#I call it ‘twirling my wrist’ while having a pencil or pony/object in my hand
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Heyyy to ease my nerves I decided to pull myself out of a self imposed state of (possibly? Maybe? Not too sure but it sure feels like) executive dysfunction and instead of staring at my animation program sitting in my lingering dread for several more hours, I did a little SONG COVER YEAHHHHH!!!! FUN SILLY SONG THERAPYYYYYY <3
Okay but this is also kinda a way to trick my mind into being complacent for a bit? Because thing is I would rather be stuck watching the same Mr. Puzzles clip compilation again and again then focus on animating the A Hat In Time project. Here’s the difficulties making it harder and harder for me to stay motivated and work; Last month was Artfight so I’m burned out from drawing, the part I’m stuck animating on is uninteresting to me and it’s frustrating that it doesn’t even look good, and THEN you’ve got the part of my mind going “lol hey we should animate Mr. Puzzles to All Eyes On Me-“ which in turn causes me to break down because NO, NO WE CAN’T DO THAT RIGHT NOW AHAHAH ARE YOU INSANE. If I start another animation project on TOP of what I’m SUPPOSED TO BE WORKING ON that’s called procrastinating and it’s making everything HARDER AAAAAA. So what’s better then starting a whole new animation project? Singing about the idea instead so I’ll feel content and be able to keep focusing on what I actually need to. Everyone wins! :3
…..anyways sorry to those who just recently came to my blog. I promise I’m not always this unhinged in my posts, I hope I don’t scare you away. Just been a lot on my mind recently. I like writing/talking to myself to get feelings and thoughts outta the system so please don’t take it all too seriously. Just helping myself process information is all :D
So enjoy the very unorganized song cover while I try to get better at time management skills
#I’m starting to think I may need to test for neurodivergence…..huh…..#either that or I’m just adapting the chronically online sillies#thing is I don’t have sensory issues or anything that’s an immediate indicator despite the fact I linger in fandoms#like drawing My Little Pony for my entire life? Is that normal?#and being able to memorize every fandom song I come across but cry over not understanding/remembering math formulas?#and I guess I stim with my hands but it’s very subtle and a specific motion I don’t see mentioned often#I call it ‘twirling my wrist’ while having a pencil or pony/object in my hand#which is different then what people say hand flapping is?#but it does happen unconsciously when I’m enthused or mind wandering#all I know is that if I do end up being neurodivergent it’s on a low end of a spectrum…#because there’s not much to go off of at the moment :/#I can read facial expressions and navigate conversations carefully but like…guess I’m always hiding aspects of myself from others in fear#….man I don’t know absolutely no clue jksjskp uhm 🥲#not gonna make claims in worry of being false on this so#guess I’m neurotypical until proven otherwise#I mean that’s how it’s been my entire life so far anyways#more likely it’s just my depression lingering around making it hard to focus on finishing one task#random#hplonesome art
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