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cessandee · 2 years ago

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Some days you are fine, other days you are not. I’m still learning in life and that the phrase “bilog ang mundo, minsan ikaw ang nasa ibabaw minsan sa ilalim” is teaching me lessons. I know we are not perfect as a person and we may have shortcomings and sometimes its inevitable and not your fault. Maybe it’s the universe saying “ah you’ve been happy too much. don’t take it for granted here’s anxiety for you” lol. I think for the past months I’ve been handling myself well. Less anxiety, less worrying over somethings I can’t control. And I thank BTS for that bcause they keep me busy... (i hope I won’t forget the Lord, sorry po too much bts). You know when everything is fine then bam bam bam. I felt like I’ve been hit multiple times. Is this a test? I know I will get over with this. I don;t know why problems keep coming like why do you have to be one after another let me think and breathe for a sec huhu. I think life is testing me on how strong I have become now. Or I don’t know baka burnout na talaga ako sa work. (resign na ba?) Okay I’m gonna tell what happened for the past days...

It all started sa meeting, ako ang nagmminutes morning shift ako pero di pa ko nagout. Then may long table kami parang meeting/bday talaga set-up may mga food sa gitna. Eh nagkataon nasa harap ako. Si shong ang duty kaso wala sya nung time na yun sa harap. May patient kaso si jm ang humarap kaya tumayo na din ako to assist. Turns out di ko nabigay yung syringe ni px grr so nung bumalik sya napansin na sya ni mam swan na ang sama daw ng tingin suplada and such tas napansin din daw ng mga taga ppp yun una palang na ganun na attitude edi kebs lang samin. But nung gabi na yun nagreklamo sya na ganun nga sa pharma then nagmeeting kami about dun tas bigla ako na may kasalanan ng lahat hahaha tho kebs naman sakin yun pero medyo naging big deal sa mga tao dahil bakit nga naman sakin napunta yung sisi. Tapos dumating ang weekend huhu eto katangahan ko talaga to dahil 100 lang pala yung nicardipine amp pero 200 ang nakalagay sa dr at sa lahat lahat huhuhu. Maeexpired pa naman na yung onhand namin nun tas magagamit na eh sa ppp yun hays. Mahal pa naman ni nicard tas ang naisip ko bayaran ko nalang para matapos na putek sign na ba to na burnout na talaga ako?? Tapos hanggang ngayon di ko parin alam gagawin di ko nalang iniisip huhu sana maging okay na to huhu tapos yung sa sched naman!!! huhu last minute ko naisipan baguhin yung 10-6 ko nakakainis magiging unfair kasi hatian namin ng night and kinakabahan ako baka masilip or something huhu tho pumayag naman na si krizsha hays dapat pala di na ko naging mabait sa mga off nakakainis talaga yung kabaitan ko wala sa lugar minsan eh. Kung sa simula palang di ko na binigyan ng mahabang off edi keri na hahaha tapos ngayon yung anxiety ko na wag ko nalang baguhin kaya kasi feel ko mapupuna??? huhuhu im always like this and isa sa pinaka hated traits ko sakin to na pag may gagawin ako iniisip ko agad na mahuhuli ako at dapat di ko na gawin. Haysss so siguro hindi ko nalang palitan no? Need ko na mag unwind talaga!! Wala na ko emotion shet dati konting ano may luha na ako ngayon huhu strong na ba ko nyan?

Anyways, I’m hoping and praying that everything will turn out fine. I know it will. And alam ko napapabayaan ko na at some point yung relationship ko kay God. at sana naman wag ako masyado maging mataas ang lipad yun kasi nakikita ko sakin ngayon na ang sama ko na minsan sa point of view ng ibang tao pero para sakin hindi naman. Yun nga goal ko diba maging sobrang bait. Sana I learn how to humble myself to others all the time. So Lord, please help me. Sorry na po na everytime may problem ako dun ko lang kayo naaalala. Wag Nyo po ko pababayaan at ang fam ko. Thankful po ako na nandyan Kayo lagi sa tabi ko. Pls teach me the way, the best decision and the one and only solution to my problems. Pls help my anxieties and worry go away.

You are my Waymaker, Miracle Worker, Promise Keeper, The Light in the Darkness. Alam ko di mo po ko pababayaan at ang family ko. Ilove You Lord

08-24-2022

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rarestnicole · 6 years ago

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I know I that I should stop typing my thoughts at 3 AM 'cause I always end up sleeping at 5 AM. Well, I dunno. The senseful things come to me at this hour eh. LOL. And hey, it's just 2:32 AM, I still have time to type before 3 AM. So, I should start.

I was tagged in a post of my dear friend, Marry Joy. It was actually a shared post, tapos t-in-ag niya ako. And guess what? Ah, whatever. Even if you don't guess, I'd still type it anyway--whatever. Three letters; U, P, K. Yep!

Hay.

Her caption. Well, that's true. We dreamed of being a UP student. Hahaha. Ang sarap kayang mangarap! Ang hirap lang talaga tuparin. Well, as for me, I had chances that I chose to ignore. Alam ko kasi that it may not be what God is planning for me. My tries might be futile kasi all along, hindi ako para doon. Sa school, ha. Pero Lord, sa taga-UP, pwede po ba? Hahaha. Eeey, Anne Nicole, this one's not for that. Focus kasi, saan saan ka naman nakakarating ulit eh. Tsk.

So, UPK.

*sigh*

Amazing.

Hanggang ngayon, amazed pa rin ako. Wth, right? Hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala. LOL.

Tiningnan ko 'yong mga notes ko sa Google Keep ko nung July 2017. Hahahaha. Ah, inabangan ko pala at tinandaan ang mga names nila. MALAMANG, mga Kuya at Ate eh. Magandang experience kasi kaya tatandaan ko talaga. Hahahahaha. Weird lang eh. Puro mga names lang ng mga Kuya ang nilagay ko sa Keep.

"Ewan ko sa'yo."

Ewan ko talaga sa'kin. Hahaha. Ang pinunta ko naman talaga doon is to experience that KF kasi hindi nga ako madalas payagan ni Mommy na sumama sa mga ganun. Ewan ko ba pero hindi naman ako prinsesa, ayaw lang talaga niyang mawalay ako sa piling niya ng napakatagal. Aaaawww, you Mommy, ha! You! Jeez, Mom. HAHAHA. Joke lang. Hindi rin talaga ako interested masiyado. March 2017, may SSG Training kami dapat. I wanted to go, ayaw lang ni Mommy. But I just shrugged and agreed. Okay lang, nakapag-SPG Training naman na 'ko sa Looc nung grade 6 ako. And Representative lang naman ako, kaya na nilang itayo ang bandera ng Sta. Fe doon. Haha. And nalaman ko sa pag-uwi nila na may ginawa silang kahihiyan dun. Hahahaha. Yikes, if I was there, hindi ako masasali kasi hindi naman ako lumalabas ng kwarto. Haha. Kinausap daw ng teacher na kasama ng officers ng SFNHS ang mga students ng ibang school ng lasing. Sir, ilam sa imo. Gosh, 'yong mga sinabi naman ni Sir eh. 😂 No regrets about my decision.

Sa UPK, iba eh. Mom, I should go. Pinapatugtog ko pa nun lagi ang mga kanta ni Mandy Moore kaya kapag pinapakinggan ko ngayon ang Someday We'll Know, feeling ko nandoon ulit ako while wearing a pair of jogging pants kasi I didn't bring any shorts. No way in hell.

Tapos nagsimula na pala ang Day 1.

KA. LO. KA. Naalala ko ang about sa jokes. Damn, hindi ko alam kung tatawanan ko na lang ba tapos pilit ko na lang itatago ang pag-cringe ko dahil sa poor delivery o kakaawan ko kasi, "Fre naman! Umupo ka na lang sana at nanahimik tulad ko," o 'di naman kaya ay hahanga sa guts niya. Well, Nyx, at least they have the guts. Duh! Waley pa rin. Hiyang hiyang hiyang hiya na talaga ako nung may nag-entry galing sa school namin tapos 'yong teacher namin, pinipilit kaming suportahan. Okay, I understand naman na schoolmate eh kaya dapat suportahan. Pero SIR, kung hindi ako natawa sa joke, pwedeng manahimik na lang ako. Baka masamid pa ako sa fake laugh. Damn, I did well when I sticked to my principles. May kumanta pa! Gusto ko 'yong guts ni koya pero ang lyrics, no-no. He sang something so popular na kahit hindi ko pakinggan from my phone araw araw ay masasaulo ko because it's played every freaking where. And sorry kung I sound like a proud jerk at ang OA ko naman kasi kailangan talagang ganito, but saulo ko na ang song and its sharps and flats.kaya ang disturbing lang kapag hindi niya nahi-hit ang note. When you sing a song, 'yong bagay dapat sa boses mo. Hindi lang 'yong popular, 'yan ang natutunan ko through my experiences. Haha. Whatever. Pa-cute pa ng pa-cute sa stage. Yikes, thank God hindi ako naa-attract sa itsura lang. I'd leave my body and wander as a soul if ganun. Haha. Kidding.

