#I CAN'T STOP THINKING AOBUT THIS

[jackienautism]

i rant about resident evil and their writing / inclusion of the girls.

i jsut want 2 girls to go on their fucked up little adventures together is that too much to ask

i finally got to the halfway point of code veronica X and GODDDD i fucking knew they were gonna do this goddamn shit w/ steve and claire. i knew from the goddamn beginning even if i didnt want to admoit it...... residetn evil just cant be normal w/ a girl being paired w/ a guy. they just fucking cant

i understand that this is seen more among the older games (ashley + leon from re4 as well) and i cant speak for the og re3 nemesis but the way they wrote carlos and jill? its just.... why make these male characters say such bizarre and degrading and just ? nasty comments towards the female protag? do you really expecvt us to root for them? i just dont fcuking undeerstand, and this occurs in a remake too! they didnt bother to maybe just maaaybe take that bulllshit out. because jill's uncomfortable. IM uncomfortable. its just. godddd who the fuck caaaares STOP THIS TROPE

you see this same thing w/ steve and claire.... not oonly is steve incredibly fucking annoying the first second we meet him, he also continually acts as a nuisance towards her for a good quarter of the game. yeah sure theyre just building up to the Ground Breaking Emo backstory drop later, but. you already made me fucking hate this loser so goddamn much meaning im not gonna give a single shit about his development later. I JUST DONT CARE FOR HIM !!!!!! THEM MAKING HIM SO ANNOYINH RUINED ANY CHANCE OF ME CHANGING MY MIDN LATER.......

and GOD havent even mentioned this yet but. when i saw the little preview thing w/ the 3 characters w/ claire + chris i saw [steve] and went.... [eyeballs] hello whos this? long story short i thoiught he was a butch lesbian and i got SO excite d b c residtn ebil has yet to pair a girl up w/ anothner girl around the same age but noooooo instead i got this pathetic loser of a man (derogatory). the closest we have to 2 girls being fucked up together is mia and zoe in re7. but thats like. mainly a side thing. and mia isnt even the protag so

which leads me to the next thng i wanted to talk about. i think mnmen are super cool ofc and i hate to be that Bitch and pull that Card but good freaking god why must there be a man FOR EVERY SINGLE FEMALE CHARACTER IN THIS GOD FORSAKEN SERIES...... andit woudlnt be huge deal if they were noraml w/ these pairings but theyre NOT..... THEY MAKE IT WEIRD EVERY SINGLE TIME..... STEVE LITERALLY ALMOST KISSES CLAIRE WHILE SHE'S ASLEEP........ CARLOS CONSISTENTLY MAKES UNNECESSARILY WEIRD COMMENTS TOWARD JILL......... ASHLEY RANDOMLY AWSKS FOR SEX AT THE END OF RE4............ WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT AOBUT? good for ashley for shooting her shot i guess though but considering yhe game's previous comments towards ashleu and her figure.... it was blatantly put in to sexualize her furtyher

maybe its thr lesbian in me popping out maybe its the aromantic in me popping out WHO KNOWS all i know is that. resident evil makes me very upset sometimes dflkgnjg i love the games i love the characters (esp the girls big surprise i know) but jesus christ. somethings i just can't ignore. and this is cerrtainly one of them. a girl just can't exist out of a guy according to capcom. and that sort of idea is suuuper evident in how they portray and include their women. you could have a girl protag (re3, recv etc) but theres always a 99% chance theres gonna be a man tagging along + continually saving their asses and theres almost alwaysa an even HIGHER chance that theyre meant to be seen as a romantic interest! and its exhausting@!!!!!

long story short . i get im not resident evil's target audience . but im still gonna be pissed and annoyed . the girls deserve better .

im def gonna have to go more in depth abt resident evil and their writing of relationships (or lack thereof) some other time but just for now. the best written ones are claire + sherry and mia + ethan goodbye

[faggot-billcipher]

i will truly never get over the fact that even though the main claim about my alter lucifer being a pedophile was based on the word of uwuowoazu. the people who used that as the main claim for that never once called her out for lying blatantly and also suicide baiting people repeatedly to try to make certain fnaf fan antis stop disliking me. (behavior that i clearly could not have forced her to do at the time she chose to do it since i said multiple times to not do it and when it hapened i was either outside or trying to fucking sleep.) nor have they ever once addressed or called out azula's unapologetic transphobic behavior that she doubled down on even when corrected. and one of the people behind that claim in the callout have her BLOCKED now. because theyearmed my system's warnings about azula's abusive and manipulative nature wree fucking right. which i literally warned those people about. ut ig that's what happens when io is stupid enough to think every single person who dislikes my system and i must be a poor wittle victim who did no wrong boohoo. instead of acknowledging bother people in a situaiotn can be assholes. or that sometimes no one in the situation is an inherent black and white victim. this is your brain on anti rhetoric. also should go without saying but i am immediately blocking anyone who still blindly believes the genderfluidlucifer callout post. even if youve left the anti community now. as a general you. that callout is full of tons of disinfo. including claiming i'm a cis male and repeatedly doubling down on misgendering me. and even claiming a close mutual of mine was the one, misgendering me when he fucking wasn't at the time. all the while still misgendering me as they claimed that lie aobut my actually close and trustworthy mutual. if you still believe that callout post you're an idiot and should feel bad for it. i'm through with giving any benefit of the doubt to people who still blindly think it has any merit. and mass blocking anyone supporting it and hatefollowing me over it. and yes btw many people are still hatefollownig me ove rthat.i only know because my tumblr exposes when you hatefollow someone. OOPS.

