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sourtomatola ¡ 3 months ago
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Solar was afraid that after he was falsely arrested and imprisoned for a month, his poor little ornamental pumpkin plant would die without him. To his shock, it instead gained sentience.
I was trying to think of a metaphor for how it must have felt for solar, making something that was basically alive but not sentient, only for it to gin sentience on its own...anyways this is what came to mind. Also instead of dying he was falsely accused and arrested
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lesbiansanemi ¡ 8 months ago
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I have started to accept I am a bit more (re a lot more) psychologically unstable than I thought for a long time and man…. I’m tired of it
#I was in a relatively good mood today#work hasn’t been too bad and I get two days off starting tomorrow#(it’s rare for me to get consecutive days so I’m excited!)#plus my time off request for a weekend in may got approved and I’m super excited for the plans that are happening on that weekend#and then my roommate messaged me bitching about my cat and now I’m spiraling#hate everything hate myself anxiety levels skyrocketed feeling the intense need to upend/annihilate my entire life and start from scratch#questioning anyone who has ever said they care about me etc etc etc and it’s like wow! because of one vague text message!#this is not a normal response haha! and now that I’m aware of that#I’ve become a lot more intensely aware that these insane mood drops actually happen quite frequently for me#issue is to do anything about this I need to see a psychologist (which I’m trying to work on anyways)#but the only diagnosis I have is for adhd and idk how to go into psychiatric care like#PLEASE PUT ME ON MEDS PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PUT ME ON DRUGS AND I DONT MEAN LIKE 10 MILIGRAMS OF PROZAC TYPE SHIT#GIVE ME MOOD STABILIZERS OR AN ANTIPSYCHOTIC OR SOMETHING I AM BEGGINGGGGG I CANT FUNCTION LIKE THIS ANYMORE#I’m also mildly concerned (being afab) that if I go in pursing certain diagnoses I’ll get slapped with a bpd diagnosis#(and obviously I don’t mean that in the sense of bpd bad or I could NEVER have bpd or anything like that)#(I just mean I really don’t think I have bpd and I don’t want to be approached from the angle of needing treatment for that cuz I don’t#think it will help. if I have ANY cluster b disorder it’s def aspd lol. lmao.)#but. yeahhhhhhhhh. I’m tired of this and I’m tired of having no treatment and being in medicated#I’m tired of pretending I can function like this forever cuz obviously I can’t lol#and eventually (probably soon) it’s gonna burn me out and I’m gonna crash so hard and uh. bad things are gonna happen 😭#kaz rambles
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the-californicationist ¡ 1 year ago
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Guile & Guilt (Ch. 06)
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Johnny texts you while he's deployed, but when he calls you one night, you are forced to face your consequences.
MDNI/18+
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OCTOBER, MONDAY MORNING, TWO WEEKS LATER
Your apartment was bathed in the cold gray light of a foggy morning, and you curled your duvet closer around you trying to stave off the dawn’s chill. You’d been awake for a while, which was very uncharacteristic of you. Usually more of a late riser, the only reason for your early bird behavior was Johnny MacTavish. 
He was three hours ahead of you, and every morning, when the sun came up in the Urzikstani hillside, you were sent an image of Johnny’s hand, clutching whatever his breakfast was that day. Sometimes it was a tin cup of black coffee, other times you’d get a banana or a protein bar. But, it was always his giant hand and a sherbet orange sky. This morning, it was cloudy and dark, and his breakfast of choice was a slab of toast, smeared with butter and jam. 
MoChroi: sunrise_sand.jpg
You: wow. quite the delicacy today. cant believe you found actual jam out there
Mo Chroi: bit suspicious. when the food gets better the missions get worse
You: uh oh
Mo Chroi: dinnae fash thief xx
Mo Chroi: writing today?
You: yep. and meeting with my prof
Mo Chroi: what ya got on then
Mo Chroi: give us a show bonnie
Mo Chroi: is it naughty?? lol
You: nope
You: rangers_tee.jpg
You sent a photo of your torso, cutting out your head, wearing his own tee shirt. His typing bubbles percolated along the bottom of the screen immediately. Then, an indignant response:
Mo Chroi: thief!! xx
You: youre the one who stole my hair tie
Mo Chroi: hairtie.jpg
Mo Chroi: needed a hostage
Mo Chroi: your bad habits are rubbin off. stole cap’s clothes out of the shower this morning
Mo Chroi: price_hat.jpg
You: you learn quick mo chroi
His typing bubbles appeared, and then they disappeared. You watched them pop up in the chat and then vanish three more times until finally all you got was silence. This was a common occurrence, so you tried not to overthink it. Over the past two weeks of texting with him, you knew he disappeared sometimes. He’d get a call to go into the field, or there would be some crisis. You wondered if his captain had discovered his prank. 
The room was still cold, and you were reluctant to leave your cocoon of warmth, but you needed to write. You had promised yourself that you’d go into the office early today before your meeting with your major professor. After a deep sigh and some very challenging mental gymnastics, you stuck a leg out and onto the frigid concrete floor.
Your apartment was very modern. So modern, in fact, that it had been a challenge to make it feel homey. There was very little room inside for anything more than a queen bed, a short futon, and your desk. Your bathroom was sleek and full of brutalist, functional, concrete stylings, but the kitchen was barely big enough for a sink and a toaster oven. You had kept the futon for guests, not that you had many (any) visitors, but aside from the stacks of books in the corners of each room, your entire studio was practical to a fault. 
But, it was enough for you and your rescue cat, Marlowe, so you didn’t complain.
On the wall opposite the front door, a huge plexiglass window overlooked the River Kelvin, conveniently situated right across from some student housing so you could access the bus. Not having a car went against your Floridian roots, but you’d fallen in love with the ease of public transportation. 
After throwing on an oversized sweater and a pair of fleece-lined leggings, you slipped on your wellies and headed to the bus stop. You’d brought a big thermos of coffee, ready to face the day. 
Your phone buzzed again.
Pidge: I’m so excited to see you this weekend!! :D
You: me too! is hammie picking me up after all or no
Pidge: Yes, I told him to be at the platform at 4.
You: cool 
Pidge: Have you spoken with my brother?
You paused for a moment, riding the elevator and staring at your phone. You didn’t want to lie to her, but you probably shouldn’t tell her the truth. The truth was that you’d been texting her brother every day since he left for leave. You went with a half-truth instead:
You: yeah a few times why
She did not respond. You waited for the other shoe to drop like a blindfolded prisoner waits for their firing squad. The bus came to your stop, and you climbed on, sitting on the carpeted seat closest to the door, knowing your stop was only three away. 
When you got to your office, your phone buzzed again. You set your bag and your coffee down before you even looked at it, avoiding touching your cell as if it had thorns. 
You flipped over the screen.
Mo Chroi: make it to the office?
You: office.jpg
Mo Chroi: have a good day today thief
Mo Chroi: helicopter1.jpg
Mo Chroi: going on a wee trip. afk xx
You: promise xx
Mo Chroi: promise xx
Promise. Promise. It was you and Johnny’s little code. You hadn’t liked hearing about his “little trips” in the beginning, especially after he had shown you a photo of his truck, riddled with bullet holes. You used to say “good luck”, but you didn’t like that sound of that. You hoped luck had nothing to do with it. So, you just asked him to promise to text you back or to promise to be safe. And he always replied that he promised he would. Now, it had shortened to your one-word ritual. You always said it and he always said it back. 
Another buzz:
Pidge: No reason. He has my phone charge the little nugget.
You: omg lol 
You were not laughing out loud. If anything, you were sighing in relief. 
It took most of the morning, but you fell into a routine. You had your meeting, came back, and wrote some more. Lunch was a pre-packaged lunch box from the student center and a refill on your coffee. You missed dinner. The sun set on you as you finished a critical section of your thesis, looking it over for flow and mistakes. 
Worn out, and finally feeling hungry again, you checked your phone on your way back to the bus stop. No new messages. You waited for the bus, flipping through his photos again as if you would have forgotten them from when you looked at them from last night. Or the night before last. 
You stopped looking at them, challenging yourself to have a non-Johnny thought in your head for once.
Maybe you would make a ramen with eggs in it tonight. 
Maybe he’ll text you back. 
You could watch another episode of that K-drama you liked. 
Maybe he’ll send you a picture of him shirtless.
You could go for a run.
Maybe he will run his tongue back over your —
The bus came. You blocked out your thoughts from your mind, desperate to regain some semblance of control. 
THURSDAY NIGHT
It had been three days, and you still hadn’t heard from him. You tried not to think about all of the terrible reasons why that might be the case. But, you did. You thought about them all the time. Every time you checked your phone or read an email or scrolled through your feeds; it was the only thing you thought about. 
You had his shirt on again, eating leftover Chinese on your futon. You were thinking about all of the things you needed to take care of before tomorrow. It was Pidge’s bridal shower weekend and you were trying to wrangle all the final touches together. You’d rented out Ettrick’s, at Pidge’s request, and you had sent the invites two weeks ago. Almost everyone had RSVP’d yes, so you were looking at nearly 45 people to host. The custom bridal cookies were set for pick up when Hamish took you into town tomorrow afternoon, and the champagne was paid for. And you were dreading it. 
You were excited to be there for Brigette. She had always been there for you. When you first moved to Scotland, you were well and truly alone. But, she met you for lunch almost every day after class, claiming to need her caffeine fix. But, as time went on, you realized she wanted to be friends. Having no one and being in a new country was so tough, but she had made it feel so easy. So, even though you hated the prim and proper social situation of a shower, you resolved to tough it out. 
You put the half-eaten Chinese back in the fridge and climbed into bed. Your phone buzzed as you went to put it on the charger.
Mo Chroi: you up?
Your heart stopped for a moment, making your breath hitch in your chest. You fumbled with your phone, rushing to open his message.
Mo Chroi: camels.jpg
You: omg! are those REAL
You: shes not a camel but ill trade you one critter pic for a Marlowe pic
You: marlowethecat.jpg
Mo Chroi: her cheeks are brilliant lol so big
You: so your mission went okay?
Mo Chroi: lol yeah. and we got the guy who owned the camels to take a cool pic of us. can you tell which one’s me?