Ah, maja. The hosts. Magagaling sila, the best. HAHAHA. Magagaling magsalita. Aaaw, 🎶 take me back, back, back 🎶. They're cool. May kamukha ang isa eh. Hmm, tsk tsk. He looks like someone that I might end up with in the future. HAHAHA. Ano ba 'to. And this, self, is the very reason why you should type your thoughts at night and not during the *dawn*. Tulog na lang nga ako. 😂 Dami kong alam eh. Pagalitan pa ako nun, patay na. Bye, bye, Anne Nicole na naman. Tss. Nakaka-trauma kaya mapagsabihan ng taong gusto mo. Feeling ko tuloy kailangan ko muna maging perfect para hindi na ako magkamali. Huhuhu. You're so uptight, eh ang chill ko pa naman din. Pwedeng chill ka lang rin? Tssssss! I want to talk to you pa naman. TSS!

I wish I could stop... but I just couldn't. Charot. I'll stop.

I'll stop talking and continue with what happened. Matitinong mga pangyayari.

Wait lang.

Nakalimutan ko na ang mga matinong nangyari. :>

Ah. Nagka-crush ko doon eh. (#AngTino) The f. (Tingnan mo 'tong gusto rawng matuto pero crush ang pinagtuunan ng pansin. Wala talagang hiya.) So ayun nga, first night yata 'yon? Eh magbabasa nga kasi sila ng notes from us. Eh ang supportive ng mga schoolmates ko, wooh, cheers for the best pals in school! Yeah. Char. Edi nagsulat din ako. Hahahaha. Sila nag-provide (yata) ng masusulatan at panulat, sila rin ang nagbigay, pero ako ang nagsulat. Thank God, sa maayos ko pong penmanship. Nabasa naman. Pagkatapos nilang ibigay, humiga na ako sa kinauupuan ko para makinig... while recording it sa phone ko. Eh, crush ko nga kasi at babasahin ang note ko! Ba't ba kasiiii?! Kailangan kasi ng remembrance eh! Proof pa para maalala ko na nangyari nga at hindi ilusyon! At bakit ba! Binabasa. Kasi. Ang. Note. Ko. Why baaa? Twice yata akong nagbigay eh. (Walangya ka talaga, akala ko ba UP ang ipinunta? Ba't biglang naging 'taga-UP'?) Daw buang gid takon kato. Pero kalma kalma lang, baka tumaas ang energy ko bigla at lakarin ko pauwi ang Santa Fe. Kalma lang, ayaw ko pa umuwi.

Eh dahil crush ko nga, syempre tinitingnan ko. (Bwisit ko talaga, Salvador.) Hahahaha. Nakakahiyang nilalang. Papa, Mama at Mommy, hindi niyo po alam ito dahil dapat lang naman talaga, ayaw kong matakwil 'no. Hapon ng second day, nakikinig ako sa speaker nang bigla akong hipan ni Hypnos at antukin. Alipin pa naman ako ng antok ko. Haha. At kasi, nakakahiya namang humiga doon habang nagsasalita, (wait, parang mas nakakahiya ang pag-alis namin habang may nagsasalita. Pero malay naman nila, baka nakinig kami mula sa kwarto kaysa naman makita talaga nilang natutulog ako.) Natulog po ako sa room namin. Hanggang alas cinco. Yes, I missed a lot at nagsisi naman ako nung nalaman ko kung ano. SAYANG NAMAN, SALVADOR. Hindi ka na sana gumising. Tssss!!! Eh photo collage contest na, I have to watch. Nakakahiya naman na natulog lang ako, so naisip kong suportahan na ang mga ka-batch ko at ibang besties: sina Rene, Apple, Jarene, Danielle at Marvin yata. Can't remember na. Pumunta ako sa room kung saan sila gumagawa AND TO MY GREAT SURPRISE, nandoon ang crush ko. Edi hindi na ako umalis? Yep, maliban na lang nung inutusan kami dalawa ni Aaron, siya kasi kasa-kasama ko nun. Mabuti at naligo ako pagkagising ko. Amazeballs, galing mo Nyx. Iyan ang gusto ko sa'yo; kapag mukha kang ewan ay naliligo ka. At mabuti na lang at nagpalit ako ng damit dahil naka-white top ako na off shoulder, eh umuulan at hindi yata ako naka-high waist pants. (Push mo 'yan.) So nagpalit ako.

Ang creepy ko kaya magka-crush! Hahahaha. Kapag gusto ko, gusto ko talaga. Nakakahiya. Syempre nga kasi aalis naman kami agad, at hindi ko na ulit makikita ang crush ko (huhu, bye my darling dear, charot hahaha), at hindi kasi nanuod ang ibang schoolmates ko sa games nung 2nd night, kaya ni-record ko na lang. Ah, I'm such a thoughtful schoolmate. Dapat in-award-an ako niyan nung graduation eh. Tss, hindi marunong mag-appreciate. Anyway, nag-video nga ako pero 'yong sakto lang. Hindi naman siguro nahalata ng mga sumasayaw sa stage na vi-nideohan ko sila, ano? Pakialam ba nila, eh todo sayaw na sila ng Gimme Gimme, kawawa naman ang stage. Feeling ko na-harass dahil sa moves nila. Gosh, my innocence.

Ang dami ko kayang remembrance noon.

Kaso binura ko na eh. :‹ (bitter mo kasi)

Okay lang.

Nilipat ko naman kasi sa flash drive kaya binura ko sa phone. Heller! Sayang ang effort ko nun 'no! Tapos, ide-delete ko lang? Oh my gosh, no. 😂 Nilipat ko kasi lahat sa flash drive kaya binura ko na sa phone memory.

So I stalked my crush nung bumalik na kami sa room. The f, ang bagal ng internet sa Odiongan nun, gusto ko nang umuwi para lang mag-Facebook. Free data na 'yon ha, kasi nga ang bagal rin kahit may data. Hala freeeeee! I found it. His account. Oh my god, I'm so brilliant. #ProudMoment07'17 My gooooooooods, engineering ang course. Aaaw, magaling sa Math. Zero balance pa naman ako sa Math. (Kidding! Medyo mabilis naman ako mag-compute ng addition at subtraction at multiplication at division mentally. Hehe. Oo, proud na ako dun kasi why not? Eh sa 'yon na ang best ko eh. Ba't ba. Haha. Sa lahi daw ng Asis ang magaling sa Math, kaso dahil sa apo na ako, medyo malayo na sa Asis kaya ang mga basic lang ang kaya ko.) Wow lang, bakit ka po Engineering? Huhuhu. Wala kang kaalam-alam pero pinagpipiyestahan ko na ang infos mo sa Facebook at tuwang tuwa pa ako. (katakot 'to) I was like, "Wow." (wow, hindi jeje HAHAHAHAHA hindi naman siya mukhang ganun pero kasi 'di ba, Hey Stephen, Taylor knows that looks can be deceiving but she thinks she saw a light in you.)

Ah, ilang beses ba akong nagpa-picture? HAHAHAHAHA. I'm so humiliating. Eh kasi naman, remembrance kasi fre eh.

Kailan nga kami umuwi? July 24 yata. Since that day, nagkaroon na ng password ang cellphone ko. Hahahaha. At, sobrang low ng brightness, feeling ko wala na akong nakita sa phone. 😂 Whatever. May nabasa kasi ako noon sa Wattpad na one shot ni ate Rayne Mariano eh. 15 Days. Yep. Naniwala ako doon. Hahaha. Eh kasi bata pa ako noon, mga 17. Hahaha. Whatever.

Hindi na natanggal ang password ko ever since that day. Wala naman talaga akong tinatago sa phone ko. 15 days ko lang naman sana ilalagay ang lock. Kaso nakita naman agad nila ang tinatago ko kaya I shrugged the idea off na lang. Bahala na nga, yago ran basi gani nagpinati takon man. Hay nako.

Hala, parang nainis pa nga nun 'yong crush ko kasi, ba't ba 'ko pa-picture ng pa-picture?! Mukha lang akong tanga. Whatever, wala kang alam. Hmp. 😂 Ay, suplado. HAHAHA. Kuya, don't be mad na. I just want a remembrance kasi. You don't know me naman kaya mainis ka lang, you still look cute anyway. Go lang. Hahaha. Doon sa remembrance, mukha akong tanga. I don't like my smile talaga, ugh. I look stupid. Kuya, don't be mad na, you won't see me again (you wish). Kuya... this is the last day. Huhuhu. Pagbigyan mo na 'ko. Ayaw ko pa umuwi nun. :3 Seyeng.

