#I DONT CARE ABOUT THE WAY MY BODY CONTORTS WHEN I JUST FALL ASLEEP
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missed my classes today after doing something IVE DONE MY ENTIRE FUCKING LIFE [sleep harder after falling back asleep in the mornings]
guess who has to go to bed at 8:30 PM rather than 1am BECAUSE SHE MISSED ONE FUCKING DAY OF FUCKING ONLINE SCHOOL
#im gonna wake my child up at 7 somthing because shes in online school and usually gets up 30 min before her first class#and her first class today is at 8:30#and shes not gonna go back to sleep since she said 'ok' to me#charbeloved says#FUCKING HELL DAD I DID WHAT YOU DO#âif it takes you being bored out of your mindâ I WILL START RETHINKING EVERYTHING AGAIN#THERES A REASON IM HAPPY NOW#ITS BECAUSE IM NOT TRYING TO SLEEP WITH THE LITTLE VOICE IN THE BACK OF MY MIND TELLING ME IM A WORTHLESS PIECE OF SHIT#AND ALL I DO IS FCUK THINGS UP AND MAKE EVERYTHING JUST THAT MUCH MORE DEPRESSING AND ANNOYING AND NOTHING I WILL DO WILL EVER BE GOOD ENOU#ADN THAT I DONT EVEN DESERVE TO LIVE OR THAT I DONT DESERVE SHIT#THAT LITTLE VOICE#WHEN I HAVE TO GO TO BED AT A REASONABLE HOUR AND NOT WHEN I JUST FALL ASLEEP THATS ALL I CAN FOCUS ON#YES MUSIC HELPS#BUT THAT DOESNT MEAN THAT STUPID VOICE ISNT LOUDER THAN USUAL#LIKE GOODNESS#I DONT CARE ABOUT THE WAY MY BODY CONTORTS WHEN I JUST FALL ASLEEP#BUT WHEN I HAVE TO FORCE IT ITS NEVER GOOD ENOUGH#I WILL NEVER BE GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU#AND IM SORRY ABOUT THAT#I NEED THERAPY AND I GET THATS EXPENSIVE#BUT THERES A LOT OF SHIT YOU DONT FUCKING KNOW ABOUT ME DAD#I NEED TO BE ABLE TO GO TO BED AT WHATEVER TIME#I ACTUALLY FALL ASLEEP *QUICKER*#I HAD A *SCHEDULE*#NOT ANYMORE MR.#LIKE I WILL SAY OKAY TO ANY AND EVERYTHING WHILE ASLEEP#YOU COULD ASK ME WHAT MY FAVORITE COLOR IS 'ok'
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Round Four - drabble
Dabi x reader
Word count: 833
Cw: finger fuckin, soft ooc Dabi, blood mentioned at the end (not readers)
The word pussy,cunt,hole,and clit are used. However no pronouns are used
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You've been playing for what seemed like hours now, laying on Dabis bed, using the wall and a flat pillow to prop yourself up.
You held your game system in hand and on your stomach for so long that you can feel your left arm falling asleep. However, you couldn't care in the slightest, your mind has been else where. Your eyes glued to the screen while your thoughts of him and what he had left occupied your mind.
Warm and slowly dripping onto your panties. you cant help but to focus in on it,
Dabi had fucked you earlier that day but your body couldn't help but crave more. Though after the third round, it was so painfully over stimulated that you cried with the softest of touches.
You two had stopped there and went on about your day. He had missions to do while you had the day off.
So here you are soaking through your second pair of panties, alone in his room.
"I could smell you from across the room."
You dart your eyes up to be face to faced with the devil himself.
Gasping out of shock and pleasure as he sneaks his hand rubs at your slit. "does baby need this?" Pressing pressure onto your clit with a lazy smirk.
Shaking your head ,"Hhhn no! I dont want that."
"No?"
You paused to think of how to phrase this without sounding dumb.
