#I MISS ZAYN SOOO BAD WHERE IS HE!!!!

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Literally no existence harder then being someone who likes literally every other major character associated with Antman except for H@nk

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💙Fri 11 Dec ‘20◟̽◞̽

Louis' big show is TOMORROW but that may not even be all we have to look forward to from him! Producer Alex Oriet (half of the duo Saltwives, who have worked with Zayn a lot, and he got his start working with 1D) reposted Louis' “new song” tweet to his insta with a caption- ��soon”. OMG. Billboard had a 'year in livestreams' feature and wrapped up with Louis', saying “the best is yet to come” and reporting that Louis' show is Veeps' bestselling of the year “in excess of $1 million” (so either over a mil so far or a mil over the next best, hard to say, but it'll be well over a million by the end for sure so either makes sense).“I can't wait for tomorrow!” Louis tweeted, SAME, and “feels so good to be back with the boys getting ready. Can't wait for you all to see what we've been working on!” He included the brand new special Live From London twiiter emoji (!), it's a really cute lil vintage TV with the xx smiley on it, and a pic-- it's him looking over the backstage prep (so many screens) and you can see his hair flowing free and long and lovely! You can also see a piece of paper in front of him with 20 lines on it-- even if it is a set list I imagine some lines say “banter with crowd” and such like (as we saw on Louis' tour set list) but that's still soooo many lovely songs :))). Charlie Lightening says “this is going to be special, can’t wait for people to see what we have planned” and LTHQoffical is hitting us hard with the hype, posting another rehearsal pic (he's holding a beer and they didn't even scribble it out! wow almost like there's nothing wrong with that), and a time zone guide showing 66 cities around the world, and a digital fan pack, and they said more merch will be out tomorrow (heeelllp), and there's a show day itinerary-- ticket sales cut off 4 hours before the stream but much more interestingly, don't reopen (for the 28 hours of rewatch) until TWO HOURS after the start time. While they could (probably should) be allowing time for technical difficulties I much prefer to believe it's because we're getting a LONG SHOW YES PLEASE! I like my Louis shows like I like his hair, as long as he can possibly manage!! So that's plenty that we DO know to be excited about at the moment but the mystery of Louis new label also remains a hot topic nonetheless, with the known high cost of a twitter emoji stirring questions of who footed the bill (not something we're ever likely to find out sadly). If his team really understood us in the least they'd set up a viral video style Q and A where every Q pulled out of the bowl was an intensely detailed bookkeeping or promo strategy type query- tbh the faces Louis (or any one of the boys) would make would be 100x more entertaining than they get from any tired trying-to-be-cheeky standard Q and the answers sure would be!

Harry's prerecorded (months ago!) Jingle Ball performance aired at last and OH MY GOSH! SO GOOD! I think we can all agree (I know right?? I can't believe it either) that the backing band, Free Nationals, were phenomenal, and Harry's performance was terrific, just simply next level versions of the songs and Harry's sound in general. What more could we ask? For me, not much. For the Jingle Bell Ball organizers, well, they might have liked something Christmassy I suppose, maybe a holiday cover song, or a “tour of his home and holiday traditions.” LOL too bad! Whatever, they DID get vocal variations all over the place and oh did they work, a little lyric change in Golden (“I'm hoping someday I'll open”?), Harry in a sunny LA backyard (whose? who knows!) and everyone in not remotely festive Gucci. There were some decorations though! Not xmassy though- they were, can you guess, yes that's right: sky blue. And there was TRUMPET! A horn section, like revenge, is best served cold apparently: all these years on we can only assume Julian Bulian is good and sorry for denying Harry his trumpets cause DAMN did that sound GOOD. Julian may not say it but I will: you were SO RIGHT Harry, trumpets on every song!! Please! In fact, if you just took that guy on tour with you... or any of those people really? He can just have a really BIG backing band how about, then we won't have to argue about whether wanting this to be his band is mean to the old band. Anyway I hope the fan who ran into him in LA this morning told him how much we liked the show-- she did take a distanced pic, Harry is in his running gear (mostly black but bright fruity shoes) and holding a beverage. Oh yeah and Fine Line is now available to stream in “3D audio” (there's a moving in a New Direction from 1D joke in here headline writers, have at it) which is something that apparently only works with an Amazon device and is strange because physicists assure me that all sound is 3D, but what do they know. Anyway I'm sure it sounds great to those who can access it but luckily for me the album sounds great in plebian unbranded sound as well.

In the wake of Liam's no-show livestream yesterday fans are full of theories about what could be going on to cause such a thing, except actually it's only one theory; everyone is quick to ascribe the glitch to management struggles. May I simply say: there are so very very many things that could be happening in a person's life, even in a 1D member's life, that could cause a missed event and reducing any of them to 1 Dimensional figures who only have work related problems does them (and rigorous theorizing) a disservice. I hope we can all agree on wanting what's best for Liam, and that that extends to supporting him even if things are going on that are less glamorous than management villainy. I will ascribe one thing to management though-- I do believe the guys do the bulk of their own tweeting etc nearly always, but @Liam's tweet that yesterday's live didn't happen due to “technical difficulties” and they are “looking to reschedule” is one that I will make the exception for, sometimes you can just feel the PR person behind the screen! Tik Tok said it was rescheduled for next Tuesday, but the tweet was after that sooo hmm. The Billboard article about Veeps of course also talked about Liam (his Halloween show had 3.7 BILLION chat messages my god) and Liam's prerecorded alarm content today is Roman teaching Liam to do a Harry impression. How come when Roman does it it sounds like Harry but when Liam does it he sounds like Roman? Tip to Liam, just call it a Roman impression and you've GOT it!

Meanwhile, Lewis Capaldi weighs in on Niall and whether he (Lewis) enjoys golf with uncharaceristic delicacy; “we have different interests,” he says, and he sympathizes with a fan who said they'd slap him to meet Harry: “I understand.”

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Don't know if the anon wanted it but I do want the review for Fine Line 👀

oh yayyyyyy! there it goes! fair warning, i’ve written it upon my first / second listen as i do w all my reviews, bc i feel like that way it manages to include a first impression kind of vibe without it being superficial. i’ve reread and i agree w myself (hehe) and i’ve lifted a few grades bc i’ve been feeling some stuff more lately, but yeah, this was not written now so. just to clarify.

golden: okayyyyy i wasn’t expecting for his voice to sound like this!! like, low and raspy? it sounds more intimate this way, i think? as for the sound, it’s kind of funky and think as an opener, this song really represents the sound he chose for this album… i could be wrong tho, let’s see how it goes on. slightly repetitive but the voice won me over and overall, i really like it.

fave lyrics: i’m out of my head and i know that you’re scared because i’m so open.

8/10

watermelon sugar: when this song starts i’m like ok… i like everything about it… but then the chorus comes in and idk, something annoys me about the ‘watermelon sugar high’, i think it’s hyper metric so that doesn’t sit right w my ears, and then worst lyric ever goes to ‘i want your belly’… so overall it’s a meh from me. the breathe me in / out part sounds so lovely thoooo.

fave lyrics: baby you’re the end of june

6-/10

adore you: this is my fave out of the singles! it’s just boppy and cute, a feel good song. it doesn’t amaze me but i wouldn’t mind listening to it often bc it’s just a happy song and it’s sooo catchy, it’s the only single that truly got stuck in my head. it does sound like a zayn song – like, a lot – in some parts, which isn’t bad per se just… unexpected i guess?

fave lyrics: you don’t have to say you love me, i just wanna tell you something, lately you’ve been on my mind

7,5/10

lights up: at first this song disappointed me very much so idk if i can be completely objective on it, rehearing it i actually really like it… like maybe as a song it’s better than adore you but less catchy so i liked it way less at first? here too, major zayn vibes. it’s growing on me, although there’s still something that i’m not a fan of, idk what it is exactly… maybe the strophe?? i love the ‘shine’ part, not sold on the verse and ‘la da da’, but overall maybe listening to it again i like it better than adore you… it grew on me!

fave lyrics: it’d be so sweet if things just stayed the same

8/10

cherry: oh??? i almost didn’t recognise him, there’s a reverberation in the voice or something? i’m no expert so i’m sorry if i’m bullshitting, i’m just trying to describe what i hear. i feel like i like the music more than i like the words (not the words per se, although the songwriting is kind of childish here, tbh, but more like the delivery). i don’t like this… it’s boring and whiny. (also the ‘coucou’ as a background sound kind of irks me) but it’s a good song, maybe just not memorable or not my personal fave. the ending audio doesn’t make much sense to me bc it’s not something you say in like a voicemail, it’s something that requires a response like, as if he’d recorded a conversation and removed his own voice? or just kind of staged? but i like how the final word fades into music.

fave lyrics: i just miss your accent and your friends (let’s be real, the lyrics are so unimpressive, it was hard to pick a line).

