are the people that introduced me to fnaf, matpat was the one that unlocked my need to learn everything, matpat was the one of the few people that I wanted to become one day…

I wish matpat a farewell, and welcome Tom, Amy, lee, and santi…

Thank you matpat, for everything.

[unma]

Just watched Manly's playthrough of The Coffin of Andy and Leyley and perhaps I should be worried that I can see a bit of myself and my sister in that.

[ikkan]

one of the things im glad about...is that i grew up being a weird and "cringy" teen on here rather than on tiktok because to me tumblr is just a circle of weirdos where only the weirdos on tumblr see you....but tiktok....everyone is just there....even my mom :\