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You: gotta be number 3
Mo Chroi: how’d you know
You: your wide shoulders. and you always stand like that
Mo Chroi: like my shoulders do you
You: yep 
You: you should send me a selfie
There was a long pause. You were a little afraid that you’d overstepped a boundary. Sure, his long, hungry tongue had been buried between your legs three weeks ago, eating you like he was starving, but people were cagey about their online privacy. You backtracked:
You: if you want to. nbd if not
Mo Chroi: selfie.jpg
You checked the image, and your heart sank like a stone. Johnny wore a green and yellow bruise over his eye, and his head had been shaved.
You: you okay? bruise looks nasty
Mo Chroi: you should see the other lad
You: and they shaved you?
Mo Chroi: got a nasty wee cut on the back of my head and doc sheared me like a damn sheep
He sent you a series of frowny faces and sheep emojis, and you felt a wave of calm settle in your chest. The latent fear was still there, and would be until you saw him again, but it was good to know he was alright. 
FRIDAY MORNING
You were back on the bus, toting around your overnight bag, planning on heading to the train straight after your colloquium lecture this afternoon. Your phone had been beeping at you all morning. Johnny was begging for you to record your talk, asking you to let him sit in on your “class”. 
You: johnny its not a class! its just a lecture. we have to give them every now and then to show what we’ve been doing with our research. its not fun. you’d be bored.
Mo Chroi: meirleach! i dinnae care how fun it is. let me see!!
You: campus.jpg
You: look. its all stuffy and campusy. you wouldnt like it
Mo Chroi: youre breaking my heart lass xx
You smiled. He was so bright, and he made you feel like you were so very special. It was no wonder he was such a danger to single women everywhere. Your confidence was soaring.
When you made it to your office, you sent him another picture of your current work. You were writing a short paper on German poems, not really related to your thesis, for a conference coming up in the spring.
You: look. you dont even speak german! it would be like torture
You: german_poem.jpg   
Mo Chroi: so cool. im beggin you. let me watch you. i won’t say a word. 
You: maybe if you come back a little early from leave next time, you can sneak into one
Mo Chroi: if i survive this training, i will. 
Mo Chroi: thinking about seeing you up there teaching. got me all turned on
You sent him an emoji with a shocked look on its face, feigning coy shyness. He was relentless.
Mo Chroi: think youd let me be teachers pet?
You: more like class clown
Mo Chroi: you did seem fond of all of my tricks. wanna see what else i can do?
You: lecture_hall.jpg
You: i have to prep for this talk. keep your naughty thoughts to yourself soldier
Mo Chroi: yes maam 
Mo Chroi: wait!
You: what
Mo Chroi: before you go. what color knickers are you in
Mo Chroi: just trying to imagine your lecture 
Mo Chroi: with accuracy
Mo Chroi: cmon lass. for extra credit
You smiled down at your phone again, knowing your answer was going to win this little back and forth game he was playing.
You: im not wearing any this morning. gonna do my washing at your place.
Mo Chroi: jesus mary and joseph
You: and all the saints?
Mo Chroi: every one of them xx
Your lecture went off without a hitch. You earned yourself a few crowd questions and a round of polite applause. Stopping back by your office on the way out, you grabbed your laptop and headed for the bus stop. You’d forgotten your phone was on silent, and it wasn’t until you made it to the train station that you realized it. Two missed calls from Pidge and three texts from her brother.
You checked the texts as you returned her call, unable to hold yourself back from seeing what he wrote to you.
She answered quickly,
“Hey! Are you on your way?”
“Yep,” you replied, “I’ll be there around three forty-five, I think.”
“Okay, perfect. I just wanted to tell you that we’re adding two more to the list. Anjali invited Steph and Tiff. Is that alright, babes?”
You tried not to groan directly into the mouthpiece,
“Yes! The more the merrier.”
What were you going to do about the seating chart? You’d figure it out later. 
“Fantastic! You’re amazing, hen. You know that?”
“Anything for you, bestie.”
She kissed you over the phone and hung up. You let out that sigh you’d been holding. As much as you loved her, you were ready for your friend’s wedding to be over with..
You checked the messages from Johnny, looking to escape from your thoughts again. He was the perfect distraction.
Mo Chroi: oh fuck no
Mo Chroi: its dog day for training
Mo Chroi: army_dog.jpg
You: you dont like dogs?
Mo Chroi: not these
Mo Chroi: had a bad time with attack dogs in russia a few tours back
The train arrived and you got settled. You weren’t sure how to respond. It was back again, that funny feeling in your chest about him being in constant danger. You didn’t know how to handle it. It wasn’t like you could ask him to stop. That was his job, and he was one of the best. He’d been enlisted on this elite task force, and even though you barely understood what that meant, you knew it was special. What right did you have to stand in the way of his greatness? The world needed Sergeant Johnny MacTavish, and you were just a distraction. 
You waited for him to text again, a distraction for you and you for him. A two-way street. That’s all it was, right? How could it be anything more? 
You thought about his sister. She’d been so painfully clear about her boundaries. You imagined telling her you liked him, telling her you wanted to date him. She’d explode. There’d be Scottish yelling, and Scottish fighting, and Scottish siblings rowing at each other all over the house. You couldn’t do that to her, especially not now. So, you just went back to distracting him.
You: did you get bitten?
Mo Chroi: yeah, right on the belly. those bastards. can you see it 
Mo Chroi: shirtless.jpg
You gasped audibly, hoping no one had heard you on the train. You’d already seen him naked, but having a picture of his bare, muscled torso on your phone was another thing entirely. You glanced around, checking behind you and clutching your screen to your chest, holding it to you shamefully, praying no one saw it. 
You typed a message, then deleted it. You tried again, and then deleted it. You knew he could see your text bubbles popping up, and it embarrassed you to no end. Eventually, you decided to just be honest.
You: youre so damn hot
The wait was going to kill you. Seconds became minutes, which became hours, which became eons. You stared at the bottom of your message like it would disappear if you looked away. You opened the picture of his bare torso again, unable to stop yourself from indulging in his huge body. You knew how those muscles felt, and you wanted to feel them again.
He didn’t respond. Your heart sank like a rock. You felt the train screech to a halt at the station, and it took everything in you to pocket your phone and leave the car.
You marched down to meet Hamish, trying to control the look on your face. 
“Hey! Over here!” he called to you from the carpark.
You saw his smiling face and tried to match his energy,
“Hey! Thanks for coming.”
“You bet,” he said as he took your bags. 
“Can we stop by the bakery around the corner? They’ve got all the cookies and pastries we ordered for tomorrow.”
“Of course, lass. No problem. Hop in.”
Hamish drove you around, the perfect gentleman, carrying box after box of dessert for his fiance’s shower, storing them carefully in the boot of the car. 
“Wow, these smell incredible, don’t they,” he crooned, “Wish I could crash your wee party.”
“No boys allowed,” you said wryly, smiling at him, eliciting a genuine laugh.
The rest of the drive passed in companionable silence. He talked a little about his research, and you shared a bit about yours, mentioning your latest lecture. Otherwise, you checked your phone constantly. 
Then, just as you pulled into the driveway of the MacTavish house, you got a text.
Unknown: Hello this is Captain John Price. Sergeant MacTavish’s phone is dead, and he is making me text you the word: promise. 
You: oh thank you. can you tell him promise back?
Captain: Roger
Your stomach twisted for a different reason now. He wasn’t upset with you, which was a relief, but he had just shipped out on another mission. It was so sudden, it seemed like an emergency. You saved the captain’s number in your phone, just in case. 
After hugging Pidge and helping Hamish with the boxes, you unpacked your bags and started the laundry. You met Pidge in the living room, watching her put the finishing touches on some gift bags.
“These are cute,” you commented, feeling the soft ripple of the ribbons tied around the bags in your fingers. 
“Thanks,” she said as she fixed one of the bows, “Hope I made enough.” 
“They’ll live,” you smiled. 
“Hey, did you hear from Johnny again?”
“Uh…no, why?” You panicked.
“He said he doesn’t have my charger but now that muppet is not answerin’ me. Gonna pop him when he’s down for Christmas, I swear.”
“He’s coming back for the holidays?” You asked, a little too enthusiastically. 
Pidge cut her eyes up at you briefly, responding in a measured voice,
“Yeah, just a week. Why?”
You wracked your brain for a reason, pretending to look at the calendar on your phone. Finally, you said,
“Think he’d drive me up from Glasgow? The train is awful at Christmas.”
“Oh,” she sighed, “God, he’s so irresponsible, babes. Not sure I trust him to get you here on time. But, I’ll threaten him. He’ll do it for me. He’s been so accommodating lately. Johnny boy is like a new man.”
“Oh, really?” You weren’t sure where this conversation was going, but you pried anyway.
“Did you know he paid for the rehearsal dinner? The whole damn thing! Having it at the wee distillery and everything. Right proper party we’ll be havin’. Cannae believe it.”
The Auchentoshan Distillery was Old Kilpatrick’s pride and joy. He’d spent a pretty penny if he’d booked it out for her.
“He loves you,” you confessed softly.  
“He tries to,” she said a little bitterly.
You watched her pack up the bags, and you began to wonder about their relationship with each other. It was clear to you that there was some immovable object that was being pressed upon by some unstoppable force. They were at a quiet, bubbling impasse, ready to boil over at any moment. Yes, they loved each other. But, Johnny and Pidge had diverged somewhere, and it was a rift that needed to be mended. 
The washer buzzed. You went to move over the clothes. 
“I’m heading over to grab the girls. Wanna come?” Pidge asked you, her keys in hand. 
“No room,” you observed, realizing they wouldn’t all fit in the car.
“Ugh, guess you’re right, hen. No worry, we’ll be right back. I’m excited to have a girls’ night.”
“Me, too,” you lied. 
Well, it was a half-lie. You didn’t mind a girls’ night. It was more the fact that you’d have to hide your phone from view as you waited for Johnny to report he was back safe and sound. 
After Pidge left, you crawled into his sheets. The memories of you and your soldier came flooding back again, but this time they swirled together with all of the complexities that you were facing. The simplicity of that brief night you shared had become warped by reality, and you realized you needed to come to terms with your emotions before you got hurt. 
FRIDAY EVENING
Your phone buzzed in your hand, waking you. It was warm from being on the charger and covered up by your body. You hoped that didn’t break anything. Sleep had taken you over like a surging wave. You didn’t realize how exhausted you were from your week. 