5/10

falling: oh woooooooooow, i love the way his voice sounds without any effect on it… to me, the lyrics just hit deeper this way, but it’s also that the lyrics here are really something else! and the lyrics……. wow again. i’m loving it! it does that thing where it makes me sick to my stomach in a meaningful, beautiful way. oooh there’s a loooong high note too! nothing to add, this is perfect for me.

fave lyrics: [everything wtf. but especially] what if i’m someone you won’t talk about?

10+/10

to be so lonely: i wasn’t expecting where this was going when it started, very beatlesy, soothing sound and soothing voice! there’s something dreamy about it, the pre-chorus especially, that makes the chorus surprising. and then it’s insistent and like… gets groovier and groovier. veeeery beatles, definitely. i’m a fan!

fave lyrics: i’m just an arrogant son of a bitch who can’t admit when he’s sorry

8,5/10

she: oh i looove psychedelic rock!!!! my genreeeee! beatles again, and pink floyd of course as the most obvious influences. (i want you / she’s so heavy?? it reminds me of the lacrosse the universe version also). and i feel like pink floyd for something in the sound, but the whole thing like voice + sound is more beatles, the descriptive side to it… it reminds me of eleanor rigby like… the way the song makes me feel, kind of anxious in a way that’s not necessarily bad? it just makes me feel things. flexing w that instrumental!!!!! wow. i mean this is my jam, i also love the lyrics so it’s a big big yes from me, although i mean, not groundbreaking as in – it’s been done a lot over the 60s and 70s especially… which is why it’s not a ten, but still, great song.

fave lyrics: she lives in daydreams with me

9,5/10

sunflower, vol. 6: cute!!! the lyrics, the sound, the light falsetto part, the funkish beat! oooh and there’s some funky instrument that i’m too ignorant to define, but nice! maybe for my taste it’s kind of messy, i guess in a good way but also in a way that it’s not something i want to listen to a lot, i think? the hooting and howling in the end… interesting… not really my thing and the beatles did it in the 60s but like… cute.

fave lyrics: i’ve got your face hung up high in the gallery

6,5/10

canyon moon: this sounds too much like italian masterpiece ‘acqua azzurra, acqua chiara’ for me to take it completely seriously, but per se it’s quite nice to listen to, it feels almost country? i swear every time the guitar comes in i kinda lose it bc it’s just… sooo much alike, so i’m sorry i can’t really say more about it. cool lyrics and it’s a nice song!

fave lyrics: the world’s happy waiting

7-/10

treat people with kindness: ok this is……… i’m sorry but i’m cringing a bit (a lot). when he comes in it’s not bad, it’s just… the idea of making a song out of a slogan is not genius, to me, like, it’s bound to sound weird and inorganic i think?? i’m sorry, i’m trying to like it but i can’t, like there’s some nice screaming (all together now, just a little bit of kindness) and the gospel chorus per se is amazing but i can’t unhear the lyrics and overall it sounds a bit messy.

fave lyrics: and if we’re here long enough we’ll see it’s all for us and we’ll belong

3/10

fine line: i feel like this is a very fine (hehe) stylistic excercise, again, kind of psychedelic, lots going on w the music, lots of falsetto and some powerful lyrics, but somehow i get distracted while listening to it… kind of (very) boring? especially w how long it is, i guess it aims to make a statement but if so idk, i expected some powerful change throughout? a bridge or something? the mind wanders as you listen to it, one of my least faves for sure.

fave lyrics (these are impressive tho!!): put a price on emotion, i’m looking for something to buy, you’ve got my devotion but man, i can hate you sometimes

5-/10

thank you so much for asking! i do these for myself and like the few friends that care bc i find it interesting and ‘challenging’ to put my thoughts down and grade stuff but also a relaxing pastime at the same time. let me know what you think of course if you want♡

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Chapter 17: I wish I was bigger

Louis POV:

I feel really bad for Harry, he is crying so hard and I hate hearing him like this. Uncle Josh is cleaning up the medicine that spilled on top of the fridge. I sighed and walked over with Harry in my arms, and I reached down and grabbed his blanket

Louis: “can you….” I paused. I was going to ask Uncle Josh to finish Joseph’s punishment… but Harry is bawling his eyes out, so I think Joseph would probably prefer that I wait and deal with it instead.

Josh: “what do you need?”

Louis: “never mind” I said leaving the room with Harry. I went into the Livingroom and I laid down on the couch, with him on top of me, and I covered us with his blanket, and then I wrapped my arms around him and I kissed the top of his head. he cuddled close. “it’s okay Harry” I said rubbing his back.

Harry: “Louiss! It hurtss” he cried.

Louis: “I know it hurts baby, but you can’t do stuff like that”

Harry: “But I th-thought.. I thought” he let out a loud sob.

Louis: “you thought it would help you feel better?” I asked, he nodded. I can feel his tears leaking through my shirt. Ugh. Harry is the youngest, he is definitely the baby boy of the family and his tears kill me.

Harry: “I d-didn’t kn-know it wass b-bad” he said grabbing unto my shirt. “Uncle Joshie is m-meann”

Louis: “Uncle Josh isn’t mean”

Harry: “yesss he iss” he cried.

Louis: “no, if I would have caught you doing that I would have spanked you too, because that really was dangerous, and you need to never do that again” he just let out a little sob and he reached back to rub his bottom. I caught his wrist though. “No rubbing”

Harry: “b-but it HURRRTSS!” he sobbed. I sighed.

Joe: “is harry okay?” he said softly. I looked over and Joey is standing there awkwardly. he put his boxers back on, but that’s it. “I’m sorry I came up… I wanted to make sure everything was okay…”

Louis: “it’s okay… I’ll finish up with you later” he pouted and nodded. he still has tears in his eyes from the first part of his punishment. He walked over and kneeled down next to us, and he started playing with Harry’s hair.

Joe: “what’s wrong with our little baby boy?” he said smiling and tickling Harry a little. Harry started wiggling around, and he giggled a little, which made me smile and join in, soon harry was doing a mix of laughing and crying, which was actually kind of funny. He started wiggling more and he screamed and laughed while trying to push our tickly hands away. “do you want us to stop tickling you?”

Harry: “YESSS!!!”

Joe: “then no more tears kid”

Harry: “okkaaay okay!” I laughed and we both stopped tickling him. Harry pulled his blankie up over his head to hide. At least he isn’t sobbing his heart out anymore.

Joe: “what happened?” Joey asked, looking at me.

Louis: “He thought he could make himself feel better faster by taking a bunch of medicine at the same time” Joey’s eyes widened, and I saw the panic in them. “Uncle Josh caught him before he could though, he was crying because he got a way harder spanking then he is used to getting” Harry looked up

Harry: “can I has some l-lotion? Please big brudderrrr!!” he said giving me his big puppy dog eyes, which is a thousand times worse with all his sad tears.

Josh: “No” he said walking into the room. “you may not have lotion Harry, you almost hurt yourself, and maybe a sore bottom for a few days will help you remember not to do it again” Harry pouted, and more tears rolled down his face. Ugh, Joey almost got him to stop crying. Harry hid his face in my chest again.

