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t-underneaththeradardancing · 6 years ago

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post performance post mortem anyone ? minimal wine pairing - im tired the weary kind but ok - so much paddling below the surface - so much going on around - anyway

played - liam came - we practiced 2 or 3 minutes outside - rough idea wat we gonna play - goal still fun ( and healing - i have totally sucked more than once playing w liam - and it was still healing for both of us - mere presence sometimes but not always and not as deep - so a jam on message of luv pretending w lalala’s from the passenger and anything else i can get outta my mouth - simple chords - liam is playing around w sound he brought a pedal he wnted to get to know more - then idk wtf but not wat we discussed :) insted of jammin on g dead new speedway boogie - shakedown st which i dont know at all except i herd it thru a grapevine - i mean i know the main line of the song and sorta its sound - lol - it morphs if for no other reezon liam no im confused - it dont matter - i keep wandering away from the guitar mic forgetting - and vocal - finally morphs into down the drain which tbh still confused me when we start - i get a handle - then confusion then get it totally together and flowing for the end - evry fucking time - liam sez its cuz we never actually hav practiced it - but i nail a surprise background vocal - leaning over and singing into my guitar mic lol - kevin comes and adjusts - we end - liam asks if we hav any time left - 2 minutes - he starts playin something - i hold my guitar up to the adjusted mic which is too high - but it forces me to stay in place - oh yah i trip over a cord earlier and knock over a mic stand which kevin picks up - i dont stop playing even tho maybe no one can here me - lol - imma thinking all this - trynna play - trynna figure out if we inna key or a mode - out of the 15 or so minutes - we prolly played 4 or 5 when we had 2 left - we kind of sputter end - theres been applause - much of the audience haz heard variations of me - a couple have heard me hundreds of times - i sucked way worse - but yah i sucked mostly and had fun and healed a little - and played w a whacky confidence cuz in my head case imma rawk star - maybe a faded 1 hit wonder - i shuld b so lucky - btw we starting a record label cuz wat im good at is taking chances - losing $ - and failing and all 3 are possible maybe likely - t failing iz not a pretty sight no - despite the frequency it always comes as a surprise unlike sucking which i do less and less - tonite an exception but i wuz trynna get rowb or rob or wobb to plaze kazoo just to keep things loose - its like a bassoon but smaller - so prolly the only magic and transcend dance was 2 ppl on stage - desperately trying to stay connected and act in love in the best way we know how - in public on stage playing music - after we start to find the words we havent said - mostly to make sure the feels were more or less wat was in fax - it is strange - never hav i played w someone so often who so often confuse me musically - we offen have trouble connecting when we improvise - like we never play together b4 - but when we mesh its like one guitarist with four maybe 5 hands and arms - an octopus anyone tho tentacle porn - uh

so love wins a round maybe 2

bye black dog - tho every actual black dog i can think of that i have know was a good boy or a sweetheart

yah this aint poetry - not really a review

its my fucking life yo

like i sez - and often - im wrong - sometimes a lot - if something i say dont seam wright brothers or isnt helpful fuckin ignore it

it is a sad wonderful world where t is so often these daze the adult in the room

oh yah and i started saying - just cuz im old as fuck dont mean im wise - and im prone to confusion maybe a bit of delusion but

i do know my good points btw

all too well cuz u know ego

laterz

love

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