I think I'm pretty blessed. He read my notes, pinayagan niya akong magpa-picture sa kanya, may empty chairs sa malapit sa table nila na feeling ko, sinadya ni Lord. You po Lord haaa~. Hmm. 😂

So patalon-talon akong pumunta sa harap ng kwarto namin para sumakay sa jeep 'cause we're going home. :{ Hindi matanggal ang ngiti ko pauwi. HAHAHAHAHA. Tapos biglang, sino nga ulit si JP Caras? 😂

Nung umuwi na kami :‹, nag-internet agad ako. Hooοh, feeling ko napagkaitan ako ng rights to open my social media accounts at ng chance to, um... hehe, stalk. Like hello! Why naman, Odiongan? So, Facebook, Twitter at Instagram. Yes, stalker mode. Yuck, creepy. (ikr, but idc :›) Hindi lang naman kasi siya ang stinalk ko. Some Ates and Kuyas, tiningnan ko lang naman eh. :3 Sa totoo lang, hindi naman ako ganun ka-active sa Twitter eh. Minsan lang, nakakalimutan ko kasi na may account ako at ang password ko. Trivia: Tuwing bubuksan ko ang accounts ko, nagpapalit ako ng password. Haha. I am no Mnemosyne's daughter, alright? She must've hated me. :< Grabe naman po ang nangyari sa memory ko. Huhu.

Tutuloy ko 'to bukas dahil mag-aalas cuatro na. 3:47 AM, ‹061618›

Tsk. I won't edit this. :p

ΔItinuloy noong ika-27 ng Hunyo, taong 2018, 14:41Δ

Yep, ngayon ko lang naituloy. Hahaha.

Hindi nga ako ganun ka-active sa Twitter pero kapag nandun ako, tweet talaga ako ng tweet. Kahit ano ang nasa isip ko, tweet. I like typing my thoughts nga 'di ba, at wala naman talagang nagpi-pay ng attention sa kung anu-anong itu-tweet ko kaya pakawala talaga ako doon. Haha. Sana naman wala akong masamang sinabi sa kung sino doon. Hindi ko na kasi maalala tweets ko eh. Hahaha.

Hala, paano ko nga ulit nalaman kung may Twitter siya? Hahaha. I can't remembeeeer. Basta hinanap ko yata silang lahat (yata ulit). And I found his. Waaah~ He's so admirable. Huhuhu. I don't like the color of his shirt sa DP niya noon pero okay lang. Hahahaha. Stalker much? Ang pangit ng stalker. Tss. Fan na lang kaya? Fan? HAHA. Para kang tanga, Nyx. Go pa. 😂 what! ever!

Syempre f-in-ollow ko na. Okay lang, hindi naman niya ako kilala. Imposible, sabi ko pa. In-add ko sa Facebook kasi gusto ko lang naman siyang maging friend kahit sa FB lang at hindi naman ako harmful. Hahahaha. Naisip ko nga noon na baka hindi naman niya ia-accept, pero okay lang ica-cancel ko na lang after a week. 😂 Pero hindi ko na f-in-ollow sa Instagram, baka naman makahalata siya. Nung in-accept na niya ang FR ko sa FB, rejoice! Rejoice ng lantaran sa harap ng mga pamangkin. Bahala kayo diyan, eh sa masaya ako eh. Tss.

But...

Shems ang posts kooooo!

Too late.

Stupid as ever.

Pero sige na nga lang! He don't know me anyway!

Tapos 'Hi' pa 'ko ng 'Hi' sa Twitter kasi nga hindi naman niya mababasa.

Eh nag-followback siya.

I so hate you for being so shameless, Anne Nicole.

Pero hindi ako nagsisi... muntik lang.

Hahahaha.

Isang decision lang ang p-in-ush ko kay Mommy ha. Wala naman akong alam sa mga susunod na mangyayari. Pero that was the best decision ever!

No regrets.

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sheannshe · 7 years ago

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To the most amazing person I know, Happy birthday Carloooooo! I thank God big time for you. And yes, I praise God for you. You are a lovely and wonderful blessing from the Lord! Sobrang blessed and thankful ako na nakilala kita and most especially because naging partner kita sa service. AAAAHHHH Sinong mag-aakala na yung kinaiinisan kong masungit na EVP noon ay magiging partner ko pala at magiging malaking blessing sa buhay ko. HUHUHU. Ang dami kong natutunan sayo. Mula sa pagsasapuso (ehem pagmememorize) ng basics ng YFC at catholic faith, pagiging mapagmahal, pagiging patience, understanding, sociable, prayerful, & syempre pagiging strong. At huy, lalo na yung pagiging on time at strict sa oras. Sa akin unang napunta yung korona. Aba. 😂 Pati pagiging maot ay tinuro mo. Charot. 😂 Thank you for all of that, Carlo. Inspirasyon ka para magpatuloy at para hindi sumuko. Thank you for all those happy & nakakakilig Jesus moments with you; and even those huhuhu and painful moments. Thank you for all the encouragements and for reminding me that the Lord always deserve the best from us. Thank you for fighting with me & for all your prayers. Patuloy akong lumalaban with you and praying with you. Namimiss ko na yung mga seryoso nating usapan. :((( (date date date) Praying that the Lord will continue to bless you and use you. I really wish you the best! Lalo na good health. God bless on your journey as mission worker 💕 Gotchu always. Lablab huhu 😭💕

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nottsubakiichan · 7 years ago

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Love Live! Sunshine!! Season 2 Episode 3 Reactions

Just like my posts for Episodes 1 and 2, reactions will be under the cut.

oooh right. the phone call. What is it?

What?? Postponed???

what’s so bad about it again

oh shit chika that’s dangerous

yeah right?

wait what’s so bad

OH. OH GOD. OH NO. OH SHIT. At the same time???

lol chika she finally gets it

OH SHIT THAT FALL

i fucking knew that roof was dangerous af. rip shiitake

still not skipping the op theme <3

in the mountains?

ooo that’s far

lool flying

HAHAHA RUBY AND MARU THAT SARCASM

LOL YOHANE

oh right they can just take mari’s chopper right??

LOL PILOT CHIKA

yeah just take the chopper

wait what

“Whoops” HAHA

so much engrish

oh yeah You’s boat??

a cruiser..?

RIKO HAHAHAHAHA

LOLOLOLOL

lol at this rate you’d need to rowboat all the way there

oh there’s a way?

ooohhh right

okay but how do you get to pick your order

LOTTERY???

HAHAHA OH MY GOD THIS BRINGS ME BACK TO NICO DRAWING THE LOTTERY FOR µ’s

THIS IS SOME NICO SHIT

WHO WILL PICK

let’s see… the current club president is chika so

oh bad luck lmao

MAKE IT YOU-CHAN SHE CAN DO IT

GO YOU-CHAN WOOOO BEST GIRL

Yohane? ummmm… no

bc u have the worst luck out of all the aqours members and u have a penchant for drawing misfortune to yourself lol

LOL IM LOVING THIS TSUKKOMI MARU AND RUBY

oh is dia gonna draw then?

oh lol guess not

so a game of rock-paper-scissors against dia

yeah this should decide it

will yohane luck out

wtf who pushed her????

what she won????

ooohhh god this is a wrong move she didn’t win on her own terms DONT DO IT DONT DO IT

OH GOD SHE’S GONNA DO IT WHO PUSHED HER

HAHAHAHA SHE’S GOING ALL CHUUNI

and it’s gonna be….?

OH THEY GOT 1

OH NOT LOLOLOL HAHAHAHA

YOSHIKO’S HAPPY WITH IT HAHAHAHA

so? what do they pick?

