#I also always adore the guilty vampire troupe

[leafatlaw]

one thing about me is that I will love always love character that has really bad luck

[ray935sworld]

Alright ok, I finally read through your last fic the way god intended (with my full attention, I skimmed it the first time) and have come back with my thoughts and feelings

First off, masterpiece, absolutely wonderful, 10/10 will definitely read it again and again. I am also a sucker for vampires, my dearest beloved troupe. I also wanna mention that when I skimmed the fic, I skimmed all the wrong parts. I saw the line "I thought you were hungry" and ran with the idea that Dani was completely aware of the events about to unfold. Tickle me surprised when I read the ending. But rereading it made so much more sense, and I've learned my lesson not to read bits and pieces.

But I also genuinely love the idea that the sentence "I thought you were hungry" can be interpreted in both ways. It's a double entendre and I love it. Foreshadowing in the best way. And you can view what Jorge said, "Like the snack that you are" in a similar way. I adore details like that so so much. (I do it a lot myself so I gotta point it out)

I also love that you made all the warnings and signs that Jorge was a vampire subtle instead of overly obvious. Because yes, for a person who doesn't even know his bf being a vampire was a possibility, those could all clearly be normal things, especially in these specific. I always like a subtle vampire as opposed to it being kinda overly obvious. Like yes, pls, make it extremely possible for a vampire to completely blend in, it's so much fun that way (but I also know the inverse is just as fun for the author cause it's a challenge, but that's neither here nor there)

My previous point is emphasized by the fact that Dani enjoys feeling akin to prey. Like babes, if only you knew you were the actual prey. And again with the continued double entendres. Truly, they had me screaming cause Dani IF ONLY YOU KNEW WHAT HE COULD AND WILL DO. Like the words "I want you to feed from me" genuinely made me do a lap around my living room cause Dani you are right there. Right there on the tip of the cliff, about to jump off into vampire sea, and oh, was he about to jump.

Also the question, the "Can I?" CAUSE AHHH ofc he asked, but ofc the context for that question wasn't there. I mean I feel like you implied Jorge's vampire switch just got turned on the second Dani said the unintentional consent to bite him so we get this might be an addled brain here for Jorge (and then ofc Dani saying stop being what pulls him out of it again like wow cool thanks, I'm so very normal about this). And Dani's unending trust for Jorge making him agree without even knowing to what. Screaming crying wtf. And the continued trust after the bite WAHHH OMG I HATE THEM. Vampires and feeling so terribly guilty about drinking from people they care about is an idea I hold near and dear to my heart.

(If my partner doesn't tell me I'm their favorite drug, I don't want them)

(Me 🤝🏻 🐢 Feeding your big beautiful author brain with our analysis (although mine is done half tired and right before bed))

Oh I absolutely LOVE it when people come back with their thoughts and feelings. Those are my favorite comebacks <3

And I saw your tags! I was actually thinking about responding to them a little later to "remind" you and maybe hope to get some thoughts out of you, hehe, but I was already SUPER happy with what you wrote then BUT THIS!!! OH explosion! I didn't expect that! Yippieeee!!!! <3

Oh I giggled when I read you skimmed the wrong parts. (I do that too sometimes) And I totally agree. I love the double meanings of those phrases, especially in that context. Like eat me, feed from me, suck me. So making a "misunderstanding" based on that was one of the fun parts for me. It is like the melt between human and vampire because for both those phares exist but mean something different. (and vampire jorge knows them in human context too btw nevermind) I'm kind of a nerd when it comes to analysis and double meaning and all that so it makes me so happy that you pointed that out. And like you said - Dani thinking he's the prey and then he's the ACTUAL PREY. I'm sorry. I know I wrote this BUT THINK ABOUT IT. Half the time I was writing this the concept in my head was "Dani thinks he's getting a blowjob/ eaten out on the kitchen counter... *BOOM* blood lost." I mostly have silly concept that I then write as serious as possible

OOOOH subtle vampirism is sooo good! Don't get me wrong, fang drop and just straight up showing it, hits hard. But I adore hiding it and having a more careful approach. Maybe a little bit insecurity about it towards a human partner? What do you think? I like the difference in it. There's like the side of the forcefully, bloody vampire aspects and the soft, almost silent side of hiding it. And Box mixed together is like AAAAAAAAAH..... And then the fear of being tossed away by their human partner and them being scared. I LOVE THOSE. I really want to write something like that in the 2nd chapter!

