#I AM LOSIN G IT

[gyagu]

hmm i dunno, am i?

[is-johnny-jhonny-a-spectral-yet]

day 2945

no :(

[siinlight]

I NEED TO WATCH DEATH ISLAND NEEEEOWWW!!!!!!!

[jaetaimjadore]

OH MY GOD GET TF OUTTA HERE, JAKE SOLO AT THE CIRCLE DISK MUSIC AWARDS???

[heartbluerthanmyballss]

everytine i see something squared i think,of sick² am i losin g it

[jennathearcher]

Me listening to all three Sleep Token albums for the first time:

Take Me Back To Eden

Chokehold - by far the most lore-oriented song I've heard so far?? lyrically this is just the band's mission statement and it's SO good

The Summoning - THE iconic song :P I had this thought while vibing to it again, the title is SO apt because this is the song that essentially summoned LEGIONS of fans 8D

Granite - this song has me ALL kinds of fucked up?? this was the point where specific lyrics started to have me SCREAMING, like, "you gave me nothing whatsoever but a reason to leave" HELLO??? not to mention "we'd rather be six feet under than be lonely" THAT HITS

Aqua Regia - MMMM THE VIBES THEY ARE IMMACULATE I believe the title translates to something along the lines of "ocean queen" but don't quote me on that XD I genuinely cannot cite just one lyric that makes me feral IT'S THE WHOLE SONG

Vore - AS A MONSTERFUCKER I AM FEELING VERY SEEN IN THE CLUB RIGHT NOW. TIS IS A MONSTERFUCKER ANTHEM. VESSEL. VESSEL P L E A S E.

Ascensionism - I was told this song would make me cry I WASN'T PREPARED FOR HOW REAL THAT WOULD BE. "Make it real, cause anything's better than the way I feel right now" HOOOOOOOO. This entire song is POETRY.

Are You Really Okay? - I....have A LOT of feelings about this song. Holy shit. From Vessel's lips straight to the ears of my soul. God DAMN.

The Apparition - and now we have the self-shipping anthem :P VESSEL XD "Why are you never real" !!!!!! "Just let me go or take me with you" !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DYWTYLM - lowkey I always love when artists genuinely abbreviate song titles like this it's really cute and stylish :P THIS SONG IS S O CUTE??? OH MY GOD the sheer amount of genres this band covers is AMAZING; plus this is another song where the lyrics are DEEPLY SAD but the beat though :P

Rain - from what I'm aware of this might be an underrated song??? instant fave from me 8D IT'S SO ROMANTIC!!! "the vicious cycle was over the moment you smiled at me" I'M SO!!!!!! SOFT!!!!!!

Take Me Back To Eden - TRUE TO ITS NAME THIS SONG IS A RELIGIOUS EXPERIENCE. but also among a million incredible lyrics "I'll take a pound of your flesh before you take a piece of my paystub" has me CHEWING THE BARS OF MY ENCLOSURE OH MY G O D

Euclid - I have deduced that ST is the masters of ending an album with the most unexpectedly BEAUTIFUL song OH MY GOD. All the nods of their previous songs?? So much TECHNOLOGICAL imagery all across this album too tbh??? "So if your wings won't find you heaven I'll bring it down like an ancient bygone" SCREAMING!!!! and of course "the night belongs to you" I AM EATING THIS

it is at this point I begin to swiftly realize I am listening to this in reverse order which makes a lot of things hit different but REGARDLESS :P WE PRESS ON

This Place Will Become Your Tomb

Atlantic - not only is this song ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL but the lyrics are just.....w o o f. it hits harder the more you think about it.

Hypnosis - I can't get over how this song is ACTUALLY hypnotizing to listen to :P

Mine - ONCE AGAIN TRACK THREE IS WHERE I START CLIMBING THE WALLS XD both of the other albums have direct lyrical connections to this song, and it's also just HOOOOO INTENSE IN THE BEST KIND OF WAY 8D plus the "wasted years" lyric got me thinking about Phantom of the Opera which y'know feels appropriate :P

Like That - this song reminds me of Granite with just how VISCERAL the feelings are when connected to a toxic relationship??

The Love You Want - biased cause I've had this song on repeat but HOOOOO!!!!!! "TOO MANY SWALLOWED KEYS WILL MAKE YOU BLEED INTERNALLY SOMEDAY"!!!!! "MAYBE YOU BELIEVE THAT IN THE END YOU WILL BE BETTER OFF THAT WAY"!!!!!!

Fall For Me - *incomprehensible shrieking* "WON'T YOU FALL FOR ME, FROM REALITY" *somersaults out of window* "MY INSECURITIES SURROUND ME LIKE LIONS IN THE DEN" *puts head through wall*

Alkaline - I am now intimately familiar with the emotions of the girl absolutely losing her shit in the background of the concert video in which I first heard this song XD Another song with one of those verses where every single line is ABSOLUTE POETRY and also :P HORNY. HORNY HORNY ENERGY. VESSEL YOU MENACE I LOVE YOU.

