#I CANT META PROPERLY 💔 but if u ever wanna understand how my h.akuno works..... here u go 😳

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lynn goes insane over some fav hakuno lines tbh

"my past, my values, my preferences— they're so unclear that i feel like i'd be lying if i talked about them." hakuno doesn't know who she is, which is something she attributes to being an amnesiac at first, but as we come to find out‐- that really isn't the case :,) there was just nothing there. she couldn't remember because there wasn't anything, there was nothing from the start and nothing of substance she can see in herself. hakuno doesn't even know or understand what she likes or dislikes, and her own personal feelings. it's just like a blank, empty space and that's why hakuno wants to find something. hakuno always wanted to find herself, so she's very driven by this lack of an identity and how she wants one. it's because of this nothingness within herself that she desperately reaches out for something more. this could be some kind of purpose that can come in the form of a goal (like how in canon it was to put a stop to the war) or with others.

"for me…no, for human beings, companionship is necessary." hakuno is an incredibly relationally-motivated person!! she values bonds and connection, interpersonal relationships above all else. i think deep down she feels that her constant sense of loneliness and emptiness is something that can only be filled by another person and she fears being left with that suffocating sense of emptiness when. her definition of love lines up with this mindset too, defining it as: "something you nurture by thinking of someone else. if you come to properly understand love, your life will surely be enjoyable and you'll naturally be filled up as time goes on". the context for this is romantic, but romantic or platonic, i think she just hopes for someone who will take her out of her internal emptiness so that she can find herself and thus form her identity.

i wanna bring up the color motifs with hakuno because that ties it all together soo perfectly,, "i was just empty in the beginning, so if you say you're bad, then i will just dye myself in your colors." colorless and empty blank/white can only find herself when dyed with another's color.... :thonk: would likely gain a sense of value for herself from to another person's support/appreciation, as we see in this line and in canon as well. i do wanna explore how it's not all sunshine and rainbows though because this can very much lead to an extreme devotion (COUGH dependency-) towards that person (which is understandable bc hakuno would literally be nothing without them 😭 even her undying loyalty aside, it's how they're someone who gave meaning to her life and justify her existence) or, on the opposite spectrum, a disconnect if she fails to find herself even with someone whom she thought she could which would only add on to her feeling of hopelessness. fun hypotheticals! wHICH I WISH CANON EXPLORED HRRGGHNGH

^ also why hakuno can be so self destructive tbh :,) because at her very worst, she isolates herself and hides her vulnerability. (her self deprecation and contraditions also play some role in this too tho methinks..... she feels that she is useless alone, yet she doesn't want to burden others with her perceived faults and imperfections ^_T). hakuno's described as a headstrong person who shows their weakness after a certain point and it's such a perfect description for her,, truly someone with a strong front but also the softest heart 💖 deep and compassionate but also a sea that's hard to grasp and understand. she wants to be understood tho!!! but the irony of it is that she's someone who understand others so well but not herself — her understanding others is also a way for her to try and understand herself too tbh. hakuno's that brand of character that's trying to save herself by saving others methinks. but it's not enough </3

"'you're just like me' the little girl who projected a sense of strength despite her desperate loneliness." also just wanted 2 bring this up a a cherry on top + bc i'm always thinking abt this bit too....... of all the ppl to relate to... (tears in my eyes) HAKUNO..!!!!! but gahdamn canon why didn't u do anything with it!!!! explore it more c'mon!!!!!! this also explains her soft spot for children methinks,, she can def see herself in them and has that vulnerability of a "lost child" even though she's far matured from that age :thonk: :thonk: