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herl0yalmaid · 3 months ago

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Handmaid, would you ever get remarried?

Believe it 0r n0t, I g0t this twice, w0rded differently. Is there s0me0ne 0ut there thinking themselves a p0tential suit0r?

Wink. 0_~

N0 but- I jest entirely. Um. Marriage was... s0mething I never even really c0nsidered. I was n0t like m0st y0ung girls 0n Derse, I did n0t plan my wedding and I did n0t l0ng f0r l0ve and understanding.

I m0stly just wanted friends t0 play with and the freed0m t0 dig up the entire c0urtyard surr0unding the Man0r. I c0llected b0nes, bugs, r0cks and trinkets. I always had scuffed knees and I was a terr0r t0 every0ne ar0und me.

But n0t t0 Malc0m. 0r Cr0wbar, as he w0uld eventually be kn0wn.

Bef0re we were twisted int0 0ur respective r0les... he wanted t0 be my friend. He t0ld me, with his 0wn w0rds eventually, that he saw a l0nely girl in a shitty p0siti0n and realized she needed a friend. And I... pitied him. I supp0se in the tr0ll sense? N0t that I ever knew what that felt like. He was a b0y ab0ut my age wh0 was br0ught int0 my h0me like a c0rpse. Like he was already dead.

When Stitch was finished with him, he was alive, but rec0vering. I w0uld spend time with him when all0wed, and bring him his meals. After he felt better, we w0uld sneak away fr0m 0ur duties. I n0w kn0w he w0uld specifically request t0 interact with me. When my father realized s0mething was sparking between us th0ugh, I think he tried t0 drive a wedge between us. It alm0st w0rked, t00. But even my shitty father c0uldn't dissuade his feelings f0r me.

I... c0uld g0 0n, I supp0se. Th0ugh what I am trying t0 say is... I guess...

It w0uld take s0me0ne really special. S0me0ne wh0 made me feel warm and l0ved like he always had.

#Did y0u kn0w that he learned and c0mpletely adapted himself t0 the quadrant r0mance system f0r me?#Wr0ngfully s0. I was raised t0 be like a human. But... he made that eff0rt. He did that f0r me.#It was quite the m0ment when he t0ld me. He tried s0 hard t0 m0rph “I l0ve y0u” int0 s0mething tr0ll-like.#I finally just t0ld him that I l0ved him and then he c0nfessed t0 me what he had been trying t0 d0.#He felt s0 silly. And I felt s0... l0ved. He had assumed s0mething ab0ut me and shifted his entire life f0r it.#It feels wr0ng t0 think s0me0ne w0uld have t0 give their all like that f0r me. But... he did.

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