CANT THEY JUST SPLIT INTO SUBUNITS?? THEY’RE NINE RIGHT?

but… Love Live is more widespread??

no one can decide

that mall tho. the detail

oh is chika gonna burst into song now

not?? the spotlight tho??? isnt that a cue for people to burst into a musical number

oh my god what is she doing on the roof again doesn’t she know that’s dangerous

the fuck chika

riko has no problem with this?

there’s always gotta be at least one chikariko moment in every episode isn’t there

oH LORD CHIKA I TOLD YOU IT WAS DANGEROUS

EXACTLY WHAT I WAS THINKING FROM THE START. THANK YOU RIKO

I FUCKING KNEW IT

yeah but at this rate you’ve got no choice right?

again with the recurring theme of making your own miracles happen instead of waiting for one. the paper plane is indeed very representative of this

oh mikans

what about mikans??? im not getting this someone explain

so they’re splitting after all

the extras tho

oh god wait does this mean there’s gonna be a new song

OH MY GOD THERE IS

OH MY GOD IT’S GONNA BE THE THING THEY COMPOSED IN EPISODE 2 OH GOD I WANNA HEAR IT I LOVED THE MELODY AS SOON AS I HEARD IT

OH MY GOD THOSE COSTUMES!! THE DETAIL!!

aw youruby moment

wait RUBY made these costumes??? IT’S SO GOOD?? GANBARUBY

they all look so nice huhuhu

OH MY GOD DIA

aaaaaawwwww kurosawa sisters :’)

aw dia :’)

too bad it’s gonna be just the five of them

who’s gonna center

OH MY GOD HERE IT IS IT’S THE SONG ASDdafdsfsfsdfgsdg

so few people cheering :(

LET’S HEAR IT

OH MY GOD THAT SOUNDTRACK

OH WHAT???

THE OTHERS SHOWED UP AFTER ALL??

SO THEY DITCHED THE OPEN HOUSE??? WHAT BECAME OF IT???

OKAY FORGET THAT FOR NOW LET’S HEAR THE SONG

OMG THE MELODY

THE ANIMATION!!!

AAAAAAAAAA SDKFAKDFSDLFLASDFASDFASDF IT’S SO BEAUTIFUL

THAT DIA SOLO

ASFASFSDFAFDGSDGDGDFG

SDFDSFDGDFSGGDFGASDLJDIAFAP;IF;AEWFEWF;LWEAEWFWF

OH MY GOD I ALREADY LOVE IT

FINALLY!! AN AQOURS SONG I LOVE AT FIRST LISTEN

oh this part is giving me watashitachi wa mirai no hana vibes

THIS IS IT. AQOURS’ YUME NO TOBIRA

can’t wait to see a live performance of this

oh is that the title

APPLAUSE IM CLAPPING

YES THEY LOVED IT

oh god i hope this gets them through this time

wait what?? they’re still trying to push for the open house???

OOOOOHHHHH SO THAT’S WHAT THE MIKANS WERE FOR

the soundtrack :’)))

LOOL THIS RIDE IS ABOUT AS SLOW AS ONE OF THOSE GROCERY SCOOTERS

OMG KANAN SHE BROKE IT LMAO

HAHAHAHA IT’S NOW A ROLLERCOASTER

THAT MIKAN HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

they’ll make it

man all that running. will they still have any energy left for a performance?

THE DETAIL!! IN THE ANIMATION!!! SO HD!!

yep working hard to make your own miracles happen :)

ah so that’s why the episode is entitled “rainbow”

what it’s not the end of the episode yet?

OMG

OH MY GOD KIMI KOKO???????

AAAAAAAASFD;ASFDFDLFSDFG

THIS IS THEIR BORARARA

THEY’RE PERFORMING THEIR FIRST SINGLE AT THE OPEN HOUSE LIKE µ’s!!!

THIS TIME WITH UPGRADES

THEY COMPLETELY REVAMPED THE ANIMATION THIS TIME HOLY SHIT

N E W C U T S

OH YES DOKI DOKI SUNSHINE

SUCH UPGRADE!!!

AAAAA THIS EPISODE :’)

next episode is gonna be dia-centric i see. can’t wait!

Overall: Writing is still a bit fast paced but still 👌👌👌 Can’t wait for the full version of the new insert song

#me.txt #it speaks #love live #love live sunshine #love live sunshine season 2 #love live sunshine season 2 spoilers #spoilers #love live sunshine spoilers #aqours

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intimateandcrazythings · 7 years ago

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Why I took the Philsat ☺️ So first, I thank God for giving me this achievement. So alam ko na philsat after ng midterms ko actually anlala kasi okay pako dun sa first 2 exams ng exam week pero dun sa last day which is the day before philsat iyak nako ng iyak kasi ayoko na ng audprob!!! 😭 HAHAHA tapos me philsat pa drained na drained nako kinukwestyon ko na buong buhay ko pero sabi ko, hindi, gusto ko to, so nag cram ako the night before. Nagsagot ako ng reviewer tapos 5am gising kinabukasan kahit puyat ako consistent. Pag punta ko dun super motivated ako pero during the exam after the first two subtests NATULOG AKO mga besh!! Antok na antok ako grabe more basa more fun. Pag gising ko naiiyak nako kasi ayoko na burn out nako sabi ko yoko na mag exam kahit kelan kasuka ganon bat ba ako andito ayoko na mag abugado tas iiyak nako talaga tas nakatulog nga ako ng bongga so less time so madalian yung pag sagot ko dun sa hard parts nung exam basta bogsa mode lang tas sabi ko buset baka bumagsak pako nakakahiya seryoso kalungkot bagsak feels lagi nalang tapos diko sinabi sa parents ko na nag philsat ako so I am alone in thiz. Hahaha. PERO THANK YOU LORD YOU SAVED ME HUHUHU So ginawa ko lang to agad ngayon para maramdaman ko naman na kaya ko padin, kahit sa mata ng iba failure ako for not graduating on time, for not being your perfect student, for failing my quizzes and etc. So ngayon, thank you!!! Yung mga congrats nyo sobrang nakakatuwa. Naniniwala akong binigay ni Lord to sakin kasi alam nya this is not just me passing but also me being motivated to finally finish and achieve more. The best is yet to come!!! ❤️❤️ 1 down!!! 4 more to go!!!!! 🌻 Your forever clutch and chambalero, J 🌺

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forthelalaland · 7 years ago

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#LaBETHtotheLITOsphereandbeyond

My parents got married 30 years ago through a civil wedding. However, sissy and I know the feeling of wanting to go in front of the altar, saying a sweet vow with the Lord, our God. So then, we had this dream… For our mother and father. Sissy and I promised each other that our Mama and Papa must have a church wedding on their 30th because we know that at that time, money is not a big problem anymore. Well okay, it still is but at least, both of us are working already. Our parents built our dreams and make them come to life so it is time for us to do the same and give back. Indeed, it happened! 💒💍💐

It was a short and long preparation. Short in a way where we just prepared three or four months before the date. And long because it seems tiring. Hahahahaha! The most thrilling prep was getting dad’s blessing from the churches. Papa is a Protestant Christian so he had to get a permission to his church that he will be married in a Catholic cathedral. As a children of God, all are one so of course, it is granted! But you know, we really thought we can make a surprise wedding but that is not allowed pala as both should come voluntarily to the hands of the Lord. Hahahahaha! Second, the gowns. Sissy and I really planned to just have a dress but mum insisted. Fine, minsan lang ikasal. And it is so qt that it is her children who are the abay. Hihihi. Mama is so lucky, she is a spoiled niece to Lola Mel. Despite the short notice, Lola made us beautiful gowns! Thank you so much po! Huhuhu hearteu! There then happened when the couple had their seminars, when we booked the church and reception, when we bought the essentials and not so, and all. It was a process and we made it! That is all that matters. :)

Filipinos have that saying that grooms must not see his bride the night before the wedding because it gives bad luck. Actually, we planned to do that but we failed. Though Mama and I slept on a hotel, we were together that night due to last minute preps like flowers and stuff so what is the sense. Hahahahaha! I was the last one who slept and woke up because I edited a video for my parents. I was not able to play it because I used my voice as a background so only close fam did. LOL. That is my gift because you knowww, still new on the business. Huehue. I was then scared when Mama disappeared. Yun pala, she bought us breakfast. Yum, pancakes! Then after eating, make-up time! Thanks, Ate Tish for making us all pretty. Pero grabe kamo the pressure because we were late. Just 15 minutes though but the church personnel were nagging us since the priest has a meeting in 11. Uhm wait, I remember the wedding starts at 10:30 and not 10? We were not supposed to adjust because it is expected to end at 11:30 and Father will realy be late. Not our problem, right? So yes, I was mad. Add that they did not allow me to step in the altar to take pictures but they did not called the attention of my cousin, the official photographer. U g h. Sorry G, I just hate how they treat me knowing they are your servants. Their words are just so offending. Hope they realized it. I lift them all to You instead. *hugs*

I am with Mama in the bridal’s car so I asked her what was she feeling. She replied that she was not nervous since it is her second time. But you know, it is I who was. Hahahahaha! I actually got teary-eyed when her song, How Did You Know started to play and Mama walked down the aisle. Why is it like that? Hahahahaha! Since I was not briefed, it is my Dada who had all the readings. It is in Filipino too so, no, I cannot. Dream of being a lector, turned down again. Maybe next time. Yup, next time please! Huehue. Then yuh, the ceremony happened but I did not like the homily. It is not that inspiring since it is just five sentences. Uhuh, that short. Remember, meeting? Tss. I find the new parish priest a little selfish but okay, this must be a good vibed-paragraph since I let the previous out already. So! The groom then kissed the bride and lived happily ever after! Yahooo!!! 💖 Had photo-ops after and yuh, kilig overload all day. 💖

