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pinkcloudsnightlightbell-remade · 6 years ago

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Limited edition THANK YOU I AM GRATEFUL 4 AND VERY HAPPY TO KNOW AND AM INSPIRED BY @xellychan040 kind of post. Hhhhnf ur an angel tysm for the message a few weeks ago and I just wish that I had the energy to be there instead of coping with family as well as coping privately -- baby cousin children and food and Lilo & Stitch & Monsters Inc have been KEY -- and that things weren't so sad but hearing that it's okay to never be okay all the time was so tender and empowering thank you ✧٩(•́⌄•́๑)

#Hank Ya foe being kind when for me and understanding ... It's hard for people to know what to say when surviving su***** loss #Been thinking of ur message every now and again and also contemplated making this post for a full week now haha #Sis was living in BC so my entire family after some debate flew over there from Ontario and ended up being w my aunts fam for 20ish days #O settle thingz and as I suggested do good for the next generation of all my supr young cousins by experiencing death unalone but ezperie #Experiencing it regardless. Extended family mainly my moms slightly older sister and a much older cousin came #T is funny BC they provided parry atmosphere and a safe loving space at the same time but when we came back to Toronto to hold another servi #His time without anything but ashes I was a lot more sociable and softer overall but a lot of the old obsessions r back #Mmainly an obsession w sleep and being forever cut off from my kin and Ken so I'm...majestically late getting back to you which I apologize #Or and yet I'm glad u can read all this later and at your own leisure. It's been a weird time since my late sister was a lot like me except #Four years older and the eldest and therefore weighted with so much expectation and an aversion to therapy...typical #Town and black folk errors.... but she was a revolutionary.... literally if you look up the website for Philippine women centre BC #Hey detail what she was up to all the way in BC and I hope u get to read abt my compadre. In a lot of ways she was a friend more than a clo #Se family member which in my opinion hurts way more. I am sad to think that you were able to so readily say #Omething to help me w my loss because I think that shows that your own life has meant being kinder #Nd more mature than you probably felt #Wish I could come over and make stew and drink w you and give thanks in person

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