"Whaddya want then baby?" He purred, rubbing his cheek against yours, kissing your ear.
"I-I need my holes filled."
He pulled back and stared at you in shocks for a second before smirking.
A warm hand squeezed your cheeks, pulling you in for a kiss right as his other hot hand smack your cunt.
"Ffffu-aH!" You shrieked
"That was so fuckin hot, thought you were gonna say something stupid like penetration." He breathed into you, lips just barely touching
"Was gonna," you chuckled "had to think for a second."
His hot hand slides its way down your pants as he licks your lips, mimicking your as you moan.
"Fuuck" he laughs "You're seriously wet. You want this so badly huh? Greedy for round four baby?"
You nod feverishly, gripping onto his shoulders as he teases around your hole.
"Dabi, Dabi pleee-ase~!" Whining the last bit as he sunk three fingers in.
"Dont break them now." he smirks, fingering you open, not that you really need it.
Closing your eyes you thought,
'Not enough,more god please more.'
Bucking your hips up ,his fingers hitting your G,
"Ga-ah! Do-donât be mean."
Feeling his smile against your temple he rapidly picks up his pace. Quickly fuckin his fingers in and out of your wet cunt, his palm slamming against your sore clit.
Youre whining and moaning his name tagged with praises
The perverted sounds your slicked hole and his evenly slicked hand echos in the room, deafening your own voice
"You wanna cum whore?"
"No!" You gasp out "not yet!"
"Why torture yourself baby," he whispers against your ear. "Your wet ass fuck hole says otherwise."
He was right, your gripping him so tightly youre shocked his pace hasnt faltered. Youre high was fastly approaching.
He clicks his tongue, calling you as if you were a cat.
"Hhhnnnnn~." you whined in defiance, opening your eyes to see Dabi eagerly staring at you, his lips stretched into a toothy smile.
"I wanna en-enjoy you a bit long-ger~" Still his pace didnt slow.
"Cum for me baby, come on."
Too close to really convince him you nod rapidly. Grabbing his hair you pulled him down, muffling your screams with his tongue as your orgasm explodes throughout you. Intense sparks ripple up your chest and arms, going all the way down to your toes which caused your legs to squeeze around his stilled arm.
Only letting you two breathe once youve finally come down, you shaking legs released his arm.
Dazed out of your fucking mind you look up at your boyfriend, smilingly a toothy smile down at you. His eyes had nothing but awe and love in them. It was so out of the ordinary to see his face contort in such a happy way, always so jaded and hiding behind a façade.
Such a beautiful sight.
A goofy smile spread across your face with a giggle. "Beautiful." You softly spoke.
"Hmm sorry what was that?" You teased, leaning in closer.
"Youre beautiful." You said louder, nimble fingers scratched at his head.
"My fingers really did a number on you huh? Youre so fucked out, speakin random shit."
You shook your head. "I love your face. I love your happy grin, I love the way your eyes crease and when you do, i love your laugh lines, I looove you~" You sung out the last bit.
Dabis brows furrowed, his face more solemn. "yeah?" He whispered as blood dripped out of his scarred skin.
"Yeah." You confirmed as you wipe the blood away. "I do." You gently bring yourself up to lick the the rest.



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ohmygodohmygodokayso- 49. Why does it hurt so much? and 78. I canâtâŚI canât lose you. with Jackcrutchie if you dont mind! (hit me with that aNGST if you dont mind mydude!!!)
[I am still working my way through the prompts, I promise if you sent one I will get to it! My homework load is light tomorrow so I will be able to get a lot of writing done. I hope this is angsty enough for you anon ;) also this ended up being like ten pages, I donât know how.]
49. Why does it hurt so much?
78. I canâtâŚI canât lose you.
Jack didnât get sick. Hewas always the one taking care of everyone, making sure that if someone wassick they got what they needed and had enough money to stay in the lodginghouse if they couldnât sell. He was so strong, seemingly invincible. Until hesuddenly wasnât.