Joe: “but Uncle Josh, it-“

Josh: “Shush Joseph. I said no”

Joe: “But Louis is his legal guardian, not you, and-“

Louis: “Joseph Adam Jonas!!” I said glaring at him. “You better get rid of that attitude! I already talked to you about that today, do we need to discuss it further?” he looked down.

Joe: “no sir…”

Louis: “then apologize” he looked at me, and then he looked over at Josh

Joe: “I’m sorry Uncle Josh… I… just feel bad for him” he said rubbing Harry’s back “He has been so sick and... he is the baby, and…. I know your spankings hurt a lot” he said cringing. Uncle Josh does spank harder than anybody in our family… including grandpa, not counting the spanking I got from Grandpa when I crashed my car though, that was the worst. So I can kind of understand where Joseph is coming from, I was worried about our little brother too. It is really cute that Joey is so protective of Harry. but that doesn’t give him the right to be so disrespectful towards Uncle Josh.

Josh: “he is the baby… he is so young, and small. His body can’t handle all of the medicine that he was planning on taking. I think you both agree that he is better off with a sore bottom, then ending up in the hospital getting his stomach pumped or worse…” Joe and I both nodded.

Harry: “Louis?” harry said in a small voice. I looked down at him and moved his crazy hair out of his eyes. “I’m sorry I’m so stupid, I ju-just don’t feel good, and I wanted to make it better”

Louis: “why didn’t you come tell me? or tell Uncle josh? or anybody…?”

Harry: “I d-didn’t want you to k-know that I’m still sick”

Louis: “why?? baby boy, don’t ever hide something like that from me!” I said kissing his forehead

Harry: “I don’t want to be in bed no more” he said pouting.

Josh: “I think baby boy needs to go to the doctor… I don’t know if you guys have taken him already, but He doesn’t seem to be getting better” I nodded, Harry was doing a little better, I thought he was anyway… everybody always calls Harry baby boy, because that’s what our parents have always called him, but it totally fits, because he is 100% the baby boy

Harry: “I don’t want too!” he whined.

Louis: “well you don’t get a choice baby boy” I said bopping his nose. He scrunched up his face.

Harry: “I wish I was the older brudder” he said pouting.

Joe: “trust me, it doesn’t change too much, Louis and I both have a sore butt, don’t we louis?” I groaned and nodded.

Louis: “we sure do. Even if you were the oldest brother, uncle Josh or our grandparents would make you go to the doctor still”

Harry: “this family is-“ Joey covered Harry’s mouth before he could get himself in trouble.. again.

Joe: “such a blessing! Huh?” Harry rolled his eyes and I laughed. These kids crack me up. Joey uncovered Harrys mouth and he stood back up. “Can I go upstairs for a little bit Louis?”

Louis: “umm… I think we were in the middle of a discussion downstairs”

Joe: “yeah but… now you are too busy cuddling with Harry, he doesn’t want to be done cuddling yet” now it was my turn to roll my eyes.

Louis: “Fine, but I have to work tonight, so don’t get too comfortable up there, you aren’t getting out of this”

Joe: “yes sir, I know” I nodded, and he leaned down and kissed Harry’s head and then he left the room.

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Joe’s POV:

Thank God Louis got distracted with Harry because my ass is already hurting so much! I am sooo freaking relieved to get off his lap! But it did make me sad to see Harry so upset. I saw Louis phone, so I quickly grabbed it and then I headed upstairs. I was going to go into my room, but I share a room with Zayn and Liam and they are probably both in there, so I stayed in the hallway and I called Elena because I haven’t been able to talk to her in awhile.

(Phone Conversation)

Elena: “Hello?”

Joe: “Hey!”

Elena: “oh my god! Is this Joe??” I smiled

Joe: “Yes! it’s me! how are you?”

Elena: “I’m doing good, but I miss you! I am sooo happy you called! did you get a new phone?”

Joe: “no..” I said frowning. “this is my older brother’s phone”

Elena: “ugh! I miss talking to you!!!”

Joe: “I miss talking to you too, I’m sorry we got together and then I kind of went MIA”

Elena: “it’s okay, I understand! I just am really excited for you to move here! and your brother is going to work for my dad, so I think we will see each other a lot more”

Joe: “ehh… about that… I need to talk to you about something” I said biting my lip...

Elena: “oh.. what’s up? do you not want to be with me?” she said awkwardly

Joe: “No! I do! I really like you, but…” I hesitated.

Elena: “what’s wrong?”

Joe: “this is a little awkward, because I feel like dumb… But my brothers are kind of… we he is protective of me, in such an annoying way” she giggled

Elena: “that’s cute”

Joe: “noo, it’s… embarrassing!”

Elena: “I think it’s adorable”

Joe: “well, it’s not… Louis told me that I’m not allowed to date you until he gets to know you better, and he wants to talk to your father too about it.” I said leaning up against the wall. I really am embarrassed that I am 18 years old and I have to wait for my older brother’s permission to date a girl. it’s sooo awkward, I didn’t even want to tell her…

Elena: “so… we can’t date?”

Joe: “I.. can’t. I’m so sorry, but I want to! Please wait for me?”

Elena: “but what if Louis doesn’t like me?” she mumbled.

Joe: “you are amazing! He will love you”

Elena: “could we just date and not tell him?” I looked down… I could just lie to louis and just pretend that I’m not dating her… but… I don’t want to lie to him, and I don’t want to go behind his back and date her… I know that that would probably disappoint him a lot, and I hate doing that! I really do want his approval… I know that’s probably lame…

Joe: “uh… My brother does a lot for me, and he.. works so hard to make sure me and my little brothers are taken care of, and I respect him a lot, and… I know it sucks, but… but his approval is kind of important to me….” I said trailing off. Ugh… I wish Louis and Kevin would just… not care.

Elena: “is his approval more important to you then I am?” my heart sunk a little…

Joe: “please don’t make me lie to him” I said softly.

Elena: “would you?” ugh I really like Elena… like a lot… a lot! a lot! but this is not how I expected this conversation to go…

Joe: “I would, but... I don’t want to.” I said honestly. “you would rather me lie to my entire family, then just… wait for me?”

Elena: “I just don’t think it’s fair… your brother isn’t protective, he is controlling”

Joe: “it’s not like that…”

Elena: “yes it is… you are an adult now, he can’t control you anymore if you don’t let him”

Joe: “I don’t think it’s a control thing… I-“

Elena: “He told you that you can’t date me until he approves… doesn’t that seem controlling to you?”

Joe: “He loves me, he wants to make sure that you are good for me…”

Elena: “he loves controlling you” is louis just being controlling?

Joe: “I wouldn’t let my little brother date a girl that I didn’t know either… do you think I’m controlling?”

Elena: “that’s different”

Joe: “it’s not different”

Elena: “you are making excuses for him… do you not want to date me? you could just tell me that you don’t”

Joe: “I do want to date you! I just want to do it with my brother, and your fathers’ approval”

Elena: “but why?” she kind of whined. “they don’t have to date, it should be our decision”

Joe: “but don’t you want them to like… be happy for us and stuff?”

Elena: “being with you is more important to me then what they think about It. I really like you…”

Joe: “I really like you too”

Zayn: “is that your giiiirlllfriend?” he said loudly, making me jump.

Joe: “Gosh! Zayn!” I said putting my hand on my chest. He really did scare me, probably because I know I shouldn’t be on Louis’ phone right now. ugh.

Zayn: “Tell her I said Hi!” he said happily. I rolled my eyes.

Joe: “go away” I mumbled.

Elena: “you want me to go?”

Joe: “No! my little brother is being annoying, I don’t want you to go away, I want him to” I said glaring at Zayn.

Zayn: “you are so grumpy. We should change your name to Grumpy Adam Jonas, instead of Joseph” I rolled my eyes.