Distraction - at this point I am all but tearing my hair out over how ROMANTIC this is and how it can perfectly encapsulate such a simple idea and make it absolutely HEART-ACHING?????

Descending - ohhhhhh myyyyYYYYYY GOD!!!!!! "YOU COME CRAWLING BACK TO ME BUT I'M ALREADY UNDERGROUND" !!!!!! "AND WE ALL KNOW THAT TALK IS CHEAP SO COME ON AND SAVE ME NOW" !!!!!!!!!!!!!! "AND YOU WONDER WHAT I BELIEVE BUT YOU DON'T WANNA BE AROUND" "SO WHAT WOULD YOU DO FOR ME?" !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Telomeres - another song I fell in love with on the first listen :P much like Rain it's just so DEEPLY ROMANTIC AND EMOTIONAL??? "I know as you collapse into me this is the start of something" MMMMMMMMMMMM

High Water - I am OBSESSED with this song lyrically, just "it seems my hell is your high water" that's SO!!!! GOOD!!!! but also just the absolute gutpunches all throughout this song; "you are still a perfect reminder of what all these scars on my arms are for" !!!! "I know you still bear the weight of your own existence and you'll never bear the weight of two" I'M SO?!?!?!?

Missing Limbs - I legit GASPED when the soft guitar started???? and the last verse just absolutely destroyed me HOO. The whole song has Bon Iver vibes but better tbh

Sundowning

The Night Does Not Belong To God - it was here when I started to really lose my shit over all the lyrical parallels across the three albums :P SO GIVE ME THE NIGHT!!!!!

The Offering - "YOU'VE GOT DIAMONDS FOR TEETH MY LOVE, SO TAKE A BITE" OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!

Levitate - THIS IS THE ONE of course I find a song that contains the lyric "your body is mostly blood" to be HELLA ROMANTIC :P also very apt considering how ST's music makes me feel like I'm the one levitating XD Saint Maud up in this bitch ahem

Dark Signs - ANOTHER INSTANT FAVE 8D the fucking bassline!! EVERY SINGLE LYRIC HOOOOOO JUST THE PICTURE IT PAINTS!!! also "tear off my arms" sounds like a direct parallel to Missing Limbs don't mind me!!!

Higher - "I AM GRANTING YOU MORE THAN THE DEBT THAT I OWE" *sound of underwater screaming sounds* also idk if it's been said but Vessel lowkey reminds me of Corpse Husband in a lot of ways; I love my faceless anxious endlessly talented cryptid boys!!!

Take Aim - this one had my Archer sensibilities making the eyes emoji :P personally this one really makes me think of the Greek myth of Artemis and Orion but THAT'S JUST ME XD

Give - AND NOW WE HAVE A DARK ROMANCE ANTHEM MMMMMMM DELICIOUS. THIS IS MY ENTIRE AESTHETIC 8D

Gods - THIS SONG IS SO A N G R Y I LOVE IT SO MUCH!!!!! but also "you want to watch me beg cause I beg so well" VESSEL PLEASE :P

Sugar - PURE HORNY ENERGY. B O N K, TO HORNY JAIL WITH YOU. NONE OF THESE THOUGHTS ARE IN THE BIBLE.

Say That You Will - GOOD LORD I DIDN'T THINK IT WAS POSSIBLE BUT WE HAVE GOTTEN EVEN MORE HORNY literally "is that a knife in your pocket or are you just happy to see me" but way more poetic than that XD

Drag Me Under - Once again, the vibes, they are IMMACULATE 8D have I mentioned how much I love all the religious imagery in ST's music because ohhhhhh my god

Blood Sport - I knew I was gonna love this song after seeing part of the live performance of it from last weekend's show <3 This song is absolutely BEAUTIFUL 8D I know Vessel cried while performing it live but I was NOT expecting the actual song to end with him crying too??? I WANT TO HUG THIS WEIRD LITTLE CREATURE MAN SO MUCH!!!!!

So far this is the extent of my journey but I'm definitely going to check out their earlier singles and EPs soon as well <3 I have also listened to the covers they did as well and I need more Vessel doing acoustic covers in my life PLEASE AND THANK YOU :P

[rothalion]

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[sunnydaleherald]

The Sunnydale Herald Newsletter, Tuesday, January 16

BUFFY: The demons! They were these three big apey things! XANDER: No. No, not here. Not at my job. That's your job. BUFFY: I can't help where the forces of darkness attack me, Xander. XANDER: Buffy, would you look at this mess? Do you have any idea how much it's gonna cost to repair this? And what am I supposed to say to the clients, should I just show them the demon bodies and say it's all their fault? BUFFY: You can't. They melted. But ... uh ... There, there are witnesses! Vince! Vince! You'll tell him, right, how I jumped in and protected you from those ... things? VINCE: Hey, I don't know what you're talking about. All I know is you were losin' it or something. That time of the month, huh? BUFFY: What?! You were huddled in a corner! Crying! Like a baby! VINCE: Hey, hey. No way. Me, crying?

