#I am sitting here crying while Onion purrs in my lap like a little lawnmower

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Today is one of those days where my heart is full and there's a cat on my lap and the world and my life just looks so bright I could burst into tears. I have the most amazing people who I get to share my life with. My spouse is asleep on the bed near me, and my partner system is telling me about a webinar they're attending, and earlier I got to share the different frogsongs of my state with my boyfriend.

There's homework on my computer that isn't painful to do and is even a little bit fun. I have a 37-day Duolingo streak for learning Esperanto, which I'm learning together with my boyfriend. My best friends, part of my polycule and people I consider family, are sending out wedding invitations sometime in the next few months. I had brownies for breakfast, and later I'm going to make a really nice lunch while my spouse does dishes next to me and we blast music and sing songs together. Tonight I might get to pull my partner system into a call and play video games together, or work on projects together, or just get to enjoy spending time talking with them. When I look around my bedroom from where I'm sitting, I can see the marks and memories left by my friends, partners, and my own adventures on everything in my home: my poker set from my metamour and housemate. The books Chimeras' bought me on a date. My spouse's saxophone. A comic drawn by Orion. My pride flags and a pride tail from our local parade, the board games that we bring to in-law game nights, a copy of Inky Paws that my spouse printed out at his job and showed off to all his coworkers.

I couldn't have imagined living a life like this when I was a teenager. I couldn't imagine loving being alive like this, or being so happy every day. Sometimes things are scary and stressful, especially financially, but I am so, so fucking grateful to still be here. I'm so glad. Holding on through the bad times was more worth it than I could have ever hoped for, than I could ever have imagined.