#I KNEW ASHLEY WAS GONNA BREAK MY HEART WITH FEARNE I DIDNT KNOW IT WOULD BE SO SOON

[sparring-spirals]

no i lied one more thing before i hop off because I Cannot Stop Thinking About it, and its everything about Fearne asking her parents, quietly, thoughtfully: "Was I something that you gave?"

Its about- up until now Fearne has earnestly been trying to think the best of her parents, forgiving these things or that and- generally giving benefit of the doubt.

It's about- Fearne, thinking, clarifying: "In order for Morri to do favors, you have to give her something."

Its about- Fearne, thoughtless and carefree and easygoing. Fearne, thinking this through and asking so, so carefully: "Was I something that you gave?"

its about the phrasing, its about the use of the word something. Its about Ollie and Birdie both describing Morri as a collector, and they mean objects, maybe, but they used it to explain Morri keeping Fearne, too. "Took a shine to you." Its about Fearne, saying she likes to collect things, introducing herself with these terms, its about how the way she loves people also has that edge of possessiveness. Its about how- something fey when it comes to loving people like they're treasures, about collecting them and keeping them close when you like them too much to let go. because you love them too much to give them up, to give them away. (a virtue and a vice).

Its about- a double heartbreak, of loving people like loving things, (something you gave), and even then- taking the thing you love (the one you love) and being willing to let go of it. (something you gave).

i just cannot stop watching that scene and the way Fearne reasons it out and asks, and the heartbreaks behind that question in the first place,

and then. the way she watches Ollie, and Birdie, when they cant answer, the way she keeps her gaze trained on them as they stutter. and.

the way they don't say no. they can't.

Quiet. So, so quiet. "This adds a bit of a wrinkle to the story."

Fearne. Fearne :(