It happened so quickly.One day, Jack was fine. He was laughing and cracking jokes with the rest ofthem, completely normal. The next day, he wasnât able to get out of bed. Heinsisted he was alright, it was just a little bug. He would stay back one dayand be back to normal soon enough. Crutchie wanted to stay with him, he reallydid, but Jack insisted he go ahead. He hurried back as soon as he was doneselling, taking up residence by Jackâs bed.
âCrutch, Iâm fine.â Jackinsisted as Crutchie wiped his forehead gently with a cool towel. His skin wasfeverish, damp with sweat. âYou donât gotta fuss over me.â
Crutchie shook his head. âIainât fussinâ. Iâm takinâ care of you.â He brushed Jackâs hair out of his eyesand ran his fingers through it gently, smiling slightly when Jack leaned intothe touch. âJust relax. Youâs gonna be fine.â He couldnât quite get rid of theball of anxiety that had collected in his stomach that morning when Jack saidhe wasnât feeling well.
Jack nodded, his eyesslipping shut. âBest Iâve felt all day.â He mumbled, relaxing back against thebed. âThanks, Crutch.â
Crutchie blushedslightly, bringing the cloth up again to wipe Jackâs skin again. âSleep. Youâllbe good as new tomorrow.â
When Crutchie woke up, hegroaned at the stiffness in his body. He glanced around, realizing it was morning. He had fallen asleepsitting up, his front half draped over Jackâs bed. He felt a dampness andlooked at the bedding. It was drenched in sweat, as was Jackâs entire body. Theblanket was twisted around Jackâs figure, his face contorted in discomfort.Crutchie slowly sat up, the slight movement made Jack groan and shift around.Race wandered over, his eyes widening slightly when he saw Jackâs condition.
âCrutch, you better stayback today too.â Race stood next to Crutchie, his face concerned. âI can coverya for tonight and the other fellas can help cover Jack.â
Crutchie normally wouldhave said no, he was capable of taking care of himself. But he was not going toleave Jackâs side. âYeah, thanks Race. Can one of you get Katherine? She might know what to do.â
Race nodded and squeezedCrutchieâs shoulder, then filed out of the room. Crutchie went and got some waterfor Jack, wetting the cloth again. He wasnât experienced with taking care ofsick people, he was usually the one sick. He sat beside Jack and pulled theblanket off of him, draping it over one of the other beds to try and air itout. It was another hour before Jack woke up. His eyes slid open and he whinedslightly, curling his fingers around Crutchieâs wrist.
Crutchie used his freehand to grab the cup of water. He pressed it to Jackâs lips and helped himdrink, a little of the liquid spilling down Jackâs chin. He set the cup downand felt Jack squeeze his wrist. âJackie, howâre you feelinâ?â
Jack tried to sit up,falling back down onto the mattress after a few seconds. âNeverâŚbetterâŚâ Hemumbled, attempting to rise again.
Crutchie placed his handson Jackâs shoulders, gently pressing him down. âHey, none of that.â He workedto keep his voice even. âYouâve gotta rest, alright? Are you hungry?â
Jack shook his headquickly, grabbing his stomach. His face tightened. âCrutchâŚâ He leaned over andvomited, most of it getting on himself. Crutchie winced. He stroked Jackâs hairas his friend heaved, gasping and choking. Jack leaned back once he was done,his expression ashamed. âFuck, Iâm sorry.â
Crutchie got to his feet.âDonât worry. Come on, you need to take a bath. Itâll do ya good.â He helpedJack to his feet, supporting most of his friendâs weight. They stood there fora few seconds, Crutchie wondering how they would make it to the washroom with hisleg and Jack unable to support himself. It took them a while, but theyeventually made it. Crutchie ran the bath, making sure the water was lukewarm.He helped Jack undress, tossing his soiled clothes to the side. He gentlylowered Jack into the tub, trying to keep from looking at Jackâs moreâŚintimateareas. He left the room once Jack was in, working on cleaning up the vomit onJackâs bed. Once he was done he went back to the washroom, sitting beside Jack.
