#I am a little upset. and i think thats warranted lmfao

[plumsilk]

superficial immature vent belo bc i dont. communicate well. but.whateverrrrr

getting upset @ my sibling which SUCKS bc shes like thee only person i have direct brain 2 brain communication with and its like i value you having your own life and everything but its just like any time i try to spend time w her it feels like i am physically kidnapping her. and its like she moved farther but therefore closer by train and no matter how u cut it its less than an hour either eway and its like Just Tell Me you dont want to spend time w me. like if this isnt a prioritiy just stop entertaining me !!!! and i hate getting resentful like this . its like im the only one putting effort into our siblingship sometimes?? Like a family call debrief and sending me a tiktok a few times a day is not it. And like i appreciate being folded into the social circle from time to time but like if u KNOWWW this isnt how i operate best. and i do all these things for her and yet!!!!!! i brought food at work i come help cook i go buy groceries i bring medicine when shes sick or having a bad pain day and its not like i hate doing these things id do these for most ppl in my life especially family but like !!!!!! LOL ??????? i feel like im bending over backwards for her attention and she doesnt even kno it. and i had this whole blo up about the same thing like last year and im like. Barely anything has changed. like how can u make an excuse that u cant even see me one on one when im so so so available all the time. for 4 months straight. like make that make sense.