The reception was at Max’s Restaurant because food and set-up are already together. We want the package because that means less stress, less gastos, more time for other things because sila na bahala. Not to mention, even the program is included. Yup, that is why we like to avail our celebrations at Max’s. Third time this is! Heehee. Thanks to the team because they were able to make payag the love birds to have a little show. Killjoy at first eh. Gutom na ata kasi. LOL, kidd. Of course, we had lunch together. We then witnessed the slicing of the cake, first dance of the couple, and ringing of the glasses to kiss. It was a short program with video greetings and special performance from the youngest Mones clan member, Lara. Yet you know, it is so much fun! For everyone. All enjoyed and there are so much heart heart vibes during that day. Especially with the people I was with. Hihihihihi. Best wishes to the newlyweds! 💖

First and most of all, I want to thank God. For giving me such good parents and wonderful people (or rather family) who joined the event. It has been a success so thanky, G! Thank you for everything. Hihihi. I want to express my gratitude to the people who made time to celebrate my parents’ day even if it is a Thursday. Some might have filed a leave just for this eh. The Pangasinan peeps went here in Manila for this. Hello to my Tita Dolly for letting me borrow her camera too. Also to my bebe loves, Angeli for covering the wedding. Plus Kuya and Ate Mel’s for being a sponsor in photography. Lola Mel, again, of course! And everyone. As in every single person who shared the moment because I know this day was a gold treasure for our Mama and Papa. That is something no one can ever take away from them so thaaaaanks! Oh how surprisingly nice life is, huh? Kelan kaya ako? Ay si ate pala? Hahahahaha! 💖

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chescaneo · 8 years ago

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BLOG POST: “When A Dream Finally Came Into A Reality”

Life is full of uncertainties. We will never know what’ll happen in the future and that is why the saying “Expect the unexpected” was known by many. We never know if dreams will be just dreams. We never know if our dreams will come true someday… But one thing is for sure, God is there. He will make it all possible. He’s with us, always… He always listens to our prayers. Even if we don’t say it through prayers, He knows what our hearts desire, deep inside us He knows what we needed, wanted and longed for. He knows what’s best for us, even if it means we’ll be broken along the way.

Dreaming is easy but making it come true is hard. Challenges are along the way, testing you if you could make it ‘til the end and it’s your choice if you’ll give up or continue your journey. Thing is, if you wanted something, work for it. If you got tired, take a rest.. But never stop, NEVER give up. Just like what I did.. I never gave up and did my best to make it happen.

So yep, here’s my Coldplay story:

At a young age, all I dreamt was to have a complete family. But while I was getting older, I found it impossible. I got broken, of course. I was sad, hopeless, and felt really empty. Who wouldn’t? Family is everything and knowing that mine was broken made me feel broken inside, too. I lost myself.. I was so broken that all I thought was, “Don’t I deserve to be happy?”

I start questioning God and whenever I remembered that moment, I felt really bad. Because who am I to question Him? Who am I to question His ways, His plans? When all He did was to give what’s best for me?

Time passed and the pain inside me grew even more. Every night I was crying, wishing and wondering when will this pain end. I sought God and asked for help. I wished for something to ease the pain. That’s when I met Coldplay.

“The Scientist” was the first song I discovered. That time, I felt that it really was for me because of its lyrics. “I’m going back to the start” was the line that made my heart fell in love with their music. Then I found myself listening to that song on repeat. I then started listening to their other songs and “Fix You” was the song that made me really cry hard. It was like Coldplay was telling me through that song that everything’s gonna be fine.. That they’ll fix me pieces by pieces. That was when the time that I promised myself that I’ll watch them live, I will hear their songs live and thank them for inspiring me through their songs.

2016 when Coldplay started touring for their new album “A Head Full of Dreams”. August 2016 when I heard that there will be a livestream of their concert in Rosebowl, L.A. on Youtube by Globe Telecom. While watching it, I cried and promised myself that one day, I’ll watch them live.

April 4, 2016 when Manila badly wants Coldplay. Filipino fans, including me of course, were hoping that Manila, Philippines will be included in their tour.

November 2016 was when I got the news that Coldplay will be having a concert here in the Philippines on April 4th, 2017! Unfortunately, tickets were too pricey and the bronze and gen ad section were the only sections that I can afford since I’m only a student. The worse part? The concert will be held in the SM Mall of Asia Concert Grounds, which only means that it will be hard for me to see them properly since the venue was not elevated.

As a super fan, I was so excited to buy their concert ticket. But here comes the worst part.. There was an announcement that Globe users can reserve tickets during the pre-sale. So when that day came, I immediately sent a text message to reserve two gen ad tickets. Then, I received a text message informing that gen ad tickets were sold out already and I was like “What? Wala pang 5 minutes, sold out agad? Seryoso?!” Then I saw that “#ColdplayManila” was trending on twitter and found out that I wasn’t the only one who got that text message. There were also a lot of disappointed fans tweeting their complaints. But some still scored tickets despite what happened, lucky aren’t they? I had no choice but to WAIT for the public selling and I was REALLY REALLY hoping this time, I’ll score tickets. November 24 came, the day every Filipino Coldplay fan like me have been waiting for, our last chance to score tickets and finally make our dreams come true — in short, the public selling of tickets. HUHUHU. (Yaw q na, magtatagalog na ako. Super nose bleed. I ran out of English na HAHAHA) So yon nga, nagkataon na we have a school project na gagawa kami ng news ganon. Kunwari we’re news reporters and news anchors. Intramurals that time and na-assign ako as sports reporter so ico-cover ko ‘yong intramurals. Sa sobrang focused sa project, I forgot na 10:00 AM nga pala ang open ng SM and I have to go there early as possible if gusto ko agad makabili. But grabe, I didn’t know na madami rin pala fan ng Coldplay dito sa hometown ko. Kaya right after matapos ko ‘yong sa project namin, I think that was 10:45 AM dumiretso agad ako sa mall. Thankfully, malapit lang ‘yong university na pinapasukan ko sa mall. I ran fast as I could simula ground floor up to the third. Then boom, ang haba ng pila! HUHU. Nawawalan na ako ng pag-asa non but I still managed to think positive pa rin. ‘Yong nakabili na girl, nagtatalon pa while saying “Yes, nakabili na tayo!” That time, I really wish that it was me who’s jumping out of joy! Nakapila ako for almost 3 hours then suddenly, sabi nong staff ng SM tickets, “Silver, bronze, gen ad, sold out na po!” To tell you the truth, hindi sa pagiging OA, napatulala na lang ako that time. I can’t think straight. Umalis ako sa pila at habang pababa ako ng escalator I’m fighting the tears in my eye. “No, don’t cry. Don’t cry” was all I can say to myself that time habang paalis ako ng mall. I was alone pa non kaya super pinipigilan ko umiyak. Ayaw ko pagtinginan lalo na’t wala akong kasama. I was thinking “Is this the end? Hindi ko na ba sila mapapanuod live?” Funny part? Nong nakasakay ako sa jeep, may katapat akong girl. She’s wearing shades and namumula mukha niya. Sumisinghot siya, akala ko may sipon lang but nakita ko medyo tinanggal niya 'yong shades and pinunasan niya 'yong mata niya. I realized na she was crying pala and I wanted to cry, too. Inisip ko, umiiyak kaya siya kasi naubusan din siya ng ticket? Dahil nga hindi pa tapos 'yong sa project namin, kailangan ko ulit makipagkita sa groupmates ko. Kahit nanghihina ako, pinili ko pa rin makipagkita. Nasa iisa kaming group ng best friend ko kaya nong makita ko siya and when she asked me if nakabili ba ako ng ticket, umiyak lang ako sa kaniya. I can’t speak. Sobrang broken hearted ko that time na parang gusto ko na lang umiyak all day. My group mates were telling me na 'wag mawalan ng pag-asa kasi who knows? December came and I tried my best na kumpletuhin ang “Simbang Gabi.” Sabi kasi ng mga matatanda if nakumpleto mo daw 'yon, matutupad ang wish mo sa 9th mass, meaning sa Christmas. Minsan inaatake ako ng katamaran, minsan ang lakas ng ulan, gabing-gabi na, and to tell you, mag-isa lang akong sumimba. 3 days lang 'yong sumimba ako na may kasama. That time parang may nagsasabi sa'kin na “Ano, kaya mo pa ba?” Sabi ko sa sarili ko, nagtipid na ako para makaipon pambili ng ticket, pumila ako, nasimulan ko na ang simbang gabi, ngayon pa ba ako susuko? This is for my dream and I know God knows how much I wanted it to happen. Fortunately, nagawa kong makumpleto ang siyam na gabi na 'yon at sinabi ang hiling ko. Yep, hiniling ko na mapanuod ko live ang Coldplay. This was the first time na ang winish ko ay parang hindi worthy. I mean hindi health, peace and more blessings. But this is my dream.. after all the struggles I’ve been through, don’t I deserve the best? May nakilala akong seller and she’s selling gen ad tickets for Php 3,500. Sakto lang sa pera ko since ang balak ko nga bilhin ay alin man sa Bronze (Php 3,500) or Gen ad which is Php 1,800. Pinatulan ko na. Doble ng original price but wala na ako pakialam, desperada na ako e HAHAHA. Super nag-thank you ako kay Lord non kasi He granted my wish. Pero hindi pa dyan nagtatapos ang lahat. Hindi porket may ticket na ako ay makakapanuod na ako talaga. There were guidelines posted regarding the concert, ang problem is minors are not allowed to enter unless may kasama silang ticket-bearing guardian. 17 na ako, isang taon na lang e! Super na-stress ako on that part kasi solo ako manunuod. Sinong guardian ko? HUHUHU. I travelled from Lucena to Manila ALONE. Wala e, solo nga di ba ako. Super kabado na ako while I was on my way to MOA. I was thinking, papasukin kaya ako? Wala akong guardian, wala akong kasama. 'Yong supposedly kasi na kasama ko na mag-aact as guardian ko hindi ko na macontact kaya SUPER KABADO na talaga ako. Baka masayang ticket ko HUHU. Luckily, during the concert I met two Ate’s na super bait and maalaga. They’re sisters and feeling ko kapatid rin nila ako. Binigyan nila ako ng snacks and water habang naghihintay sa pila. Hindi nila ako pinabayaan mapahiwalay sa kanila nong nakapila kasi kagulo na non e. And I was really thankful that time kasi I asked God na sana may makasama ako sa concert and He listened. *tears of joy* May Kuya rin akong nakasama which is friend nila kaya ayon tatlo na 'yong nag aalaga sa'kin since minor nga ako. Tapos after the concert, sinigurado nila na safe ako makakauwi. But eto ang nakakainis, HINDI NAMAN PALA TINITINGNAN SA ENTRANCE KUNG MINOR O HINDI E. Or mukha lang talaga akong 18 years old na HAHAHAHA! So during the concert, umiyak ako. Because after all the struggles, sabi ko sa sarili ko, “Nandito na ako, pinapanuod at pinapakinggan na sila LIVE.” Sa wakas, napakinggan ko na ng live 'yong mga favorite songs ko. I cried my heart out, I sang along, nakitalon at nakisayaw and I lived the moment. Until now, it felt surreal. I never knew that day will come but then naniwala ako e, hindi ako nawalan ng pag-asa. I stayed positive and look where it got me. “I tried my best and I succeeded.” In life, no matter how tough the challenges are, you have to be strong and ang kailangan lang ay HOPE. Kahit minsan we’re getting hopeless, don’t think na wala nang pag-asa kasi palaging may paraan. Challenges make life interesting. They are made to make us strong. They are not an excuse to quit following your dreams. So NEVER give up on your dreams.

