#HaurchefantDeservedBetter

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You deserved better...

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She was Still Alive

Characters: Haurchefant Greystone, OC: Maze Faaru Rating: Angst, Death # of Words: 586

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No one knew she came here every time she passed through Coerthas, which was often. The petals from fresh white lilies danced in the breeze, the snow and wind had long already blown the lilies away from her last visit, she knew that it wouldn’t be long before these were gone but she hoped Haurchefant liked them none-the-less. 

Maze knelt in the cold snow, she didn’t know how long she had been there already staring at the battered and broken shield in front of her. The gaping hole a reminder of her failure. Each time she set eyes on it a new wave of guilt washed over her. 

It gripped her heart until it became hard to breath. 

It seemed there wasn’t a night that has gone by since his death that it didn’t play over and over again in her dreams. 

Haurchefant throwing himself in the way of that blinding lance. 

The sound of his shield giving. The sharp sound of it cracking. 

That blinding light piercing through the shield. 

And his body hitting the ground. 

Blood everywhere. 

Should she have gone after the Archbishop? Probably. It would have maybe saved lives. Maybe at least one life. Instead she had run to Haurchefant’s side and knelt in the blood. His blood. 

Maze dug her fingers into the cold snow as she bit down her emotions remembering the way he looked at her. 

He had looked so… happy. Happy. How could he be happy as he lay there dying?! She still screamed at herself. But she knew the answer. 

Because of her. 

Because he protected her. His hope for Ishgard. His friend. His lady. She was still alive and that gave him great joy at the end. 

She was still alive… 

You… you are unharmed? 

His last words still rang in her ears as if he was lying beside her still. 

F-Forgive me... I could not bear the thought of… of… 

That old pain that had never gone away made her gasp. 

She could still feel his hand in hers. She could still feel the tears that had threatened to spill that day, they still had yet to leave her eyes. 

Oh, do not look at me so. 

She bit her lip. 

A smile better suits a hero… 

But unlike then… she couldn’t force a smile for him. A smile that caused his eyes to alight with such happiness. 

Until there was no light at all… 

In a rush bitter rage overtook the pain of loss. Her friend… Her...

Her friend who had met her with a smile every time he saw her, even at the first.

Her friend that had welcomed her with open arms and vowed to protect her even as she fled as a fugitive at a time when she thought the rest of the world would be turning against the Scions. 

Her friend that was a listening ear when she needed it. 

Her… He was so much more than a friend at the end. The shared kisses. The shared embraces. What would have become of them if...

Maze hunched over as the pain and anger coursed through her body, her head brushing the snow. 

“I’m so sorry, Haurchefant.” Her voice cracked. “You deserved better.” 

She squeezed her eyes shut and slammed her fist into the ground. 

And still those tears would not come. The guilt would not let them. 

As she bowed in the cold, cold snow there was a warmth at her back. Like… like Haurchefant was standing behind her. But she didn’t look. She could not look. 

You deserved better. 

You deserved better.

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I think if I ever make another alt (which I no doubt will in the future) I think I just created the one who will romance Aymeric. Or maybe Haurchefant, just so I can have a character with a broken heart to match mine irl 😢 #HaurchefantDeservedBetter