Jack smiled slightly atCrutchie, appearing a little bit more relaxed. âThanks, Crutch.â His voice washoarse, but stronger than when he woke up. He took Crutchieâs hand, squeezingit gently.
Crutchie smiled andsqueezed back. âDonât mention it. Howâre you feelinâ? Is the bath good?â
Jack shrugged slightly. âIâve felt worse. The bath is nice, itâd be better if you joined me.â He winked atCrutchie and laughed, then winced. He closed his eyes and leaned his head backagainst the tub.
Crutchie rolled his eyesfondly, trying to contain his blush. Jack was always saying things like that,to everyone. It was no big deal. He rubbed Jackâs arm gently. âMaybe when youârebetter.â He joked back.
Jack opened his eyes, asoft smile on his face. âIâll take you up on that.â
Crutchie shook his head. âDonâtyou think about that, focus on gettinâ well.â
Jack nodded, closing hiseyes again. âYes sir.â
They were silent for awhile, Crutchie was almost certain Jack had fallen asleep. Crutchie let hisconcern show then, his brow furrowing as he stared at Jack. The ball of worryin his stomach had grown exponentially. Jack was worse, much worse than the daybefore. Crutchie didnât know what to do. He needed to talk to Katherine, shehad gotten a doctor for Albert when he was sick. Maybe she could get the sameone to look at Jack. They had to do something. There had been boys who hadgotten sick in the lodging house, some of them had even-
âYour face is goinâ toget stuck like that.â
Jackâs voice brokethrough Crutchieâs thoughts. He blinked and looked down, trying to arrange hisfeatures into a neutral expression. âWhatâre you talkinâ about?â
Jack sighed. âCrutchie, Iâmgonna be fine. I promise. Would I let you down?â
Crutchie bit his lip. âJackâŚâ
âNo, stop it.â Jack tookhis hand again. âI know what youâs thinkinâ. Iâs gonna be fine.â
Crutchie took a deepbreath and nodded. He stood and grabbed a towel for Jack, helping him out ofthe tub. He averted his eyes again as Jack dried off, then helped him back tobed. âYou should just stay undressed. I think itâs better, with the fever andall.â He draped the blanket over Jack.
Jack nodded. The journeyfrom the bathroom seemed to have tired him out. âThink you just wanna keep menaked.â He mumbled, already drifting off to sleep.
Crutchie sighed. Jackslept for a remainder of the day. Katherine stopped by that evening and toldCrutchie her doctor would be by the next morning to look at Jack. She gave hima few dollars, which he tried to refuse. She gave him a look, then left withoutanother word. He was slightly relieved though. It was enough money to cover afew days at the lodging house, which meant he didnât need to go out and sell. Jack wokeup after Katherine left. He managed to get down a little bread and water beforepromptly falling back asleep.
Jackâs conditioned hadworsened the next morning. He woke up on and off, his eyes glassy. Crutchietried to get him to eat and drink when he was awake. The doctor showed uparound noon. The expression on his face told Crutchie all he needed to know.
âThe biggest concernright now is keeping his fever down. Make sure youâre keeping him cool. When hewakes up, he needs to eat and drink. This flu is hitting lots of people aroundthe city right now, this is the third case Iâve seen this week.â The doctorsighed, snapping his briefcase closed. âJust try and keep him comfortable. Heâsgoing to be disoriented when he wakes up, so he shouldnât be alone. Iâll comeback tomorrow to check in on him. Miss Plumber knows how to reach me if hiscondition worsens.â
âAlright, thanks Doc.âCrutchie slowly sank into the chair next to Jackâs bed, trying to stay calm. Hewould be okay. It was treatable. He grabbed the cloth from the basin he had setbeside Jackâs bed and gently pressed it against his cheek, his hand shaking.