#dreams #coldplaymanila #coldplayphilippines #mycoldplaystory #blog

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rarestnicole · 7 years ago

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Title, um, uhh... shizzumz in my mind at 3 AM to 4 AM?

I want an architect for a husband, I thought, after reading some chapters from one of my favorite stories from Costa Leona Series.

I know for sure that after re-reading another story from the same series with a protagonist who's a civil engineer, I'll fantasize about having one for a husband. LOL.

Noon, I don't have specifics kapag dating sa title or job or occupation ng future husband ko. All I ever think is dapat magaling siya sa Mathematics since that's my ultimate waterloo. Ugh.

Why do I want a Mathematician for a husband?

HAHAHA.

I'm completely stupid when it comes to Mathematics. Damn x and freaking ys and many more. I even got a grade of 75 sa Math in my NCAE results and they put it there that I should choose STEM. First choice. Eh? They must've done something wrong. Tss.

Here's exactly why... I don't want my child to suffer the way I did whenever I come across Math. I don't want him or her to stare at an empty paper thinking how it sucks to be such a moron in Math while most of the people in the class are scribbling down at their spare sheets and trying to find what the hell is x. I don't want him or her to go through the same thing I went through. It sucks to try and solve a Math problem only to realize that none of the stuffs our teacher taught us remained in my head. I even forgot the solution, I couldn't get it right. How hopeless. How do I get by? I patiently write down all the steps in solving those problems and open my notes when it's activity time. Sometimes, our teacher would let us open our notes but there are these times when it's "strictly close notes" time and I'm damned. Thank God for a best friend who's good in Math. It just sucks to be me kasi nahihiya akong magtanong nang magtanong kasi ang hirap na nga tapos iistorbohin ko pa siya. So I'd wait for her to take a look at me. I don't make a sound, I don't complain and I don't really ask unless there's only 5 minutes left before passing the papers. Ayaw kong pagdaanan ng future children ko 'yon 'no! Sus, kung ganun lang naman, magma-madre na lang ako. Hah! Nasa NCAE results ko kaya na pwedeng pwede akong mag-madre.

So silly. How can one girl think of such things even when she's only in Junior High School. It was just so hard that it pushed me to that state. Dati, naaalala ko pa, kapag activity na sa Math tapos hindi ako nakinig kay Sir Allan, kahit crush ko pa si Sir simula grade 7, hindi ko nagawang makinig, hindi ako nagpapasa ng papel. What am I going to pass? A piece of an intermediate paper with no problem-solution written on it but with my complete name? No, mi amigo. That's embarrassing and that's a waste of time. Mamomroblema pa si Sir, he'll doubt his capacity pa when it comes to teaching Math when it's entirely my fault for being such a lazy bum. Sorry, Sir, I did it on purpose. And besides, ang hirap makinig kapag nasa likod ka. Sucks to have a surname that starts with letter 'S', eh tuwing recitation ko lang napapakinabangan ang pagiging huli eh. Tss. Ang daming kakausap sa akin sa likod and I don't want to be rude. No, I absolutely don't. Kapag kinausap ako, kakausapin ko rin because I don't like the feeling of being ignored kaya anong katinuan ang meron ako kung gagawin ko sa iba ang ayaw kong maranasan, aber? Kaya, go chika now, pass an empty paper later. HAHAHA.

I can't remember when exactly did I start asking myself and the people I'm close with about who am I going to end up with at the end of my life of being single. As in araw-araw ever since I started, tuluy-tuloy ang pagtanong ko, most of the time out of nowhere pa, kung sino ang makakatuluyan ko. Sabi ko pa noon ayaw ko ng taga-Romblon kasi baka kilala ko lang pala, eh wala naman akong kilalang matino noon na taga-sa'min lang that I even thought about how I'm about to become an old maid. Geez. That's rule number 1 back when I was 16 but try, try, try to follow the rules, I'll break every one of them with boys like you. Char. HAHAHA. Meghan Trainor lang? HAHA. HINDI AH. EH KANINO PA BA NAMAN AKO MAGKAKAGUSTO EH NASA ROMBLON LANG AKO AT PURO TAGA-DOON LANG NAMAN NAKAKASALAMUHA KO. LECHE THAT RULE NUMBER 1. I threw that to the depths of Tartarus na and asked Tartarus himself to look after that rule since I can't ask the goddess of night, Nyx, to do that since ang mga anak niya ay mas nangangailangan ng pagbantay--unless she agrees with what her children want to do. Shems, ang sasama pala ng mga anak ni Nyx, paano ba naman kasi, si Tartarus ang tatay. My god, gurl! Nag-try ka man lang sana kay Ouranus or kay Chronos or sa ibang Titan man lang muna bago kay Tartarus. O baka naman dahil madilim sa Tartarus, doon lang siya nag-stay at sino nga ba naman ang makakasalamuha niya doon kundi ang embodiment lang naman ng kinalulugaran niya. Pwe. Hindi man lang siya nag-effort lumabas at mag-explore. Helloooooo! And daming matitinong--mas matitino pa kay Tartarus ha, na primordial powerful beings 'no (huwag lang si Chaos, oh please, no, no, no huhuhu). Girl, kulang ka sa adventure. Dora should've existed before Nyx did eh para nasama siya sa kanya kahit papaano. Hays. Talk about timings and other shizzumz.