i also hate how parasocial the people calling out luci cat in general. o for some reason keeps framing everything in the callout as if we knew eachother on a close level. even they they regularly avoided chatting mosrt of the time when i was active in their discord. and would repeatedly ghot me for hours when i asked for clarification one of their very confusingly worded discord rules. like bitch you don't get to claim we were close or that you knew me so well while ghosting me that hard and frequently, get over yourself.

i shouldn't have to say this but hating someone doesn't mean you automatically know everything about their lfie and inner psyche. i really especially hate that aspect of callout culture that's become so normalized in the past few years. parasocial hate is just as bad aand real as being parasocial to a blogger or celebrity you love imo. and both forms of parasocial mentality turn into stalking really fucking fsat.

also you can't really be gaslit by someone you avoided talking to that much. let's get real here. gaslighting literally involves way more direct and intentional interaction than that online or otherwise. thi is why gaslighting needs to be put on the shelf until people who blindly believe every claim about a person being a pedophile in a callout can learn to behave.

also also they left out the fact that the case of child molestation was literally just based on a fnaf au rp that azula and i did. one she pressured me into at the time. and i said i merely wanted to explore an au were my fnaf au oc layla didn't get rapde because ome of her characters saved her in time nefore it happende. so she decided to do that opposite of that. and tried to include a graphic rape scene anyways in a joking manner. (as in she literally amde a joke bragging about how fucked it up was for her to add that so you can't claim she was being ignorant.)i shut it down fast and we did not contionue that particular rp.| but i guess i'm repsonsible for the actions an apaprent minor chose to take at the time. even tohugh i litelaly told her to opt quickly after she pullde that. after she litrelaly ignored my clearly statde boundaries in the topic of that rp. i am not agreeing to the claim that i molested a child. i never met azula irl. and i never would've considered meeting her irl because i would've had to trust her enough to. as she'd shown to me many times what a red flag of a person she was ocnstantly. even buefore another anti helped me realize she might've been lying aobut how young she was when this rp took place. ia m not interested in molesting children anyways.. you can say you hate me and want med ead without making up shit. i barely go out enough to go and molest a child irl you absolute dinguses.

and even when i do go outside i barely deliberately interact with children irl outside of relatives and sometimes forced interactions. forced as in i did not initiate it first and i just have to Endure It until it stops happening. so yeah fuck off with that claim already. and i know the only reason y'all went wild with the callout was the bullshit child molester claim. because you can't just call out someone for one or two things. you have to add like 50 shock value claims because you wanna act like you caught the next yandev or creepshowart even when you didn't. which just further makes it harder for me to believe every callout an anti makes anymore. after that experience and seeing how flimsily made callout posts like that can gain traction so fast with barely anyone quesitioning it.

[justasmidgx]

when last year your depression was gone and now this year you're spiraling backk into not only toxic/manipulative thoughts about how no one cares aobut you, you're also spiraling back into other dark thoughts and you can't stop crying because you dont undderstand how last january you were the best mental health in like 15 years and now youre back to 2019 levels and crying all the time

fucking

was stupid to think i could atually get beter

[harryfeatgaga]

adding on to this, when you first start going up to his room you're the one that's very nervous but you know you shouldn't be because your just friends. right? what started out as a casual friendship every time you run into each other quickly turned into something more. last time you saw him you just casually gave him your number and you've been texting non stop ever since. well, one night he texts you "hangout after the show tonight? you can come up to mine" and so for the first few weeks you two hangout everyday at his and you listen to music and talk for hours about the things that happened during the day, gossiping aobut the people your with everyday and literally everything else. no topic is off limits. you definitely are growing to really really like him and he you that there is an obvious tension in the air everytime you two are alone together. you want to kiss him sooooo bad but think better of it because you don't think he likes you the same way you like him. but he obvi shares the same feelings your just very oblivious. one night your up at his, this hotel room is GORGEOUS like floor to ceiling wall to wall windows over looking the ETIRE city. your listening to music and drinking wine taking in the view. you notice, as your looking out side talking, out of the corner of your eye H looking over at you every so often like 🥺, and that alone gives you butterflies. but after awhile you say playfully "stop looking at me like that" he says "can't help it" there's an awkward comfortable silence after he says that. you look at him and you lock eyes and he says in an almost whisper "can i kiss you?" OFC you say yes but after that first kiss, this weird relationship neither of you knows how to define starts to snowball. after that kiss, your hooking up every chance you get. sometimes you forget to go back to your own hotel room and just spend the night at his (niether of you complain about thta tho, obiv you LOVE it because its an excuse to spend more time together). you don't lable it because of your curent tour situation, and the fact you two live thousands of miles away from eachother. so until you guys can figure out where you stand after, you keep it a secret.