Unknown: heyyyyy this is soaps mate kyle. he wanted to let you know we’re back. 
You: thanks for letting me know
Kyle: you bet
You were kicking yourself. You should have asked if he was okay. Just when you were about to ask Kyle to check on him, you heard the keys jingle in the door. Swinging your feet to the wooden floor, you got out of bed and met the gaggle of ladies in the foyer.
Cheek kisses, bright hellos and how-are-yous filled the once-quiet house, and you pocketed your phone, trying to distance yourself from the pang of concern. 
You tried to keep up with the fast-paced conversation, but you weren’t the social butterfly that Pidge was. Anjali, Bekah, and Cherise were all gushing about their own lives, and you had very little to share. They were polite enough, asking you about your studies and pretending to care when you answered them.
“Oh, cool,” Cherise said, sipping on wine out of one of Pidge’s nicer glasses, “Poems are cool.”
“Yeah, I was Juliet in that one play,” Bekah said, proudly. 
“And she’ll never let us forget it either,” Anjali rolled her eyes, and everyone laughed.
They were quick to forget you again, turning back to their recent Tinder date disasters and successes. 
“And this bloke - the one with the beard thing - he ask me and this other girl to the same restaurant, on the same night! I thought she was gonna kill him right there in front of the maître de!” Anjali lamented.
Cherise smiled like a Cheshire cat, 
“Lachlan is taking me on his boat next weekend.”
“We know! Shut up about the boat, you slag,” Bekah clipped. 
Cherise shot back quickly, 
“You’re just mad ‘cause Soap hasn’t texted you today.”
You gave the girls your full attention now. You darted your eyes to Pidge who rolled them, but looked otherwise unbothered. Bekah turned her phone around and you saw the image she was eager to display,
“He’s on bloody thin ice. I asked for a pic of him in his uniform, and all he sent me was a picture of some nasty sand!”
Your chest clenched tight enough that you couldnt breathe. It was your picture. Your morning photo from a few days ago. He was holding his breakfast, outstretched, and you could even see your hair tie on his wrist, the rolling dunes of the desert stretching out before him into infinity. 
“Men, am I right?” Anjali finished her wine. 
Maybe she was right. 
SATURDAY MORNING
You’d slept beside Anjali that night, sharing the bed willingly but not enthusiastically. She had snored through most of it, and you’d barely gotten any sleep. It wasn’t just her snoring that kept you up. In fact, you were using her as a scapegoat. You had been thinking about Johnny. 
It was like you were having a war in your mind. On one hand, it was just a picture of some sand, but on the other, you had no idea how many texts they had shared before or after that. Your heart broke easily, shattering melodramatically, whining about how you weren’t special and that if you didnt control yourself, you’d be sorry for it. He was just a playboy, just like everyone said.
Your brain, however, begged you to see reason. He sent her a picture of sand, not his naked torso, and he had forced his teammates to text you your passcode when he went on his mission. Surely that was enough proof that he cared about you and not Bekah.
It wasn’t enough, said the heart. 
It has to be enough, said the head. 
It shouldn’t even be happening, said the soul. 
You watched the sun peek through the blinds just as they had when you’d been wrapped in Johnny’s arms, naked and warm against his pink skin. 
You sighed and got up to shower. 
The party was at two, so you had plenty of time. You made it over to Ettrick’s early to help set up, walking alone since you knew the others would be in heels and wouldn’t all fit in the car. You’d brought flats, sensible but stylish, and a comfortable, albeit sparkly, maxi dress. You felt like shit. Sleep would have been nice, you thought. 
Hamish had delivered all of the boxes for you this morning, and the wait staff at Ettrick’s was setting it out for you. You rearranged it as artfully as you could, and you were just about finished when your phone buzzed.
Mo Chroi: phone’s alive! sorry i disappeared on you thief. forgive me?
You: glad youre ok
You: party starts soon
You: cookies.jpg
You: dessert_table.jpg
Mo Chroi: wow! did you do all that? pigeon is gonna be chuffed
Mo Chroi: heading out to the next spot
Mo Chroi: helicopter2.jpg
You: want me to tell Bekah hi? she was waiting on you to text her back last night
Mo Chroi: ?? no 
Mo Chroi: why 
Mo Chroi: what did she say
Mo Chroi: thief? 
You: just that she was hoping you would text her back. idk
You thought about it for a little while before sending a final text.
You: i think she wanted more than just a sunrise. 
SATURDAY NIGHT
You had three missed calls from Johnny, but you were too busy trying to deal with gift unwrapping, keeping the peace at the over-crowded tables, and rushing out appetizer trays when the wait staff became too overwhelmed. It was chilly tonight, but you were sweating under your long dress. 
You thought about what you’d said to Johnny, and you were mad at yourself for trying to get a rise out of him. You didn’t want to be the one playing games, and you needed to curb your jealousy. He was allowed to text whoever he wanted, just like you were.
You: sorry. cant pick up. busy with your sister
You: champagne.jpg
Mo Chroi: answer my calls thief
Mo Chroi: i have to drive the rig but im calling you as soon as we get to our site
Mo Chroi: trucks.jpg
Mo Chroi: at least tell me when you get back. promise
You: promise
SUNDAY, 0200
You: i made it back to my apartment. hamish drove me. train was down for maintenance.
You: marlowe-in-a-bag.jpg
You: marlowe is mad that i was gone
Mo Chroi: im glad youre alright.
Mo Chroi: gaz took this at our training today
Mo Chroi: group_pic2.jpg
You: yall look tough
You: whos the one in the middle
Mo Chroi: thats the captain and ghost has the dog
Mo Chroi: go to bed thief. its late 
Mo Chroi: sunrise2.jpg
Mo Chroi: can i call you later? its important
You: ok
SUNDAY, NOON
You woke to the sound of rain. A loud peal of thunder pulled you from the darkness of your sleep. You would have stayed with Pidge, but you just couldn’t face his bed again. Hamish was happy to be your chauffeur, even after you learned that the train was out of service. You tried to buy him some gas, but he adamantly refused. 
A headache stung behind your eyes, drilling into you, punishing you for the champagne. You hadn’t been drunk, but it had been sweet, and now you were paying the price for your sugar rush. You checked your phone.
Pidge: hHad such a great night!!. Thanku for everytingf i lov youuuu!!
Pidge: omg Anji just boked inthe sink
You didn’t reply. She was probably still asleep, along with the rest of the household. There was nothing from Johnny, yet. It wasn’t unusual. He was busy with terrorism, you figured. He would text you if he wanted to text you. 
Digging in your freezer, you found some leftover soup and put it on to reheat. Your phone rang.
The selfie of you and Johnny at Glencoe flashed onto your screen. You let it ring again before you picked up.
“Hey,” you said softly, your voice still hoarse from sleep.
“You still asleep, thief. I’m sorry to wake you,” he didn’t sound sorry. 
“It’s okay,” you sighed, “Just making some soup. Rainy here. Cold.”
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He groaned, and you could hear the creak of a mattress in the background,
“Mm. Spent the whole day on my belly doing target practice. I miss home.”
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“Yeah? Looks sandy and hot. Too bad there’s no beach,” you stirred the soup.
“I miss you, mo mèirleach.”
You stopped stirring the soup. 
“I miss you, too.”
“Do you? Or are you cross about my texting Beks?”
“Both,” you went back to stirring the soup.
“Sent it to Hamish, too. You cross about tha’?”
You sent back silence. 
“And if I told you Bekah’s an old friend from grammar school, and that’s all she’ll ever be, would you believe me, lass?”
Silence was all you had to give, apparently. Finally, you poured the soup into a big bowl and set it down on your coffee table, shoving your papers and books aside, and said, 
“This soup looks amazing. Wanna see it?”
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“Thief. She’s just a friend.”
“I think there’s a song about this actually…”
“I think I’m fallin’ for you, and I need to know if you’re fallin’ for me, too.”
The bite of soup you were about to take hovered in your spoon, frozen in time. You could hear him breathing in your ear, waiting on your response. You could feel your heart shudder in your chest. 
“Johnny. We can’t…”
“Don’t. Don’t start with tha’ mess, thief. Tell me you aren’t fallin’ for me, and I’ll stop. No more texts. I’ll leave it alone.”
“She’ll never forgive me, Johnny. I don’t have anybody else, don’t you get that? I’m not even from here. I’m spending Christmas with her because I don’t have anywhere else to go. You have a whole town who loves you, and she’s your sister. She’ll forgive you in a heartbeat.”
“You have me, don’t you, thief?”
“Do I?”
It was his turn to push silence out through time and space, sending it up to the cellular satellites and mirroring it back down to you. Firing frustrated breathing noises across cables and wires and whatever other stupid fucking technology was happening to you right now. 
“Alright, lass.”
The phone beeped at you to inform you that the call had ended, but you kept it pinned on the shell of your ear, desperate for even a moment of that silence again. You regretted your honor the moment you’d held it up, and you were angry at yourself for keeping a promise you’d promised to keep. 
The phone clattered to the coffee table. The soup went cold. 
MONDAY MORNING
There was no sunrise text for you this time. Your phone didn’t have any notifications at all, in fact.  You made it all the way to the bus before you caved.
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You waited. Then, you waited some more. Nothing happened. You tried not to cry, and you failed. Luckily, the bus was empty, and the driver didn’t care about you enough to ask what was wrong.
WEDNESDAY MORNING
You: stuck in the library today. office is being cleaned.
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Again, you were met with the cold emptiness of staring at your own responses at the bottom of your messages. You tried not to feel the sting of it, but you failed at that, too.
THURSDAY MORNING
You: giving a lecture today. kinda nervous about this one.
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You: hope youre okay
FRIDAY MORNING
Your phone buzzed three times, waking you up with a jolt. It was still dark outside. You fumbled with your phone, rushing to see the messages. 
Kyle: Hey this is Kyle, Soap’s mate. We’re heading back to the black site, so it’ll be a few weeks until you hear from him. 
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You: thanks for telling me
Kyle: Soap asked me to tell you he promises??  I think thats what he said.
You: tell him i promise
You: and can you tell him that i made a mistake? he was right. about everything.
You: and im sorry.
Kyle: Will do!