Joe: “Hold on a sec Elena” I said before pulling the phone away from my ear and covering up the speaker. “I think you had a long enough break, go clean, because your part of the room is a disaster” his little annoying smirk totally fell off of his face.

Zayn: “Noo! Joeee” he whined. he HATES cleaning. “I’ll stop bugging you, I promise!”

Joe: “I know you will stop bugging me, because you’ll be too busy cleaning, go!” I said pointing to our room. He shook his head no. I sighed. “come here and get a spanking then, if you don’t want to listen”

Zayn: “I’ll listen” he said pouting. I pointed to our room again and he lowered his head like a sad little puppy and he went back into our room. I put my phone back up to my ear.

Joe: “Elena?” I asked softly

Elena: “Yes, I’m still here”

Joe: “I’m really sorry about all of this… I know it’s annoying, and I wish it wasn’t like this, but… it would mean a lot to me if you would just wait for me a little bit… but if you aren’t okay with that… I will do whatever makes you happy, because you also mean a lot to me”

Elena: “I can wait for you… but I don’t like it”

Joe: “I don’t like it either”

Elena: “so… we are broken up?”

Joe: “nooo don’t call it that! that makes me sad”

Elena: “we will just call it ‘waiting for louis’” I laughed

Joe: “sounds good”

Elena: “but…. If I see your cute face, it’s going to be really hard for me not to kiss you”

Joe: “Ugh… that’s going to be really hard for me too!”

Elena: “I hope your brothers don’t make us wait too long” she said sadly “I like you a lot, and I want to be with you”

Joe: “I like you a lot too, and I will be bugging Louis constantly until he lets me date you, I promise”

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Louis POV:

Josh: “I noticed that the boxes are on the verge of tipping in the garage, so I’m going to rearrange them… and I’m going to check and see what Nick is doing.”

Louis: “okay, thank you Uncle Josh” he nodded

Harry: “Can I go play with Nicky?” he asked looking up at me. he is still kind of crying, so its kind of funny that he wants to go play.

Louis: “I thought you didn’t feel good?”

Harry: “I don’t, but… I wanna play with Nicky”

Louis: “I don’t think I want you to be running around outside right now”

Harry: “but I won’t run around... I can color on the driveway with sidewalk chalk.”

Louis: “the sidewalk chalk is probably already packed buddy”

Harry: “but I want to go outside” he said pouting

Josh: “it’s a nice day outside, a tiny bit of fresh air might do him some good, and I can keep an eye on him and make him come back inside if I think he needs to” Harry has been cooped up in this house sick for awhile, so I can understand why he wants to go outside.

Harry: “please Louis?” I sighed

Louis: “I guess, but be good, and don’t overdo it out there” He smiled

Harry: “thankkk you louis!” he said kissing my cheek. He then sat up to get off of me, but he yelped and jumped off the couch when his sore bottom touched my legs. “Owwie” he said pouting and rubbing his bottom. Before I could even react, he started sobbing again, really hard. I sat up

Louis: “Harry, it’s okay buddy”

Harry: “it h-h-hurrrtts” he cried. I looked over at Josh, and he is frowning. I know disciplining them is very important, but It’s so hard to see them in pain... I’m like really tempted to give Harry Lotion, or an ice pack, but I know that Uncle Josh would have none of that. Harry doesn’t get really hard spankings like he got today, we all baby him way too much

Louis: “I don’t think Baby boy should go outside today” I said to Josh, he nodded in agreement, and Harry started crying even harder. Josh walked over, and he picked Harry up and hugged him.

Josh: “tonight at bedtime I’ll give you some lotion, okay buddy?” Harry nodded, and he clung onto Josh. I smiled, Uncle Josh can try to be strict all he wants, but not even he can handle seeing Harry like this.

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*later that day*

Joe’s POV:

After I got off the phone with Elena I quickly went downstairs and snuck Louis phone back to where I found it. I thought about staying down here and hanging out, but… I honestly don’t want to chance Louis seeing me and deciding to finish my butt whooping right now, it already hurts so much. I hope he forgets!!! but I know that he won’t… I pouted and made my way back upstairs to my room. Liam and Zayn are using an old beanie baby bear and throwing it back and forth.

Joe: “Zayn.. I told you to clean” Zayn looked over at me just in time for the bear to go flying into the side of his face. Liam and I both laughed at him, and he picked it up and chucked it back at Liam.

Zayn: “sorry Joey, I got distracted, I am cleaning” I rolled my eyes. it’s so hard to get Zayn to clean, because well… he hates it! but he does get distracted easily.

Joe: “I’ll help you for a little bit”

Liam: “I will help too”

Zayn: “thanks guys” we started out by pulling everything out from under his bed, and I was shocked by how much stuff he fit under there. it was the biggest pile of stuff I ever seen. We started working on separating it into different piles. We have one pile of stuff we are going to pack for him, and then stuff he wants to sell at the yard sale, or donate, and then a pile of stuff we need to throw away. and Liam was actually kind of more help then Zayn is being. I had to give Zayn a couple little bottom smacks to keep him focused on the task at hand.

Liam: “aw! Look! It’s Harry’s old monkey” he said holding up this little tiny monkey stuffed animal.

Joe: “I forgot about that thing!” I said grabbing it. it’s only got one eye, and his got stuffing coming out of his ear. Our grandma gave Harry this monkey a long time ago, and he carried it everywhere with him, and then when he lost it, under Zayns bed apparently, he freaked out and cried about it for weeks. Louis got him the blanket that he chooses to carry around with him now. he isn’t as obsessed with it as he was with this monkey though.

Liam: “should we give it back to him?”

Joe: “I don’t know, it would probably make him happy, but it was so annoying having to deal with him freaking out when we forget to bring it someplace”

Zayn: “he is older now, maybe he won’t be so attached to it anymore”

Joe: “lets…. Let Louis decide” I said walking over and putting it on my bed. “okay, so we need a trash bag, and some boxes”

Liam: “I’ll go get them” he said jumping over a pile of stuff and leaving the room. thank god because I definitely don’t want to go down there.

Zayn: “I don’t want to pack my stuff yet! What if I need something?”

Joe: “all of this stuff was lost under your bed for who knows how long, and you haven’t needed any of it you’ll be fine without it for a few weeks”

Zayn: “but look at all this stuff I forgot about! It’s like Christmas!” he said as Liam came back into the room with some boxes and trash bags.

Joe: “was louis still cuddling with Harry?”

Liam: “no, I saw Harry in the kitchen eating some Jello. He was all pouty and sad though”

Zayn: “why?”

Joe: “he got in trouble with Uncle Josh, and I think it was the hardest spanking he has gotten so far”

Zayn: “is he okay? wait… Uncle Joshie is here?”

Liam: “Joey messed up and now we have a babysitter”

Joe: “well… you guys always have a babysitter, I messed up and got myself one”

Zayn: “HA HA and you are 18!” I picked up Harry’s little stuffed monkey toy and I threw it at him

Joe: “shut up” I mumbled. Zayn is ALWAYS the first one to pick on me. but… I deserve it because I pick on him just as much. Liam and Zayn started talking about their friends, and I got back to work, and they joined me. after about a half an hour of cleaning/packing, I picked up this blue notebook and I opened it up to the first page to see what it is, and I chuckled. It’s Zayn’s Journal and the first page says ‘Dear Joe and Liam’ but before I could read it Zayn tried to grab it from me.

Zayn: “DON’T READ THAT! IT’S MINEE!”

Joe: “But look, it’s got a note to me in it”

Zayn: “Give it to mee!” he whined.

Joe: “dear joe and liam” I said holding it out of his reach “if you find this do not read it! this is private and for my eyes only-“ I read out loud

Zayn: “JOEEESEPH! Stop it!” He said jumping up to try to get it.

Joe: “But I wasn’t finished reading the note you wrote for us shorty” I said laughing at his failed attempt to get it. I’m not going to read any more of his journal, because I would HATE it if someone invaded my privacy like that, and I will never do that to my brothers. but it is kind of funny to mess with him.

