#I am also sad I didn't understand a lot of video game shit growing up

[clit-a-cola]

Girl on twitter posting comics about "transmasc dysphoria" and it's just about how she didn't get to play video games as a kid and that makes her sad

The added "this is totally not girls like x/boys like y" but then says it's upsetting to know video games weren't marketed towards her cause she wasn't a boy and it's like

I feel really bad for her but also it's like.....I can't understand not seeing the forest for the trees here like.....girl....

[whatifyoulivelikethat]

an anon in the midst of depression

something that really sucks is that rn i'm going thru The Depression of My Life and my parents don't seem to get it. i wish my mum would try to listen to what i say and not just make everything about her, you know? ever since she divorced my dad, everything bad is somehow about him and she is always the victim. it's really tiring. i am tired, really fucking tired. i try to see the bright side of things, but even reading fanfiction is hard for me right now. fuck, i can't shower or eat or even sleep right. i legit don't know what to do, how to go on. alone. if this is life, how do i live it? if this is how it's gonna be, i'd rather just drop dead.

idk just felt like letting this out of my chest. it's not your responsability.

(i've been watching euphoria and jk's euphoria started playing and my brain did a whole thing and i ended up here)

bye 👋🏻👋🏿

I'm writing this while listening to Spring Day.

I know what you're going through right now is not my responsibility. I know you didn't ask for advice. I don't think you sent this to even get an answer. XD I simply felt like saying something, so I hope you're fine with that.

To be honest, life doesn't have answers. It has a fucking lot of questions and you can choose to find answers too them... or not. You're not required to have an answer to everything. And you won't. That's the nature of living.

I wish I could tell you someone will "get it". It would be nice if someone could understand. Truth is, no one will get it. That's because there's only one you and only one life you live in your own way. No one can live your life for you. When you are no longer here, no one gets all the "good" or the "bad" you left behind. It simply disappears into nothing.

Your mother went through a divorce and the way she copes is to complain about her ex to her child. You happen to be there; you have familial ties / a sense of responsibility / financial needs / etc, so you are forced to listen. It's probably not the best thing for her to do, but it is easy. Everyone wants to take the easy way out. It's easy. Right or wrong, the path of least resistance usually wins. I don't know your mother. I don't think she's a bad person. She's tired, like you.

When I was going through the darkest time in my life, I too felt alone. I was alone. When you're there, you don't want anyone else to be there with you, in fear of lashing out at them, in fear of them feeling what you feel, in fear of believing that this is it, that you will never have the strength to walk forward again. Was it you who made yourself this weak, surely not, and you think it's something else, it has to be, but deep down you fear - what if this is me, what if this is all I am?

It's so hard when you realize that you are, indeed, alone.

But, you know, I'll tell you a secret.

Even if all these things are true, even if all these shadows are within you, it means that you can also be the light. The concept of darkness wouldn't exist unless the concept of light is true. Winter comes. It is freezing, everything dies, but spring will come too, and everything grows back, slowly.

I know it's true, because I was there too.

I'll tell you though, the light that you find is yours, well, it might not be what you expect. It might not be that grand. It might just be the simple happiness of eating the food you enjoy, playing video games you love, writing porn about seven guys in Korea that don't know you exist! XD

It's okay to live a simple life, to have your own morals, to feel happy or sad when there's no reason to, to laze about and feel not so great, to feel what you feel right now. Funnily enough, there might come a point to where you're tired of being depressed. At least that is what happened to me. I got to a point where I thought, what am I doing, so what if I'm weird and not quite right in the head and don't have any big aspirations? So fucking what? You can make mistakes, you can feel like shit, you can make bad choices and eat a whole box of family size Cheez-Its by yourself in only two days.

I mean... maybe don't let that be your brand...

But, also, I can't really stop you, can I? XD

You can just be, whatever you want, however you want, whoever you want. And maybe you are not where you want to be right now, but you can be tired, you can be sad, you can try again tomorrow, or in a couple hours, or whenever you're ready.

You can.

(I hope you heard that in Yoongi's voice. :D)

I made it. I think you can make it too, if you believe a little more. And, anytime you want, you can come here. We can watch the snow fall as we wait for your winter to pass, little by little.