#I GOT A 92 ON MY MICROBIO

[yurigalactica]

hey chat sorry i disappeared off the face of the earth for several weeks i was busy slaying dragons (my midterms)

[usercass]

alright alright got a 92% on my microbio exam now i just gotta get at least a C on my chem exam and I'll be happy

[brianyololau]

March 15th, 2020

I’m studying for my first microbio lecture rn. Crystal and I pulled an all nighter to study and man I’m also working 3 days in a row atm until next month. Gonna take a 2 hr nap and hop onto work in a bit, go home after, do my prelab, knockout, show up to lab tmr, come back, pull another all nighter, show up to microbio and kill that shit. Then, go home sleep wake up study for microbio quiz and TEAS, and get back on top of my bullshit. This whole schedule got me feeling like I got no life and it’s getting more stressful now that I need to REALLY focus on my TEAS cause I’m expected to be at 92% to be at good standing. FUCK dawg. My life a constant grind rn, but I can’t slow down now. This is the part where I choose to either let my bad habits settle in and distract myself or GAS THAT MOTHAFUKIN THANG HARDER AND PULL THROUGH THIS BITCH CAUSE I AINT DOIN ALL THIS JUST TO SETTLE FOR LESS. And if I dont get into any nursing programs, well shit, I fucking tried and imma be proud of myself for that. No one can tell me any less. The path may or may not turn out to be even longer, but if I set my mind to what I want, I will NEVER STOP ACHIEVING and GROWING. Fuck what randos be posting on social media and fuck expectations. The only expectations im in tune with are the ones I set for myself. appreciation, positivity, and no regrets

Another note**

I tried prescribed adderall at the beginning of the night. It was weird. I felt.. normal, but focused; yet, I became sleepy. Crystal said prescribed adderall just makes you focused like a normal person, but there’s no energy boost. So, my tiredness was a result of my head clearing up and being able to focus normally like everyone else. wild. I need to talk to a psychiatrist.

[isang-pangarap]

March 15, 2019 | 5:10 AM After Scott left this morning I couldn't fall back asleep. I thought it was typical, not able to sleep after getting at least 3-4 hours (like a nap). But then I started thinking about Culture Night and general FASA housekeeping, and that's when I started feeling tightness in my chest. I knew I wouldn't be able to sleep so I got up and addressed one of the many outstanding issues for Culture Night. I'm just kind of generally stressed about the whole thing (normal? For CN hell season?), but I'm especially more stressed because I feel like the general outlook is negative from FASA rn... I heard my PR chair is "done w FASA," & I've been getting that feeling from her for a few weeks now. I don't know what went wrong with that... she was so on top of her job and seemed really enthusiastic, but now I can see I (or maybe the group in general) am getting the bad side of her sarcastic remarks. They used to be made in good faith, but now I can tell they are truly filled with annoyance... idk what to do about that. Our main actor also seems fed up with everything. I can tell it's because our CN chair can be hella pushy and argumentative.. but man, idk how to address that! I want to comfort him but at the same time we really do need him to be dedicating his time. It's really, REALLY grind time at this point. On another note, I was sick for a majority of the break... so I didn't really get to enjoy or nor was I productive. Yesterday was probably the only truly productive day I had. I have work today... which is kind of depressing but PRETTY SURE it'll be my last day. But anyways... Just venting into the void. I AM SO STRESSED. I miraculously got through exam 2 of orgo, supposedly the HARDEST exam of the semester!!! I got a 92 BEFORE the curve! However... I truly fucked up last week during lab; I was so tired that I really bullshitted the pre-lab and will probably lose a lot of points on it.... Pooja called me up and asked me about it, but I couldn't even defend myself because I kew I fucked up. I literally almost cried after she talked to me but luckily I kept it together... anyways, hopefully no more mess ups like that. As for microbio... IT'S KICKING MY FUCKING ASS. I worked so long on that notebook so hopefully I get an A. :( Supreet, please have mercy haha... Not to mention in the lecture, I only got an 88 on my first assignment. Not bad but NOT AN A. I really didnt think I'd have a 4.0 at this point... maybe it would have been better if I lost it in my sophomore year. But, since I have it at this point I'd like to graduate with it. I've worked so hard so I can't give up or slip up now. :( Maybe I can really be like Valerie (#CN2017!!). Back to CN... I'm truly mad at myself for slacking so much in choreo. It's partly why I am so stressed and so anxious. TODAY, T O D A Y, my goal is to finish the choreo for BOTH DANCES. NO MORE BEING ANXIOUS ABOUT THAT. NO. MORE.