Zayn: “you are meann! Please give it back Joey?” he asked softly. “it… it’s my journal about mom and dad” my heart sunk a little… when mom and dad died we were all given journals because writing can be a really good coping mechanism. I haven’t written in mine in a long time, but I can tell that this book is really important to Zayn and I feel horrible for even touching it.

Joe: “I’m just kidding buddy, I wasn’t planning on reading it, I won’t ever read your journal, I promise” I said handing it back to him. he closed it and hugged it.

Zayn: “close your eyes so I can hide it… both of you” Liam and I both covered our eyes, and I heard Zayn moving stuff around, and then he told us we could open our eyes. our bedroom door opened.

Louis: “wow, you guys need to clean your room”

Zayn: “Ugghh Louis! I’ve been cleaning our room most of the day” he said groaning and falling onto his bed, burying his face into his pillow.

Liam: “we pulled everything out from under his bed, and we have been separating it into different piles so we can figure out what to pack, sell, or throw out… it looks like a disaster, but we are cleaning”

Louis: “Zayn, did you tell them thank you for helping you?”

Zayn: “Yes I did… thank you” he said looking up

Louis: “thank you guys” he added.

Liam: “your welcome”

Joe: “no problem”

Louis: “I hate to interrupt all this cleaning, but… I need you downstairs Joe”

Joe: “right now?” I asked trying not to whine.

Louis: “yes… I have to work tonight, and we still need to finish up our discussion”

Joe: “but… but Zayn needs my help”

Louis: “well Zayn looks like he wants to take a cleaning break” UGH!

Zayn: “YES! no more cleaning!”

Louis: “come downstairs Joseph” he said sternly

Joe: “but Louis! I-“ he walked in the room and I flinched away, but he grabbed my arm and started dragging me “WAIT! we found Harry’s old monkey!” like thats going to save me from this...

Louis: “well, good, you can give it to him first” Zayn gave it to me and then Louis started pulling me downstairs. I just hung my head and followed him.

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Hey guys! sorry for not updating the other story, I need to go back and read some of that one since its been so long, I’ll get back into it, I just need some time. please message me thoughts/ideas or whatever for either story! CLICK HERE thanks! -Hannah

[ificouldflytotheclouds]

And somehow the stars align

So I was just thinking of my top favorite artists of all time: Taylor Swift, One Direction, and 5sos. And they strangely all have similar pathways even though they're on different roads. 

The beginning. 

Out of the three Taylor is the artist I can tell you the least as to how I fell into her music but it I believe it manifested from a friends recommendations. 

One Direction I remember seeing the countdown for WMYB on my sidebar every day I was on youtube, by the time the music video dropped I finally clicked on the videos because I was intrigued by this video trying to encroach on my life. 

5sos was a friend recommendation. 5 Years ago (+1 day) she sent my a link to try hard. I didn’t listen to it at the time because I didn’t want to download anything onto my mom’s computer. A month later she sent me the link to Luke’s cover of please don’t go, it wasn’t till I looked into his other work did I realize he was part of 5sos. Check yes Juliet and drop in the ocean that won me over.

Getting into them

I saw Taylor perform at the mall and after the show we got a signed cd (rip, at the time someone standing near us was like can we meet her after and security was like no, something about being too many ppl, but like…)

For 1d my friend had me watch their video diaries and I fell in love. We saw them at the same mall (and when I say mall I mean the Mall of America, aka the biggest mall in the U. S. A. anyways…) that was crazy busy. We didn’t have tickets but we went to watch anyways, that was fun, and it actually spawned a friendship with someone who went to my school and is now one of my besties now (who was the person who introduced me to 5sos). 

5sos. I remember wanting to go to the Stars, Stripes and Maple Syrup Tour (actually, I completely forgot about this until today, I forgot how whipped I was for them before slsp came out). But we couldn’t go. (rip, wasn’t able to go to wwat for same/similar reasons, but this year finally traveling to Chicago for a show so it kinda makes up for it). Got tickets for Rock Out with Your Socks Out Tour but we ended up selling them to go to a second 1d show. I don’t regret this decision, because 1) that was ones for the books and 2) we knew that this might be the last time we will ever see them (once Zayn left me and my friend were intent on going to more than one show). Back to 5sos, the day of their show we almost ended up getting into their radio show, but we still go to see them walk past. 

The second album ‘Hiatus’

This is where things strangely align

Way back to middle school I wasn’t into music the same way I am now, it was healthier, lol. I still loved Taylor but I didn’t get fearless until Christmas, I fell in love with that album on my grandma’s staircase. I watched all the behind the scenes pictures, but compared to the information that goes out now I knew nothing, I just knew the bigger things (I think this is why I always struggle/feel like I don’t fit in with online Taylor stan culture, bc it wasn’t how I fell for her and her music). We tried to get tickets to the fearless tour but were unsuccessful.

Before I begin with 1d, I also want to remind you that Spotify has not always been around, and even then I didn’t download it till sometime in 2017. I don’t even know when it comes to the tmh era. Back sophomore/junior year when I got into things it would be in waves (it’s starting to go back to that which is healthy). So tmh was when I wasn’t following 1d so much. My friend invited me to see a prescreening of the this is us movie. I /sort of/ forced myself to listen to tmh. TMH era might have been one of their best but there’s a reason why it took me a while to get into this album, it’s just not my fav, I find it the least memorable, even though generally speaking its a better album than uan. (I still love the album don’t get me wrong)

5sos, oh 5sos, just trying to figure yourselves out. I don’t like talking about this much, it’s important to acknowledge but it can also feed negativity. Them as people were getting harder to stand and the fandom was getting to be too much, so I had to say goodbye to social media side. I don’t regret this decision and I really wish I had done this at one point for 1d, but with that, it was a little different (baby gate being announcement was hell). I still loved their music but my friend was pressuring me not to listen to it, so that winter I didn’t buy livesos, but I do remember a year later I listening to the skh ep, and enjoying it (Even though I was iffy about skh at the time). School had started and I was kinda out of the loop so I don’t think I actually knew when sgfg came out (Even though I defs followed a few 5sos ppl still, just not update accounts at the time)

Even though I wasn’t there for sgfg I equate this time period with the self-titled album era - post album release because I was there but I wasn’t. I liked the album but it ended up being the least memorable, similar to take me home. 

3rd album hoopla

For each of them, the hype began months before the album was released, most likely starting with the drop of a single and riding a high from there.

For Taylor it started with her live stream announcing the 3rd album, to mine that released when I was in a cafe in the Northwoods, the album release week was epic, we finally got tickets to see her on tour (for my friends 15th birthday, 15 I still cry I go to listen to this live when I was 15). I EMBODIED THIS ERA. I had my first crush, the world was magical, I was in a world wind.

This was my school friend forcing me to let my fangirl out lol. (For 1d this wasn’t their peak compared to Taylor and 5sos currently, but it was a very important era for me as a fan). It started with me going to the prescreening of this is us, wow I loved them. SNL performances, being excited for the first show, I had all the lyrics printed out so I could sing them...good times. (I feel like 1d’s best era was tmh but I wasn’t there so its not my #1 era as a fan, from there it’s hard to pick bc I didnt get to see them during wwat, I did with FOUR/OTRA, but there was also DRAMA with that era, and then there was MITAM mini era which got us high and dry(ingourtears)).

And now here we are for 5sos’ 3rd album. You can FEEL that this one is different. SGFG was good, heck, that is one of the best albums I have ever heard, and ngl I was low key nervous as to how they were going to out beat it. But that album was rushed, they didn’t get as much time off as it feels, but this album there is SOOO SOOO much love put in this album. And it goes beyond the lyrics. They really pushed themselves, instrumentally, emotionally, vocally, as people. There is growth, expansion. They reinvented themselves, and yet they are just an embodiment of who they always were, the lessons they’ve learned, and just a better more empowered version of themselves. I wish I could remember if it was pre or post want you back but I ended up getting into SGFG (properly) around this time. THe first few songs made it hard to get into the album when I had listened to it in the past. But I was finally able to skip around those (this is one of those times where I probs would've listened to the album earlier if I had spotify at the time) and later fall in love with them. I think that album came in at the right time. I got to go to 5sos3, got tickets for meet you there, youngblood is amazing. Life is great.