Jackâs eyes slid open,looking around frantically before locking with Crutchieâs. âCharlie?â His voicewas barely above a whisper, more innocent than Crutchie had ever heard it.
The use of his real namestarted Crutchie. He forced down the lump in his throat and nodded. âIâm here,Jackie.â
Jack let out a quietwhimper, screwing his eyes shut. âHurts.â He mumbled, curling up on themattress. âWhy does it hurt so much?â
Crutchie let out a shakybreath. âIt hurts because youâre real sick Jack. But the doctor was here and hesaid we just gotta keep your fever down.â He set the cloth aside. âI need youto drink some water, alright?â
Jack shook his head. âCanât,Charlie.â
Crutchie pressed the cupagainst Jackâs lips. âPlease? For me, Jackie?â
Jack didnât move for afew seconds, before slowly opening his lips to accept the drink. He managed afew sips before falling back asleep again.
The next morning rolledaround, the fourth day of Jackâs illness. Jack didnât wake up. Crutchie triedeverything, but only got a few mumbled words of nonsense. His eyes neveropened. The red flush of his cheeks had disappeared, turning to ghostly white.
The doctorâs face wasgrim as he checked Jack over. âYou need to start preparing for the worst.â Hetold Crutchie quietly. âIf he doesnât wake up tomorrowâŚIâm afraid thereâsnothing I can do.â He placed a hand on Crutchieâs shoulder and squeezed gently,before walking out.
Crutchie practicallycollapsed, his upper body draped on Jackâs bed. Sobs shook his body. âJackâŚJackieâŚwakeupâŚâ He cried, desperate. âYou have to wake up, Jackie. You just have to. I can'tâŚIcanât lose you.â He whimpered and took Jackâs hand, pressing it to his owncheek. âIâve got so much I still gotta tell you, Jack, so many things I gottasay. I love you. Iâm in love with you, Jack. Youâs gotta wake up so I can tellya.â He stayed like that for hours, tears streaming down his face onto the bed.He fell asleep at one point, waking up when he felt a hand shaking hisshoulder.
Race stared down at him,his face blank. âGo get some sleep, Crutch. Real sleep, in a bed. Iâll sit withhim.â
Crutchie shook his head. âNo,no. Iâs fine.â He ran a hand over his face, knowing how swollen it must havelooked.
âYou need to rest. Youainât doinâ Jack any good, I think youâs had about six hours of sleep the pastcouple days.â Race replied.
Crutchie shook his headagain, more vigorously. âI canât leave, Race. What if heâŚ?â He couldnât finishthe sentence.
âIf anythinâ changes, Iâllget ya. Come on, up.â Race got Crutchie to his feet and gently nudged himtowards a bed on the other side of the room. Crutchie laid down on themattress, certain he wouldnât be able to fall asleep. He was out in minutes.
The next morning,Crutchie felt hands shaking him. He groaned and tried to slap them away,pressing his face into the pillow.
âCrutchie, get the hellup. Itâs Jack.â Romeoâs voice broke through the fog of sleep and he sat up,grabbing his crutch and pulling himself to his feet.
âWhatâs goinâ on? Is hegone?â The panic that gripped Crutchie was debilitating, he could hardlybreathe. Jack was dead, gone, he had died without Crutchie by his side.
âNo, heâs awake.â Romeosmiled widely, excited to deliver the good news. âCome on!â
Crutchie followed Romeoto the other side of the room, moving as fast as he could. He saw Davey andRace standing at the end of Jackâs bed, the doctor examining Jack. His eyeslanded on the only person he really wanted to see. Jack was sitting, his backpropped up against some pillows. He was smiling weakly, his eyes more alertthan Crutchie had seen them in days. He noticed Crutchie and his smilebrightened.