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OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDD HOLY SHIT THIS IS LIKE A WHOLE FIC?!?!?!??! OH MY GODDDDDD

[bellamynochillblake]

I’ve got 2 Bellarke prompts to finish but my heart is begging me to write Stydia right now because....well you probably know why.

[molusca]

she apologized for how she handled the situation and apologized for brushing off someone's honest criticisms as hate. what more is she meant to do? throw herself onto a pyre? is she not allowed to feel lousy that this whole thing blew up in her face? because she's an adult and she made a mistake, she's not allowed to be sad or stressed? she's still an imperfect human. apologizing immediately usually means people are still sensitive to their own hurt of being called out because it's fresh and on their mind so it tends to slip into their apology, but if she had waited any longer to compose herself, you guys would probably have an issue with how long she took. also, in aaaaaallll of this, I've have yet to once see what exactly about her work is so problematic? I've read her fic and I personally can't see anything wrong, although I will admit that yes, I'm a white ciswoman but I'd like to think I'm aware of negative tropes. but the only thing touted is "it made an mlm uncomfortable" but HOW??? honestly, I want to know! if anything so I can avoid doing the same thing! how is anyone meant to learn when you're not bringing up these points as often as you're explicitly laying out the problems in her apology and whatnot. I've seen 6 posts about how shit the apology was and for why and I've not once seen the original comment detailing why the fic was problematic, and I've been looking on twit, tumblr, insta, and ao3. if it's been deleted, why isn't anyone stating again and again what's wrong? also, if someone is making fic/art you don't like, don't. interact. with. it. there's tons of stuff on ao3 and twit that I don't like, some of it that I think is disgusting (do you know how many fics there are with keith/kosmos?) and I just scroll past it cause it can't hurt me if I don't read it. there's one artist that's pretty popular on Twitter and I personally really hate they way they draw klance but it's all over my tl. I respect that person's art style and creativeness and keep on moving. other people enjoy it, good for them. and if I start reading something and get surprised with something I dont like, I leave! find people who write things you like and stop engaging with creators who's things you don't like, as far as I know no one is holding a gun to your head making you read problematic fic. also for as much as you rag on her for the words she used to apologize, you don't seem to be considering your own words when offering criticism. if Taylor mistook the person's words as hate, couldn't it have been because the way he worded the complaint was done hatefully? lastly, no one, absolutely no one, is required to talk about world issues when they're running a fandom account,no matter how "big" they are. we all know what's going on in the world, we're surrounded by sad and stressful stories practically 24/7 and if someone isn't, they're probably curating their social feeds to be that way (like you should do when it come to kl content creators you don't like). people sending hate in Taylor's defense are in the wrong I agree, and this isn't hate its critism its a discussion, but Taylor isn't responsible for, how many people did you say? 16k on twit? even if she said hey guys stop, you think they would? she's can't control all those people and expecting her to is nonsense. I see so many younger fans expecting perfection in their fandoms and that just isn't going to happen. yes we should be striving to be better but no one is ever going to be perfect. not you, not me, not the mlm person, not Taylor, not anyone on any side of this argument. the only way to avoid this kind of circular dog piling and hate sending is to better curate your fandom experience by ignore those you have issues with.- 🦛

she apologized for how she handled the situation and apologized for brushing off someone's honest criticisms as hate. what more is she meant to do?

im pretty sure i said its good that she realizes she handled it poorly. but she makes the whole apology about this, doesnt directly talk about the issues and i know someone went to her to talk about it. also, it took her a day to say something about it so it wasnt exactly immediate (in the sense people had already stopped talking about it but that doesnt mean they werent still bothered). the apology was directed at mlm, and i havent seen one saying it felt genuine. of couse she can be hurt but when you apologize to a marginalized group the focus shouldnt be your feelings, but the feelings of the ones you have hurt.

