#I ALWAYS FEEL SO BAD WHEN I START LOSING HYPERFIXATIONS😭���

[casperth3ghost]

guys how do you explain to your friends who have suffered for months hearing u yap about one specific character that youre losing intrest in said character

[tanukitsuneko-suki]

w episode 19 thoughts:

- A, C, I, M, N, Q, F, S, W, V

- ah... the I stands for Intruder?

- i think it's important to note rn that as i was reading the bio of this w fan they mentioned something called an 'utopia dopant' which i did not get any additional context about (it was mtl too) but they quite liked it and this piece of info sent me spiraling a little

- welp and i just saw a screencap of a suit that is 100% joker and not halved. i don't like that

- finally continued watching and /immediately/ this man is posturing over billiards, he's such a fucking idiot /pos

- speedrunning guesses in my head as to whether he can actually play billiards or not. i think not

- he can't even twirl the cue stick right i'm fucking sobbing

- btw this is how i play billiards too. i'm as bad as him so i can't laugh but at least i don't pretend to be a genius in it LMFAOOOOO

- tears in my fucking eyes the new guy just one-shotted every ball

- DON'T JOIN IN THE TEAM ACCEL THEYRE GONNA LOSE MORE RESPECT FOR SHOTARO THAN THEY ALREADY HAVE

- btw i'm immediately sounding out this fuckass name to figure out the pun. terui ryu... i feel like ten-wheeler is a bit of a stretch. also like the name is a bit odd so maybe it's a borrowed word... can't he just be named akuse jo, damn

- this fit goes way too hard for a cop, man...

- yeah i kinda like it when they drag shotaro around for funsies

- why is terui is on his case damn 🤨

- ... he IS hard-boiled

- he's like a berserker claymore character...xinyan attack set...even has the style down too... omfg wait... pyro physical accel....

- !!!!!!!!HE'S COOL AND NOT AN ENEMY!? I CHANGED MY MIND

- his waist is very eyecatching i'm sorry. the sliver peeking out while he lugs around that "heavy" sword. amazing successor you have there, nazca

- he just sliced a CAR

- omfg futahito banter this episode is so fun

- SO HE CAN'T TRANSFORM BY HIMSELF. SO WHY DID I SEE A SOLO JOKER SUIT. STOP PLAYING WITH MEEEE I'M GETTING PARANOID

- did they always have those marks on their faces when they henshin or is that a recent thing

- i like this guy he's really quick on the uptake

- "we're gonna need your right half to start looking into this" i spat out my drink. he's the right half alright

- "what the hell are you doing" *philip has a dog kigurumi on* THEY HAVE ONE FUCKING BRAINCELL IN THIS AGENCY

- WHY DID HE FUCKING BARK YALL 😭😭

- i cant continue watching this

- his current hyperfixation are dogs... st bernard dogs specifically

- nvm wait. what the heck is this new guy saying!! i mean you can still be kamen rider. everyone is a kamen rider they just add a lil nickname at the end

- THEY'RE ON THE LEFT AND RIGHT SIDES OF THE PLATFORM. LMFAOOOOOO

- "you are strangely unpleasant" is the closest philip would get to saying fuck you irl. congrats ryu

- it's kinda unfair how nice philip's hair looks in this scene because now i'm saving it in the reference folder and he still has his dumb kigurumi on

- making note of what pisses them off more... shotaro doesn't like that the name of w is smeared when w was born out of the desire to protect the town they loved so much, while what irks philip more (it's both of them but it was notably philip who got to ryu first) was the implication that w doesn't reach the standard ("doesn't have what it takes"), hence i think he values their partnership more than the mission itself (even if he does believe in the justice that w imparts). that's not to say that philip is a cruel and capricious entity with fickle whims and an absent morality, he's a good guy on the hero's side for a reason. and he doesn't /not/ understand the reasons behind fighting dopants to keep the town safe. but i do like to think that what moves him to fight alongside shotaro as he does is his belief in w, and if w believes in protecting the town, then he believes in that too

- hey accel, shotaro was actually about to say something important about that flower AND it must have been related to the town bc he's a massive otaku about it... i think you should have listened....

- usual case of haughty pretentious outsider that outshines the mc for a little bit until it's revealed that the mc's edge is being a cringefail loser so obsessed with his town he probably has a 4 feet tall poster of its map in his apartment. if he even has one

- it worked ?

- shotaro... fighting........

- listen dude i know they seem to work well together. hang in there. we will resolve this conflict by the end of the episode or the next one

- discrediting shotaro... accel you will stop breathing in three days

- new character comes with a new villain(??) damn shotaro they're finally kicking you out LMFAOOO

- yeah. okay who IS this guy 😭 shroud's not a villain but....isn't accel's backstory level a bit too high?? is this fine????

