#I WISH YOUD STOP HONESTLY ITS FREAKING ME OUT NGL 😭

[another-faceless-girl]

my toxic trait is that i dont think anyone can understand "die your daughter." by susannah joffe as well as i can.

when i die will i just be remembered as your daughter? will people open their facebook accounts and see that ive died and theyll spend 5 seconds thinking about me sadly and say "oh her poor father! his daughter gone so soon!" the true terror of the only remembrance of me being my father.

when i am dead and gone his name will be plastered across my gravestone like graffiti and it will be graffiti but the bad kind. the kind they spray in piss worn allys and public bathroom stalls. when people walk through the cemetery they will look at my gravestone with his last name on it and they will believe that that was my name but it isnt not now not ever but they will believe it and that is more terrifyingly than anything i am capable of conjuring up.

when i am dead and gone my arms folded over my corpse as i lie rotting away in my coffin under the earth there will be nothing i can do to stop him from being my father. right now i can deny deny deny but when i am dead it will be his blood that leaks from my body it will be his name on the stone that stands over my carcass i will have no chance to carve out my veins that run fresh with his blood and replace them with my own i will have no chance to convince people i am not his daughter.