The doctor got to hisfeet. âYouâre quite a fighter, Mr. Kelly. A couple more days of rest and Iexpect youâll make a full recovery. Of course, some credit goes to your friendthere. He gestured to Crutchie, who was standing next to Davey. âHe took goodcare of you.â
Jack nodded, affectionclear on his face as he stared at Crutchie. âYeah, I know. Thanks, Doc.â
The doctor shook Jackâshand, then left the room. The other boys quietly walked away, giving Crutchieand Jack their space. Crutchie stood there, silently drinking in Jackâsappearance. Â A bit of the color hadreturned to his cheeks and he wasnât coated in sweat. His eyes were bright,full of warmth as he looked at Crutchie.
âWell, are you gonna juststand there?â Jack grinned at Crutchie, a soft laugh escaping his lips.
Crutchie slowly sat downon the edge of Jackâs bed, reaching out on instinct to take his hand. Heblushed as he realized his mistake. Jack wasnât sick, he didnât need thecomfort of Crutchieâs hand in his anymore. He tried to retract but Jack heldon, interlocking their fingers. âCrutchieâŚthank you. I didnât think I was thatsick, Iâs so sorry I scared ya like that.â
Crutchie was still for amoment, before yanking his hand out of Jackâs grip and throwing his arms aroundJackâs neck. He hugged him tightly, careful not to jostle him too much. He feltJackâs arm lock around his waist. Tears welled in his eyes, he didnât even tryto stop them. âJack, I-IâŚâ
âShh.â Jack soothed,pulling Crutchie closer to him. âItâs okay. I ainât goinâ anywhere, I promise.â
Crutchie pressed his faceinto Jackâs neck, the true reality of what had happened sinking in. He hadalmost lost Jack. âI was so scared, Jack. I thought you were going to die, Ithought Iâd never get to tell youâŚâ He trailed off.
Jack pulled away, holdingCrutchieâs shoulders. He brought one hand up and wiped the tears off Crutchieâscheeks. âTell me what?â
âNothing. It ainâtimportant.â Crutchie looked down, his cheeks turning slightly pink.
Jack tilted his chin up.Crutchie stared into his eyes, biting down on his lip nervously. âJackâŚâ Hebrought his hands up and twisted them in the material of Jackâs shirt. Jackpulled Crutchie closer, sliding his hands down to rest on top of Crutchieâs.Crutchie could feel Jackâs heartbeat, strong and steady. It was solid proofthat Jack was okay, he was going to be just fine. It was that thought thatpushed Crutchie to lean in, pressing their lips together.
Jack was still for amoment, then kissed back firmly. He slipped his arms around Crutchieâs waist,gripping him tightly. They broke apart after a few moments, Jack breathingheavily. He laid back down against the bed. He was still recovering, after all,he needed to rest. He pulled Crutchie with him.
âI could hear, Crutchie.IâŚI heard ya. All that stuff you said.â Jack whispered. âI love you too. Alwayshave, probably always will.â
Crutchie smiled softlybut didnât reply. He rested his head against Jackâs chest, one ear directlyover his heart so he could hear the steady rhythm. There would be days, weeks,in which they could talk or kiss or do whatever they wanted. There was no need to rush. Jackwasnât going anywhere, not anytime soon.
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I keep forgetting to post this but....
 apparently i have strange dreams, i dont think they are weird ive had them my whole life, but when i talk about them to other people there is always a reaction anyway i wrote one down (right after i woke up dont judge me on the spelling or grammar i was half asleep and let auto correct do whatever) and thats under the cut. OH and if you analyze dreams what the fuck is any of it mean?