You stared out of the window until the deep purples of night gave way to a cool pink morning glow, and you watched as the sun stretched its gentle arms up and over the river.
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Chapter 07
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miya-rin ¡ 2 years ago
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“oh cmon, you’re telling me you haven’t thought about dating me at least once?”
not again. “no atsumu, you dont think i have known you too long to not have realised how you act? i hate to say it but you just aren’t my type.” you’re lying. you have had a crush on him since your last year of middle school, however, miya atsumu may possibly have one of the most annoying personalities you have ever had the misfortune of coming across. for the past month he has taken pleasure in flirting with you to elicit a reaction and so far it hasn’t worked.
so far.
today you decided it was the perfect time to fluster him, i mean it would only be fair to flirt back with him after he has been trying to get your attention for so long, right?
“wow yn you’re going to break my heart, i get i can be a bit much but you don’t find me handsome at all?” the shit eating grin on his face somehow makes him look even more attractive, it highlights the warmth in his cheeks and brings out very faint crow’s feet that just look gorgeous on him. he’s making it way to hard now, you have to flirt with him.
“i mean you are very attractive atsumu, only an idiot would be dumb enough to lie about that.” you’re strategic with your moves, you have seen the way he reacts with his fans so you know the best ways to make him blush. simply placing your hand flat on his chest and staring at his lips for a few seconds is enough to give him a rosy complexion.
“you have such a pretty face, especially when you’re blushing, god i could look at your for hours,” oh he is red now, the plan is working. you start to run your hands down his abs very faintly, he can barely feel the touch of your fingers but he knows its there, he so badly wants to see where his stomach connects with you, but he cant seem to pull his eyes away from yours. “and don’t get me started on your voice, or that amazing body of yours.”
if he were to actually listen to what you are saying he would hear the very obvious sarcasm placed right in front of him, but right now he’s too busy trying to restrain himself from grabbing both sides of your face and kissing you in front of all his teammates. he feels your feather light touches start to ghost up to his head where your fingers make home in his yellow blonde hair, slightly scratching at his scalp in a way you know has him itching for more.
“yn…” he breathes out, he doesn’t really know what he would even say to you, but before he can even think of a sentence you’re starting again.
“and your hair, i love it, the way it compliments your eyes so perfectly, and how soft it is. i think—” your words are cut off by the ringing of the msby jackals gym bell, telling the team its time for a break from practice.
“oh, sorry tsumu,” removing your hand from his hair, he looks sort of disappointed, its cute to say the least. “i have to go help coach foster get the next activity ready.”
and so atsumu is left there completely stunned, a little sweaty and very red, although he claims its just from the intense practice. the only thing he can think to do is grab his phone and open the team groupchat to confess his dying love for their manager.
miya atsumu
holy shit guys
you’ll never guess what just happened
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miceonvenny ¡ 7 months ago
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I CANT I CANT THE LAST CHAPTERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
Spoilers below!!
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Stop cause their friendship(debateable) is so cute man. i love their stupid banter, their bickeringggg for two people that hate eachother they sure get on well i wanna see them happyyyy
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THE GUILTTTTTTT IM SOBBINGGGGG
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UGHHHHHHH I CANT EVEN PUT WHAT IM THINKING INTO WORDSSSS BUT THE CONSTANT RELATION TO DOGS IN THIS FIC REALLY MAKES THIS LINE HIT HARDER THAN IT ALREADY DOES
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GOOD GOD. THIS ENTIRE SEGMENT OF SNAPE IN THE INFIRMARY????? THERE WAS NO NEEEEDDDDDDDDDD HIS GRIEF. HIS MOURING. HIS ANGER. IT WAS ALL WRITTEN SO WELL. IT FEELS SO REAL
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SHUT UPPP IM LITERALLY ALREADY IN TEARSSSS YOU'RE MAKING IT SO MUCH WORSEEEEEE
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AND THESE TWO??????????????????? OH MY GOD. YOU MUST BE TRYING TO END ME??? THEYRE SO.. ARRGGSHSHGSGHSG I LOVE THEMM. HONESTLY, I JUST WANNA SEE BLAISE AND DAZAI HAPPY😭😭😭 I WANNA SEE ALL OF THEM HAPPYYY GET THEM A GROUP CHAT VIA OWLS RN.
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Honestly, only one thing to say to this one, and it's damn.
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THE COIN FLIPPINHGGGG. AGAIN MY BRAIN IS WAY TOO CRAZY TO TYPE ANY OF MY THOUGHTS BUT I LOVE THAT IT'S HERE
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When I tell you, I almost crieeeddd😭😭😭
But in all honesty, I knew this was coming, and I don't mind. I'm satisfied - more than satisfied, actually. These two books have actually... wow, I've genuinely never felt this way towards any fic before. I actually sat staring at my notification bar, waiting for gmail to pop up(only to be disappointed because it's just something irrelevant, like my accounts being compromised or smth😒), and when it did today, I actually squeaked. Not kidding, btw, I squeaked and physically reacted. Lock me away. But enough about my obviously worrying mental health!
This fic. This series, M&M. I'm so happy I found this when I did.
Allegory, if you (somehow) see this post, I just wanna say: Thanks for the ride, and I wish you well!
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whyse7vn ¡ 2 years ago
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FREE NAMJOON -
[ ot7 x reader ]
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FREE JIMIN
8 participants - 8 online
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y/n: if i open instagram and see namjoons feet again i’m going to go insane
tae: me 2 😆
jimin: tae makes physically ill !
hobi: real.
tae: i never said i am going the good insane what the hell
jin: you didn’t need to say anything
we know
jk: the fact ur not trying to hide it anymore is real upsetting bro
tae: society will never progress with people like you guys
i am the future
yoongi: why are we always taking about feet?
jin: some times at that prehistoric age you tend to do drastic things like that
jimin: prehistoric?? ur older than him?
jin: okay and? you look fucking older than him
wrinkled fuck
jimin: you are turning into dust as you type
namjoon: bye we are not talking about feet again.
y/n: tae and joon for therapy i say!
jimin: jin for a retirement home!
jk: who do you think will die first?
like out of us
hobi: you
tae: probably jimin
jimin: are you insane jin is literally 82 on deaths doorstep fr
jin: i agree jimin will be first to go no doubt in my mind in fact i will single handedly make sure of it and that is a promise to you all as my closest friends
jk: omg! ur so cool!!!!!
jimin: wtf???
what about that is cool?
yoongi: jimin would die first
jimin: WTF?????????
jin: LOL
jimin: FUCK YOU
yoongi: when have you guys ever had a civilised conversation
namjoon: who wants food? i’m ordering
jk: maybe it’s all sexual tension
y/n: fr just kiss or something
jin: HE WISHES
jimin: the way i almost threw UP
namjoon: can someone answer me
jk: sometimes there is no answer
hobi: deep bro.
jk: awomon
namjoon: is it not amen?
jk: clearly you are NOT a feminist!
jin: me personally? i’m a feminist
jimin: me 2 i love pussy
hobi: awoman 🙏🏼
tae: international womens day everyday!!!
suga: ��🏻
y/n: can you guys go one day without mentioning feminism omg
jin: it’s so deep in my veins i cant
jk: what is an orgasm??
namjoon: i’m actually leaving the group
jimin: kook not knowing what an orgasm is was ur last straw?
weak 🥱
namjoon: no it was actually after tae talked about feet for a least the 1000th time today
tae: is it not the power house of the cell??
y/n: oh wow
jk: holy shit ur right
yoongi: ????
tae: wydm ???
yoongi don’t be upset cuz you didn’t know
jk: right…
tae: nvm it’s actually pretty common knowledge so maybe you should be a little upset
jin: you guys make me want to pull my hair out
jimin: it’s practically falling out already doesn’t really make a difference
y/n: tell me you guys aren’t being fr…
tae: wait….
MY FAULT i thought you said organism 🙏🏻
wasn’t wearing my glasses
yoongi: the way that’s still wrong
hobi: he wears glasses?
jk: so what does it mean
jimin: guys i have a crush 🤭
jin: always a crush never a job
y/n: HELDPDODOFODKFJFKC
hobi: set him free for fucking real
yoongi: pt2
jimin: fuck you all i didn’t want to talk about it anyways
jk: do you think ironman gets lonely in heaven
namjoon: maybe you should join him
jk: OMG???????
namjoon just told me to kms (real) (not clickbait)
tae: what if jungkook doesn’t go to heaven?
who knows what he does behind closed doors
y/n: he vapes
jk: NO
y/n: if you say so
jin: jimin and namjoon going to hell that’s all i know
jimin: omg take my dick out your mouth
jin: ew?
namjoon: ????
tae: i know joon does coke on the low
yoongi: :3
namjoon: what???
hobi: i could be a red velvet member if i tried hard enough
y/n: i believe in you
hobi: means the world tbh
namjoon: when have i ever mentioned coke in my life?? let alone taken it
tae: see how defensive he’s getting
someone call the police
yoongi: jungkook joined a cult yesterday
namjoon: what?
hobi: namjoon are you not tired?
namjoon: ?
hobi: always asking questions like are you not sick of it
have you found the answers you’ve been looking for
if not i suggest you stop asking and give up all together :/
y/n: I AGREE
#stopthequwstions2023
namjoon: im leaving before i say something i regret
*namjoon left the group*
jin: he was so gonna say the n word
y/n: HELDPDODDODODOODOD
tae: stop the namjoon hate 2023
jk: i miss him so much
my life is falling apart
*jk added namjoon to the group!*
namjoon: leave me ALONE.