Since the 3rd album hoopla for 1d and Taylor

I got to see both of them from row, in the same year,  b stage for 1d and center catwalk for Taylor. Still love them, they’re chill, since 2015 I can say I’ve seen Niall at least once every year, 2 times for OTRA, met him during his golf tournament in ‘16, 2 radio shows in ‘17 on which Liam also played at. I have a Harry concert in a few days, seeing Niall twice this year to continue the tradition, might see Taylor (tixs are sooooo expensive, don’t love her new album that much but this girl loves  Taylor sooo, I’m not going to miss it - I don’t hate it but it’s just not the same as how I feel in love with yb instantly, it doesn’t give me that feel), and I get to see 5sos again in the fall (I want to go to their Chicago radio show so bad bc it’s close to the Chicago Niall show, but not close enough, darn)

[5sosbroken-kitten]

Ashton’s first night was a restless one. He spent the night tossing and turning. Every time he shut his eyes terrible nightmares would being. He had night terrors as a kid but none since he was 10, now they were returning.

“Hey kid. Are you alright?” Zayn shook Ashton’s shoulder. Ashton’s eyes open widely and looked up at Zayn. He nodded but was out of breath and clearly still panicked. “You’ve been moving around for hours. Are you normally this fidgety of a sleeper?” He questioned. “Y-Yeaah.. I just get like.. really bad dreams. I dunno. I’m okay. Could I maybe get some water?” He questioned softly. Zayn nodded and left the room for a moment, then returning with the cold bottle of water. “Here.” He tossed it over to him. “Thank you.” Ashton smiled softly and took a sip of water.

“I’m going back to sleep. I’m here if you need anything.” Zayn spoke, and was asleep instantly once his head hit the pillow. Ashton was a little confused at the fact the man who had only 12 hours ago threatened to shoot him, was waking him up concerned why he was so restless. Ash wondered if Zayn was just pretending to care or if when he was on the job he had to just turn his emotions off and when he was at home he was able to be himself. Ashton gave him the benefit of the doubt that he truly had a heart somewhere in there.

After Zayn woke up with him Ashton didn’t sleep much. Luna had cuddled into Ashton at point in the night, which brought some comfort to him but he really just wanted to be home. His home was where his sleep meds were, and his inhaler.. he should have probably mentioned to his kidnappers that he had asthma.. Ashton also missed his own bed, and personal space. Maybe one day he’d have a room of his own again.

Ashton was staring at the ceiling and before he knew it, Zayn and Ari’s alarm clocks were going off.

“Hey Ash. How did you sleep?” Called Ari, who was still lounging in her bed.

“Uhm.. I don’t know. Not well.” Ashton admitted.

“Oh no.. I’m sure it’s just the stress of everything and a new space. You’re body will adjust soon enough.” She spoke optimistically.

“I hope so..” Ashton said trailing off. He wasn’t sure how many sleepless nights his body could handle, and who knows how long the stress of being kidnapped would last.

“I’m going to take a shower. Boss wants us out the door by 6:30.” Zayn groaned as he got up and headed to the bathroom, half naked with only his boxers on. Ashton couldn’t help but take a quick peek at his abs.

“He’s not much of a morning person.” Ariana explained as she hoped out of bed. She was wearing little booty shorts, and a tank top that barley came to the waistband of her shorts. Ashton thought about how cute she was.

“How’s our patient doing?” Ari asked walking over to Ashton’s bed and sitting down next to him. She looked down at the kitten who was cuddled in Ash’s chest. “Good.. I think. She hasn’t been crying or anything so that’s a good sign.” Ashton explained.  Ari reached down and looked at the kitten’s leg, and unraveled the bandage.

“Everything looks to be healing good. I’ll change her dressing in a few hours and she’ll be good to go for the day.” Ariana explained with a smile. “Why are you so good at this?” Ashton questioned curiously. “I’m a nurse. I normally work on people, but animals aren’t too different when it comes to cuts and things like that. I work in trauma so I see a lot of shit.” Ari explained as she got up off the bed. “Oh.. Wow that’s nuts.” Ashton spoke shocked. “It is. But I love my job. It’s so amazing saving people like that.” The brown haired girl said as she got up off the bed and began walking towards her closet. Ashton sat up in the bed and placed Luna down in her little cat bed. He stood up and was reminded about the chain on his ankle as he had began to walk. Ashton came crashing down on the ground. Ari came rushing out of the closet to Ashton’s side. “What happened? Are you okay?” She asked, sitting him up.

“Uhm Yeah.. I just forgot about the ankle thing and began walking… Stupid.” He frowned and touched his forehead as it hurt, he realized he had scratched his head on the floor.

“You aren’t stupid. It’s okay. Let me get a bandaid.” She spoke softly to him, like if she made fun of him, he would break. Ariana returned with a small bandaid and placed it on the small cut in his forehead.

“Zayn has the key to unlock you.. so we will have to wait till after he’s out.” She explained. “Also I’m picking you up some clothes today so you don’t have to wear Zayn’s. What’s your style?” Ari asked.

“I dunno.. I don’t care I guess.” Ashton shrugged, that wasn’t the truth, he had a specific style but he felt weird requesting clothes.

“Sooo. If I bought you a dress, you’d wear it?” Ari smirked with chuckle. “Or if I bought you a shirt with my face on it.. you’d wear it?”

Ashton chuckled. “I mean technically I don’t think I’d have a choice, right?” It was true. He would have to do whatever they said.

“No you don’t really. A dress and a shirt of me. Got it. But on the days I don’t feel like humiliating you.. What do you want to wear? Seriously?” She questioned.

Ashton and Ari spent over half an hour discussing what he should wear. Ashton liked the idea of letting Ari be his personal stylist. He liked the idea of not having to think about things.. like what to wear.

Finally Zayn was out of the washroom and dressed. “Babe, can you let the kid out please?” She questioned him as he was checking his phone.

“Yup.” Zayn spoke walking over and taking the key out of his pocket. Zayn leaned down and began to unlock him.

“This is kind of kinky.” Ariana said as she watched her boyfriend free Ashton. Ashton blushed softly.. that had been the second time someone had mentioned kinks while Zayn had him restrained.

“Yeah, I guess it kind of is.” Zayn nodded in agreement, but the conversation was dropped after that. Ashton figured they were worried he’d make a comment about consent and how being kidnapped wasn’t his idea of kinky.. but he didn’t make any comment. Ashton just blushed and then focused on getting dressed for the day.

“I’m off. Bye.” Zayn said going over and giving Ari a quick kiss, and then waving at Ashton as he rushed out of the room.

“You aren’t going with him?” Ash questioned Ari. She shook her head. “Nah, I don’t normally go on business ventures with them. Only when Zayn picks me up from work or is dropping me off somewhere. Like yesterday, I had just come from work. But today I’m off. So in the house is typically, me, Shawn. Luke’s sister Selena and Niall. The rest of the guys are out for most the day.” She explained as she lead Ash into the living room.

A girl and Shawn were sitting in the couches talking. “Selena, this is Ash. Ashton this is Selena. And Shawn you met yesterday.” Ariana introduced him. Selena did not look like Luke at all, he was a little taken aback by this.

“Selena and Luke are both adopted but grew up together. Their other sibling is Liam, who I think you met yesterday.” Ari explained as he had clearly been wondering. This made a lot more sense. Ashton knew that blood didn’t matter, family was family.

“Hey Ashton. Luke told me about everything. This really sucks. I’m sorry.” She frowned. “If it helps at all, I gave him a peice of my mind about the whole thing.” She spoke.