Oh well. I can't believe that I've been typing these paragraphs for more than 30 minutes now and I started at 3 AM, kasi naman ang thoughts ko na mga ganito, alas tres na rumaragasa sa makulay kong utak. (which colors are painted on my mind kaya?) Amazeballs. I was just reading Blown By The Wind until all of these stuffs demand for a story to be published. Tsk, tsk. I'm getting worse and worse each day. Char.

ANO BA, BA'T BA 'KO NAPUNTA SA KUNG SAAN SAAN EH ANG GUSTO KO LANG NAMAN EH MAG-ASAWA NG ARCHITECT. TSS.

Pero dati talaga, tinatanong ko araw-araw kung sino ang makakatuluyan ko. Ang dami kong iniisip eh; Charlie Puth, Calum Hood, Bradley Simpson, Theo James, Chris Evans, Jamie Dornan, Park Chanyeol, Lee Jongsuk, Ji Chang Wook, Song Joongki, Christian Grey, Logan Griffin Torrealba, Brandon Rockwell, Hector del Merced, Rozen Elizalde, Sibal Riego, Vincent Hidalgo, Zamiel Mercadejas, Raould Riego, Crisostomo Ibarra delos Santos, Reeve Leonardo Monteverde, Ramses Avilla, Archelaus Valleroso, Lourd Marco Aceveda, Zeo Alcante, Levi Alarcon and so, so, so, so many more from singers to actors to fictional characters, kaso hanggang isip ko lang sila eh. Ahehe. Pero ang saya lang imagine-in na isa sa kanila ang makakatuluyan ko. Kahit si Sibal na lang o si Bari, o. HAHA. Ang iba sa kanila like PCY, CP at CH, hiningi ko talaga kay Lord. Hinihingi ko kay Lord kasi malay naman natin 'di ba, hinihintay lang pala talaga ni Lord na hingin ko dahil nakalaan naman talaga sa akin ang isa sa kanila. Hahahaha. And when I started praying for a real guy, a specific real guy, I had this feeling of damnation. HAHAHA. Like, "Ano na Salvador, akala ko ba ayaw mo sa mga ka-corny-han, bakit nangangarap ka na for reeeeal, gurl why?" HAHA. So I promised na I won't ever pray hard for another real guy. Damn, that sucks kapag hindi na-grant. Huhu. Lord, baka naman po. 😂 Baka naman hindi ko na kailangan mag-pray ulit for another man. HAHAHAHAHA. Ano ba 'to.

Dati, may nabasa akong rules sa Lana's List to determine kung reachable ba o unreachable ang guy na gusto mo. Kapag reachable, GO GURL! at kapag hindi, NO GURL!

Ganun lang ka-simple.

Ganun lang DAPAT ka-simple eh, but humans are naturally greedy, ika nga ng nakararami. Kahit unreachable, ita-try talaga ma-reach kahit konti lang eh. Ang iba pa, they'll cause their own destruction para lang ma-reach ang talaga namang unreachable. Luuuuh, kasi naman may reachable naman sa tabi, why bother?

MAS LUUUUUUH, kasi naman hindi naman gusto 'yong reachable eh. Do you think one would bother reaching the sky kung doon naman pala sa meadows ang cloud na inaasam niyang malapitan at mahagkan? Nah. One won't even look at the sky kung nasa meadow lang naman pala. It's not how hard and how simple eh. It's for what and for whom, the reasons why and and the feelings felt eh. Wow, so nice of you to contradict your self, 'no? Hm.

I consider the person I like, unreachable and I consider my feelings for him a threat to my sanity and serenity.

Wow, 'te, parang meron ka nun 'no para ma-threaten. Fool your foolish self. Char.

Eeeeeeeh kasi naman 'di ba if one doesn't like me, I shut my freaking everything. Kidding. My mouth lang, I can't shut my mind eh. I wish I could, 'no. Haha. But I think I won't do it even if I could. Tonta.

Aaaaaaaaah, everything is freaking my precious miiiiiiiind. Aaaaaaah, I want to be freeeeeee. I want to eat all the Cream-O on the cabinet because I was really starving kanina, I want to express my feelingz freely and love with no inhibitions and fear and restraint, I want to go to the school I want without thinking about how good is it to have someone with you always like a family and how bad is it going to be for her if I'll leave her alone in her place only because I care more about her than I care about myself and I dunno if that's recklessness or selflessness. Huhuhuhu. I've been given the opportunity and I appreciate everything you do more than I say I do but I'm having second thoughts about my dreams. Huhuhuhu. What's stopping you, Anne Nicole?

My family? My love for them, exactly.

HUHUHU. IT'S SO HARD TO LIVE HA. GEEZ.

It's 5 AM and I'm just about to sleep when all of them is about to wake up after more or less 3 hours. I won't be surprised if I'll wake up alone in the room without even the dogs by my side for waking up later than I planned to. Nyenye. Where's my antok? Give it back to me na, I'm ready to drift to sleep na.

*whines because I'm still as wide awake as Katy Perry*

Bummer.

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rarestnicole · 7 years ago

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Oooh, I typed my thoughts again, huh.

Sabi ni Mommy, iwasan ko daw ang magkalagnat habang may tonsillitis because it's going to be real bad. Naaalala ko pa nung bata ako, I had a fever caused by tonsillitis and kinailangan ko pa talagang i-check ni Ate Mai because I look bad. Kapag daw umabot ang nana (?) yata sa puso, which is possible, I'll die immediately. Again, yata. That's bad. Kaya kappag may tonsillitis ako, pinapainom agad ako ng gamot. I'm just stubborn eh. I feel like I'm going to be fine without any help from antibiotics.

I guess I'm wrong. It's not working anymore. I have to drink that damned medicine because my tonsillitis is getting worse, I realized. I have this since I was 5, if my memory serves me right. Usually, iniisip ko pa kung gaano na ba kalayo ang narating niya mula sa throat ko to my heart. Is it close? Kasi kung hindi, then I'm fine.

But right now, I am definitely not fine.

It started with an itchy throat. Then I realized that I may be having a stupid tonsillitis and I don't even know why. I'm not eating too much sweets nor cool foods... unless if it was caused by bacteria. Damn, right. Tuwing nasa Manila yata ako nagkaka-tonsillitis ako ah. Gustung-gusto ko pa namang kumain ng ice cream kagabi kasi nadaanan namin ang stand ng Pinoy Sorbetes sa Market Market. :( I want the avocado flavor. So bad. But... huhuhu, I regret it, alright? That I only thought about eating an ice cream kung kailan hindi pwede.

Now I'm sick. I sound sick and look sick. LOL. I'm having that fever na. It's the drugstore's fault! I was trying to buy the antibiotics that I need to cure my tonsils but he won't give me one. Kailangan daw ng reseta. Kuya naman eh. I wanted to tell him na kararating ko lang from the province and I didn't have time to go to a clinic or a hospital for check-ups regarding my freaking health. Kuya, hindi naman ako bibili kung hindi ko kailangan eh. And lalong hindi ko bibilhin ang ganung gamot if hindi familiar sa akin. Ugh. I hate that I don't know where my health files are.

Kung nabentahan agad ako kagabi, then I won't have a fever kaninang madaling araw. I won't lie all day feeling useless and shitty because of my tonsillitis, colds, cough and fever. I heytchu. Magaling na sana ang tonsils ko and konting ubo lang sana ang meron ako now. Bactidol didn't work on me.

I want to call Mom pero baka mag-alala lang siya lalo na at dagat ang pagitan namin. Nyeh. Ang dami ko ring gagawin eh. :3 While Ate Ally's working, we should at least clean the house. Mga around 1 PM na siguro ako nakagalaw to clean the bathroom and the closet. I wasn't able to clean the kitchen pa and the dining and our bed. Allizon is being so useful while watching W:Two Worlds. She's so useful, I'd like to throw her into the screen. Kanina ko pa siya inuutusan and yet, wala. And she even wanted me to go outside and run an errand when I'm not feeling well to cook, go outside pa kaya. Brat. But I didn't back down, hell no. I'm not feeling good and we need the stuffs. She has to go or I'll nag her to death.

I want her to be responsible when it comes to house chores. Alam kong medyo bata pa siya pero hindi naman excuse 'yon para hindi matuto eh. I'm trying my best to teach her, ever since she's a child. Inunti-unti ko para naman kahit papaano, marunong siya and she won't have a hard time living somewhere else where she needs to help.

I'm not great with the house chores but I can say that I'm capable of maintaining the house's cleanliness. Noon, soooobrang tamad ko and I only work when no one's around. Why? First, I don't want to be watched while I'm cleaning because I want to have my time and I have my own strategies of cleaning. (naks, strategies mo mukha mo 😂) Second, I don't want to be dictated. Ugh, please, no. Nawawalan ako ng interes kapag tinuturuan ako. I know that's one immature trait pero I know what I'm doing. I won't be doing that if I don't know how and if I'm not confident, right? I know I still lack skills pero kasi let me be po. Hmm? Thanks.