*namjoon left the group*
jimin: yikes
yoongi: skill issue tbh
y/n: i take no blame for this btw
jimin: i didn’t do anything!!!!
tae: not me
yoongi: ❌
jin: lowkey hobi’s fault
hobi: i blame jk
jk: wtf…
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binalakai-archive ¡ 1 year ago
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i also wish people would be more receptive to relationship speculation, at the very least. there were so many moments in fionna and cake where simon and fionna’s interactions had me raising my eyebrows and thinking “wow, what’s up with this chemistry rn?” but i know posting about it to see if others also noticed would get me dogpiled lol. glad i’m not the only one entertaining the ship and its implications to/for the characters it encompasses.
also winter king/simon is intriguing as well, if only in a weird homestuck self-shipping (dave and davesprite anyone?) kind of way where both characters get to have major epiphanies bc they’re basically looking into a mirror (may be more of a funhouse mirror for winter king/simon but still works lol)
i do not ship any of these pairings, please dont take this post from a shipping perspective
i apologize in advanced if this post is said messy. its given an opening to many things ive been thinking about since the start of the show and i know i wanna come back to it in case any new developments were to happen at the final season 1 episodes tldr; Kai Talks About how much i Love Very Messed Up Pairings, not because i want them to actually be together, but because i am NOT the type to ignore Seeds That Have been Planted in canon so i will Grow Horrible Realizations i've been having out of them
YEAH NO BECAUSE I LIKE. I JUST WANNA POINT OUT WHAT'S CANON OKAY!! i think this post is like. the only one ive seen that Has Pointed out The Adventure Time Ice King/Fionna dynamic in the lenses of the Simon we have today....and even then thats just a joke post :")
because like. okay. i need people to think about this for a second: yes, ice king didn't Come With with Fionna and Cake's existence, but why in the world would he Choose to be responsible for writing it? for bringing their stories to life and showing off a world that's been living in his head? i genuinely think people don't really like the ugly side of how badly loneliness has mutated Ice King's way of thinking (i mean for gods sake the guy tries to kiss/get with anyone, mf cant even recognize the person he claims to be falling in love with). that, yeah. of course if he had a World Living inside his brain that felt so Real to him that he CONSTANTLY wished for it to not only but true, but one that would be close to him!! one that would welcome him!!!! no matter what itd be, romantic, platonic, To the point of Worship....like ANYTHING that would bring him closer to genuine Connection in his alienating experience. NOTABLY for fionna The Human!!! the human that parallels a real life actual kid that mostly has kicked Ice King's ass to eventually treating him like a Poor confused Old Lost Guy. still, i need to stress the kind of dynamic finn and the ice king have is NOWHERE near the kind of dynamic fionna and ice king have (and even with simon developments included). . ...except this time around, even when he does have his own parallel Ice Queen existing manifesting the Must Needed Rival for their universe to make sense, mutating her character into something that to make her more Vicious/Violent, making Ice King seem Nicer In Comparison and dare i say that, yeah...! some of that HAS been carried onto modern day Fionna!! who CANONICALLY has romantic feelings towards ice prince and the winter king, parallels to ice king/simon himself! just. sorry but i NEED both Simon and Fionna to like. Read Those Stories. I Need them to revisit the VERY specific stories that Ice King felt the need to tell in the first place, his and other people in their lives' inclusions. it would not only reinforce Simon's Influence in the world Period, something that he found himself doubting on ...but also I NEEEEEEDDD to see that can of worms opened. i NEED for Fionna to see for herself the people SHE'S supposed to be representing. i NEED for her to see what kind of void she's been filling in Ice King/Simon's time of existence. i NEED for her to see how big the Obsession GOT, how badly Ice King needed that outlet of escapism (and how much Simon still returns to it in the present day)
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^ this moment has been living in my brain ever since the announcement of the Fionna and Cake series that Fionna's fixation on the ice prince, her life, her..everything in general, is more or less a Weird Reflection of the lives of People living Greater Lives than she ever believed to have lived, combined with how said proclaimed experiences of Magic have only been recorded by a guy who Inserted Himself in a world she doesnt even recall living in Im surprised that. hasnt been so Stressed yet in show. im prepared to eat my words if they DO come back to it. but for the time being i really wish Fionna found out how desperate Simon/Ice King was for someone to acknowledge and Desire His Existence, to a degree that would be absolutely humiliating/weird to uncover but Necessary to come back to in order to truly understand the Scope of what 1000+ years of Madness through Ostracization (from others and eventually the Self) Does to a MF
__________ AS OF FOR MY THOUGHTS ON THE WINTER KING, he alas only truly an episode to explore. but the thoughts still exist nonetheless!!! for the most part i can only truly indulge in it out of pure hilarity for its existence, while acknowledging how much im so thankful that winter king was characterized as he was n didnt overstay his welcome, as i didnt find him necessary to stay in the narrative . there's a lot of feelings i have about simon/ice king's perception of himself alone, and how most of it is Either Negative or Overcompensation Due to his own self negativity. which makes me curious on what could come of a Better Version of Himself, looking at the version of himself that has "failed" to conquer the crown the way he has, but contemplated on pursuing romantically, even for a brief moment honestly, i dont blame people for being invested in this pairing (in comparison to fionna/simon, where i cannot myself entertain it even as a joke unlike this one). it makes me curious on what the Winter King's definition of romance is in comparison to Simon's. what could even be desirable, possibly, in the eye's of the Winter King? Does the love of someone you'll go mad over truly make you a Better Person Or Worse? Simon and Winter King existing in the same room together brings up so many questions and possible ways to explore Simon's character. wayyyyyyyyyy less of a "this can be simon's way of practicing self love" thing and MUCH more of a "These Guys Kissing each other would be the equivalent of the Narcissus Tale but with a Distorted Reflection that only Represents You because the reflection Demands That of you"
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thegongoozlerreacts ¡ 1 year ago
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Dead Plate (Part 1)
hello!! its been a while since ive posted but here i am!!! so this game is Dead Plate created by STUDIO INVESTIGRAVE
i had played one of their games before, Elevator Hitch, and i really really enjoyed it! so im very excited for this new game that theyve released
though, this game is probably really different from Elevator Hitch, because that game was a visual novel type of game while this one has restaurant tycoon gameplay
still, im very excited
i hope i can get all the endings today (but probably not) as always, spoilers under the cut!
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i know its literally just the title screen BUT it looks very classy
also the music? its a bop like yo BellKalengar is the composer and sound designer and like yo!! amazing job its literally just the title screen and im amazed already LMFAO
alright then lets begin
lolol i like the way they named the buttons for doing the tutorial, skipping the tutorial or just leaving the game on auto progress time to show up at 5 am then
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the art is really cute these characters are really cute too esp the protag
i know its just the tutorial but i am very nervous LOL doing service jobs make me nervous (even tho this is only a fictional one)
bro protag why did u skim the interview thing 😭 is that why u've had 28 jobs in 7 years 💀
ooh interesting the cooks have an order in which they cook meals i need to remember that
wow so theres a lot to do huh theres seating the customers, taking their orders, bringing those orders to the kitchen, serving the food, going to the cash register to take their payments, cleaning up the tables AND throwing out the trash its a lot more than i was expecting,,,, lol good luck to me i guess
so like fun fact im actually not that good at playing games LOL esp this kind of game where theres like people and they have like a happy meter kind of thing going on i wonder if any of the endings will be tied to how well we do during the work day ?? probably
also can i just say that the music is really good i like the kinda jazzy (is that the right word??) vibes going on
it makes me less nervous about serving customers since its very chill LOL
WHY IS THIS CUSTOMER HITTING ME WITH A HARD QUESTION
I HAVE NO IDEA IF WE HAVE TO-GO BOXES OR WHATEVR WHAT HUH ?????
there is a right answer and i have no idea what it is im gonna lose my mind please. ok well lets pick an answer
im gonna go 'no' since the restaurant has a strict menu that changes daily right? so maybe they wouldnt do to-go boxes or ordering ahead and stuff (RIGHT???)
oh phew ok i picked the right one
LOL the banter between the protag and the tutorial guy (i dont know his name)
??? what the hell this customer just left right as i got the food bro 😭😭 have some patience damn this aint a fast food place
now i have to throw away this perfectly good meal (sorry cooks)
oh no now the real game is starting uhh aight alright then lets go
ok so that was like only three customers, i did pretty well but the day's not over yet shdajhsdsakhj i feel like a disaster n it was only three customers LMAO
oh it was only 3 customers for day 1 nice (i got jumpscared by the sound effect for the day ending LFMAO)
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ooh green onion rolls,,, it looks good damn now i want to eat LOL
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BITCH YOU LIVE LIKE THIS?????? damn,,,,
the music for this area is pretty chill tho
THE BATHROOM IS FLOODING??? AGAIN ?!??! BRO ??? THATS DISGUSTING
the window has a horrible view its just another building
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oho? she? who???
bro dont leave the dishes for later thats sooo gross
??? HOW DID YOU BURN CEREAL???? WHAT DID YOU EVEN DO ??
i am appalled at the protag's lifestyle i cant even
so he has not finished writing lyrics and love letters for this girl he mentioned earlier the game is not revealing her name and im wondering why hmm its very sus
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sorry im laughing so hard??? its mostly empty except for some cans and the fucking green onion rolls im cackling?? they look so out of place in this fridge LMFAO
bro how are you so bad at cooking that you burnt food in the microwave??? what are you doing???
wait. is his bed the couch???? bro i feel so bad for this guy
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he biked through the rain,,,,, and he thought doing it fast would dry him,,, in the rain,,,,, im starting to understand why he somehow managed to burn cereal
he doesnt own an umbrella
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aww this is cute thanks boss
he LIVES here??? wow damn his apartment is upstairs thats very cool
LOL protag keep ur mouth shut
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day 2 here we go
SHIT HELP I TOOK TOO LONG ONE OF THE CUSTOMERS LEFT NOOO im restarting jkdsljlds its a good thing i saved
ahh i did way better this time but the day ended right as i was about to take out the trash LOL
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oooh those look tasty too
oops ok so like i started day 3 right
well i was like 'i'll take out the trash before serving any customers' so that i can just easily clean up the tables right
uhh but then suddenly this happened ??? so like protag dropped the bag and cut their finger and the boss is having an odd reaction to the sight of blood methinks
HTHE BOSS JUST SLAPPED HIM ??? WTF
bro he just slapped him then was like 'oh dw someone else will clean it up' hello???? you just slapped ???? me ???
ok then moving on to the rest of the day i guess??
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kinda weird looking but it still looks appetizing (the magic of art LOL)
oh shit theres a magazine ?? oops im gonna go back and read through previous ones oh nevermind its just the same one lmao
ohhh so this is where i buy items ok aight
and this catalogue is how our protag knew about the job for a waiter it also has an interview with our boss (Chef Vincent Charbonneau, i finally know his name) about the low number of employees i was wondering why we were the only waiter in the restaurant and i guess thats why
ok i bought the rollerskates cuz i need to be faster for the customers
oh and u can interact w the telephone to call 'her' but she doesnt pick up oof
sorry what is happening right now
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what is that weird squelching sound?!?!?