“Thanks.” Ashton spoke with a small smile. “What do you want to eat?” Ari asked Ashton. He shook his head, he truthfully still didn’t feel hungry. “You need to eat. What do you want?” She asked him again, not taking no for an answer. “Uhm.. I dunno I guess I’d eat some toast.” He finally admitted, not that he was hungry. Ari began walking away and Ashton grabbed on to her arm, he didn’t want to be left alone, Ariana was the only one he had trusted yet. She smiled at him. “Kid I’m literally just going over there. Here. Shawn won’t bite. Just sit next to him for a bit.” She suggested, gently tugging him over to sit next to Shawn on the couch.

“I know you are scared. I would be too, If I were you. But seriously you don’t have to worry about me. I swear I’m only here to help you.” Shawn said sweetly. “Selena on the other hand. I don’t know if I would trust her. I hear she’s got glitter bombs.” He spoke loudly so she could hear him.

“Hey! Don’t start turning the new kid against me. I am trust worthy. Just cause my brother is a kidnapper, doesn’t mean I am.” She protested. Ashton giggled at their interaction.

“So where are you from?” Shawn questioned. “New York City. Born and raised.” He explained. Ash assumed the people here already knew all about him since he was sure his information was all over the news by now.

“Me too.. Well born, I was raised all over. But my roots were mainly NYC, but now they are where ever Liam is.” He explained. “Luke said you used to be an EA?” Ashton questioned, as Ari handed Ashton a plate with some toast on it. "Thanks." He spoke smiling at her softly.

"Yeah, so speaking of that. I am not like an actual teacher but was an educational assistant so I have resources and stuff so we can work on your schooling." Shawn explained with a smile.

"Yeah, that's cool with me." Ashton smiled and took a few bites of his toast. "Okay, well maybe we can start today and figure out what you have left in school and what you were working on. As soon as your done your toast." Shawn suggested. Ashton nodded, and set the plate down on the table, not eating much of the 'breakfast' if you could call it that. "I'm ready now."

Shawn and Ashton spent hours doing school work. Ashton liked to learn and was just glad he was doing something in the moment. Take his mind off of what was happening around him.. distract himself from the fact he had been kidnapped.

- A Few Hours Later.-

Ashton was in the living room sitting on the couch talking with Niall who was Calum's boyfriend, and Calum was the gangs get away driver. Ash was slowly starting to learn about all the roles in the gang. Luke was the leader, Zayn and Harry were the muscle who did the dirty work, Louis was the customer person who dealt with a lot of the 'sales', and Liam was the body guard for whoever was the distributor that day, which was normally Michael but Selena and Niall sometimes helped out as well. Ashton still had no idea what it was they dealt, but Ashton assumed it was drugs. Niall was a talker but he didn't explain the gangs dealings no matter how many times Ashton asked.

"So Shawn and Ari are the only ones that like don't really do gang stuff?" Ash questioned. "Well yes and no. Ariana fixes us up when we get hurt, and has connections in the hospital that will do surgery and not report bullet wounds. So she's connected but doesn't do the actual gang stuff. And Shawn.. well he just he visits our customers sometimes." Niall spoke. Which only left Ash with more questions. "That's enough about 5sos, What do you do for fun?" Niall questioned.

"Uhm, I like to read.. And I'm really good at baking, and painting. I also play piano but that was more my dad forcing me to learn, but I enjoy it sometimes." Ash explained. "What about you?" He questioned, politely trying to make conversation.

"Baking! Fun, you will have to bake for us. Hear that Ari? Ash here is a baker." He called over to the brown haired girl who was making dinner in the kitchen. "Good. We need someone around here who can make us some sweet treats. I am so sick of store bough cookies." She groaned. Ashton chuckled at her despise of store bough goods.

"I am more a social person. So my idea of fun, is parties and karaoke, and going out for drinks." Niall explained. Just as he finished talking the basement door opened and in walked the whole crew that had been out for the day.

"Smells amazing." Micheal spoke as soon as he stepped into the living room. He walked over to the couch and plodded down. Ashton watched as Liam walked over to Shawn and picked him up into his arms kissing him. They both looked so happy. Ashton wondered if he'd ever have that... someone who just couldn't wait to wrap their arms around him and kiss him as soon as they got home. He smiled softly to himself at the thought.

Luke walked into the room and sat down on the couch beside Ashton. Harry and Louis walked into the room behind Luke but stayed on the other side of the room talking to each other. Ash took note that Zayn was missing from the room.

"How was your day Ashton?" Luke questioned him. Ashton looked up at him and smiled softly. "Uh, Good. I guess. I mean Shawn and I did some school work and I got to know Niall, and met Selena." He spoke. "How was your day?" Ashton questioned, Luke appeared to be a little shocked by the question. Maybe he didn't think that his hostage would care about his day.

"It was good. Eventful, which most my days are, but it was a good eventful today." Luke explained. "That's good.. What did you do?" Ashton attempted to pry, he just wanted to understand what he was dealing with. Luke smirked at him. "Good try Ashton. I am not telling you anything else about this place, it's more knowledge you don't need to know. If you ever plan to get out of here one day, I can't be telling you gang secrets kid." Luke explained, and Ashton sighed softly, he understood.

Zayn walked into the room not too long afterwards and walked right up to Ari kissing her on the cheek and then on the lips. "Hello beautiful." He smiled at her softly. Ari kissed him back. "Hello handsome." She smirked and then pushed him away. "Dinner is ready." She announced to the group. Everyone practically jumped up and began dishing out the pasta.. expect for Ashton, who still just didn't feel right. He stayed on the couch.

Luke looked over. "Kid. Are you eating?" He questioned. Ashton shook his head. "Uhm. I'm not really hungry." He said in a small voice. Ariana shook her head. "Luke, all he's eaten since he got here is half a peice of toast, and not even the crust." She crossed her arms.

"Ashton, you have to eat. Even if you don't feel hungry. Please eat. Or I think Ari will force feed you, and I will not stop her." He chuckled, playing it off as a joke, but by the look on her face, Ashton would not have put it past her. He got up to get his dinner. Ashton put the smallest scoop of pasta on his plate. Zayn looked at him raising an eyebrow. He took the plate and put another scoop. Ashton sighed and got the message.

He sat down on the couch next to Luke again, and could practically feel Ari's glare on him. He took a few bites. Ashton knew that it was just the anxiety of being there that was contributing to his lack of appetite. However sometimes he felt like he needed to be told to do things, like eating. His father always controlled so much of his life, like what he wore, what he ate, how he was allowed to act that he felt like a lost child at times he didn't have direction. Even when his father was away on business (which was frequently) he still had everything laid out and planned out for Ashton. The irony of the situation is that he had more control being kidnapped than he ever had at home. Ashton's thoughts spiralled as he thought about his father, and his home.. He never had loving parental figures, who genuinely cared about him.. or even people who just looked out for him, it was nice having this group of people care about wether he was eating or not.

Ashton finished his plate, and Ariana gave him a smile and a little pat on the back before she took his plate from him. Almost as if to say 'proud of you'. She was so nice.. why was everyone there so nice to him? He didn't understand it. They were gang members.. they had guns, and probably dealt drugs. Why were all these people like a family?

Ashton looked up to catch Harry's glare, which really felt like two daggers. So much for nice. He wondered what he did to the man to deserve such a stare. "Harry cut it out." Liam spoke. Ashton looked over at the man, who he hadn't really heard talk much before.

"What? I'm not doing anything." Harry spoke, not breaking his glare at Ashton.

"You are scaring him. Leave him alone. Or go upstairs. There is a whole floor up there, that no one in on right now." Luke interjected. "Decision is made, and you being a dick won't change it." He spoke matter-o-factly.

"Well it was the wrong one." Harry spoke in a quieter tone, knowing he shouldn't have said it but did anyway. Luke stood up quickly and glared at him.