~~Buffy Season 6 Episode #105: "Life Serial"~~

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The Neighbor's Point of View, Chapter 77 (Buffy/Spike, G) by the_big_bad

A Waxy Gent Chuckled Over My Fab Jazzy Quips, Chapter 16 (Buffy/Spike, T) by violettathepiratequeen

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[widprivateserver]

its a new fuckin year

thats mean another fuckin year i cant help mself to still fall for you, its exhausting yk

18 january

the day you'll finally get ur 20 lottery, we do not in contact for way too long i g, the last 17 i alr grab you a drink and a lil happy bday

the last several years i've waitin for you btw,

to just sayin those stupd happy birthday for me, on 27 july so i can barely live life a lil longer cs i hate this world, but if it for just your "happy birthday" i would love to bare it a much longer

years by years i kept losin you

idk if you alr had a girl or somethin cs i have cut off all our soc med hopin i can finally fine without you, but ehehe how dumb am i?

i want to know if you alr had a person or nah

if you had then its fine hehe, i wont say im glad cs i still hopin for you to come back :p but as olivia said, i hope ur happy and i wish you all the best really. i wish you two had a longlast relationship, and i hope she's literally the one for you :)

but if you havent,

find the one to lay on to, the one for a place to dumped abt how was ur day, the one who can warm ur lil heart

would you like to start it again? with me..

i couldnt promise you everythin or anythin, but just for you to know that this time i will try, the reason i cant be w you is cs i always denial that i love you but this time it wont happen, this time ill give you eeeevery broken piece of mine

i promise

so if you havent find your +1

what about me?

[bellemorte79]

Alone, every night alone Why am I alone? I wanna know that you want me, too Am I wrong? Tell me that I'm wrong Tell me I deserve all the pain that you put me through, oh I really hate that I give a f*ck Pressin' my line, I don't wanna pick up We know enough will never be enough I play odds against, she keep callin' my bluff Baby divin' deeper and deeper She don't believe me when I tell her that I need her Guess I shoulda stayed where I belonged 'Cause once you make it back to your happy home I'm alone, every night alone Why am I alone? I wanna know that you want me, too Am I wrong? Tell me that I'm wrong Tell me I deserve all the pain that you put me through, oh You don't have to bring me good news, babe I just wanna be there when you choose, babe Dream girl got me losin' sleep Baby, you remind me I'm a G Maybe I'd be better on the run Double vision playin' all week This is like a game of survival Why am I dyin' for a title? Is it even worth the fight? When I'll just end up alone, every night alone Why am I alone? I wanna know that you want me, too Am I wrong? Tell me that I'm wrong Tell me I deserve all the pain that you put me through, oh You don't have to bring me good news, babe I just wanna be there when you choose, babe You don't have to bring me good news, babe I just wanna be there when you choose, babe Dream girl got me losin' sleep Baby, you remind me I'm a G Maybe I'd be better on the run Double vision playin' all week

[mindofawriter22]

Riddle Me That

They say pimps up, hoes down

Rep yo city and that side of town

Give me pound, on the side that’s brown

I’ll show you how I get around

Gotta keep it player, been a G

Since the date of my birth in ‘93

Forever thuggin’ til infinity

Show love to all, that’s the real in me

Been backstabbed they watched as I bleed

Bruised and scarred internally

Couldn’t kill my spirit, the comeback they fear it

The visuals are vivid with every lyric

On a different level, can’t come near it

Another wave of frequency in tune with myself

Turnt to the maximum, ain’t no relaxin’ em

So try and sleep on someone else

Who am I? The kid in the suit and tie

About my business as usual

Hater try to come between my paper

Gon have to arrange for his funeral

Don’t bother no one, so leave me alone

25/8 stay locked in and in the zone

No matter whatever shade is thrown

Not a man on Earth who can clone

The realist in this space, style can’t be replaced

It’s good vibes only

On a chase to get the cake

Hustle and grindin’ all by my lonely

Know how to spot a leech and a phony

Keep you at arms length and outta reach

Long as you don’t touch me, say what you want

Not losin’ sleep over the opinion of sheep

Got the heart of a lion, I ain’t lyin’

Tried to sell me a dream but I ain’t buyin’

Just tryna motivate the others, out the struggle

Look to the sky and see em flyin’

Spread my wings, and watch me soar

So high, way above the clouds

Can’t wait to knock on Heaven’s door

And hear sweet angels singing so loud

[soppingwetratboy]

i am losin g my mind

[mizuthe-cat]

I am losin g it over joe biden and tommyinnit killing elmo

worlds most functional hunger games simulator guys

[enbyblades]

my roomie prob thinks im losing my mind

[uhthor]

endless photos of the ‘one of us is lying’ cast

oneofusislyingpeacock: Don’t mind us, we’re just fueling the Natewyn flames 😍

[inavagrant-a]

Me vibing to Kuni’s full leaked boss fight.