- don't call him a stray dog :-( only i can do that

- "even stray dogs have pride... if you make this city cry it will bite back" ....i should make this city cry lol. im just having a silly goofy time wdym

- he's gonna have to say "henshin" like that every time....lmfao....l..ol...i can't laugh...sorry........ goofy ass henshin...

- WOAH. PICKING UP THAT SWORD WAS BADASS AS HELL

- accel...engine.... CAR ACCIDENT

- if someone came in with an upgraded version of my heat metal suit i'd kms

- "woah..." "WOAH...." he had w gagged im fucking sobbing again

[shakingparadigm]

Hello it's the anon who said about the Ivan collar thing 😭. I come with some little brainrots.

Mizi sang "Black Sorrow" as a solo cover for unrequited love, with Sua being dead.

But the cover made me think. What if somehow Sua, in a way, is the Till to Mizi's Ivan. What if Sua, even if she loves Mizi back, never really fully indulged in it.

Specially in "My Clematis" where Mizi regarded Sua as a god, all I can imagine is Sua who always kept a perfect image in front of everyone including Mizi. Sua who never really showed her vulnerability to Mizi even though the other girl bared her entire heart. Just the idea that she somewhat kept a mask of pretend, letting Mizi be as blissful as it can be before the inevitable.

Aka tragic Yuri breaking my heart that Sua had to keep her own planned death a secret from her beloved because of one (and only) little selfish wish, which is to let Mizi live.

(Also sorry for spamming asks this frequently! I've been going through ALNST hyperfixations and your blog have a great humor.)

DONT EVER BE SORRY FOR SPAMMING ASKS! they make me really happy! Thank you so much! Sorry it takes me a while to answer them sometimes, my brains been pretty messy as of late, and I keep losing track of time.

That's a really interesting perspective to see it from. Regarding their relationship as a whole, I actually think it was the opposite. Sua only ever opened up to Mizi, and to everyone else she was timid and closed off. That was one of the reasons why their bond was so strong, they clung to each other. Sua retreats into herself, avoiding others in an attempt to protect her soft-hearted feelings, only sticking to Mizi because she loved and trusted her most. Mizi loved Sua like a dog because she was a cure for her loneliness back when Mizi felt isolated and afraid of being away from her home. They gave each other everything, which is why the thought of Mizi dying filled Sua with so much anguish that she'd rather die herself.

But if we're talking about the few weeks leading up to the first round of ALNST (you probably meant this, my bad) then definitely. She spent the last of her life counting down the hours, putting on a brave face and trying to make the remainder of her time with Mizi the best it could possibly be. I assume it was Mizi that proposed a tie. Sua played along, or maybe even believed in it at first, because ALIEN STAGE was something that they both looked forward to their whole lives, something that was held over their heads like a reward instead of the death sentence it actually was. Sua most likely started planning her death after she realized the possible consequences. The thing is, according to the MiziSua interview, a tie had never happened before in ALIEN STAGE. Which means that we don't know what happens if a tie actually does occur. It seems unlikely that ALIEN STAGE, which derives its stakes from the deaths of the contestants, would let both go forward thanks to a tie. I mean, if that happened, then everyone else would just decide to tie in order to keep each other alive, and where's the fun in a deathless season? Where's the stakes in that? It goes against everything ALIEN STAGE is built on. If a tie did happen, they most likely would have forced a situation where one of them would have to die anyway. It just lengthens the process and makes it more complicated. I like to think that, at some point, Sua realized this. If they tie, there's no guarantee that they both stay alive. In a tie situation, they might even randomly pick the contestant to be eliminated. The circumstances are uncertain and unpredictable, and within those hypotheticals Mizi dying is always an option. But if Sua adjusts her own performance level without Mizi knowing, she can ensure that the only person who has to die is herself. As stated before, Sua is soft-hearted. Her blank demeanor is indeed a mask for overwhelming feelings that lie beneath the surface. Mizi worships Sua, but Sua loves Mizi an incredible amount too. She must have loved her so much that Ivan, an exceedingly observant asshole (affectionate), picked up on it and was able to discern her intentions. Ivan criticizes Sua for choosing to sacrifice herself, calling her out for "playing hero", but most importantly, accusing her of dying only because she herself cannot handle the pain of losing someone she loves. She cannot fathom living a life where Mizi is dead, so she "runs away" from it by any means possible. He accuses her of being a hypocrite because the future that pains her to think about is one that she is about to inflict on her beloved. Is it an act of love or an act of selfishness? Is Ivan twisting her genuinely pure intentions and chastising her into believing that it makes her a bad person? Despite being hit with this crisis and crying over it, Sua decides to sacrifice herself anyway. And her happy mask was so impressive that Mizi failed to notice she was digging her own grave.