Hospital? This was first dream p sure I died anyway hospital where park st post is
Something sinister kept going in but they wanted weird things
It was a testing/research hospital not a healing one
You go in but you donât come out
Job interviews being held only wanted certain ppl strong body ppl but weak minded
Our friend made it through but as we were escorted out we saw something
Donât remember what it was but it gave me a knawing feeling in my stomach
We waited for them at the entrance so we could go home together but they never came out and no answer when calling
Next day comeback would only be allowed in as a paitent
Excused self to bathroom and started searching hospital several rooms looked like small college classrooms but still something off ppl were blank some who were too far gone were doubling over the tables were being dragged to the back of room into a doorway
Searched rooms for freind found them but got caught being dragged away somewhere eventually squirmed free
I ran
I shouted trying to wake everyone up begging them to leave or help me but met with nothing but blank stares found my friend tried to drag her with me but she had turned she latched on opened her mouth and wailed to signify she found me I told her I would comeback as I tore myself from her and ran through double doors
It looked like I had run into a light but I was outside and it was pitch black no streetlights phone flashlight wasnât working and there were things outside with me
I ran again
I tripped up the stairs running back to the park st ally where the post office was
Something grazed my ankles
I tried to stand but something hit me and my eyes went out of focus
Woke up here and went nah need more sleep
Woke up in a parking garage where the lanes and turns seemed to narrow for a group of three let alone a car I watched for accidents for a bit
I realized there was something I was supposed to be doing I need to grab my purse and jacket from the car
I walked to the elevators
Made it down to the bottom only to find I didnât grab my stuff walked back up two flights of stairs realized I had my wallet at least and that was enough I started window shopping crazy store like someone too 90/2000 Japan niche pop culture and threw up 4 stories of it but I was cold and wanted to go back and get my jacket
I run into ppl I have dreamt about before their actions all too familiar
She wants a ring she wants love wants a life comfort something anything that her abusive parents canât offer the man is at least 40 being extremely generous
The girl is maybe 12
He on the surface knows this is wrong but it looks like he is just acting for the ppl around him he wants this so he puts on a feeble show for those around him
He gives in if you can call it that and buys her a ring and promised to move her in and take care of her I want my jacket
I walk up to them and tell the girl long time no see and we squeal together like college sorority girls I think about buying a sweatshirt
They are all hideous
I drag her away from the man she gazes lovingly at the ring on her finger we stare out the window as the man pays it is evening now and it is cold we see ppl outside couple on dates two other girls walk up next to us
They are disgusted by the sight before them
âShe shouldnât be dating him heâs mineâ they bicker and bitch about it behind the stores window where itâs safe I donât know why dread starts building in my stomach
I recognize the bitchers next to us and say hi dragging the girl along with me
I insist we catch up and hang out go do something right now
I need a group I need numbers
We decided on going to the fun place an amusement park across town you have to pass through another parking garage we all being walking leisurely arms linked and the man yelling behind us I want to walk faster
We walk up the garage fourth floor is where I notice we are we flashed forward there and there are the same ppl from before the recruits the cultists the blank faces from the hospital they are tuning what seems to be drills
We quickly and quietly work our way up more floors staying as out of sight as possible
On the roof we are exhausted now unable to move as we did before we wade through the group bumping about I bump into the friend I wanted to go back for
We are all drained but we are almost there just need to weave through parking dividers to reach the edge of the roof and cross over the bridge into the Forrest into the fun place
Iâve done this before I know something is off this isnât how it was before
Three ppl stand on the bridge I walk closer none the less Iâm still staggering out to the corner the group I have accumulated trailed behind me giving up going some one else shoots ahead of me they over take me but not by much they donât sense the danger in what they are doing
There is no caution to their steps no trepidation to their stance
They reach the bridge close enough I see all of their faces but a hear nothing the woman asserts her self but the other three have mangalled faces which contort and the lung she isnât fast enough and gets pounced
Someone screams it could have been me but everything felt so distant one of the things see me and starts charging
I trip over a divider the ppl behind me take notice of the events say nothing but scramble to get closer