BRO?? WTF WAS THAT ??? so like his body felt itchy, pressed Z to scratch and then suddenly lines were all over his body and then knives came out and i am so very confused
i think that was just a dream but what a weird nightmare
i guess onto day 4 then ?? at least i have my sick new rollerskates now
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ooh that looks tasty
man i think im too slow cuz the timer always runs out while one more customer is still around lmfao, oh well
oh shit another nightmare
ohh so i can only equip one item at a time hmmm well since i bought the watch anyways i guess i'll use it
PFFT A CUSTOMER LEFT SORRY LADY,, she was waiting to be seated but i was preoccupied with serving food oopsies
restarting the day then
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the nightmare hmm is the protag's name Rody since thats what it says on the label
DAMNIT I TOOK TOO LONG AGAIN
ok im just gonna use the rollerskates this time
AGGHH I KEEP TAKING TOO LONG ON THIS ONE CUSTOMER
restarting again,,,,
should i just let it go? probably but im not going to
IM GONNA LOSE MY MIND IVE RESTARTED SO MANY TIMES
ok well youve not seen it but i have restarted day 5 soo many times and i am hungry so,,, here's where i'll leave it for today
even though i am struggling and getting frustrated, im really enjoying the game so far! i wish i wasnt so terrible at playing it so i could see more of the story LOL
like what is up with the boss? who is this girl that the protag likes so much? what is up with his weird nightmares??? and will i ever be able to finish day 5 ?????
tune in next time LOL byebyeee
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popuptent1 ¡ 2 months ago
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Sooo i just finished reading the kamokedai match and i need to express the thousand emotions going through my head rn (rant)
WARNING: VERY HEAVY SPOILERS and a BUNCH OF YELLING AND RANTING
if you dont wanna get yelled at i suggest you ignore this post :)
yes yes I know im VERY late to the party and that this manga ended years ago but i just finished reading this so lemme just get it outta my system and ill be on my way
First of all WHAT THE HECC FURUDATE WHY U GOTTA DO US LIKE THAT
they rlly made it so that hinata got sick at the worst possible time huh
like i get it, its to build even more tension but they didnt have to do that i mean cmon my heart was beating stupidly fast while reading that. Takeda even made a whole like five page speech to hinata which is what made us readers all go "oh ye we're losing this match arent we"
And they even made tsukki have to go on the bench cause of his leg becuase why not rub more salt into the wound amiright?
Anyways after the out of pocket plot twist where hinata goes to the hospital it not much of a suprise that kamokedai won but it still hurt ToT.
Yes, i actually thought they had a chance of winning ok? i get that kamokedai is much better than karasuno but still. they couldve won ;(
and then out of nowhere ITACHIYAMA LOST??!!! like what the actual flic flac??!! bro is hitting us with 50 different plot twists at once. First hinata get a fever, then tsukki also goes outta action, then they lose the match, then itachiyama also loses the match WHYYYYYY
i was not mentally prepared for this and was so looking forward to seeing sakusa and the libero whos name i forgot play against fukurodani in the finals but NOPE I GUESS WE AINT GETTING THAT TODAY
Now onto the MAIN REASON I AM TYPING THIS (yes im just warming up here folks)
I am a HUGE fukurodani fan they will always be my #1 favourite team
i thought we were gonna see the semi final and finals matches after karasuno lost but NOPE they just skipped those and was like TIMESKIP TIME WHO CARES ABOUT FUKURODANI :D
(i havent read the timeskip yet since, apart from bokuto, none of my faves are playing volleyball)
so naturally, i turned towards google to see if they do win the nationals
I WAS SO CERTAIN FUKURODANI WERE GONNA WIN THE NATIONALS YOU HAVE NO IDEA I PUT MY HEART ON THE LINE AND WAS 100% SURE THAT THEY WERE GONNA WIN EM ALL YK WHY??
DO
YOU
WANT
TO
KNOW
WHY
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BECAUSE FURUDATE MADE IT SOUND LIKE THEY WERE REALLY DESTINED TO WIN THE WHOLE DAM THING
SO WHEN THEY LOST TO SOME RANDOM NOBODY SCHOOL THAT WE'VE NEVER EVEN HEARD OF AND DOESNT HAVE ANY BACKGROUND AT ALL ACTUALLY KILLED ME SO BAD
they purposely got our hopes up and made us think that fukurodani were gonna be the ones to win (FUKURODANI WERE THE PROTAGONISTS OF THE WORLD, not karasuno!)
i fell for the trap, hook line and sinker 😭😭😭
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
seriously i dont get why furudate couldnt have just made fukurodani win instead?? everyone would be happy about that, and its not like its unrealistic, they're an amazing team, as shown multiple times in the manga!!!
GRRRrrrrr i am angry and sad and mad and depressed and my heart hurts and i feel like screaming into my pillow again
but i feel bad for being so negative in this post so i will end it on a (sorta) positive note for those who actually read that far into this rant lol
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THIS ENDING OF FUKURODANI ACTUALLY MADE ME DIE (out of happiness this time)
they arent that depressed about losing bc they know that 2nd in the WHOLE OF JAPAN is still an AMAZING FEAT and that if they werent on the same team, then they wouldnt have gotten that far
konoha says hes grateful and considers himself super lucky that they were all on the same team (and specifically that bokuto was on the team since he's one of the nation's top aces)
and wow thats so amazing i just cant
MY EMOTIONS AHHH
anyways sorry for yelling to you so much, i just had to get this outta my system
The manga was GREAT and i enjoyed reading it so much haikyuu is my favourite anime and im so so glad i stumbled upon it!!! i seriously cant wait for this to get animated
drink water and i wish you happy tumblr scrolling 👍👍👍
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sugar-omi ¡ 4 months ago
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STOPPPP OMG ILYT 🥺💞 i was so close to breaking that rule for him tho. only for him...he just looked so sweet and gorgeous and the way i was WANTINGGGGGG. i am not beating the yearnergirl allegations...
IM LITERALLY SCALING THE WALLS. SPIDERWOMAN WITH THE SHITS. YOU BEST BELIEVE THE SECOND I GET THE CHANCE TO WED 'N BED HIM I'M BOUTTA DO SPLITS ON IT. JUMPING JACKS, EVEN.
I WAS LITERALLY . OH MY GOD OKAY SO WHEN I BLUSH SUPER HARD IT GOES UP TO MY EARS AND ACROSS MY NOSE. AND I KNOW DAMN WELL HE WAS SEEING THAT IN FULL VIEW TOO OH MYGODDDDDD ENDING IT ALL ENDING IT ALL WALKING ONTO THE RAILROAD TRACKS RN. IM SO EMBARRASSED GAAAAWD
im gonna beam your consciousness into the kuromi pin that kicked everything off a la astral projection. that way you will always be there in spirit to watch me go googoo gaga over cute boy...
HELPMEMMEMEMEEE I WAS LUCKY ENOUGH TO BE AN EXTROVERT...BEING SOCIABLE AND QUICK WIT IT IS IN MY BLOOD...MY GENES EVEN...don't get it twisted tho i was literally shitting myself trying to come up with those one liners before he could notice i was overthinking HELPME
on a more recent note, he's been texting me since 7am (he has early classes + the evening shift today so no hangout unfortunately :(( but he promised to text me throughout the day whenever he could EEEEEEEE) and he suddenly asked me what perfume i wear. i tell him i use this one body mist and he sends an ok, AND THIRTY MINUTES LATER I GET SENT A VIDEO OF HIS HAND SPRAYING A BRAND NEW FRESH-OUT-THE-BAG BOTTLE OF THE BODY MIST I USE AROUND HIS CAR??? FOLLOWED BY "that way i don't have to forget last night :))"????? HELLO????????? AM I INSANE. IS THIS A MOVE. IS TH
JUMPING JACKS. PLEASE. LET ME BREATHE
also omg yes. I will happily possess your kuromi pin so I can watch love unfold ✨️ IT'LL BE LIKE THOSE MANHWA'S WHERE THE OBJECT IS ACTUALLY A GOD FORCING THE FL AND ML TOGETHER BUT THE GOD IS JUST KUROMI... wow so powerful
HELPAJAB IM A WHEEZONG. SFOHHTING FOR MY LIFE. FUFK DO YOU MEAN HE BOUGHT YOUR BODY MIST N JUST SPRAYED OT AROUND HIS CAR????? LITERALLY JUST ASK YOU TO MARRY HIM WHAT THE FUCK
THIS IS A MOVE. THOS OS A BIG MOVE WHAT THE FUCK
WHY CANT I TYPE. THIS ISNT EVEN HAPPENING TO ME. I WOULD BE ON THE FLOOR???? ID COLLAPSE IN THE MIDDLE KF THR STREET SEEING THAT. WHAT THE HELLL
omg you have to share your luck with me, bless me queen of attracting yearning men. 😔🙏🙏🙏🙏
BUT DW ABOUT THE BLUSHING. I KNOW IT HAD HIM CLAWING THE WALLS LIKE AN ANIMAL BC MY EX/BFF BLUSHED A LOT WHEN I SAID SHIT AND I WAS LIKE A FERAL BEAST IN A PADDED ROOM. ITS SO CUTE. SO GOOD. SO..SO....
ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY SAY SHIT BACK EVE. THOUGH THEURE BLUSHING TO THEIR TOES. LIKE. OH YOURE FLUSTERED BUT YOURE NOT SHY ,THATS 😳😳😳😳 YKNOW???
also. must add on. THAT BUYING YOUR SCENT MOVE IS SO CUTEEE PARTICALLY BC "aww you love my smell" and "omfg that's so hot that you went out of your way to buy my scent *insert linger demonic ramble about how hot that is. at least to me istg*" BUT ALSO. "aww, youre (kinda) trying to one up me by flustering me by buying my scent but I saw how you stuttered and blushed n twiddle your thumbs boy!!!! you are obsessed!!!!"
sigh. please. this is so cute. n so good. n so hot. n so sweet.
istg if that happened to me.... all imma say is, niagara Falls. 👐👐
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4imhry ¡ 2 years ago
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YOW THIS IS ONE OF MY FAVOURITE JAKE EDIT I MADE BECAUSE EAKDBJSHS LOOK AT HIM 😭🙏🏻
imagine: jake texted you saying he wouldn’t be able to make it home today because his manager rescheduled his flight.
since your boyfriend texted you last night he will be back home from his 3 months tour in europe, you had never been so excited before and decided to purchase all of his favourite snacks which is mostly ramen. in addition, you bought him a plushie—a golden retriever puppy since he resembled one.
you kept walking back and forth, not knowing how to contend the excitement after not seeing for 3 months—the longest period they had been separated from each other.
until a text put a frown on your face.