Sua not "indulging" in her love for Mizi is actually really interesting, and I can see how it can come off that way because Mizi is much more affectionate. But I actually think otherwise!

I think it's not really that she refused to indulge in her love, rather she indulged in it so much that she died to ensure she'd never have to live without it.

[jungkoode]

hello, what does your writing process look like? how do you ideate and like produce (?) it into a fic? do you feel it becomes a chore to write and post sometimes?

Oh, honestly? My writing process is pure chaos with a side of hyperfixation and an unhealthy disregard for personal well-being. Fic ideas usually just happen to me, mostly when I’m listening to music. I’ll catch a vibe, and my brain will latch onto it like a leech.

(That’s why I always have a playlist for each fic, honestly! I envision scenes with those songs!)

For instance, I knew I wanted to write something dystopian and Yoongi x Reader, so naturally, I was listening to Headlock by Imogen Heap while showering—minding my business—and BAM. Those weird time-manipulation, alternate-reality vibes hit me like a truck. Combine that with my love for The Matrix movies and The Umbrella Academy and well. I nearly died slipping on soap but was too busy going YES. YES. YES. to care. And so The 25th Hour was born.

Once I have the idea, I start organizing my little gremlin thoughts. I make spreadsheets for everything. Character headcanons, hierarchies, relationships, subplots, why the side characters exist (because if they’re only there to prop up the main couple, they can rot). Even if I don’t use half of it in the actual fic, my ADHD requires order or I will literally lose the plot—literally.

Now, do I have a healthy, disciplined approach to writing? No. I hyperfixate, I impulse-write, I forget to eat constantly, I forget to take my meds, and coffee is my best friend. You see me posting nonstop and think I’m some kind of god? No. I simply forget to sleep. (Four hours last night because I was making spreadsheets for The 25th Hour).

And I know we all see authors out here posting constantly, churning out work, and it’s hard not to compare ourselves, right? I do that too. I promise you—none of us are gods 😭 Now, I’m not saying writers, in general, are all dysfunctional, but I am saying that writing takes time. And if someone is posting as much as I do? No magic, no wizardry. Just very bad, unhealthy habits.

I’m usually a private person. I don’t like oversharing. But I feel like sometimes, messages like this help people feel grounded. My approach is not good, and not healthy. But I want to be honest about it—not to glorify it, not to encourage it, but to spread awareness. I think it’s important to be realistic with readers. It’s only fair that you guys know: as much as I look like a writing machine, I’m not. I struggle. I push myself too hard. And I know I need to be better about it.

So. Do I recommend my approach?

NO. Not even a little bit. It’s not good. It’s not sustainable. I get behind on actual adult responsibilities, I procrastinate important things, and my brain is basically static noise at all times.

And does writing feel like a chore sometimes? Yeah, especially when I burn myself out, but honestly, it’s still something I love—I just wish I had impulse control. So, do with this information what you will, but if you’re looking for writing tips? Uhh… maybe don’t take mine bahahaha.

But hey, at least I’m self-aware.

[lilac-melody]

Listening to lipxlip honestly makes me really happy

I don’t think people realize that I literally started to actually learn Japanese and write so much more than I had before because of them 😭

Before I got into lipxlip, back in early 2020 (as I got into them around late April of 2020) I was trying to find something that brought me a lot of joy. I fandom-hopped a lot, and even when I stayed in a fandom for a long time (like dgr or utapri), it still didn’t bring me all that much serotonin. Sure, I was hyperfixated, but I didn’t really spend money on merch or anything.

Not to mention, my music tastes kept changing, so finding songs to vibe to was always tricky. 

I was actually losing interest in everything because of a really bad depressive episode.

And then my (ex) friend got me into lipxlip (though at the time I had told her to get into Tsukiuta in exchange but she never did lol). I liked them. I was decently content.

But I honestly thought that I would never be able to get into the fandom because there was so much about Honeyworks that I didn’t understand.

But I kept learning more, and I saw some popular blogs on here and I was just !!! wow. 

And eventually, the Romeo novel was released, and I really wanted to learn more, so I ended up starting to self-teach Japanese. Hence the eventual translation of the novel. It helped me grasp some concepts better, but I was still pretty shaky. I’m not gonna lie, my tls are pretty shaky still. But they are better than before. I understand more than before.

And while you don’t have to know a lot about your interest to have fun with it, I’ve had a lot of fun learning more and being able to provide not just my own creative content, but being able to provide canon content for the people who are interested.

I still have really bad depressive episodes, but I now have something to fall back on. Something that makes me really smile and enjoy.

And not to mention how relatable the characters of lipxlip and even mona are. It’s honestly really helped me.

That’s why I continue to translate even when it gets stressful, because the end result feels well worth it.

(Also Julietta still makes me stupidly happy)