I've have yet to once see what exactly about her work is so problematic?

she admits to be projecting on lance. so she makes him very femine and keith very masculine. and ok, gay couples like that do exist, but she is a woman projecting in this situation so this bothers people. putting mlm in this position is a harmful steriotype, bc it feels very heterosexual. this is a trope, it unfortunately happens a lot and its harmful. women need to be aware of what they are representing when drawing/writing mlm because well, real mlm are going to see it, and no one likes to feel like a fetish to others. and its not our place to question if the criticism is right or wrong when we are not mlm, so if you read this and think “but thats not a problem thats not a fetish etc” well, its not your place to judge that. theres more to it and you probably could get a better answer from a mlm sorry.

if someone is making fic/art you don't like, don't. interact. with. it. there's tons of stuff on ao3 and twit that I don't like, some of it that I think is disgusting (do you know how many fics there are with keith/kosmos?) and I just scroll past it cause it can't hurt me if I don't read it.

please, lets not compare a minority pointing out harmful tropes with. something fucking illegal.

as you said, you are a cis woman, of course its not going to hurt you in this case. but if people are making harmful content its not a simple matter of “dont interact with it” because they will still be promoting it, other people are going to read it, and media influences how we see minorities so of course people will not like when they see bad portrayal of them. also, tumblr sucks so even if you want to just “dont interact with it” its hard because even after blocking you can still cross the content of someone. not sure how it works on twitter but anyway this discussion started on tumblr and tumblr doesnt stop people who were bothered by her to avoid her by blocking.

if Taylor mistook the person's words as hate, couldn't it have been because the way he worded the complaint was done hatefully?

i think she deleted the ask by now, but i dont remember the ask being hateful. i remember someone asking if she was a fujoshi, and another person mentioned that mlm didnt like the way she portrayals klance. i dont remember it being hateful. but again, she apologized for handling it badly. its just that she stops there.

no one, absolutely no one, is required to talk about world issues when they're running a fandom account,no matter how "big" they are. we all know what's going on in the world, we're surrounded by sad and stressful stories practically 24/7 and if someone isn't, they're probably curating their social feeds to be that way

ignoring world issues is a privilege. if someone is able to turn off from all the problems in the world, its a privilige. yes no one should talk aobut it all the time thats not even healthy, but to never talk about it is a privilege. thats what black people are saying, they cant just turn off from racism, so yes they are going to expect white people to do something. online honestly i cant do shit, i dont think anything i reblog here does a difference and i do what i can in my own country, but she has a plataform that could help bring awareness. again, its a privilege to be able to curate your social media to be a perfect happy place.

even if she said hey guys stop, you think they would? she's can't control all those people and expecting her to is nonsense.

maybe they wouldnt, but if people were doing this type of thing in my name, in my defense, i would at least say something about it idk. she cant control them but she makes nothing to show that she disagrees or look for the people being harassed to say something about it.

the only way to avoid this kind of circular dog piling and hate sending is to better curate your fandom experience by ignore those you have issues with.

when it comes to simple things like “i prefer taller lance and i dont like taller keith” yeah, its fine to ignore people who draw taller keith and move on with your life or something like that. but we are talking about mlm, a real group of people, being upset for being portrayed in a harmful and steriotype way. its everywhere in fandom, and in real life. they cant escape from real life, and then they come to fandom where everyone wants some escapism and have to deal with more issues. its tiring

[bxti]

i just hate the fact that the last time i was happy on my birthday was like when i was 12 i think. and i wish i was joking. something always happens that day. on my 16th birthday me and my mom had a huge fight about me being trans, on my 17th we had a fight about me cutting my hair, on my 18th birthday she yelled at me for talking to her back? and im sure we also had a fight about something lmfao this year this time nothing happened with my mom because i am playing the nice daughter role till i get the fuck out of here, but my sister had a whole ass breakdown, me and my cousn tried to convicne her about how life is great, tried to give her reasons and shit, obviously she didn't give a shit, then my cousin started crying, then everything went shit after that. i couldn't study and even if i treid to i couldnt focus. i couldnt think about her attempt. i didnt want to believe that she didn't care about us. i couldn't stop thinking aobut that night. she was shaking. why do we mean so little to her? sometimes i wish...she...died. that wouldnt fix anyhting tho. it wouldn't make anything worse too. i don't know. it's too much. it's too much. i can't stand her. i tried so fucking hard to heal. so hard to fix myself. and when i finally do it. my sister aka the triggering machine comes up! ha haha hah hah ha. this is why i hate birthdays too i think. because everyone's birthdays are so special and fun and filled with joy but mine is not. its like universe is giving me the finger. "on the day you were meant to feel the most special, you will feel like utter shit, coz we hate you~" what am i saying

[bileov]

jason grace dies in infinity war

[xxjustshakeitupxx]

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I think what killed me most is that Xerxes was crying and clutching Reim and Sharon because he was so scared. Because no matter how hard he tried to get himself used to the idea of him dying way before everyone else, he didn't want to leave them.