Okay *forehead kiss* that's it. I love you. I love it when people point out stuff I implied but not specifically stated LIKE YES. YOU GET IT. HOLY SHIT YOH GET MY WRITING. *excited little girl scream* okay the moment when Dani agrees after the "can I?" is TOTALLY where the vampire takes over. Like before he was already pulled in but then there's no stopping him anymore.

The original version was actually without that. So Jorge starts kissing down Dani's neck after those two sided comments and he just bites down. But then I reread it and especially with the struggles (I had written more fear from Dani in that moment too) it just seemed too much. And it made the trust afterwards seem unrealistic. So it just didn't add up. (I mean obviously the other alternative would have been Dani escaping - unrealistic because of the blood loss - or him being scared but I couldn't bring myself to write that without writing it in one go with them making up and I didn't had the time for that) and I tamed it down and added the "unknowing consent" part to make it make sense.

HAHA SAAAME. Vampires feeling guilty for drinking/ hurting their loved ones vs. the loved ones still loving them and wanting to care about them and still trusting them. I absolutely love this slight self hate despite acceptance for what they are (vampires/ supernatural creatures in general) but they feel guilty for what they are forced to do. And then the loved one juts NOT caring. Like not negatively caring. Caring more in a "I need to know what you are to take care of you" way. It's so dear to me. I need to write more about that.

(me hugging you and 🐢 because it means the world to me and I absolutely love to read people's thoughts cause I feel like you care about what I write and I can yapp some more)

[oftachancer]

20 random things that may surprise you // tagged by @genginger

1. Do you make your bed? No. I am always the first one out of it, so I can’t. Back in the day, I used to, though. It was a nice ritual.

2. What’s your favorite number? 42, for obvious reasons. Also 9... not sure why exactly.

3. What’s your job? I used to be a professional actor and voice over artist. Now I do a number of things, most notably editing large projects for graduate and PhD students, sign language, and playing with animals.

4. If you could, would you go back to school? I did, in fact, go back to school to increase my fluency in American Sign Language. I would have loved to stay there permanently. I love school. I took so many unnecessary electives while I was working on my language credits and all of them were fascinating. My favorites were anthropology and forensics.

5. Can you parallel park? Yes. Got it perfect on my driver’s test. Never had a problem with it since.

6. A job you had which would surprise people? For a while, I worked with a troupe that went into disenfranchised communities, including prisons, and helped them build theater to express their experiences.

7. Do you think aliens are real? Statistically, sure. Is it ever going to matter to us, by those same statistics? Probably not.

8. Can you drive a manual car? Much to my husband’s chagrin, no. I learned on an auto. I have tried a couple times and did okay in parking lots, but don’t feel comfortable taking it on the road. I also never learned to ride a bike.

9. What’s your guilty pleasure? Pleasure should never be guilty, right? So a pleasure that I don’t always open with because people might judge me for it: Gilmore Girls and Vampire Diaries. When I’m sick with a head cold, that is my medication.

10. Tattoos? Do they exist? Yes. Do I have them? Yes. Only one of them is in a place most folks can see it.

11. Favorite color? I’ve never really understood the concept of a favorite color, since I switch between them depending on moods. I guess blue, because I love the sky and the ocean and misty, foggy days.

12. Things people do that drive you crazy? Hmmm. Bullies irk me. Making someone else feel small just ends up making everyone smaller and it’s rare that people who behave this way ever really know the long term effects they’ve had on their victims. It’s frustrating and upsetting and I know a lot of brilliant people who have been effected by the unkindness and belittling behavior of others. 

13. Any Phobias? No. I mean, I have fears, but that’s not the same as a phobia. My fears don’t prevent me from doing things. I used to be terrified of heights, but then I fell down a street grate and ended up relatively okay, so I decided I could probably cross that off the list.

14. Favorite childhood sport? Does tap dancing count as a sport?

15. Do you talk to yourself? Ah... kind of? I talk aloud when I’m writing dialogue so I can feel rhythm and cadence and dialects... Does that count?

16. What movie do you adore? I cannot possibly answer this with one. So, in no particular order: State and Main, Defending Your Life, Deadpool, National Velvet (OG)

17. Do you like doing puzzles? Yes. I love them! And our cats love making them more challenging.

18. Favorite kind of music? If I had to pick by genre, it would be drinking songs, sea shanties, and nerd music (like Coulton-esque). I don’t actually know what the other genres entail. My husband is the music person in our house and I like most of what he finds.

19. Tea or coffee? Both.

20. The first thing you remember you wanted to be when you grew up? A dog walker. And now I do that for pocket money and outdoor time! Dream fulfilled!

Thanks for the tag! That was fun! Tagging forward (if you want to) @johaeryslavellan @solas-disapproves @mhandersmyheart and anyone else who wants to.