Hindi ako palalinis dahil madalas akong nasa sarili kong mundo. Pero ganunpaman, gusto ko pa rin ng malinis na kapaligiran 'no! Kaya kahit hindi ako palalinis or hindi ako sobrang masipag, I try my best to clean my surroundings kasi maiirita ako sa kaguluhan at dumi. Thank God kasi naiirita ako sa magulo at madumi.

Maliit lang ang apartment ni Ate Lly and it's sooo easy to clean. I enjoy cleaning it kasi ang dali lang. That's what I promised ate Lly; that she won't have a problem sa pagliligpit ng gamit sa bahay and that she won't starve with me. Although I don't eat much, I know how to cook. Mom taught me. Ako kasi kakain lang kapag gutom na gutom na ako, unless I'm with my family. And since anong oras nang nagigising si Leigh at Ate Lly, hindi na kami nagbi-breakfast. Nauuna akong gumising pero ayoko namang mag-ingay kapag nagluluto, clumsy ko pa naman. So mga lagpas alas dose na kami kumakain. 😂 These past few days, sa labas kami nagdi-dinner dahil inaabot na kami ng gabi sa labas at walang laman ang fridge ni Ate Lly. Jeez, hindi yata siya kumakain. Ayaw ko sa Jollibee or McDonald's kami kumakain lalo na at bawal sa akin ang chicken because of my allergies. Ugh. Feeling ko kapag doon ako laging kakain, kawawa naman ang body ko. I dunno. I'm glad that Mom perfectly understands that. And even gladder that Ate Ally knows nice places to to dine in somewhere around HS. Thank you Lord for these people. Hehe.

Mom already went home. That's sad. Hep! Not because we won't have her around to buy us stuffs and foods, but because it feels odd for me. Yeah, certified Mommy's girl. Kaya siguro I got sick agad kasi umalis siya. Nung hinatid namin siya sa Buendia yesterday at 4 freaking AM, I'm already not feeling good, blame my tonsils. Binigyan niya 'ko ng pera para pambili ng gamot pero ayaw naman akong pagbentahan ng gamot. Nung una, wala talaga akong planong bumili. Aalis din naman agad ang pain... but it didn't, that's when I decided to really buy Erythromycin-- the antibiotics that I'm allowed to drink kasi I'm allergic din sa ibang antibiotics. Yeah, pa-special ang pagkatao ko. 'Kala naman nito... *roll eyes* I swear, sooooobrang sama ng lasa nun. I remember it clearly how I tried melting half a tablet of that medicine to a glass of milk, kasi I should drink Erythromycin before sleeping and saktong umiinom din ako ng gatas before sleeping. Hinalo ko sila in the hopes na mababawasan ang lasa ng gamot kasi nahalo na sa gatas. PERO NOOOO. Shems, sa bawat patak ng gatas, nandun ang eksaktong lasa ng gamot. Sa. Bawat. Patak. I ended up throwing the whole thing, of course with Mom's consent 'no. Pero dati pa 'yun, nung elementary pa 'ko. 😂

I hate medicines. I can go on without them naman eh. Ang iniisip ko is: 'Paano na lang kung may mas lalala pa pala sa pain na 'to tapos ito pa lang hindi ko na kinakaya, 'di ba? I won't depend on medicines much.'

Iinom lang ako ng meds kapag may importante akong pupuntahan and I can't be weak. Bumili naman ako ng gamot kagabi to ease the pain, kasi na-realize ko nga na iba na ang sakit ng tonsils ko, and may pupuntahan kami bukaaaas. We'll watch a 'good movie daw' and we'll go to Navotas. Bukas lang pwede dahil bukas ang day off ni ate Lly. I can't be siiiick. Nooooo. And we'll stop by SM north because Allizon's dying to be there again. Duh, akala mo naman safe haven mo na just because araw-araw ka dun last vacation? She's gonna relive the memories, I think. LOL. Kung ako lang, I'll go straight to Navotas nang hindi na ako kulitin ni Ashton at Gibbran kung kailan ako babalik dun. Babies, I understand that you guys missed me pero point to point tayo, ang layo. Huhu. And ate Vane prepared something na para daw sa bonding namin. Okay, we'll go. Haha. Pasalamat kayo I love kiddos and your kiddos. I'm excited.

Hindi ko na lang muna iisipin ang nahihintay rin sa'kin sa Parañaque. Huhuhu. I'm sorry, babies. Nauna lang talagang magsabi sina Ate Vane and because I have an errand to run doon with them. I feel bad kasi sa Sta. Fe pa lang, inaabangan na ni Gaven ang pagpunta ko kina ate Tim. Nandun na nga sila eh. Akala daw nila mauuna akong dumating doon. Sorry. I'll be there soon. Jusko, ang hirao maging fave ng kids sa fam. Hahahaha. Joke lang. F na f ko talaga eh. Feeling ko spoiled din ako sa kanila.

All right, I gotta go. Ang daldal ko nanaman dito. Okay lang sana if my head isn't throbbing eh. :/

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sheannshe · 7 years ago

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Dear God, Thank You for a wonderful and lesson-filled 2017! ☝️💕

Dear God, Thank You for a wonderful and lesson-filled 2017! January. You made me realize (through Steadfast Discov) that I can do anything, everything, because I am with you. Thank You for letting discover more about myself and more about you. February. Huyyyyy 😭 Wildfire Campus Tour and Asst. Logistics Head ako ng Legend of Tomorrow youth camp. This was the time na 1 week akong nasa school kahit wala akong klase because of campus tour. Tapos Friday that week ay youth camp. Hinding hindi ko makakalimutan yung stress, pagod, at puyat. Pero mas unforgettable yung moments na ma-ishare ka sa ibang tao at ma-iguide yung mga future leaders of YFCPUP. Plus cute cute ng mga babies sa Concordia. 😍 Thank You for making me strong, creative, and passionate. (Last youth camp ko sa YFCPUP HUHUHU) March. Ascend Praise Concert. Wehehehe. Praise Con made me cry drums of tears. Huhuhu. And for the last event ko sa campus nastress ako ng sobra. Pero Romans 8:18 😭. Plus Autotelic is 💕 kahit ang mahal ng fee nila. 😭😂 April. My birthday 💕 The maots surprised me. Dami kong cakeeee. 😊😍 And humabol ng birthday gift sakin si KC. She said yes before the month ended. Huhu daig ko pa lalaking sinagot ng nililigawan that time. 😍 May. Grad day. 🎓 Yeeeeezz. Plus date with maots sa Regina Rica. Huhuhu sobrang best date ever 😍 Lablab forevs. June. July. August. 3 months of being unemployed. Mas nakakastress pala ang maghanap ng trabaho kesa magthesis at feasib. I swear. Because looking for a job is a super serious thing. Sent applications to 7 companies, attended 3 job fairs, failed 4 interview, ignored 3 companies. This was the most frustating and stressful days of my life. Felt like I was in a pressure-cooker. I cried so many times and nights asking what's wrong, anong kulang, bakit hindi ako para dito. But this was also the time when I become so prayerful. And on the 8th company I got hired. Thank you Lord for making me wait 3 months. Thank you for making me pray so hard for the job that You planned for me. Thank you for reminding me that waiting is worth it. That Your plans are the best for me. Thank you for making me surrender my life to you. For making me trust you fully. Thank you so much! August 16. First day in my firsf job, at ARC Refreshments Corporation. Big company plus sobrang hassle-fre because 30 minutes away lang sa bahay. Andddd, akala ko aayawan ko talaga ang timekeeping but looks like we're meant to be. Para sa timekeeping pala talaga ako. 💕 Truly Your plan is the best, Lord. 😭💞 September. Got my first salary. And it helped fam a lot. Huhu 😍 October. Date with Keysiiiii. November. Spent Nov. 1 in Tarlac. Missed my relatives so much. Kulang isang araw. At ang cute cute ni Chloe 😍 / 3rd month in ARC. Passed my first evals hihi. Go for regularization, of course. 👍 / Napalaro ako ng volleyball kahit di marunong because ARC Sports Tournament. 😭😂 December. Yaaaaaay. 1st Christmas party in ARC. HAHA. Nabunot ako sa raffle, oh yeah oven toaster. Christmas day with Lola Tiling. And of course, ang cute ni Mirah 😍. Dec. 22 - Bought Asus phone huhuhu. Dec. 31 - Holy Family day with Fam. Thank you Lord for all of these. To You is the highest glory! ☝️💞

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