🐶 : I,m sorry, love. i don’t think I would make it home today:”(
your took a long breath as your fingers sluggishly typing a response, not knowing how to process what jake just texted.
it’s okay. 😆
a sad smile formed on your lips.
🐶: I’m so sorryyyyy PLEASE my manager told me last minute he rescheduled our flight. I was really looking forward to see you:
you chuckled at the text as if you can hear his voice in your head, actually saying it to you. jake has always been this clingy with you and you love it.
it’s fine reallyyyyyy ;)
🐶: you’re nottt I CAN TELL UR NOT OKAY YOU CANT FOOL ME
you sighed. well, that’s true.
IM FINE I SWEAR
🐶: y/n????? 🤨🤨🤨
okay I’m actually sad. a little.
🐶: WOW a little⁉️ I don’t think so.
“love?”
the familiar voice kept ringing in your ears. your breath hitched in your throat as you turned around, the familiar figure stood a few steps away from you wearing his god darn charming smile.
“someone is missing me so bad,hm?” you forgot you gave him your spare house keys before he went on a tour Incase he got home when you’re absent.
tears began swelling in yours eyes. you felt your throat began closing up. you couldn’t properly form a sentence upon seeing the person you had been yearning for months.
“jake..” you choked out a sob, running towards him and jake caught you with ease, you easily wrapped your legs around his waist. you cried harder at the smell of his cologne engulfing you as you buried your face in the crook of his neck.
you missed him. every inch of him.
and so did he.
he was sent into a fit of giggles seeing your reaction upon seeing his sudden appearance. he twirled you around before putting you on the kitchen counter, standing between your legs.
his eyes darted on your face for a while causing you to look down, not wanting him to see your tear stained face.
“let me look at you.” he lifted your chin, his other hand on your side. god, you were so beautiful.
you were a crying mess, still not being able to process your dear boyfriend was actually in front of you.
“why would you do that.” you sobbed.
“do what?”
“that.” you groaned, lightly hit him on the chest. he feigned a hurt expression, dramatically put his palm on his chest. he then slowly fluttered one of his eye open, a smirk tugged on his lips as he went to put both of his hands on your waist.
“i,m sorryyy.” he pouted. ugh, that puppy eyes can’t make you stay mad at him. one of your weaknesses and he surely knows how to use it well.
“apology accepted.” you booped his nose.
jake chuckled at your cuteness, cupping your cheeks as he caressed them delicately. his eyes darting around your face, admiring each of them closely. “i miss you so much. you have no idea how much i struggle to sleep without you being right by my side.” you cooed internally.
“I’ve been longing to be near you like this. it hurts knowing you have to deal with things alone without me being around.” and your love for your boyfriend grew even more, he was missing you as much as you did.
you melted into his touch, a giggle erupted from your lips. “i miss you too jakey. don’t think about it too much. the most important thing is you’re home now and I,m here, to be your sweet companion.”
“aren’t you the cutest thing ever?” he cooed, his hand went to messily ruffle your hair. he can’t help it. you were just too endearing in his eyes.
you only giggled in response. you were absolutely on a cloud nine at this moment.
“wanna go out and get some ice cream?” he suggested, grabbing your hands and entwined it with his.
“yes, please.” you weren’t able to wipe the smile of your face, the happiness of seeing your lover again was unbearable.
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wildcardaces ¡ 2 years ago
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@ruby-static "so many questions" edition!
Where man shawn really doesnt do well under pressure *cries*
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Anna: you with us today?
Shawn: until my bro is back, yeah, I'll be outta your hair by then
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Anna: hey dont say that. Kinda hoping you'd be here today..
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Anna: cause i got a MILLION questions.
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Anna: is the fashionista model your mom!? *insert other questions here*
I like to think a lot of penguins at first just dont believe shawn is dots kid until either she says it herself or the two are out and about. Anna just got to see immediately and now shawn cant escape XD
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Quil: anna i think youre scaring him.
Shawn: so many questions...!
Shawn just doesn't know how to awnser so many questions at once, his brain overloads. Whoops!
And the finale!
Shawn at a penguin band concert and just being...well, him XD
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Shawn: dust on the drums?
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Shawn: do you not play them that often!?
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G billy: wow! Thats actually one of the best burns ive gotten!
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G billy: hey guys can i please get an--
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G billy + gang: *WHEEZING* BRO--
Shawn, the type of person to never miss a penguin band concert while simultaneously engaging in silly burn matches with them!
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thumperdaetime ¡ 2 months ago
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as a nightshift worker at a long term care facility where i have been assaulted by someone with poor mental health- i can not support this post more.
i want a serial drama where the scenes are out of order so you have to rely on context clues to find out what's going on and who everyone is. at the end of the season its revealed that your pov character is an old woman on hospice with in home care.
i want indy games where you have to work the nightshift at a shitty nursing home and if you treat the people badly the general morphs into a horror survival because you deserve it. ( its hard to treat people well because of understaffing)
i want to see a 127hr style movie about a disabled person banging on the walls and throwing thing around their room because no one has changed or repositioned them and they know it only takes 3 hrs to get a pressure sore.
i want a novel written that focuses on a woman in an assisted living facility that starts as a romance between her and another resident. becomes a drama when the staff has weird rules about where and how she can see her boyfriend. and becomes a phycological horror as she realizes (not for the first time) that the man is her abusive ex husband who she left decades ago and now cant recognize or remember.
i want a short story about soldiers playing poker at the mess tent missing home- that you realize halfway through that its actually about disabled/elderly veterans playing poker at the dining hall missing home again.
all of these ideas are based in things i have seen in my life and They are fascinating moving emotional stories about the type of ageism and abuse and greif you get in our society today. and Yet. AND YET. every medical story i see boils down to "wow its scary that people have bad brains sometimes. they're practically monsters."
The worst thing is that there is so much potential for exploring the horror of psych wards from the angle of medical abuse, ableism, forced treatment/drugging, loss of autonomy, power imbalance, demonization, dehumanization, etc, and YET the horror genre keeps defaulting to "insane asylums and psych wards are scary because there are mentally ill people in there"
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aajjks ¡ 1 year ago
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Jungkook raises a brow at Mrs. Monica and says “Sure I need a break anyway. If I see one more error I think I’m gonna hurl.” He snatched his keys, wallet, and phone and gets out of there with Mrs. Monica in tow trying to keep up with his long strides.
He is also gentlemen like so he opens the car door, he heard her say “Thank you” and he nods as he get in a drives toward a bistro. They sit down at a booth and they start talking but bunny koo’s thoughts were thinking about you. He is thinking this while maintaining a stoic face.
~~His mind~~~~
[I wonder if she is alright? I hope she is, I want to take care of her. She makes my heart pound..wow she is amazing.. I WANT TO MARRY HER! LET HER HAVE MY BABIES! WHY CANT SHE NOTICE ME LIKE HOW SHE NOTICES HER FRIENDS?! I know I know it is wrong.. but mmm she makes me feel good whenever I look at her.]
~~~end of his thoughts~~~
He thoughts get cut off by Johnathans voice, and he couldn’t help but hear a wholesome conversation about you.
Meanwhile at Johnathans table
His friend “How is you little crush, Y/N doing?”
Johnathan blushing like a mad man and pushes his friend lightly “Hey stop teasing me.. I kissed her forehead. I might have overstepped a boundary but she is so cute in her study mode!” He actually gushes
His friend his shock and says “Well I hope it works out, have you told her anything about liking her like that?”
Johnathan says “No she doesn’t like distractions, I have seen the way she looks at me when I distracted her it is kinda scary, kinda hot and I am fine with that.”
Back to Jungkook’s table
He maintains the stoic attitude and mysterious aura around him but his thoughts were anything but peaceful as he rages with jealousy, his demon was about to come out and he hates it when this thing comes out.
He licks the side of his check as he keeps hearing the conversion and Mrs. Monic notices his sudden mood change and she is trying to distract him but she doesn’t want to overstep boundaries.
Jungkook looks at the pregnant lady who is married as a blessing because he actually can fight his demon when someone is distracting him. He is grateful but he wished it was Y/n because his demon goes away when she is near. She doesn’t even have to try, her presence is all it takes for him to calm the heck down.
Meanwhile with Y/N
As she is studying she gets a notification of he boy bestie who she has a crush on texts her about a science problem that he is actually struggling with, she was his last resort because she knows he is really smart. So she is on call with him and helping him.
He smiles and says gratefully “Oh my you-you really are godsend! You are an angel I am forever grateful thank you so much. I should have thought of that before. I am sorry that I trouble you.”
Y/n smiles and says “Not to worry my dear Suho, I got your back my friend.” Suho smiles and says “Alright got to go love ya bye!”
Y/n blushes slightly and says “I love ya to bye!” Once she knows the phone is clear of any calls she giggle and gushes “Oh my! He said I love you heheheheeh!” She does an awkward little dance before she goes back to studying.
-✨
Jungkook comes back home after a long day, and he is still very much pissed about what happened today at the campus he doesn’t know how to calm down.
He really doesn’t want to commit a murder so maybe a threat will do the trick.
He picks up his phone and takes out a paper. He quickly changes his Sim. And then typed a number on his message app.
stay. away. from. her. Or you’re dead.
He smirks as he sends the message to Jonathan. He had picked up his number from the school before coming back home.
This Shall be enough to scare the kid away but if not, he’s not scared to take this to drastic measure.
He then open his Photos and his changes as he stares at a few of your pictures.
“How… are you so pretty…” he whispers to himself as he drinks his soda.
“cannot wait to see you tomorrow, princess.”