I continue to stumble through the maze of dividers in the lot before making it back to the group two ppl from the hospital group dispose of the creature but more begin to come
Canât gauge how many because I am accosted by a looming thing with a rubber clown full head mask
We push him
Kick him
Shove him away
We are still tried and he keeps getting back up
A smile creeps out almost as wide as the big goofy one on the mask before it the teeth are humanoid but are too sharp
He jumps with speed but we dodge someone has a lighter and attempts to melt the rubber mask
It stinks melted rubber and decay
The clown stares up at us blankly and unmoving we though the mask hand melted enough to stop him we could no longer see the face underneath it
We back away and slowly he stands back up
We push him down and try again the rubber bubbles and our hands have burns everywhere others are fighting these things
I want to go back to the store I wanted my jacket
Itâs too hot for our hands to continue biting his face with the lighters so we pull away his head squishling rotates in our direction large cartoon googly eyes appare where the human ones had been burned away the rubber melts down his face we want it to stop
Whatever he was his head was hot and in the process of liquefying we stomped on his face as hard and with as much gusto as we could muster juices flowed out you could hear them squealsh under or feet feel the bones and cartilage crack
The clown gruffs out a chuckle and continues to stare up at us we light him on fire again drag him to the roof matinence closet and hang him while his laugh grows louder and confident the fire burns and he stares at us
The fight behind us feels like itâs coming to a close
The clown convulses as his neck begins to break and the fire consumes and oxygen he wanted to breath
He still has the wide smile as the mask falls off of his face
I turn around to go back for my jacket
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the ending parts of some of the long freaky dreams i had today (aka the only parts i remember clearly)
my roommate/ex was sitting in a chair just kind of going off in a pretentious and like... wannabe sassy? manner about how he âtells it like it isâ and âoh honey ive been doing this so much longer than you ya know?â, sounding totally unlike himself irl, and i said something like ânic this isnt youâ, and he transforms into what i could only describe as a chaos demon like he was a creature made of rainbow-reflective obsidian that changed from fleshy to smooth metallic texture, changed from humanoid with horns to a long cat-headed thing, and just was giving me this terrible creepy look. at this point flies manifested in the air around my head and were buzzing at a really annoying frequency around my ears (normally bugs dont bother me) and there was 1 fly that was buzzing at a higher pitch than the rest, and was moving in an erratic pattern, and i just wanted it to stop and as i was trying to will it to stop it was like the dream itself froze up like a computer, and the creatures cat face was moving in front of me in this stop-and-go glitchy motion (like when a glitched gif has one section of the gif moving and the other parts still), but the flies kept moving and buzzing, and i remember trying to say âit wont stop! theyre not stopping!!â and actively trying to tell myself to keep calm and that things would be okay, but i still found panicked words coming out of my closed mouth. anyways after the dream unfroze i asked the demon/creature for help to get rid of the flies, and he said, laughing, âare you really stuck in that human form?â and then suddenly i was looking from his perspective at myself as a turned into like.. a skeleton creature with a lion head made from the same weird black material he was made of? and then i did this lurch forward motion and became a full-bodied black lion with a huge mane and i just saw that 1 annoying fly get punched super hard by my furry paw-fist? and i was contemplating killing the other flies i woke up. after i woke up from this dream i felt really odd, like lightheaded and my forehead felt like it had a heavy pressure on it for the next 5 hours.
the next dream i remember ended on a weird surreal note. i was looking at the night sky (just past sunset so dark pinkish-blueish) and i could hear some old episodes of seinfeld playing in the background. the camera zooms in on a television and im looking at kramer in what it clearly someone elseâs white van trying to sleep under a carpet he found in there. then it just shows a compilation of him bending his legs in exaggeratedly flexible positions, like one leg fully behind his back and then twisting his ankle and doing something else with his other really-long leg, just trying to contort his body to fit in this van in weird ways. finally he starts to fall asleep sitting down with both his legs behind his back and his stomach kinda protruding, and this narrator voice comes on that sounded just like one of the old ladies in a souls game and says âoh, poor dear kramer. god must truly be with him, for he has no care or kin. kinkin. kinkin. kinkin.â and âkinkinâ kept echoing for a bit and i got annoyed/scared and then woke up.
#dream log#super long post#just felt like writing these down because they made me feel so fucking weird#idk whats wrong with me
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