"Are you undermining my authority?" Luke questioned in a stern voice, that showed he meant business. "No Sir. I was just sayin-" Luke cut him off. "That's enough Styles. Get upstairs before you say something you are going to regret. Louis can you please make sure Harry cools off before he returns downstairs." Luke spoke not breaking eye contact with Harry, making sure he established who was boss.

Ashton wondered if the conversation was about him. He frowned, not liking seeing people fighting, he hated conflict.

Luke sat back down on the couch beside Ashton. Everyone was looking at the two of them. "Why don't I show you the movie room Ashton?" Luke spoke standing up and waiting for Ash to follow him.

The two walked down the hall and went into one of the doors that Ashton had told him was off limits before. He wondered why a movie room was off limits before. It was a huge room with lazy boy seats and a huge screen. It looked like a mini theatre.

"Wow. This is so cool!" Ashton said in awe. "I thought you'd like it here." He smiled softly. "Do you play any video games? I have the newest COD, I have mario kart if you like old school, fortnight, black ops." Luke spoke giving suggestions. "Yeah, I like call of duty." Ashton smiled softly and sat down in one of the chairs, and waited for Luke to set it up. They began playing and were about fifteen minutes in when Luke began to talk. "I never get any time to play video games so this is nice." Luke spoke with a smile as he looked at the screen. "I didn't really get to play much at home ether.. My dad was kind of strict." Ashton spoke, not wanting to get into the whole story of his dad at the moment. "I'm sorry. What I remember of my dad he was pretty strict too. He walked out when I was ten." Luke admitted. "I'm sorry.. It must have sucked not having your dad around." Ashton frowned.. though if it was his own dad who walked out when he was ten he would have had a much better life.

"No don't be. I'm glad he left. He used to beat my mom, and she is my world so I'm glad the bastard is gone. My uncle kind of stepped in as father role. He past on 5sos to me, and retired. He lives in Florida now.. so I think it all worked out for the better." Luke explained, surprised at how much he had just shared to Ashton, maybe it was just knowing he couldn't tell anyone that made him open up.

"I get that. My dad.. he's not a good man.. To my mom or me. I don't know. My mom isn't the greatest ether.." Ashton began talking but didn't want to get too into it. "Ah that's how you became a gang leader. Makes sense. How old are you anyway?" Ash questioned as he focused on the screen of the game they were playing.

"I'm twenty-four. Liam is twenty-three, and Selena is nineteen. She's the baby in the family." Luke explained. "What do you mean your father isn't a good man? Is it just you in your family? Or do you have siblings?" He questioned.

"Just me.." Ash trailed off not sure how he should answer the question about his father. Luke looked away from the game when Ashton didn't respond to his question. He paused the game and looked at Ashton.

"Did he hurt you?" Luke asked point blank.

"It's okay. Don't worry about it. I don't really want to talk about it." Ashton trailed off, and looked back at the screen to contuine to play. Luke dropped the question but knew he would return back to it.

A few moments later Ariana walked into the room. "Alright boys, it's nearly midnight. Let's get to bed Ashy." She smiled sweetly. Ashton nodded and hopped off the chair and began walking away.

"Good night sir." Ashton spoke to Luke with a smile and a wave. "Night kid." Luke responded.

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Ziam update: 500% DONE

Liam giving Akasha a bath

Liam scolding Akasha for throwing her food... seriously this is the most annoying thing when they do this, especially when they’re still hungry. Why is feeding toddlers in this game so fucking difficult?! (More on this later...)

Zayn working out to burn off some of the baby weight... which he doesn’t even really have

Liam livestreaming for work. He has to get to 1 million followers to get his next promotion... he only needs like 700,000 more than he has lol

So we keep running out of money and I feel bad for doing money cheats all the time so I decided to start a garden, because selling produce is the most efficient way I’ve found of making money from home in TS4. It takes a while but once you get to the point where you have lots of high quality plants, you can make some ridiculous cash! I’m having Zayn start off with snapdragons, strawberries and blackberries and eventually we’ll be able to get dragonfruit from splicing and then the goal is to have a ton of dragonfruit and blackberry bushes, because they’re worth the most, especially as their qualities increase. 

So then my game wasn’t letting me use hotkeys (so I couldn’t take screenshots with the c key) and so I had to restart my game.... ugghghghhhh

But ok, we’re back to why are toddlers so hard to feed?! Its so frustrating!!! 

For example: I’ll tell Zayn to give Akasha let’s say, a sandwich, in her high chair. Zayn will make the sandwich, then he’ll go find Akasha and pick her up (as long as she’s not on the stairs because then he can’t pick her up and it takes her 5 years to go up or down the stairs) and carry her to put her in the high chair. And then she won’t eat because either Akasha will ask Liam for food (when she already freaking has a plate of food in front of her!!!!) and then Liam will pick her up out of the high chair and put her down and then he can’t give her food because there’s already food on the high chair tray!!! *facepalm*

Or or what will happen is Zayn will put her in the high chair and then pick her back up so he can put her down and “check toddler” since she’s very hungry and I’ll get the scary notification saying she’ll get taken away if I don’t feed her (I freaking knowww she’s very hungry!! I’m trying to feed her!!) I know it’s not me doing the feeding in the high chair wrong, its that both of them want to feed her which is great but it fucks everything up!! I’ve been sooo close to turning autonomy off so many times!!

(Plus toddlers’ hunger bars seem to go down sooo fast!! More than once I’ve just cheated the toddlers’ hunger bar so they don’t get taken away because feeding them is so hard! And side note: their sleep goes up sooo slowly in all the toddler beds so most of my toddlers end up sleeping so much!!)

So then what I’ll do is open the fridge myself, get out a platter of food and tell Akasha to grab a serving and she will but then she needs to go somewhere else to actually eat!!! grrrrrr!!! All the while, I get the very hungry notification or Zayn or Liam will try to give her food in the high chair!!! Like in the above screenshot, she’s going upstairs for some reason to eat the omelet...

And she decides to eat in her brother’s room!!! WHYYYY can’t she just eat on the floor, next to the platter of food, or at least on one of the couches in the living room??? at least they’re closer!! And it’s not just Akasha that does this, its every toddler!! Sims team: fix your broken game!! 

So at this point I was 500% DONE with toddlers and decided to age Akasha up early.

Oh and my game seems to have a new glitch: the kids’ hair color keep changing. I’ve tried changing Azan’s hair back to light brown 3 times!! And when I leave CAS and go back to live mode, its either black or dark brown!! I give uuuuuuup!! (This also happened after I aged up Akasha... her hair was blonde when I went to live mode)

But the toddler interactions are sooo cute and I’m gonna miss Ziam playing with their toddlers!!

This is a different day than the last time I was trying to feed Akasha, once again I told her to grab a serving of omelet, and she carried it all the way outside to eat. Then Zayn decided to sit outside with her which is cute.

Basically the summary of me trying to take care of a toddler: she stinks and she’s tired but AT LEAST SHE’S FED!!!

Aging that little brat (just kidding) up!!! (lol it looks like Zayn’s blowing out the candles too)

Here’s Akasha as a child! I gave her the Perfectionist trait. She’s not the cutest kid I’ve had... no offense. There’s something off about her face shape...

And I have no idea why she has that nose! Maybe its Zayn’s nose but on a child so it looks weird and the other 2 have Liam’s nose?? Her profile just looks strange too. Sorry for picking on her!! But I’m very picky about my Sims!

I decided to give her this hair instead.

And yup, she’s a vampire!! lol

I went back to live mode from giving Akasha a makeover, double clicked on Zayn and this is what they were doing... of course

Maia had a bummer day at school (disregard the nightlight placed on the window... there was no where else to put it and I refuse to play with children without that thing because I hate dealing with monsters under the bed)

But a hug from her dad makes everything better! (And also look how cute Maia’s room is??)

They’re wicked cute, ahhhhh!!

And I found this picture of Zayn in my Screenshots folder from a while ago that I never posted lmao... I have no memory of taking this screenshot but it exists!!