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dumbbitchfrommars ¡ 2 years ago
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i finished bridgerton and im sad. im sad because i feel like lady danbury deserved more... and im scared that my life will end up like hers. i dont know. i feel like we all deserve more than a life without love. 
today was so hard. every day feels so hard lately. im so overwhelmed with emotions, and ive been punishing my sister. im sad that i wasted our time together being like this but she was annoying me too... but she doesnt deserve to feel like a problem, or like she has to step on eggshells around me. i keep on facing this darkside of myself and its disappointing and shameful. im selfishly angry and aggressive and mean. i need to loosen up on others, and be kinder, and warmer, and all those good things that i feel like arent being provided to me. im sad shes leaving tomorrow cause i dont know when well see each other again. probably in 3 months... i hope. last time was 6 months ago... it will fly by! 
in this economy its getting harder and harder to see the people we care about. but shes only a flight away...! i dont know. i guess its sad feeling so distanced again now that were changing and we dont talk as much. i want to be there for her but were going through entirely different situations. 
im frustrated by my lack of a backbone. i hate my job but i do nothing about it. UGH! i hate the types of men im attracting yet i dont send them away, i open my life to them. when i know that by doing so i leave no space for the keanu reaves/oscar isaac/tom hardy types that i know i want and deserve. UGH! what happened to the bad bitch with a good music taste, amazing style, sexy attitude and too cool for school vibes? i completely lowered myself to feel validated by pathetic boys, only to wonder why i feel like nothing when i realise their validation means nothing. in fact, it actually lowers my worth, because now i think that i belong in their league. 
i win at life when i realise my focus could be on myself instead of boys and relationships. i cant help it im a horny hopeless romantic! i miss the days where i was consumed by my stories enough to distract me from the real thing. now im indecisive over a dilf that i absolutely know is not the right decision for me.
anyways, yes, im sad and pathetic and wallowing in all my annoying and inconvenient emotions because im a woman and im definitely not living up to my full, amazing, beautiful, incredible, awesome potential. ONE DAY! one day. ugh. thats what makes it all so much worse, honestly. knowing everything im capable of, but sitting here idly being bored and drained by my lack of stimulation. its such an easy thing to fix, no? im surrounded by distractions. i just need discipline, to detach myself from this addiction to distraction. i managed to free myself from weed and bad people. even cigarettes, though that never really counted for me, i was never addicted, i am strong willed. i can free myself from this too! i am already so dedicated to my body, making myself the strongest i can be to feel my best and most confident. but the final piece of the puzzle is strengthening my mind, and my wit. wow. 
this feels like such a revelation now that ive managed to conceptualise it. like all this time ive been so lost, and confused, and wondering what was missing from my awareness, to help me understand what ive been doing wrong. its this! i need to dedicate myself to my mind. it will solve everything ive ever felt insecure about! i will be a better writer, i will be a better student, a better marine biologist, a better friend, a better guest, a better partner, a better employee, a better person. a better creative. and a better divine being. because with knowledge comes connection to all things...
im figuring it out. im on my own path and timeline. and ill take it step by step. and one day ill look back and smile and laugh and cry about the journey ive managed to complete, all on my own. always on my own. because i am a strong, independent, magical woman. with music to heal and soothe me, and those who came before me to teach me and guide me, and my loved ones to support me and celebrate me, i will accomplish everything i ever dreamed or wished for! like i always said so. i am determined. i am determined. i am capable of anything i put my mind to. i will expand my knowledge, and become a makeup artist, and become a marine biologist, and get my divers certificate, and do beautiful makeup for my beautiful friends, and create endless stories, and memories, and love, and acceptance, and nurture myself as a gorgeous flower only learning to bloom. 
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gale-gentlepenguin ¡ 2 years ago
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Gale Reviews: ML Season 5 episode 16 Protection
(This review is conducted without all episodes being released. So be warned that if you want to view the episodes in order. Avoid reading until caught up.)
-Still wish I understood how Lila tricked Kagami into friendship. It feels wrong
-I will give Lila credit on her manipulative words. She still horrible tho
-How dare she trick Kagami like this
-So the whole class just decided to dedicate themselves completely to hooking these two up?
-I love how everyone is like "Since you two are Awkward af, we are here to assist"
-I love the manga they drew for it. Its very shojo
-These plans are amazing. They basically recruiting Paris to handle this
-I love how Adrien and Marinette are reading this like a script and asking questions
-Did they seriously draw the wedding and them having kids? My gravy these kids ship these two almost as much as I do... ALMOST
-I love the Adrien with mustache bits
-As someone who has been in middle school and helps teach Middle schoolers in his volunteer hours. I can attest that this is basically how cringe middle schoolers are
-I like how this is based off Manga, fairy tales and hollywood. And they are cutting to asking questions that the other is asking
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-I want this framed so when ever I see a bad and stupid take about adrien being awful I cant simply link this image.
-"If you expect him to do something, you are mistaken" Kagami out here calling adrien out. Damn
-I love that it turned out to be as cringey as it sounded.
-What do they mean replace luka @is-nino-actually-luka how can Nino not play guitar? I need to know the truth
-Also Adrien and Marinette are just sitting and listening to all of this fall apart, even both in sync about wanting to leave.
-Marinette sweetie, it isnt your fault. The situation was just REALLY CRINGE
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-Gabriel and Tomoe talking about the Diamond ball
-Gabriel admitting that he is dying
-Kagami and Adrien talking
-Adrien feels bad about not noticing Marinette's feelings and doesnt know how to make her feel less self conscious about it
-Seriously how can people hate adrien, boy is like cinnamon butter
-The parents walking in thinking Adrien is being passionate about him and Kagami. But thats not the case at all
-"Perfection for perfection" Me talking about my ships
-Oh no, they heard the Marinette part, so much for the happiness of an arranged dynamic
-Kagami looking at adrien acting all determined and forward and is like "Man, now this is the type of adrien I wanted"
-Marinette expecting the worst and tikki is like "Girl, Calm yo tits its fine"
-Marinette is like "Your right Tikki, no more complicated plans. I am not even gonna change."
-"You dumb ho You are in pjs"
-You know what, I respect Marinette. Girl didnt even freak out. She is like "You know what. I am going in Pjs"
-Ah yes, Gabriel and Tomoe arguing that their Children creation arent obeying them
-Tomoe basically saying "Solve this before you die bitch"
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-Gorrilla just eating a bowl of fruit
-"You and Kagami are... of the same design." Either this is some sort of elitist Bulls*** or implication of Sentimonsters
-Okay I am ready to throw hands at Gabriel
-Adrien dropping in a Mom reference to dismiss his father's claims. Good on him
-He did the ring thing! How DARE!!! Gabriel you have SUCH a punchable face
-Adrien NO! DONT DO IT
-Wow... I did not see that coming. Marinette reasoned that it was Gabriel and didnt even bat an eye. I am impressed
-Nathalie listening to Adrien vent about not having a relationship with Marinette and is like "Bitch WHAT?!"
-Nathalie using the OTHER control ring to tell adrien "F*** what your dad thinks, Go kiss that girl"
-I love how Marinette is just being ridiculously adamant about wearing PJs today. She is an inspiration
-Adrien helped her sneak in? Adrien sneaking in girls? My how the angel has become a badboy.
-AND G packed them a picnic. I love it
-Adrien realized she is wearing PJs.
-HE WENT TO CHANGE INTO PJS TOO! That is love right there
-Adrien really be bringing the romance
-I love it
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-Gabriel knows he cant take Nathalie in a fight and thats the reason he just accepts it and walks away. But yea the wording of this does not help but say "Sentimonster"
-Kagami, baby girl... of all the people you could vent to... You picked the WORST PERSON
-Lila f***ing knows Gabriel is Monarch, because thats the only explaination as to why she is telling Gabriel all this crap
-Thats RIGHT Kagami. Marinette is a good girl. Dont believe her lies
-Lila really out here acting like a Marinette salter.
-You know what? This is the type of Manipulation I want to see from Lila. Little twists of things to make it seem true. This is what Lila should have been in season 3
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-Irony
-Lila twisted the knife enough for Monarch to act
-Wait why did the red face thing appear BEFORE the akuma showed up?
-And Lila does nothing to stop the akumatization because thats what she wanted
-Oh so thats why its called protection. She gets a sword AND Shield... Pokemon is now available near you
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-Back to the Adrinette. Daww they cloud watching now. This is cute
-Oh my, that cloud was kissing which means...
-We are about to get an ALMOST KISS!
-Omg its so f***ing cute you guys.
-WAIT! Are they holding hands... before marriage? and no protection? Scandalous
-Gabriel can see this you know...
-Yo this music is pretty choice. Hopefully nothing ruins this moment
-Kagami. COULD YOU NOT
-Adrien put in so much effort for this. and Marinette was trying really hard. Kagami doesnt understand
-G COMING IN CLUTCH
-Oh thank goodness, I thought she was gonna skewer him
-Marinette trying to reach out and help but is denied because Lila and akuma twisting the emotional knife
-Adrien really being on the ball today. PROTECT YO GIRL!
-Oh so its one per person.
-Chat noir. I too would be happy to see him
-Adrien trying to talk no jutsu out of this
-She is hoping he uses cataclysm before he thinks
-Thank goodness it isnt awkward between them after Elation... I kind of wish it was. Because it would have been funny
-The charm is Olive oil
-Gonna be honest, that seemed a bit too easy to break
-But it was funny
-So Ladybug tried to give her the charm, but Kagami wont take it, so she left to become Marinette. Then chat noir did the same
-Adrien complimenting another girl, great for my ship but not good for Kagami's heart right now
-NO BABY GIRL DONT CRY
-Oh kagami dear. She needs 100 hugs.
-She loves them both! I also would settle on Adrigaminette
-Adrien complimenting another girl, great for
-Now their picnic is sad now
-But yea the mood kind of got ruined after that. Dont blame them
-Lila once again slid past Kagami. I really do want Kagami to find out the truth
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Overall I liked the fluff.
But the more episodes I see the more I am convinced the sentimonster bulls*** is real
I REALLY want to be wrong. And I know we probably arent going to get a full on 100% confirmation on if they are or arent sentimonsters because if in season 6 they want to back pedal they can
The music in this episode was really good (the ost not the band playing)
I also really like Kagami's development and my heart breaks for her
8/10
I still have some problems with this but the Adrinette is on point and the character development was on point.
Though I swear if Gabriel gets a redemption I will manifest into the show an kill him with my bare hands
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